#Biggest inspirations in my life
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Big congratulations to our amazing, Obi wan Kenobi!!❤️
I got emotional and warm feelings, seeing the two of them together again. I love their friendship, Hayden is so sweet too hehe. They both seem like really amazing, respectful, humble and friendly people. I would love to be able to meet both of them together in person one day. I can always dream lol ❤️
I was 15 years old when I first watched Revenge of the Sith back in 2008.
After watching their amazing performances, I had always been a Star wars fan because of them. Anakin and Obi wan will always be my forever favorite characters❤️.
Star wars has always been a part of my life and has helped me get through some difficult struggles during my childhood. I had always struggled with trying to fit in and it wasn't an easy task to feel like I had to live up to specific social expectations and I also struggled with my mental health and confidence, but I always kept trying and I'm still trying and thriving today. Being able to enjoy these prequels really opened my eyes and taught me about life and helped me grow as a human and understand about the actions of the choices you make in life.
Thank you Ewan and Hayden for continuing to give me hope and light during my worst days ❤️
I hope Hayden will be next to him on the Walk of Fame one day too. I just hope he has the high ground this time though 😂
#hayden christensen#ewan mcgregor#Biggest inspirations in my life#congratulations to Ewan McGregor#Walk of Fame#Speech#Hayden is so sweet and precious#I love seeing these two together#Emotional 😭#userlace#Hayden is our Anakin#Ewan is our Obi wan Kenobi#Obi wan kenobi#Anakin Skywalker
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"Do it scared this, do it stupid that" do it out of SPITE. Do it out of vengeance. Do it out of love. Want to prove others wrong? Do it to prove a point and be victorious. You're your own biggest enemy? Do it to prove YOURSELF wrong. In the end, you're the one to do it, so choose one motivator (or none!), and get out there and DO IT
#this is a pep talk to myself#i just spent the last hour journaling and reflecting on what's happened this year and what i want#getting older and thinking about where you are and what you want is ... interesting#my birthday was last month but I've only given myself the time to think about life today#and what I've decided is to gently hit myself on the head and be grateful for what I have#and also to go out there and get the things i want#I'm going to do it as a big screw you to myself#I'm my biggest enemy and I'm going to prove myself wrong :D#macy speaks#sorry this is a wild rant post but I'm very inspired right now#let's hope i keep up with this XD#what i want is another hualian tattoo!! for now#that's doable and I'll get it done as soon as i can!!#oh my god this is embarrassing I might delete it later#and most importantly#do it for hualian!!!!
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most of the time I'm sure I'll never find a relationship but then sometimes I get this idea in my head that maybe there is someone out there for me and it's like WHOA WHOA WHOA. where is this ounce of hope coming from. get it off me
#my fear of intimacy and vulnerability is CRIPPLING#also today i was scrolling videos and some girl had vlogged about a trip with her boyfriend.#and in one clip she made a joke and the guy sort of very deadpan and humourlessly responded 'what?'#and that triggered memories of my ex and i immediately found myself wanting to be like WHAT'S WRONG WITH HIM? IS EVERYTHING OKAY?#DID I DO SOMETHING WRONG? and god that is exhausting. that's my biggest fear about relationships#i know someone cannot always be in a good mood. but i'm not sure i can take someone being in a bad mood#at least as often as my ex was. which was most of the time#nor's rambles#the ounce of hope was inspired by me watching heartstopper and tori meeting that fun guy michael. i was like STOP IT#THIS DOESN'T HAPPEN IN REAL LIFE!! MEN ARE NOT LIKE THAT
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in honor of my reoccuring dishonored obsession, here are some of my all time favourite pieces of art by piotr jablonski (1-4) and sergey kolesov (5-7), thanks to these, i'll never be normal again
#especially the addermire institute one that just lives in my brain 24/7#i might've said this before but these two are probably my biggest art inspirations ever#genuinely changed the trajectory of my life#not even kidding when i say that#dishonored#art#dishonored posting
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UUGHH I JUST HAD THE WORST DAY IM SO ANGRY AND FRUSTRATED GRRRR !!!!! goes to draw my best friend @jumjum-crafts 's guy to blow off steam
★ version without text + reference image under cut :
★ song : "STATIC ELECTRICITY HUMAN – Computer Flavor" – kairikibear
#before you ask . dear jummy – yes . this was what the ask i sent you the other day was alluding to#i have a very complicated relationship with your colin . but you should be aware of the fact that seeing him invokes intense primitive –#– feelings within me . and one cannot decipher whether they are positive or negative#in any case#JDHDHDJRJRHT I HATE MY LIFE#I HATE THIS SHIT#I WANT TO BE DEAD#there's so much stuff happening every day and im constantly overwhelmed and tired and it's so hard to get out of bed and i don't even want –#– to wake up in the morning . every day just gets worse than the last#everyone around me is doing so much . living their life to the fullest . making huge future and career decisions and planning way ahead#and what am i doing ?#im laying in bed . crying because today was just too much to bear . trying to gain an ounce of happiness by ripping out another piece of –#– my soul to hand out to someone i admire#is this what it's going to be like forever ? bleak nothingness ? constant desolation ?#...#im gonna go to bed#dhmis#dhmis art#dhmis colin#colin the computer#fanart#fanart for a friend#vocaloid#vocaloid inspired#i actually had a lot of fun with this . even if the background was the biggest pain i ever had the pleasure of drawing#this entire song makes me feel comfortable#i might make something for someone else#and im debating if im actually gonna be doing a halloween drawing in the first place . at least one that will be on time with the holiday#whatever#please ignore me
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According to the artist, when it was suggested that a smile might benefit the look of the finished portrait, Attaché Nohell reportedly replied, "I thought the purpose of this was to be honest."
Super fun commission of @waterloggedsoliloquy's OC Sicely Nohell (they/them) and their terrible, horrible, no good, very bad lusus figure Commanding Officer.
#star wars#grand admiral thrawn#thrawn#homestuck#fantroll#sicely nohell#my art#commission#digital painting#waterloggedsoliloquy#other peoples ocs#THIS ONE WAS SOOO FUN TO DO I LOVE CECILS CHARACTERS SO MUCH#AND YALL SHOULD ALL GO LOOK AT CECILS WORK. TRULY ONE OF MY BIGGEST CREATIVE INSPIRATIONS. CECILS WORK KNOCKS ME ON MY ASS!!!#oughhh. comicse... please all go read the guardians dilemma i CANNOT recommend it enough its a masterpiece#and!!! sicely is also in cecils nuzlocke per aspera ad astra!!! which is ongoing and SO PHENOMENAL#just like. wow. a remarkable storyteller who creates some of the most delightful characters ive ever encountered.#this comm was also super fun bc i got to badger one of my boyfriends about niche star wars lore which he was THRILLED ABOUT#between the three of us (rayce cecil and me) im pretty sure we know Literally Everything there is to know about SW & HS lol#really just the ultimate intersection of our various special interests on this one#ANYWAY. THANK YOU CECIL FOR LETTING ME DRAW THEMMM THIS WAS A DELIGHT AND TRUST. I WILL BE DOING IT AGAIN.#alternate sicely dialogue is the “nothing to smile about in my life” meme obvs
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deciding to headcanon that the lighthouse makes people feel Calm and Docile and Relaxed to excuse the fact that more of the companions aren't as mad as lucanis that ANY of this is happening
#I CAN FEEL THE HATERISM IN MY BONES STARTING TO STIR LIKE LYRIUM#for the record. i think the game is fun. and i think it's the most gorgeous game ever made#bar none.#but like................................................................... . . .... ....#ALMOST ALL OF THE WARDENS ARE DEAD. ALMOST ALL OF THEM.#AND ALSO DID IT EVEN MATTER BECAUSE THE BLIGHT WAS JUST#THE GODS FUCKING AROUND AGAIN#i'll be real the least interesting thing abt dragon age has always been the magic to me#i like MAGES. but i think the sociopolitical landscape of thedas + the worldbuilding outside of magic#is the most interesting part for me#i think my biggest problem is that it feels like a dragon age game writing wise#like w companions and quests and banter#but it doesn't feel like the dragon age world#idk. i'm having fun but yeah i think a lot of the general criticisms are weighing on me which#i did not think would happen (tho i've also been in a months long depressive spiral and genuinely have not#enjoyed basically anything and nothing feels real and everything feels like a bad dream so like whatever)#the biggest thing abt dragon age for me has always been like#it has been such a creative inspiration for me in so many avenues and in so many different eras of my life#i've been writing DA fic since i was 17. i started getting mutuals around 18.#that's 6 years!!!!! i've been writing fic!!!#i play like 3 hours of origins or inquisition and wanna go write a bunch of fics#but all my fic ideas so far are about like. Well what if the game never happened and my OCs#met their ROs somewhere else in some way else#which to me ISN'T a good sign.#part of da's staying power to me is how much it inspires me. i don't feel inspired right now#i'm struggling to keep up in some ways with veilguard and also feel like it's struggling to catch up#to itself and the weight of it's own choices#anyway. starting to feel disappointed but like i said months long depression#so i'm repressing it like crazy and might never actually feel or breach that emotion#in any depth. but whatever.
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been reading a stupid amount of (modern) elucien fanfic which made me think about Lucien in a button up and Elain in a sundress which has led to this. Modern elucien ice cream date ? 🤔
#my art#elucien#drawing this for self indulgent bisexual purposes#also love the idea that elain is the biggest life ruining archeron#life ruining (affectionate)#pro elucien#acotar#pro lucien vanserra#pro elain archeron#this is specifically inspired by seperatist-apologist thank you for making me insane#elain x lucien#did i get all the tags
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My biggest regrets in life are being too damn nice, apologizing when I didn’t do anything wrong, and making unworthy people a priority in my life. Unknown
#My biggest regrets in life are being too damn nice#apologizing when I didn’t do anything wrong#and making unworthy people a priority in my life.#Unknown#motivation#quotes#poetry#literature#relationship quotes#writing#original#words#love#relationship#thoughts#lit#prose#spilled ink#inspiring quotes#life quotes#quoteoftheday#love quotes#poem#aesthetic#spilled thoughts#relatable quotes#reading#art#romance quotes#shakespeare
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I started drawing these with the Vash plushie brush as a joke but it’s not a joke anymore because it’s a rly good brush💀
#thank u very much to Gem for the brush btw lmao#this inspired by an art piece I saw on Pinterest but couldent find the original artist for the life of me rippp#but yeah this is the first time I e ever drawn ww and I went through it#I re did his hair like 7 times good lord#happy w it tho#do I feel like I should have switched their expressions? yea but they look good so I don’t care#shout out to my biggest fan ‘Dicking about with Procreate effects and blend modes until something happens’#a good 40 percent of what u see here happned on accident because I thought ‘ohhh what would happen ig I did this’ and it stuck#trigun#vash trigun#trigun 98#trigun maximum#wolfwood#nicholas d. wolfwood#nicholas d wolfwood#wolfwood trigun#vash the stampede#nicholas the punisher#trigun fanart
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i love you butches. you are so so important to me, we look just alike and i think that makes us cousins. butches have helped me approach my masculinity in ways that feel good and true; the writing that starts "my definition of butch includes chivalry" and ends "i was a little knight by the campfire" gets so much closer to who i am as a person than anything else ive read. i think that instead of defining boundaries between each other, we should get together and sit around campfires and wrestle and trade skills with each other. and i think the world would be better for it
#queerness#butch#im a trans man. but butches have always been my biggest inspirations#we aren't the exact same but we look the same and live similarly so i think we should be good to each other#in addition i think butches are so handsome and beautiful. and they really are onto something with the layering and functional clothes#im reaching the stage of my life where im so very tired of finding labels that fit me#so i think ill just be myself and not worry and love the people in my community
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how do you manage to draw so quickly and still have it look so nice. tell me your secrets oh great one
!!! Firstly thank you so much! The single biggest thing that's helped me with art is just...Caring less. It sounds a bit counter productive but instead of spending a lot of time fussing over little details, I work on just making it look "good enough" Being looser wit art an only going as far as you need to go to make summat recognizable, rather than fully polished, really goes a long way if you just want to get a project done rather than make your magnum opus. [Which in general helped me a lot, cos i'd always get frustrated when I'd spend a lot of time on a piece an not have it turn out how I wanted. if that makes sense!] And also just a general pro tip that has made drawing people really easy for me [if you're using lineart, does not work if you're rendering them in their entirety] Is i'll do one colour at a time, clip the layer so i can't draw outside what I coloured, an shade each part separately. This way I don't have to very carefully colour in the lines an can just go bam. shading done on this part an keep doing it until the whole girlie is shaded in. This sped up my process a lot. Example v
#asks#I hope this helps in some way! I'd also be more than happy to detail my process out further. But yea the biggest thing#is just. I get in the zone. I draw it. I move on wit my life until I get inspiration again
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Hey, what if the Lazarus pits had a flush, author? What if whenever someone used it a fragment of their personality passed down to it, so to prevent it from being absorbed by the next person that uses it, it needs to be flushed? What if when Ra’s took over the pool he did not care for the advice of the the ones before and just used without flushing it? What if every time he used it, it became more and more corrupted by the evil in his soul? What if that’s why the Lazarus pits are the way they are right now?
The Big Flush
Part 1 - FLUSH THE PITS, IDIOTS!
Maribat!ToiletPitsAU
��You’re telling me, not a single person ever noticed the HUGE LEVER sitting RIGHT BESIDE it?!” Marinette screamed, frustrated beyond belief.
“Well, we noticed it, but we never thought to pull it down. Would you, Ladybug, hero of Paris, pull down a lever of unknown origins?” Robin sneered, glaring at the red spotted hero.
“MAYBE! Especially if THERE WERE HUGE LETTERS SPELLING “FLUSH”!” The teenager yelled at them, pointing at the letters on the lever.
“Tt. That is why you needed help to save Paris, imbecile. No one in their right minds would do so except you.” Robin spat, scowling.
“WHATS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?” Marinette screeched, her voice breaking.
“Exactly what I said, you irresponsible fool.” He raised his eyebrow.
“Ugh, YOU!” Marinette took a deep breath, calming herself down. “Alright, fine, you win. But still, do you know the consequences that happen when you don’t flush the huge life-reviving pit?”
“Tt. That is why you are here, buffoon.”
“Just breathe Marinette, just breathe.” She whispered under her breath.
“And what compels you to mention your civilian identity?” Damian side eyed her.
“JUST SHUT UP BIRD-BRAINS!” Marinette’s face turned a deep red with her anger.
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“AGH! I SWEAR I’LL-” She shook her fists, upset.
“Ladybug. Would you please continue with the explanation?” Batman intervened, attempting to get them back on course.
“You’re lucky, Damian Wayne.” Marinette glanced at the boy, before turning around and smiling at her idol. “Of course Batman sir! So the pits, as you know, reattach departed souls after death, essentially reviving a person. The body will be repaired, as is essential for the reattachment. It’s a side effect, not the main point of the pits. So, to fuel this, a part of the soul, or personality as most would describe it, is taken and left in the liquids. If you use the pits immediately after a person, then the part of the soul that was left will be attached to you. This might not immediately make you go insane, but it will result in slight personality changes. But, if you continue to use the pits after someone, without flushing it, then you will lose any sanity you have. You’ll be distorted in the worst possible ways. Even if you were the only person to use it, the pits will completely change that part of the soul. It’s extremely gross and life changing to not flush the pit.”
“So in layman terms?” Jason popped out, crossing his arms and leaning in.
“In layman terms, the pit is like this giant toilet, and if you don’t flush it, it’ll become really gross.”
“Oh. Okay.” Jason stood there, slightly shocked at the metaphor, before holding in laughter. The pits were just some huge communal toilet!
“Now, please tell me NO ONE has been using this revival toilet?” Marinette stood, looking up at them all.
“Well, uh.” Jason and Damian looked away, refusing to meet her eye.
“Our enemy, the Ra’s has.” Tim interrupted, pointing out the obvious.
“fUCK! Alright dimwits, let’s go meet this “Ra’s. Preferably before he goes insane.”
“Too late-”
Notes: I’ll probably make another part (or even a third!) that’ll go more into how Ra’s corrupted it, but I hope you liked this, @when-no-wings-do-broomsticks! <3
hehehe~
#maribat#dc x mlb#mlb x dc#mlb x batman#THE BIGGEST FLUSH EVER#THE PITS IS JUST ONE GIANT TOILET NOW CHANGE MY MIND#THIS WAS HILARIOUS TO WRITE I CANT LIE#Prompts like this inspire me to write hehehe#thank you for letting me bring this to life!!!#I love asks#<333 hehehe!#funny#light hearted
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anyway bringing up the sadeian woman and marquis de sade's work in spaces where people wouldn't think of him. specifically why solas is a sadeian woman
solas is such a sadeian woman to me. and of course the first thing for people reading is like "but he's not a woman" and the second would be "the entire essay of the sadeian woman is a collection about pornography and the way de sade saw women" and sure, both things are true, but de sade always likened sex & brutality amongst people that akin to animals. he also preferred writing women more than writing about men.
solas is a direct comparative to justine (from the novel justine or the misfortunes of virtue) because by all accounts, he is always doing what is expected of him by the higher power, yet the narrative intrinsically punishes him for it. justine's acts of virtue stem from being told that is what she is supposed to do (as a woman), the same way solas follows orders because that is what he was brought into the physical world for (as a weapon)
a lot of de sade's work around mother's, martyr's, do gooders comes back around to punishing them. whether mentally, physically, or sexually. the same can be said for all of solas' actions. he betrays his own nature and does what is asked of him and immediately is cast into a physical body he has no wish to have. every choice of "good" that he makes bites him in the face sooner, rather than later. the same way justine is framed for robberies, murders, and rapes, solas is framed and wholly blamed by the narrative for the fall of the elvhenan (and in both the justine literary piece and veilguard we see that it is not the case and in solas' case he shares the blame with the gods but the storytelling would want you to believe different)
it's also interesting because juliette, justine's sister, is favored by the narrative for being a gluttonous, sex crazed killer, and necrophiliac, the same way elven history remembers the evanuris fondly, and spit on fen'harel's name, and the game shifts the blame on solas more often than dishing out an equal amount amongst the players on the board for doing what was, at the time, a morally correct choice (sealing away the tyrants)
another curious thing is the sadeian comparative between solas & mythal. one would think that because she is all-mother that perhaps misogyny & the parallel narrative would hold her to the same standards but no.
the same way justine clings to her sister even when her sister time and time again betrays her, sets her up, and even abandons her to be sexually defiled, solas clings to mythal as one of the good ones, benevolence to speak sense into the minds of tyrants. but she manipulates him and twists him from his purpose, placates him with honeyed words the same way juliette promises justine that all will be good when they reunite with juliette's paramours who hold high political standing.
mythal rips solas from his beloved fade, she coerces him into joining a human body which horrifies him and probably brings a certain form of agony for someone so intrinsically tied and in love with his spirit form, all so she herself can claw her way to godhood. all whilst reaffirming that she is still benevolence, still a peace maker.
and even though mythal dies, she gets to be reborn. she lives on in others, she is rewarded for her greed in a way, whereas solas is sentenced to live with the pain both mentally and physically, he slumbers for centuries and awakes in a foreign world where he is hunted and his people are brutalized, and it is all because of an act he committed, an act that he deemed to be the kind thing, the right thing. because it is what his creator would've wanted.
solas' self flaggelation and deep care is seen as a fault, something that he needs to fix. both by the story and the fans, it is posed as a failing on his part. cares too much, will not abandon his cause for lavellan etc etc. his empathy and kindness is an anchor weighing him down that needs to be extinguished. whereas the evanuris can continue on in their perversions and plagues because they admit their faults, and have rejected virtue wholly, the story relegating them to charicatures of characters (and they kind of do remind me of sadeian men who exist only to brutalize, and hurt, and do not have any narrative purpose aside from defiling and killing, no stakes or history, just one dimensional ideas of harm)
#solas dragon age meta#dragon age meta#datv meta#datv spoilers#veilguard spoilers#long post#anyway. the sadeian woman by angela carter. great book.#changed my life#solas dragon age#fun fact marquis de sade was one of freud's biggest inspirations#and he's the reason we have the word sadism. well anyway#de sade cant keep getting away with this! (narratives where the victim is punished and the abuser is revered)
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Recent things.. mostly just writing screenshots lol
#There's a water problem in the apartment so thats been taking most of my attention lol.. the way maintenance happens here is just#this big long vague wait with no clear communication. You just send in a request to the apartment building and then you might hear from the#any weekday from 8am - 4pm any time after that. Sometimes it's quick but sometimes its like days before you hear anything. So then#you just have to be operating under the assumption that at any time during working hours you might get a call or a knock at the door#Like if you were expecting company at any time for a week straight ghjhj.. ANYWAY.. I've been working on making a little discord#server thing for the game maybe for playtesters to communicate in initially i guess but then also after it's out or... something like that.#no idea how all of that works. but you hear about people doing it. or something... Still not entirely sold on the idea since I'm not really#a big user of discord format speaking (like little chats and stuff) but.. again idk.. seems like.. common.. for things...(< socially odd#hermit fumbling through trying to imitate what '''normal''' people do/enjoy/desire lol..). Since I think my biggest issue is I am very bad#at socializing and thus marketing since a lot of that is social. The type to just google ''what do people do about games once they've#made them'' and just go after whatever the top 10 things apparently are hjbjhbjh... But like I said. still unsure it will be utilized. it#all feels very awkward to me. then again most things do. But that's what the ''overall progress'' screenshot is from. the little channel#where I've been posting updates to myself lol. Also ''coding'' in that being used very lightly consdering it's ren'py and I'm only using#the very bare bones most basic functionality of it lol. Extremely intense highly daunting master level coding such as ''if x then y''. gbjh#slacked on writing a lot due to the evil maintenance and such things... and just general... appointments... events... aughhhhhh#I think it's Goose Time here or something because nearly every day I hear big V shaped rows of geese flying by like multiple#times a day and they're so pretty and neat to watch. They've really inspired me somehow. Today it was rainy and gray skied and high winds#and cold (some of my favorite most beautiful weather) and I went out to check the mail and like 6 or 7 rows of geese fluttered#by in the air. I felt like that meme image of that guy that looks kind of weird (william dafoe??) and its like black and white and#he's looking up at something almost teary eyed wide eyed in awe.. The goose... those are my goose.. the universe sent those gooses just#for me and the high speed winds blowing my coat open and chilling my face... a tender platonic kiss from the world is often delivered#by way of chilly weather and bird formations.. peace and love on planet earth truly..#OH and of course.. boy with boy!!!! shout out to those little mcdonalds toy animal plushies from like 2006 or something. I found the#gray cat one and was like.. hrmm.. I have one of those as well (a real life gray cat). surely they're friends now.
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Carmy my sweetest baby boy the thing about a narcissist is that they will never tell you good job it will never be enough. It will always be them having your best interest at heart while they quietly sabotage you. They will nitpick you to death under the guise of improvement but it will never be enough because as long as they cannot exert power over you they will make you think you are less than them because the second you realize you do not need them they will become powerless.
#not at all inspired by true life events#biggest supporters are your biggest ops#tell me about my soft skills and how you see this as a learning opportunity
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