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i fuckin love my mutuals, y’all are my crows fr
#Haven��t ever said this but I should more often#It was rly stupid of me to make a side account instead of just turning my main account into a SoC account that was rly fucking dumb#But I’m so glad I’ve interacted with all y’all bc I rly do get so happy when I see y’all have liked my stuff#Anyways I’ll never be emotional again#six of crows#soc#shadow and bone#grishaverse
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Writes a full blown essay about why Mary On A Cross is THE Sanlu song to me ever,
#Listen. I know the song is actually about weed. But that’s BESIDES the point#I can change the meaning. For MY ship ;)#Anyway there is actually a story behind this#I see reels on IG a LOT and I think one of the first times I saw an OP reel that took place during WCI#That song played. And I was like oh wait a second 👀#Now whenever I think about WCI I think about Mary On A Cross and then I think about Sanlu#THE LYRICS REALLY DO FIT THEM THO#’I had to let you go’ Sanji VS ‘I’ll never let you go’ Luffy#’If you choose to run away with me’ literally. Luffy. Trying to rescue Sanji from his fate and get him to run away from his family with him#’Your beauty never ever scared me’ AGAIN LUFFY ABOUT SANJI EVEN WITH HIS PAST AND HIS MODIFICATIONS#Also the whole thing about Mary on a cross. Makes me think of self sacrifice. Which is Sanji’s ENTIRE deal#Anyway this song sparks the Emotions in me.#It’s probably been way overused but not for me!!! IT IS THE SANLU SONG PERIODT#One Piece#Sanlu#Lusan#Shima speaks
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I think my least favorite thing about having depression is that when I’m depressed it can never be “a little depressed” like I have to be going over the deep end or completely fine
#I am fine because I know I’ll be fine I’m a get day hopefully#but sometimes I wanna claw my skin off my body#it does genuinely confuse me because like#how can I can go from happy to being completely consumed by depression and intrusive thoughts in like two days#I have no clue what’s up with me#I can never be regular depressed it always have to be like this#things will be okay#life will go on#I will smile again and feel it#i literally did a few days ago#I’m not worried bout how I feel#just the anxiety stuff#I feel like I should be but I’m gonna see how long it lasts before my make tgat judgement#I’ve been emotion posting on tumblr do much recently what’s my deal#oh well#anyway I dunno why I’m feeling like this there’s no trigger I don’t think#just feels like a cloud over my head with a very very bad storm#but I’ll wake up soon enough and there will be flowers and I’ll smell them and be happy#just have to be patient even if knowing that doesn’t do anything
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i’m about the watch the good omens season 2 finale with my extremely offline mother. she hasn’t seen it yet. she doesn’t look at tumblr or any fandom-related social media. she doesn’t read spoilers. so she has no idea. no clue as to what’s coming. and i’m so maliciously excited abt it, i cannot wait to see her reaction(s) mwaahahaha
#good omens#i don’t know how i would have reacted to it if i hadn’t read spoilers and didn’t know anything that was coming#alas i did not experience the shrimp emotions that would have caused so i’ll never know what that was like#ah well#if the eternal sunshine of the spotless mind science was real#i would use it solely for certain pieces of media so i could experience them for the first time again#god that would be SO COOL to see how you would react differently#if you saw the same thing at different points in your life#but each time was for the first time#does that make sense#anyway. anyone in this thread smoke marijuna#btw do mfers still mwahahaha these days or is that currently in the phase of the cultural cycle known as cringe
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is it gay to be so overwhelmed with emotions by thinking about someone you care about so much you almost want to pick up writing again
#- but also it’s night time and you can’t fall asleep even though you need to get up early#and you’re just stuck imagining the lines you want written down#so your only options are to do it now while they’re still there#or not and then forget all of them in the morning and cry#hi i’m the gay one help i haven’t been in this state in a while#i’m just in that state again somehow i guess#probably because i never got a chance to tell this person how something so small for them meant a world to me in that moment#i hope i’ll be able to tell you all that myself in a more direction way but i love you so much you mean the world to me#okay i don’t actually want to scare you off by saying that but knowing what my mind is imagining for this you’d think that yourself anyway#i should probably stop taking now it’s way too late and i’m being tooooo emotionally vulnerable rn#hi guys sleepy night time frab here i’m the (other) emotion + vulnerable one#don’t you love to see it#i wonder if anyone is still down here reading these tags#hi if you are! send aaaa hmmm send a little ‘£; e’ if you read to this point#also why r u still reading? weirdoooo /jk love you#but really don’t be down here too long i’m sorta bleeding all my feelings out right now#because i’m so bad at expressing myself directly and as soon as i want to#ugh i’ll leave now i’m lonely and talking to myself too much again#night night everpony#frabrant#wonder if i’ll write more again… ok i’m LEVAING now gah
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Time for my daily thoughts about how Jaws is rife with potential for an anti imperialist anti capitalist analysis
#TAGS RANT INCOMING:#the 2 shark incidents which have the most emotional impact are: the main plot w Bruce n the Boys AND quint in the Indianapolis incident#the sharks in these stories are secondary to the human conflict that propelled the story forward#1: a mayor’s greed and desire for money and 2: a country’s greed and desire for domination.#the sharks are vessels that convey the powerlessness that the individual feels in the face of structural and societal violence#i think there’s also an interesting parallel there. shark attacks are incidental -#they have no desire to eat humans but sometimes mistake them for a food source#meanwhile the death of Alex kintner- which Mrs. kintner blames on Brody - was also not intentional#and was caused by Brody initially mistaking the mayor and the medical examiner’s coercion as somewhat genuine/truthful#humans and sharks both have the capacity to do harm#but it’s the environment around them that should be examined when this harm is done#don’t even get me started on quint’s ptsd and ‘I’ll never wear a life jacket again’ and perpetuating cycles of violence#ummm teehee anyways#jaws 1975#I’m no deep analytic writer and I in fact struggle with themes and interpretation so this may all seem pretty surface level but anyways#i just wanted to yap
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this Tylenol ain’t shit w
#talkingcore#emotions. man.#there’s so much music that I just haven’t listened to in a bit and it’s making me feel things it’s not even like sad things I’m like damn#how long has it been since I’ve listened to beautiful stranger by Madonna as featured in Austin powers international man of mystery#but also something in my brain feels like it needs to cry like I don’t feel like I physically can but something needs to be released#so do I go pet sounds? smile? falsettos? I feel like I need to be in a sleeping bag and Contemplate#fun fact! Kendra Morris has an absolutely stunning cover of don’t talk (put your head on my shoulders)#I’m pretty neutral on beach boys covers tbh I’m never crazy about them since like they really never measure up#how many mid covers of god only knows can I take? not many. but like she & him have their little Brian Wilson tribute I like that.#the covers are a lot better when they don’t try to perfectly replicate whatever the fuck Brian Wilson was doing they aren’t him#brain wants to go melancholy mode but I’ve no clue over what. girl just tell me what I’m supposed to be sad over I’ll commit to the bit#need to keep listening to new stuff but also need old stuff Maybe that’s it maybe I just need old stuff again? like routine?? shit idk#also like at 5 am I woke up and remembered how in choir people kept comparing me to the director they had the year before me#and the thing is she had the same name as someone else in choir that was student teaching my first semester so I kept thinking they were#referring to her Id be in my choir fit my silly suit my proud butch uniform and they’d be like oh this is so ‘insert name’!#and it kept throwing me off because the student teacher was like. not like me at all so I was like fuck#what kind of girl core energies am I accidentally emitting this is Bad. so anyway 5 am I’m like fuck it I need to research this person#I search. find her. she’s butch. I’m blessed. they weren’t lying like man we do such a good job at being generic! yay!#butch And in choir! love to see it! keep thinking how I am destined to be like in my 40s doing mundane tasks#I’m gonna be soooooo good at watering plants and putting salt on the sidewalk before it snows and cleaning drains#need to be a dad mom so fucking bad you don’t get it I need to drive carpool and take off work for dentist trips and watch hgtv#AHHHH i think that got rid of some of the sad lfg💥💥💥💥this must be super long god damn sorry
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hello again my far love/p
there's something I feel like I need to explain?? I have a Tumblr account but I prefer to be anonymous for asks and such, I just prefer it bc I get shy(and a little paranoid that people can see me yk, I like to be a fly on the wall) I've also just began using 🍄 to ask in blogs and I've gotten attached
I've been following and liking your content before I asked yk and I'm sure if I gave you the name I go by online you'd know what my account is lmao, tbh at this rate I don't think I mind, you and teddy are cool people and I do want to talk more/play genshin with u all
I just felt like I needed to clear that up and when I said that I should create a blog I mean like, a writing blog where I post about things and such, ofc If I end up doing this I would let you know. my only issue with that is motivation and inspiration
speaking about that tho, your 1k special
- how 'insert character' felt when they became your vessels
- letters (I've seen this one before)
- windtrace/events with the creator
I think that's all the ideas I got rn, you could always do a prompt based one where it's like "can I have a latte with strawberry and chocolate with diluc" and latte = fluff, strawberry = SAGAU and chocolate = date hcs
- 🍄 (never take precalc if you're bad at math, it's sucks and I hate it. I have a test on Thursday 😭) (I feel like playing genshin with y'all would be so fun tho)
[i was gonna make a joke here about dramatically receiving a letter, then realized that you know what, rp is not something i want on my genshin impact fanfiction blog]
i 100% get the like fear of being Perceived but like…. in the gentlest way possible, i feel like a character in a shakespeare play, talking about intense worldbuilding with my vaguely queercoded best friend as we profess to be knights by each other’s side until the very end, no matter how bitter, for the audience to hear (it’s foreshadowing for how we die together on the battlefield)
(hello to everybody that isn’t 🍄 anon or teddy anon, how are y’all tonight)
uhh re: creating a writing blog, insert link to that post i made abt my tips for blog things, referencing point numbers one and seven.
also i like the letter one. that’s a good idea. i will consider it. should probably sort this out prior to 1k but ehhhhh
(i would love to play genshin with you i am both ar 58 and so bored-)
#m1d : [chats]#🍄 anon#< i’ll say it again: lovely choice of emoji dear#i’ve been considering putting my uid in bio/nav bc i’ve seen a few other genshin blogs have theirs there but at the same time like. then i’d#have to deal with people seeing how shit my builds are. like… i’m a kazuha main with a ratio of like 45/100—#ok nvm!! it’s 62/122!!!!! that’s actually way better than i expected!!#my heizou is a 55/140 though- it’s either that or 80/80 because of the catalysts i have#and i don’t even wanna TALK about like. anybody else.#for fucks sake- my kazuha is on two noblesse!!! for no reason!!! what the fuck!!!#the only good build is kuki w/ four maiden but that’s just because she’s my healer#my team is dps sub-dps sub-dps healer in that order#i complain about not wanting you to see my shit builds and then expose myself in the tags lmao#anyway.#oh a bit of lore: the plans i was in Waiting Mode for a few posts ago were plans to play genshin with a really good friend of mine#so i am very much in a Play Genshin With Friends mindset- have been for a week ish bc she kept delaying it-#and then she. never texted me. :/#it’s ok though i have diluc to help me cope :) **drags him through emotional hell**#< touch of an exaggeration#man i need to stop talking in the tags. midas shut up challenge!!
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i can’t believe for a brief amount of time when i didn’t like requiems holy shit they’re so good??? i mean some movements can be boring but like if you listen to dies irae from mozart and don’t somewhat explode i do not understand you, also verdi’s dies irae it’s really the fucking song ever
#ezra enjoys music#sadly i’ve never sung verdi but it’s certainly not improbable for the future#we didn’t do all of mozart either i mean we did kinda just do the exciting ones but like yeah#and then when it isn’t the intense ones or the mildly dull ones it’s the emotion ones which are also very good!!!#i might be mixing up my requiem and mass for peace admittedly#but i don’t care because karl jenkins wrote the armed man mass for peace and i changed as a person#oh my god but as a minor rant why in the most popular mozart’s requiem version do they pronounce perpetua perpitua#it sounds so awkward and out of place!!! or maybe we did it wrong#anyway! the point i was making was music good i fucking love music oh my god#for anyone who doesn’t really know me well i feel i should clarify i’m not religious or anything this music just sounds very good#i need to listen to stainer’s crucifixion at some point actually parts of it are wild#there’s a song from the perspective of jesus dying on the cross n he’s like having a breakdown#i mean then it does just repeat oh come unto me over and over which is less exciting but whatever#christianity#<- just in case??? like it’s not but yknow not everyone just listens to this music for the silly#ok i’ll stop rambling now tumblr is glitching the tags at me slightly again#ezra likes music
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MAN remember the rhyme anima gummies that came with a randomised sticker????? i hope they’ll do that again for season two lol!!!!!
#this is vee speaking#the set shiraimu did an unboxing video for!!!!!!#where did i put my rhyme anima gummies stickers actually hm#anyway the gummies itself had a nice flavour but unfortunately left a film and a wad of sour sucrose mucus in your mouth#so it wasn’t that great actually lol but i’d buy them again instantly!!!!!!!#like genuinely hoping we get returns of a lot of rhyme anima merch!!!!!#ESPECIALLY THE SCALE FIGURES#i bought sensei’s because his was the best looking (and ichiro’s lack of exposed belly while samatoki’s did made me mad lol)#AND I WANT KUUKOU HES GOING TO LOOK UGLY PROBABLY BUT THATS NEVER ONCE STOPPED ME LMAO#UGLY SCALE FIGURE KUUKOU 🙌 UGLY SCALE FIGURE KUUKOU 🙌#if we don’t i’ll take nagosaka nendos as emotional compensation 😌
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Not saying “I love you“ back to the Squid game men.
How will they react if you don‘t say it back? In what scenario would they not say it back to you?
Pairing: The Recruiter, Thanos, Nam-gyu, Dae-ho, Gi-hun, In-ho x gn!reader
Summary: Them not saying “I love you“, their reaction to you not saying “I love you“
Genre: fluff, a lil bit of angst sprinkled on top
If you’re interested, here’s more fluff! Calling the Squid Game men some weird petnames and their reaction to it!
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Gong Yoo // The Recruiter // The Salesman
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♡— Him not saying I love you…
It barely ever happens, really. He adores everything about you, from your face, voice, body and the ground you walk on; that man is ready to worship you like a devoted follower would to the most merciful goddess. Therefor he would always be aware of how to make your day a little better, even if it‘s just a small “I love you” or a gentle kiss here and there.
The first thing you hear from him in the morning is a groggy voice mumbling a small “Good morning love...” into your ear while warm kisses were trailed down your back.
While standing in the kitchen and searching the fridge for any signs of a tasty breakfast, a small “I love you, I‘ll be back later!“ would echo slightly through the apartment as the front door closed.
Once, he did forget to say his usual I love you on the way out. He thought about how he possibly could forget? You‘re probably overthinking everything now and think what you might‘ve done wrong or do to offend him. You didn‘t, though! He was just too caught up in perfecting his appearance because his damn hair refused to obey and submit to his meticulous styling.
The poor man was almost scared to come home. As some sort of peace offering, he bought some of your favorite take-out food alongside some dessert, flowers and a new bracelet he thought you might like. Anything to try and make you know that he does really love you.
“Apologies, it completely slipped my mind. It will never happen again my sunshine. I love you.”
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♡— You not saying I love you back…
His face may be neutral and his expressions calculated but his features soften up immensely when you show even an ounce of affection. His smirk shifts into a dreamy smile, the crinkles around his mouth shifting and becoming bigger, his eyes twinkling just a little. He just can’t suppress when you even look at him.
Your kisses and words energise him, gift him life, so whenever you don’t give him that little boost of dopamine, he gets visibly more tense in a way.
The silence that followed after his usual “I love you my darling, I’ll be back later!” was almost eerie to him. He stuck his head back into the kitchen to check if you even heard him. You glanced back at him for a moment and gave your husband a dismissive head nod. So you did hear him?
Silently, he left the apartment and went on with his usual day during that time of the year. For some reason, today he is especially looking forward to slap his elders for loosing a damn children’s game. His face remained neutral and had his usual smirk on his face, but deep inside, he’s offended, confused, worried, stressed; all the negative emotions someone can feel after their spouse doesn’t reincorporate ones affection.
Do you want a divorce? Because hell no, he’d never let you go no matter how hard you
But once he got a little text message on his phone that read a simple: “Need cuddles in bed later pls. Got some snacks too. Love you.”, all of his worries washed away in an instant. You probably were still too sleepy to answer this morning.
A smile spread over his face as he thought about slipping into your arms tonight. Isn’t it ridiculous how he melt like putty in your hands?
“You forgot something this morning and it did worry me a lot. But it doesn’t matter, it’s silly anyway.”
Thanos // Su-bong // Player 230
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♡— Him not saying I love you…
It’s actually quite rare to hear Thanos say “I love you” word for word. He still feels awkward committing himself to the relationship you have and those three magic words feel so heavy on his tongue, so he’ll rephrase them to suit his level of comfort. “Love ya”, “Thanos loves you” and “Me too” are his ways to dodge the action to reincorporate those sweets words you shower him with.
Thanos only really says “I love you” if you two are alone, sober and you holding him in your arms. To be cradled by someone he admires, cares and loves so much makes him want to cry for some reason, but he suppresses those emotions and instead buries his face in your shoulder as your hand soothingly runs up and down his back.
Those are the times you hear a small “I love you…” being mumbled against your warm skin.
So quiet it’s almost unnoticeable, yet it was there. You know Su-bong needs time to get used to everything, so you’ll settle with a small audio message-rap in reply to your usual “I love you” text message.
“Back to the kitty ‘cause she kinda pretty, I can’t stop looking at her ti- ti- ti-face.. Anyways, thinking of you babygirl. Iloveyatoo.” (You barely caught him saying this the way how quietly he mumbled it into the mic)
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♡— You not saying I love you back…
It’s fine. It’s cool. You don’t have to reassure him every day that you love him, it’s totally fine. You still love him like you did the day before.
It causes a deep panic inside of Thanos when you don’t give him his usual “I love you” text in the morning after he had woken up. He kept checking his phone like a madman, while he was brushing his teeth, peeking his arm and head out of the shower in the middle of shampooing, staring at his text messages while microwaving himself an convenience store meal. Nothing.
Not wanting to reach out first and appear clingy, he decided to write you like he is not having a full blown eternal panic attack. A small voice message here, a picture of his food there, a selfie from the bottom to show off his double chin, anything really.
You replied like normal but still, his eyes searched for the three key words. I. Love. You.
Thanos doesn’t want to admit to himself or to anyone for that matter that your calls, texts, hell, you coming over is like the most addictive drug to him. And he had his share of all kinds of colourful drugs.
His foot was nervously tapping the ground while his finger kept ringing your poor doorbell until you were forced to answer. He gave you a close look up and down, his lips formed into a pout of sorts.
“You okay? You didn’t text me you love me this morning. It’s totally cool and all but like… do you want to break up with me or something?”
Nam-gyu // Player 124
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♡— Him not saying I love you…
Similar to Thanos, at first, Nam-gyu barely ever told you how much he loved you, liked you even. He just assumed you already knew and his actions were enough. A small side hug there and ruffling your hair here had to be enough for the rest of the week anyway.
He is guarded, afraid of commitment and to be frank in belief that you’re using him for the longest of time. Maybe you’re just “dating” him to get access to high-end drugs, all kinds of clubs or whatever else reason there is there to date him but for love.
You had to say those three magic words first for him to get comfortable with the thought that you are actually just want to date and love him. It came to him in the middle of a night shift at a random club he was supposed to promote. A moment of enlightenment.
Nam-gyu hid in a bathroom stall with his phone and ignored whatever the couple was doing next door, writing you a whole paragraph about what he was thinking, feeling, before deleting everything again because he thought he’d come off as some kind of pussy if he’d sent that.
His first time telling you how much he loved you was at your place. A casual evening watching some random movie you picked out while being arms deep in a bag of chips and dressed like a homeless person, Nam-gyu was staring up at you as if you were the most beautiful person in the universe even during this ungraceful moment of yours, admiring you in silence until finally…
“I love you.”
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♡— You not saying I love you…
Did he fuck up again? Do or say something wrong? Don’t you love him anymore? Was there someone else?? His thoughts go ballistic as he stared at the screen of his phone with a deadpan-expression, trying to shake the crippling fear and nervousness off while looking nonchalant.
Nam-gyu’s finger kept hovering over the call button to check on you in case something happened because there could be a whole other person talking to him by how there were no affirmations at all.
He doesn’t want to appear clingy or too attached to you as that may scare you off or even disgust you, so Nam-gyu’s casually mention that one time you didn’t say “I love you” while fidgeting with his ring, trying to appear indifferent about it while intensely watching your facial expression shift to try and detect if you’re lying about your reasoning or not.
Your boyfriend is afraid to not be good enough, too much, too little. Your little affirmations give him reassurance, every day a little more until he’s full convinced that you do really, really love him.
“Hey, uhhh. Did you forget anything today?… No? You sure? Mkay.”
Dae-ho // Player 388
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♡— Him not saying I love you…
Never happens. Either he is dead and not able to reply to you or already said it multiple times throughout the day. Dae-ho has separation anxiety and gets nervous when he doesn’t have you in line of his sight or not around him in general, that’s why he always tells you how much he loves you whenever he can.
Off to the bathroom? I love you. Bringing the trash out? I love you. Getting dressed? You’re gorgeous and I love you. You could be simply existing and Dae-ho would bury his face in your neck and mumble a soft I love you into your warm skin, his lips planting a soft kiss here and there.
Dae-ho is just a little scared about saying his usual affirmation in front of his family, mostly his father. He’s a very affectionate and physical man but he still wants to look like the tough-marine-son his dad wants to see.
His sisters know better though, they see how their brother’s eyes twinkle in delight when you help his mom out in the kitchen with the dinner.
He does make it up to you after coming home though. Your boyfriend will stuff the leftovers his mom gave him into the microwave and usher to you made yourself comfortable on the couch while he makes some preparations to completely pamper you for the rest of the evening.
Sometimes Dae-ho’ll even try to flirt a little but he’s still a little awkward in that department.
“Hey, do you want some snacks with that? A drink? O-Or am I enough of a snack…?”
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♡— You not saying I love you…
Every time Dae-ho tells you that he loves you, you always reply with equal enthusiasm. How could you not? That golden retriever of a man gets that almost childish smile of his whenever you kiss his cheek or just tell him that he looks handsome today.
Once, you tested how he’d react when you don’t give him his hourly dose of dopamine by deflecting or ignoring his touches.
As his arms securely snaked around your waist and gently pulled you against his torso, you paid him no mind and continued to stir the ramen in the food container. He watched the noodles move in circles and gave your waist a gentle poke, trying to pull your attention to him. Dae-ho’s eyes slowly dimmed and the edges of his smile turned downwards.
The silence made him seriously nervous. You could feel his rapidly increasing heartbeat drum against your back.
“Hey… is everything okay? Did I do something wrong? I’m sorry. Can you talk to me?…”
Gi-hun // Player 456 (post s1)
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♡— Him not saying I love you…
Gi-hun always reassures you of his love, even during arguments. He wants you to know that he cherishes and loves you for the rest of his life and that you are his everything. Whenever he doesn’t say I love you, something must’ve happened.
He has been missing for a whole week and you had no idea where your boyfriend went. Gi-hun didn’t leave a note, a voice mail, no nothing!
And after he returned and suddenly began giving you expensive gifts, the same boyfriend that used to ask you for money to get himself an convenience store dinner, now began buying you new headphones, bracelet and whatever else you even eyed.
It was nice, sure, but you were more worried about his mental state. He was paranoid and quiet, kept checking his whole body for some kind of tracker and barely ever spoke what was on his mind. Gi-hun began having panic attacks and you were barely able to leave his side because of how terrified he was to leave you alone.
He barely touched you, gave you kisses or affection. He changed after whatever happened during that week he went missing.
While running your fingers through his hair, trying to make him fall asleep after being awake for two days straight, he sleepily stared up at you through his dyed-red hair. His voice was quiet, broken almost.
“I’m sorry. Please… know that I love you. I love you so much.. Don’t leave me, please… please...”
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♡— You not saying I love you back…
Your boyfriend called out to you but you didn’t quite hear what he said, so you replied with an “yeah!” and just hoped that that’s an appropriate response to whatever he tried to tell or ask you. It wasn’t.
Gi-hun stood there for a couple of moments, waiting on your reply to yelling “I love you!” across the whole apartment. When nothing came, he didn’t call out to you again. You were probably busy with something or don’t want him with your right now, he gets that.
Later though, thoughts of self-doubt began to cook up inside his mind. As he bit all his nails to shreds he overthought about how you had enough of him now. Maybe you are falling out of love now after how the death games fucked up his mind and body. You’re surely fed up with his paranoia and secretive behaviour, how much he has been obsession over finding a weird salesman. Surely.
The metallic taste that spread inside his mouth after biting the skin surrounding his nails began to open and bleed finally pulled Gi-hun out of his self-destructive thoughts that continued to circle like a toy train. Picking up his throwaway phone and choosing the one contact he saved on every single burner phone he had as “Reason to smile ❤️” and pressing the call button.
“Gi-hun? What’s wrong?” Your voice forced a small smile to form on his face. He hesitated
“Hey. Just wanted to ask if I should bring some take out home tonight. That’s all.”
In-ho // The Frontman // Player 001
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♡— Him not saying I love you…
It’s purely just to tease you. When bored, In-ho will make you his greatest entertainment.
He likes making you annoyed and flustered, so he’ll intentionally ignore you just to make you react and pout at him adorably while he was trying so hard to keep his stone cold face and not break into a shit-eating grin and maybe even pull on your cheek to make you whine even more.
In-ho adores your whole being and cherishes all of your affections, so he’ll let himself get showered in them any tome he can.
Expect you to he cuddled up on his lap while he was leaning back in the leather chair, mumbling a complaint about how you covered his whole face in kisses but managed to miss the bridge of his nose. He will not allow you to move off his lap until you covered his whole face in kisses again as compensation for that mistake of yours.
So, In-ho’ll intentionally not give you affection so you pay even more attention to him. He is like a cat in that way weirdly enough.
Once you finally break his facade, the flood gates will open and you will be showered, bathed, drowned in his affection, physical and verbal.
“Fine. I’ll say it just because you’ve been so good to me today. I love you, my dearest, lovely darling.”
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♡— You not saying I love you back…
In-ho has a dedicated frequency on his walkie-talkie for you, so he can call in and ask you to come to his office for a kiss that cannot wait, to inform you that he is in the bedroom and retiring for the day or just to tell you that he loves you randomly throughout the day.
Of course, you’d always reply back with your own gadget, but to pay back his infinite teasing he has done to you, you decided to ignore him the way he sometimes does to you. Payback.
Your husband called into your frequency. “Dove, are you free right now? Come to my office, I miss you.” and so your game begins. You simply ignored his request and continued getting comfortable in your bed and all the sheets surrounding you, grinning to yourself as you awaited the next time In-ho calls in again, for which you don’t have to wait long for.
“Darling, I am waiting. Do you want me to send someone to pick you up?” Your grin widened as you heard how impatient he was slowly getting with the lack of your response. “I can see you in the bedroom.” That one caught you off guard. Did he install cameras in your shared bedroom??
Almost on cue, your bedroom door opened, revealing the masked Frontman. His shoulders were tense and you could feel his intense state through the mask. You stared back, not expecting how quickly your husband would cave in and visit you himself. Innocently, you batted your lashes at him.
In-ho slipped his mask off and carelessly tossed it on the nightstand. “Why are you ignoring me? Are you upset or just moody?” Unimpressed, you silently glared at him. He gave you an equally uninterested look and leaned down to your face to give you a small peck on your cheek. “Not enough. More.”
A chuckle escaped his lips as his lips cracked into a smile.
“Demanding, aren’t we? Fine. As you wish.”
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Author’s note. Thank you for reading <3
Watch me announce that I’m going to post In-ho’s yandere profile and proceed to get hit with the most ungodly group-assignment in Chemistry. Anyways, take this as an apology! Had to write a little fluff for them since the only thing I’m finding is smut 🙏😭 I’m not complaining but this fluff prompt came to me like a truck during a class of mine. It was originally inspired by this post and I made a similar one before for the Demon Slayer hashira. Check it out if you’re interested!!
Anyways, make sure to EAT, SLEEP and DRINK enough!!
Take care of yourselves <33
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tags: crack, fluff, pregnancy, gojo pulling a bad TikTok trend prank, swearing, crying,
Why did Gojo ever think this was a good idea?
He knew you were high on pregnancy hormones. the emotions had run every which way — from crying to laughing to anger (which usually resulted in a sharp whack to his shoulder for getting you pregnant in the first place).
So he didn’t know why he had convinced himself this prank was a good idea. especially when he would have to be the one to clean up his mess.
Phone in hand and recording, he headed downstairs to find you cooking, a myriad of cheeses laid down, and carefully picked bread slices from the loaf you had baked earlier (Nanami’s recipe of course). You were humming to yourself, baby bump round and preciously framed by your apron. and he wanted nothing more than to turn off the stove and kiss you until you knew nothing more than his name—
But that wasn’t the plan (not yet at least).
“Toru, that you?” you threw him a smile over your shoulder, and he felt regret bubble up, but he couldn’t stop himself.
“Yeah bitch, what’s for dinner?” he forces out the words as naturally as possible — guilt gnawing at the pit of his stomach, but lips forced into a smile — maybe you’d find it funny. maybe you’d laugh.
And your sudden pause, as you slowly turn to face him, tears welling up in your pretty eyes make him wish he could hollow purple himself in that moment.
“G-grilled cheese?” your words were shaky, as your bottom lip quivered, and he was done for. he tossed his phone aside, as he scooped you into his arms, before cupping your cheek.
“If you ever let me talk to you like that again, you better smack the shit out of me,” your brow furrowed in confusion so cutely, he can’t help but kiss you softly, murmuring apologies, “if I ever talk to you like that again, you understand, sweetheart?” he repeats, as you nod, eyes still watery.
You sniff, “Yeah,”
“Yeah?” Satoru murmurs, pulling you into a tight hug, “should have never did this stupid trend in the first place,” and he feels you pause again, leaning back in his arms.
“What trend?” the high strung emotions ebbing away, leaving logic in its place, “why did you say that anyway?”
“The important thing is that I’ll never ever something like that again—“ and you smack his head, a tight frown on your lips, “I love you?”
You’re pouting now, pulling away, “you can love the couch tonight.”
And after many kisses, flowers, mochi, and promises to never do something like that again, you let him back in bed.
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Writing Notes: Anxious Attachment Style
Common Anxious Thoughts, Emotions, and Reactions
THOUGHTS
Mind reading: "That’s it, I know s/he’s leaving me."
All-or-nothing thinking: "I’ve ruined everything, there’s nothing I can do to mend the situation."
"I’ll never find anyone else."
"I knew this was too good to last."
"I have to talk to or see him/her right now."
"S/he can’t treat me this way! I’ll show him/her!"
"S/he is so amazing, why would s/he want to be with me anyway?"
"I knew something would go wrong; nothing ever works out right for me."
"S/he’d better come crawling back to beg my forgiveness, otherwise s/he can forget about me forever."
"Maybe if I look drop-dead gorgeous or act seductive, things will work out."
Remembering all the good things your partner ever did and said after calming down from a fight.
Recalling only the bad things your partner has ever done when you’re fighting.
EMOTIONS
Sad ⚜ Angry ⚜ Fearful ⚜ Resentful ⚜ Frustrated
Hopeless ⚜ Despairing ⚜ Jealous ⚜ Hostile ⚜ Vengeful
Guilty ⚜ Self-loathing ⚜ Restless ⚜ Uneasy ⚜ Humiliated
Hate-filled ⚜ Uncertain ⚜ Agitated ⚜ Rejected ⚜ Depressed
Unloved ⚜ Lonely ⚜ Misunderstood ⚜ Unappreciated
ACTIONS
Act out. ⚜ Attempt to reestablish contact at any cost.
Pick a fight. ⚜ Threaten to leave.
Wait for them to make the first reconciliation move.
Act hostile—roll eyes, look disdainful.
Try to make him/her feel jealous.
Act busy or unapproachable. ⚜ Act manipulatively.
Withdraw—stop talking to their partner or turn away from him/her physically.
Attachment classifications come from watching babies’ behavior.
Below is a short description of how anxious attachment style is defined in children. Some of their responses can also be detected in adults who share the same attachment style.
This baby becomes extremely distressed when mommy leaves the room.
When her mother returns, she reacts ambivalently—she is happy to see her but angry at the same time.
She takes longer to calm down, and even when she does, it is only temporary.
A few seconds later, she’ll angrily push mommy away, wriggle down, and burst into tears again.
Where Do Attachments Styles Come From?
Initially it was assumed that adult attachment styles were primarily a product of your upbringing.
Thus, it was hypothesized that your current attachment style is determined by the way in which you were cared for as a baby:
If your parents were sensitive, available, and responsive, you should have a secure attachment style; if they were inconsistently responsive, you should develop an anxious attachment style; and if they were distant, rigid, and unresponsive, you should develop an avoidant attachment style.
Today, however, we know that attachment styles in adulthood are influenced by a variety of factors, one of which is the way our parents cared for us, but other factors also come into play, including our genes and life experiences.
Source ⚜ More: On Attachment ⚜ Writing Notes & References Writing Resources PDFs ⚜ Avoidant ⚜ Secure ⚜ Disorganized
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agajdhfkg…. ryouo
#BANGS HEAD ON TABLE#i looked through my ryou tag and now my heart is beating really fast hehehehe he makes me. so unwell. gah#squeezes his face in my hands. you’re an idiot and a dork and i love you so much who gave you the Right#silly guy love of my life etc etc#he gives me emotions if that wasn’t obvious enough. literally gnawing on his arm agrhrgfb#i don’t even know what part of him is driving me insane today it is just. everything#he’s so pretty i love him so much but not just because he’s the prettiest boy ever!!#adore him and his silly reckless bravery and his conflicting behavior and#it’s getting chillier here so that means i can start wearing my sweater that i totally don’t pretend is his again……#it is my most favorite sweater i own simply because it looks a little like his lol#anyway umm. ummmmm i’m gonna go and lay on my heating pad and think about kissing him i’ll be back Never#he deserves so much affection and care and i am going to give it to him or So Help Me#spookyshipping#I HAVE A GUSH PASS IN MY INBOX i’ll use it. one of these days. unprompted gush posts are fun though
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I think I’m in between food hyperfixations and it’s spooking me
#need to stop eating everything in my sight when nothing makes me happy but it’s so much easier to eat everything in my path than it is to#sit and not eat bc I always want something to chew on I want chips I want fruit I want meal after meal I need to stop !!!!#I haven’t even been that excited about cherries recently I think I need to let them come to room temp before I truly like them like them#idk everything reminds me of something else and idk what I like and what I can’t stand to look at anymore and it’s making me feel crazy#anything can set my emotions off and I hate it I don’t want to eat frozen grapes anymore bc I ate them every single day last summer while in#a discord group full of ppl I don’t talk to anymore and now grapes make me upset and sad#it’s just like idk little things like that like why must everything I do have layers can’t I just fucking enjoy things like a normal person#ughhhhhh#anyways just had a serving of microwave French toast sticks and now I’m sitting in front of my ac smoking and thinking about what I want to#eat next#I mean to be fair it’s noon and I went to bed at one or two so like it’s been hours and five small French toast sticks probably wouldn’t#hold an adult over but also I hate myself and my needs and my wants I want to never eat again and also never stop and I hate myself#but also I’m the best person on the planet and everyone wants me and food is my oldest friend#I think I’ll go get my garlic triscuts and hummus and fancy cheese#and grab the cherries#and then set up a Walmart order and see if literally anything speaks to me#that isn’t completely junk
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Summer always feels so nostalgic and I’m never sure if that’s a good thing. Like I don’t have anything to be nostalgic about with summer it’s just the feeling of time stretching out behind me and like?? It puts me in such a weird mood why does summer give you emotions
#thinking abt this summer and I am crushed by the weight of the last 19 summers and the three months before I go back to uni#but even without getting into the whole being at home thing it just pulls up so much stuff out of me#it might be that the full weight of the seasonal depression has finally lifted and I don’t have as many imminent deadlines now#so I have space inside me for them#but god like. I’m having That Feeling again#hollow and pale yellow in the top of my stomach that’s kinda good but feels like it’s curling up#it’s just like an ache. same as exercising like I kinda like it but it’s also not Good yknow#I think it was partly that last check please post bc that kinda song and check please both do this to me anyway#oh and that my friend called me last night bc she finally got together with this guy (it’s very cute)#nostalgia is the wrong word for all of this but English sucks for describing emotions#the things I could do if I had the words.#jay do you know what I mean#(if you’re reading this)#but yeah I kinda wanna cry now#not even like a lot I’d just like to but my dumb body is so bad at crying when I actually want to#constantly thinking abt that post talking abt people who cry easily bc I am that but I also just can’t do it when I want to#i do not control the cry#man I wish my internship wasn’t remote#it never feels like I’m allowed to think stuff like this but I wish something had happened with a guy this year#but I’ve been completely out of it literally since October and then there was mr I’ll go on a date with you bc it’s funny so like.#I’m also dreading next year bc this year was bad and next year is the hardest of my degree#and I need to do Good to make up for this year#my tutor told me it might just be that I study all the time and don’t do anything else and like that’s fine to say but I don’t think#I can do that.#like I don’t think I’d be able to sustain that and next year’s my last year with a bunch of my friends#and besides that it’s a whole year and I don’t want another one to disappear like this one did#I’ve only got two left here#and I like. I hate that next year’s gonna be so much bc I have so much other stuff I want to do#like I want to try playing with the hockey team bc multiple people have now said I’m good enough for it and I want to do that even though#oh wait there’s a 30 tag limit now >:(
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