#*neuroticisms

[nonbinary-vents]

Being a creative with adhd is so weird because you want to make things so badly but your brain is just refusing to, so you’re just stuck there replaying the exact scene or piece of dialogue or drawing or cinematic shot in your mind while not actually being able to do anything. But at the same time the adhd is actively giving you unique creative experiences and ideas and it feels like a fundamental part of you as an artist. It’s such an interesting dichotomy of feeling the thing that you want to make so strongly and wanting nothing more than to just pour it all out but also being completely unable to do it, and that coming from the same source. But then also you have to live through said dichotomy and it just becomes completely and overwhelmingly exhausting.

[twinsfawn]

relevant lmao

[canisalbus]

hello! i've written a short little machete fic, and i wanted to share it with you as thanks for all the incredible art and generous question-answering you've been doing these last few months. i hope that if you give it a look, you enjoy it. <3 keep up all your amazing work! archiveofourown [.] org / works / 50945128

✦ A Voi ✦

[jellogram]

I'm so glad that Ryan "bought and returned 9 pillows before he found a satisfactory one" Bergara and Shane "regularly orders 100 count boxes of original flavor Burt's Bees" Madej found each other

[ducktracy]

compilation of my villagers bullying me. this will be a growing collection. these are all from today alone.

[otlwoozi]

seventeen 짝짝 follow follow!!

[possamble]

I know we don't get much of Marcille's pov in "A little creature who loves you" but what we've been able to glean from her expression of anger at Falin in the fifth chapter and the (surprisingly but extremely welcome as it made the smut hit the spot even more) deep dive into what feeds Marcille's behaviour in "The Dragoness of Melini", you've written Marcille's self-centeredness and narcissism in an extremely poignant way. You really get the feeling that she *does* want to do good and make the world better but overcorrects by trying to control those around her, which people like Namari interpret as purely wrong. I'm a trans girl with NPD (same as the anon recommending Bellwether's zine) and I fucking love what you're doing with Marcille on that front (and many other fronts).

THANK YOU for understanding what I'm trying to do with Marcille fjsjkdkf so many people try to reduce her to her control issues or file them off altogether but. I just. Even when people are able to acknowledge her multitudes I've always wanted to take it a step further where her wish to do good and be good isn't opposed to her fussy neurotic narcissism, but but enmeshed together as one core and unique part of her personality. She loves being deferred to and respected as an authority because it makes her feel important AND because it enables her to help and be useful to other people. Her desire to help people is fueled by a desire to feel important and respected and her desire to feel powerful and important is motivated by her desire to help people and it's not a black and white good or bad thing that can be separated.

Sorry this is jdkdkf turning into another Marcille rant but. My blorbo. I wish more people could see how, despite a lot of emotional hypocrisy in interpersonal relationships (via her inability to understand other perspectives), she holds herself to the same high standards she imposes on others. She is a control freak about herself first and foremost. You never see her more despondent than the times she has failed to meet her own expectations, and furthermore, caused trouble for other people because of it.

In some ways, she's a pathetic little wet cat with the backbone of a drippy eclair. In others, she's a fucking iron fist that will not tolerate failure or weakness in herself. Sometimes she gets a little too smug and peacocks around in her own accomplishments while fishing for more praise. Others, she thinks that doing an insane amount of work in service of other people is the bare fucking minimum that she expects no praise for while berating herself when she can't meet her own requirements. She has the pathetic ridiculousness of a constantly-distressed diva and the fiery dignity of a dragon AND the vulnerability of a terribly lonely girl and just.

She's terrible and projects her own expectations on other people far too often. She's wonderful and at heart just wants to help people. She's neither and just wants to feel a little less lost and a little more loved in a very big world. She's horrid AND fully capable of growing past it in ways not everyone acknowledges so I'm just happy my vision for her resonates with other people djsjdjf

[wanderingmind867]

Whenever my posts don't seem to get attention, my mood gets sour and depressive. I don't think that indicates emotional stability on my part, but I can't really help it. I think this is proof that social media isn't great for me, honestly. I seem to feel some sort of obsessive dejection when I realize that my posts aren't getting attention. I probably should talk to my dad and therapist about this, but that would require me to admit to having that account (and more specifically, to having made 13,000+ posts and never telling anyone). But until i work up the courage to tell someone about all this (and who knows if i ever even will), I'm just going to do what I usually do. I'm going to ask: did anyone seen my posts? Because it feels like some of them have had next to no attention, and i'm beginning to want to repost them.

[lesbianalanwake]

LOL but I won't stand for Alan slander. I've said it before and I'll say it again: Director candidacy is about being able to withstand intense paranatural exposure without shattering on impact. there's a vacuum after Northmoor is contained because everyone sees what it does to him and doesn't want to touch that gun. Trench takes it upon himself and does well with shouldering the paranatural side of it (until the Hiss wears him down), but that's why he's so worried about finding a successor.

Alan has withstood thirteen years of paranatural torment and living darkness actively trying to eat him from the inside out. he's figured out how to make the paranatural forces around him play by his rules, and he's continually adapted those on the fly. he could pick up that gun just fine.

it's the mundane management side of things that would make him go absolutely nutso bonkers. resource management? people handling? spreadsheets? his neurotic ass would crumble within a week

[sittingdiastolic]

DESPERATELY need whatever nagito komaeda and hajime hinata have going on

[soulmaking]

Marcel Proust, In Search of Lost Time (trans. C. K. Scott Moncrieff)

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

finished turn A gundam and sad about it. Because it was good and i didnt want it to end. Crazy how Lily Borjano ended up being the best character ? I decided i'm going to lean even more into that side of my personality now (Fearless, Self-Assured, Unmoveably Optimistic But in a subtle & dignified manner)

[minmin-vs-physics]

[21/9/24] pro tip: don't write the physics gre when you're hungover. party last night went longer than it was supposed to, so i didn't get much done today. felt like absolute shite about it bc i tanked my practice gre this afternoon. (i did register for the test next week though)

instead of working on problem sets, i spent the evening building my grad school list and getting exceedingly sad about it-- grad apps are lowkey really depressing and i feel sick to my stomach since im an underqualified theory applicant.

[ssruis]

Ruikasa don’t become more stupid when they’re around each other (they continue to operate at their typical levels of stupid) but they do lose all of their respective maturity. which is funnier. You put Tsukasa “my personality is so based on being a big brother that it has manifested as a person (KAITO) in my sekai” Tenma and Rui “described as mature by nene who has known him for like 10 years” Kamishiro together in a room & 20 minutes later they’re up to the most childish shit ever.

[tacky-optic]

IMPORTANT SHIP NICKNAME UPDATE (yes im still on this shit)

OKay after some suggestioning and discussioning and pondering we've got some revisions to this post!!

bold is my personal "final consensus" cos i really gotta move on lmao. but that's not cutting off any more suggestions ofc, pleasepleaseplease tell me why "X" is peak for [insert ship here]. also lemme know if i forgot to add a suggestion.

Luzeni - LoopZoop, Hell n' Back, CallingCuffs Lugoe - OG Thieves, Goop, Certain Death, Swordplay Jigzeni - HatTrick, SnipeHunt Jiglup - Ride or Die, Full Throttle Jigoe - Weapon of Choice, SwordGun, Bayonet Fujigen - FataleBullet Fujilup - It's Complicated Fujizeni - No Chaser Zenigoe - Sword&Shield Fujigoe - CherryBlossoms

[peachnecrosis]

does nobody understand how truly fucking insane he is. how much of a spectacle he’s made and continues to make of himself (neutral connotation.) look at this shit. the creepy uncle shtick that he admits to doing on purpose later in the video, the absolute non compos mentis unsoundness that leaks off this abhorrent clip. this shit is something parallel to recovered footage from tapes left behind by a serial killer for the cops purely to taunt them. when people were discussing the björk stalker from back in the 90s due to a resurgence in interest via the unrelenting vigor of society’s greatest defibrillator, pop culture (smiling friends episode parodying it) talking about how he made video diaries doing kooky shit like shaving his head and painting himself, this is some bs i’d imagine to be muddled in there. and the tragicomic musical choice. i won’t even touch on the weapon and unique clothing because it speaks for itself. whoever says that he’s not a freak anymore, that he’s been neutered and caged and leashed, you spew falsehood. i can’t wait for the day he actually goes off the rail and starts bludgeoning people in broad daylight, because this is truly some silence of the lambs shit. would you have monogamous sex with me? i’d have monogamous sex with me.