#DO YOU THINK “THANK YOU FOR THIS” WAS HIM REALIZING JON CARED. I THINK SO

[candyskiez]

God I'm thinking about Tim and losing my mind. He put so much effort into his job in the beginning. Because it was his one shot at finding out what happened to his brother, at actually understanding why someone would do that, at why it happened to him of all people. But also, more than that, he cared so much about his job. He checked in on his coworkers frequently. He threw the guy he didn't think deserved the promotion a birthday party. He checked in on them! He took care of them! He said "when we're all old and sick of each other", he expected to still talk to them when they old. He expected to have time to grow sick of them. He felt safe with them, he felt comfortable again. Elias hired people without strong connections to other people or people who would miss them. They mightve been his first friends in a very, very long time. He finally thought things would get better. That he'd have a life outside of his brother. And when his bonds with the archival staff crumbled, he had nothing left to fall back on. He had nothing left. All he had left was his anger. "This was always how it was going to go." He was always going to get attached to people that whatever the hell was out there wanted for themselves, to people who didn't care about him, to people who he was second priority to. He was never going to really matter. He's just the side character in a tragedy. He's the distraction. I need to eat my own hands.