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Emailing a fast responder whose also like. in a position of authority to you is so tiring omg. My 7 email long chain w the head of part of my department goes crazy, like 20secs later there's a new email broooo plssssss š
No but on god I'm doing this in my second language too which like isn't rlly that much of a problem but I am rapidly running out of all the email sign offs I know w appropriate formality okay. Also how many times can you say thank you before you are no longer thankful lmao
#where is my head in hands emoji š monkey will have to do#no but i deffo appreciate it. i impluse applied for a tutoring job this morning (i hope i did it right š¬) and#put her (head of lower and mid level spanish) as some1 who can speak for me#so i just emailed her a heads up abt that and like 2hrs later shes like āyeah just got off the phone w the#director they said theyve got other apps but i spoke well abt you good luck#like THANK YOU. but on god was that quick. and then she sent me tips abt other places looking for the same job#one of which sounds cool but i need to find bc i cant find an application ANYWHERE online grrr#how am i going to explain this to my mom. impulse part time job...#just bc i need service hrs for my fellowship... hey its paid apparently soooooo#just like this is my 10th freaking email today... ik my resolution was to essentially become my adult self (manifest 30yo swishy in 20yo#swishy body but uhh why all the emails pls. this isnt even the last one i need to send i have to gather#internships and ask for internship rec letters ughhh and I'll need to be fast w that bc more ppl will probly say yes in sylly week#blah#homeworkposting#<not rlly but thays my school tag
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Wait shit people might actually care about me
#sorryyy for the personal posts lmao just not having a great time lately . ill go back to posting abt fandom stuff soon dw#hopefully the self loathing phase is over now cuz i really didnt enjoy that!#mf got me thinking thay everyone secretly hates me n itd be better if i was dead ahahaha#but like. my friends talk to me daily. my mutuals love me. i didnt go to school for like 3 days and my classmate who im kindaaa friends wit#texted me saying. and i quote āHi [name]. I know its late but i hope your doing well. Hope to cya tmr.ā (the full stops symbolize each text#cuz she sent three seperate texts)#and i was just. so flabbergasted at that#i didnt rlly think anyone would really notice if i was gone#i didnt think anyone cared me enough for that#i thought theyd just be indifferent to it#also i sound pathetic rn but i reread that girl's text over n over again when she sent rhat. was literally on the brink of tears#and i just. wow.#people might actually care for me. they might actuallynotice when im gone. they might actually miss me#ive been so inside my head n thinking allat bad stuff about myself that i. didnt think that people might see me differently than the way#i saw myself#really and truly i love you guys so much#even if we've never talked to each pther before or interact very little. i appreciate all of you. you guys rock#anyways aha i should stop rambling now loll. as for now i think im doing a bit better#life still sucks but hey at least i have my friends. at least i dont hate myself anymore now#at least now i dont believe that everyone was being friends with me out of pity#thank you all for everything :')#man i need a hug rn lmao#tw vent#tw sui implied#tw sui ideation#tw self loathing#tw self destructive behavior#<- dw about the tags i dont feel/do those anymore#if you wanna talk to me abt this or just talk in general hit me up!! i love talking to ppl i dont like being alone xd#love youu <33
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why, hello there, fellow humans!
(last update: 6/10/24 dd/mm/yy, 11:16am, GMT +7)
CHIRP CHIRP MOTHERFUCKS!
hi there! my nameās birdie/max, you can call me either!
iām 15 and british, thai, irish and chinese
fun fact : i live for jorge miguel rivera-herrans
pronouns : he/him
sexuality : gay.
interests : EPIC THE MUSICAL.
hobbies : lots of music, lots of singing, i write and read (the whole shebang!)
fun fact : people think im queer-coded/queer (looking at you @be-gentle-with-littluns /lh) YES I AM!!
secondary blog for when i wanna be depressed and/or silly and/or musical : @b1rd1e-ch1rps
my boundaries are pretty self explanatory (i am a minor so the rules should be pretty self explanatory) but if not :
-no nsfw/inappropriate content
-no personal questions (age, real name, etc.)
ā¼ļø DNIs ā¼ļø
-homophobes/transphobes/racists/etc.
-acephobics/non-aroace supporters or people that just hate aro/ace people for existing
-ABLEISTS CAN LEAVE AND NOT COME BACK (as someone with a disabled family member (not extended), this is rlly important to me.)
-anyone from my school (you know who you are. bitch go away.)
- @memories. you insulted me and my mutuals. you bitch.
-if you have a problem with me/my mutuals, respectfully gtfo :)
my organisation method needs cleaningā¦
all of my posts have either #birdie chirps or #birdie rambles (or both)
epic the musical related shit are under #epic the musical + a song name/lyric
shitposts are under #not my usual shebang but wtv
ventposts will be considered shitposts along with the tag #does this count as a vent??
anything important/serious i talk about will be labeled as such (depends on what im talking about) but i dont do that very often
if you wanna hear my music shit, thatāll be on my alt blog @b1rd1e-ch1rps under #music or #musicblr
writing (whether musical or not) will be #writing, #writeblr and #writers on tumblr (in that order)
asks are #asks (obviously) and mutual asks are #moot asks (also obviously) along with the mutuals nickname
SPEAKING OF WHICH
i dont have many moots soooo
RAD SPANISH/GUITAR FRIEND MOOT šø@radio-to-trenchcoat-demons
GOOSE MOOT šŖæ @goosebeing and @lovejoycometoaustraliaplease
TURTLES/IRL/INACTIVEISH/ALWAYS GETS DISTRACTED/IS JAWUN MOOT š¢ @thereal-yippee
FNAF MOOT š» @cobalt-axolotl
BIRD BROTHER š¦āā¬ @be-gentle-with-littluns and @life-is-okay-rn
OKAY WITH LIFE MOOT š @life-is-okay-rn and @be-gentle-with-littluns
DUTCH GREMLIN CHILD MOOT š¹ @vinfelx
thats about it!! any questions, just ask (please. i like silly questions.) :D
holy fuck i just realised how long this post is. oh well, deal with it womp womp /lh
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Tag 9 people you want to get to know better!
thanks for the tag @catbiodolor !! :D <3
Three ships
1. Pat/Pran - Will always be my no 1s šš
2. Tinn/Gun - When I say I'm obsessed with msp right now, i rlly rlly mean it
3. Win/Team - loves of my life, introduced me to bounprem which i'll forever be grateful for <3
First ever ship
ahsdfjhg first ever ship i remember was these characters from this kids book series called Max Remy, absolute banger books tbh. First thai bl ship was probaby Tan/Bun from Manner of Death bc that was the first thai bl i was rlly into.
Last Song
Let Me Tell You from the my school president ost !! truly not a single bad song on there :)
Last movie
Glass Onion probably? I don't rlly watch movies
Currently reading
Mostly just a ridiculous amount of fanfic, + assigned reading for school :(
Currently Watching
Watching live: the warp effect, never let me go, moonlight chicken and my school president, and also binging fish upon the sky. I can't believe there's a gmmtv show for every day of the week šš
Currently Consuming
water (stay hydrated everyone !!)
Currently Craving
mango green tea with lychee jelly š
Tagging @mortysanchez @hometothecanyonmoon @sollucets @theflagscene @7nessasaryevils @cardamonns if you guys want to, and anyone else who sees this as well!!! :D
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this or that tag game
tagged by my baby @billlkin tysmmm ā”
crying in the shower or making out in the shower (a good cry in the shower is always nice but i dont mind a good kiss either!)
give cute boy line ID or stalk his IG (no quan was right both have flavor i love the pining whether it is face down on a bed kicking legs at a cute message or swooning over IG pics)
share his earbuds or share his closet (i looooove clothes sharing!! )
manga or manwha (havent actually read manga in ages but i have read manhwa soo also i tend to like the manwha artstyles more)
long dangly silver earring or dark leather cuff (dont even need to explain)
time loop or reincarnation (i rarely care for reincarnation plots but i loove a good time loop)Ā
blue engineering smock or red engineering smock (have literally 0 preference
kisses at the beach or kisses in the mountains (JUST GIVE ME KISSES!!)
cactus or chili plant (i'm kind of over cacti lol)Ā Ā
fairy lights or spot lighting (both can be cute but i actually love colorchanging lighting)Ā
ghost boyfriend or vampire lover (looks at my current patpran wip like uh yeah...)
hard sub or soft sub (LMAO @ QUAN but idek what the difference is soo)
stray cat or ā¦ actually thatās your only option (prev exactly but as adopting hell yeah)
Hawaiian shirt or blue shortsĀ
Ā evil ex-girlfriend or predatory fujoshi Ā (what quan said - tho i dont mind the ex gf that much if it's in a bi way and she's evil for other reasons than homophobic ones idk i like it when characters have exed)Ā
suit jacket or leather jacketĀ (depends on the jacket!! but both are good)
high school or universityĀ (1000000% i am too old to watch stuff about high schoolers and i dont like it anyways)
kitchen drama or office drama (i guess)Ā
forehead kisses or cheek kissesĀ (both are tasty)
Viki or GaGaOOLaLa (what quan said)
Japanese arthouse depth or Korean high concept (both are nice!!)
pink milk or yakult
censored Chinese BL or trashy Thai pulps (depends so much on the plot lmao)
body swap or dead body (literally NO)
sexy or story (if it's not a good story is it rlly sexy?)
back hugs or lap sitting (depends sm on context but both can be nice!)
piggyback or cradle carry
i tag @lovepattranite @milkpansa @patspran @thegapsofsunlight @mrdumpling @biwichapas @sotaaoki uhm idk who's been tagged already so...
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this or that game
i was tagged by 3 whole people!! thank you @billlkin @hanjiwoos and @dribs-and-drabbles for making me feel so popular, i can already feel my ego inflating šš
crying in the shower or making out in the shower (i do stan angst but crying in the shower is a low point i just dont get)
give cute boy line ID or stalk his IG (we love a direct man)
share his earbuds or share his closet (bc i both love sharing space and also earbuds can be gross)
manga or manhwa (ive read both but im lazy with manga so just watch anime, plus i prefer spicy korean bl manhwas to japanese mangas)
long dangly silver earring or dark leather cuff (bc ear piercings kinda freak me out)
time loop or reincarnation (in this house we stan time loops HARD)
blue engineering smock or red engineering smock (the blue is just more classic, plus i associate red with architecture now)
kisses at the beach or kisses in the mountain (bc beaches...obvs)
cactus or chilli plant (i have an ornamental chilli plant that is kinda dying but i love it v much)
fairy lights or spot lighting (who even likes harsh white lighting)
ghost boyfriend or vampire lover (dont rlly like either so i chose the one thats more alive)
hard sub or soft sub (any subs are good subs... both for subtitles and for bdsm)
stray cat or... actually thatās your only option (i will take any cats you give me)
Hawaiian shirt or blue shorts (pat my beloved)
evil ex-girlfriend or predatory fujoshi (neither are the best but at least evil ex-girlfriends cause some drama, even if it is annoying and unnecessary)
suit jacket or leather jacketĀ
high school or university
kitchen drama or office drama (office dramas rlly are one of my weaknesses... gotta love that HR nightmare)
forehead kisses or cheek kisses
viki or gagaoolala (bc they upload earlier and have more shows)
japanese arthouse depth or korean high concept
pink milk or yakult (neither bc me and lactose dont agree)
censoured chinese bl or trashy thai pulps (i just cant get onboard with those chinese shows, not my thing)
body swap or dead body (im hoping this just means thereās murder involved which is always fun)
sexy or story (but ideally both)
back hugs or lap sitting (lap sitting is a highly underrated form of physical affection and not enough shows include it and i will die on this hill)
piggyback or cradle carry (conversely cradle carrying is highly overrated and i dont get it)
idk who else has done this so ill tag @icouldhyperfixatehim @talaypuens and @galauvant if youve already done it/dont want to just pretend this never happened
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Girl From Nowhere - SEASON 1 - Timestamps
this show is a Thai anthology series thatās basically about a girl (nanno) transferring to different schools and revealing corruption and hypocrisy within the various students and staff of these schools. in the showās words, itās āwhere the victim becomes the victorā. i enjoy it a lot. nanno my beloved.Ā
in almost every episode, there are scenes with blood and gore. a few also deal with very heavy subjects including but not limited to: sexual assault, ab*se, physical violence and sui.Ā the timestamps are here for those subjects, but pls keep this in mind and donāt watch it if you feel youāll get upset by the topics brought up in the show.
Episode 1
(WARNING: this episode has imagery of r*pe, sexual assault, and p*dophilia scattered throughout it; so if those subjects greatly upset you, i suggest you skip this episode. along with that, the character mainly focused on in this episode has a wife and a kid; so anyone that has cheating as a trigger probably shouldnāt watch this one either. yāknow. since almost all the tags here are also cheating.) 0:45-1:39 || medical setting + flash warning
11:07-12:49 || p*dophilia/cheating
14:01-15:34 || mentions of underage pregnancy and abortions
17:11-19:27 || sexual assault/cheating
27:13-27:25 || medical setting + abortion implication
30:28-20:38 || p*dophilia/cheating shown on monitorĀ
31:36-32:02 || sexual assault
34:08-34:11 || sexual assault (on a huge screen)
34:22-34:29 ||Ā sexual assault (on screen in bg)
35:38-35:42 ||Ā sexual assault (on screen in bg)
36:09-36:15 ||Ā sexual assault (on screen in bg)
36:38-36:47 || sexual assault + r*pe/cheating
37:23-37:29 || r*pe/cheating
38:46-38:50 || child ab*seĀ
39:03-39:55 || car accident + blood (accident is offscreen; but you do see the aftermath and hear the impact)
41:12-41:18 || sexual assault/cheating (shown on a screen)
Episode 2
(WARNING: this episode depicts drugging and r*pe at a certain point, so watch at your own discretion if these subjects upset you)
00:00-1:00 || burial of a corpse
8:04-8:09 || fat joke
9:50-9:54 || mention of drugging
17:57-20:04 || underage drinking + drugging
20:44-24:20 || r*pe + choking
24:26-24:29 || dead bodyĀ (bottom half of the body is seen from 24:37-25:41)
26:19-26:29 || dead body
26:48-27:14 || burial
27:33-28:09 || burying someone aliveĀ
36:39-36:46 || smothering someone with a pillow
36:56-37:20 || burial
37:32-37:41 || bludgeoning someone (no blood)
37:56-38:02 ||Ā bludgeoning someone (no blood)
Episode 3
19:56-20:03 || flashing images
31:14-31:44 || self harm via breaking bonesĀ
Episode 4
32:22-32:35 || underage drinking
33:21-34:18 || underage drug use
37:11-40:16 || gun + russian roulette; tagged the whole scene in case this would stress anyone out (no one gets hurt)
41:16-41:28 || blood seen in the bg + gun
41:36-41:43 || blood in bg + gun
42:05-42:11 || bloodĀ
42:11-42:20 || gun in view
44:45-45:05 || blood
Episode 5
25:45-26:05 || flash warning
30:28-31:23 || blood/gore
32:25-32:27 || blood/gore
32:29-32:39 || blood + suiĀ
33:57-35:38 || hospital
35:47-end credits || blood + sui
Episode 6
19:25-20:01 || slight nosebleed
20:18-20:28 || slight nosebleed
28:02-28:45 || bullying (not really seen onscreen, but heard)
37:36-37:43 || hanging
Episode 7
4:54-4:59 || hanging
5:21-5:27 || sui ment.
5:46-5:49 || sui ment.
9:59-10:03 || hanging ment.
12:11-12:15 || sui ment.
15:13-15:16 || sui (it happens rlly quickly; visual cue would be when a girl is seen walking behind bam)
15:25-15:31 || dead body + blood
16:02-16:06 || //sui ment.// a message telling someone to k*ll themselves
19:38-19:51 || ambulanceĀ
19:51-19:56 || fat shamingĀ
20:19-20:21 || bullying ment.
21:26-21:31 || use of the word cr*pple
Episode 8
00:13-00:31 || light thunderĀ
41:05-41:07 || thunder
Episode 9
13:47-14:02 || box cutter
14:52-15:02 || box cutter
15:07-15:11 || box cutter
20:33-20:42 || box cutter
36:06-37:11 || box cutter
38:12-38:28 || box cutter
42:09-42:11 || gore
42:16-42:26 || gore
43:46-43:50 || gore
43:55-43:59 || gore
44:04-44:08 || gore
Episode 10
(WARNING: this episode shows a school shooting and depicts hallucinations/delusions.Ā cheating is also brought up a lot, as the character mainly focused on was a victim of it.Ā the entire end sequence is the aftermath of the shooting, so there are still disturbing things seen in the background.Ā there is also a high pitched noise that comes up in many sequences, along with shakey cam so viewer discretion is advised)
1:26-Opening || shooting
11:55-12:03 || cheating ment.
13:14-13:20 || pills
14:11-14:30 || cheating + seperation between two parents
14:31-14:35 || pills
19:10-20:01 || child abuse + cheating ment.
21:28-21:56 || cheating ment. + divorce ment.
27:20-27:23 || cheating ment.
27:23-27:26 || sui ment.
27:35-28:07 || cheating + ment.
28:09-28:24 || stabbing (no blood)
31:04-31:09 || stabbing (no blood)
31:11-31:12 || cheating ment.
32:02-32:51 || child abuse + child death
35:05-36:50 || shooting
38:11-38:17 || visible aftermath of shooting (blood)
39:44-39:47 || sui (happens quickly; skip to end credits once nanno starts walking away from the scene)
Episode 11
(WARNING: this episodeās theme is centred around beauty standards for girls, and the lengths they will go to achieve them in order to be ārankedā higher.Ā no one in the episode deals with an eating disorder or body dysmorphia but there is diet talk at an early point. along with that, general fatphobia warning for this episode as thereās a fat girl that is treated in a pitiful manner at the start due to her looks and is then considered the prettiest girl at school, revealing a miraculous weight loss at the end)
0:43-0:53 || eyestrain warning
9:28-9:33 || diet talk
13:48-13:57 || (not even a tw just kinda nasty yknow) popping a pimple
17:41-17:45 || spittingĀ
17:51-17:53 || housefly
27:43-27:46 || ants
32:24-32:31 || spitting
Episode 12
(WARNING: casual warning for alcohol use through the first half of the episode since itās set in a high school reunion. the second half tho yeesh so many topics so many mentions)
3:26-3:32 || drinking
5:00-5:04 || drinking
6:34-6:38 || flicker warning
7:58-8:06 || drinking
8:49-8:57 || drinking
9:21-9:23 || worms
9:28-9:31 || worms
11:18-11:35 || flash warning
12:18-12:27 || drinking
14:14-14:22 || usage of pills
26:04-27:44 || bullying + ableist speech + blood
28:14-28:19 || ableist speech + mental hospital ment.
31:42-32:31 || p*dophilia ment. + csa
33:56-34:07 || hospital ment.
34:46-34:48 || ableist speech (use of the wordĀ āpsychoā)
35:30-35:47 || implied ab*se ment. + divorce ment.
36:09-36:34 || spousal ab*se + bruises + divorce ment.
37:41-37:47 || ableist speech (use of the wordĀ āpsychoā)
38:02-38:07 || meds ment.
38:22-38:37 || implied s/h ment. + s/h scars
38:43-end credits || cheating
Episode 13
WARNING: ....oh lord this one. thereās so much to unpack like first of all, in the middle portion of this episode, itās revealed everyone in the group was poisoned and thereās only one syringe filled with the antidote; leading to everyone fighting for it. i made timestamps for when itās actually inserted, but keep in mind that the syringe is in view for a good majority of the dialogue in this part. along with that, thereās a recap to past episodes at the end and in general there is A LOT of blood in this episode, so watch at your own discretion if you think youāll be fine. otherwise, i recommend not to watch this episode if youāre uncomfortable with many of the topics brought up in it.
1:18-1:28 || bullying + ableist speech + bloodĀ
4:25-5:06 || cheating
6:39-6:59 || cheating ment.
7:54-8:30 || bullying
8:50-9:14 || blood (mostly obscured)
10:10-10:37 || self harm + sound of boxcutter
10:47-11:18 || blood
11:23-11:35 || self harm ment.
12:21-14:33 || cheating
15:21-15:58 || drinking
15:59-16:23 || spousal abuse; after finding out she had been cheated on, a woman attacks her husband with a knife. after injuring him, he pushes her to the ground.
16:48-18:09 || pregnancy ment. + miscarriage
19:48-19:56 || drinking
20:05-20:13 || vomit
21:05-21:08 || syringe in skin
21:56-22:01 || choking
22:11-22:15 || blood and all kinds of violence i-Ā
22:47-22:52 || syringe in skin
23:00-23:07 || stabbing
23:14-23:55 || choking + blood/gore
24:01-24:42 || cannibalism (oh yes person, you read that right) + blood
25:50-26:04 || blood
26:07-26:34 || blood (flashback to that weird bloody montage from 22:11-22:15)
26:41-27:15 || bullying + blood
28:47-28:50 || ableist speech
29:38-29:48 || lowkey blood
31:30-31:40 || flash warning (glitch effects)
32:42-32:54 || p*dophilia/cheating
32:54-32:57 || burial
33:00-33:04 || burial
33:09-33:11 || flashing images
33:28-33:29 || ants
33:39-33:48 || gun (in view) + blood in bg
33:56-33:58 || hanging
33:59-34:05 || blood/gore
34:19-34:22 || blood
34:22-34:29 || self harm via breaking bones
34:32-34:36 || gore
34:49-34:59 || hospital
35:08-35:28 || shooting + sui
well thats season 1. iāll get through season 2 when iām motivated but this is it for now. hope it helped.Ā
- mel
#girl from nowhere#girl from nowhere season 1#timestamps#there is so much to unpack in this show omg#if i were nanno i'd laugh at those clowns too#tw abuse mention#tw sui mention#tw hospital mention#tw accident mention#tw r*pe mention#Tw p*dophilia mention#tw cheating mention#tw bullying mention#tw drugs mention#tw drinking mention#tw divorce mention#tw vomit mention#tw shooting mention#tw s/h mention#tw hanging mention
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tag meme
tagged by @jenniemp3 ty <3
top 4 ships: depends on my mood n stuff but rn boreo, oliver/james from if we were villains, addybeth from dare me, n stenbranlon
last song according to spotify: iām listening to everybody business by kehlani rn
last movie: i think the half of it.... excellence !!!
currently reading:Ā nothing rn bc im trying to focus on school but i just finished if we were villains which was a serve... and i have lots of books i wanna read when im finally done with this semester
food Iām craving: idk maybe pad thaiĀ
relationship status: single
favorite color: pink, olive green, blue, yellow
lipstick or chapstick:Ā Ā chapstick ig
favorite food: pasta
top 3 shows: again rlly depends and im not watching much rn but im missing american vandal, euphoria, n hsmtms rn lmao
last thing i googled:Ā āoscar wilde mask quoteā for this research paper im still not done with bc i have the worst attention span and critical thinking ability rn
height: i think like 5ā²6 or 5ā²7Ā
time: 7:15 PM
song stuck in my head: hate the club by kehlani ft. masego (can u tell iāve been listening to her album lmao. also last night i found out that song is abt victoria monet and they used to date.... truly shaken at the potential)
wearing: plaid plants n a yellow tank top bc it was hot out this afternoon when i was watering the gardenĀ
# of blankets i sleep with: 3
dream trip: italy i think
favourite gif:Ā i mean. this obviously.Ā
tagging: @quincywillows, @joeshardy, @dykearchie, @bistan, @dancingwithourshandstied
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(i saw this tag thing floating around and no one tagged me in it but here i am lol thought iād post a lil about me)
name: sierra
age: 21
field: language/literature/history
creation date of my studyblr: end of december 2018 i thinkĀ
this is my: main blog for studying. i used to have a side blog, but made this so when iām logged into here there are less distractions (COUGH MEMES COUGH). anyways, myĀ āmainā main is @witchskies
laptop: i have a ridiculously expensive acer that i use for everything and never ever ever leaves its stand because it is my heckin child. but i also have a rlly crappy asus that i use to take legit all my google doc notes on the go. then when iām home i export them into my big laptop and annotate digitally and all that fun stuff.Ā
favorite subjects: ancient history, cuneiform, geology, korean, linguisticsĀ
fave stationary: .38mm pens are my all time favs. i also love the 6x9.5in all star notebooks. i use them when i canāt afford campus notebooks. also, theyāre super easy to travel with.Ā
fave study snack: coffee or almond chai latte with vans granola bars
mostly used pen color: black 99% of the time
pencil case: i have a totoro pencil case i got off of wish 2 years ago that i still use to this day. i can fit all my basic pens and pencils that i use, a polaroid, hair ties, pencil lead, erasers, and my coffee punch card inside.Ā
backpack: red jansport i got myself for christmas - iāve always had really crappy backpacks and since iām finally at a new school i decided i needed a good one that came with a lifetime warranty.Ā
handwriting: it changes based on what kind of notes iām taking. itās usually fairly neat. my script is a mess tho.Ā
currently reading: the iron trial
motivational quote: "what matters most is how well you walk through the fireā - charles bukowski
languages I want to learn: arabic, thai, chinese
study goal: do my best and take care of myself
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11 questions tag
Rules: answer the questions and make up your own (x 11) and tag 11 people!Ā
thanks for tagging me @thesmallmedic
questions for me:
1. what fandoms are you into?
iām a big marvel hoe i admit (specially spiderman i mean who doesnāt love that lil spideyboy?), hollanders (yes you heard right), dc comics slut? yes i am, six of crows, used to be in the pjo fandom but i kinda got out idk how, stranger things yessss (there are probably more but i donāt remember rn)
2. tv show recommendations?
stranger things, the end of the fucking world, atypical and touch
3. what new language would you like to learn?
german, korean, latin, icelandic, japanese, mandarin and probably more (iād like to learn spanish too but itās so hard? i mean iām latina but still)
4. scary experience?
me, my mom and my sister were alone at home and i went to the kitchen to drink water and i see this hUGE cockroach and i just freakin scream and they come and start screaming too and they tell me to keep looking at it so it wonāt run away while they get the insecticide to kill it so they go out and when i look to cockroach itās there and i blink and ITāS FUCKING GONE. so my mom comes bc i started screaming again and forgot to bring the fucking insecticide so the cockroach appears out of nowhere and start running to us so we run to my parentās bedroom and jump in the bed and my mom says wait iļæ½ļæ½ļæ½m gonna get the insecticide and jumps the fucking window and 5 min have passed and idk where the fuck is the cockroach and my mom hasnāt come back yet so i start screaming and find out my mom let me there to die so my sister appears and saves the day killing the beast cockroach
okay this is rlly long but i love telling this story
5. what would your dream day trip be?
seeing lots of cool monuments and visiting some museums and dancing around the streets and listening to local songs and running in the sidewalks and eating at some cool and comfy places and taking awesome aesthetic pics and at night go out a lil bit and then go to the hotel and just chill a bit and journal or read
6. whatās your favorite book of all time?
after the snow by sophie d. crockett
i read it in spanish bc there isnāt the translation to portuguese and the name is despuĆ©s de la nieve. itās a british book and iāve read it 3 times (and cried the 3 times i read it lmao)
7. what new cuisine would you like to try?
oh this is hard rlly freakin hard. hmm i seriously donāt have a clue sorry :/
8. are you into sports? if so, which ones?
it depends on my mood, sometimes iām a lazy bitch and sometimes iām the most athletic person youāll ever meet. i love fighting (i do muay thai classes and did taekwondo too) and i like swimming too
9. if you won a million pounds, what would you do with it?
okay i had to read it twice bc when i read pounds my first thought was weight iām sorry lmao
i guess i would buy so many books bc ya girl cant control herself and probably travel A LOT and donate to charity and help my family and seriously idk
10. whatās your personal strength/weakness?
strength: i guess would be iām a rlly tough person by nature and iāll fight for my rights in whichever situation. oh and iām rlly kind when i want to so i guess this is a good strength too
weakness: i guess would be iām a rlly tough person by nature lmao i try to solve everything by myself and never ask for help so thereās always this Big Weight in my shoulders
11. what was/is your favorite subject at school and why?
i love algebra (but itās so easy for me that i rarely pay attention to class) and history and physics (i love the subject, i hate the teacher). i like algebra bc it just makes so much sense and itās just gonna be that way forever ya know itās not gonna change (this doesnāt make sense i know lmao), physics is the same thing i guess and history is bc i like learning things from the past and why are things like they are today and learn with other pplās mistakes if ya know what i mean
my questions for you:
1. which countries have you visited?
2. languages spoken?
3. favorite movies?
4. do you like spiderman? and why is the answer yes?
5. favorite marvel movie? (yes it needs its own separate question)
6. perfect day?
7. tell me a joke ;)
8. stem or humanities? or biologics? idk you choose
9. any pets?
10. coffee, tea or hot chocolate?
11. tell me a fact about you
i tag: @rheinstudy @mango-tea @stubborn-studies @stormy-rains @leafwatrstudy @marissas-notebook @esthety @spideykisses @acootingly @charmingoceans @selenethecontumacious but pls donāt feel obligated to do this :)
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Tagged by @awkwardstefanolsdal @infernalentity and @jigoku-nozomi thank you lovelies! ššš
Rules: Answer the questions in a new post and tag 10 blogs you would like to get to know better.
A - Age: 20
B - Birthplace: Finland
C - Current time: 9:31 AM
D - Drink you last had: milk
E - Easiest person to talk to:Ā my homebodiesĀ @dogmatic-muse and @awkwardstefanolsdal :>
F - Favorite song: rn Donāt Leave Me by BTS and Ko Ko Bop by EXO
G - Grossest memory: this one time my uncle took a dump so huge in my grandmaās toilet that the toilet clogged and what did he do? he fetched some stick from outside and began to essentially stir the shit soup that heād made in the toilet bowl
H - Horror yes or horror no: yes, but on the condition that it has to tell a good story. i love victorian horror books and stephen kingās books, and as far as horror movies/shows go, i tend to prefer psychological horror/anything with a good plot
I - In love?: nah (does bts count?)
J - Jealous of people?: sometimes i can be really envious of ppl, though usually i try to just focus on my own life and how i can realistically better myself
K - Kisses or hugs?: i mean as a touch-deprived bi, my philosophy on physical affection is pretty machiavellian tbh: fucking anything goes
L - Love at first sight or should I walk by again?: walk by again
M - Middle name: itās a very traditionally feminine name and i hate it soĀ
N - Number of siblings: none
O - One wish: to get accepted into uni this yearĀ
P - Person you called last: my mom
Q - Question you are always asked: i canāt rlly think of anything specific i get asked very often? i guess my relatives are always asking me about school/future plans
R - Reason to smile: my friends, my cat, bts, cute girls
S - Song you sung last: EXOās El DoradoĀ
T - Time you woke up: 8 AM
U - Underwear color: blue- and white-stripedĀ
V - Vacation destination: i want to go to Helsinki in the summer, maybe Stockholm if i have money?
W - Worst habit: catastrophic thinking, procrastination, over-analyzing
X - X-rays: well iāve had plenty taken of my teeth, but other than that no
Y - Your favorite food: chicken in p much any form, thai and chinese food, shrimp, this finnish thing called siskonmakkara (literal translation: sisterās sausage lol), poronkƤristys (fried reindeer meat) with mashed potatoesĀ
iāll tag @sexy-chimchimĀ @dogmatic-muse @mikakamijou @playloona @pastel-uruhaĀ @deadspring
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95 Truths/85 Facts Tag
tagged by : @sklminho and @sseungminieĀ and @meatmeinthemiddle-mark thank you!! ily~
Rules: Once youāre tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 92 truths about you. Tag 25 people you want to know more about (asdfghgf youāve all done this already though ahhh)
š LAST
Drink: Water/Thai Tea Phone call: My best friend Text message: Talking about this cute guy I saw to a friend Song you listened to: Thanks - SVT Time you cried: Uhhh yesterday....
š HAVE YOU EVER Dated someone twice: uhhh not officially Kissed someone and regretted it: nahh Lost someone special: fortunately, no Been depressed: yep Been drunk and thrown up: i am a pure child that has only tried beer/red wine twice or somethin
š IN THE PAST YEAR HAVE YOU Made a new friend: yep! Fallen out of love: if it was love then yeah Met someone who changed you: i think so Found out who your true friends are: fuck yeah Found out someone was talking about you: yeah but it was good things!
š GENERAL How many people on tumblr do you know in real life?: one haha Do you have any pets?: nope but iām getting a snake! Do you want to change your name?: hmm maybe but i donāt know what iād change it to What time did you wake up this morning: 7:00 ugh What were you doing last night: facetiming my friend and doing chem hw Something you cannot wait for: until my life isnāt a mess? Have you ever talked to a person named tom?: yep he used to be on our robotics team Whatās getting on your nerves right now: myself Blood type: idk?? Nickname: none Relationship status: single haha Zodiac sign: Capricorn Pronouns: she/her Favorite show: damn uhhh DOTS? College: high school student but i want to go to a UC school Hair colour: dark dark dARK brown Do you have a crush on someone: not rlly i just kinda think ppl are attractive What do you like about yourself: i get shit done and usually donāt procrastinate
š FIRSTS First surgery: hadnāt had oneĀ First piercing: 2 y/o on earlobes and i want to get a helix soon First sport you joined: oh shit uh basketball? First vacation: vietnam First pair of sneakers: something neon/cringy with velcro probs
š RIGHT NOW Eating: tangerines Iām about to: go to my next period Listening to: nothing atmĀ Want kids: nah i donāt think iād make a good mom Get married: hopefully Career: I work at a boathouse rn
š WHICH IS BETTER Lips or eyes: Eyes! Hugs or kisses: hugs all the wayyy Shorter or taller: preferably taller Troublemaker or hesitant: lil bit of both Older or younger: i rlly donāt mind haha Romantic or spontaneous: romantic~ Sensitive or loud: oof i donāt rlly mind but not any extremes Hookup or relationship: eh whatever im feeling like
š HAVE YOU EVER Kissed a stranger: nah Drank hard liquor: nope Lost contacts/glasses: 20/20 vision ;)Ā Sex on first date: IM A PURE CHILD Been arrested: nope Turned someone down: ....yeah
š DO YOU BELIEVE In yourself: sometimes Miracles: yeah Love at first sight: nope
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I was tagged by @sanhatation ! Ā ty riles this was rlly funĀ
Would you rather explore the many planets in the universe or explore the wondrous depths of our oceans?Ā
Y'all knOw im a hoe for astronomy,, send me thru those worm holes,, lemme meet those aliens,, frick yes ! The ocean scares me lmao
Can you describe your favorite color without saying what it is and its shades?Ā
It's like,, royalty and oceans, its either dark or light and its so pretty, theres this like twilight (the time of day yall, u stephanie myers hoes can get outta here) kinda feel to it and its very peaceful!!!
Your bias texts you, mistaking your number for one of their friends. Do you talk to them and keep up an act or do you admit the mistake? How do you do it? What happens after?
Minghao would probably send like a picture of some gucci shi and ask if he should get it and i'd be like "dang boy u got money !" and he'd be like "srry wrong number" but im annoying so i would just,, keep talking to him
Ā Describe your favorite feature of one of your best friends without saying what it is. Why?
I love the way my best friend just, talks i guess? The conversations we have just always seem to keep going on forever and ever and they come so smoothly and easily and even when theres silence it's comfortable and i really like that !! i like how comfortable we are with each other !
Ā What super power would you have and how would you use it? Hero or villain?
hOoOO okay I've actually thought about this so much and i'd want super speed !! I always seem to be in a time crunch and like,,, imagine waking up like 10 minutes before school starts and getting there like 5 minutes before the bell rings,, extra sleep ?? yes pls?? And honestly?? Lets be real i wouldnt be a hero or a villan,, i just want super speed to help me with my everyday life
What are three things included in your ideal type? Why? Would you accept someone without these features?
alrighty so my no. 1 is Loyalty, these hoes aint loyal? can't relate, my cowboys gotta have my back Ā secondly they gotta be funny, i can't hang out with w person who doesn't get jokes, super stupid funny is also appreciated, and also?? the want to actually dO things?? like a sense of adventure!! thats nice n i mean yeah id accept someone without these but like,,, i probably wouldnt want to be with u very often,,, lol
Vampires, werewolves, or witches? If you could become one, which would you choose and why?
W I T CH E S Ā witches are so cool did you know that beer was basically invented by witches?? Idk if its even true but i like that fun fact so im gonna pretend it is until i feel like actually researching it rjfgwpo anyway being a witch would be so cool like first of all the aesthetic of like alchemy and cauldrons and just hAlloween yknow but also??? magic?? yesĀ
if you released a mini album with 4 songs, what would the song titles be?
1 Cryingā¢
2 Minghaos Elf Ears R Cute
Ā 3 *7 minute screech*
4 Sore After 20 Situps
Describe what you feel right now by using a metaphor without including the word to describe how you are feeling.
There are tiny storms in the back of my brain, but air is in my lungs and my bones are whole.
Your bias from one group confesses to you in front of your bias from another group. They quickly confess their love. Who do you choose? they cannot be your ult. bias.
*uncomfortable aromantic laughter* listen i love rocky n i love lua but i,, the romance is not 4 this cowboy
Your bias promises to go on a date with you on the condition that you plan it. Plan the entire night (where you go, why, what you eat, what you wear, the other places you go, what you talk about, etc.)
*cracks knuckles* get ready for some good platonic shiz right here yall Ā Okay so im not much of a uh,, going-out kinda person ig but if we wEre to go out it'd be like an arcade or smth and minghao wld be wearing that rEd hoodie n we'd both be workin black skinny jeans bc Ā Looksā¢. I'd also be wearin like a white tshirt and my grey demin jacket bc its comfy af and i Love. We'd spend the night challenging each other to rounds of donkey kong and i'd spend like 30 tokens on the claw machines insisting that im a pro and then i'd finally win like a little frog or smth and give it to him bc he Deserves it. He'd probably also wreck some kid at ddr and then we'd spend an hour on the chance games trying to win 1000 tickets and be jealous of the 12 year old next to us who has like 6000 friggin tickets,, we'd come up wih theories on how the kid hacked the games and got thAt many tickets bc ?? they're riGGed man ur not actually supposed to win. After the arcade we'd probably go get shakes and then sit outside and talk about our favorite books and what they mean to us and stuff. Watch the stars and tell funny stories and maybe just take a walk. At some point i'd probably step on a rolly polly and cry bc i just killed an innocent little bug and minghao wld be like "wtf,,, get up hoe,," and then I feel like we'd end up just like sitting on a bench somewhere n talkin about deep things bc we both seem like we're kinda like that?? Idk I know I like talking about the universe and how the world works and things thay dont make sense to me and hes pretty Woke so he probably does too. It'd be a gt tho
fRickitgrn this was really fun ty again ri for tagging me i loev u and Iāll be tagging @arohawe, @illustre-bin, @lost-tearss, and Ā @blondshua ! have fun !
#i freaking osdbcsiHBDV#LOVE tag games#wow i went off for a while on that date w minghao i just#........#love him sm???#tagged !#things abt mo
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tag games you didnāt ask for
i had three tag games to do thanks to kate, cam and cameron so here they are, ill tag these people, but yall rlly donāt have to do any of them, i was jus bored
@bicevans @capswilson @dobrevninas @daisyridlay @napoleonsolos @soldatsass @beefybucky
fav hoe @daddybucksā tagged me in this one
1. coke or pepsi: neither?? (coke i guess) 2. disney or dreamworks: disney !!! 3. coffee or tea: my main bitch coffee 4. books or movies: movies binch 5. windows or mac: windows 6. dc or marvel: marvel 7. x-box or playstation: i always liked playstation better but i dont have a reason?? 8. dragon age or mass effect: are these games that i dont get 9. night owl or early riser: night owl 10. cards or chess: cards 11. chocolate or vanilla: vanilla 12. vans or converse: vans (i have neither but i guess yeah) 13. Lavellan, Trevelyan, Cadash, or Adaar: ??? 14. fluff or angst: i can write angst but iād rather read fluff 15. beach or forest: forest 16. dogs or cats: dogs 17. clear skies or rain: clear skies during the day, rain at night 18. cooking or eating out: cooking 19. spicy food or mild food: spicy 20. halloween/samhain or solstice/yule/christmas: ā¦. thanksgiving 21. would you rather forever be a little too cold or a little too hot: too cold 22. if you could have a superpower, what would it be: superserum i think, or speed like barry 23. animation or live action: live action (i dont trust new animated movies) 24. paragon or renegade: ???? 25. baths or showers: showers 26. team cap or team ironman: team cap !!! 27. fantasy or sci-fi: im leaning towards sci fi but i feel like fantasy and sci fi are so fucking similar that sci fi could be a subcategory of fantasy 28. do you have three or four favourite quotes, if so what are they:Ā okay well prolly anything about cevans has ever said is prolly my fav but um:Ā āWhen people say life is short its not its not, its not. We make it short because we are very preoccupied, with ya know, we spend a lot of time worrying about the past and we spend a lot of time analyzing the future. Before you know it time goes by.āĀ - cevansĀ āHad a fourth iced coffee today, I didnāt want to but I didā - sebstan āWith out art the earth is just ehā &Ā ādo not go gentle into that good nightāĀ i also love anything disney tbhĀ 29. youtube or netflix: netflix 30. harry potter or percy jackson: harry potter (cause ive never seen percy jackson besides in 10th grade english) 31. when you feel accomplished:Ā lmao when a gifset gets 1k+ 32. star wars or star trek: star wars !!!!!!! 33. paperback books or hardback books: paperback 34. horror or rom-com: rom-com 35. tv shows or movies: tv shows (even if all my favs are movie actors) 36. favorite animal: dogs or polar bears 37. favorite genre of music: bahaha i guess indieĀ 38. least favorite book: the red badge of courage... i have extreme hate for that fucking book 39. favourite season: spring 40. sparkly or shiny:Ā shiny 41. favorite character in a tv series:Ā MY SAD GAY SON TJ HAMMOND 42. do you have/want any tattoos and if you do, what are they?: i dont have one but i want like 4... i want the tree of life from animal kingdom with the quote we are one underneath it, an aries constellation, a mountain range, and my dads signature from his drawings 43. If you could only eat one type of food for the rest of your life, what would it be?:Ā if id never get sick of it... prolly mexican or thai food.Ā 44. If you had to wake up one day, magically knowing how to do something you didnāt know how to the day before, what would it be? how to adult tbh, its too stressful
both of my loves @daddystevenā & @daddybucksā tagged me for this one (i cant believe how many of my friends have daddy urls but okay)
APPEARANCE:
I am 5ā²7ā³ or taller (??? i might be 5ā²6ā³)
I wear glasses
I have at least one tattoo
I have at least one piercing
I have blonde hair
I have brown eyes
I have short hair
My abs are at least somewhat defined
I have or have had braces
There is something I would change about the way I look
PERSONALITY:
My Hogwarts house is: Gryffindor Hufflepuff Ravenclaw Slytherin
I am an introvert
I like meeting new people
People tell me that Iām funny
Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me
I enjoy physical challenges
I enjoy mental challenges
Iām playfully rude with people I know well
I started saying something ironically and now I canāt stop saying it
There is something I would change about my personality
ABILITY:
I can sing well
I can play an instrument
I can do over 30 pushups without stopping
Iām a fast runner
I can draw well
I have a good memory
Iām good at doing math in my head
I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute
I have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestling
I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch
I know how to throw a proper punch
HOBBIES:
I enjoy playing sports
Iām on a sports team at my school or somewhere else
Iām in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else
I have learned a new song in the past week
I work out at least once a week
Iāve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months
I have drawn something in the past month
I enjoy writing
Fandoms are my #1 passion
I do or have done martial arts
EXPERIENCES:
I have had my first kiss
I have had alcohol
I have scored the winning goal in a sports game
I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting
I have been at an overnight event
I have been in a taxi
I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year
I have beaten a video game in one day
I have visited another country
I have been to one of my favourite bandās concerts
RELATIONSHIP:
Iām in a relationship
I have a celebrity crush
I have a crush on someone I know
I have been in at least 3 relationships
I have never been in a relationship
I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them
I get crushes easily
I have had a crush on someone for over a year
I have been in a relationship for at least a year
I have had feelings for a friend
MY LIFE:
I have at least one person I consider a ābest friendā
I live close to my school
My parents are still together
I have at least one sibling
I live in the United States
There is snow right now where I live
I have hung out with a friend outside of school in the past month
I have a smartphone
I have at least 15 CDs
I share my room with someone
RANDOM SHIT:
I have breakdanced
I know a person named Jamie
I have had a teacher with a last name thatās hard to pronounce
I have dyed my hair
Iām listening to one song on repeat right now
I have punched someone in the past week
I know someone who has gone to jail
I have broken a bone
I have eaten a waffle today (fuck i wish i did)
I know what I want to do with my life
I speak at least 2 languages fluently
I have made a new friend in the past year (ya im talking bout yall)
i was tagged by @officialhermionegrangerā
Name ā natalie Nicknames ā natĀ Zodiac Sign ā aries Height ā 5ā²6ā³ or 5ā²7ā³ not entirely sure Hogwarts House ā slytherin Ethnicity ā caucassian Favorite Fruit ā blueberries Favorite Season ā spring Favorite Book(s) ā perks of being a wallflower & yes please Favorite Flower ā does lavender count? Favorite Scent ā waterfall or forest smellsĀ Favorite Color ā green (but like an earthy/army green) Favorite Animal ā dogs or polar bears Favorite Bands/Singers ā probs hozier, ed sheeran, and ill always love 1d Average Sleep Hours ā somewhere between 4 and 8.... so i guess 6 Favorite Fictional Character(s) ā steve rogers, barry allen, lorelai gilmore, rey, nala Dream Trip ā alaska to see the northern lights and go dog sleeding Blog Created ā this one.... fuck march 2016 (guys ive had this blog for almost a year now wtf) Number of Followers ā 2366 (i havent been making shit lately) What Made You Decide To Make a Tumblr ā like in the beginning??? i have no fucking idea why 2010 nat made her first tumblr, but this one because i was spamming my aesthetic blog with star wars and x files so i made this blog and now a year later im chris evans trash ..Ā
#these were so long#but im such a hoe for talking about myself i fucking had to#about me#nat does tag games
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had a dream i came out to my mom as aro and she took it horribly <3 and we were out in public, like we were in my high school gsa for some reason, except non-gsa students were there idk, and people even filmed it going down and it spread all over the school <3 but people at least seemed supportive
#like for some reason i invited my mon to the gsa#except i dont think she KNEW it was gsa#ans then my gsa teacher was like ābrot congratulationsā or whatever#like idk it was a congrats meeting for something and thats why i had brought my mom#but then the teacher said something and basically outted me in front of my mom and i just felt. my stomach Drop#and i was likw. FUCK. HOW DID I NOT SEE THIS COMING. THIS IS GSA. WHY DID I BRING MY MOM HERE#and anyway i got to pick out these weird earrings thay had the aro colors#so i did that and then walked Carefully back to my mom where she was sitting at a desk#and she looked at me hesitantly and was like āwhat does aro meanā#and i explained it to her and she just looked so. hurt and angry and betrayed#and she was like āi spent your whole childhood wondering why you were so messed up. do you know how hard that was?ā and she was crying and i#was just like. this cannot be happening. and mom was trying to be quiet but the room was already not rlly that crowded so everyone heard us#and i could just feel everyone watching and i could just feel myself shutting down so i jsut couldnt say anything in defense#i just nodded and she just kept going on about how fucked up i was and how hard it was on her to have a fucked up child#and inside i was like āi dont even think she knows the full implications yet either <3ā bc she didnt even mention marriage#andi know she will definitely be upset as fuck that im not getting married#idk her voice was so tight and everyone was just starring and i felt so fucking sick#and then we went home and she acted like nothing had happened#and then the video spread around the school like i even got tagged with it on instagram LMAO#but most people seemed supportive and my friends kept asking me if i was okay and if i was safe so like. fhosdjjs#brot posts#my dreams#ugh i feel like i have a hole in my chest
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Anyways sister visited fron college for like a Week so Now im super stressed n sad n hatin myself again so thats great
#oh your Her sister oh i just LOVE her#jus lov how#she makes me feel like shit#then gets mad when i tryto tell her to stop#boi multiple times shes gone up to me saying her friends told her i called her abusive and like#ok its true because she Is abusive and manipulative maybe not the Worst there is but she Still Is#but do thay bitch rlly think im gonna Admit i said that To Her Face.like#fuckin No!! because im terrified of her!!#i had to drop outta school for online schooling for three main reasons n one of em!!#was my constant fear that her friends will text her things i say#which you think is jus me being paranoid but nope!!#they did constantly! they still are!!#just the fact that im not there anymore!!#not to mention she once somehow got ahold of my grades!!#i mean what the Fuck i already have to live under her fucking shafoe since she was so Perfect at everything#i mean i couldnt say my Own name without people going i mean!!#what the Fuck#which is Also partly why im a lil too denanding abt getting tags n stuff on art which yea aint the best excuse#because people would find putim her sibling and suddenly they couldnt care less about My art the stuff I spent time on No#i gotta hear abt her n her music and how perfectly perfect she is in everything she does!!#im not perfect and i accept that but i still want to be told when i did something good!!#i have a FUCKING inferiority compleX I Guess ifnrhats the one where you cknstantly feel inferior#and i mentioned it once and got told to fucking get over it but i CANT#ive ALWAYS been ignored for my OTHER family members#my distant family doesnt even really notice me my main family only ever want to talk about my fucking sister and how perfect she is#students either wouldnt hive me the time of day bossed me around or only talked about my sister#i mean Yall one of my art teachers only ever Actually looked at my art on the last day of school#yall in Literally a fampus characters bitter younger sibling thats who i am!! i cant help it!!#anyways whoops didnt mean to go off That hard kinda started cryin there ruhro n all that#man why cant i just be treated like my own individual and actually be allowed to speak about what I like
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