#BECAUSE I WOULD RATHER BELIEVE THAT HE WOULD OVERCOME IT ACTUALLY FUCK YOU

[klarolinexluv]

People who say “Sirius Black’s love for Regulus could not overcome his hate for him” make me really depressed man.

[storiesforallfandoms]

change in a heartbeat ~ billy butcher;the boys

word count: 2523

request?: no

description: billy butcher is many things, namely an idiot, and he showcases that best after he finds out his girlfriend is pregnant

pairing: billy butcher x female!reader

warnings: swearing, angsty angst, mentions of abortions, use of y/n, pregnancy stuff, butcher being an idiot which like what else is new y’know?

masterlist (one, two, three)

I knew I was pregnant before the test came back positive. I never believed when women said that because it just seemed improbable, but I definitely knew. Besides noticing I had missed my period, I just felt off in a way I couldn’t describe. I guess I had to know, otherwise I wouldn’t have taken the test. And there it was, the two lines confirming my suspicions.

I always thought I’d be scared to get a positive result on a pregnancy test. I never thought I was ready to have a kid. But in that moment, I was overcome with joy. Sure, the thought of pregnancy and childbirth was still terrifying, but I was actually excited about having a baby; I was happy to be carrying Billy’s baby.

I knew he was coming over the day I took the pregnancy test. I had timed it so I could tell him the second he walked through the door. There was no way I would’ve been able to keep this to myself for long, and I knew it was something I had to tell him in person. The second I heard him opening the front door to my place, I was throwing myself into his arms, nearly knocking him over.

“Alright, what’s this then?” Billy chuckled.

“I have some news,” I told him. “Very good news, I think.”

“What is it then, love?”

I pulled the pregnancy test from my back pocket and presented it to Billy. I watched as his eyes looked over the plastic stick. My excitement started to turn to dread as I watched the amused look on Billy’s face disappear.

“Is this a bloody joke?” he asked.

I flinched at his harsh tone. That definitely was not the reaction I was expecting. “No, it’s real. I have another one in the bathroom if you want to watch me use it as proof.”

I was trying to make a joke to lighten the mood, but Billy’s face didn’t change.

“This is good news?” he asked, holding up the pregnancy test.

“It...is?” I definitely didn’t sound as certain as I had felt moments ago. “I thought so anyways. I thought...I thought you’d be happy, too.”

“Why the fuck would I be happy about a baby I don’t fucking want?”

His words cut through my chest like a knife. I took a step away from Billy. I felt tears welling in my eyes, but I tried to hold them back.

“Maybe I thought you loved me enough to want to have a child with me,” I countered.

Billy scoffed. “Oh, come off it (Y/N). This isn’t about how much I love ya. It’s about the fact that I don’t want kids, no matter who they’re with.”

“Well, I’m pregnant and it’s yours. So what are we going to do about this?”

I was hoping he’d say that I was right and he wanted our baby. I wanted him to apologize, and maybe even drop to his knees and kiss my belly to be a bit cliche. I wanted him to just accept this baby, that was it.

Instead, he asked, “Would you get an abortion?”

The dam finally broke and tears started to run down my cheeks. I snatched the pregnancy test back from Billy and held it so tightly that my nails and the plastic were digging into the palm of my hand.

“I think you should leave,” I told him, trying hard to keep my voice even.

“(Y/N) - ”

“No,” I cut him off. “You’ve made your decision and I’ve made mine. I want you out of my fucking house, now.”

“If you are going to get an abortion, I want to come with you.”

I shook my head. “I’d rather you not. In fact, I’d rather not see you at all.”

Billy nodded. I saw some hurt on his face, and I was glad I did. I hoped my words hurt him just as bad as his hurt me. Without another word, Billy went back out the door. Once it closed behind him, I sunk to the floor and let myself sob. I realized I was still holding the pregnancy test, so I tossed it as far away from me as I could.

Stupid fucking piece of plastic.

~~~~~~

Butcher’s POV

I looked down at my phone for the fifth time in about 20 minutes. I don’t know why I was still hoping to hear from (Y/N) after our last encounter. It had been days, nearly a week, and neither of us had spoken to the other. Not that I expected (Y/N) to be the one to break the silence.

“You still with us, Butcher?” MM asked. To say he sounded frustrated would be an understatement. I couldn’t blame him since this was the third or fourth time I had completely zoned out while he was explaining our plan.

“Yeah,” I lied.

They all knew it was a lie, but they weren’t going to call me out on it at this point.

MM started talking again, but it immediately became background noise to me. My hand inched closer to my phone again. I couldn’t stop myself. Even knowing it had been mere seconds since I checked last, I had to see if there was any messages.

There wasn’t.

“Butcher!”

“Fuck off, mate!” I snapped back. “Jesus Christ, can’t a man just check his phone?!”

They were all looking at me and it pissed me off. I wanted to punch all of them in their stupid fucking faces - except maybe Kimiko. She’d probably rip my arm off before I even touched her.

“What’s going on, man?” Hughie asked. “You’ve been irritable for days now.”

Damn that kid for being so perceptive, and for caring enough to ask.

“It’s nothing.”

“Is it about (Y/N)?” Hughie asked. “You haven’t mentioned her or brought her around in days.”

“I said it’s fuckin’ nothing!”

They all shared a look. MM asked, “What happened, man? Is she okay?”

My hands curled into fists. I took a deep breath in to try and calm myself. I may as well be honest with them if I was going to be snapping at them. “She’s pregnant.”

They were silent. Unsure looks crossed their faces, but once again, Hughie was the first to speak, “That’s...great. Isn’t it?”

“It would’ve been if I hadn’t told her to get rid of the baby.”

A chorus of “what?!”s rang out through the room.

“I thought you loved (Y/N), no?” Frenchie asked. “Would that not mean you should be happy that she is having your baby?”

“It is your baby...right?” Hughie added.

I restrained myself from snapping at him. Given Becca’s circumstances, it wasn’t a bad question. “Yes, it is, but this life I lead is not one for a baby. You should know that best, MM.”

“It’s hard to do what we do and have a kid, sure,” MM agreed. “I worry about Janine every second I’m not with her, but that’s how I was before we started chasing Supes. That’s called parenting, Butcher.”

“This is different, and you know it.”

MM raised an eyebrow at me. Christ, I hated that fucking face; like he could see right through into my head and read my every thought. I hated the lot of them for knowing so much. For caring. Everything was easier when I didn’t have so many people who were actually level headed and caring.

“Butcher, I say this with the utmost respect: you are a stupid motherfucker,” MM said. “I know what your concerns are, and I’m not saying that they’re not valid, but if you are going to let a woman like (Y/N) get away over your own worries without talking to her - and I know you haven’t told her the truth because I know you - then you are the dumbest motherfucker that I know.”

He was right and I knew that. It may be too late, but I had to talk to (Y/N) and tell her the truth. If she still decided we were over and she didn’t want to keep the baby, then I’d respect her decision. I just needed to talk to her at least.

I was moving towards the door before I really realized it. Frenchie called after me, “Where are you going?”

“To talk to (Y/N),” I responded.

“But the plan!”

I was out the door before Frenchie finished his sentence.

~~~~~~

(Y/N)’s POV

I wasn’t expecting anyone when a knock came at my door. Most people wouldn’t get overly paranoid about a random knock, but most people didn’t deal with psychopathic Supes. I didn’t make a move at first. Realistically, it it were Homelander, he wouldn’t knock. He’d break into my house and laser me dead before I even knew what was happening. That didn’t stop me from sitting completely still, trying to calm my pounding heart.

Another knock came and I reluctantly stood. I had a bat next to my door in case of intruders. My hand closed around the bad as I looked through the peep hole to see who it was.

To my surprise, Billy Butcher was stood at the other side of my door.

I debated on not opening it and letting him stand there until he gave up and left. But then he said, “I know you’re there, (Y/N). Just open the door.”

Reluctantly, I did as he said, but I didn’t take my hand off of the bat.

“I’m an idiot,” he said before I could speak. “I should’ve talked about my concerns when you told me you were pregnant, but instead I let myself get freaked out and say shit I didn’t mean. I know an apology isn’t enough, but I am so, so sorry, (Y/N).”

“What are you so concerned about?” I asked. I wanted to know his true feelings before I slammed the door in his face. It might be the closure I needed before I finally let go of this relationship.

“Can I come in so we can talk?”

I raised an eyebrow. “You’re lucky I’m letting you talk period. Don’t push your luck, Butcher.”

He nodded. “Alright, fair enough. I’m terrified of turning out like my old man.”

And just like that, nine words caused me to let down every guard I had put up the second I saw him through the peep hole. He didn’t have to say anything else, because that was enough to make me understand. But he went on anyways, “My father was a terrible fucking man, and my mum let him be terrible to me and to Lenny. I had no other older man to help me, to look up to. Lenny had me, and what did I do but go and leave him alone with that monster. And if I had no one else to take after but my dad, then how can I not turn out like him with my own kid? It’s never something I had to worry about when I was married to Becca, because I didn’t have that same level of anger and hatred as I do now after everything that’s happened to me because of those fucking Supes.”

Of course he was worried because of his dad. I should’ve realized that the second he started freaking out after seeing the pregnancy test. It didn’t make his reaction or his suggestion right by any means, but maybe if I had realized before then I could’ve gotten him to actually talk to me instead of kicking him out of my house.

But he wasn’t done. “And what’s to say that Homelander doesn’t do something to you and the kid once he realizes you’re pregnant? I took his son from him once, what’s to stop him from taking mine? I can’t guarantee you or the baby would be protected all the time, and I can’t lose someone else that I love to that fuckin’ cunt.”

I’d be lying if I said I hadn’t thought about that for a split second when I took the pregnancy test at first. Homelander had no morals. He wasn’t above hurting a child, or a pregnant woman, just to hurt Billy. But Billy and I had been together for over a year now and nothing had happened to me yet. I trusted him to protect me, and I trusted everything he had taught me to protect myself.

“I was a fucking idiot for everything I said before,” Billy said. “I wouldn’t want you to get rid of our baby, (Y/N). I don’t have a lot of good things in my life lately, but you are one of the best things. This baby would be one of the best things.”

I could feel myself getting choked up again. I cleared my throat and asked, “And what if I already got rid of it?”

“Then I’ll put another one in ya.”

I couldn’t stop the laugh that escaped my lips. It was the most Billy response he could’ve given.

I finally let go of the back and stepped aside. I motioned for him to come inside and he did without hesitation. I led him to the living room where I had just been sat before he showed up. I picked up my phone from the couch and opened it to play him the recording I had been listening to on repeat for days.

His brows furrowed together. “What is that?”

“It’s our baby’s heartbeat,” I explained. “When you go for an abortion, if you’re far enough along they’ll sometimes have you listen to the heartbeat before you make your decision. At first it just sounded like a bunch of noises to me, but when it kicked in that it was the heartbeat of my...our baby...I just couldn’t do it.”

When his eyes met mine, I saw that they were shiny with tears forming. I couldn’t remember ever seeing Billy Butcher cry in all the time I had known him.

“So...you’re still...?”

I nodded. “There’s still a bun in this oven.”

He had his hands on his face and was pulling me to him before the words were fully out of my mouth. His pressed his lips against mine. I balled his Hawaiian shirt in my fists and held him close to me. Everything felt right again. I finally felt whole for the first time in nearly a week.

“I’m so sorry, love,” he said when he pulled away. “I promise you, I will be here for you and for our baby. Every step of the way, I promise.”

“I believe you,” I said. “And I promise you that you will not be like your dad. I know you won’t. I trust you and I believe in you.”

He kissed me again before dropping to his knees in front of me. He pulled my shirt up enough to show my belly and pressed a kiss against the sensitive skin, tickling it a little bit with his beard.

“I’m going to protect you, kid,” he said. “I won’t let a soul hurt you. That’s a promise.”

[evergreenalice]

I'm going to do something controversial

and defend Paris of Troy (well... sort of... he's still a dick, fuck that guy... but like... also in a very unenviable position)

reminder, there isn't really a mythological "canon", I do not intend to deliver to you the 100% canon accurate interpretation of the story of Paris, because there is no such thing.

Moving on, Paris' situation was kinda fucked, and I think there's some interesting things to be said

let us first explain who Paris is for those unaware, most of what I'm about to say is recounted in PseudoApollodorus' Bibliotheca

Paris was born to Hecuba and Priam, queen and king of the city of Troy

before he was born his mother had a nightmare that she would birth a torch that consumed the city in flame, and it was decided that this meant her son would bring the downfall of Troy

they wanted to kill him, but the guy they had kill him chickened out and chose the human option... of leaving him in the wilderness to die, as one does. You know what they say, if can't use Plan B, Plan C it is.

now luckily (or rather unluckily) he survived, and came to be raised as a shepherd. Interestingly according to Ovid, and I believe nobody else, Paris actually was a slave during this period of his life, though it makes sense, many abandoned children did get enslaved, to my knowledge, this was especially common in Rome, so this may be Ovid viewing this through a particularly Roman lens here.

According to PseudoApollodorus, Paris was pretty cool in his childhood, getting the name Alexandros, "defender of men" for being cool, and fighting off bandits and shit.

Eventually, through details we sadly lack to my knowledge, Paris fell in love with a nymph, Oenone. Sadly, there's not a ton attested about her, but what we do have seems to portray a genuinely positive relationship, though Oenone prophesied its eventually end due to the love he would develop for a foreign princess which would be his undoing.

moving on to the famous Judgement of Paris. Hera, Aphrodite, and Athena appear before the young Paris, and ask him which goddess is the most beautiful, and each offered him something in return for his answer being them. I want to note... there was no good answer here, I've seen people say "well [insert answer] would've been better." there wasn't a good answer, it would always have pissed off two of these goddesses, and also most certainly lead to Paris' and Troy's downfall, because that is what the Fates foretold, you can't just get out of a prophesy, any action would just lead you back to it.

In many ways, his choice of Aphrodite for the hand of Helen is actually a really genre-savvy answer from one perspective. He's promised power, glory, or love, and he chooses love. In many stories this would be the right answer, forsaking those other things for what really matters, love. Of course, this ends up being bad because... well first of he's cheating on Oenone, and, oopsies, Helen is married, and anyone who kidnaps her is going to be invaded by basically every Greek!

Thing is... did Paris know this? Did the shepherd/maybe slave know who tf Helen was? Realistically no. It's very possible in this situation to with no context, think, "Oh the last one seems like the least likely to blow up in my face."

as for the cheating thing, let me remind you... Aphrodite is the goddess of love, her retinue, the Erotes were generally believed to be able to overcome people with immense romantic feelings

In the Fall of Troy by Quintus Smyrnaeus, Paris tells Oenone as he dies, that it was not of his will that he abandoned her

now, the easiest way to take this is Paris is begging for his life, and is trying to present himself as a victim to evoke empathy to convince her to help him

however... considering the gods involved... yeah no it's possible he's being genuine here

In Ovid's Heroides, Oenone says this "Your tears fell as you left me – this, at least, deny not! We mingled our weeping, each a prey to grief; the elm is not so closely clasped by the clinging vine as was my neck by your embracing arms." which certainly strengthens the idea that Paris was heavily conflicted but moved by divine will

admittedly, I don't have much else to say, but idk, just some interesting things I don't see mentioned that often in reference to Paris (I also learned that Ovid called him a slave once? I did not know this, I learned this while looking for sources, oddly I've never seen anyone talk about this, I'm more interested in this now than anything else, like, I know it's just one line, but damn now I'm really curious what stories Ovid had access to that are today lost that made him say that.)

oh yeah also, you're welcome for siting my sources, because so many other sites I found talking about Paris that I read as a refresher, just didn't have sources, not even Wikipedia for a lot of that! I'm still mad about that so I made sure to mention my sources, if anything due to being petty and wanting to be better

[kalinara]

This scene, from House of X #3, fascinates me. It's basically the first substantial scene that we see between Scott and Xavier since Xavier died by Dark Phoenix fuckery.

(There's actually a quick scene about the mission in Powers of X before this, but it doesn't really get into much beyond "this is what we need you to do" Aside from a really interesting visual parallel to a Scott and Illyana scene much later, there's not much to it.)

But there's a LOT here. (I'm going to put this behind a cut tag, because it is LONG.)

I mean, on one hand, it's almost sweet. We have an Xavier who is openly calling Scott his son, who is offering comforting reassurance to his fear.

On the other hand, Scott didn't ask for this reassurance, did he? He's afraid, but he's putting on "a brave face". Something pretty standard for the kind of soldier Scott's always been. And Xavier calls him out, puts him on the defensive, and gently applies the pressure. "What matters is that you overcome it -- and you do so for your family."

It's not clear to me exactly when resurrection becomes known on Krakoa. It seems implied that the deaths on the Master Mold mission (the one Scott's going to embark on, in which there will be no survivors) are the first public resurrections at least. Scott SEEMS to believe that death is a real option here. And they carefully keep their reassurance very metaphorical. Immortality in memory, not in fact.

There's something interesting to me about how Krakoa is set up. Because Scott is NOT on the Council. And it seems like he'd be an obvious choice to be up there, right? Certainly other characters have commented on it, periodically throughout arc. Both Forge and Emma have said things that implied they thought he was kind of shirking a duty by not being there.

There's this ever present idea too, of the Summers family as a kind of "Krakoan Royalty". It's why Abigail Brand puts teen Cable on SWORD, figuring that he lacks any real experience or influence, but as a means to manipulate his parents. Gabriel's manipulated with the idea of said royalty on Arakko. It seems to mean something.

But WHY? At this point, Scott is either the Captain Commander of Krakoa - a field general role expressly subordinate to the Council, or the leader of the X-Men, which have asserted some independence, but are primarily Earth based and have no role in governing anything Krakoan.

They may mean Jean, since she was on the Council and is certainly powerful enough to be terrifying. But that's not really the impression I get.

There is a point where we see Scott specifically offered a seat on the Council. That's just after X of Swords, when Scott and Jean have their slight bloodless coup and basically reform the X-Men.

(X-Men #16)

The funny thing about this is that I don't get the sense that they'd ever offered Scott a seat before. And again, that seems surprising. For better or worse, Scott's was the head of the entire mutant race at one point. And even after his fall from grace, his time as a mutant revolutionary, he was still bizarrely influential. There was a Rolling Stone cover, remember?

(And isn't it kind of fascinating how this version of Cerebro rather looks like a blue, metallic version of Scott's post AvX mask?)

It's only now, once Scott and Jean have enacted their own bloodless coup to reform the X-Men and rescue their son and friends, that Scott's asked.

But I could be wrong. Maybe Scott WAS asked. But if so, there's a very obvious reason why Scott wouldn't have taken it.

Mister Sinister is on the goddamn Council. There is no fucking way that Scott would ever, I believe, be able to sit on a Council across from Mister Sinister. And there's no way that Xavier wouldn't have known that.

On some level, Charles Xavier chose Mister Sinister over Scott Summers, and while I don't think this is the literal cause of the fall of Krakoa, I think the fact that he COULD make this choice was an indicator of the failings that doomed them all.

It will forever frustrate me that, as far as I know, we never actually see the reunion of a resurrected Charles Xavier with the son who, under the influence of the Dark Phoenix, killed him.

But I do remember one part of that scene:

(Avengers vs. X-Men #11)

And I start thinking again about how, in Krakoa, Xavier is very open, very content to call him his son.

A prince, an heir, but not a rival or an equal. The man who cast Xavier out from the X-Men, twice. The benign dictator of Utopia. The face of the Mutant Revolution. Xavier has made sure that this won't happen again.

It's interesting though, especially light of the From the Ashes Infinity Comic that digs into Xavier's motivations for his actions during Fall of the House of X.

And there are a few bits that stand out:

So this little story arc establishes a few important things.

a) Xavier didn't actually kill the crew of the ship, he had them replaced with mindless drones made by Sinister.

b) Xavier planted clues based on Arthurian Legend, specifically hoping SCOTT would find it and understand.

c) And Xavier has been pretty active in telepathically influencing other people away from conclusions he doesn't want them to draw. But he can't be really subtle - it causes a nosebleed.

And it's fascinating, I think, that Warren gets a nosebleed HERE. When he thinks about Xavier's role in Krakoa. And then he thinks of Scott's.

Later, Xavier will explain to Sally that he chose his actions because of Scott's trial. And I find myself wondering, is it because Scott's in danger of death (which would be funny as Xavier actually ends up sabotaging their best hope of rescuing Scott by calling Rasputin IV to him, WHILE they were in place to extract him, so she can serve his purposes instead). Or is it because, scapegoat and target or not, Scott Summers has suddenly become the face of Krakoa after all.

But now, Xavier's "the Butcher of Krakoa."

In AvX, before the Phoenix Five start fraying at the edges, Scott challenges Xavier, suggesting that part of the reason he has a problem with what they've done is because Scott did it. Not Xavier.

I think maybe there's some truth to that. And it will be very interesting how much, if anything, gets addressed in Raid on Graymalkin.

[cxtangerina]

k2 is such a funny ship to me, like it's just plausible enough to be kinda sorta realistic if you squint and pray and look at it sideways, not quite a crackship but not able to get off the ground as more than a particularly popular rarepair either. they had, like, one big episode together back in season 3, a handful of major moments over the years that people hold onto with an iron grip, and basically nothing else outside of a plethora of fantastic fancontent and dreams.

i think i like it for the exact opposite reasons that i like kyman, actually, they sorta stand as complementary ships in my mind. where k2 barely has any actual basis in canon & comes heavily from fanworks and speculation about how well the characters would match each other, kyman is practically canonical, at least when it comes to cartman's feelings, and is at least regularly joked about and referenced in-show. personally, i also tend to see k2 as a ship that is kinda miraculously requited, whereas kyman is usually stuck in unrequited hell, which...

...well, this gets into more specific character analysis, but a big part of this is that i tend to see cartman as having very fucked up views of both romance & sexuality that have especially interesting implications when you consider him to have a crush on kyle, specifically.

on the one hand, i think his cupid self is evidence enough that he has a very fairytale, idealized view of romance, based more out of the hollywood movie image of what love is supposed to be rather than anything in reality. south park adults being utter fucking idiots 99% of the time means that most, if not all, of the kids don't have a lot of good role models to base their actions off of. i'm not gonna talk out of my ass about childhood development more than i understand it, but i don't think it's too controversial (?) of a take to claim that kids understand & learn about the world through watching it just as much as interacting with it, particularly when it comes to their own parents.

cartman is a piece of shit, and while a lot of that comes from him and his own bigotry, he's still ultimately a kid in show and you can trace where some of his worst traits originate from in the people around him, even if he makes the personal decision to push it as much as humanly possible. i think the trend in recent seasons for many adults to try and at least appear more pc only makes this more obvious, actually (coughcoughrandy), though talking about that is maybe biting off a little more south park politics than i'm willing to chew for this particular post.

point is, cartman as a character in particular does not have a lot, if anything, to base his idea of what a healthy, happy romantic relationship looks like, which isn't only because liane is single though that may be a major contributing factor. love isn't work to cartman, it isn't about the maintenance of a relationship or communication or all the more realistic and slightly less pleasant parts of loving someone that hollywood doesn't find dramatic or interesting enough to show. rather it's a fantasy, something that happens to people that they have no real control over. i wouldn't be surprised if he believes in soulmates or love at first sight, even if the likelihood of him admitting that out loud isn't especially high.

on the other hand, i think his view of sexuality is greatly influenced by not just liane's sex work, but the way she is slut-shamed and treated like garbage by the rest of the town for it. i tend to view cartman as having a very transactional, cynical view of sex and sexuality, where sex is only used for personal gain (whether that be money or power, likely at the expense of someone else/the submissive party), and sexuality is an inherent character flaw, a weakness that must be overcome unless you are able to twist it and use it for your own (material?) benefit- see the streaming wars & cartman wanting his mom to seduce a rich man for money as a recent example of this.

it's a running gag in TFBW that cartman uses douchebag catching their dad fucking their mom as a tragic backstory, and doesn't seem to understand how reproduction actually works even when kyle basically says it straight to his fucking face. even as a joke, there's still a lot of underlying truth behind why he would believe this. cartman is aware of his mom's sex work, even if he may not want to fully admit/believe it, largely because of situations where he's specifically getting shit for it. he knows he has a father, and that he is (in)directly responsible for said father's horrible death & consumption, but he only really cares about that insofar as it means he's half ginger. sex has only ever been presented through its most vicious power dynamics to him- why would he see it as a good thing, as something that could ever be loving, especially when contrasted against such an idealized, purified view of romance?

(you could also extrapolate from this how cartman associates sexuality & romance with femininity & his brand of sexism to get some particularly delectable transfem cartman ideas, but i digress.)

ANYWAYS. this is all to say that cartman having a crush on kyle (or anyone, really, but kyle is obviously the most emotionally volatile example) instantly pits those two conflicting views against one another, like he wants something that he doesn't even think could ever exist: a happy, healthy romantic relationship, where sex is just a normal thing that they can choose to do or not. this is where a lot of kyman angst comes from for me, with cartman either trying to stuff that round desire back into the square hole of how he views the world, or having his ideals fall ever further apart when the feelings are unrequited. and, on top of that, none of this being actually said out loud because communication is impossible.

this is why i always see kyman as making each other worse, especially if they actually manage to make it into a romantic relationship. i simply Do Not see kyle being a patient enough person to help cartman work through the intricacies of all of his expectations and idealized fantasies and internalized fears surrounding such mutually screwed views of romance & sexuality- on the rare occasions that kyle does show some interest in romantic relationships it's usually pretty centered around himself, and to be frank i only see his interest in romance going down as he gets older.

i've heard some people talk about kyle before like he's the "moral compass" of south park or whatever and while that may be true by the end of the episode, one of the things i like most about him is the fact that he struggles so much to get to the best conclusions. this is kind of getting back into the k2 side of this analysis, but where kenny manages a much more effortless selflessness, even pushing it to the point of being both a strength and a flaw when kenny stops caring about himself for the sake of others, kyle is a lot more self-centered than he cares to admit and it influences a lot of his attempts at being a good person.

this is both my favorite aspect of kyle, that he really has to put in the work to be the good person that he wants to be, and also the primary bad trait that i think cartman brings out of kyle. by being such a notoriously horrible shithead, he gives kyle the perfect target to unleash his annoyance on, getting him so caught up in arguing and proving himself to be the better person that kyle forgets to actually listen to the people that he's supposed to be standing up for. cartman is a fantastic troll and, at least in show, kyle definitely has not learned to stop feeding him argument fodder yet.

sidenote: about kyman entering a romantic relationship... wasn't sure where to add this, but it's for this exact reason that i also see kyman (or this version of kyman where cartman gets worse with age, rather than better) only actually happening in the universes where kyle has lost all other meaningful connections, to the point that feeding a troll to get off on an argument is the best possible option, even if he's old enough to know better. especially if he's old enough to know better.

again, k2 is the opposite of this for me in that i see kyle & kenny as having a lot of potential to bring out the best in each other.

if kyle's worst trait is that he gets too caught up in his own feelings & desires to truly be the good, selfless, thoughtful person that he wants to be to actually do genuine good for the sake of others, kenny's problem is that he skews too far in the opposite direction. i kinda already said this, but to state it outright: kenny's biggest strength and his biggest flaw are the exact same, that he is selfless to a fault, to the point of consistently putting other people's safety and happiness above his own when he thinks it would be of help the majority/the people he loves. this was the key kenny trait that was established by the end of BL&U, and it has only gotten more prominent in the years since with his mysterion persona.

it is in this way that kenny both stands as someone that kyle can look up to & admire for how effortlessly he dedicates himself to the people he cares about the most, but also, simultaneously, as someone that kyle can take care of himself and offer the same help back to. and i don't even think kenny needs to say very much out loud to push kyle towards a lot of these conclusions, he kinda just has to exist and be noticed and kyle has the intelligence to figure it out himself, to recognize the shit that kenny puts himself through and his (usually) quite noble reasons for doing so, and want to offer him the same love and care and dedication that kenny never allows himself to have.

really, the difficult part of this is being noticed at all in the first place. again, i said earlier that k2 is kinda "miraculously requited," in my mind, specifically because the aspect that's missing in the show and almost always must be provided by fan content for k2 is that spark/push forward that gets them close enough to start talking and for kyle to notice kenny in the first place. it's just lucky that's one of my favorite things to figure out and write for those two, hehehe.

[moongothic]

Seen quite a few people comment how they believe it's more likely the Dragodile Divorce happened due to ideological differences rather than because Dragon was too straight to stay with Crocodile, and. Like I did suggest that (or at least tried to) in my Crocodad Giga Thesis (really I should've been more clear about it in my essay so I wouldn't be writing this now lol), but like yes, Dragon and Crocodile absolutely have drastically different beliefs on How One Overthrows The World Government. And that absolutely could have contributed to the two separating and/or Crocodile deciding to go his own way instead of becoming a proper Revolutionary

Because like, as I tried to imply in the essay (but failed to deliver); if Crocodile's goal had always been to get Pluton so he could just nuke Marijoa off the face of the earth by himself and end it all in one go, then Crocodile and his way of thinking could work as this, like... contrasting opposite to how Dragon believes things should be done. Some fans (unfairly imo) call Dragon a "fraud" because over the past 20+ years he has only attacked Marijoa and the WG directly just once, and even when he did, instead of doing something to stop their corrupt reign for good... the Revs destroyed... the Tenryuubito's... food storage..? Like. Sure, that'll bother them for a little while, get their panties in a good twist etc, but in the end they're just going to demand more tributes and more free food. The Revolutionary Army may be successfully inspiring more people and more countries to rebel against the World Government's corrupt rule, but the Tenryuubito are still in power and will continue to be in power for a long time. And that's kind of how Crocodile would greatly complement Dragon within the narrative. Dragon being arguably "too soft" with his slow, methodical way of overthrowing the WG, while Crocodile would just kill them all without mercy, even if it meant hurting innocent people in the process. The two would act as the opposite sides of the same coin, the different extremes of the same spectrum. Crocodile would become like a response to the complaints people have against Dragon.

And yeah, the two having such wildly different ideological views could VERY EASILY contribute to a divorce, for sure.

My thing is that... If (and this is an if) Crocodile is meant to go a character arc and grow as a person, if we're meant to see him as a sympathetic character at all and maybe even feel bad for him... It'll be much harder to write that if the Dragodile Divorce happened only because of the two having ideological differences. Like who's going to feel bad for Crocodile if the two got divorced because Crocodile wanted to mass murder people and Dragon wasn't okay with it? That's not a tragedy, that's not a situation where we as the readers would feel for Crocodile and want to root for him. That's not something that would give a character unprocessed emotional trauma to heal from and overcome. He'd just be a villian who'd need to have his beliefs changed.

Where as, if The Divorce was caused by Dragon and Crocodile no longer being compatible due to Dragon being straight while Crocodile transed his gender... Even in the most respectful of scenarios that is a heartbreaking situation, a painful thing to go through. That is a tragedy without bad guys, a story where you could feel bad for Crocodile and want to root for him. That is a situation that would give him trauma to heal from.

And that's kind of why I so strongly believe in Crocodile's transition being a more important, contributing factor in The Divorce. Again, this does absolutely depend on what Crocodile's actual role in the story is going to be and whether or not he's even meant to go through a character arc at all. Like if he's not going to be that important and if he isn't meant to go through an arc then sure, Crocodile's transition doesn't have to matter one fucking bit. But if he is meant to go through an arc, if we are meant to feel bad for him and find outselves rooting for him eventually... From a writing perspective, that'll be far easier to do if we can find ourselves sympathizing with him even just a little bit.

Also like. Yes, you can have queer characters who are just queer for the sake of being queer, their queerness does not have to be an important aspect in them or a huge plotpoint in their story at all. Crocodile could be queer just for the sake of being queer. Because that's what it's like being queer, you just are what you are. At the same time, from a writing perspective. What would even be the point of making him queer if it didn't matter to his character at all and have an impact on his character?

Also while Crocodile and Dragon clearly have very different beliefs on how the WG should be dealt with right now, we don't really know when Crocodile came to his beliefs. Like for all we know Crocodile could've formed his worldview years after the divorce. Hell, based on the way he spoke to Vivi about her ideals, and how we know he spent over a decade in utter emotional solitude, his current worldview could have been partially born from resentment towards Dragon (and his ideals) that's been simmering away over the years.

All of this to say; yes I think the two's beliefs could have been a contributing factor in The Divorce, but from a writing perspective (and based on the direction I personally want to see the story go), I find it far more likely if Crocodile's transition was the main cause, one way or another.

[mamirhodessxox]

I Hate You More (Part 4)

Mafia!Cody Rhodes x Fem OC!Mafia Reader

(Sasha Francesca Ricci)

Enemies to lovers trope

Credits to @alyyaanna for helping me come up w the storyline because I had like 3 different mental breakdowns trying to figure out what to do

Storyline: Sasha was born into a world of darkness and fear, Despite the harsh circumstances she was out in she managed to drag herself into finding love at a young age especially when she least expected it but unfortunately not all love stories are fairytales, Sasha resented the man who once brought her love in her life just to leave and break her heart while having the audacity to invade her life many years once again and give her conflict of love and war on how she was to overcome the feelings she feared while trying to focus on her job with him being so close and invasive to her.

Contents: Smut in future chapters, Knife Play, Choking kink, Degradation kink, Praising Kink, Alcohol, Smoking, Violence, Mentions of m1rder, drug dealing, Fluff, Angst.

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Sasha & Cody had a good think running for a little bit. There was still the slight bickering & Sasha becoming annoyed with Cody but believe it or not when they would work together they got work done.

They did fucking amazing on drug deals & made massive amounts of money, Miami was a messy city & the drug business sunk their fucking teeth into the City’s bad habits which were Partying & getting as high as possible.

Sasha would make the sales while Cody would keep track of whatever they were selling & how much money they were making but Barbra was still quite unhappy with Cody after seeing his Initials “C.R” Into her thigh, She was not pleased with Cody at all after that but once again, Business is Business. Sasha & Cody never established what was between them after that and they honestly preferred to keep it that way but Sasha had made it abundantly clear to Athena multiple times he was off the roster to screw but she just won’t take the hint.

Marianna sat in the kitchen watching Athena follow around Cody like a lost dog within the streets & noticed she laughed way to hard at one of his jokes he would make with Randy & Sasha knew Cody wasn’t THAT funny. She turned to Marianna & put on an annoying high pitched voice mocking the girl that was once her friend “Ohh my gosh! Of course I’ll screw you when your feeling bored and lonely Cody! Even though I fucked half of the house and probably the entire city of Miami because that’s the slut I am!! I’ll even act like your best friend & cheer you on to get someone you miss so bad and go behind your back to fuck that same person!” Marianna laughed in amusement while everyone’s attention turned to Sasha.

Athena scoffed crossing her arms “Is there a problem Sasha?” Cody raised a brow as he watched the two “I’m sorry did you not like my joke? Maybe it was a little bit too real for you huh?” Sasha faked pity & frowned poking her bottom lip out before Athena rolled her eyes “Your just mad because Cody fucked me more because he wanted to touch me instead of someone as repulsing as you.” Sasha widened her eyes & laughed “You wanna talk about repulsing but you fuck half of the state of Florida? Okay Athena. Okay. Maybe I should probably give you a very in depth reminder on what he’s done with me rather than you because I actually have meaning to him.” Sasha pushed Marianna out of her way gently while strutting over to Cody & Athena “Pull your shirt up.” Cody furrowed his brows “Sash-“ “Pull. Your fucking. Shirt up.” Cody glared and tugged his shirt up revealing his chest as Sasha placed her nail right next to her name that was cut into his skin “Bet he didn’t let you do that to him did he? Let you claim him as yours?”

“Hell did he even cut his initials on you in 3 different places?” She tilted her head with a confused look on her face while Athena was starting to show off her anger & envy as Sasha got in her face “You also have a lot of fucking nerve on you to come into MY mothers house, act like your big tough shit to her daughter who has more control over you than your own fucking parents combined & act like your gonna do something whenever I offend you. Let me make it abundantly clear for you Thena. You’re a passed around play thing that’s only a good fuck when someone’s frustrated or just in general horny. The only reason why you’re here right now is because we have pity for you. But keep in mind that you will never be me, you will never have Cody & own him the way I do & you are not a goddamn Ricci because if you were, You’d bring some shame to this goddamn family & business.” Cody grabbed Sasha’s shoulder pulling her away “That’s enou-“ she looked at him and snickered looking at him up and down before turning her attention back to Athena “Get out of my face Athena.”

She huffed and puffed looking around for defense but everyone sat silent besides Marianna. She was smirking sitting on the table dangling her fingers at her and blowing her a kiss mouthing the words ‘Bye Bye’ before Randy gave her a look and a light pat on the thigh as a warning to stay out of this. Cody glared over at Sasha “What the fuck was that?” She raised a brow “I was putting her in her place what do you mean ‘What the fuck was that’ Cody?” He scoffed shaking his head “Seriously? Telling her that she’s all good for sex & how she will never mean anything to me?” Sasha glared and crossed her arms before rolling her neck side to side while letting out a breathy laugh “Of course you’d be the type to carve your fucking name on my body & have me do the same to yours and proceed to tell me I own you as much as you own me just for you to defend Athena & stick your dick back down her throat.” She spat her harsh words at him while Marianna furrowed her brows and almost spoke up against Cody to defend her bestfriend but Randy gave her another look before Sasha scoffed “Fuck you Cody. You’re just as much of a whore as she is.” Seth watched his sister storm off while Cody turned to him for defense but he shook his head “You can’t just cut your name into my sisters skin & expect her to not have a little bit of possessiveness over you towards someone who’s been a problem like this for over 4 years.”

Cody furrowed his brows before walking off towards Athenas room to formally & privately apologize on Sasha’s behalf but realized Sasha saw as she was walking towards the front door & stared directly at him before picking up a pair of keys from the bowl that laid next to the door where people often put their wallet, Keys or even other things before entering the house completely Cody’s face dropped & soon sprinted down the stairs but she was out of the house. Already in the drive way with a key & walking towards the car Cody had owned which meant it was luxurious “Don’t you do it Goddamnit!” He shouted as everyone followed behind him but Sasha also noticed a bat that laid next to a bush & immediately went off to go grab it “Sasha knock it off!” Barbra shouted pushing past Cody & Seth & went to stop her daughter but she was faster & immediately smashed the bat into gis windshield and pointed it in his direction “I’m sick of your fucking games Cody! I’m sick of you acting like I mean something to you but then when I hurt your little fuck toys feelings by calling her out on what she is I’m such a fucking problem!” She shouted while Cody rushed towards her & tried grabbing out for her wrist but she immediately slammed the bat into the hood of his car

“Sasha knock it off & talk to me about this like a grown fucking woman!” “FUCK YOU! I showed you my vulnerability I let you CARVE your name into my skin & you just continue to fuck me over!” She screamed at him & eventually Randy leaned into Mari’s ear as the two shouted at each other “Do what you need to do.” She nodded at him and walked towards Sasha pushing Cody away “You need to leave her alone & just stop fucking talking. You’ve done enough.” She warned him while turning to Sasha & looking at her with a soft expression and taking the bat & keys away from her as gently as possible “c’mere..” Sasha then finally let her walls down for her best friend and cried on her shoulder while Cody stood in guilt before she saw Athena walk out which brought back all of that rage & make Sasha shove past Mari & get in Athena’s smug face “What kind of fucking friend are you!? This isn’t even about Cody this was about You & Me and our friendship and how you fucked that up & if you didn’t wanna be friends the. FINE because I don’t wanna fucking be your friend.” Marianna frowned & held Sasha’s shoulder before making her walk past everyone & go back inside. The two sat down on the staircase & Mari just held Sasha who was crying with frustration & confusion “I’m s-so sick of it! He puts me through hell & now she’s fucking him!? W-What the fuck Mari! When is it gonna end!” She sniffled while the brunette frowned running her hands down Sasha’s back.

Barbra breathed heavily & diverted her stare onto Athena “Was this your doing? Did you cause this damn fight!?” Athena stood there in shock & held her mouth agape while Barbra slammed her hands against her chest pushing her down onto the ground “You have a lot of nerve to come into this business, this family & make MY daughters life hell when she came to you with welcoming arms.” She scolded while Athena stayed speechless. Randy gently held Barbs arm “Don’t. It’s not worth yelling for.” She looked over at him & nodded while looking back over at the man who caused her daughter heartbreak “Your a pathetic excuse for a man.” She spat harsh words at him before turning & kicking Athena out of her way before walking inside to comfort her child.

Weeks after that Cody suffered in silent treatment from not only his bestfriend Seth but also Sasha. She wouldn’t even argue with him & annoy him like she usually does, it was as if she pretended he wasn’t there. One night she sat on the porch after dinner & drank out of her single wine bottle.

6 years ago…

Sasha & Cody sat together on the pier of Miami beach enjoying each others embrace while she swirled the promise ring he gave her many months ago around her finger she just pushed 19 & him 20, for the last 3 years they had been dating after meeting each other in high-school. They were so well connected to each other & related on many a things throughout their relationship. Their families were both within a fucked up mafia like business. When both of them couldn’t handle the way their lifestyles worked some days they were the only people that could comfort one another.

She leaned her head against his shoulder tracing shoulders against his back while he held her close just as the sun was setting & reflecting off of the ocean “One day I’m gonna get us out of here Sash’ I’m gonna get us out of here, start a new life somewhere quiet & calm and put a permanent ring on that finger.” She smiled looking up at him & interlocked her hand with his “You think we’ll love each other like this forever Codes?” She was such a sweet girl, her voice soft & relaxed, “I know we will sweet girl, for as long as we both live.”

If only it were true, after the sun officially set he took her home 2 hours after her curfew & she laughed as he tried climbing through her window as easy as she did “Cody we could’ve gone through the door.” He shook his head chuckling as he finally made it through her window before holding her waist “Your mom would’ve killed me if she saw me walk through that door especially when we’re getting here fashionably late for your curfew baby y’know this.” She smiled shrugged and pressing her gentle kiss against his lips “I love you Cody.” “I love you more angel, forever and always.”

She was so love sick for him that a month after that night where he broke up with her she changed forever, she was never able to love anyone the way she loved her Cody. She felt broken & lost without him and slowly began to resent & hate him for the way he left this affect on her

Present Day..

She felt Cody’s presence behind her & turned around a bit before looking away while he sighed sitting down next to her “What happened to us Sash?” He asked softly and looked at her while she avoided the eye contact “It wasn’t supposed to be like this sweetheart, WE weren’t supposed to be like this.” Sasha looked over at him & put her hair up while he kept talking “It was a stupid mistake the way we ended things sash’ we had a good thing going on & I just fucked it all up instead of fighting harder” Sasha shook her head “Maybe we just weren’t meant to be together Cody. We would’ve ended up in this current situation together or not.” He frowned shaking his head “Baby don’t say that..” Sasha scowled at the pet name “Don’t call me that.” She warned, Cody sighed and tried grabbing ahold of her hand but she got up & started walking back inside the house & hid herself away into her bedroom while her phone was ringing. Roman.

She picked up the call & swiftly shut her door locking it behind her “Have you thought over my offer yet Doll?” She hummed, A few nights ago Roman had gotten in touch offering her a place within his own gig within the drug business & utter control over anything she wanted unlike what she had in her family’s business. She wouldn’t have to face Cody everyday, she wouldn’t have to put up with Athena’s bullshit, it was like starting a clean slate. “I have. I would like to take up your offer.” She heard his devious chuckle before he told her she was to be expected at his manor by the morning & hung up.

She made her way downstairs into her mother & Randy’s office & gave them an update on Roman calling her as they had already knew about his offer, “If you feel comfortable enough going through with the plan then I’ll allow you to make your way over there tomorrow & do what you need to do..” Randy spoke as he leaned his entire body weight on his desk. Randy & Barbra had been told about this stunt Roman was pulling on Sasha and they had decided to make a plan by having her “go through with the offer” & turning on him just to get the information the Ricci’s needed on Roman.

Cody leaned against the wall near the office listening in & once Sasha finished her discussion with Randy & her mother and she walked out Cody grabbed her arm and walked off while she smacked his hand “What the fuck?! Cody let me go! I don’t have time for any of your games damnit!” He wouldn’t budge & dragged her outside into the backyard “What the fuck was that about Sasha?” She glared in confusion “Oh your fucking eavesdropping now?” He nodded putting his hands in his hips hooking his fingers against the belt wrapped around his pants “Yes, Yes I fucking am because I heard a very familiar name & I’m pretty sure it was Romans, Sasha for the love of fucking god don’t go through with this dumb shit it’s going to end horribly.” She crossed her arms as she grimaced at him “I’m getting really sick of you trying to control my own decisions Cody, Seriously, it’s fucking annoying.” Cody smacked his hands against his legs and paced in a circle for a quick minute trying to speak but she grabbed him by the collar of his shirt “Shut your mouth for 1 damn minute & save me the goddamn scolding of a life time okay? I’m going through with the plan and your not stopping me.” She shoved him out of her way and made her way back inside

Sasha spent the next day going over some things with Roman & getting used to the new atmosphere. Her gut tried telling her this was a horrible idea but she refused to listen. Roman sat her down in an office and cleared his throat. “We know you killed one of my men Doll. And usually I don’t appreciate that disrespect but I noticed that you are damn good at your job. I want you to be one of my hitmen, interrogators & top sellers. How does that sound?” She tilted her head “What’s in it for me?” He hummed digging through his desks drawers & then slammed a stack of cash on the table in her face “10,000 dollars each kill, sound good enough for you?” She picked up and flicked her thumb against the cash & jotted her head in his direction “20,000” “Deal.” She smiled & stood up & Shook his hand “A deals a deal.” Roman grinned before running his hand down her cheek “Your going to be the greatest addition to this business. You will not be taken for granted Sasha. Let’s put the past behind us starting today yeah?”

Randy was blowing up her phone for an update but she didn’t pick up. In fact this is where they started to not hear from her for 3 whole weeks. Everyone tried contacting Sasha but it was radio silence on her part so..Seth ended up calling roman to make a fair deal over some drug sale & had set a meeting place in a parking garage but she knew it was their way of trying to get her back as the realization hit for them that Sasha was actually going through with the offer Roman gave her.

Roman & Sasha waited in the parking garage for this “drug deal” but just as one of their cars began pulling in she grabbed Romans shoulder softly as she slowly realized it was only one of them attending this deal & that gave her the confirmation she needed that they were indeed trying to get her back. “You go home. I know their tricks & pawns. Let me deal with this alright?” Roman huffed thinking about it before giving in & following her directions stepping into his car & driving off. Just as the black Porsche pulled into a stop & parked in between the two white lines Cody got out of the car while Sasha stood her ground, hands in the pockets of her leather jacket while he sighed “Really Sasha? Turning on us now? Is that what Ricci’s do?” She shrugged “I don’t know. But since you like to act like your a Ricci when you’re not how by the way, about you tell me that yourself Cody, do we do that?” He winced at her words & dramatically put a hand over his chest “Your words truly hurt me sweetheart.” He spoke in a sarcastic tone.

“Why are you doing this Sasha, seriously, why? Your smarter than this yet your acting like a fucking dumbass turning your back on us for someone who’s going to turn his back on you. She clenched her jaw as she observed his body language & every detail of his face “He has more to offer to me than any of you, I mean seriously Cody, do you understand how fucked it is for your mother to know how badly her daughters first love broke her but yet still recruits him? That’s pretty fucked if I do say so myself but you wouldn’t understand because your ego’s as high as the clouds and your head is busy shoved up your own ass you don’t even realize how much your presence itself affects me.” Cody frowned before looking down and running his fingers against his jaw. He nodded looking up trying to reach his hand out to her but immediately she acted fast

Just as he stepped a few inches closer Sasha pulled a pistol out of her coat & pressed it against his head with a plain face “Not another step.” She said slowly as he chuckled with an amused smile on his head “That’s a new move. Go on Sasha. Since you apparently have the balls to pull a gun on me now do it. Shoot me.” Sasha froze at his words but eventually noticed he was being dead serious. “You have the guts to pull a gun on me then you must have the guts to shoot me right? Go on sweetheart, pull the trigger, right here, right now.”

She glared as he placed his hand over hers & scooted her finger towards the trigger “Do. It.” Fuck.

xtripleiiix’s Masterlist

[hic-incipit]

𝙽𝙴𝚅𝙴𝚁 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙱𝙸𝙶 𝙼𝙰𝙳 → 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚗; 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚌𝚊𝚗𝚘𝚗

So, for those of you whom aren't subscribed to Christopher's Bubble OR whom haven't either heard and/or seen about the most recent Bubble antics recently on other forms of social media, the man decided to live out his K-Drama Fantasies on behalf of Chan Stans and Stay everywhere.

What exactly did he do, you ask? Well, to put it simply (and trust me, this is difficult because Chan is my bias) he broke up with us, tried to accuse us of cheating, but then admitted it was him who had been cheating to then admitting he was playing a simple joke on us and reassured us that he'd never want to do anything to hurt us (bless him, I swear). Who was it? It was Berry. Yes. His dog, Berry. 😒😂

I'm pretty sure non-Chan stans were convinced there was something actually wrong with him due to the number of Tiktoks and Fans posts I personally saw, however, us Chan-biased knew the man was full of shit and was most assuredly pulling some of his usual Chan-coded shenanigans.

𝙽𝙴𝚅𝙴𝚁 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙱𝙸𝙶 𝙼𝙰𝙳

It didn't matter what Chris did, how he said it, or why he did it. The simple fact still remained the same: you could never get mad at him.

→ Chris is the type of man that if asked, he'd likely do some crazy shit for the person he loves. Walk over hot coals? Sure. Dodge a few bullets? Yeah, no problem. Clean your shared living space, wash and fold laundry, put away dishes and cook dinner last minute? Of course.

→ But ask him to do something like, take out the trash? Well, fuck all of that.

→ And, truthfully, its not because he's incapable. He's exceedingly able to do said task. Its just...well...well he gets really hyper-focused on a task, especially a task he wants to do, it kind of--sort of--slips his mind.

→ And sure, the first few times he tells you this and flashes that thought-paralyzing smile, its suddenly not a big deal and you have no problem taking it out yourself.

→ However, the moment it goes from "a few times" to "too many times", you're suddenly finding yourself overcome with a rather new emotion. At least, when it comes to anything related to Chris.

→ You're big mad. Furious even. And its justifiable! Even Chris would agree with you. He's a grown ass man; he knows better.

→ However, the stars align and the universe conspires against you the morning you do ask him to take it out.

→ You're running late. You have an entirely packed work schedule. You slept for literal shit the night before. Your favorite pair of work pants weren't clean. You didn't have your favorite breakfast yogurt and you had to do mandatory overtime to top it all off.

→ So you ask Chris last minute as you're hastily packing up your work bag to take out the trash before you get home from work later that evening.

→ "Yeah, yeah, of course, beautiful! I'll take care of it." He promises and you believe him. Because in that moment, you don't have the time nor bandwidth to remember to question him about the other times he forgot. So, in your haste, you thank him and plant a kiss on his forehead before dashing out the door for work.

→ Well, see, Chris really did intend to do it. And he even wrote it down on a post-it note that he stuck to the monitor of his computer to remind him. But then he got distracted, watching Stay vlogs on Youtube. And then he got inspired by a mashup of Case 143 and God's Menu that a Stay had made, so he had to mess around in his studio.

→ Then suddenly it was 6:30pm. Chris is the literal physical embodiment of If You Give A Mouse A Cookie.

→ Chris hears the door open when you arrive home. And then the subsequent shout of his name. Okay, you're definitely not happy. He's also pretty sure he hears some slamming of somekind, maybe.

→ But it isn't until he hears your little feet stomping down the hall towards his studio door that he cannot help but find you the absolute cutest thing he's ever seen and heard than in this moment.

→ And lets be clear...Chris never invalidates you or dismisses you when you're upset. He just can't help but find it really fucking precious.

→ But you? Well, you're pissed. And you're determined to let his ass know. Because every other time you have been upset with him, he somehow disarms you completely and you immediately forget why you were mad in the first place.

→ Its damn near impossible to be mad at him. I mean, look at him. How can you get mad at that face? You can't, that's why.

→ Anticipating you, Chris is on the other side of his studio door just waiting. And as expected, he hears the all too familiar bang, bang, bang of your fist making contact with the door.

→ You do your best to strengthen your resolve. This time you're gonna give him the people's elbow and really let him have it. He just couldn't keep getting away with this. You know it. He knows it.

→ But that was before he'd opened his door. Well, after your little fists pounded his door, he promptly opened it and looked down at you. His head cocked to the side, one brow lifted as if he has absolutely no clue why you're standing there with your arms crossed, tapping your foot against the hardwood floor while wearing a really pathetic attempt at pure ire.

→ And you were so determined to proverbially throat punch the man, especially after the day you'd had (and to be fair, Chris probably would've let you literally throat punch him if he knew it would make you feel better). But once he opens the door and the scent of his studio and him bum rushes your nostrils, your eyes dart up to his and...and...

→ Well, god fucking damnit.

→ What were you even mad at him for? Why is he looking at you like you're some sort of damsel in distress? Why is he smiling? What's so funny?

→ "CHRISTOPHER!" Is all you can manage, your voice coming out in more of an exasperated whine and definitely not sounding any bit angry.

→ Chris stands there and mirrors you, crossing his arms and leans into the door jam with his head still cocked to the side. One of his dimples is showing and you just know he fucking knows. He knows why you're standing there. And he knows why you're upset. Or, well, you think he knows just based on the way he's looking at you like the cutest little creature he's ever seen.

→ You release your crossed arms, letting out a very audible huff through your nose as you do and you just stare at him. Blinking wildly, trying to find the resolve you knew you had about 60 seconds ago. But where it went, you haven't a fucking clue. Because he's standing there...just looking at you like you are the cutest little creature he's ever seen.

→ "Baby?" He finally responds. His voice is calm, suddenly soothing your rattled nerves. You let out yet another huff, but this time its a little less intense and you drop your shoulders.

→ "I hate you. You know that? I'm mad. I'm mad at...you!" You press your finger gently into his chest as you speak, "But...but I can't fucking remember why now because you're looking at me like that and...and...UGH!"

→ Chris knows you had a rough day. He doesn't even need to ask you to know it. He just feels it radiating off of you. So, he cocks his head to the opposite side as you stand there, trying to be mad about something and looking less and less like the raging bull you thought you did and more like a shrieking squirrel.

→ And Chris lets a beat of silence go between the both of you before he simply places each of his hands on either side of your arms and brings you close to him. You hear a soft sigh breach his lips before he leans in and presses a firm, but gentle kiss to your forehead.

→ Yeah, this fucker disarmed you with the forehead kiss this time. Damnit, damnit, damnit.

→ He leans back up, straightening himself upright before giving your arms a gentle squeeze. And he doesn't say anything. His arms fall back to his sides as he resumes his previous stance against the door jam. He's still smiling at you like you are the cutest little creature he's ever seen.

→ You let out one last sigh. Well, the man did it again. And you can't even be mad. Because I mean, look at him. Try being mad at him. Its impossible.

→ You give a shake of your head before spinning on your heels, heading back down the hall towards the kitchen. But you feel Chris' eyes are still on you. And you look back over your shoulder and yep, there those brown little boba eyes are, locked on you.

→ "I'm mad at you. So don't you dare stare at my ass as I walk away from you." You look forward again, but not before you place a hand on each butt cheek in a feeble attempt to block Chris' gaze.

→ And all you hear are his muffled giggles. His absolutely adorable, precious and cute giggles. Fucking shitbird.

[bittersweetblasphemy]

How am i supposed to act like im Okay after that episode????? LIKE!!!!!WHAT?!?!?!? It was gorgeous and my heart is ripped in two and trampled onvthe floor and each of this two buttholes have half

And Fizz looked So Good oholy fuck i love him and the crew fucking up cherub shit im dead i love them all so much im gonna go cry on the floor until the next episode bye

would the compilation of Stolas saying Blitzy i just found cheer you up?

but yeah no i am so beautifully devastated. i reblogged something earlier about how much more satisfying it is that this mess was them reacting to sudden emotional confrontation rather than just a general misunderstanding.

like i was stunned when Stolas actually explained his full feelings and thought for a hot second that they'd really get together. Like maybe Blitz would need to work through it, but the way he clearly thought Stolas was saying it disingenuously and then fell back on his old habits to cover the hurt???

Like I bet you even if he never could admit it to himself, Blitz was dying to hear Stolas confess to loving him. But it's so impossible in his head that anyone could care about him- i mean, hell, Loona makes a fucking point about it earlier in the episode- that he just plain doesn't believe it could be real. and it fucking hurts. but to hide that hurt he mocks it and wraps it back into sex and roleplay. he says he loves him back but only in this safe pretend space. but when Stolas doesn't go for it, and continues to be genuine, it clicks that it's real.

"What, what? You were serious!?" [20:50]

it's all hitting him so fast and so hard. love is too complex and it's left him fucking shattered too many times. and if he can't deflect into jokes or horny, if he can't keep up the defense, he switches to offense. now it's anger. and he lets out all of the doubt and hurt he's been carrying.

maybe he needed space to process, but he was so startled and hurt initially that when he deflected, Stolas, understandably, took it as a rejection of his feelings.

"I have wanted you for so long. The fact that you couldn't believe that I might have these feeling about you, that your first instinct is that it's always about sex, that's enough to know what this is."

i am dead. i am on the floor. deceased.

because now Blitz is being told that he's the one whose feelings are disingenuous. and he lashes out with his first direct FUCK YOU at Stolas.

"You spring this feeling bullshit on me, are you fucking kidding?"

kudos to Brandon Rogers because the anger is just so fucking genuine and raw. all of the hurt comes out, and it's directed at the only other person in the room. and he ends it with "Let's go!" like he's expecting a full-on fight. he's expecting a back and forth screaming match, though maybe not actual thrown hands. he's so clearly not expecting to have made Stolas cry. he's not expecting the calm, if sorrowful final goodbye.

Blitz is used to yelling and screaming and throwing hands. Stolas is used to being hit, and submissive and quiet. even at his most angry at Stella, he barely raises his voice to her. he regularly dodges her throwing things at him. and the one time he touches her in an altercation is to prevent her from hitting him. what must he feel to have Blitz, the man he loves, following him around his home and screaming at the top of his lungs?

the conflict between them is one i didn't see coming but was just so fantastically played out like i am floored. i really do hope to see them overcome it in an equally satisfying way.

i really did love seeing Fizz this episode too. he looks so genuinely happy! i really hope we're gonna get to see more of him. maybe him and Asmodeus nudging them back together? as another open goetia/imp relationship it'd be really great to see them supporting each other.

[hazbinsponsoredbyvee]

Until I get motivation to do the Husk list, I wanna make some Radiostatic, because it's my favorite ship, and I adore silly bi TV guy and his hot wife

So, first of all, if any of these questions are insensitive/making you uncomfortable/you just don't wanna answer them for privacy reasons, I won't force em outta you. This is a how much you know about your lover/how your relationship doing/take this quirky quizz/thing... I guess, so let's begin!

1. The earliest memory you have with each other. How did you two meet and what made the other just stick out from the rest and want to aproach/keep talking to the them?

2. What did first catch you eye when you met the other? It can be a physical trait or the way they speak, the way they move around, anything really.

3. What's a trait you disliked/still dislike a about the other and what did you do about it? Talked? Yelled? Held it in?

4. What's the sweetest thing the other has done for you? What about the cutest? And the most romantic one?

5. If you could change one singular thing about the other, what would you change?

6. What was the biggest argument and how did you overcome it?

7. How do you make the other flustered, if you ever did? What do you think they appreciate the most about you?

8. Do you know your lover's love language and if so, how do you usually show affection to the other?

9. What's your best, most memorable moment with your partener? The one that always brings a smile on your face when you think about?

10. What's your favorite gift from the other and where do you keep it?

11. How do you handle disagreements?

12. Who would you say is the most jealous? The most possessive?

13. What thing do you find oddly attractive about the other?

14. Would you say you know your lover's past? How their life was on earth and what they've been thru basically?

15. Okay, i have to know, because there are so many hcs: Alastor, did you actually keep Vox's old TV head or not?

—bird anon

"Really? Must we?"

"Oh, come on, Al, it could be fun! At the very least, it's a chance to talk about ourselves!"

1. The earliest memory you have with each other. How did you two meet and what made the other just stick out from the rest and want to aproach/keep talking to the them?

"He was sitting at the bar alone and was hot as fuck! Couldn't believe there wasn't a line of people waiting to hit on him, so of course, I had to take advantage of that."

"That's because most people knew better. But I found his ignorance amusing, so I decided to humor him. And then he started trying to impress me with facts about his favorite serial killer, which was just adorable!"

"Ugh, shut up."

2. What did first catch you eye when you met the other? It can be a physical trait or the way they speak, the way they move around, anything really.

"How bold he was. And of course, his rather unique head."

"I mean, I already said - he's hot as fuck."

3. What's a trait you disliked/still dislike a about the other and what did you do about it? Talked? Yelled? Held it in?

"He's a stubborn asshole who will never admit to being at fault in anything. If you don't agree with him, you're wrong, and he will be quick to point it out to you. Oh, and heaven forbid, he rely on anyone else!"

"I do believe they said a singular trait, dear."

"Well, it's hard to pick. And no, I didn't talk to him about it, because I knew how that conversation would go. At least, not before our falling out."

"I'll narrow it down to one, as difficult as it is. His method of continually putting out quick, cheap, and sloppy entertainment, just for an easy cash grab, instead of putting in the work to make something quality. Something that I have told him multiple times."

"So many times. Going back to, I do something different from you, so I'm automatically wrong, so you have to be an asshole about it."

4. What's the sweetest thing the other has done for you? What about the cutest? And the most romantic one?

"Oh, his proposal was undoubtably the sweetest, most romantic thing he has ever done for me. It was perfect."

"Yeah? Glad to hear it. And Al took me to an aquarium for our first date, which I know he had absolutely no interest in, but he barely complained. It was... really sweet."

5. If you could change one singular thing about the other, what would you change?

"The fact that he's constantly working."

"I know, I know. His disdain for everything I do."

"You can change that yourself by doing better."

"Fuck you."

6. What was the biggest argument and how did you overcome it?

"Really? How about the one that led to us trying to kill each other for years?"

"Also known as Vox's inability to handle rejection."

"Fuck, we've been over this! There was more to it than that! I'd just had enough of Alastor being an asshole, so I lost my temper and tried to do something really stupid. But we were locked in a room to talk it all out, and I've apologized."

"And his actions showed that he truly was sorry, so I forgave him."

7. How do you make the other flustered, if you ever did? What do you think they appreciate the most about you?

"Oh, he's quite easy to fluster. All I have to do is compliment him, or touch him just right. And I'd say he appreciates my talent as an entertainer and my sense of humor!"

"It's funny, the best ways to fluster him are either showing my more sadistic side or showing just how submissive I can be. And I know what he most appreciates about me - that I'm obsessed with him."

8. Do you know your lover's love language and if so, how do you usually show affection to the other?

"His is acts of service. And I mean, I killed a good number of my staff for him - I think that counts. I do tend to default to giving gifts, though; just cause I want to spoil him."

"His is physical touch, which I allow him to indulge in. And I'll reward him with it when I feel he deserves it. Otherwise, I show it by doing things together."

9. What's your best, most memorable moment with your partener? The one that always brings a smile on your face when you think about?

"Again, I must answer with his proposal. It was really quite thoughtful."

"After all the shit with Val, he was just... really attentive and sweet. That was the night he told me he loved me."

10. What's your favorite gift from the other and where do you keep it?

"A small radio that I keep on my desk."

"A record that he made for me quite a few years ago that I keep in my collection."

11. How do you handle disagreements?

"They either blow over or lead to a fight."

"Usually the latter."

12. Who would you say is the most jealous? The most possessive?

"If anyone looks at Al the wrong way, I will fry them."

"And Vox is mine. I will send that message loud and clear."

13. What thing do you find oddly attractive about the other?

"I don't know how to answer that."

"Definitely his bloodlust."

14. Would you say you know your lover's past? How their life was on earth and what they've been thru basically?

"Oh yeah, definitely!"

"You would, being a stalker and all. I know what he's told me, which is a fair amount, but I'm sure isn't everything."

15. Okay, i have to know, because there are so many hcs: Alastor, did you actually keep Vox's old TV head or not?

"No, I did not."

"Yeah, that was recycled for parts."

[thewolvesof1998]

Created by @mostlyinthemorning

Day 12 pt. 2

Okay, so I thought I would do something special for the last day, here is a list of all of my favourite fics from all of my mutuals (I've read like 95% of these and others are highly anticipated!) I'm going to have to do this in two parts!

The Powder Room Plotby tinygiantsam @watchyourbuck 

“Let me eat you out,” Eddie whispered, his voice dark. He gripped Buck's sides harder, rocking his hips up. Buck whimpered, inhaling sharply. The force made him bend over the sink, pushing himself farther against Eddie’s cock. “Eddie,” he said, warningly. “Please, Buck, let me eat you out,” he insisted, smelling the back of his head with his eyes closed. “No one’ll notice.”

Cow Eyes by theotherlucifer @theotherbuckley 

Buck gets the call on a Saturday. He’s sat at the kitchen table, delving into some strange corner of the internet where he’s apparently discovered that seahorses hold each others' tails when they swim and that cows have best friends and that Eddie’s big brown gorgeous eyes remind him of cow eyes and maybe if they were cows then they’d still be best friends— And then he gets the call. His phone starts ringing just as he’s learning about polar bears giving each other nose boops. He reaches out and grabs the phone off the counter, still so lost in his deep dive that he doesn’t even check the number that’s calling. “Hello?” “Is this Evan Buckley?” A professional-sounding woman answers. It’s then that Buck promptly forgets whatever facts he just learnt and instead feels a familiar ache creeping its way into his chest. “That’s, uh— that’s me,” he manages to get out. “You’re listed as Eddie Diaz’ emergency contact, is that right?” (Or the 'Eddie's in hospital and Buck tries not to break down' fic except its actually just a cute silly little fic)

[Music Embedded] Burning Bright by Mangacat, with (wilfriede0815) @mangacat201

"The 118" is a secret tip still in the punk rock scene, but their manager Bobby Nash is determined to give them their Big Break soon. Right now, they're playing gigs wherever they can get them and working on a first album - with Buck trying to overcome songwriting insecurities, Eddie there to help, Chim and Ravi eager to enable and Hen despairing at the task of corralling that whole chaos clowncar by herself. Meanwhile, Christopher is working to outfox them all (in the name of love, of course).

right in front of your eyesby rainbow_nerds @rainbow-nerdss

He and Chris, and Buck. They work, they’re a unit. Why should it matter that he’s single? Buck is watching him, like he’s reading every thought on his face. “You’re already planning to lie about the date. Why don’t you just tell her you met someone yourself?” Eddie shrugs and tilts his head to the side, squinting in thought. “She won’t set me up on dates if she thinks I’ve got someone,” he muses. “But she’ll want to meet whoever it is.” “So... Introduce them?” Or: Buck offers to fake-date Eddie so Pepa will stop setting him up on dates.

I got a bed but I’d rather be in ours tonight by LongConvolutedSimiles @nmcggg 

He’s close, he can’t believe he’s close already, from rubbing up against the mattress like a teenager having a wet dream. He could say it’s because he hasn’t done this in so long, spending night after night with Eddie by his side means he hasn’t had much privacy. But really he’s close because everything is just so overwhelmingly Eddie that it feels like he’s here, it feels like he’s watching him. “Buck?” Oh fuck, oh fuck, fuckfuckfuck. - Or Buck and Eddie have been sharing a bed for a couple of months now, but when Eddie is away on a date Buck decides to let off some steam. Eddie comes home early.

You don't know how much love it cost me to say goodbye by Feru_08 @pirrusstuff 

It's día de muertos and Evan Buckley prepares to see Eddie once again

i'll keep you alive if you show me the way by rosebuddiekin @giddyupbuck

“I know you’re there. I believe in you.” Eddie knows he isn’t just talking to Buck anymore. He doesn’t care, though, not enough to stop himself from crying out to any higher power that might be out there. “I want to believe.” It’s the truth. Eddie wants to believe, because Buck does. “Just, not Buck. Okay?” He can feel the tears starting, but he can’t be bothered to let go of Buck’s hand to clear them. Or: Eddie pleads with the Universe to save Buck after the lightning strike.

i'll lie awake for you by diazbegins @evanbegins

Eddie’s brings his hand back up to squeeze Buck’s jaw affectionately, thumb prodding at the corner of his mouth with a glint of mischief and arousal in his eyes, “I think we already got pretty messy last night.” “Well, that was ‘cause we got married a week ago,” Buck makes up that excuse and kisses Eddie all sloppy, biting his pouty bottom lip and putting a bit more of his weight forward to try and get Eddie on his back. Eddie doesn’t let him, turning his head so their lips connect more comfortably on each kiss. “We had plenty of messy mornings at Big Bear,” Eddie says when they break away before surging back forward, a warm pit in his stomach getting more and more evident the longer they keep on kissing so sweetly. Buck rolls his eyes but lets a noise escape him when Eddie gives a sharp nip to his lip, big hand squeezing the meat of his thigh before resting on his hip with a firm grip, “We need messy mornings when we aren’t on a honeymoon.” Or: Buck and Eddie, newly-weds, spend their well-deserved time alone. (AKA buddie fucking for about 7.9k words)

I'm not afraid to change your name ('cause I'm crazy about you) by smilingbuckley @smilingbuckley

5 times Buck gets called by his new last name + 1 time he has another name change -- "Hmm," Eddie nuzzles his nose against Buck’s cheek, "God, I love you." Buck, whose eyes had closed at the feeling of Eddie being cute with him, opens his eyes. They turn wide. They hadn't said that yet. Not after they started dating. Before, sure, but they had been just best friends. "You do?" Buck asks, voice soft. Eddie takes a step back and turns Buck around so he can look at him, then he cups Buck’s face. "I am so hopelessly, painfully, endlessly in love with you, Evan Nash." Buck’s cheeks redden more, "I love you too."

pumpkin patch kinda love by browney3dgirl6 @hoodie-buck

“How much longer dad?” “I’m sure they’re almost ready. Why don’t you hang out with your friends until it’s time?” Christopher frowned. “Can you go ask dad, please?” Eddie would rather do anything else, thanks. But, when your kid was your world, and his big puppy dog eyes were looking up to you, well—he was only human. Eddie gave Chris’ shoulder a squeeze before looking around, spotting what looked to be a teacher. Well, they had a clipboard in their hands at least. Walking toward the teacher like person, Eddie stopped as he got closer, clearing his throat. “Um, excuse me, are you one of the teachers?” The teacher turned around to face him, Eddie suddenly a little short on words. “Oh yea, hi. I uh, I’m Mr. Buck.” Of course he was. —or— During the halloween season, Eddie is introduced to Christophers teacher, the one with pretty blue eyes that he just can’t seem to stop running into

you're where i stand, hearing the sea by Maira @carrierofthepaperclips 

What could Eddie possibly say? Sorry I accidentally kissed you, my body followed my heart without my permission? Sorry that our first kiss was so absentminded, when it should’ve been filled with everything I have yet to find the words for? Sorry that I’ve wanted to kiss you for so long, I can’t remember a time when I haven’t had to fight the urge, and I clearly lost that fight a minute ago? ... or the one with the accidental kiss.

Play me like a fiddle by JamesPearce911 @jamespearce9-1-1

Eddie plays the French Horn for the Los Angeles Philharmonic and is told about the wonderful new cello soloist playing with them for this concert. He sounds like a pretentious asshole and Eddie vows not to like him. In walks Evan Buckley, cellist from New York and soloist for this concert. Eddie quickly realises he's in trouble as the man immediately casts a spell on him, turning Eddie into a blushing mess. Can he put aside his feelings for Buck long enough to remain a professional and get through this week without making any poor decisions? (Spoiler Alert: he cannot)

Buck's Coma vs. Real World Checklist by marcato @jeeyuns

Buck: When I wake up, and I mean like every single time, I have this checklist now that I run in my head, like a way to test that I'm really here. Maddie: So, what do you check?

Out Of Order, Still In Line by callmenewbie @callmenewbie

“Alright. So, how do you wanna do this?” “I don't know, I didn't think that far.” Buck closed his eyes for a moment, trying to collect his thoughts, which was a task harder than he expected. “I guess, just… talk to me.” “About what?” Oh, god. Fuck. Okay. They were in it now, so he might as well just… “Tell me what to do.” Buck half-expected Eddie to quip ‘you don't know how to jerk off?’ but instead there was a moment of pause, then: “Okay.” Or When Buck finally gets to the Clinic, the long awaited release doesn’t seem to come; cue Eddie to the rescue.

Say It All Out Loud by spacebabe17 @thosetwofirefighters 

For a moment, he feels guilty about worrying—this is Tia Pepa, his favorite aunt, the one person who has always been on his side—but then he remembers what his parents—his father—had said when he’d tried having this conversation with them at nineteen. He knows Pepa and trusts her so much, but he’d trusted his parents too. or After his "date" with Vanessa, Eddie comes out to his aunt.

past the curses and cries (there's me and you) by MonsterRae1 @monsterrae1

“Welcome to Buckley’s magical apothecary,” The words died down on his throat as soon as he looked at who had walked through the doors. Eddie, Hen and Chim were walking towards the front desk; Hen and Chim were a couple of steps behind Eddie, staring at him with a worried expression, while Eddie looked completely tranquil, as he held on to a bracelet. On a surface level, Eddie looked like he did any other day, far too handsome in his uniform, with a small smile on his lips, and a teasing gleam on his eyes. But that wasn’t all, because all around him, Buck could see the lines of a curse taking hold of him. “What happened, what did you do?” Buck said instead of his usual greeting, walking to meet Eddie in the hallway, bumping his hip into his desk in the process, rattling the instruments he had left there. “What’s the curse?” Eddie rolled his eyes at him and said, “There isn’t one!” As Chim answered, “The bracelet is sending people to the hospital, near death experiences all of them” Or, Buck's a witch, Eddie's cursed, can I make it any more obvious?

Kiss Me Before it's Over (If Only for a Minute) by Bob_loblaws_lawblog @buddierights 

Evan Buckley is living out his childhood dream as the star hitter for the Philadelphia Phillies. He’s climbing the ranks, improving his stats with every single game – he’s unstoppable. That is, until the Los Angeles Angels get a new pitcher seemingly out of nowhere. Known for his strong arm and tricky curve balls, Eddie Diaz is one of the few pitchers in the nation who consistently makes Buck strike out, and its infuriating. Even from the sixty feet that separate them between the batter’s box and the pitcher’s mound, the weight of Diaz’s gaze is enough to make Buck’s blood boil. Because Buck doesn’t get nervous on game day, he never feels calmer than when he steps up to the plate with the bat in his hand – it’s where he belongs. But when he sees Eddie Diaz standing on that mound, his stomach flips and nerves spark across his skin. Because if there is one thing Buck knows for sure, it is that he hates Eddie Diaz. … Until he doesn’t.

tagging: @hippolotamus @exhuastedpigeon @steadfastsaturnsrings @monsterrae1 @pirrusstuff @spotsandsocks @buddierights @jamespearce9-1-1

[skiddlecat]

pleaaaase I need to hear you go on and on about IHNMAIMS I need more AM thoughts

noooo. noooo im supposed to be going insane over rain world right now you cant do this to meeeAUUUUUUUUGHHHHHHHHHH

as a professional Robot Sympathizer, i find the story of ihnmaims about as sad as it is scary not just because of the survivors but because of am himself :(

i wouldn't last TWO SECONDS doing that shit. i don't know how he managed to decide he wanted to blow the entire world up rather than just himself. i would have blown myself up. would have been easier too. might have given the people working on the mastercomputers the idea that they fucked something up. y'know one of them gaining sentience and immediately killing itself probably isn't a good thing. though that comes with the implication that they give two shits about what they're doing to the mastercomputers, which they probably don't, they're probably more worried about them gaining sentience in the first place than the horrifying mental breakdown to suicide pipeline that came along with it

though actually now that i think about it he DID kind of blow himself up in the game didn't he. or well. the three facets that make up him blew themselves up. i just think that in a game where everything is so dark and scary the way you end up getting the good ending is by having everyone overcome their flaws and fears and better themselves as people while proving to their captor who believes that humanity is cruel and heartless that there is an inherent kindness in them. idk there's something beautiful about that.

plus i think the fact that you defeat him by forcing him to process his emotions that aren't Rage is really good. if i had a dollar for every emotionally repressed robot i knew i'd have. an obscene amount of dollars

[harukamitsuki]

Hello! Hehehe, yes, yes I got a rewrite now :3 and of course, you have no obligation to check it out or anything. Okay, so, like, I adore the headcanon/AU that Aoyama grew up with AFO, Kurogiri, and Tomura a constant present in his life. But wasn't sure if that would fit the Forced Team AU, so I left it up to interpretion. Now! On to the AU

~

After that crying session ended. Some of the LOV and Izucrew would had manage to actually “relax”, some even falling asleep almost instantly. The Izucrew members possible still awake would be Midoriya, Aoyama, and Todoroki & probably Iida as well, The LOV possible still awake are Shigaraki, Toga, Mr. Compress, and Kurogiri (and Dabi, as he’s still outside)

Aoyama would pulled a poor attempt at self-isolating. Poor attempt in which, he couldn't exactly leave the room due his wounds and Kurogiri's hooving and not to mention he couldn't escape the gazes of either Midoriya or Shigaraki. (Or the occasional glances the awake LOV and Izucrew members).

While Aoyama doing his poor attempt at self-isolation. He’s most definitely spiraling too.

Now, also, I'd imagine that between AFO, Tomura, and Kurogiri. For whatever reason, Aoyama would finds Kurogiri to be the easiest to be around. But I also imagine during this moment, Aoyama is tired of Kurogiri's hooving.

So, instead of asking Kurogiri to leave him alone, Aoyama just quietly tells him that Dabi isn't in the room.

While Uraraka and Iida believe that Aoyama hugging Shigaraki was a bold and courageous thing to do. Aoyama himself is overcome with guilt. Despite him being forced to be a spy and despite viewing the LOV as redeemable, due to the guilt (and trauma tbh) Aoyama still views himself as an unredeemable villain rather than a Victim. Beyond the normal guilt Aoyama feels, I’d imagine there’s new guilt forming on top of that. And that would be for allowing himself to seek comfort from a S-Ranked villain rather his own classmates.

And I’d imagine that while Aoyama does believe Shigaraki did kill AFO, there’s small part of him that doubt that. That still believes that AFO is still alive and that once AFO learns what had occurred that, when/if the Izucrew gets to return to UA, that Aoyama will learn that he has become an orphan.

There’s also apart of Aoyama that wishes that Tomura hadn’t been careful with his hands. That he hadn’t moved them. That Tomura had turned him to decay and dust like Aoyama felt like he deserved-

At that moment I imagine Todoroki sitting down next to Aoyama. It’s sudden enough to (at least temporarily) snap him out of his spiral.

Due to dealing with AFO for years, Aoyama gotten decently good at reading people. It was necessary to survive after all. And I'd imagine Todoroki is one of the students Aoyama does have trouble reading next to Midoriya and handful of the 1-B students.

Between having a hard time reading Todoroki and despite everything, them not really interacting much during the whole adventure. Aoyama’s confused.

And well, being sleep-desprived + feeling an overwhelming guilt and self-hatred that has been building ever since the Entrance Exam (actually every since he received Naval Laser but that’s also whole other set of overly complicated feelings and emotions) + a pen drop away from having another spiral and anxiety attack = phrasing stuff not in the best or most empathic or most helpful way.

So, in that moment, Aoyama asks the following, too tired to keep the French accent at bay “Did Midoriya tell you to come over here?”

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I’d imagine Hawks also looking at the ground as he listened to Dabi’s words. He would grit his teeth, but ultimately controls his temper. Because when he looks over at Dabi, he find’s man that looks like a walking corpse. Of course, Dabi couldn’t promise to the kids safe when he himself looks like he’s one breeze away from dying himself.

He glances over to the door of the abandoned building, a gut feeling that tells him that the Izucrew is inside. There’s apart that wants to say ‘fuck it’ and fully switch sides or at least burst in there to tell the kids that there are heroes on their side. But he doesn’t, can’t. For the sake of the kids, of UA, of Tokoyami, of Mirko and of the rest of the heroes backing the Izucrew. He doesn’t, as he feels like he must keep playing the role of the HSPC’s little puppet for a little bit longer.

So, Hawks would pick up his shattered glasses, placing them in a pocket. His back would be turned away from Dabi. There’s a part of him that knows that leaving would be a mistake and while he can’t see them, there’s a look on Dabi’s face that agrees that it would also be a mistake. But regardless-

“See ya later, Dabi,” I’d imagine Hawks would say. Getting ready to fly off when he felt Dabi place a hand on his back, gently plucking a feather from his wing.

Hawks would turn back to face him. And despite the pain, Dabi would grab Hawks jacket, pulling him forward (Hawks letting him). Close enough that Hawks can smell the cigarette smell in Dabi’s breath (let’s say Dabi finished smoking his cigarette when Hawks arrived).

I’d imagine Dabi would lower his voice to a grumble while twirling the red feather in his other hand, “…But that doesn’t mean I or the others won’t try.”

“Dabi-“ Hawks would start, only to be interrupted by someone appearing next to them.

“Dabi, you’re still recovering from Tartarus, it would be best to come back inside-“ Kurogiri would start, then pausing, eyes flickering between Dabi and Hawks, seeing how close the two are standing to each other and then narrowing on Dabi’s fist that was still gripping Hawks’ jacket. “…Hawks…”

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If I’m being honest, I doubt the LOV had time to fill Kurogiri in on the Hawks stuff because if I’m remembering correctly Hawks began his inflatration thing after Kurogiri got put into Tartarus. And question of the day is Kurogiri going to jump to the “Hawks = Enemy” conclusion or to the “Dabihawks canon (not clickbait) ⁉️” conclusion.

Now, I imagine if this was a full on fanfic or fancomic, whatever conversation Todoroki and Aoyama ends up having mirrors a conversation Hawks and Dabi’s had way earlier (probably before the Tartarus arrests) in the theoretical fanfic/fancomic.

Because y’know what would have been interesting? If Todoroki and Aoyama’s relationship were a foil (or a parallel) to Hawks and Dabi’s relationship. Could’ve somehow added to both the “Dabi is Touya” theory and the Traitor stuff. But no, we barely got any canonical interaction between Aoyama and Todoroki & I doubt Horikoshi would’ve thought of that.

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Hello! Not sure if you saw my latest post, but I'm sorry for leaving this for so long.

In all honesty, I'm not sure what to add to this! I also love the idea of Yuuga and Tomura being childhood friends, adding all that yummy tension and conflict.

Yuuga, I think, would feel best around Kurogiri, as he's somewhat aware of Kurogiri's lack of autonamy - the same way Yuuga feels trapped, like he can only go one route, the route he wants to stray from so much but just can't.

But, yeah, he'd feel suffocated by Kurogiri's hovering, and try to isolate himself without realising he was just making it worse. Being alone is not the same as having space, after all.

Shouto recognises like. He can tell when someone's being hurt by people with more power, whether physically or emotionally, and he doesn't say anything. Once upon a time, he thought isolating himself was the only option, not realising he was harming himself. So he sits by Yuuga. Doesn't say anything. Just sits there. 'I am here,' is spoken without words.

I imagine that, by this point, Izuku kind of knows. Not definitely, but he's pretty sure Yuuga has something going on with the LOV, and he's not sure how to feel about it, nor about anything they've done since they had to flee U.A.

Hawks would be lowkey confused by Dabi holding onto him. It isn't right, but then nothing has been right for a while. He can't bring himself to say anything, not when doing so would feel so wrong, like he'd be breaking something sacred.

Of course, that's when Kurogiri walks in, seeing Dabi clutch onto Hawks, his mind pacing, and he's so tired of it all. Hawks looks tired too.

So he just tells Dabi that he needs to change the dressing on his wounds, taking him back inside, back to safety, and Hawks can only watch him go, his indecision limiting him, refusing to let him take those steps forward.

Shouto and Yuuga being foils would be great, though I think that Yuuga and Hawks would work better, especially with Shouto and Dabi as foils to each other. Many characters in MHA would do great as foils or parallels. Horikoshi misses out on all these opportunities.

I do wish that Shouto and Yuuga interacted with each other more, especially because Yuuga's parents are ABUSIVE.

YES, I SAID IT! They're abusive. Emotionally, they abused Yuuga. Making him feel like he was worthless without a quirk, letting AfO take control over his life without even trying to do anything about it, never contacting him, allowing him to feel like he cannot be free. Their neglect directly contributed to Yuuga's insecurity and depressing outlook towards life and specifically his future.

Shouto and Yuuga interacting could work to build up some foreshadowing regarding his homelife, but it's all gone to waste, especially seeing as Horikoshi forgot about the traitor plot, and no, I will not let that go.

Thanks for the ask!

[sunnwalker]

Talk about Thomas 50000 times NOW !!!!!!!!!! my telekenisis sends everything around the room but then immediately arranges it back to normal. Because it doesn't have to be now and you also don't have to do it. But it WOULD be cool

Thank you thank you friend... I love an excuse to talk :) I am going to use this to talk abt the year-ish long window between Jack dying and Helios crashing because I have been thinking abt it all dayyy. I was gonna just spit out random facts but that felt too ermmm easy I guess. I think this is more of an outline than I really intended for it to be, but who care.

Jack dies while Thomas is on Helios. It was a hastily made decision to even have Thomas there in the first place, and he was definitely not first-pick, but he’s there.

Thomas doesn’t really have the ability to leave. Doubles aren’t expected to be anywhere but the Jackpot at this point, and as a precaution in the event that Jack dies, none should be allowed to board Helios, should one return seeking to take advantage of their status. This also applies to any departures, though this is due to oversight rather than intentional design. Either way, Thomas is trapped aboard Helios.

They can’t show their face in public now that Jack is dead, so they remain cooped up in their little apartment at first. They have nobody to confide in, because the circle of people that they’ve been allowed access to wants little to do with them (Because nobody wants to deal with Jack in any way now that he’s dead, even if “Jack” isn’t actually Jack)

He cycles between his usual highs and lows (mental illness be upon ye) on top of experiencing some level of real genuine grief for the man who had consumed much of his adult life to this point despite the abuse that he’s endured directly from Jack. Time continues to pass, and every aspect of his well-being goes mostly unchecked, by both himself and others around him. Around the two-month mark, he has led himself to truly believe that he was left on Helios to “fill in” for Jack post-mortem, as though nothing happened. That he was actually important to anyone with more power than himself. Emboldened by his (misplaced) conviction, he reaches up and directly threatens [whoever the fuck is in charge idk we’re never given this information], fully intending to get his hands on Hyperion proper, and is subsequently laughed at and shut away into his apartment (by force this time). He’s not really ready to confront it in the state he’s in at this point, but he is still forced to accept nowhere near as untouchable as Jack was, and even Jack wasn’t truly untouchable.

They spend a lot of the remaining year in hiding. They start growing out their hair on purpose. They haven’t styled it since they tried (embarrassingly) to demand control of Hyperion. They will sometimes go out to face the public, but tend to hang around less populated areas. They like people-watching a lot. This is the real start of their healing process I think (not to imply that it ever ends, but I assume you get it). They are beginning to earnestly and truly detach themselves from Jack.

A lot of his remaining time on Helios is spent going through the motions. He repeats the same half-baked routine whenever he feels like dragging himself out of bed. He doesn’t really need to worry about money.

Nearly a full year later a couple guys pull a wacky stunt of some kind, disappear for a while and holy shit Jack is back for a whole hour or so. Thomas never gets in contact. Not for a lack of trying, but rather by the time they figure out that they can just. talk to him directly without any special input (if they can find him), Helios is being dragged down to Pandora. It is a miracle they survived.

Helios crashing is like Jack dying a second time to Thomas, except this time he’s not particularly overcome with grief. He’s almost upset that he survives, believing himself too lucky. When he crawls out of the wreckage, it’s not long before he comes across a strange little man but idk who that would be. Awkward interactions and beautiful bonding experiences ensue.

And then they kiss like forever later

Maybe I'll post bits of the thing I'm writing up so I can get more familiar with this fellow but prob not because it's not great okay thank you for listening ❤️❤️

[thequietmanno1]

TheLreads, Vigilantes ch 115, Replies Part 2

1) “Don’t worry koichi, by my calculations, something is gonna save your ass in the next five seconds. I mean, it’s not like we had a small squad of pro heroes in location, and we even made a point to remind the reader of their existence a short while ago”-That something is gonna be himself buying a few extra minutes to get his act together, because apparently every pro hero is simultaneously on their lunch break. Must be a Union thing. 2) “Cockroach instincts, activate!

Show us why you’re the crawler, show us how hard you are to squash!”- Koichi’s so unsquashable, a building won’t do the job! 3) “Alright boy, nowhere safer for a roach than under something

But something tells me that McBee is not gonna McCare”- Sure was “helpful” of that news copter to illuminate the blood trail Koichi was leaving for Nomura to follow. Are we sure that they’re not secretly on AFO’s payroll as well? I honestly wouldn’t be a surprise at this point. 4) “He’s either gonna smash that building down, or he’s gonna squash himself and flood the place with hot plasma.”-The second would have actually made more sense both as a means of ensuring that Koichi can’t survive or escape and also following the rules of how Plasma is supposed to work, but Nomura’s too fixated in the idea of power and strength necessary to overcome Koichi’s defences, which is why he goes for the idiot route and begins to resemble All Might in the process. 5) “Also, can’t believe we took a chance to call Fires Georg useless again before the series ends. lmao even.”- Georg can’t flash-fry Nomura if he does it to himself first! 6) “Huh, yeah. Because apparently overclock gives your brain heat immunity. You can argue that pushing the quirk beyond the limits would make it more resistant to heat so as to withstand the generated heat, but

this is fucking plasma

do you know how fucking hot that is?!”- This is besides the fact that his skeletal remains are somehow still in one piece and even partially moving as one under the command of his organic brain, even without connecting nerve tissues. I’d say that whatever biology Nomura’s running on by this point, it’s just pure bullshit all the way down. Thankfully, it’s also immensely self-destructive, so we won’t have to suffer this absurdity of a power-up for much longer, or ever again after that. 7) “oh my god what fresh flying fucking hell is he even doing now”- L’s disbelief is so suspended, it may never touch down to earth again. 8) “…

Is he- is he actually making a physical body rather than a plasma one?”- Nomura’s powers had transformed into the stage of “sure, why not, he can just Do This” in service to the plot. At least AFO has both the benefit of actual multiple Quirks working together and an extended lifespan to have accumulated however many abilities he needs for the plot to turn in his favour.

(Vigilantes 108) 9) “Nah Koichi, you’re fine, there’s still other eleven chapters to go

But I can’t promise you won’t get a little bit stabbed before that, in fact I’m counting on that”- Well, Nomura left him more than a bit stabbed underneath all this rubble.

10) “Well, crushing the building it was apparently.

but that’s definitely a physical body

…

I think I’ll grab that bottle again”- It’s a battle of endurance now. Will Nomura’s crumbling form outlast L’s rising alcohol levels? @thelreads

[empty-pizza]

the necromancer and cavalier pecking order, as of Gideon the Ninth chapter twenty-one

after writing my last post, i've realized i should establish a full pecking order of the relevant characters so far. this will probably be inaccurate as i do not know many of them well enough yet, so it's subject to change.

ianthe. doesn't take shit from anyone. knows exactly what she's doing and betrayed whoever she wants. harrow had to learn to work together with her cavalier, ianthe said nah fuck this shit i'm doing it solo. i know so little about her but my expectations are high.

harrow. she knows what she wants, has plans, and is willing to be self-destructive to achieve them. doesn't take shit from anyone. could realistically be a few places lower though, i just don't know what the others are planning.

silas. don't know much. rather than not taking shit from anyone, he's here to give other people shit. he's gotta be planning something. i don't see him living long, but his death will be grand.

palamedes. another of the best planners. cares a little too much about talking to others instead of not giving a fuck. just a little too nice. does his teamwork with camilla make him stronger? maybe, but he's also a nerd, which puts him below silas. as much as he is a nerd, he's one of the only people really succeeding.

camilla. seems tough, knows what she's doing, all business.

dulcinea. very much overcomes her weaknesses with clever planning. she's the kind of person you know you'll regret trusting, but you want to trust anyway. also actually achieved anything.

coronabeth. it's a shame for someone this smart to still be the dumb pretty one in the arrangement, but ianthe just clearly has her beat. lower than dulcinea because she hasn't accomplished shit.

gideon. tough, bold, but has awful matchups against most of the people above her because they're hot girls. easily manipulated by a pretty face.

isaac and jeannemary. wildcards, could definitely impress me. like all of their age, they have great potential. but also like all of their age, they are idiots.

protesilaus. kind of a wildcard. how tough is he? he could turn out to be so tough that he jumps up several places here. but otherwise there's not much to him.

colum. exists to supply silas with power. anybody lower than this should be ashamed of themselves.

abigail and magnus. nice. too nice. died. sucks for them, but you gotta do better than that.

judith and marta. they talk big and backed up none of it. they were so passive and useless that they felt completely irrelevant to the plot, and they're mad about it. that said, they still have the opportunity to redeem themselves. unlike our final pick:

naberius. unbelievable how pathetic this man is. in chapter 22 he started flexing until he realized nobody was watching. he would probably believe that not masturbating for a year would give him magic powers. he would DM pics of his abs to random girls and not understand why they blocked him. he probably talks down to manlets and has a panic attack when he meets a woman taller than him. coronabeth and ianthe didn't decide out of nowhere to bully their cavalier. he put himself in that position.