#“lets not forget about the deleted scene where-” no lets forget it

[anyplaceisparadise]

Okay hold on, hold on, because these tags got to me:

prev#everytime geta lets himself be more unrestricted and reaches out/interacts with people or just expresses himself#he gets humiliated and mocked and laughed at#its almost like his whole story arc to be so unpopular and so disrespected#no wonder hes so inhibited and paranoid and insecure

Because now I'm thinking of all the moments he was embarrassed:

Acacius knocking the sword Geta holds off his shoulder and saying that there is still land to be conquered. Geta tosses the sword into the little pool

Obviously this scene above, everything about it tbh. He gets up and claps, making a big scene, just for Lucius to ignore him and then bust out a poem Geta doesn't recognize.

Acacius' speech at the games: "So if you ask anything of the gods, ask for that same bravery, because Rome needs it now". Geta's FACE afterwards. He's not stupid, he caught that little jibe.

When Lucius interrupts him giving mercy

I think you could even argue when he tries to repeat the poem but doesn't remember it and Lucilla corrects him.

Nearly getting shot by Lucius during the second colosseum game in front of his subjects. Could the average person sitting there really see that it was A: a deliberate shot into their seats or B: that it nearly hit Geta? There's a noise from the crowd that indicates yes, which I'm sure did NOT sit well with Geta. Even if Lucius was aiming at Acacius, Geta was almost grievously injured if not killed by a gladiator.

When Acacius laughs while Geta is rambling about treason and betrayal.

Just the whole coup plot in general is humiliating

The reaction of the people to their decision of killing Acacius. Looking out the window and realizing that his people do not think as highly of him and Caracalla as much as they do Acacius and Lucius.

His death even? His own brother "kills" him and I use quotation marks because really, it's Macrinus. Especially after what he said during the earlier night scene ("I have come to think of you not as a subject but as a true friend"). Two injuries in one, really.

But most importantly is that he doesn't even get a reprieve from humiliation after death. His head is still paraded around and slapped down in front of everyone like it's nothing.

There is also that deleted scene where Caracalla asks where Geta is, seemingly forgetting that Geta is dead. I have no idea where that was supposed to fit into the movie, but either way the humiliation continues. His twin, as complex as their relationship was, doesn't realize he "killed" Geta, nor that Geta isn't even alive anymore. I guess it could be taken as a sweet notion that his memory is living on or whatever but that's not the truth. What happened to Geta has been erased to the one person he really had in the world.

moon, meet sun

[tangents-within-tangents]

Came up in this discussion of analysis/media literacy the other day, so thought I'd expand on this idea a bit since this has been on my mind/in my drafts for awhile.

Characters aren't people.

They don't actually make choices, the writers do. Good writers try to make those choices make sense for the character as a real person, but they aren't. Good writers also strive to make it appear as though they have a life outside of the story, but they don’t actually. When the "character's write themselves" or "surprise us" or derail our planned plot with choices we "didn't expect," that is the mark of good character development and writing practice. It doesn't mean we've like actually been possessed by a living entity or something lol. Everything characters do and say is crafted by a writer, and the writer must consider how the depiction will come across.

Fanon/headcanon often extrapolates on characters as if they are real people. Speculating and considering logical conclusions and explanations beyond what is presented in the text. Which is fine if it's for yourself/fun headcanons or whatever, but it makes discussion and critique counter productive when we can’t separate these things. Sometimes it becomes almost parasocial, like you can't critique a character without a bunch of caveats and provisional language because people will legit take it as an insult and get offended on behalf of their precious blorbo. The idea you've built of them in your head isn't relevant to my analysis, okay? There are so many times I feel the need to say "I don't dislike the character, I'm just critiquing the writing and how it portrayed them!" But that's silly. It's the same thing! The character does not exist outside of the writing, they are that portrayal.

The reverse too, when people say stuff like “the bad writing makes them seem like this” and sometimes that is definitely true, if the writing is going against basic human logic or is inconsistent with what has already been established as in-character. But other than that, if the writing portrays a character a certain way, then that just IS the character! They aren't a historical figure, this isn't a based-on-a-true-story or a retelling that has inaccuracies; the writer made them, they are the writing, that’s just them. You can still have opinions about that writing choice, you can debate if it was a good choice for the story or not. And maybe you can come up with reasons for why the character acted a certain way, but if that is never voiced or shown in the text itself then its irrelevant to discussion of the writing.

If it's an adaptation, or a new writing team or something and there is legitimate character assassination going on, yes criticize that. But otherwise, saying stuff like "they just don't understand the character as well as I do" about the person who literally created that character in their brain is ridiculous! Everything you know about that character is through what that creator put on a page/screen to show you!

Similar thing I see sometimes is when people mention deleted scenes or first drafts as if it's this 'Snyder Cut' situation giving new insight into the ‘full’ story. But that's not how it works! Studio interference and limitations are a thing, sure, but for the most part the final cut is the ‘director's cut’. Some things are cut for time but there is still an active decision being made for what to prioritize that time with. And the rest of the time things get scrapped in the first draft not because there's no room but because they did not work.

Han Solo isn’t secretly actually a womanizer because they deleted a scene of him with a stripper, he’s not a womanizer BECAUSE they deleted it. You see what I mean? I see people talk about the ‘original drafts’ of Dracula as if it's some long lost sacred text with the ‘true’ story/characterizations/lore, but an earlier draft is not the original. Comparing could give us insight to changes Stoker made, and maybe we can guess why he chose those things, but a manuscript found in a barn in Pennsylvania after he died is not the secret key to his true intentions. He showed us his true intentions, in the book he wrote and published for the world to see. Anything he wanted us to interpret is IN that book!

Let me just tell you, as a writer, that first drafts are there for you to make mistakes and throw ideas around. Revision is a crucial and active part of the writing process. Sometimes every word that is included or changed or cut is intentional. There's a reason Terry Pratchett had his unfinished works crushed by a steamroller after he died.

Fiction isn't just "not real," it's craft. Writing is a process, and storytellers are making choices at every step. And the beauty of analysis is acknowledging those decisions and the work that was put in to make a story successful and meaningful.

[bixels]

Portal 2 is still the perfect game to me. I hyperfixated on it like crazy in middle school. Would sing Want You Gone out loud cuz I had ADHD and no social awareness. Would make fan animations and pixel art. Would explain the ending spoilers and fan theories to anyone who'd listen. Would keep up with DeviantArt posts of the cores as humans. Would find and play community-made maps (Gelocity is insanely fun).

I still can't believe this game came out 12 years ago and it looks like THIS.

Like Mirror's Edge, the timeless art style and economic yet atmospheric lighting means this game will never age. The decision not to include any visible humans (ideas of Doug Rattmann showing up or a human co-op partner were cut) is doing so much legroom too. And the idea to use geometric tileset-like level designs is so smart! I sincerely believe that, by design, no game with a "realistic art style" has looked better than Portal 2.

Do you guys remember when Nvidia released Portal with RTX at it looked like dogshit? Just the most airbrushed crap I've ever seen; completely erased the cold, dry, clinical feel of Aperture.

So many breathtakingly pit-in-your-stomach moments I still think about too. And it's such a unique feeling; I'd describe at as... architectural existentialism? Experiencing the sublime under the shadow of manmade structures (Look up Giovanni Battista Piranesi's art if you're curious)? That scene where you're running from GLaDOS with Wheatley on a catwalk over a bottomless pit and––out of rage and desperation––GLaDOS silently begins tearing her facility apart and Wheatley cries 'She's bringing the whole place down!' and ENORMOUS apartment building-sized blocks begin groaning towards you on suspended rails and cement pillars crumble and sparks fly and the metal catwalk strains and bends and snaps under your feet. And when you finally make it to the safety of a work lift, you look back and watch the facility close its jaws behind you as it screams.

Or the horror of knowing you're already miles underground, and then Wheatley smashes you down an elevator shaft and you realize it goes deeper. That there's a hell under hell, and it's much, much older.

Or how about the moment when you finally claw your way out of Old Aperture, reaching the peak of this underground mountain, only to look up and discover an endless stone ceiling built above you. There's a service door connected to some stairs ahead, but surrounding you is this array of giant, building-sized springs that hold the entire facility up. They stretch on into the fog. You keep climbing.

I love that the facility itself is treated like an android zooid too, a colony of nano-machines and service cores and sentient panel arms and security cameras and more. And now, after thousands of years of neglect, the facility is festering with decomposition and microbes; deer, raccoons, birds. There are ghosts too. You're never alone, even when it's quiet. I wonder what you'd hear if you put your ear up against a test chamber's walls and listened. (I say that all contemplatively, but that's literally an easter egg in the game. You hear a voice.)

Also, a reminder that GLaDOS and Chell are not related and their relationship is meant to be psychosexual. There was a cut bit where GLaDOS would role-play as Chell's jealous housewife and accuse her of seeing other cores in between chambers. And their shared struggle for freedom and control? GLaDOS realizing, after remembering her past life, that she's become the abuser and deciding that she has the power to stop? That even if she can't be free, she can let Chell go because she hates her. And she loves her. Most people interpret GLaDOS "deleting Caroline in her brain" as an ominous sign, that she's forgetting her human roots and becoming "fully robot." But to me, it's a sign of hope for GLaDOS. She's relieving herself of the baggage that has defined her very existence, she's letting Caroline finally rest, and she's allowing herself to grow beyond what Cave and Aperture and the scientists defined her to be. The fact that GLaDOS still lets you go after deleting Caroline proves this. She doesn't double-back or change her mind like Wheatley did, she sticks to her word because she knows who she is. No one and nothing can influence her because she's in control. GLaDOS proves she's capable of empathy and mercy and change, human or not.

That's my retrospective, I love this game to bits. I wish I could experience it for the first time again.

[howtodrawyourdragon]

Does Berk think Hiccup is frivolous in Httyd 1? Maybe a little bit aloof?

Stoick tells him to stop joking around in the opening scene of the movie, after the dagons have left. "This isn't a joke, Hiccup!" He tells him. And he tells him that after his rant about how he has things to worry about, like making sure the village doesn't starve in the coming winter, Hiccup answers to with a sassy "the village could do with a little less feeding, don't you think?" Which really only manages to make Stoick even more mad.

After their first lesson in dragon training, Gobber asks the class "where did Hiccup go wrong?" and Astrid's response is "he's never where he should be." I think she means it literally. Why is Hiccup, of all people, in dragon training? Ruffnut and Tuffnut make sense. Snotlout makes sense. Even Fishlegs makes sense. (especially since Fishlegs has already shown effort by memorizing the Book of Dragons, effort Astrid clearly approves of given her shock at the twins and Snotlout disregarding Gobber's order to read the book.)

But Hiccup? Hiccup McSassyPants? Who gets told that his village could starve in the winter and answers with "well maybe they should eat less"? Who steps outside during a raid and actually causes more damage than the dragons pretending he's capturing a Night Fury? What is he doing in dragon training? That class literally ended with Hiccup almost losing his life to a Gronckle.

This is further backed up when after she has to protect both herself and Hiccup from a Deadly Nadder, which happened because Hiccup wasn't paying attention the whole time, getting them both in trouble. (Which is because he's fixating on figuring out a certain Night Fury, but they don't know that. To them, it just looks like he's annoying Gobber with meaningless questions. Why are you asking about the Night Fury? The one dragon who's single instruction is "hide and pray it doesn't find you"?) She explicitly asks him "Is this some kind of a joke to you?"

Followed up by "Our parent's war is about to become ours. Figure out which side you're on."

Once again someone questions Hiccup about how serious he takes things. But it's more than that, she's trying to give him a wake up call! Wake up, Hiccup, our parents are actually fighting a genuine war here and someday it'll be your turn! Stop making everything a joke before you get yourself or someone else killed!

Astrid actually isn't as much against Hiccup at this point as people often believe. There are actually a few points in which she eithers feels sorry for him or tries to help him in her own Astrid-y way. (And if the deleted scene hadn't been deleted, there would've been an almost friendly conversation had between the two before dragon training even starts)

Let's also not forget Hiccup's and Stoick's talk before dragon training even starts. When Stoick shows some actual vulnerability by laying his son's life in his son's and Gobber's hands when he decides to give in and let Hiccup go to dragon training while he's off on a voyage.

Hiccup tells his father "I don't wanna fight dragons!" in a tone that is rather pleading. To which is father chuckles and says to him "come on, yes you do!"

Remember in the opening, Hiccup practically makes the claim that he lives and breathes to kill dragon, it's "who he is." And now he suddenly claims he doesn't want to fight dragons at all? Can't fight them?

Stoick keeps his tone light, telling his son that he will fight dragons, don't you worry about that, Hiccup. With Hiccup doubling down that he's very extra-sure that he can't fight dragons, which makes Stoick double down in return, his levity disappearing.

"Can you not hear me?" Hiccup asks, desperate to be heard.

"This is serious, son!" Says Stoick. Which makes this three times that Hiccup is explicitly told to take something serious. (And you can just see the disbelieve or realization in Hiccup's eyes as he's once again not being listened to.)

(Followed by Stoick telling him to act like everyone else and to stop being Hiccup, which gets him, you guessed it, a sarcastic remark from Hiccup.)

We know that Hiccup changed his mind about participating in dragon training because he found out he couldn't kill Toothless. (or rather, he can't kill the scared and the defenseless, as the Red Death would later show) But Stoick doesn't know that. Berk actually seems to know very little about Hiccup and that's why they think that he's joking around at all times.

I'm willing to bet that the "disasters" he causes "every time he steps outside" aren't much of a help either. (and I wonder how many of these are actually Hiccup's fault or if Hiccup happened to be involved, so the blame is just automatically put on him.)

And this isn't a post to bash Hiccup. I love him to death, I love his sass as much as any other fan. And I am very much of the opinion that Hiccup's sass is a defense mechanism.

His feelings get hurt, so he tries to hurt someone else's back. Like when he probably feels guilty about his father worrying about the village getting through the winter, so he makes that comment about how the village could eat less to offset that guilt. (Which again, only makes Stoick angrier.) And I think the proof is in the rest of the franchise.

Hiccup sasses the most when he's 15-16, a.k.a from Httyd 1 to DoB. But by the time we see him again in RttE (chronologically) he sasses a little less and in a friendlier and more playful context, but he has also matured to deal with his negative feelings differently. RttE is, chronologically, when Stoick actually begins to consider if his son is ready to be chief. He can see how much Hiccup has matured, especially when there's such physicaly distance between them. It's the equivalent of not seeing someone over summer break or watching someone go traveling and see how much they've changed when you reunite with them.

(also, he can knock Snotlout unconscious with a single punch, I bet that helps as well.)

But it is the way Hiccup chooses to defend himself, giving sassy comments (think "Thanks, I was trying!" to Snotlout's comment about the mess he made) to either painful comments about him or actual serious statements like the ones Stoick makes that still gets him in the feels that make him seem so shallow and unserious in the eyes of Berk.

Then there is his apparent history of crying wolf. When he actually does manage to shoot down a Night Fury, his father doesn't believe him and Hiccup explicitly says "this isn't like the last few times, I mean I really actually hit it! It went down!"

When you combine all of this, you get a teenager who doesn't appear to take anybody serious, including the lives of himself and others. Terrible traits to have as a person, let alone when you're the chief's son.

Somehow, a narrative of frivolity and aloofness was build around Hiccup that he just could not escape no matter how much he tried to crawl out of it. At some point, Berk put him in a box, marked it "jokester" and Hiccup's efforts to get out of that box only grew and grew. When his efforts failed, whenever he sassed back, Berk just pushed him even deeper into that box. Not looking further into what Hiccup actually needed or was trying to say.

Do I think Berk was right? Not at all, because this is all surface-level, things Hiccup legitimately says and does to protect himself and nobody realizes this.

Toothless doesn't speak a single word to him during the Forbidden Friendship scene, yet he can get across exactly what he expects from Hiccup (mainly "keep your distance, I don't trust you enough") without being mean about it. He doesn't snap, he doesn't bare his teeth. He just gives him faces that Hiccup understands. Only growling or hissing when Hiccup passes a boundary Toothless very clearly isn't comfortable with. (or, let's say, when his feelings are hurt, like when Hiccup steps on toothless' first drawing.)

And it's because he's not mean about it that he actually makes more progress with Hiccup in half a day than Berk does his entire 15 years.

And that's sad. That's what this post is about. About how sad it is that Berk takes Hiccup at a very shallow level and decides that must be his entire self as a person.

[adrixivy]

PeteI definitely does Insta live. Like we know he did a vlog during the deleted scenes and it was him partying with random people on a rooftop. And he taped his phone to his chest because he’s a highschooler who loves to D.I.Y and makes his own stuff (mainly because he’s broke) and he can’t swing with one arm so taped to the chest it is

He definitely has an Instagram account (ThatFunnyFriendlyNeighbourhoodWebslinger) where he goes live for a while as he swings through New York and basically talks to himself cuz he can’t see the comments. People who usually tune in simply listen to him ramble about basically anything because he makes it sound hilarious or he’ll talk about something that happened off camera and complain in the most unserious way people find him funny.

Peter after being run over by a flock of birds and he was blinded and slammed against a signboard: Like damn, no ‘sorry’?? I was minding my own business too!

Peter rambling about something he thought about randomly in class earlier: Guys, if I stole a helmet from one of Mr Stark’s suits, do you think he would notice it? I don’t know if I can say this but he has plenty of suits. I feel like if I took one of his helmets and change the protocol, hell maybe even add a mustache, his sleep deprived ass wouldn’t notice. Oh my god, imagine what I can do with his nano tech suit! I could change-

Peter gets a call from Tony and an “Oh snap!” was last heard from the live before it ended. He picks up the face time call to see an offended Tony deflecting everything he said on his live because he was also listening in and Tony was pointing at the camera as he kept going on and on about Peter not allowed anywhere near his suits anymore and maybe even the lab which Tony was obviously joking and Peter took it seriously that even with the mask on, Tony could see his upset face with his moving lenses and sad puppy noises. Tony obviously makes up for it by letting him input his own stuff into one of his old suits

There are times also where his live suddenly cuts off with a yelp or a scream because he just encountered thugs and they started coming at him that he has to immediately hide his phone as he does not need a broken phone right now, therefore ending the stream.

Peter halfway through a complaint: Then they were like, you should bring your own paper if you can bring a pen. Woman, I simply wanted to leave a note so that-*gunshots sounds in the background* OH SHOOT! *live ends*

Other than simply listening into his live, some of his fans makes compilation of certain moments in his lives.

‘Spidey’s complaints compilation’

‘Spidey’s funny rambles’

‘Spidey’s perfect cut-off screams’

And Peter watches every single one of them, always laughing his ass off as he recalls the day. He always liked the videos and sometimes leave comments too. He watches them with the team sometimes and they all have fun watching him, especially the parts where he plans to do his own adjustments to Tony’s stuff which makes the older man raise a brow at his kid who was claiming that he was joking then(He was not joking)

Oh and I forget to add, he always has a few hundred thousand people listening in because at most, he does lives two times a week only. His highest view count was a million people and he honestly panicked

[sxeraphfic]

what are your nsfw hcs for donnie? 🤭

TW/NSFW - DONNIE DARKO HCS

Thank you for the ask dear! 

And anyone else who's reading this, if you happen to take a liking to one of my hcs and want me to write a fic/drabble on it just send it in the ask box <3 

A/N: these hcs are general nsfw hcs.. If anyone's interested in cough dead dove and darker nsfw hcs.. My asks are ready for that question :9

Donnie is a socially awkward young man who attempts to hide it through sarcasm and long intellectual rants, the truth is he's never been exactly.. Popular in either the friends or relationship department. That being said, his fantasies usually involve intimacy. In other words, he's totally a horny guy and def has frequent dirty thoughts. And anyone who's watched the deleted scene between him and his therapist would see that.  

What are my personal hc’s for him?  

I think donnie is most likely into some more obscure and weird kinks/interests while simultaneously being kind of vanilla. 

He’d be happy to try anything out really as long as it isn't causing you overt harm that's long lasting.  

He’s probably gentle and shy about sex at first with you, but as time goes on he’ll get more and more into rougher sex   

he enjoys cumming on your face, stomach, thighs and inside you, obviously.

Rough sex with him wouldn't be super crazy bondage or anything but he's definitely into slight smacking/spanking and manhandling. If you're shorter than him it's probably a guarantee he secretly gets off on it or even occasionally admits it to you during it.  

He’s probably read a lot of playboy-esque magazines and has seen images involving tied/cuffed hands, if he's feeling brave he'd be happy to go either way with doing it. 

I can imagine him being into nipple/breast play as well, tbh whether you have a flat chest or A cups or DD cups he's gonna feel them up. He enjoys biting, licking and sucking them too.   

tummy kisses

def loves to give hickies/love bites aswell, specifically on your neck and thighs. He likes if you give them too.

Donnie’s favourite body parts would include; stomach, thighs, neck and chest.   

Donnie's favourite positions may include; doggy style, spooning, missionary, breeding/flatiron and standing.  

I think he would enjoy grinding and dry humping ALOT, he's a bit of a freak and enjoys the forced lack of stimulation from it if he's grinding or dry humping against you. Seeing you use him for pleasure through grinding drives him absolutely crazy, I think it's one of the few examples where a little bit of a soft dom side of him comes out. especially if you're needy during it.    

Thigh fucking? Thigh fucking. Your thighs are not safe.    

Finger sucking as well, both ways.

He's def at least a teeny bit into mommy dom stuff lets be real. Call him a good boy, edge him and control what he's allowed to do, he likes it.  

Def a head giver, sure he likes to receive. But the thought of getting in between your thighs and feeling them crush his face or feeling you push him away makes his cheeks flush and his pants tighten.  

Normal donnie? Cat boy. During sex donnie? A total puppy boy.

That being said Donnie is kind of a sexual chameleon, he can go from soft dom behaviour to being honestly kind of subby in seconds.  

He has a slight humiliation kink, which ties into his more subby side. If you make fun of him or tease him during sex it'll just make his dick 100x more hard.  

Don't forget to praise him though, the poor thing has hardly been complimented or praised throughout his life so he’ll appreciate it and fantasise about you doing it.

Donnie likes it if you act desperate or needy, or if you plead for him.

He's definitely going to ramp up the teasing aswell during it, he likes to humiliate you just as much as you do to him.

Donnie enjoys casual clothing during sex if that makes sense, don't get him wrong he finds lingerie beautiful. But something about seeing his partner in nothing but a t-shirt and panties or topless with just pyjama pants on gets him reeeeal hot.  

Donnie may partake in “risky” sex, he gets a high off of doing inappropriate things semi-publically and enjoys the idea of almost getting caught. Eg; in changerooms, bathrooms, cinemas etc.   

Donnie is vocal during sex, he grunts and huffs and mumbles from how good it feels.

Donnie is not a dirty talker, and he doesn't use pet names super often either. But he might let a tiny bit of dirty talk slip out if he's getting really into it.   

Remember at the start when I said he could be into some “more obscure stuff” ? well here's a FEW possibilities, stockings, choking (towards him), dacryphilia (tears), edging, lowkey feet too i'm sorry guys. There's some more stuff but that might have to be for a dead dove hc list LOL.

That's it for now! Maybe ill do a part two for general nsfw hcs for him one day but i've run out of ideas. I hope you all enjoyed <3

⋆.ೃ࿔*:･

[endiness]

mimi on liam, the show, and filming the 4th season (via metro):

"There was a long lead up between hearing who was joining us and actually first day on set. [Liam spent that time] training with the stunts team. When I see the work that that he’s been doing? Wow, what big shoes to step into; number one."

The 33-year-old star is full of praise for her new co-star as she emphasises how that isn’t an easy move ‘for anybody’ and the cast did their best to make Liam feel ‘welcome’. "I think sometimes [with] actors, particularly at his level, we can forget the human. This human that’s also really nervous, the human that’s also like, “I’ve got a big job”, you know? Don’t let go of the fact that this is a massive job. It’s a massive platform. Those are big shoes, and he’s going to come with all of his feelings about that too."

"There was almost a bit of a giddy energy when we had our first read-through. It was like “Is it real?” It was incredible."

The Witcher has a similar ‘safe space’ friendly ethos, with the cast bombarding their group WhatsApp with fun pictures from shoots. Mimî actually almost deleted the chat after the cast filmed the ballroom scene, which Fringilla was not part of, because the ‘fomo’ was so intense.

She teases that season four will dive into ‘intimate parts’ of the characters and their relationships, bringing a ‘new energy’ to the show. Fans can expect to see the sorceress return to the fray, with Mimî joking she has ‘spent about two seasons in a dungeon in darkness.’

"We’re going towards the final storylines, there’s a lot more of a collective feel. These last two seasons kind of work as one really long season. When we did our final episode of season four, we did two slightly different variations because we don’t know where the season’s gonna end yet."

Mimî promises a ‘gorgeous’ season which she is ‘really proud’ of and hopes new Geralt, Liam, is too. Excitedly she tells us: "I think it will be a great watch. I hope you guys agree with me. I know I’m so biased because my heart is wrapped up in this show."

[spiderfunkz]

✦ CITY OF STARS.

summary : peter swings you to a perfect late-night date.

word count : 0,6k

warnings : tooth rotting fluff, implied fem!reader, pet names, kisses.

a/n : inspired by this deleted scene!! requests for peter are open if u want to send in ur ideas / prompts ^_^ also kind of inspired by that one scene in atsv where gwen & miles hangout by that tower yk

"let's get out of here." peter whispers, his voice tickles your skin again as he places another kiss on your nose.

you sigh, cupping his cheek, "i can't peter, i told you." you repeat — which not surprisingly causes peter to pout. "why not?"

"because. i have.. homework." you shrug. it's true though, the pile of papers near your desk is practically calling you to be read or marked.

he pouts, again. but he isn't giving up.

"don't look at me like that." you chuckle, your thumb caressing peter's cheek, running through his freckles.

"like what?"

"with your big brown doe eyes."

peter tries a bit more. the more you make eye contact with him, the harder it is to say no.

"fine. but you seriously have to get blue contacts, peter." you let go of his cheek.

"yes, ma'am." he nods. you couldn't tell if he's joking or not, but it's funny either way.

he gets up and grabs his backpack, it seems heavier than usual. "grab your jacket, bub. it's gonna be cold."

"where are you taking me?"

"secret."

"that doesn't sound creepy at all."

"come on. trust me." peter's waiting near the window. "are you gonna take me on a swing?"

peter puts his beanie on. "does the hat give it away?" he asks, the spiderman crochet beanie in bright red staring right at you.

you smile. "yeah it kinda does."

peter tucks the loose hair behind your ear before helping you out the window, and before you know it you're one with the wind. and also with new york's pollution.

peter's gentle, one hand holding your waist and the other thwip! -ing away at buildings. your hands are wrapped around his neck, face burried in the crook of it. you could smell his cologne, it's the one you like.

you relax at the scent of it. it almost makes you forget that you're meters up in the air.

but then your shoes touch ground.

it was a ledge of a clock tower. it's not steep, it's actually very spacey up here. if you think about it you could probably fit a picnic up here, a small hangout even with a few friends.

"you good?" peter lets go, "yeah. this is cozy." you say, fixing your sweater. "don't you think people will see us here?" you ask.

"no. but. if they do-" peter opens his bag, "i got back up." he reveals a beanie, like the one he's wearing, it's a spiderman one too but with different colours.

it's white with pink outlines.

"we're matching!" peter puts the beanie on you. it fits perfectly, "that's so cute peter. do i get to keep it?" — "of course. made it just for you. besides i don't think people can spot us here unless they really, really, really squint. and now when they do, they'll just see our hats."

you nod. peter gestures for you to sit.

"i got more stuff." he smiles, teeth showing, teasingly.

you roll your eyes at him before sitting next to the empty space beside him.

he pulls out two takeout boxes, followed by the plastic eating utensils, and some water, and some more.

"oh. wow." you say, impressed.

you weren't kidding. you could fit a picnic here.

"what're you waiting for? dig in!" peter passes your takeout. "i got your favorite too."

"aw. thank you, peter." you give him a kiss. "i'll get you ice cream after this. or whenever you feel like ice cream." you give him another kiss.

"thank you!" he gasps, dramatically. "that is everything i have ever wanted." peter replies.

you smile, "this is everything i have ever wanted."

[gars-weaponeer]

The Bullied Bad Batch?

Here comes a controversial take...

But It kind of always rubbed me the wrong way to see the first episode of the bad batch and have this narrative that they have always been bullied by the other clones for being different, like some sort of Star wars Loosers club.

It really doesn't makes sense to me. Specially comparing them to their episodes in the Clone Wars.

For starters: Sure, they are called "defective clones"... but are they really? Nothing about their mutations gives them an actual defect or a weakness. The closest we have is Tech's intelligence being so great he is way to logical about everything and lacks in social interactions.

But other than that the fact that Hunter's heightened senses overwhelm him sometimes, or that Crosshair's eyes are sensitive to bright lights, or that Wrecker's Muscles are in constant pain are all fandom made.

They were not just "born defective" like 99 and the Kaminoans decided to let them out into the world see what happened. They presented "some" mutations and the Kaminoans enhanced said mutations to make them perfect soldiers.

They are an an experimental group sure, but they were treated as a clone comando squad, an elite group.

I find it very hard to believe that an "elite group" would be bullied for being "different". It's like saying the Delta Squad was bullied by the other ct troopers.

Not to mention, their actitudes in their clone wars episodes are more akin to bullies. They are arrogant, They pick up fights with the other clones, They undermined the other clone's thoughts, ideas and even abilities. They don't follow orders and do things their own unorthodox way. Hell! even the "Reg" name they give regular clones sounds almost like an insult or a slur.

So why did we suddenly pass from: "They are just Regs, they cannot compare with us" to "The regs are calling us names, we have no friends in the school cafeteria." ???

-But Weaponeer! - I hear you say - They are called the Bad Batch because they were born defective.

And to that I say, NO. They are called "Clone force 99" because they were born with mutations (like 99). They call themselves "The Bad Batch" because they are a group of edgy, rebellious, younger clones that are aware they are different from the rest.

Let's not forget that deleted scene where we learn the Bad Batch had some nose art of a sexy Padme. That reads: "Born to be Bad."

Just so you can understand their actual energy.

That said, I think the writers should have kept the Bully Bad Batch on their series. At least on the first episode, when they are still in the GAR.

IMAGEN THIS:

The Bad Batch is an experimental group that is very important for the Kaminoans. So much so that they are given preferential treatment over regular clones, even comando clones.

They have their own personal barracks, They have their own ship that is theirs, They are allowed to do as they wish during missions since Kaminoans want to test them and record their evolution.

The Bad Batch know they are the Kaminoan's favorites, so does the regular clones and they hate it.

To regular clones it feels unfair. They are the ones that run into the battlefield and fight endless hoards of droids daily just to have this bunch of reckless clones rush in, do whatever they want, explode something and receive all the praise.

Not to mention that The Bad Batch is not nice about it either, they are arrogant, they boast, they call the other clones "regs" and compare their superior abilities to the rest constantly, almost like they forget they are clones too.

Worst part is, the Regs can't really do anything about it. Pick up fights with them always ends up badly. Wrecker is strong enough to send any reg to the med bay with one punch, Hunter can always anticipate punches and Crosshair has excellent aim when throwing the cafeteria trays.

The only one there that does not condone the behavior of his peers is Echo. Despite being a Reg he was accepted by the Bad Batch thanks to his unusual appearance and skills, but Echo is constantly trying to stop them from being mean to his other brothers. Not that it does much as the Bad Batch still see Echo as the "newbie" despite him being an ARC trooper.

But they are not bad people, they do have a sense of duty and honor like any other clone and they wouldn't really cause real harm to an ally. They see Omega and treat her with care, after all she is a young girl and they are not animals. They see the "insurgents" they were sent to kill and of course they cannot do that! Killing innocents? that's not what they do!

When they rebel from the Empire and go AWOL their whole world comes crashing down.

They no longer have the protection of the Kaminoans, they are no longer the favorite clones, now they are the traitors, hunted down not only by the whole empire but by one of their own.

This sudden change would make the batch wake up and turn from unruly teens to mature adults.

Hunter now has to be the mature leader and guide his team to safety in a harsh galaxy that keeps getting more and more dangerous. He has to be more careful, to a point that he is almost afraid of taking risks, specially since he has Omega to worry about. It would give him some character arc in which he passes from being carefree, to overly cautious, to learning to balance both.

Tech would learn that even though he has all the theory, he doesn't have all the practice. Nothing is as easy as just saying it, and things that he used to take for granted are now being mayor issues.

Echo's knowledge of the galaxy and skill would be more useful to his peers, but his tendency to distrust causes him problems in the long run. Not to mention he would still not be happy about sitting down doing nothing while his brothers are suffering at the hands of the Empire.

While Wrecker is having the hardest time adapting to their new life, being the more immature of the bunch. He learns that he cannot be as reckless as he has always been during their time in the GAR, specially when they have Omega to worry about.

That's Right people! MORE CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT! I think it would have been interesting to see that sort of dynamic.

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Then Again, these are just my thoughts. You are welcome to agree, add your own thoughts or just ignore them if they are not your cup of tea.

If you reached all the way down here thank you for reading ♥

And may the force be with you.

[nectarinesinthesun444]

Ok I just rewatched dps and I NEED to yap (a review basically)

Neil was in love with Todd there’s no way around it and he realised that when Todd did the poem in front of the class, and I also do not buy the idea that it was only acting that drove him to suicide, it just doesn’t add up and it falls flat. I can feel his emotions I can see it in his eyes during those arguments about the play with mr perry there’s was more to it!!!! he knew that there was just this one other thing about himself that he couldn’t let anyone in on.

He had so much love and passion for the world around him, for Todd, for acting, for Charlie, for Mr Keating, for poetry, all these things were taken away from him. On that night in his small world there was no way out other than death. And who knows he may have also been thinking that the more and longer he lives his homosexuality may be found out by Mr Perry and that would be his final straw. There was sooo much he was scared of risking he couldn’t go on.

In another lifetime he had another chance but horrifically not in this life.

And about my theories and beliefs on what happened to Todd post canon

I believe Todd stayed close with Charlie because they were closest to Neil and they bonded over that, I think in the early days of Neil’s passing they wrote letters to each other. We also know from Gale Hansen that Charlie became involved in the hippie scene/civil rights/lgbt rights etc which obviously includes poetry so I believe him and Todd were pretty close at this time in the mid late 60s and 70s and so on.

Todd SO found happiness and love and beauty in his life moving forward, those months with Neil in Welton changed his life forever and it made him realise so much about himself. I think that he definitely published poetry books and maybe even a memoir? I also do believe he was in love with Neil but only realised years later while reflecting on his life.

I also headcanon that Todd stayed in contact as much as he was able to with Mr Keating. And it’s also canon that Todd became an English teacher because of the sequel that never happened because of the unavailability of other actors so there’s that.

Todd had so much passion and energy inside of him and Neil helped him with that, and after his death he committed to being passionate about life and poetry, never forgetting the light in his life that was the Dead Poets Society and Neil. Because of the deleted scene that was meant to be intercut with Neil’s suicide where Todd recites his poem he was writing the entire film, we know that he was forever inspired and had confidence inside of him and Todd Anderson is a blessing to this world. Never Forget.

Neil is also a blessing to this earth and only in another life would he have had his name in lights performing in plays till his hearts content, basking in love and PASSION and the arts, rebelling and doing everything Mr Perry wouldn’t want him to do.

And now onto the beloved Charlie FUCKING DALTON because I can’t not talk about this man forgive me

He’s so more complex than just the funny guy and he lives for his friends, he’s so incredibly loyal and loving even though it’s hard for him to show the full range of his emotions, only when Neil died he felt like he could actually cry and be vulnerable

This book exerpt is also important to his character and I wish it was in the film because it shows that underneath his flamboyant funny persona he felt empty. He didn’t know who he really was, what he wanted out of life. Always searching for adrenaline and excitement by taking risks, but outside of his friends, where was the real passion? What did his heart belong to? what was his thing? It seemed like everyone else had a thing that they loved and had true passion for but who was the real Charlie Dalton?

I believe Charlie found himself more in the late 60s as he found freedom and love in the counter culture of the time, getting involved in left wing political movements, connecting with Todd in ways he couldn’t as more emotionally closed off teenagers. They shared their grief together in the end and found happiness in so many places. Supporting Todd at his live poetry events with the other remaining poets aswell.

Also in the scene right after Charlie is punished because of the phone call from god prank, and he stumbles out of Nolan’s office in indescribable pain still trying to play it cool

What I’m trying to get at here is when Neil talks to him in the doorway of Charlie’s dorm. Charlie is facing away and he doesn’t want to be seen crying. He forces a smile and says “Damn it Neil, the name’s Nuwanda.” and this line is quoted in a funny way a lot but if we pick it apart, it shows that he tries to make light of almost every situation. He struggles to face the pain, for other people to see him in distress and he still has to make a joke.

Going back into this film I was nervous that I would get almost sick of the film because of watching it so many times but the opposite has happened. It’s sadder every time and I have so much love in my heart for these three characters and I know Todd and Charlie find joy after this traumatic event. Neil gave himself eternal sleep and peace away from this sick, dark and conservative world who don’t want to see people like him thrive. And I’m not religious but I know he was looking down on Todd and was so happy for him and all he’s accomplished.

I’m gonna end this by saying Todd Anderson is autistic

[salty-autistic-writer]

For @bucktommypositivityweek round 2 Day 2: "scenes from a truck"

Summary: Buck, Tommy and what happens between two trucks.(Link to AO3)

Stolen Moments between two firetrucks.

A giggle that ends in a breathless moan as Tommy playfully pushes Buck back against the truck behind him. Warm lips part and connect in an already familiar way. Eyes flutter close and skin flushes. Fingers sneak into Buck’s hair, tousling it, uncaring about the soot caught in his curls.

Buck feels floaty. His heart is pounding, spurred on by the excitement that comes with the fact that they are hiding and kissing like two teenagers with a crush. He could forget time here. He could forget the job and all the problems of the last week. He could …

Tommy breaks the kiss and steps back. Buck instinctively reaches for him, grabbing Tommy’s arms. And yes. Maybe, he even pouts. “No.”

“You can have more kisses later,” Tommy chuckles, head turning to where someone could see them if they chose to stand between the two trucks right now. “Come on. We have to go back.”

Buck sighs. He knows Tommy is right. Time doesn’t stand still after all. He lets go. But only for the moment.

~

Stolen moments. Whispered conversations.

“Are you okay?” 

“No. Not really.”

“I’m sorry. The day will pass.”

“And another one will begin tomorrow … I feel like I’m going insane. I need this man gone.”

“Don’t let him get to you, Evan. That’s what people like him want. He is not worth losing your job.”

“I know. I know .”

“Hey. Look at me. Relax your shoulders. You got this. Just … think about home, alright? You will always get to go home after work. And I’ll be waiting for you there. Take all of this to me.”

“Okay. I’ll try.”

"Now go back and be awesome. My gorgeous hero firefighter."

"Thanks. But we all know I can't be more awesome than my gorgeous firefighter pilot."

"Aw. Look at that. You made me blush. Now we need to spend a little more time here together until I don't look like a tomato anymore."

"I can give you another kiss."

"That doesn't help, Evan."

"I don't care. Come here ..."

Stolen moments.

~

And sometimes, it’s just Buck. He sneaks away for a few minutes, leans back against the truck and sighs, pulling out his phone to check for a text from Tommy. He smiles when he sees it. Writes a reply. Chuckles about a funny image. Moments like these always brighten his mood, even when the day is shit.

He takes some deep breaths, looks up as a helicopter flies over his head, and takes a picture because maybe it’s Tommy. Buck’s whole phone gallery is full of pictures of helicopters and he never really wants to delete them because even if it wasn’t Tommy, Tommy can always tell him cool facts about the model. After sending the picture to Tommy, Buck puts his phone away and returns to his team. 

[rileydylanjamesworld]

By Riley Dylan-James

The first artwork is by @ rosiipilli on twitter, I tried to find the second but I couldn't.

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Anderperry is real and this is an essay on why I think that :D

During the locker room scene Todd is seen to be sat near the window hunched over, seemingly looking at the floor in thought. This is until Neil comes over and clicks him out of his trance, Neil then asks if Todd is going to the study group, which Todd stumbles over some words, which sometimes happens if you like someone, but as he finds his words he looks at Neil's d 3 times, pointing out that Neil has a towel covering him. When todd gives his answer Neil turns towards the group ad Todd looks at his bum (it wasn't casual).

The next time anderperry is shown is when Neil and Todd were talking and Neil wanted Todd to join in, Todd stated that Keating said that everyone took turns reading, Neil then stated that he could still be there if he didn't want to read "what if you just came and listened" Todd then said "thats not how it works" which Neil replied with, happily and encouragingly "forget how it works" this shows that he doesn't care to follow the rules if it makes Todd uncomfortable.

Another important thing to note in this scene is that Neil asked "what if they said it was ok", Todd's response was "what, are you gonna go up and ask them" to which Neil made a suggestive face and jumped up to ask the boys to make the exception. We can see this later on when the poets get to the cave and Neil states that Todd will keep the minutes.

Another time this is obvious to me is when Neil tells Todd about Midsummer, Todd asks what it is to which Neil replies "it's a play dummy", here Neil is very happy and excited about doing the play, at first Todd didn't understand Neil happiness but his face lit up when Neil said "I'm gonna act". Shortly after Todd says "hold on a minute" and starts asking questions such as "how can you be in a play if your father won't let you" and "won't he kill you if he finds out you went to an audition and didn't even tell him", Todd keeps saying logical things and then Neil suddenly snaps thinking that Todd is on his father's side, and the regret as soon as he snaps is as clear as day, he fully regretted snapping at Todd. Todd then says "you say things and people listen (refering to Neil) I'm not like you" to which Neil replies "don't you think you could be" (again, suppoting boyfriend). In this scene Todd also says that he can take care of himself to have Neil reply with the word no, Todd asks "what do you mean no" and Neil repeats himself saying no again but with a smirk (ROBERT SEAN LEONARD THE MAN YOU ARE).

Shortly after Niel is being chased by Todd around their room and Niel says "I'm being chased by Walt Whitman" who was a known queer poet.

After Neil getting the part he funds Todd and they look a bit close in the doorway, Todd looks like ge was gonna lean in for a little kiss, Todd being the supportive friend he is sits on the bed and helps Neil with writing the letter that should be from his dad, as Todd says "you're not gonna write it" Neil makes a weird squawk which Todd laughs off looking at Neil, (flirting).

After we see bagpipes being played near the river which I'm assuming is the place of the deleted scene. In this scene Todd and Neil are practicing Neil's lines where Neil is very energetic which shows his love for acting, which he has been doing his whole life to be the best boy for his dad, and Neil says "god I love it!" To which Todd replies with "what? Me?" (YES YOU! GET MARRIED!) Here it shows that Todd has some feelings for Neil. Also when Neil says "put more into it" it shows how supportive, encouraging, Neil is towards Todd, green flag all round. (Just this whole scene shows they're gay, you can't miss it). Todd and the madman poem is another good example of anderperry because Todd didn't write a poem, Keating helps him write one about Walt Whitman (a known queer poet) being a sweaty toothed madman and when the poem ends the scene lands on Neil who is gobsmacked and staring at Todd, you can't tell me he's heterosexual.

In the scene after while the boys are playing American football you can see a boy jump into another boys arms... that's Todd jumping into Neil's arms.

When Knox calls Chris after hanging up the first time Todd turns to Neil smiling, Neil smiles back very happily and Meeks sees them being gay and supports it.

This is mainly from the book but in a few scens after it is Todd's birthday and Neil spots him sat on the roof, Neil says happy birthday enthusiastically and even though Todd got the same desk set he already has Neil tries to make him happier by saying maybe his parents thought he needed a new one, point is that Neil in this scene is trying EVERYTHING in his power to make Todd happy.

While Charlie is coming back from Nolan office Todd and Neil were talking to each other, probably nothing but just a note.

When Neil is in Keatings office talking about how his father wouldn't let him do the play this can also be a metaphor for gay love because when dead poets was set gay love was frowned upon, and when he says he's trapped this could also be because he loves Todd too.

When Neil is going to the car Todd is following along trying to get Neil's attention and as his dad drives him away the camera pans to keating with Todd in the background staring after the car.

Just after when Neil is at home and the boys are in the cave Todd reads the poem that he was writing earlier on in the film, Neil might have given Todd the confidence from the play.

When Todd finds out that Neil is dead he goes outside and Todd was gagging and just after he runs to the pier where him and Neil were rehearsing lines before in the movie for his play, his final yawp was for Neil.

In a few scenes after when Cameron said that that Neil would be cozied up in his room rn dreaming of being called doctor, Todd butted in nearly shouting "that is not true Cameron" and "Neil loved acting"

To also note a lot of the time when death was mentioned the camera would usually pan to Neil which could suggest that he was suicidal from the very start of the movie.

People say midsummer has queer potential- Anderperry.

Midsummer explores the theme of dreams and implies that the play itself is a dream- Neil's dream to be an actor.

Also they're both in Tape 2001 so don't try and tell me they're not soulmates.

Thank you for reading!

[seliasvault]

The Supermarket

supermarket!simon x reader

cw: this is a dark fic, themes of stalking and implied violence.

Part three

1 │2 │3

You go out to distract yourself and things go surprisingly well.

You never thought you would pick up the special interest of anyone, especially not enough for someone to consciously stalk you.

Several things have been going through your head since you were so “graciously” gifted four hundred dollars; contacted by said man who gifted the money, and then were unable to contact him again, because he somehow fell off the face of the earth leaving nothing but a “See you soon.”

The threat of a future encounter almost haunting you, and with no information it was like you were dealing with a ghost.

You tried, really, going over every detail sitting on the couch, note in hand, to figure out a way to track him down.

Replaying the scene over and over again, but it was getting harder to recall what exactly the texts said.

And so after gaining a slight headache, you come up with a plan of action; you think about going to the police, but with no evidence, besides a few words scrawled onto a page, it was less than ideal.

You knew who it was, had met him. But yet again you hadn’t seen his face, he hadn’t paid with his card, leaving any thought of tracking him, his name, or payment info down, out the window.

You call the police anyway, issue a report.

Heart still pounding but the anxiety starting to ease itself out of your bones. Knowing at least someone out there knows and if you wind up dead then they might know where to start.

So you sit on your couch for the rest of the night, after you stormed every room to ensure he was gone.

You hope he realizes you’re nothing special, just some girl who lives in a mediocre apartment, with less than impressive hobbies of online shopping.

Unable to sleep, you resumed just that, going back to scrolling hoping to ease the rest of your anxiety out of you.

Sleep overtook you on the couch, with whatever cheesy sitcom that was on in the background. You’d worry about your mystery man tomorrow.

-

The following morning was thankfully a Saturday, giving you time to not only process the event but to try and forget what seems like impending doom.

You don’t know much about your ghost, except he has a knack for being all mysterious, the mask, the deletion of all the messages, his cryptic note.

You’d only worry yourself further by thinking about the logistics. So you live in denial. Deciding to forget.

With a late start to the day, you make your way to the washroom, washing your face, brushing your teeth, the works.

Your phone buzzes next to you.

Heart momentarily stopping, your mind immediately going to him.

You flip the phone over and let out a breath of relief when it's just a friend from work. You wash your face before grabbing your phone to read the message.

A week prior, when you were feeling particularly lonely, you'd sleepily ranted to your friend about how much you just wanted to fall in love.

Of course in your sleepy stupor, words simply spewed out with no filter, but your friend had taken that as the greenlight in finally setting you up on the dates you'd been so quick to decline.

You barely even remember having that conversation, let alone agreeing. You left the dating scene a year ago, after too many dates gone wrong you'd decided to accept that maybe you just weren't cut out for it, and if you were meant to be in a relationship it'd somehow stumble into your life. So you swore off dates and hadn't been on one since.

Based on the texts filled with details about the upcoming date you'd "agreed" to, your half-asleep mind disagreed with your conscious one.

You read through it, she apparently set you up with a guy her cousin works with, who happens to be a mechanic. You'll meet each other at eight, at that fancy restaurant you like a couple blocks away. And maybe it was the post-shock from the dramatic night you had prior, but you send her a text saying you'd be there.

You could use any sort of distracting, and if that meant another failed date so be it. At least you'd get good food out of it.

-

The city lights illuminate the street, the night air chill with the promise of only plummeting to more frigid temperatures.

You head to the restaurant, coat wrapped around you firmly, lightly shivering. You're dressed in between fancy and casual, meaning the pair of tights you'd put on left your legs freezing and your skirt did little to stop that.

The restaurant was far enough to feel tiring but close enough that it'd be a waste to get a cab. You use the time to wrack your brain for the tips you'd learned the hard way during your dating days. Mentally preparing yourself for what could be another potential douchebag.

When you make it inside, you sigh in the warmth that engulfs you, greeting the waiter you let her know you're meeting someone. It's then you realize that you have no idea who you're meeting or what he looks like, scanning the restaurant you don't see anyone who'd fit the description of a single mechanic here on a date. You ask for a table wait.

After about 20 minutes you've consumed more breadsticks than you'd like to admit. Glancing at the time on your phone once more, you start to text your friend about the no-show.

Just as you're about to hit send someone clears their throat above you.

"Sorry hope I didn't keep' y waiting sweetheart" The man who's supposedly your date shrugs his jacket off, setting it behind his chair as he takes a seat.

You look him over, blond hair, brown eyes, a scar running along his brow, he's muscular too, expected for a mechanic. But you're still slightly thrown off kilter.

After you realize you've been staring too long you immediately jump into action, mentally scolding yourself.

"Oh no! Wasn't waiting at all." You tuck a loose strand of hair behind your ear, a nervous tick.

The waiter comes by at that moment, asking if you'd need another refill of the bread. You politely decline, face heating up.

"Well, maybe I was waiting a little." An embarrassed smile follows, and he laughs, something you think you'd like to hear more often.

"M'sorry got caught in traffic but I'll make it up to 'ya, promise." He looks sincere, with a little dark sparkle in his eye but you don't read too much into it.

You both dissolve into conversation, surprisingly easy conversation. Maybe it was the fact it had been a while since you’d been on a date, but for once things were going well.

He was attentive, almost too attentive, listening to you wholeheartedly and when it came around to talking about himself it was modest, never cocky. And no fratboyish stories you were so used to hearing.

He spoke with consideration, and when he listened he made you feel like he cared.

With one date he had you craving more.

Blinded by his charm you don’t notice his lack of information on fixing cars, or how he found your table so quickly while supposedly not knowing you and you certainly don’t notice the fresh bruises on his knuckles. Or the fact he didn’t bring a car with him.

As you both leave, the promise of dessert still on the agenda, you walk almost drunkenly in conversation. Laughter filling the frigid night air.

And so, you make plans to meet again.

Over the next couple of weeks, you continue to see Simon, and over the next couple of weeks, you receive no word from your ghost.

Almost having forgotten he even existed, and with the man who had filled your life so quickly, it felt like an eternity that said chapter of your life occurred.

He’s presumably lost interest like you suspected and you're thankful for it, you would’ve appreciated some closure, but his absence has only helped you feel more confident he won’t return.

Things were going well for you, your friend at work was beyond happy you’d hit it off with Simon, and you were finally relaxed.

Your little good fortune however was soon to be interrupted.

i know it’s a cliffhanger BUT it’ll make part four more delicious i swear LMAO

tags: @neoarchipelago

[tevansversion]

Other points

So this most likely won’t be the last time that I talk about this, because I am so insanely disappointed and furious with the way that the 911 fandom has become so god damn toxic as of late over a fucking healthy ship, but I did have some more points that I needed to talk about. If you don’t like this, please keep scrolling and if you hate tevan, well, you know where to go don’t you? The block button is free ya know?🥰

First of all I just wanted to talk more on the ‘Tommy is grooming Buck’ thing, because yes I have had to block a lot immature assholes who actually think that this is a plausible thing. First off, do y’all know what grooming is? If not, lemme just read you the dictionary definition.

‘the action of attempting to form a relationship with a child or young person, with the intention of sexually assaulting them or inducing them to commit an illegal act such as selling drugs or joining a terrorist organization.’

That’s from google itself! Does that sound like anything that Tommy is doing to Buck? Oh I sure hope you said no, BECAUSE ITS NOT! Buck is not a child or young person, he is a grown ass man in his thirties who is perfectly capable of deciding whether or not he wants to be in a relationship with some or not! He knows Tommy, he likes Tommy, Eddie likes Tommy and the 118 LIKE TOMMY! If they at all suspected that Tommy had any ill intent towards Buck, THEY WOULD SAY SOMETHING! Let’s not forget that they have been very very vocal on Buck’s relationships in the past, what would stop them from saying something this time around? Nothing.

👏🏻IF👏🏻THEY👏🏻DIDN’T👏🏻LIKE👏🏻TOMMY👏🏻THEY👏🏻WOULD👏🏻SAY👏🏻SOMETHING👏🏻 ABOUT 👏🏻 IT 👏🏻

“Oh but Buck hasn’t spoken about Tommy to the 118” that we know of. But most likely, this is because HE DOESN’T HAVE TO. Let’s not forget, that the times that Buck had talked about his past relationships around the 118 it has been to ask for advice or rant because something has gone wrong. The fact that Buck hasn’t had to do either of those whilst in a relationship with Tommy is a huge green flag and an indicator that clearly it’s a healthy and happy relationship.

👏🏻IF 👏🏻 SOMETHING 👏🏻 WAS 👏🏻 GOING 👏🏻 WRONG 👏🏻 HE 👏🏻 WOULD 👏🏻 SPEAK 👏🏻 UP 👏🏻 ABOUT 👏🏻 IT 👏🏻

Buck isn’t stupid! He knows what right and wrong about a relationship, he’s been in enough toxic ones to know when something isn’t right. Not to mention, this is his first relationship with a man, if he didn’t like it then he would be dating Tommy would he? can we all just remember the whole “I’m letting him set the pace, I’m just trying to keep up” deleted scene? It might be deleted but it’s still a scene that 911 themselves shared so to me, that’s canon. Either way, Tommy is a sweetheart to Buck and if you don’t think so then clearly you’re watching the wrong show. Might I suggest leaving the fandom if you’re that pressed about it?

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The thing with this scene being deleted from the episode generating discomfort in the fandom has nothing to do with the Buddie of it all, but with the fact that I feel like they are trying to erase Eddie and Buck's progress as characters.

What I mean is:

Bobby gave the prayer book to Eddie literally in 7X9, and previously, the two of them had had a whole conversation about Eddie's Catholic guilt, so...why remove Eddie praying for Bobby? The scene itself, even without dialogue, serves to imply how complex Eddie's relationship with God is, because it is something he associates with a part of himself that he wants to forget because he feels that he failed or was harmed (his childhood, the Army, Shannon), but for Bobby, for someone he loves, for someone who represents everything good that Eddie accomplished in his adult life, he is able to pray because maybe he doesn't believe in God, but Bobby does.

Buck once again has to see the person he loves hurt and he can't do anything to fix it. He have to sit there and wait for a signal. And the whole time he spends there we see him crying or at least about to cry and that really solidifies Bobby's place as Buck's father because he realizes that he doesn't know what he's going to do if Bobby doesn't wake up (exactly the same as happened to him after Eddie was shot).

And instead of giving us this scene where we can see all this development of the characters, what do they give us? a scene of Eddie with a prayer book in his hand that he practically hides from the rest of the team and Buck saying that he has problems with his parents and that Bobby is the closest thing he is going to get to a father figure, to be followed later for a daddy kink joke.

This chapter was genuinely a disappointment in terms of character development.

(And regarding the buddie of it all: Buck trusting that Eddie can give Bobby this peace that he can't give because he was never taught how to pray...Eddie allowing Buck to see him in a position he feels uncomfortable in, because religion is uncomfortable for Eddie...Both exposing themselves to each other in the moments where they feel most vulnerable, without teasing, in silence, letting themselves be carried away by their uncomfortable feelings but being sure that they have the other's back)

[be-the-glenn-to-my-maggie]

omgg please tell me that you’ve seen the extended atwow extended cuts?? they’re phenomenal and canon and i can’t be told otherwise.

The Parents from hell one had me on the edge of my seat I was so scared even though I know the outcome, well now we know that Neytiri was definitely going to kill, not even to bargain for Kiri but for revenge and that’s just ughhh i can’t wait to incorporate this in my fanfic

I gotta say, I do fundamentally disagree, at least about the parents one. It's not so much of a deleted scene as a full rewrite of the scene. If Neytiri's goal was to kill Spider and take revenge over saving Kiri, why did they do with the version where she lets him go immediately? I don't know, man, to me it seems like they filmed that and then decided it didn't work with the character or for what they had planned. It definitely makes sense to me that they chose not to go with that version. Even the name, "The Parents From Hell," it makes it seem like it's a dark alternate universe.

But yes, scenes that were missing and not included I am all for thinking of as canon! But this is a full rewrite. It's not canon, because it's not what happened in the final version. I think the reason they chose to change it is more telling than the fact that it was filmed in the first place.

But of course, I am mad it exists. I wish they never released it. I don't like what they seem to think of Neytiri's character. I don't like the framing of her as less sympathetic than Quartich (even though a lot of idiots still took it that way which is still on the writing team as well), but I'm glad they understood they had to change the scene. I'm trying to withhold judgement until I see the full arc they intend for her, but as of now I'm not very pleased. She should be the heart of this series if it is to stay it's course as a true love letter to indigenous communities and what has happened to them. I hope they don't forget that.