#Cuz the worst I can say to you irl is

[spaciebabie]

*Points* YOU! YES YOU! Tell me about your ocs please. Any oc. The oc you can never design right, or the oc that won't stop changing, Any. Just tell me about your ocs!

GRRRRRRRARAGRGARGA

ANGIE MY BELOVED

this guy.....i have given him the most amount of trauma At The Start. he's already gone (and is still going thru shit) and b/c he's already had it tough he's gonna end up being the wisest person by the end of the story most likely (in his own way)

fuckin this guy's a tech nerd and if i knew more abt computers n junk i would be more specific but thats rlly. all i can say. he makes funny programs, he can code, he makes robots, aaalll that shit!!

fun fact: angie is a relatively new character that ive created for two! he (along w/ness) were not in the original story, but.....kat had like....NO friends and w/all the shit she was gonna go thru she really needed them lol. it also didn't make sense w/her character ta have her have no friends?? at that point in time i was revamping kat's personality cuz i realized she was too much Like Me and I didn't wanna create a self insert lol 😅

ANYWAYS- angie's got the worst of life w/in the last 2ish years, dead dad, depression caused from dead dad, struggling family b/c of the sudden loss of income (at this point in the story his family is more stable, but that's the reason he originally started working at kat's parent's cafe), anger issues caused by depression from dead dad, and on toppa all that, he's in honors classes!! man's has got it tough!!

he's also the eldest sibling in his houshold n has got 5 siblings!! (here's a wip of them i never finished. this would've been his fam 2 yrs ago)

him n the sister he's smirking at are at eachother's throats a lot lol. she's sorta similar ta ness but a lot more blunt. they shoulder the burden of being the eldest, sort of a team but not really? angie takes the brunt of the burden. eldest siblings (me) understand.

he's got ta deal w/being held ta such a high standard n he's constantly under pressure ta succeed, ta do great ta make his family proud, n now that his dad is dead he feels like he owes it ta him ta do well by him.

beyond the sad stuff he had a major caffine addiction that his mother put a stop ta. he had a habit of procrastinating and then pulling coffee fueled all nighters, except now that he cant have coffee anymore he supplements it w/soda (his mother will NOT allow energy drinks he sneaks some anyways tho. ((his mother is not happy abt him drinking sodie)))

he's a meme king and irl shitposter and a very Big Boi (6ft!) he's got a new york accent as well!

fun fact numero dos: angie is one of the several characters who i am completely unsure of their orientation. i feel like he could be the queerest person on the planet and yet also be the straightest most cis-dude ever. idk ik he likes girls thats the most ive come up w/so far.

he loves his friends so much dude!! they've helped him thru so much and he's done so much dumb shit w/them (like The Bruisehouse, of which the trio of kat, angie, n ness is named after. they're still quite famous from what they did in elementary school). honestly he just wants ta relax. you can see that reflected in his clothing choices (yk besides being a sans kinnie n liking utdr) he's one of those kids in middle school who dresses in shorts n short sleeves no matter the weather n is like, "im not cold"

him n kat met first and were bffs b4 they met ness n she was added inta the group, so they're a bit closer in that aspect!

[honksapling]

ok fine i'll say it, the hate/anti culture is just so stupid. it is propostorous how antis choose to use the time and energy that could be used to do something postive or productive towards hating someone so much. personally if i despise someones existance so much i would just try to avoid them.

it would make sense if the cc (even outside dsmp) they hated was genuinely a bad person but these are normal people. they are not big time celebs who can abuse their power, these ccs hold no more power than a regular person irl. they are just silly people playing their silly games and talking about silly little things. they are not bad humans, they just make mistakes. and when they apologise or give an explaination these antis start finding faults in them. CCs get flamed for existing. anti's spend so much time on fostering hatred, they try to make a cc look like the the worst person on the planet and insulting them at every nook and corner. YES, some people are bad and do deserved to get cancelled and it would make a little sense to profess you hate towards them to raise awareness of sorts, but these people are hating cuz they posted about their FOOD!

what is even more bizarre is that they are antis only for particular people in a community. antis hating on entire community cause they think its bad makes a little sense atleast but this pick and choose anti-ism is just so weird. you stan their friends, best friends even HOW does it make sense to hate that particular cc cause you find them annoying?

idk this whole thing is stoopid..if you someone genuinely upsets you or you hate them STAY AWAY. AVOID THEM AS MUSH POSSIBLE. LEARN TO IGNORE SOMETHINGS.

and just please dont ruin a good time for anyone who might be having it just because of your senseless hatred.

[otakween]

0-Sen Hayato - Volume 3

It feels like it took me a whole year to get through this one lol. It's boring, but not the worst thing I've ever read. Sometimes something spicy will happen (like someone dying or the romance side plot inches forward) and that's enough to keep me going.

Ch. 23

-In this chapter the gang tries to blow off some steam by goofing off and dancing (and getting drunk) but then their superior's superior comes in and chews them out. Hayato and Ishikawa get exiled (?) and sent to the jungle where they run into "a ghost." Meanwhile, the Americans plot their attack.

Ch. 24

-Hayato and Ishikawa find Ishiki in the woods wounded and bring him back to camp despite being exiled. Ishiki warns them about the encroaching enemy and then we cut to some sort of D-Day-esque scenario on the beach. The squad isn't allowed to participate in the battle because their territory is the skies, so they just watch on.

Ch. 25

-The boys continue to scramble to kill themselves for their country and for glory...this is seriously the least relatable thing I've ever read lol

-I don't really get how war works. If the air force can just attack the people on the ground, why didn't they just always do that? Lack of resources maybe? It kinda seems like an OP tactic...

Ch. 26

-This chapter was WILD. Hayato convinces the gang to kill a bunch of monitor lizards and dump their blood in the ocean. Then when the bad guys (Americans probably) attempted to storm the beach a bunch of sharks gathered and ate them all. That's wacky enough, but then they said that 10,000 soldiers were eaten!? Wtf...not possible. (I googled this and apparently there was a WWII incident where an American ship sank and 890 people were left in shark infested waters, probably the closest thing irl to this manga's ridiculousness).

-This manga has an anti-kamikaze stance, but it also shows its heroes as constantly ready and eager to die for Japan so...mixed signals.

Ch. 27

-I kinda liked this one, at least we got to meet Ishiki's sister (now a nurse). Of course everyone instantly has a crush on her because they're women-starved

-Wtf was up with the "muu" grass? It was strangely magical, like a tentacle monster? I guess since the last chapter jumped the shark (hehe) they feel like they can get away with this magical realism BS.

-Ishiki is WAY too committed to his rival bit. Someone needs to smack some common sense into him before he gets himself killed for real.

Ch. 28

-Ishiki continues to act recklessly, but I guess he's just getting away with it for now? Not sure if he just figured out how to compensate for his bad eye or if he got lucky and something bad will happen in the future...

-I think Hayato's dad just died? Hard for me to tell cuz all middle aged men look identical to me. Hayato did say "I sense a disturbance in the force" (paraphrasing). So I'm probably right. That seems like a pretty major character death for this series so I was a little taken aback!

Ch. 29

-Okay phew, I got it right. In this chapter Hayato finds out about his father's death and inherits his plane and katana. I thought the emotion of it all was handled pretty well without going into any melodrama. Since soldiers sign up knowing they might die (especially Japanese soldiers in WII) they'll probably react more stoically to that kind of news.

-We find out that it was the King Satan airplane that shot down Hayato's dad, because of course it was. Gotta give more fuel to the silly rivals plot. Ishiki acts like a douchebag again and is like "sorry about your dad, but I'm gonna make this about ME" lol. At least I can laugh at how cartoonishly shitty he is.

Ch. 30

-Hayato tries to figure out how to operate his Dad's plane which is "different from other Zero airplanes" (or whatever you call those in English). I didn't really get what he was saying about it, but I figured I probably wouldn't get it in English either so it's fine lol

-We get to see the nurse girls again which is always nice. The chubby one with braids is adorable. Of course they made each girl have a crush on their male counterpart (chubby girl likes chubby guy, skinny girl with a hooked nose likes the dude with a hooked nose, etc.) Whatever, there's so little body diversity in anime girls nowadays that seeing this lil bit of variety is refreshing.

Ch. 31

-The Bakufuutai's rival squad (the Shiuntai) get 35 new pilots but they are very inexperienced (only 150 hours of flight training). The Bakufuutai tries to be good senpai and stop them from flying recklessly, but the Shiuntai's leader is being a jerk as usual and tells them they can't tell his squad what to do. I should probably learn that guy's name lol.

-The hairy dude with big lips gets his own big lipped girl who's in love with him. Unfortunately they used this as an opportunity to make her "ugliness" a joke. Hey! If dudes are allowed to look funky girls should be allowed too >:/

Ch. 32

-This chapter was far too dialogue heavy and I barely followed what was happening. All I got was that Hayato and Ishiki were begging their leaders to not send the newbies off on a mission and then Hayato and friends end up being sent off to Manila for some reason. The nurse love interest creepily talks about being prepared to die a bunch...

[asscrackcreed]

part 2 after the author replied i wasnt sure if i should carry on but with their unapologetic attitude ofc i went through with it

STOP WITH THE KADAR AND MASTURBATING THING ITS FUCKING GROSS WHY DOES HIS BROTHER A N D MOTHER KNOW !!!!!!!’ ENOUGH

omg kadar is 16 and maliks 19 shut the fuck up EWWWWW

ok let me explain it properly this author fetishised kadars teenage hormones why do we keep coming back to kadar wanting to have sex esp if hes a minor its disgusting theyve made a point that u can explore gross things in fiction because yk its fiction and not irl and tbh idgaf because youre telling me you enjoy reading about a minors sexual life? youre telling me you enjoy reading about a brother telling his MINOR brother about HIS sex life? defend incest if u want im not here to change ur mind about incest but if u think that u can just write about minors sexually u are fucking disgusting

a lot of talk about god but none of it relates to the story or being gay so idk not interested

DES AND EZIO KISSED. WITH TONGUE. AND EZIO INSTIGATED IT?

chapter 27^ i cant do it anymore its 3am as im typing i’ll finish the rest when i wake up

kadars only personality trait is being horny tf

adha is very religiously strict and thinks altaïr is a godless pig uhm. ok… making adha rude is very uncalled for you couldve chose to use a random woman like…. a stranger but no it had to be canon altaïrs dead ex… and altaïr says ‘i dont know much about islam’ i dont understand why some fanfic authors insist on making altaïr completely atheist, i feel like altaïr wouldn’t be religious tbfh but hed still have islamic norms and values. when we can write characters in a way the original source material doesnt why cant we include cultural and religious aspects? why do ppl try so hard to remove the fundamental aspects of islamic culture. altaïr not knowing islam just drags the story more because if he did then hed understand adha and like idk hed connect with malik more and adhas anger would be justified but here she is being an ass and assuming the worst because…? she could’ve just called him an asshole idk why she dragged religion into this its reminding me of strict religious ppl who hate the new generation so far there hasn’t really been much about the good things of islam

adhas apologising now for assuming the worst. she paints smth for him? doesnt really make sense but alright

if altaïr can honor his mum with a tattoo (which is haram but anyways) he could surely honor his dad by celebrating eid or smth or just praying some time idk the paragraph im reading is about how his grandmas not religious and his dad was a practising muslim but never taught altaïr which ok he died when altaïr was 5 fine but idk the authors very intent on making sure altaïr isnt muslim but personally if he was muslim it’d be interesting because then hed struggle with his faith and himself i mean malik doesnt seem to struggle at all so idk ig everyones different

excuse me? so we can add black fetishisation to the list as well cuz wtf was that? it doesnt even add to the story its so random and unnecessary?

uhm altaïr and adha fell in love not a lot of depth to their relationship considering this mustve been over the course of days maybe even a few weeks idk just not a lot of time as it is to uh fall in love but shes engaged so theyve left it at that still not a bad plot point ig but it doesnt affect malik as of yet which undermines this plot point but lets see what happens

leo and sofias interactions are cute i like this leo malik and sofia friendship going on

im not gonna comment on any more incest its obvious this author just has a thing for it and theres so many fics that have incest and if i was to really fight that id do it for the other fics too also i wont comment on their writing as a whole anymore the main issue here is the cultural erasure and fetishisation

these do not affect the plot in any way shape or form, yes its an old 2014 fanfic but the author seems to not give a fuck that theyve written gross things. as well as poorly write islamic characters, it feels like a ‘youre either religious or your not’ and writing things like this is harmful! youre telling readers that muslims are either very harsh (like adha was) or very sweet (like maliks mum for being okay that maliks gay) but what about the catholic side of the family? theres no indication that they’re homophobia stems from religion. also ppl think its okay to just make altaïr unaware of his own heritage and faith? yes hes not muslim per say but hes syrian? his father died young but you can choose to write about the family wanting to help altaïr keep his customs alive. its white. its so white. it makes me more upset that the author will only focus on us disliking incest rather than accept that they’re wrong for cultural erasure. youve told hs that he’s syrian and white but just added that he misses his dad. and u cant defend sexualising kadar at all i wont hear anything about that because what u enjoy in fiction is also a reflection of what you enjoy irl. if you think incest is cool you will have a natural interest of it irl theres a reflection of your interests in your writing. if for example i wrote angst you would naturally expect that i like it or have a connection to it in some way, that i enjoy somehow. but i dont really like angst i could write for it but thats from my experience and thought process. someone who writes smut doesnt mean that they’re sexually active but theyve thought about it, they might’ve done some research to it. do u see what im tryna say? you are actively advancing on your interests when you right about them in fiction, you have a connection to it. if you hated smut someone would assume you hated it irl. the logic applies here too, if you dont like incest irl and it grosses you would simply not read incest in fiction because it grosses you out. if you dont like cultural erasure and sexualising minors irl then why tf would u add it to ur fic? why would u think that the boundary fiction would allow that to be okay? and the thing is micro-aggressions back in 2014 were bad and i know that but the author having had feedback and not even acknowledging it in this day and age is disgusting. ppl say they like sass verse, i have to say the plot of it is interesting but there were so many unnecessary aspects that did not contribute or feel nice to read at all. even if someone uses the excuse that they didnt know smth about islam, i as brown muslim you can not dismiss my feelings towards the way they wrote any muslim characters.

[a-romantic--aromantic]

How does one figure out if they are romo-aro and not just allo? I ask cuz I've wondered about being both ace and aro before, but romance is something I really love. Unlike a lot of aros I have always felt drawn to the idea of having a 'soul mate' connection with someone, a mutual devotion, yet I basically am not attracted sexually or romantically to anyone irl. I never date or have sex. The main focus of my attraction has been to fictional characters and more recently, system members. But I've never felt like I belonged in the aroace community because of how connected I feel to something that many in the community despise.

I think being drawn to identifying as aromantic is all you really need, and if you feel like romo aro describes how you feel about it that’s enough.

like. okay. so i have been partnering my whole life, dated a ton of people since middle school, plan on having a life partner (or 2) and probably getting married. i think i do believe in some sort of soulmates (for me, at least, but ive got a Thing with luck). romance is and always has been important to me, and so has when ive experienced romantic attraction. but my aromanticism has shaped my experiences and identity a Lot, and the way it, and the community has affected me is really important to me. its done a lot for me and being able to understand my experiences and romanticism *through* my aromanticism has undoubtedly impacted me in unimaginable and life-changing ways. being able to be aro, and accept that i like romance and that the way i experience my attraction is different has helped me understand both myself and the world around me.

ultimately, you can be aro, or you can be allo. and youre allowed to call yourself aro and later on find out that it didnt exactly fit. it sounds like you dont experience attraction, and thats really all it takes. but if not or if that changes, theres no harm in trying it out or learning about the community. the worst that can come from it is that you’ll learn something about yourself and understand yourself better. being part of the community will challenge your expectations and change your understanding of how the world views non-romantic, single, or otherwise independent people. a lot of allo people come out of questioning it feeling a lot more comfortable with being single.

if youre drawn towards it i say go for it. and liking romance and romantic concepts, or even romantic relationships, isn’t necessarily contradictory to what it means to be aromantic. its all about you. your feelings and attraction and experiences. its all up to you and i cant tell you the answer to who you are. but i think you should definitely play with it to find out. who you are today doesnt have to be who you are tomorrow.

[yanderecrazysie]

Okay this would be scary but what would you think would happen if a yandere fell out of love with their obsession while said obsession is in their hands? Obviously it wouldn't be safe for them to just let them go cuz they'll squeal but they don't want them around anymore either.

THAT WOULD BE MY WORST NIGHTMARE- Like that'd be worse than actually being an obsession

Literally I have thought about that and it makes me shiver like if this was irl and the person was really unstable, that could easily happen because it's not really "love" in the first place, just infatuation. And that can fade.

It would depend on the yandere, but I think most would still have a soft spot for you, even if they don't love you, and wouldn't want to hurt you. Some wouldn't want to hurt anyone in the first place.

Those yanderes would either find a way to return you with all your memories gone or maybe just let you live in peace alongside them. That's difficult to say, but probably the former.

But there are a lot of yanderes that would simply want to get rid of the evidence. And you'd be reduced to evidence in their heartless eyes. Which means you would probably die at their hands...

AHHH THAT WOULD BE SO SCARY MAN

[dwritesstuff]

Car lunch chronicles 711 or something.

First off, I keep seeing people say Angus is signed for Season 3 of Euphoria but how do you discover this info. I still at some point during the day think it’s just a few more days until Sam ruins my mood until Christmas. I’m ready but I’m not. Expect the worst and you won’t be disappointed or whatever MJ said.

Second, I truly hope we get to see what’s in this note that he took the time to make embellishments on for those flowers.

Thirdly, can we talk about the fact that it’s was Maude suggestion for Fez and Lexi to interact and the parallel between them irl singing karaoke to Let it go and Fez and Lexi singing Stand by Me. Cuz that is cute as shit. And yes, I know they are both allegedly seeing other people. I just think it’s cute. As shit.

Finally, I know it probably will not happen but I wish that Angus and Maude could be together to live tweet the last two episodes. I find it comforting.

[thrill-seeker-vn]

i literally had the WORST dream last night yall... i gotta tell someone to get the embarrasment off my chest but okay OH AND ALSO TW FOR DEATH AND MURDER

so like i could NOT for the life of me get to sleep, but then i finally felt like i was, i closed my eyes and not even two seconds later i felt like i was seeing this bright shining light in my eyes. and so i opened my eyes a little and realized I was looking at a sky, and I was also like being given a piggy back ride or something??? and then i realized im in a dream (i usually lucid dream) and so i was like okay fine ill just go along with it. but then the person giving me the piggy back ride SPEAKS and he's like 'you're finally awake, huh?

and the voice sounded familiar and i was begging that it wasnt him but i looked over and nope it WAS it was my crush from like three years ago BRO I HATE THAT GUY

so i said something like 'not this shit' and oh god he had the personality of a romance novel guy so he smirked and said 'what, you're not excited to see me?' and so i knew i had to wake up RIGHT NOW but it wasnt WORKING LIKE IT USUALLY DOES

and so he said something like 'woah, are you constipated? ill let you off my back, dont get my clothes dirty' so i realized he could see the expressions it was taking me to wake up???? so i said uh yeah i need to be let down RN im having terrible indegistion so he let me down and then i started SPRINTING but it wasnt very easy bc apparently i had been thrown in the worst dream ever and i was wearing this big fluffy dress, a corset, and heels??? anyways i was running to look for a cliff cuz y'know how in dreams when you die you wake up? but i couldn't outrun him bc in real life he's a very excellent athlete (never ever like athletes not a good idea) and so he catches me like right away so im like BRO LET ME GO I NEED TO LEAVE and then he awares me the ONLY way we can leave is if i join him, and so i had to weigh my opinions: either go along with the most embarrasing dream ever, or get mauled by a bear or bit by a mosquito or something. I mean we were also in this gigantic forest so i was like fine. if you dont get me home soon tho im gonna kill us both.

and so we walk for days. i ask him questions which he answers but i dont remember any of the answers, i was in so much distress. anyways it feels like days have passed and he's STILL acting like a cringe guy from a romance novel so i am trying to stay as far away from him as possible.

and so again im sick and tired and i just wanna WAKE UP bc even when im sleeping in the dream IM NOT WAKING UP IRL so eventually i SNAP and i scream at him WHEN ARE YOU GETTING ME HOME WTF

and so eventualy he was like 'okay well i was taking you the long way but there's also a short way.' and so when i ask him he says that the short way is KISSING HIM WHAT????

and he KEPT PESTERING ME FOR DAYS LIKE I WENT TO THIS TEMPLE SO I COULD SAY I WANTED TO BE HOLY CELIBATE FOREVER AND HE STILL PESTERED ME I WAS TRYING SO HARD TO WAKE UP IT WAS A NIGHTMARE I HATE THIS GUY!!!

anyways then he tells me its my DESTINY???? HUH??? and so i tell him no and then he like tells me it'll also save the KiNGDOM?? and i got this scene of the king fucking POISONED???? and that it would help the poor little peasants who were suffering???? to appeal to my moral judements??? and so i ignored him for a couple days and one day i was leaving for the medieval market and he was like 'cmon just one lil smooch' and i was like OKAY FINE ILL KISS YOU WHEN I COME BACK and i went to the store

when i came back i told him lets get this over with and as he leaned close and closed his eyes i pulled out the weapon i got from the store and killed him and i THOUGHT IT WOULD WAKE ME UP

but it didnt happen and i was just surrounded by this huge crowd of people and like kids were crying parents were covering their eyes everyone was horrified and then i looked down and i saw my old crush's skin MELTING OFF until he turned into this way hotter guy??? and basically i got arrested and then some monks came and they explained that basically i had just. killed the person they considered a deity??? and then i realized in the temple i had seen him painted and there was a mural of him in the store so i was like.... oh....

anyways i got imprisoned as a religious criminal and then his freaking older brother showed up and he was WAY hotter than his younger brother and i couldnt even get through the explanation until he decided as punishment he would send me to hell to do different tasks

anyways after a couple months i finally convince him that his brother had set me up and i didnt know and yeah eventually he finds out the 'destiny' his younger brother was talking ab was like if he did get to kiss me he would be able to go into my world and take over my body???? anyways he was gonna apologise to me so he organized this nice thing but the idiot left me alone in whatever hell he owned but the problem was he didn't. kill me to take me to hell. so the lore here is the demons in this world eat mortals so i, the completely alive person, when he left me for five minutes, was torn to shreds. yeah. it was the worst dream EVER BRO

[blueslight]

Sigh . So one of my friends is incredibly clingy and physical with me right. And if you remember, a few months back we dated for a little bit and I broke up with her BECAUSE she was so unbearably clingy. But like. Shes still fuckin doing it !!! And at this point ive expressed SEVERAL times the stuff i donr want her doing and my general annoyance and uncomfortableness (however you say it) with the way she treats me AND SHE JUST WONT FUCKING STOP !!! And like today i was thinking like if she was a guy and i was a girl thatd be majorly fuckrd up right??? But cause im a guy and shes a girl, instead i feel like a dismissve asshole when her CONSTANT attention/toucbing/noises et fucking cetera makes me shut down and be rude or even just tell her to stop. And like. Idk man i just need to fucking talk abt it w someone like bro im at the end of.my fucking wits like its at a point where i literally GROWL at her when she touches me sometimes AND IT JUST DOESNT SEEM.TO CLICK FOR HER . And likr.goddddd idk man i really like her apart from this stuff but i just cannot fucking stand it anymore how can someone tell you to stop and signalize that he doesnt want you to do what youre doing and literally GROWL at you which like people who know me will know that only rly happens if im like genuinely overstimulated and not abke to mask at ALL yk and like how can you see all that AND STILL NOT FUCKING STOP !!!!!!!! And atp shes one of my only irls im still close to , the other one being my other best friend so like i cant even talk to anyone about it cuz obviously im not gonna talk about her behind her back witb out mutual close friend but like GODDDDDD im at my fucking worst every single break in school cause the minute she starts touching me or pulling her other bs my mood drops to the fuckijg floor and i have zero patience for anything and i bet everyone else thinks im such a fucking dick BUT LIKE I JUST HONEST TO.GOD CANNOT FUCKING HANDLE THIS SHIT ANYMORE mannnn

[peachykittea]

Hello lovelies! So, you don’t have to read below the line. I’m not expecting people to. I’m just in one of those late night moods ya know and I need to get a little off my chest so. Little huge vent time. Tw: loneliness? Some Swearing.

*deep breath*

I’m so touch starved rn 😅 which is funny and like aw ok until I’m like actually kinda depressed over it. I’m so fcking lonely irl.

My friends are…I love them so much. But I have a big friend group. And…I didn’t choose them? I kinda got dragged in freshman year by a mutual friend which was fine bc I was very shy and wasn’t doing all that great on my own, and said mutual friend was my bff for a long time. More on them later. (For this purpose, I’m gonna call them B). And like I said I love my friends now. But I’m not a big group kinda person. It stressed me out over the year. I tried to spread myself so thin, spending a little time with everyone, getting along with everyone even if not everyone in the general group got along anyways. And because if that, I feel like I got close to no one. I’m just above acquaintance status with everyone. I’m the friend that walks behind or in the grass by the sidewalks. If I don’t organize the event, I’m forgotten. This is partially my fault, I’m fully aware. But god I regret how I did my freshman year. I have a big group of friends. And I’m so fcking lonely. I have no one who is MY person, ya know? No one to make pillow forts with, no one to cry to. I’m sure I could with any of them and I know many of them do love me too, but I’m still a secondary thought. They wouldn’t come to me if they saw me down. Not like I always always go to them no matter how shitty I personally feel. A sentiment that is making me a little bitter and part of why I’m so ready to step away. They aren’t toxic friends, but they promote toxic behaviors for me and my emotions without realizing. They aren’t healthy for me. A big friend group like that… it’s too much for me and no where near enough return.

Now, I did mention B earlier. My best and closest friend of ages?? What about them?? It’s taken me 2 years to realize it, and even then I’m still struggling with accepting it, but that friendship was hella toxic. God I was in such denial fck now I’m crying lmao but they don’t mean it!!! Which is the worst part!!! They’re is nothing they can do. They have a lotttt of mental health issues going on and I have poured every ounce of my energy into helping them and it was never enough. It’s not my fault, I know, and I not theirs either. They need help beyond anyone. A mental hospital maybe (I mean this in the best way. Not like I want to get rid of them but as in they need extreme help). And once I realized how taxing this was, I stepped back. B was making a ton of friends, doing much better than I was in that department, so Ik they’d be safe. But I just…I couldn’t do it anymore? And I get absolutely awful about it, but…I did start to feel better. I physically had more energy. I was in a much better mental place. I was doing really well, for the first time in years. Which absolutely sucked for my guilt. And worse, B felt me pulling away. They begged me to stay, to always be there for them. And like a wimp, I promised. I know I can’t keep that promise. But I did. And I will always love them. So much. That part of the promise I really meant. B says all I need to do is be there for them, not even say anything. Just hugs. But hugs aren’t enough to sustain a friendship.

We used to talk about everything. We were two peas in a pod in middle school, B and I. We had the same interests, the same social awkwardness, music and food taste, and love of cuddles. It was perfect. And then we grew older. We changed slowly. Now, we couldn’t be more different. I cant sustain this friendship solely on hugs because I don’t know what to say anymore. We are just. Idk I could hug B for hours and in the end I’d still feel lonely cuz that’s not really human connection anymore? We are ready to grow apart as friends. Except emotionally they’re not. Not to mention thier family. I’m their second child. God it sucks but sometimes they treat me better than their own kid (prob cuz it’s not their place to discipline me. They are just giving me the loving parent stuff they know my own mother doesn’t give). How can I just say goodbye? I plan to still keep in touch, but it’s never going to be the same.

Not to mention my real mom despises all my friends. Because they’re gay. She’s empathic, which has been a source to a lot of trauma for me -_- which is why it’s hard to come to terms with the fact I’m also probably empathic (Which explains a lot of how I feel above). She forced me out of the closet one day, and I admitted it, and…things have never been the same. She says I’m not gay, I’m just absorbing other peoples energy and taking it on, so I think I am gay (an actual empathic thing, don’t feel like going into it but yeah). It’s probably gaslighting but I think she believes it. And sometimes I wonder if she’s right. I don’t think she is? I mean, no one in my constant vicinity is aromantic, especially when I realized I was. So that at least is all me. But because of this, my mom has never met my friends. I go to painstaking lengths and stress to keep them apart. Oh she knows about them. She can feel the gay in my energy or something and she knows about them apparently. She also questions me every time I watch gay media even if she doesn’t know. Cuz apparently h can absorb energy from tv and music too. Makes it kinda scary to watch the owl house lol.

And ofc it’s summer so I haven’t seen any friends anyways in ages. Girls at my dance don’t really care about me. So the loneliness is kicking in full gear. So next year, I’m going to try to make new friends. Im going to try to make the friends. Despite it being the middle of highschool. People who I can laugh to or cry to and am not constantly stressing over trying to make conversation or keep the friendship stable or keep the friend stable. Maybe straighter friends so I can bring them home safely…People I can have a movie kind of friendship with. I realize that may be unrealistic. But it’s summer, and I’m lonely and touch starved and low key surviving on the longing for this dream. And I can do this with my moots of, but it’s not the same. I’m a very touchy person, and we can pretend all we want, but most of us live 1000s miles away…

Shout out to Amphibia of all fcking shows 😅😭. God I love that little frog show. It kept me going through this past year and it’s given me some great advice and I’m going to need it this autumn. The theme is about change and growing for those who don’t know, and the general theme and ending of it is how my life is going, and will go if I have any day in the fall. It…it helped me come to terms with the toxicity with B too.

God this was so long. If you are here, reading this now…wow. I love you so much. Honey wtf are you doing here. 😅💖💖💖 thanks for listening. Im fine. Im really fine.

[brightlotusmoon]

wanna know the worst part about the recent bomb terrorist anti? i looked more into that. their name was zer0 iirc (can't remember their pronouns atm) and they literally lied about being a minor. all so they could claim it was predatory for adults who were upset with them for threatening atsu to report them for their behavior. then their spouse defended them...who was noticeably much much older than zer0 was claiming to be. and after more people began questioning the spouse because of the potential underlying actual pedophilia situation people thought was going on there at first. it turned out that zer0 started claiming they were 15 and then 16 within the same span of the month this discourse took place. after originally claiming to be 14. (cuz for some reason they thought saying they were 15 and 16 made their spouse in their thirties dating them look better??) and then it turned out finally that zer0 was also thirty and had three kids irl. and as far as i can tell they have not addressed the weird age faking they did nor apologized for it. and they also won't apologize for the bomb threat. i think theassholeantiarchive-2 is where i found out about some of that. it was fucking wild to read and makes me wonder now how many other antis that claim to be minors are lying. and only lying about that so they can keep claiming its child abuse for adults online to block/report them for harassing others. it's mind boggling to me the kinda behavior that antis will tell people is okay to do so they can avoid responsibility when they go too far. idk if you knew this or not but i thought you might be interested to have this extra context about the situation with the anti threatening to bomb a proshipper.

I... Wh- th- bu-

Wh-

WHAT THE FUCK.

I need to lie down.

...

I've been writing since the 1990s. Do you know what happened when we started putting fanfiction online? We were so busy hiding from Anne Rice and George RR Martin that there was barely much time for infighting especially bullying. Then again, Geocities webrings and LiveJournal fic communities were highly monitored and curated. And, okay, the internet was a baby. So, uh, I guess I have no reference? I didn't get on the internet until I was nearly 18. In the late 90s. A very different temporal critter.

This is. This is. I don't. Are we living in a horror anthology? Oh fuck, this is the Twilight Zone. But worse. Worse than Black Mirror.

This is fucking terrifying.

[princeyadon]

i... probably have OCD

i am constantly finding something abt my health to agonise over, the moment anything slightly off is there i will spend a lot of time just googling it and checking and examining myself and it keeps me up at night, too. i will admit i haven't had a break from this for a few years now, even if i seem to be in health and fine i am Secretly Worried About Something Random, and I have been doing a specific routine for one of those health problems i've been worried about for over a year now (it's not one of those health problems you need a doctor for cuz it's basically a non issue, my brain just makes it a huge one to me)

i have constant impulsive thoughts that give me mad anxiety and i have to perform a task or watch a video or recite a specific mantra 3 times at an acceptable speed for the thought to go away, same w urges. I am constantly terrified my thoughts are gonna be "manifested by the universe" unless i recite this mantra to "let it know not to".

i have to do evening-up behaviours where things have to be a good number (it has to be an even number or a multiple of 5, or it can be 3 but not a multiple of 3) and as a child this was worse where i would count the cereal pieces in my mouth and i had to chew an even amount on either of my mouth. i genuinely think the number 9 is an unlucky number and partly responsible for a lot of the things i've been going through lately because of my apartment room numbers. i will postpone shit irl like showering, sleeping, etc, if in a game i'm playing there's a number i can control (level, inventory slots, etc) and it's left on the number 9 so i can get it to 10.

i am terrified to leave my house at all and am in constant fear of super bad events happening to me or my loved ones, like fires, burglary, etc, and to cancel out these fears i have to repeat that same mantra to myself 3 times and again, it has to be fast enough or i have to do it again, and sometimes i just have to keep doing it until it Feels Right like it's finally worked. i am constantly getting violent and devastating imagery in my head of bad things happening and at one point was too afraid to sit on my wheely chair because i couldnt' stop getting images of it breaking and impaling me if i sat on it. rn i am lowkey afraid of my cats being under my bed because "what if it breaks and crushes them"

sometimes when i do the mantra too slow i have already accepted the fact if the bad thing happens, it's because i didn't do it right.

usually when i do the mantra sometimes i get intrusive thoughts saying it's not gonna work and i have to do something else instead to make The Bad Go Away, honestly these feel like the worst to me because currently it's the only thing i can do anywhere to make shit stop.

[zumpietoo]

Haha I had a feeling once it was clear BH weren’t happening (at least in the way they want), they would try to pin it on Cole. Well can she please explain if Cole is the Bully why does Cole seem to avoid them and their homes/events for the most part (with sometimes in the past KJ has been an exception). Yet many of the cast seem to show up where Cole and his friends hang out. If he was such a bully why would they do that. As you, petals and previous anons have said, try to at least make your bs be consistent and make sense. Further, there is no evidence of Cole bullying Lili other than your fake insiders but we do have Lili pulling on his shirt while he looks hella uncomfortable and as you said her throwing something at him hard on camera. Where is your evidences jmas ?

Oh yeah.....and LBR, it was always moar of KokeJ glomming onto Cole than the other way around, so yeah....funny how everybody is desperate to chill with the evvolll bully. Also love the back to Luke was a saint, narrative.....cuz, yes, it's sad he died, but nooo....

(Now to completely hijack this shit)

Meanwhile, their allusions to Lipstick Alley (even moar hilarious as a credible source, 5 bitter lesbians sulking cuz Cole gets moar pussy than they do....while still preferring PP with dudes over chicks....cuz, LBR, just usual self inserting PPstans) sent me searching for some info there....Andddddd.....

I continue to loooovvvvveee how reality and time keep proving them all wrong:

Apparently in fall 2020 Cole was "put on notice to shape up or ship out" by Plaiderdale.....they "didn't know if this meant clean up/get sober, stop fucking around with endless wimmins or lose weight, but it was def totes true!!!".

This was also, apparently, merely a twitter rumor and, ofc, complete bullshit.

I was also FASCINATED to learn I was then sending rumors to DM, way before I sent the one about GymD cheating (no, I didn't, just saying)...including how Cole and PP were always splitting up during hiatus, but would then reconcile once the show resumed, cuz Pee Arr...AND that other, moar knowledgeable "insiders" had contradicted this, but DM refused to publish it....

Ummm.....dudes, while, yes, we now all KNOW they were, apparently, endlessly splitting up (as confirming by RAS, himself), I am the last person to have everrrrr stated it was remotely "for Pee Arr"....plus, yes, clearly, they did only last as long as they did, because secluded/on the same show/etc (as Cole himself alluded to recently), in no way was it pretend or following any sort of schedule. And we know they spent time together during hiatuses...(unlike the rest of the cast).

AND this was before I even followed DM....and only earlier this AM, I asked how one submits shit there in the first place....

I am also, apparently, "insane/crazy" entirely because I prefer Cole to PP....which, dude..

A) in no way does preferring one celeb, for whatever reason make one "insane"

B) Honestly, again, why TF would you prefer PP, who gleefully shares her assholery, substance abuse, promiscuity (which is entirely her business, buuuutt....if you criticize Cole for imaginary shit, you gotta drag her for real) and nutbar antics, as well as shilling her cult and generally being a fairly shitty person over Cole, who's a perfectly decent guy? Because he's "an abuser"----which is the unsubstantiated/wholely debunked defamation by a bitter, fully admitted as mentally ill ex? Or is because he dumped that loon and the next loon, when he finally found the strength to do so?

I mean, really, at most/worst, you could say he haD terrible taste in partners, gravitating towards, literally, nu versions of his hot mess mommeee....which he seems to have admitted (at least to himself) and worked on, ultimately breaking the pattern....

Which is to be lauded....

C) I'm also NOT the one making up shit (both IRL and on the show) and then pretending I "got it from an insider", only to be fully disproven, over and over again....I've long been moar towards doing the detective work, myself...anyway....In fact, shouldn't the "crazy" peeps be the ones who keep being outed as full bore liars?

[theres-an-impulstor-among-us]

Friday Night Stabby best quotes part 17 (02/04/21)

Joker: I really don’t know if I trust Skizz as the host [of the lobby]. Skizz: Zip it, Joker! It’s fine! Brody, wearing the hat and moustache: I think you’re doing great, Skizz. Skizz: Thank you, buddy. Joker: Says Yosemite Sam.

...

Joker: And where were you, Yosemite Sam? Brody: Talking to Astro about wiping my butt. Astro: Yup, he- he was. And I- And I confirmed that it is a good thing to do, it’s a good habit to have.

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Endless, reporting a body: I don’t want- I don’t want- do- Arrggghhh… *sounding annoyed* I found Mister Joker in O2. It wasn’t me. Astro: It could’ve been you, though. Impulse: Could’ve been. Skizz: Nobody asked if it was you, that was weird. Endless: What? Skizz, you- Okay…

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Etho: I was hanging out with my buddy Impulse. Impulse: Yeeeah :D Skizz: Uhp! SUS. No way you like him.

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Astro: I wanna know why Skizz screamed that loud. Skizz: Cuz- Tango: He always does. It’s his trademark, right? Astro: Fair point.

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(at this point, they switch to the new Airship map) Astro: In honour of Brody, I’m gonna vote for Mister Joker, just because. Joker: Oh come on, man! I’m sitting there kicking in- looking for toilet paper! I’m kicking doors down. Astro: Brody’s not here so I’m voting for you. I’m sorry, Mister Joker. Joker: No you’re not.

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Endless: I hope you’re not asking for a room name, cuz that’s not gonna happen. Tango: No, I just- What was your goal prior to you seeing me slap my buns together? *Skizz and Evil burst out laughing* Etho: Ma- Making a sandwich, right? Making a sandwich…? Tango: Making a sandwich, yeah, of course.

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*Impulse and Skizz are on one side of the uncrossable gap, while Joker is on the other* Skizz: Hey Joker, can you see us over here? Joker: Yeah I can see you. Skizz: Watch this. Skizz: *kills Impulse* Joker: Wha-?! I can’t-! I can’t do anything about that! Skizz, laughing: Yeah, why don’tcha come report it, buddy? Joker: OH MY GOD! SKIZZ! OH GOD!

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Skizz: When I was haunting you, was it, like, echoey and haunty or did I sound normal? Astro: It was echoey and distant, but I could definitely hear you. But I was also ignoring you, so… Skizz: *snickers* O-Okay. Well then… Etho: Harsh.

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Impulse, at the plunging task for the first time: Wait, how do you plunge? What? Tango: OH! Plunge! Impulse, it’s the greatest! You gotta add your own noises, though. Impulse: How do you do it? Tango: You gotta *makes plunging noises* Impulse: I don’t understand! Tango and Joker: *make plunging noises* Impulse: What do I do?! Tango: Plunge! Up and down. Grab the plunger and- Impulse, shoving the plunger up and down: Oh, there you go! *makes delighted plunging noises* Got it! *giggles* That’s a good one! *giggles some more* Tango: ...I’m gonna go out on a limb and guess Impulse is legit.

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*Impulse decides to play 3rd imposter for Skizz, who just vented in front of him and Astro* Astro: *calls an emergency meeting* Skizz: Tell me you saw that, Impulse. Astro: So Skizz, did you actually accidentally vent in front of me and Impulse? Skizz: Don’t you do that. Astro vented on accident. Impulse saw it. Astro: No, no. It’s Skizz, and if Impulse doesn’t back me up, Impulse is the other one. So I’m voting Skizz now, cuz I saw him vent and come back out. Skizz: I know for a fact it’s Astro. Astro: It was Skizz. It’s Skizz and if Impulse doesn’t back me up- Impulse: So… So it was actually… It was actually Astro but I had no idea where to go to call the meeting. Astro: Okay, Impulse is your other one. It’s Skizz and Impulse, and if you don’t vote one of the two of them out, they’ll have two vs two. Skizz: Man, he’s hanging on. Like a bulldog. Teeth clamped down.

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Endless: *calls meeting* Endless: I apologise. I called this meeting so we can vote Joker off just so I can get across that gap. Joker: *bursts out laughing* Impulse: Jeeeeez. Tango: Seems legit to me. Joker, still laughing: No, no, no! Endless: I need to cross the gap and he won’t get off the platform. Skizz: I skipped, Joker. Joker: I voted for Endless so he can just float across. Impulse: Well, that IS Option B. It’s not a bad option. Evil: I’m doing the breakers and you guys interrupted me for THIS?

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Joker: I just saw Tango kill Endless. *pause* Skizz: Is that- Is that for real? Joker: I just saw it! I walked up and he was right in range! At the end of the hallway! Etho: I was doing the laundry and Tango was talking to Endless. And then… Joker: And then Endless stopped talking? Skizz: Tango, talk to us, buddy. *long pause* Tango, in a low and dramatic voice: It was time.

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Tango: THE MAP’S THE SIZE OF THE UNITED STATES AND ONE PERSON COMES BY RIGHT WHEN I KILL HIM!? COME ON!

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Skizz: *calls a meeting* Skizz: Hey everybody! I just wanna say that Mister Joker sucks. Joker: Oh come ON, man!

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Skizz: Is anyone else feeling a Tango/Mrs Tango vibe here? Tango: Nope.

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Brody: Where was the body, Endless? Endless: It was… on the airship. Brody: OH-kay…

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Mrs Tango, reporting a body: EvilNotion dead in the hallway. Killed by… *muttering* eenie, meenie, miney, mo… *everyone laughs* Impulse: Okay! Alright! Brody: Is that how we’re picking killers now? Mrs Tango: Yup!

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*Endless is ejected with two early/joke votes bc nobody else voted* Astro: Wait… Impulse: *laughs* What? Astro: Wait, what?! Did nobody vote? Joker: What just happened?! Astro: I… think we all forgot to skip…

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Joker: Hi, Impulse. Impulse: I’m observing. I’m observing you. Joker: You’re observing me? Impulse: I’m observing you. Joker: What does that even mean? What am I, a science project? Impulse: Yes. Yes, I’m observing all of you. I see all of you right now. Joker: I… I feel a little creeped out by that.

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Joker: Etho. Etho. Etho. If I do- If I do- THIS- Joker: *kills Impulse in front of him* Joker, continued: -what will you do? *body is reported by Brody and Skizz, who witnessed him do it* Skizz: Mister Joker! Brody: Mister Joker. Skizz: Worst killer ever. Etho: It was me! It was me. Brody: Etho…! Etho, are you really, really…? Okay.

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Endless: *about deliberate 3rd impostering* That’s not how this game works, guys! You realise that, right? Impulse: Oh, this game is what WE make of it. Joker: I dunno, Endless. You got voted off, so it seems to be working fine. Endless: You shut your face! I will-! Joker: *laughs*

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*Tango sussed Astro after hearing Mrs Tango scream IRL as she was murdered and backtracking to find him leaving the scene* Astro: Yeah, I did kill her, Tango. Tango: I know it was you! Astro: That was cheaty, though. Mrs Tango, scream quieter next time.

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Etho, about the new map: It’s really hard to catch people on location, though. Being near the body. Astro: Unless their wife screams from inside the house.

[aelaer]

9, 35, 44 for the ask game?

Answers to this ask game from a while ago.

9 - Tag 3 fic writers you think are underrated/unknown in the fandom/fanfiction community. Oh this is harder, cuz it depends on if you mean fandom as MCU fandom, or Stephen Strange writers. Most who write Stephen are IronStrange writers, but I think they get a lot more ability to get traffic as it's easier to search for the ship than the character (worst part of AO3 is lack of main character feature). ... I'm avoiding the question. Let me look at my bookmarks, and I won't be tagging any IronStrange writers for the above mentioned reasoning (though there are certainly some underrated ones, I imagine). Keshwyn, anachronism, dragonnan. Solid writers (slower like I can be, so it's hard to build an audience), good Stephens, not a bucket-ton of kudos/reviews but their fics are well worth reading. And I'm gonna mention AuroraWest as well because while I don't read a lot of her works (I'm not much of an E fic reader and there's a lot of E fics XD), I'm bloody impressed by her writing speed and dedication to her craft and ship of choice, and her Stephen's a bit different than a lot of other interpretations I read, but still feels in-character. So it's like, a nice change of pace. And for the amount she writes, if it was IronStrange, she'd have probably 5-10 times the amount of kudos. So if you like FrostStrange (both E and not, hah) she's worth checking out.

35 - How much has writing fic changed your life? Uh honestly, not as much as going into art did :P I think my writing skills for things like in school and work helped improve due to writing fic in my earlier years, and I have met a couple fanfic writers in the Tolkien fandom IRL, but otherwise it's a fairly non-impactful hobby. Made some lovely friends over the years but I haven't met most of them.

44. Rant about something writing related. Some of the American punctuation rules are really fucking stupid. For instance, when you have a word in quotes at the end of a sentence (non dialogue), the period *always* goes inside the quote. Like if I say, The word "dandy" is considered to some "archaic." that is the correct way to write it. And that's fucking dumb and I hate it. The period should be outside IMO (and I think in Brit English it may be).

I also hate how the Oxford dictionary is adding some new definitions to words in the dictionary because people are too dumb to learn the correct way. Like making "irregardless" a word. Language is living, blah blah blah, that's a good argument for including "yeet" and new slang into the dictionary, but not because people can't be bothered to learn their errors.

I also wish that the m dash was on your standard English keyboard. Thank goodness for Doc's automatic replacement function, but it'd be nice.

[darealsaltysam]

what your paladins main says about you

a comprehensive essay by a paladins player of right around 4 years

this is like really long so i’ll make it under the cut so my followers don’t have to scroll through this if they don’t wanna

(for context i’m a current maeve main, i used to main skye and sha lin and played tyra a long while ago)

.

Androxus

it’s not a phase, mum

“i don’t care we don’t have healer, i’m really good at him i swear”

you ult every time it loads in and you die before the final shot

your favorite mode is siege because you can fly up and shoot the whole point on ult

you’re usually really stand-offish and don’t communicate much and/or a 13 year old boy with anger issues

.

Ash

you are level-headed but in a scary way

you will hold the point solo even if it costs you your streak

“get on the point” “guys get on the point” “attack the objective”

you’ll ult to save yourself 99% of the time

good leader

.

Atlas

you probably used to main lex or androxus before he came out

“he’s like a flank, but a tank, he’s great!”

you chase after solo kills instead of sticking to the point

healers hate you, flanks and damages fear you

your favorite mode is death match

.

Barik

you’re a former/current tf2 player looking for something fresh

you don’t like working too hard so you spam turrets on the point and hope for the best

“healer stick to me i’m boutta ult”

actually really nice between rounds

but you don’t communicate much mid-game and kind of do your thing

.

Bomb King

you’re a really old player. you have the beta makoa skin and you were there when lex was first released. veteran’s discount.

your favorite maps are the old ones and they barely show up any more

the team always underestimates you

“who plays bomb king in 2021 lol?”

you need a hug

.

Buck

“wait, he’s a flank? i thought he was a tank??”

you’re also a veteran in the game

you’re a dying breed. i like never see you. do you even exist?

you’ve been here since like the first day of the game

buck gets so many skins and you want all of them but the best you have is a random recolor

.

Cassie

sweetest person alive

“we can do it guys! let’s try to all rush the point this time!”

you are the bane of every flank

the opposing team hates you, your own team kind of doesn’t notice you’re there

*casually gets a pentakill*

.

Corvus

you know those weirdly political kids who like ww2 and know the details of every tank to ever exist? yeah that’s you

but like that’s corvus. as a character.

but no one ever plays him.

like i never even see him do you exist???

you are a cryptid.

.

Dredge

yo ho you’re a hoe

no seriously the other team views you and they FEAR you

“yeah i just got a penta kill” “YOU WHAT?” “eyes on the point mate don’t get distracted”

hella good at the game and hella casual about it

you like onslaught on the one sea map the most

.

Drogoz

another veteran, are we?

you’re either useless or can wipe out a whole team in seconds. there is no in-between.

you always have a really cool skin.

dovahkiin, dovahkiin...

“i don’t care about the point i gotta get them trips”

.

Evie

you bought her because you thought she was cute, admit it

*turns into ice right before dying* *turns into ice right before dying* *turns into ice right be

your personality type is identical to her. no question about that.

always buys faster reload and better speed

strangely good communication with the team

.

Fernando

gay gay homosexual gay

“he’s kinda hot if you look at him the right way”

fernando is the tank for gay people

you are gay people

i don’t have much more to say

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Furia

mum energy. not as much as inara mains, but still, mum energy.

will protect every member of the team with your life, even the flanks

you’ve been maining her since she was first added

i bet you didn’t even know she’s canonically seris’ sister

“we’ve literally failed to capture the point the last 3 times we might as well give up and go to another game”

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Grohk

“yeah i have a gremlincore tumblr blog, how could you tell?”

i honestly have no words

you’re kind of like a catboy but a racoon

do you even heal the team or do you just pretend

you were there when lex got announced and thought he was cringe, now everyone finally agrees with you

.

Grover

he was your first purchased character and he’s stuck around ever since

he’s the only healer you can play well

“i am groot lmao”

you would never say a word to your team

would give your life for the tank but that’s about it

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Imani

daenerys targaryen on drugs

your favorite anime is my hero academia

your husbando is todoroki

you see where i am going with this

“team protect me i’m gonna ult” *dies 5 seconds into ult*

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Inara

BIG MUM ENERGY

your team is your family. you will protect them with your life.

can only hold your own with a good healer so you have good teamwork going for you

*cutely places wall in front of your ult*

useless in tdm so you stick to onslaught, siege and koth

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Io

are you a furry, furry, or a furry?

“victow! dont ult on my tweam pwease! uwu!”

you 100% find her attractive in some way shape or form

you are either a 30 year old redditor who enjoys loli content or a 16 year old teen who is playing a shooter for the first time

she’s kind of cute, i guess

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Jenos

i can never tell if i’m going to absolutely destroy you or if you’re gonna kick my ass

*cutely holds you up so the whole team can shoot you to death*

kamehameha

you’re a healer??? i guess???

your character has such deep lore and i bet you don’t even know half of it

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Khan

one day you were playing and your team desperately needed a tank. you picked the first one you saw. suddenly, you’re lian’s foot stool

despite 2 layers of heavy armor, you’d still let this man walk all over you

“this skin is really cool, wish it wasn’t behind a pay wall...”

YEET

you actually know the game’s lore, for some reason

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Kinessa

i never trust people who are good at a sniper. if you’re bad that’s natural and you’re 99% of the population. if you’re good you are definitely up to something

you’d sell your sister for 5 pennies if you could

you’re missing from the team all game and somehow have the most kills

“we have a kinessa???”

you are an urban legend to your team

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Koga

someone’s been watching naruto

you are so shit at the game. like i’m sorry. no one’s good at koga i’m so sorry

how do you have so many skins for one character???

you’re always missing from the point

healers hate you. so does the enemy kinessa.

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Lex

quit the game /nm

“who mains lex in 2021??? lmao???”

wall hacks, aimbot, and it’s all legal for you as an ability. you are a hacker in a world of puny vanillas. you like it easy so you go for the easy min max character. have fun getting hated

you think he’s hot and press on his loading abilities just so he can scold you and you can hear him being mad at you

*bonk* go to horny jail

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Lian

"she could step on me”

you used to main some sort of healer but switched over when you got sick of everyone being needy

you can hold a point all on your own for a really really long time but the moment your team gets there you start flunking

you wish you had more skins for her

you don’t

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Maeve

so imagine this. it was like 2018 and you were just chilling playing the game. you kept getting killed by maeve. in every game. she was in every game you went to and she kept killing you over and over and over again. you got frustrated, snapped, and bought her to see if you could do the same to others. you are now the maeve in every game. the cycle repeats.

your whole team doubts you but then you casually get a quad kill and they just sort of look away

you die a total of two times each round and 99% of the time it’s because you go too fast and fall off the map

you repeat everything she says in her accent because you think it’s cute

“welcome to ze meant streets, kitten!” “can you shut the fuck up” “i hate to cut and run, he-he!”

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Makoa

you have the plushie skin or the beta skin, otherwise you don’t main and only play casually stop lying to yourself

“attack turtle go brrr”

you’re really good if you get paired with a good healer

otherwise you’re useless

you wish you could get better teammates because you could really thrive with an organized group. but on paladins you won’t get that, i’m sorry-

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Mal’Damba

i always forget this guy is even in the game

you’re definitely under 6 foot IRL

you have an older sibling you always fight with

you’d love to have a snake irl

you’re really chill outside of the game, but when playing you hella rage

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Moji

you are so precious

but also such a little shit

you annoy me but i also want to give you a hug

“let’s go guys!! to the point!! wheee!!”

please never change but also get out of my sight

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Octavia

you always main the new character until the new person drops

somehow always have enough credits to buy the new champion whenever they come out

you don’t like having a stable main cuz you get bored

you like hanging out at the training rage

hate siege and love team death match, you like your games quick

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Pip

you are the worst and best thing to ever happen to this game

you only pick him to heal yourself and hardly ever heal your team

no one notices you there until you ult

then you get focused

honestly you just seem like you wanna do your thing and i can respect that

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Raum

you probably go to therapy or desperately need it

“BIG MAN BIG. HE IS BIG. BRRRR”

you always love the demons in media

you like being in charge of the team and wreck the point any time you are there, you like fighting on your own but having a healer nearby is nice too

you probably have daddy issues

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Ruckus

you think ruckus’ and bolt’s dynamic is cool and that’s one of the main reasons you started playing him

he’s the only tank you can play

you used to main either inara or ying at some point but chose violence instead

really short irl. you physically relate to ruckus and spiritually to bolt.

“funny goblin man :)”

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Seris

certified girlboss

you can hold an objective all on your own or heal your whole team no problem. either way you are SLAYING

“alright. who’s ass am i kicking today?”

mum energy is inferior to inara but still kind of there

i’m like 50% sure you have a foot fetish

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Sha Lin

*pointing and chanting* incel, incel, ince-

whether that’s about you or the character you can decide

you like minecraft bedwars on the side

“if i don’t get this headshot i am literally going to spontaneously combust”

really useful when there’s no other long distance people - otherwise a nuisance

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Skye

AWOOGA *jaw drops to ground, eyes roll out of head* BOOBA BOOBA BOOBA

you bought her for the tiddies, didn’t you?

she’s actually really satisfying to play once you get the hang of her, but can be real tough on rough days

you need a break i think - maybe play some other game for a bit?

*casually gets team kill with ult*

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Strix

you own at least one pretty knife

you played him when he was unlocked on rotation, fell in love, and spent a whole evening collecting credits to buy him fully

“haha bird man”

i’ve said what i said about snipers. if you’re actually good at him you are hiding a body somewhere. i fear you.

why does everyone ship him with viktor????

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Talus

little furry child

he reminds me of tommyinnit because he is small and annoying

if you play him you are tall and intimidating 

i’m friends with a tall scary talus main

i can’t say bad things please spare me

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Terminus

you always ult at the worst time and just get killed again 5 seconds after

“hey losers watch this” *goes on the point, dies, revives, kills one person and dies again*

you’re only a good tank if you cooperate

you don’t

on your own you’re a pretty good player

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Tiberius

*sigh*

you think the cat is hot, don’t you?

“his accent is kinda cute tho hehe”

you saw that one ending scene in zootopia with the dancing tigers and it CHANGED you

you are probably a furry. if not your awakening is coming. be ready.

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Torvald

you’ve been playing this game for too long

you’ve seen skins rise and fall. you’ve seen nerfs and buffs. you’ve seen reworks and remakes. you are ancient. older than the dragons and wiser than makoa. respect.

people see you on the opposing team and get really annoyed

“the point is really crowded, we can’t move in” “don’t worry guys, my ult is charged up”

you’re really good at all the characters but you like this guy a lot because you think he’s funky fresh

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Tyra

you’re either new to the game or have been playing for too long

either way you can KICK ASS but you need to keep behind your team to do the most damage

flanks are the bane of you, especially the fast jumpy ones

you really want one of the cooler skins but you can only ever get the basic ones. such is the curse of maining one of the OG characters.

“bite me”

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Viktor

you are level 100+ guaranteed, and everyone fears you

“oh shit they got a victor. flank focus him”

you probably play COD and CS:GO normally and wanted to go with something familiar and easy. your skill from the other more advanced games DWARFS everyone else

but why are you playing “guy with gun 132″ in a game with magical elves and fairies. like come on bro.

you don’t have any in-game friends because paladins is your guilty pleasure game you would never admit to

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Vivian

“step on me” syndrome cranked up to 100%

this woman could spit on you and you’d still respect her more than your own mother. good for you

“i’m not a simp. i’m just tier 3 subbed to pokimane ironically”

you sweat the game hardcore. former victor main or he’s your secondary.

you’ve got her on level 50+ at least

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Vora

like the maeve mains but somehow worse

bought her out of spite or played her while she was on rotation, now here you are grinding credits for her a day after she became unavailable

honestly you’re really good at the game i have nothing else to say

you enjoy the newer characters more than the OGs - you’re either a former vivian or lian main

you miss the play of the game feature in the game because you’d get all of them with this girl

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Willo

you seem like the moji mains at first but show your true colors soon after

“fuck you” x50

you are a trash talker on max overdrive. you need to sit down, do some breathing exercises and have a drink.

you hate your own team more than the opposing guys

when you see a willow on the opposing team you make it your sole goal to eliminate her as many times as humanely possible

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Yagorath

i bet you didn’t know she was canonically female until you read this

you don’t like sweating too much so you pick the tank that leaves you heavily relying on your healers and damages

you can hold a point really well so you like siege and onslaught

“are vora and yagorath connected in the lore somehow and do i really care?”

you have a friend who you always party up with to be your healer, otherwise you might switch to another character

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Ying

“tanks love me, flanks hate me”

you are too powerful. literally. how are you so strong

you’ve mastered the most difficult healer in the game. the others are really easy for you to play but you have trouble with seris

motivate your team a lot but start shading and trash talking if they don’t cooperate

you’ll gladly play someone else for a long while and like taking breaks from her

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Zhin

this is your first main after switching over from overwatch. we can smell it on you.

you’re really annoyed with his personality and voice lines but the character is too good to play for you to pass him up for that. you respond to his voice lines aloud very aggressively to let him know he’s an ass

“YES ZHIN HEALERS AREN’T USELESS YOU SELFISH PRICK”

you try your best but you’re not a great team player

infinite trips on a good day, die repeatedly without kills on a bad one and you switch over to vora or skye for a bit.

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