#BUT I MISSED TALKING TO YOU SOOOOO MUCH

[lambilegs]

hello hello hello!! this is the yap session anon again (maybe i should like give myself a name or something haha) but thank you for the response!! i hope you feel better soon <3 and i love the long rambles!! uhm i did also yap a lot so be prepared hahaha (you 100% don't have to read all of this!!) yap session: it's really hard to explain why i love criminology but i love the sort of puzzle solving that criminology involves? like it gets me using parts of my brain and searching for clues and etc and that just makes my brain go brrr. learning everything about cases and investigations and also the whole detective thing has always been so interesting to me. i've always wanted to help people in some sort of way and criminology was perfect in my eyes. i guess if i had to explain why i love criminology i would just have to say that it makes my brain go brrr HAHAHA. and omg for your criminology-related classes that final project is such a good one!! cause that stuff (looks, personality, etc) definitely has and still affects the justice system. back to your english major stuff, i will definitely let you know if i find any classes similar to the ones you discussed :) and i wasn't able to find "i'm afraid of men" in my local bookstores sadly :( but i did order it!!! i'm also south asian (mixed though) so it will be interesting to read!! and finally, the writing zone is so real because i literally cannot write unless i'm in a certain mood :') i annoy my friends so much complaining about that hahah does it happen in a season?: sunburn is actually on my wish list!! hearing that being one of the inspirations for "does it happen in a season?" is so cool i might order it right now haha. seeing lee in the growing stage of her life was so interesting to read and it was sort of like an explanation for why she is like she is (as an adult)!! i also LOVE your exploration of lee and ruth's relationship it was so fascinating to read. "does it happen in a season?" felt so tender and intimate and i loved how you showed that alongside the complexities of life. i felt like each chapter was organized so well and it was super easy to read and understand and it all flowed really well! plus the soundtrack was so perfectly chosen it was like a curated playlist for the fic (i love it when authors put songs that they listened to while writing or relate to the story and stuff). also THE PARALLELS MWAH I LOVE <3 i definitely didn't notice a few of them but now that you talked about them i see them and oh my gosh i love that so much. parallels in romance are literally the best things ever i love seeing those. the ending felt so perfect and the little notes you added at the end had me literally kicking my feet and giggling it made me so happy. gosh this is probably organized so horribly because i just kept on yapping HAHAH but once again thank you for responding again and i hope you feel better soon!! - criminology anon 📕(maybe this will be what i call myself?? feel free to pick something honestly hahah)

[killjoy-prince]

House M.D. but it's when a character says the name of the episode

[polufabrikat-na-vilke]

A pegasus who's capable of miracles no unicorn can do.

Clara and Daniil as ponies because that's what comes to me every winter idk.

[lloydfrontera]

i don't buy that lloyd would get over his fear of the restoration of fate that quickly. he was doomed by the narrative for years and now he's supposed to shake it off in less than two weeks? absolutely not, he literally tried to kill himself in order to avoid it, ain't no fucking way he just stopped being scared about it in a couple days i don't believe it

anyway. this is my way of saying that lloyd refused to cross dimensions until he made javier swear that he would kill him with his own hands if there was even a hint of the restoration of fate starting up again. he wouldn't consider going back if it meant putting his family and home in danger again even if it meant being left behind in a place he would've rather died than stay at.

and they both know that javier would fall on his own sword before hurting lloyd but they also know lloyd would take his own life before allowing him to do that or to let his existence put his loved ones in danger again. they know lloyd doesn't really need javier to kill himself, not if he's really committed to it. he's done it before it after all.

him asking javier this is. a warning. of what he's planning to do if the restoration of fate starts again. it's his way of telling javier that he cannot promise things will be okay if he comes back. that he must be ready to lose lloyd again if necessary because lloyd won't allow anything else.

it's also maybe... an indulgence on lloyd's part. he's felt himself die so many times now. and so many of his deaths were painful or terrifying or surrounded by his enemies and sometimes all three at once.

but he remembers a sunset, a coat over his shoulders, shaky yet reliable hands holding a sword. a quick, peaceful death on his own terms, done by someone lloyd trusted with something far more important than his life.

and he knows it's selfish, he knows it's cruel, but if he has to die, for real this time, can't it be at the hands of his best friend? if he has to be killed, can't it be done by someone lloyd knows cares for him? if he has to close his eyes and never open them again, can't the last thing he ever sees be the face of the person he loves enough to die for as many times as necessary?

and javier agrees because. what else can he do. he spent so long hoping lloyd would finally trust him enough to tell him what he was planning so javier could help him in anyway he was able to and now. now lloyd is asking this of him.

he desperately doesn't want to say 'yes'. but he cannot say 'no'.

what else can he do.

what's the point of being the most powerful human on the world if he can't even protect the one person he swore to protect above all things. what's the point of him if the only thing he can do is promise to kill his best friend because he has no other way to protect everything they've worked for.

how can he promise lloyd that everything will be okay, that things will work out, that if needed javier will die for him before letting anything happen to him, when he already failed before.

what else can he do

anyway. i don't think any amount of end spoilers and confessions to the jewel of truth are enough to soothe the terrified, paranoid and utterly traumatized part inside lloyd's chest that goes tight any time anything goes even remotely wrong for a good while. it takes a couple months, maybe a few years even, before lloyd stops going cold every time there's even a hint of trouble around him. before he stops reflexively looking to javier's sword to calm himself down whenever things don't go perfectly right in every way.

it takes a while. but it does happen. and things aren't perfect, that's not how life works, but they're good and even when they aren't, lloyd can finally face them and believe they're not his fault. that his existence is not an obstacle for the happiness of the people he loves.

[mashmouths]

so i started this show and it just gets worse and worseeeee not only did it lift the romance subplot directly from twilight (and not well) but they also are trying to play the forbidden love angle hard in the fantasy racism vein except it's a "cross-species" relationship between the two whitest people i've ever seen in my life and there are three people of color in the whole (first season of the) show who aren't villains and it seems that every other episode (and sometimes ebery episode and sometimes twice an episode!) there is a man physically or magically subjugating a woman and i keep waiting for the big reveal at the end to be stolen from fucking rainbow rowell

[eikichi-supremacy]

crying myself to sleep im so sorry they cut you out atsuko they couldn't handle the cunt you were serving im so sorry but i know i saw you cheer on your son during the dark tourney i saw you hold onto a dying puu i was there i know

[birdricks]

honestly beth and jerry have maybe my second favourite relationship in the entire show just for how interesting and tragic it is. like its brushed aside a lot in favour of other stuff but they were really both just kids... and the saddest part about them is that they maybe do love each other but its always in some way artificial

[itspileofgoodthings]

the boys I teach have been so unpleasant to me this week but the boys I used to teach have been really sweet and tbh it helps so much.

[cutter-kirby]

okay so i’ve been gone all day so i’m finally posting my fionna and cake initial thoughts. and since i’ve seen only a few people talking about my second favorite alternate finn, i’d thought i’d share the big thing i was thinking about during episode 5.

how the fuck does farmworld finn have that many kids???????

so i’ve always thought that farmworld and ooo operated on parallel timelines, and the show seemed to follow this too, but literally how does a 29 year old have a dead wife and a preteen kid, especially fw finn, who i seriously doubt was mentally and emotionally ready to start a family so soon after the crown was destroyed. so unless the show changed its mind and farmworld is suddenly farther in the future than ooo, i have no idea how fw finn has such a big family (cause like. the show clearly wants us to think that they’re all biological kids as opposed to adoption).

let me share my initial theory for who jay was. when i first saw him i thought he was going to be little sibling.

i mean. the years match up perfectly here, so i have no idea why they went with the option that completely messes up the timeline.

also to clear up a misconception the flashback at the beginning is almost definitely during the year ice finn spent alone freezing people (between jake the dog and crossover) before prismo's meddling destroyed the crown in the nuke, so that part holds up at least.

i could be missing something that makes all of this make sense. i'll probably rewatch this episode tonight if there's any info i missed i might add it idk

[dysfunctionalcreature]

so I'm not really into the Hilbert x Lovelace ship (cause they just give mlm/wlw hostility to me lol), but everytime I listen to Little Talks by Of Monsters And Men I start to get it and understand the appeal of the tragedy that is their relationship, like I think if I just sat in that feeling and listened to this song on repeat for long enough I would actually start really shipping it

[cursezoroark]

ok I Know what time it is. I know this quest like the back of my hand from countless monoruns I’ve watched on youtube out of sheer boredom. It’s Shiv Gauntlet time

[usertoxicyaoi]

CHSBCJX I THINK WE'RE FINALLY GETTING A JUNSUNG SUNGHO DATE NEXT WEEK "ITS FINALLY TIME" ITS WHAT WE DESERVE!!!!:

[joanne-the-mothersaurus]

Read my story! It's pretty good, I promise. I try to update every week.

Mostly Inaccurate Quotes from the story (mild spoilers):

Veloci: I like my humans like I like my coffee. Moynihan: And how's that... Veloci: Roasted, ground, boiled, and cold. Moynihan: Ah.

Rodger looking at Rexy: Hey Max, maybe she's cougar. Max: STFU Rexy: GET THE HELL OFF MY LAWN YOU WHIPPERSNAPPERS

Caruso *ogling some cute girls AND a cute guy tour guide* Girls make fun of Buzz Also Caruso: NOW SEE HERE, YOU TRAGICALLY UNFASHIONABLE BITCHES

Victor Veloci: Dr. Wu! It's so good to see you. Would you care to join me for dinner? Henry Wu:...I'm not the dinner, am I? Veloci: Whatever gave you that idea?

Veloci: Hey Masrani, it would look really sick if you got in that helicopter and saved us all. Do it for the gram.

Owen Grady: *random primate noises* Blue: Hey Dad, you ever considered maybe speaking raptor for once? Joanne: Sorry dear, he's not that smart. Blue: WHATTHEFUU------

(Maybe) Blue muttering: Overgrown chew toy... Bumpy:....bitch

[kuiinncedes]

:P

[silverselfshippingchaos]

r.une is so awesome! he's the kindest guy ever and I always drop by the thieves guild whenever I'm not doing anything just to hear his pretty voice

[skrunksthatwunk]

feeling it a little tonight