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#what am i doing#i have everything I've asked for#the bed isn't empty. It's so full its bursting#i have so much love and affection#...so why isn't it enough#why am i running away from it why can't i let it happen why am i so terrified to ask for it despite wanting it more badly than i want air#ive been so focused on making sure everyone feels included#on making sure everyone is having fun and is okwy and taken care of#and im.... im being looked after too in kind#....i think#.....all i want is to be *held* held#To be wrapped up in someone's arms so tightly#more than one#So fully i cant move or run away#.........and if I'd only ask I'd have it#......ive been played with a little#I tbink.....#.....so why was it when someone said thay another girl was 'the only one who hasn't been played with'#my own mind went '....when do i get to...?'#......am i being greedy and selfish to want more than what I've gotten...?.#.....fuck i don't know#.....I should just sleep
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If you've ever told a person who's had to be bedbound for a period of time that you wish you could "just stay in bed", DO IT.
Stay in bed. For days. But don't get up if someone needs you to, or you get bored, or you get antsy. Don't do anything other than rest. Just lie in your bed, whether you need to get stuff done around the house or socialize or anything else "productive". You'll have to cancel on people, you'll disappoint them, they won't understand.
And if you're thinking, "well, i CAN'T just be in bed. There's stuff that has to be done - I have plans", maybe ask yourself why you assumed a disabled person doesn't have plans or things to do or desires.
#Disability#Bedbound#Housebound#Actually disabled#Chronic illness#Long covid#Chronic fatigue#Inspired by my boss asking what I did over the weekend and I said I couldn't get out of bed and he said that sounds nice actually#I'm literally only able to work bc I am in bed at all times I'm not at work and it's still so hard and painful#I can't get my own groceries or cook my own meals or socialize or eat at restaurants or go to movies or take care of my own pets#If I didn't have a loving generous caring spouse I'd be dead by now
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no more fan-ta-sizing about it! everything's already changed~
#dimension 20#fantasy high junior year#fhjy#figueroth faeth#riz gukgak#adaine abernant#fabian seacaster#gorgug thistlespring#kristen applebees#fh class quangle#my! class swap thing! I guess this is like the poster for it now#got overinvested and finished it properly instead of winging it lol#in closeup order: cleric!gorgug; bard!riz; rogue!fabian; sorcerer!kristen; barbarian!fig; artificer!adaine#this one does have the harpoon gun I'd give fabian during sophomore year but literally only figured out for this piece lol#I like how it looks tho Im glad I hashed it out#thinking abt power armor adaine a lot tbh... she has the transhumanist audacity. she's villain-adjacent enough#to attempt unspeakable acts of body improvement#(its funny bc to wear a rig like that would Also demand a certain level of physical strength from you)#also yeah this is the thing with riz holding a megaphone that got me considering#its fun! it fits the aesthetics! maybe it'd grant him range for bardics#maybe he gets to keep that Im just not sure how he'd carry it around lol#fig gets to have all of her makeup... I like almost never remember to draw it usually kdsjfhdjk listen. I just forgor#I always forget makeup is real#also dont ask me what's in kristen's thermos it Is usually tea but you truly never know#sometimes its soup. it can be lighter fluid. soap perhaps. hot chocolate#also if u come knocking on my door abt kristen's somatic in this piece: I wont be home#she gets to be gross especially bc shes funny and 17yo and gay. we give it to her#okay I. whoo I should lay down. finally I can move on to other things#cheers! wahoo. yahha perhaps
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oh my fucking god i don't have any clothesssss
#what moving to another country does to a mf...#it's like. i gotta shop for winter clothes ASAP#because i have like 2 sweaters and 1 sweatshirt like that's it LMAO#and a jacket i bought HERE#why did i not pack winter clothes when coming to fucking sweden you ask. good question#my baggage was already 30 kilos#im only one weak person#i already died that day due to my 30 kilo baggage many times#i had to ask random people to help me lmaoooooo the way i'd rather die than doing that in a normal day 😭#it was THAT bad..#and now i dont have anything proper to wear. fml#and i am so bad when it comes to clothes shopping like u have noooo idea#im terrible at shopping in general. :/#ughhhh i will try to do that this friday :////// hope i don't freeze in the meantime :////#🗒
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JIN HUGS JIN HUGS! for @jinstronaut ♡
cr. namuspromised, dwellingsouls, 0613data
#btsgif#dailybts#btsedit#seokjin#bts#bangtan#usersky#usersan#userkelli#usermaggie#raplineuser#usersevn#tuserandi#userpat#userines#*sj#*bangtan#*comp#*gifs#em I have no idea in which timezone you are so I'm just gonna let this post at midnight my time asdgh#HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!!!!!!! I hope you'll have theeee bestest of days today my love you deserve it like no one else#I mean you've literally gifted us 500+ jin sets over the past 18 months -#this seems like the smallest thank you in return#you asked if someone could send you jinnie hugs so here I am!!!#if I could I'd fly to korea grab that man under his gigantic shoulders and bring him directly to your doorstep for the biggest bday hug#but for now this little set will have to do!#it gave me so much happiness just look at all the smiles with those big hugs :( and ofc I had to start and end it with jinkook <33#I love you lots emmeline thank you for being an amazing person all the time#you deserve so much appreciation and love and I hope you get showered with just that#not only today but all the time <3
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Hey there! I read both Reprogrammed and Decoded and was blown away. Unfortunately (sorta), my odd little brain had one little question that was burning from the end of Reprogrammed till the end of the story: what about the Wild Kratts Kids? How did they react to Chris's disappearance/return? I know if I were 8 and my teacher (i guess thats an okay metaphor? maybe?) randomly disappeared for 3 months and came back 10 pounds lighter with dozens of new scars and white hair in their early twenties, I'd be a little torn up/curious. How would Chris feel about showing up on screen in front of a bunch of kids in his state? Would he...wear a...hat...or something...? I don't know, just thoughts lol
They never told the public that Chris was missing (Didn't wanna scare the kids or give the Villains the knowledge that they were vulnerable)
And being out in the most rural parts of the world, it's not uncommon for them to go months without any sort of public appearance. For now, Martin is handling any sort of press alone until Chris is ready to be back in the public eye.
But of course they still run into a wild kratts kid every once and a while.
He's still working on his alibi.....
#wild kratts#littlecrittereli#chris kratt#wk reprogrammed au#reprogrammed au#martin kratt#asks#wild kratts fanart#wild kratts au#kratt brothers#wk decoded#I'd like to think they arent super mainstream celebrities#like in the scientific world? legends ofc#but like the average joe probably doesnt really know who they are#but they end up on the news every so often for their breakthroughs in biology and robots#(well Aviva gets on the news)#The brothers are just the poster boys LOL#they definitely avoid the press as much as possible though#they only do public appearances when they absolutely have to for like... grant and funding reasons... they would much rather be in the fiel#they are 100% more interested in animals than the fame AHAHA#they are like oh my god please leave us alone and let us hang out with animals#(they always have time to educate the kids though)#(and they volunteer to lecture at colleges every so often too)
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if you struggle with mental health, one piece of advice i would genuinely give you is learn to knit.
or crochet: something repetitive to do with your hands, assuming you're capable of it. if you're like me and learnt to knit as a kid but let it lie fallow for a long time, it may be that starting a large, simple project (for me it was a cloak, but a blanket could work too) gets you back into it. or maybe doing something smaller, idk. i personally found socks really hard for a while because they felt smaller than my cloak but weren't getting Done quick enough for me. as i've sped up i find it more interesting to knit socks.
regardless, a repetitive task is great for emotional regulation (also see: autistic stimming), and something that you can look at and go hey i've done something, unlike simply using a fidget toy, can also help to pick your mood up when the brain is being cruel.
it's also useful as a conversation starter or distracter if you don't know what to talk about. if you're wanting to talk to older people also you're more likely to reel them in with knitting (i work better with older people, and 99% of people who ask what i'm knitting are older than me). it also gives you the opportunity to not make eye contact because you're busy knitting, even if you're still carrying on a conversation. if you're absolutely stuck for conversation you can count your stitches and people might stop bothering you.
if you have trouble focusing without doing something with your hands, you can knit! i knit a lot in church, and it helps me to focus on what's being said.
i probably have more reasons you should pick up knitting, but i can't recall them right now, so yeah.
#knitting#catkin knits#i remember one specific time back in october where i was sitting in Bible class utterly unable to stop the most horrible thoughts going#through my head. i was knitting as fast as i've ever knitted. no exaggeration to say i was knitting to stop myself from attempting to die.#and afterwards i sat there in the corner knitting for all i was worth. just repeating to myself 'not now. i am not killing myself now.'#and someone saw me in the corner frantically knitting and came to ask if i was ok. and asked how my mental health was.#must've been end of oct bc it was the first wednesday after i was out of psych ward. and i was having lots of thoughts about the method#i'd used for what is still my most recent suicide attempt. which was in october. and i had the means with me.#it would have been a horrible thing to do. to kill oneself at Bible class. with children around. but i wasn't in a particularly hinged stat#of mind at the time. that's approximately the only clear memory i have of that time in fact.#anyway idk why im thinking of that rn when im fine
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#d20edit#dimension20edit#dimension 20#d20#mygifs#brennan lee mulligan#ally beardsley#kristen applebees#fhjy#fantasy high junior year#d20 spoilers#fantasy high junior year spoilers#fhjy spoilers#fhjy ep 3#big lapin vibes#ally was on one this ep and i am grateful for it#if i had a nickel for everytime the party healer asked the devout evangelical bad guys where there god was in a d20 intrepid heroes campaig#well i'd only have two nickels but it is weird it's happened more than once
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boys! it's my birthday! what would you cook up for a birthday boy eager to eat whatever some handsome bots can whip up? no dietary restrictions, anything the wonderful chefs can think of :D
ough happy belated birthday, Bash!
the boys have prepared a birthday meal for you:
some details on the menu:
the longevity noodles egg noodles that are commonly eaten in Chinese cuisine for celebrations and birthdays. it's often called "birthday noodles" for that reason. they are long noodles to symbolize a long life, so it's recommended to not cut them shorter. they are often served with eggs, that symbolize birth. they can be eaten in soup or stir fried or with a sauce.
the fairy french toast is a fusion of Australian fairy bread (white bread spread with butter/margarine and covered with colourful, round sprinkles) and Hong Kong style french toast (two egg-fried toasts, sandwiching a sweet filling like peanut butter, jam, condensed milk, etc.) fairy bread is a common treat at children's parties, and french toast is a staple at Hong Kong cafes.
the longevity peach ice cream float is a peach soda topped with peach soft-serve ice cream and a mini longevity peach bun. longevity peach buns are based off the peaches of immortality in Chinese mythology. the buns are served at birthdays (especially for the elderly) and are usually filled with lotus paste or red bean paste.
#ask the crab#fnaf sun#fnaf moon#fnaf eclipse#fnaf dca#dca fandom#Have You Eaten? AU#Sun Have You Eaten? AU#Moon Have You Eaten? AU#Eclipse Have You Eaten? AU#crab art#digital art#bright colours#fairy french toast sounds like such a good treat for kids#i'd try it if only i didn't dislike the feeling of chewing on sprinkles#but noodles sound good#i love longevity noodles in soup especially#and the peach ice cream float too#sounds yum
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What do you think of the voice acting of miraculous ladybug
Overall really great! I follow almost all of the VAs on instagram to track them down to anime conventions and get their autographs lol.
Main character Bryce unfortunately has the "I only know two voices - Good Boy and Slightly Evil Boy" issue, which is fine in ML. It just means when he pops up ANYWHERE else I can clock him immediately as either "Adrien" or "Felix". But I've met him and he's pretty cool, at least in the brief moments we've talked.
There are a feeeeew background characters that stand out to me as Not Great, but if I was doing the characters they were stuck with, I probably wouldn't bring me A-Game either.
#I'm on a mission now to get the VAs to sign the SL covers I did of their main character#Right now I only have Mylene's VA's signature on THAT but I've met Nino's current VA and obvs Bryce#and also Keith for Hawkmoth~#I just had them sign quick sketches I did lol#Bryce was the first ever and I had him sign a pencil pouch I'd bought and the signature smeared#and he was so nice and signed something for me the next day at no extra charge TT^TT#anyway I wonder if you can guess the specific character that I think phones it in#hint: technically the VA does 2 sub female characters so you can guess either one of them#ask zoe
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While I do think anon was rude, I do think it's pretty shitty to set up all this stuff you were going to add the au and then just drop it. It's disappointing. Definitely unfollowing.
Bye.
#ask me#anon#once AGAIN.#I am not dropping anything#the au is not getting cancelled. more than likely i'm gonna take a break from it until i find motivation again#But I've been drawing the AU for half a fucking year#In that time I've only drawn 5 things that aren't mlp related#I'm getting tired and my last few posts didn't do as well as I'd hoped#And I'm not about to burn myself out on mlp au art even if I really do love making it#I'm still gonna make comics. I have a bunch of ideas.#Tulli and I still wanna do the limited run merch shop#Discord is still coming. Sunset is still coming. Sombra is still coming. I have so many ideas#But I need to do something else for my own sake. Did you know I was supposed to get the background 6 designs done by now#But I didn't because I'm TIRED#I've been keeping myself on a schedule to keep content pumping despite travel and school and family and I'm tired#what i'm getting isn't matching what i'm giving and that's nobody's fault. i'm not frustrated at anyone. a slump was bound to happen#drawing the au was fun until it become my Thing. Because when your Thing––your identity––starts to faulter#it can really make you freak out#And that's not healthy for the project or for myself. I need to find the fun again and I'm sure I will#I'm really appreciative of everyone's support in my inbox and replies it really does mean a lot especially given that about 2/3 of my#followers followed for mlp. But if you're gonna react to me saying “i'm gonna cool down on mlp art and draw my own stuff” with “i'm#disappointed in you." then Leave! I think it's good you're unfollowing#you are not obligated to stick by my side! But don't act like I'm doing you a disservice by turning my attention elsewhere#I didn't promise anyone anything and I definitely didn't say I'm breaking any promises.
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i wanna know more about svsss menopause
They synced their periods together too well. Now they are synced through their perimenopause years.
#Poorly drawn svsss#svsss#shen qingqiu#luo binghe#shang qinghua#mobei jun#ask#I truly think that the peak of the SVSSS (peri)menopause era is just them commiserating over the experience of it.#Not pictured here is Liu Qingge barely suppressing his hormonal rage. He would have it *bad*.#I think Liu Mingyan is the only person who does not have a bad time with menopause because she takes estrogen supplements.#Which sounds like a trans headcanon but I think regardless of cis/trans status she's researched this and is prepared.#I have developed a sense for what menopause is purely by exposure to the various complaints I have overheard/been told.#These are all very specific and yet very common stories.#I do not know what the overlap is for SVSSS fans and people (not just women) going through menopause. I hope this is funny to SOMEONE.#It's an untapped market of potential! Too many young'uns in these woods.#Synced periods this. Ovulating that. Where's the menopausal homicidal rage?#Come on! Ripping off your clothing in a sudden burst of heat is *SO* SVSSS core!!! Make perimenopause sexy!!!#Anyways. Please put your menopause headcanons in the comments/tags <3 I'd love to hear them.#Thank you joblessmonday for following up with an ask and giving me an excuse to release this train of thought.
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I was scrolling through the blog and found the feral!TSC au and omg let me tell you I am foaming at the mouth. Especially TCO and TDL having to be his “keepers” LIKE THE ANGST LEVEL 6_6
Tco and tdl as tsc's keepers has as much comedic levels as angst levels LMAO
Man its been such a long time since i've talked about rabid!tsc
As of currently, tsc is having a lovely nap
#animation vs animator#Rabid!TSC au#I still have the asks for this au lmao im sorry for those idk when i'd get to them 😭#I'm stuck brainrotting about rottmnt 😭😭#And the only ava au thats marinating in my head in the back corner is the one where tsco tco and tdl are siblings#So yeah sorry 😭#I do miss it tho
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Do you have a fav (or favs) statues of Apollo? I think that ny "top three" are the Apollo Belvedere, the Apollo Sauroktonos and the Apollo Citharoedus, but the tiny hanged Marsyas in the cithara is weird lol
(Top three because i ike so many statues and i can't chose just one qwq)
You have put me in a difficult spot here anon! It's so hard for me to choose just three, honestly.
Apollo Citharoedus (labelled "Apollo with a lute" in the museum) obviously makes it to the list. There's so much grace and gentleness that this statue exudes <3 it's kinda unmatched if you ask me.
This Etruscan statue of Apollo in the act of shooting an arrow is so unique. The other statues I've seen that depict Apollo with a bow (Apollo Belvedere for example) aren't this dynamic. It almost looks like Apollo is dancing here.
Apollo Pythios sitting on omphalos is definitely one of my all time favorites. It's partly because of the hair lol because, look at it!! But also, it's quite rare to see sculptures of Apollo on the omphalos so this one is a treat for me.
Also shoutout to this Apollo Citharoedus as well specifically for the hair:
#asks#anon#honestly my hands are itching to add more but I shall resist!#and I've limited myself to classical sculptures only#because if I'd considered the neoclassical ones as well#then it would have been even more difficult for me to choose#statues
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go to the cat shelter after seeing cat of my dreams on their website. cat's info card doesn't have a gender listed, all staff are using she/her pronouns. assume cat is a girl. adopt her, name her Freyja.
spend a year calling her very gendered nicknames like 'lady', 'little miss ma'am', 'turkey ham sandwich', 'miss lady thing', etc. finally take her to the vet a year later to get her shots updated. Ask them if they can check her gender cause she's too fluffy for me to tell the difference.
surprise, it's a boy 🎉
"are you gonna change his name?"
no. sorry. nothing is safe from the woke left. she's just trans now.
#I mean. I was asking for it naming a cat Freyja in a very Loki household#But lmao#If I had a nickel for everytime I adopted a cat thinking it was a girl only to find out that was not the case#I'd have two nickels#is the cat trans? Am I simply misgendering her? I don't think she knows what a gender is.#She cares about one thing and one thing only: tummy rubs
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Xiao and BSD??? Godly art???? marry me
i love Xiaooo i started playing for him here's another doodle just for you~~
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