#Emotionally Draining

[witheringnostalgia]

when phoebe bridgers said “you asked to walk me home but i had to carry you” and when katie gregson-macleod said “i carry him home while my friends have a good night” and when clario said “know we could use a break because i can’t feel my feet, carried you all the way upstairs so you can sleep” and and and

[basically-queenberyl]

I’m trying to withdraw from everyone right now bc I can tell everyone is fucking annoyed by me. And that always makes me question if I’m even a good person. Like maybe what I’m doing is really bad and that’s why people are annoyed. I feel like I’m an emotionally and energetically draining person, and that’s why I have this blog in the first place.

Yes, it’s bc I’m a whiny bitch.

It’s really hard to respond to people and give just enough input, but also simultaneously barely say anything and stay neutral. Also, venting is the fastest way to get things off your chest. It’s hard to bottle it up and it’s not healthy, but a lot of times I look for immediate relief. Sometimes it feels like if you can’t have someone to turn to for venting about everything, then the people who say they care about you don’t actually care. And that’s not true. It just means I’m a negative and childish person and no one will tolerate that when all they’re trying to do is help me.

And people tell me I’m too hard on myself, but u have to be. Bc if I’m not, then I’ll keep being a burden and not get my shit together. I’m just gonna continue venting here when I need to in order to maintain speaking the bare minimum without losing my mind.

[stuffmostlyonlyrelateabletomeidk]

sighs in having globophobia because of childhood trauma

[deviouslittlecreature]

POV you're 2 seconds away from quitting your job because you're sick and tired of the overcomplicated loopholes you have to take just to follow the fucking safety rules that nobody seems to care about

[elegantdemoness]

Does anyone feel like if they just went here or did this or didn't meet this person or left in that moment when you had a gut feeling to that things in your life would be infinitely better? I wonder if there are other versions of me that chose a different life and made different decisions. I would want to meet them I think, just to see what they did differently. Would you?

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[dynamikshomecareinc1]

As adults grow older, recovering from a long bout of illness or a major operation is harder. As a caregiving provider in Orlando, FL, Dynamiks Home Care, Inc . helps seniors get back on their feet and start living their lives to the fullest.

[temeyes]

comfort

[themindofmine]

I feel sick. Sick of myself, my life and my feelings.

[thebibliosphere]

My Grammarly subscription finally ran out in December, and I'm not renewing it (see my various past rants about their introduction of AI), but I just got my final "insights" email, which tallies up how many words you've written for the past week but also since you started using it.

I almost want to frame it as a fuck you to my "I'm not doing enough" brain worms because, since September of 2019, when I reinstalled Grammarly for a pro-editing job (required by the company, as many of them now do 🙄), I've written over twelve million words.

I primarily used Grammarly for my emails.

That's 12,834,172 words of telling people they're gonna be okay. Sharing resources, doctor information, and just general words of comfort. That MCAS isn't a death sentence. That MCAS from long-covid isn't the end of their life; it's just going to be different from now on.

And here I was, feeling guilty about setting up auto-responders with links to resources because I got too burned out to do it one-to-one anymore...

...Yeah. No. I did enough.

I did enough.

[necroticghost]

not now please I'm busy rotting in bed

[nikanst]

[ryanthel0ser]

So I read Trimax...and rewatched Stampede after...

I cried so hard and for so long and so frequently that the next day my eyes and head still hurt. I think about it and just want to curl up and cry over it again. Tis peak 10/10, I am resisting the urge to read it all again. I will rewatch Tristamp and 98 another 10 more times.

[brokenfrombirth]

🎶 Where were you when everything was falling apart? 🎶

[lunawolf444]

IM NOT GONE!!! My iron levels have depleted and I need an infusion 🥺 I’ve been exhausted for weeks and wasn’t sure why so I got some labs done. I slept for over an entire day recently due to being so exhausted. I am still here 👋 just struggling to be a person at the moment 😢 I hope you all are well ❤️❤️ I’ll do my best to get back to daily posting 😘

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If you feel drained around them, they are not for you.