#<- isn’t diffusion fun like that????

[noctilionoidea]

Kinda meh Ashtart I worked on and off on during school. For the most part I wasn’t able to reference my design for her but I did get it close. I don’t like how the coloured pencil looks here though. Eh

[communistkenobi]

They put Tayy Dior’s name in quotes as if that was a fun little nickname her friends called her. It places emphasis on the fact that her name is ‘unofficial,’ and given that legal name changes in places like the US can be expensive, difficult & time consuming, the ‘unofficial’ nature of transgender peoples’ names is commonplace. Using deadnames of trans people in media reports is an endorsement of the difficult nature of this process.

It also highlights the absurdity of appealing to ‘official’ legal records of name and gender marker - which official records? even when you go through a legal name change process, it’s not a single application that changes it everywhere. At least in my experience in Canada, and I believe this is the case in other federated states, you have to separately change your photo ID(s), your birth certificate, your federal/national records, your tax records, your employment and tenant records, your bank records, your billing records, and so on. These are all separate applications/appointments. And legal name and gender marker are separate applications. I had to essentially obtain a set of permission slips from a provincial office that allowed me to change my name and gender marker on municipal, provincial, and federal records. There isn’t one single ‘official’ record that informs all other records of your ‘real’ name and gender marker, it is a collection of diffused departments & offices that do not communicate with one another and must be altered one at a time by the individual themselves. In many cases, states retain a record of your original name and gender marker even after applying for a change, meaning it is literally impossible to ever fully change your name and gender everywhere, administratively speaking.

So, which record is the ‘official’ record for trans people? Cis people treat ‘official’ records of legal names and gender markers as if they are uniform, centralised, and coherent in order to contrast the ‘unofficial’ nature of a trans person’s “preferred” name and pronouns, to highlight the fundamental fraudulence of our lives that go against the rational objective nature of the state, but there is in many states no single official record, for trans and non-trans people alike. That is because when cis people insist on calling trans people by their deadnames and ungender them, they are not actually referring to official records - as official records can conflict, and there is no agreement on which single record is the authoritative one - but are instead treating sex and name assignment at birth as if it is sacrosanct. This first ritual of naming, of gendering, and of recording the results of this ritual is the actual ‘official record’ they are referring to, a ritual that can never be altered or forsaken.

Tayy Dior’s name is not a nickname, it is not a quotation to insert into her “real” “official” deadname, it is not a preference. It is her name, and the media - even “trans inclusive” media - is making sure that it is, at best, the second thing they call her as they gleefully report on her violent murder

[pucksandpower]

Man’s World

Charles Leclerc x Ferrari engineer!Reader

Summary: Charles refuses to just stand by and watch as you get disrespected

Warnings: misogyny and lewd comments

You’re admiring the sleek lines of the red Ferrari F8 Tributo in front of you, running your fingers lightly over the glossy paint. The showroom is quiet this early in the morning, just a few employees milling about getting ready for the day.

Charles had to stop by to sign some merchandise for a charity event and asked if you wanted to tag along. You opted to wait out front and enjoy the eye candy while he took care of business.

You circle around to the back of the car, appreciating the aggressive styling and massive rear diffuser. As an engineer for Scuderia Ferrari who often extends your expertise to working on their road cars, you know every detail of this machine intimately. Your hands itch to pop the hood and inspect that glorious twin-turbo V8, but you resist.

This isn’t your workshop back in Maranello.

Lost in thought, you don’t notice the group of guys entering the showroom until one whistles loudly. “Hey baby, those legs look good enough to wrap around me real tight,” one calls out.

You freeze, feeling your heart rate pick up.

“Don’t be shy, we just want to get to know you better,” another says as they swagger over.

You press back against the car, sizing up the situation. Four of them, all clearly well-off based on the expensive watches and designer clothes. But their eyes are cruel as they look you up and down.

“What’s a pretty little thing like you doing in a place like this?” The apparent ringleader asks. “Hoping to sink your claws into some rich guy and take him for all he’s worth?” The others laugh nastily.

You lift your chin. “Actually, I happen to work for Ferrari.”

The man snorts in disbelief. “Yeah right, and I’m Michael Schumacher. There’s no way a woman knows anything about these cars other than where the passenger seat is.”

You clench your fists, biting back a scathing retort. The thought of educating these misogynistic jerks gives you immense satisfaction, but you know it won’t do any good. They’ll never change their prejudiced attitudes.

“Don’t listen to him, darling,” one says, giving you a lecherous look. “I’d be happy to take you for a ride, show you how a real man handles power between his legs.”

You’re about to tell him exactly where he can shove his stereotypes when a familiar voice interrupts sharply.

“That’s enough.”

You look over to see Charles striding angrily toward you, green eyes blazing. The men surrounding you look irritated at having their fun spoiled.

“Can we help you with something, pal?” The ringleader asks sarcastically.

Charles ignores him, coming to stand protectively beside you. “Are you okay, mon amour?” He asks under his breath.

You nod, relief washing over you now that he’s here. “I’m fine.”

Charles turns an icy stare on the men who’d been harassing you. “I’d appreciate it if you wouldn’t speak to my girlfriend that way,” he says coldly.

The leader looks Charles up and down dismissively. But then a spark of recognition crosses his face. “Wait a minute … you’re Charles Leclerc!” He elbows his friends. “The Formula 1 driver!”

The others’ eyes widen as they take in Charles with new understanding. “Whoa, seriously?” One exclaims.

The leader chuckles, clearly trying to recover his bravado. “Well, what do you know? The famous racer has a pretty girl on his arm.” His lips curl in a smirk. “Hate to break it to you, but it’s obvious she’s just using you for your money. No way she knows anything about these cars other than how much they cost.”

Charles crosses his arms. “As it so happens, my girlfriend is an engineer for Scuderia Ferrari, so I’d bet my entire net worth — and my car collection — that she knows more about the cars in this dealership than all four of you combined and then some.”

You have to bite your lip to hide a smile at the dumbfounded looks on the men’s faces.

“An engineer?” One sputters. “You can’t be serious.”

You level a challenging stare at them. “Deadly serious. I’ve personally worked on over a dozen projects for Ferrari, including the SF90 Stradale hypercar we just launched.” You point across the showroom. “There’s one right over there, in fact. Mid-front mounted 4.0L twin-turbo V8, delivering 769 brake horsepower combined with three electric motors. First plug-in hybrid Ferrari ever put into full production.” You smirk at the slack-jawed stares your technical rundown elicits. “So yes, I’d say I know a thing or two about these cars.”

Charles grins proudly and squeezes your hand. But the leader is not ready to back down just yet.

“Anyone can memorize a monologue,” he scoffs. “I don’t buy it. You’re clearly just clinging to this guy for his money.”

Fury rises in your chest. You open your mouth to retaliate, but Charles beats you to it.

“That’s my girlfriend you’re talking about,” he snaps, green eyes blazing. “I’d be very careful with what you say next.”

The man smirks, crossing his bulky arms over his chest. “Or what, tough guy?”

Charles takes a step forward, jaw clenched. The man towers over him but Charles doesn’t flinch.

Right as it looks like things might get physical, you quickly take Charles’s arm. “He’s not worth it,” you murmur.

Charles hesitates, nostrils flaring. After a tense moment, he relaxes his stance and turns his back on the leering man.

But it seems the group isn’t done provoking you yet. “That’s right, listen to your sugar baby,” one of them calls out. “Wouldn’t want you messing up that pretty face for the cameras.”

Charles whips back around, shaking with anger now. Heart pounding, you cling to his arm in an effort to hold him back. “Charles, please-”

“No, Y/N.” He shakes off your hand, stalking toward the men. “I won’t stand here and let them insult you.”

You watch helplessly as Charles gets right in the leader’s face, nearly nose to nose. “You need to apologize. Now,” he grits out.

The man narrows his eyes. “Apologize? For what? Stating the obvious?” He smirks coldly. “Face it, your little girlfriend is nothing but a gold diggin-”

He doesn’t get to finish the sentence. With lightning speed, Charles’ fist connects squarely with his jaw. The man stumbles back with a pained shout, hand flying to his face.

“Charles!” You hurry to his side, alarmed. Charles is breathing hard, staring down at the man doubled over and groaning. The man’s friends back away nervously.

Chest heaving, Charles turns to you. “I’m sorry. I couldn’t listen to him insult you for another second.”

You meet his fiery gaze steadily. “It’s okay, I understand. Thank you for defending me.” After a beat, you add wryly, “And remind me not to get on your bad side.”

That startles a small laugh from Charles. The tension in his shoulders eases. He takes your hand, bringing it to his lips for a gentle kiss. “No chance of that, mon ange,” he murmurs. “You bring out the best in me.”

***

“Ow, ow, ow!” Charles hisses as he gingerly holds his right hand. His knuckles are bruised and bleeding.

You sigh, grabbing the first aid kit to tend to your dramatic boyfriend. “I told you not to punch him, Charles. You don’t know the first thing about throwing a proper punch.”

Charles pouts, wincing as you take his hand in yours to examine it. “I was just trying to defend your honor, mon amour. That man was saying such crude things about you.”

You shake your head, amused by his protectiveness. “My hero,” you tease. “Next time just walk away. I don’t need you breaking your hand over some entitled idiot’s comments.”

Charles hangs his head. “I know, I know. I wasn’t thinking clearly. I just saw red when he kept insulting you.”

You smile softly, touched by how much he cares. You start cleaning the wounds on his knuckles with a disinfectant wipe.

“Ow!” Charles cries out dramatically. “That stings!”

“Don’t be such a baby,” you chide. “It’s just a little antiseptic. I have to clean it so it doesn’t get infected.”

Charles pouts some more but stays still as you finish cleaning the abrasions. You apply an antibiotic ointment carefully before beginning to wrap his hand with a bandage.

“I really messed up my hand, didn’t I?” Charles mumbles dejectedly.

You nod. “You definitely did some damage. Nothing serious, but you’ll be sore for a while.”

Once you’ve wrapped his hand securely, you bring it to your lips and place a gentle kiss on the bandage. “There. All better.”

Charles gives you a lopsided smile. “My own personal nurse. How did I get so lucky?”

You grab an ice pack from the freezer and hand it to him. “Here, put this on your hand to help with the swelling and pain.”

Charles sighs dramatically but does as instructed, holding the ice pack gingerly against his injured hand.

You glance at his wrapped hand, the knuckles already starting to bruise beneath the bandage. “Does it hurt terribly?”

Charles considers the question. “Honestly? Yes, it really does. Punching someone is not as easy as it looks in the movies.”

You laugh. “No kidding. That’s why you leave the punching to trained fighters, not Formula 1 drivers.”

“Ugh, this is so embarrassing,” Charles mutters. “What will the team say when they find out I injured myself in a fight? And I’ll never hear the end of it from Pierre.”

You pat his leg reassuringly. “Just say you hurt it working out. No one has to know about your misguided attempt at honorable combat,” you tease.

Charles chuckles ruefully. “Good idea. The last thing I need is for this to become paddock gossip.”

You both sit in comfortable silence for a few moments, Charles icing his hand while you snuggle contentedly against him.

"Thank you for patching me up and taking such good care of me,” Charles gently brushes the hair from your face with his uninjured hand. “Even when I do stupid things."

You grin. “It’s a tough job but someone’s gotta do it. Especially since you did almost break your hand for me.”

You settle back against Charles comfortably. He may be reckless and impulsive at times, but you know he always has the best intentions at heart. And you'll always be there to care for him if those good intentions backfire.

For better or worse, this protective man is the love of your life.

[batfambyval]

okay. So.

Serious Red Robin theory coming.

Tim wasn’t put in the Lazarus Pit. But. That doesn’t mean they didn’t use it on him. The pit’s healing properties have been shown to work in small portions. Like, the healing is proportional to the amount of lw used.

The cave with the pit isn’t exactly a sterile environment. So either the pit was needed or it was an attempt to put Tim off balance, a psychological weapon. Though the White Ghost’s reaction to the assumption seems to dispute that. If the pit’s healing is proportional to the amount used it makes sense that the psychological effects are to, along with the duration of those side effects.

Ra’s had serious reasons to use the pit on Tim, between the additional room for emotional manipulation and Tim’s life threatening injury which wasn’t immediately treated and was in fact exacerbated like, a lot… yeah. Tim lost a lot of blood. He lost was stabbed in the organ that filters blood: meaning all your blood passes through your spleen. He was bleeding out, he should have died, he dragged himself and another person to a car, drove said car back to the city, and got them both up to the penthouse. Recovering from that would take a long time, he shouldn’t have survived at all. But he healed quickly and well, it isn’t an issue, it happened and it was over. I know we as a fandom like to have fun with Tim’s missing spleen and what that means but… canon didn’t and looking back I feel like there was a lot pointing at the pit being used in a much more insidious was, not just in the logistics of Tim’s recovery.

Ra’s was insanely trusting of Tim. Not just in his ability to do what he wanted but in his belief that Tim would ultimately come around to his way of thinking. Now, I can obviously see that Tim was in a very vulnerable position and if Bruce hadn’t actually been alive Ra’s could definitely have succeeded. But it feels like more than that, especially with Tim’s ensuing behavior. A lot of his time with the league is glossed over or seen from Tam’s perspective, but Tim was acting different. It’s easy to attribute this to the objectively terrible situation and the year he’s had, but his behavior isn’t the same as it was at the beginning of the run either. And the difference in behavior fades. As Red Robin Tim is more ruthless and pragmatic, mostly due to necessity. Even stealing from a museum and fighting for it makes him incredibly uncomfortable. He still did it. But he was still acting like Tim, making jokes and doing his best to diffuse the situation and keep everyone alive. After the surgery his focus gets even more single minded. He barely puts up a fight about leading the league. Of course partly for Tam, and he tried to keep killing to a minimum but cmon. He was leading the league of ASSASSINS. There were assassinations happening. People died when he blew all the league bases and he barely registered that beyond thinking that the council of spiders probably made it out, implying part of him knew death was a possibility and he didn’t care. But he didn’t think about the moral implications of that in a way that was very reminiscent of Jason’s selective morality. If he had stopped to think about it he wouldn’t have done it, but he was focused to much on beating Ra’s, on not compromising, that the complexity of the situation didn’t sink in. The obvious effects of his actions, the possible deaths and injuries of anyone inside a league stronghold wasn’t acknowledged while the underlying message sent to his opponent was the only thing he could think about. Just like when Jason attacked Tim at Titans Tower to send a message to Bruce despite his hardline stance against hurting kids.

So. The League did use the pit on Tim, just a little. Maybe two tablespoons in the wound to accelerate recovery and weaken his morals a bit. It would certainly make a lot of sense. And the writer did change when Tim came back to Gotham so it’s entirely possible that it was meant to be touched on later but was discarded.

[50cal-fullauto-astarion]

horny, sulky, kinda mean, kinda roughhousing könig thought bc it's my birthday, it's 2:50am, i have been horny like a fuckin werewolf for like a week now. f!reader ig for talk about pussy.

So our man König doesn’t keep normal hours—not that you do, but dude is two days back from KorTac and pretty much strung out on the “fun” amphetamines KorTac req officers pass out like candy if you even wave smth that looks like a form at them. So kind of out of the worst of it, exhausted, but wired and feeling kind of shitty and toothy and wound up.

He wants to fuck. Easiest way to diffuse, decompress, and he’s hard as shit by the time he lumbers his way into bed with you—over you—all around you. You were reading off your kindle, not anymore. He plucks that shit right out of your hand and puts it behind him, tangling those long, heavy limbs around you like a boa constrictor.

“Was wondering when this was going to happen,” you say, hissing when he’s none to kind in nipping the skin of your neck, wrapping his arms around your torso, pushing your breasts up under your t-shirt. “Shit, you’re moody,” it’s half a laugh, and a grapple at not immediately just folding and giving into him. You like to bite, too.

“Give me your mouth,” he grunts, nose pushed into the spot behind your ear. He’s pushing down your underwear, singlemindedly stripping you down. His words make your skin humid, “Gonna play with your pussy, want you fucking wet for me.”

You give that little bit, turning your head over your shoulder, smirking into a kiss that drives deliriously deep as soon as contact is made. König isn’t a prim kisser, but a primal one. It’s not a clean act; sloppy, yes, and somehow tinged with something kin to restrained violence. Challenge? Dick swinging? Maybe something more biblical in nature—gluttony, or greed.

He’s a fearsome thing, and he may only be beautiful to you. A needful thing, too, twisting nest of starved serpents—6 feet 10 inches and pushing-300-lbs of fucking muscle, battering-ram-body housing more than thirty years of neglect-crushed memory out for retribution.

But you never were a target. He didn’t have a choice in that matter. You both know good and goddamned well that you picked him. Everything he gets away with is at your allowance, and good fucking Christ, he loves you for it.

His cock throbs against your bare ass through his boxers as his arm wraps around you, craning his hand to pump two big fingers into your sopping cunt, angling his wrist so he can press and rub your clit with his thumb.

Man’s got his perversions, and he’s the most physical person you’ve ever met in your life. He’s had a fraction of the sex he’s fantasized about, but you’ve covered hectares of that ground since you’ve gotten together. He’s a quick study, and his mind’s a nightmare of steel trap memory. He never forgets what you like.

Two fingers turn to three, and he almost pushes it to four—assured torture, too much stretch too fast—before you snap a hand around his wrist and buck hard back against him, seething his name in warning. “Don’t fucking dare.”

“Ja. Ja, Schatzi,” he mumbles, breathing hard and too collected. You’re both sweating already, and the bed feels too damn warm, but neither of you shift. The spooning position is perfect as-is, only needs acted upon. In the mean time, he draws his slicked fingers up, leaving them in the air before your mouth in question. He groans and shudders harshly when you take the digits into your mouth, almost laughing at the ever-fresh amusement of your own taste. Salt and cold coins, your own metallic tang a complement to the one on his skin. His voice shakes as he warns, “Time, now. It’s time, bitte, aw, fuck.”

Just like that, he sinks right into you, to the base, balls pressed tight against your lips due to your body’s contortioning to meld against his form. An ungodly moan bellows out of his throat, rattling from his chest into yours, arms tightening around you. You meet the fuck-weird noises, turning your head to keen into your pillows and pressing back against him. Your hand anchors behind you on his hip, as if pinning him in place, affixing your bodies together.

You both hang in a moment of suspension, hearts pounding, minds blank, stomachs rising as if careening over a hill with momentum not sparing you a moments reprieve.

When that finally snaps, you have to force him to focus, to fuck, and he’s slow about it, grinding into you as your cunt sucks him deeper.

That huge hand you know so well drops between your legs, right back to toying with you. Oh it doesn’t take long to get you off, bent in half on your side, holding onto him and gasping as you’re hit with wave after wave of pleasure.

He’s not subtle to signal when it’s his turn. He pulls you back up and clamps his teeth into your shoulder, biting down hard through the fabric of your shirt, fucking you rough, now, and unheeding, like an animal in heat. When he finally finishes, spasming and jolting all over now that his balls have been emptied into you, he leaves his heavy arm over your waist, keeping you close. “Good shit,” he mumbles, throat sticking to itself it’s so dry as he pants, parched, “we split a smoke?”

You’re not much better, even though you’ve bravado to fucking spare. “I smoke. You go the hell to sleep now,” you try to sound stern and dismissive, but there’s a laugh in your tone some place. And fondness, undeniably. You feel his grin against your neck, his body purring mhm in question. “Feel better?” you ask, at length, stroking the hair on his forearms.

“Yes,” he says after a moment, weak and sweet with relief, “can sleep now.” A pause, you can hear him thinking. “Won’t, though. Because you were an asshole and had to bring it up first.” His laugh wheezes, low and susurring.

[poisonpercy]

Ok just finished the 3rd episode of the show. From a completely outside perspective without comparing it to the books, it’s a fine episode. The writing does fall flat imo, and it doesn’t keep my attention. It’s also still very hard to see what’s happening when it’s supposed to be dark. When will Hollywood let dark scenes be visible again?

Ok, now for more specific thoughts:

The scene with the Oracle sucked in my opinion. Idk it just seemed so much more grander in the book. The scene in the show lacked the mystic and off putting nature of the Oracle, so it kinda just didn’t work for me. I did like that they remembered that Gabe was the voice of the Oracle in tlt, so that was nice

How Percy chooses his quest mates in the show is different in the show than in the books. This isn’t a bad thing, but I do miss Annabeth volunteering herself to be Percy’s 3rd quest mate like she does in the books. Idk I just think it really showed her eagerness to prove herself and get a quest. The show scene doesn’t do that, but I’m not mad at the change

The interaction between Grover and Percy when Percy tells Grover he was chosen to go on the quest was so cute. I love those 2 boys. Besties for life

Percy telling Luke that he thinks the drachmas are from Chuck E. Cheese was hilarious

With Luke in mind, I love how manipulative he is. Like he is so nice, but it’s because he has ulterior motives. I do like that his manipulation is not overt, so you don’t know that he’s the one that ultimately betrays Percy

I personally didn’t find the “she met a pine cone’s fate” line that Percy said funny. It honestly came off kind of rude. It’s definitely something that Percy would say in ttc when Thalia and him are beefing, but not when he finds out about her death. Percy is supposed to be kind and empathetic, and he shows so much sympathy for Thalia and her fate when he hears her story in the book. Idk just felt like that line was ooc during this moment in time

Grover’s song was so cute and funny, it had me cracking up fr

Percy trying to get all of them to vote throughout the episode is hilarious. My boy just wants to have a say in things

Annabeth grabbing all that candy was perfect. It really shows she’s just a 12 year old girl that didn’t get to experience the joys of childhood (also, I feel like overall that the show is forgetting that Annabeth is not a stoic character. Like she very much acts her age. I hope the writers let Annabeth have more personality in later episodes)

I miss the book fight sequence with the furies on the bus. It was so chaotic and there was so much tension. Percy steering the bus and crashing it and the bus exploding was perfect, and I’m sad that they got rid of that in the show. The fight scene in the show was just so underwhelming. I feel like those should be the knock out moments of the episodes but they breeze past them so fast and give no tension. It just falls flat (curse you Mickey Mouse!! I know it’s your fault!)

I do appreciate that Grover keeps trying to diffuse the fights between Annabeth and Percy. They are both his friends, and he can see why they keep butting heads. If only the 2 would listen to him

I do miss how the trio finds Auntie Em’s in the book. Like Annabeth and Percy were dumbass 1 and 2 that followed their stomachs while Grover freaked the fuck out. That was so fun. The show had Grover find and follow the smell instead which is fine, but the og scene was better imo

That being said, they guessed that it was Medusa way too quickly in the show. I like the mystery of Auntie Em’s identity in the book better tbh

“I definitely trust my mom” <- Percy exceeds the momma’s boy standards

I don’t mind the change to Medusa’s character. I actually really enjoyed her (the actresses voice is so gorgeous and calming). I like how she’s like “we’re not our parents until we choose to be them.” It really sets up the ultimate direction of the series imo

Regarding the fight scene with Medusa, it sucked. To begin with, you can hardly see what’s happening bc it’s so dark. Also there was no tension or chaos. It kind of just happened? I also didn’t like that Medusa was killed when Annabeth’s cap was on her. I know it’s because Disney probably thought the death would have been too graphic or whatever, but I would have liked to see what happened

It was cool that Percy used Medusa’s head to kill Alecto

I felt so many emotions when Grover said “He’s not like the others. He doesn’t look afraid” about his Uncle Ferdinand

The beginnings of Percy’s and Annabeth’s friendship is so good. Annabeth not taking the deal with Alecto to give Percy over and killing her sister. Percy not taking Medusa’s offer to get rid of Annabeth and Grover so he can save his mother. It’s perfect. They’re going to become each other’s chosen person and they don’t even know it yet

LMM as Hermes jump scare. Still not a fan of the Hermes casting

Anyways, overall the show just isn’t working for me. I do appreciate Walker, Leah, and Aryan because they are perfect. They are honestly doing such a great job! The writers, however, are not. I’m trying so hard to think of this show as its own entity so I can enjoy it more, but I haven’t been able to so far. Despite that, I am excited to see where the show ends up going (even if I end up not liking it)

[emma23]

Headcanon y/n at a concert with Oscar Isaac characters:

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Steven Grant

- Steven’s both nervous and excited. He’s done his research on the band, reading up on their history and even memorizing some lyrics beforehand.

- He’s the one reminding everyone to bring earplugs ("You don’t want to damage your hearing, do you?").

- At the concert, he’s a bit overwhelmed by the noise and the crowd but can’t stop smiling whenever Y/N seems to be enjoying herself.

- “This is brilliant, innit? Look at the energy!” he says, swaying awkwardly to the beat.

Marc Spector

- Marc acts like he’s too cool for the concert but secretly enjoys it. He hangs back near the bar with his arms crossed, scanning the room like a bodyguard.

- He’s hyper-aware of the group’s safety, subtly moving people away from Y/N if the crowd gets too pushy.

- Occasionally, he catches himself nodding to the music and quickly stops when someone (probably Jake) teases him.

- “I’m not dancing—I’m just...stretching my neck,” he mutters, defensive.

Jake Lockley

- Jake is the one who drives everyone to the venue in a car that’s probably not entirely legal.

- He’s loud and hyped, yelling at random people in the crowd to "make way" for Y/N and the group.

- By the time the music starts, he’s already two beers deep and is shouting lyrics (wrong ones) at the top of his lungs.

- “This band? Not bad. But I could sing it better,” he says with a cocky grin.

Poe Dameron

- Poe is the life of the party. He’s dressed like he belongs on stage, with his leather jacket and confident swagger.

- He’s the first to start dancing and tries to drag Y/N into the action. "Come on, Y/N! We’re not here to stand around!”

- He also flirts shamelessly with everyone, including the bartender, the merch seller, and maybe even the security guard.

- “This band is almost as good as me in a cockpit,” he jokes, winking at Y/N.

Jonathan Levy

- Jonathan isn’t thrilled about the whole idea but comes along because Y/N asked.

- He’s the one awkwardly sipping a drink and checking his phone, making occasional sarcastic comments.

- “Is it just me, or do all these songs sound exactly the same?” he asks, smirking.

- Despite himself, he starts to enjoy the show when he sees Y/N laughing and having fun.

Llewyn Davis

- Llewyn is the snob of the group. He complains about the band’s lack of authenticity and makes snide remarks about the music.

- “This isn’t music; it’s noise,” he grumbles, though his foot taps along to the beat anyway.

- If there’s an acoustic set, he leans in and listens intently, muttering, “Finally, something decent.”

- He spends half the concert comparing himself to the performers and saying, “I could do better.”

Nathan Bateman

- Nathan shows up late, probably because he was busy working on some cryptic project. He doesn’t even pretend to care about the music.

- “This is all just vibrations and patterns,” he says, sipping a drink and smirking.

- He’s the one who suggests sneaking backstage, purely to see if he can. "Come on, Y/N. Live a little."

- Somehow, he gets into a heated debate with a random stranger about the physics of sound.

Santiago ‘Pope’ Garcia

- Pope is chill but clearly here to keep the group in line. He’s the one who makes sure no one loses their ticket or gets kicked out.

- He enjoys the music quietly, nodding along and occasionally leaning over to ask Y/N if she’s having a good time.

- When things get rowdy, he steps in to diffuse the situation—probably pulling Jake away from an argument.

- “It’s not bad. Not my thing, but it’s fun,” he says with a shrug, flashing Y/N a small smile.

[444you]

ways i maintain a cozy life 🦋

i hope you guys can find something in this post that could be helpful(:

heating blankets

provides me so much comfort & warmth. i have it on the entire day 😭 either on low or high, no inbetween

music

i personalized made my own playlist, i put the most whimsical and feminine music i could find. i recommend to listening to comforting songs as well, but not the ones that make you feel a bit sad

baking

always at my happiest when i bake

comfort shows

the shows i tend to watch are pretty little liars, girlfriends, desperate housewives, gossip girl, the vampire diaries, bad girls club, sex and the city

however sometimes the drama can get to me, if it’s too much. i forget i’m not in the show sometimes. for those moments, i’ll put shows like h2o, the summer i turned pretty, barbie life in the dreamhouse, and new girl on.

showers before sleep

i feel so relaxed in water. this includes swimming, showers, beach, pools, and etc. it provides me a great amount of comfort and sleepiness. this helps me sleep better than usual

taco bell

isn’t always the healthiest but if i need some comfort or i’m just feel down, i’ll get a cravings box from taco bell

visuals

put things in ur room that make you feel at peace especially if you’re a homebody. this is important if you spend most of your time in your room. for me, i always loved baking as i previously mentioned. so i’d get a diffuser with gourmet scents. fairy lights as well. cheetah print blankets.

rain

whenever it rains i’ll sit on the patio, put my headphones on and listen to music to recharge.

nostalgia apps

i tend to lead to games or apps that give me nostalgia. this includes wattpad, tumblr, moviestarplanet, purple place (they got in the app store 🫶🏾) , roblox, or episode. 

public places

when it comes to going to the grocery store, mall, or coffee shop. i’ll go alone especially because i spend my time in my room. when the noise is too much, i’ll put my shows or music on. however, i try to go on a movie date with my friend atleast once or twice a month.

reminders

i’m a very optimistic person but i’m also very sensitive. when i encounter negative people or situations, i tend to get discouraged easily. i solve that by watching “hopecore” or “humans are cute” videos on tiktok. i always try not to feed into my sadness by looking at videos about being mistreated or an ex. i search for videos that talk about having a big heart is a gift. how the right one will come to me. honestly for any situation you’re in.

just dance

y’all don’t come for me. just dance is my holy grail. it’s fun and its my way of doing “cardio”

naps

i try to nap after work or classes before i tend to get low energy. i don’t nap more than 2 hours, that way i feel more refreshed instead of drained.

[koolades-world]

this is most definitely a side blog post but I need to tell other people my cool new funfact!

when protons are diffusing down their concentration gradient through ATP synthase, it spins!!!! the synthase spins!! like a merry go round!!!! I can’t believe inside all of us the guy that makes our energy is spinning while doing it! it makes me so happy to know this isn’t this so cool???? I want to be an atp synthase now

been hard at work studying for my test tomorrow and I came across that gem of a fact. expect a post tomorrow :) either Satan’s bday post or a fun little drabble I’ve been working on!

[googleitlol]

This is leading up to some of my favourite stuff, we're getting closer to when dove and wukong can stop antagonizing each other so much but first they gotta go through a little more, uh… 'growing pains'.

Anyway have fun with this bit!

Dove Masterlist:

A Friend

“What did you do?” You frown at the three disciples looking to one another as though they didn’t have the answer themselves. “We’ve barely been here half a day!”

Bajie scratches the back of his head sheepishly while a worried smile stretches over his features. “Heh, I may have overheard our two hosts discussing how Master rejected their ginseng fruit. I was only curious, and Monkey was the one who took them.”

“You what?!” You look back at the trio in shock. You’ve heard of ginseng, a powerful fruit that can extend your life hundreds of years by smelling its aroma alone. Eating it can enable a person to live until their forty-seven thousandth year! The fruit itself can often appear to have limbs, it's what Tripitaka must have mistaken for a baby. You’ve heard how it takes nearly ten thousand years for a ginseng tree to bear its fruit, and these fools stole them?!

Wukong slaps Bajie on the arm. “Why would you tell her?!”

“We’re all at fault,” Sandy steps in, “we all ate the fruit.”

“Yeah, but Monkey had an extra one.” Pigsy tattles, his brother in question giving him a look of offence. Wukong raises his hands in defence, stepping closer to the pig. “I told you, the first one dropped!”

“And it doesn’t excuse the fact that we all ate one.” Wujing rests a hand on each of their shoulders, a subtle attempt to diffuse the situation.

“Stop it, all of you!” You shout over their bickering. Once they finally manage to quiet down, you continue. “What’s done is done, now you have to fix it before Tripitaka pays for it.”

The trio responds with groans and rebuttals, but eventually you manage to drag them back to the main hall where their master waits, accompanied by your two hosts. You can hear the two shouting at the monk before they even enter your line of sight, Monkey King bristling with bubbling annoyance as you all draw closer.  Their faces are pulled down by frowns, their anger present in the twitch of one’s brow.

The Tang Monk himself appears tired, an understandable feeling given the situation. “These two have informed me that some of their ginseng have gone missing.”

“It isn’t missing!” One shouts, pointing an accusatory finger at Tripitaka. “It was stolen, we know it! I’ve never seen a monk with such a lack of control over his disciples.”

“Master Zhenyuan tried to tell us how rowdy and disruptive your demonic disciples really are. I should have taken those warnings more seriously.” The other chimes in with a huff.

The bout of passion makes Monkey laugh. “Am I to believe you assume we did it?” The question makes you frown inwardly, the growing irritation staying buried for the sake of appearances. Is he really about to try and play this off like they’re innocent?

“Master Zhenyuan took with him everyone but us to his conference. You are the only ones present to steal it, so it must be you!” The second disciple replies, his frown deepening despite Wukong’s laughter.

The Monkey King shakes his head with a chuckle. “And why would we do that? How would we even know of this ‘ginseng’? You never told us of its existence.”

The first disciple huffs. “We offered it to your master, but he declined it.” “Ah, so you gave it to us.” “No, we ate it.”

“So you ate the ginseng, problem solved!”

“We didn’t eat the stolen fruit, we had what your master was offered!”

“Then the fruit wasn’t stolen?”

“No– I mean, yes! It was stolen! You’re mixing my words.” “I would never think to trick you in such a way.” Wukong grins, and you do your best not to roll your eyes.

Finally, the first disciple sighs. “Fine, then. We will go and count the fruit again. If there are less than twenty-eight, we will know that you stole it.” With a nod to his brother daoist, they exit towards the gardens. Back to the tree to recount the same number of fruits. What on earth does this ape think he’s doing?

A small gust of wind blows past, and you turn to see the source: another Wukong with his arms crossed, his smile so smug, you might think he managed to somehow bring the ginseng back on his own. There is, of course, one way you can think to restore the fruit, though it’s a last resort you don’t want to use unless absolutely necessary. But those thoughts hardly matter when you and the monks are faced with a second Sun Wukong.

The group looks in befuddlement back at the newcomer Monkey King as he lets out a breath. “To think they would shout at you like that, Master. You really should be grateful that I’m here for you.”

“What?” Tripitaka frowns, looking between the two monkeys while your own face pales. Realisation hits as the monk questions his disciple. “What is going on? Why are there two of you?”

“I thought to let a clone take care of our disrespectful hosts while I took care of a few things.” He shrugs half-hazardly, the copy returning to its original state as he did, a small tuft of hair.

“You just convinced them to go back and recount the fruit.” The monkey stiffens as you speak, which only serves to make the growing knot in your stomach tighten. “Sun Wukong… where were you just now?” He makes eye contact with you, and for the first time on this journey you see the impossible sight of slight regret in his golden irises. Whatever he has done, it’s best to assume that now is the time to leave. You quickly turn back to Pigsy. “Go grab our luggage, I’ll help you. Wujing, retrieve Ao Lie and bring him to the front gates. Tripitaka, wait at the gates with Wukong and get ready to ride.”

Tripitaka calls out for you as you turn to leave with Bajie. “Wait, you want us to run? Do you not think that is a bit of an over-reaction–” As he finishes his inquiry, one of the two disciples lets out a scream so loud their voice is able to carry throughout the entire temple.

“I think this is a perfectly reasonable response.” You answer, catching Wukong’s gaze for a moment and glaring before running off with Pigsy to retrieve everyone’s luggage. With how little you all carry, it took little time to gather everyone’s things and meet the others outside.

Sandy already has Tripitaka on the horse, the group exiting the gates and racing down the mountain once you and Bajie arrive. Wujing takes what you’re carrying and you transform to keep up with the other demons and horse’s fast pace. Tripitaka looks back on occasion, watching carefully for any signs that your group was being pursued.

Even without any signs of chase, you and the pilgrims continue in your pace well-into the night. Only when you distance yourself from the mountain does the group of pilgrims slow to a stop. Ao Lie diverts from the path that leads away from the mountain, guiding the pilgrims to take cover along the edges of a forest. With the cover of the surrounding foliage and night, you transform back as everyone takes a moment to breathe. Of course, just when you get a break from the demons and dilemma-inducing rivers, something has to come along to keep everyone on their toes. To make matters worse, you ran from Zhenyuan’s temple! Perhaps he might’ve forgiven the disciples for eating his ginseng, but the look on Monkey’s face before you left was enough to dissuade that notion from your mind. You just hope his disciples that had been hosting you would be alright.

Despite the worries racing through your mind, they’re put to a halt when you hear Wukong’s laughter. “That was a close one, wasn’t it?”

Pigsy, while crouching with his hands on his knees to regain his breath, looks to the disciple in confusion. “Brother, what happened?” At the question, the demon lets out a nervous chuckle.

“I may have gotten a little angry. I mean, you saw how they were shouting at Master!” He scratches his head nervously.

Tripitaka dismounts from the horse, stepping closer to his disciple. “Pilgrim, what did you do?”

The monkey demon looks between his master and his brothers, then to you before turning back to Tripitaka. His weight shifts from one leg to the other. “I, uh, may have gone back to the ginseng tree. Andknockeditover.” He adds on the last part quickly, averting his gaze to the ground.

His swiftly-spoken words are caught easily, the Tang Monk’s eyes widening considerably while you digest the information. “You what?!” 

“At least we’re out of there, didn’t you hear what those idiots were saying to you?” He defends himself, though it barely registers to you. How could he have been so stupid? Can he never learn from his mistakes?! “I couldn’t just stand there and listen to how they were treating us. Nobody disrespects Old Monkey and gets away with–”

The demon is cut off as the palm of your hand meets his face.

The echo of the slap is met with silence and wide eyes, shock engraved in the faces of your companions that you don’t digest. All you can hone in on is the source of your anger, emotion you feel boiling to the surface. You clench your fist in an effort to contain it. “Do you ever think about anyone besides yourself?! All you had to do was apologise! Is your ego too inflated for even that?”

“How dare you–” He steps into your space, eyes narrowing but you stop him again.

“That fruit didn’t belong to those disciples, it belongs to their master! What might happen to them if he returns with nobody else to blame for your actions?” You push your finger into his chest, though it doesn’t push him back much. “One might think spending five hundred years under a mountain would change a person, but you’re still as selfish and narcissistic as you ever were!”

You can feel your hand shaking with anger, and quickly turn away with a scoff. “I shouldn’t even be wasting my breath on you.” Before he can have the chance to argue, you transform and fly off, rushing into the cool night air to give yourself a moment to breathe. You’re getting too worked up, and shouting won’t change anything. Sometimes it was just difficult to remember that with him around.

You don’t go too far, finding a nearby stream pretty quickly to rest beside. You turn back and begin to pace, finding that moving often helps calm you down. It's a struggle, your anger still bubbling beneath your skin. Words can only do so much to describe how you feel. After spending all this time with him, you’d think the Monkey King might have eventually become easier to be around. Maybe you’d be able to get along with him better after all this time, but no. You’ve had moments of sympathy, moments of understanding, but every time a step is made towards the two of you coexisting peacefully, he makes you take three steps back.

After some time, you kneel by the stream, dipping your hand into the cool water and letting it weave around your fingers. Stealing the fruit was one thing, but knocking down the tree? The ginseng itself takes thousands of years to grow, it’s why you never had the option to eat it yourself during your stay in the heavens. How long did it take for that tree to grow old enough to bear such fruit? Only for it to be knocked down by an impulsive ape.

Your thoughts are put on hold by footsteps and steady trots slowly approaching, and you turn to see Tripitaka steadily making his way to you with Ao Lie. You quickly rise to your feet to meet them, their appearance reminding you of how you very publicly slapped someone in front of your group. Yes… that may have also been a bit impulsive yourself.

“Are you alright?” Tripitaka gives you a perturbed look, and you can only imagine Ao Lie would share it if not for his current form.

You quickly nod. “Yes. I apologise for causing a scene, Tang Monk. I should not have snapped the way I did, especially in front of all of you.” As you speak, he steps closer, meeting you at the water’s edge.

“For how often the two of you bicker, I was surprised it took this long for something like this to happen.” You almost see a trace of an amused smile, though it is quickly exchanged with worry. “Though, it was surprising that out of everything I’ve witnessed from my disciple, this is what has upset you the most.”

Moving past you, the monk takes a seat by the stream, gesturing for you to join him. “They all ate the fruit, you know.” He hums, his eyes watching the water.

You look down as you take your seat next to him, your hands fidgeting in discomfort as you try to distil your lingering anger. “He’s the one who stole it. He brought down their tree.”

You feel Tripitaka’s glance but are unable to meet his eyes. “Your anger, if you don’t mind my saying so, feels more personal than that.” At that, you look back at him in surprise. “Perhaps talking about it could help alleviate some of that feeling?”

You can’t help but feel a little taken aback by the offer. “I couldn’t ask that of you, but I appreciate the offer.” You give an awkward laugh, shaking your head.

“Nonsense.” He rests a hand on your shoulder. “How many times is it now that you’ve given me peace of mind? The very least I could do is lend an ear to a friend that needs it.”

Friend? The title takes you by surprise. You look at the man for a minute, who simply offers a smile. After a few moments, you return the look with a soft smile of your own. It’s been months since you’ve started this journey with Tripitaka, you suppose there isn’t much harm in sharing your thoughts with him like this.

With a sigh, you look back to the steam. “He’s never thought about anyone other than himself, it’s infuriating. Even before we began this journey, the ‘great Monkey King’ has never shown any regard for others.” You start, closing your fists as you speak.

“I remember you mentioning you’ve met before. Is it right for me to assume his actions when you first met were just as callous?” Tripitaka inquires, his assumption almost making you smile with its accuracy.

“Even before we met.” You shake your head, a frown quickly finding its way onto your face. You begin to recall the Peach Festival, how your master had planned to give you a peach of immortality for the journey, and how Sun Wukong took all the stone fruit for himself.

Tripitaka nods along as you explain the reason behind your time in the heavens. “So Sun Wukong took your chance to become immortal?”

“It was more than that.” You continue as your reflection frowns up at you. “A few months after I moved to the palace, I was retrieved by Moksa to visit a village close to our master’s home.” You look back to the man as you elaborate. “After being rescued from my own village, I spent my years growing there. When I was young and had just learned my transformation, the other children would go into the woods with me. They made a game out of trying to find me in the trees.” A soft melancholy smile begins to form on your face, the memories faint but still present.

It only lasts for a few moments. “Lin… He was a good friend of mine. Before the Peach Festival, I promised to tell him what it was like there. He had just become a man before my departure and when I came back… he was elderly. Surrounded by a family I couldn’t recognise. He died as I fulfilled my promise to tell him what I had seen before I was taken back.” You feel your eyes begin to water but continue nonetheless. “Five days later, Moksa brought me down once more to say goodbye to his wife, a woman I thought of as a sister. A week after that, our friend, Guiying. By the end of that month, I had lost nearly everyone I knew.” Your voice starts to crack so you pause to clear your throat and turn your gaze back to the stream, though you can feel Tripitaka's eyes on you.

“Whether or not I could have had that peach, I knew I would have to say goodbye eventually. But without it, I missed their entire lives. Their weddings, their first child, I couldn’t comfort them when they lost their parents. They all lived their lives… and I never got the chance to be there for it.” You notice a tear in your reflection before your expression hardens. “All because of that selfish demon.”

For a few seconds, it’s silent, but it doesn’t take long for Tripitaka to speak. “I’m sorry, I can hardly imagine how hard it must have been. I can barely hold myself together when a demon jumps onto our path.” He laughs a bit when reflecting on his own struggles, and it makes you crack a smile. “Does Wukong know what he’s done to you?” The question makes you scoff. “He wouldn’t be able to hear past the noise of his own ego even if I tried to explain. All he ever does is belittle others or talk about himself. Even how he defended himself for uprooting the ginseng tree, it wasn’t because they were disrespecting you, it was because they were yelling at his master. If it were Pigsy or Sandy, he would have laughed!”

Your reply makes him hum, the man stroking his chin in thought as you continue. “His main source of entertainment is watching people suffer. I won’t give him the satisfaction of knowing how he ruined my past life.” He doesn’t have a response for that, instead letting the two of you sit as the sound of the stream running past fills the silence.

“…How mad was he that I slapped him?”

Tripitaka gives an amused huff to the question. “Pigsy and Sandy had to hold him back. He stopped fighting them when I stepped in.” You look back from where the monk came from, the horse still watching over the two of you. You partly wonder what the other disciples are doing now. “I think he was less angry about you hitting him, it was more so that he wanted to have the final word.”

That sounds like Sun Wukong. “I won’t apologise for it.”

“Even if I wanted you to, I’m not your master. But Bajie and Wujing should be held accountable as well. I’ll have to think of something for them once we get far enough away from here.” Tripitaka gives a weary sigh, clearly exhausted by his disciple’s antics.

Taking in one last deep breath, you stand up and offer the man a hand. “Thank you, Tripitaka. You were right, it feels nice to have someone to share this with.”

Tripitaka smiles before taking your hand and hoisting himself up. “I am always here to listen. Like I said,  you are my friend.”

“Yes, a friend.” The word makes you smile, your anger feels lighter now, making room for something sweeter. It’s been some time since you’ve had a friend.

[yanderecrazysie]

A request for HCs

What do you think would happen if the Karasuno boys know that reader has like a childish crush on the adults in the court? Like she finds Takeda-sensie to be cute and adorkable or coach Ukai to be cool?

They're not stupid tho, they know that crush isn't gonna go anywhere. But her constant fangirling of either one of them behind doors sometimes gets to them, maybe even plant the idea to she's into older men. And they're unfortunately either a year below them or around her age (maybe she's even a few months older than them). Major blow if she's their close friend who often comes to watch them, and she keeps talking about their teacher/coach crush to them.

Ooooh fun! And I must say, she’s got good taste in adorkable Takeda.

WARNINGS: Yandere themes, mentions of murder, reader is into older men

♡ You’re a fan and part of the cheerleading squad, always coming to the games (big or small), so the team sees you often. Sometimes you even come to practice, just to talk to them and cheer them on.

♡ One by one, all of the Karasuno volleyball players fell for you, despite knowing that you don’t see them as anything more than good players and maybe friends.

♡ Still, it comes as a serious blow to hear that you’ve got a childish crush on Takeda and Ukai. And they hear it straight from the horse’s mouth.

♡ You wax lyrical about how cool Ukai is, with his dyed hair and the piercings he sometimes wears outside of coaching. You practically squeal over the adorable, awkward Takeda.

♡ It hurts even more that you don’t say anything like that to them. Sure, you’ve complimented their volleyball skills, but you’ve never complimented their looks or personalities.

♡ Tsukishima’s the first one to figure out that you might have a thing for older men. That’s a real problem for all of them because, not only are you a third year, but your birthday is even earlier than Daichi’s, Asahi’s, and Sugawara’s.

♡ Daichi is the cool, calm, and collected captain, but even he struggles to come up with a plan. There’s no way they could do something stupid like kill their coach and teacher- besides, Hinata and Asahi could never stomach it.

♡ Tanaka and Nishinoya are the most jealous, vying desperately for your attention but not receiving nearly enough whenever the “cool coach” and “cute teacher” are nearby. And they’re never far away.

♡ Sugawara’s the first one to suggest kidnapping you, but there’s a fight that breaks out over where they would keep you.

♡ Since Daichi’s the captain, they reluctantly agree that he would keep you in his house and the rest would just visit. 

♡ They act normally for weeks, gritting their teeth every time you say something like “Isn’t Takeda so adorable?” or “Coach Ukai’s looking hot today!”

♡ Kageyama nearly loses his cool when you confide in him that you desperately wish that one of the two older men would pay you more attention. Sugawara manages to diffuse the situation before Kageyama yells himself hoarse at you.

♡ Hinata’s most excited to kidnap you and Asahi’s the most nervous.

♡ Yamaguchi nearly cries every time you tell him how much you like Ukai and Takeda.

♡ They finally can’t take any more of your obsession with their elders, and they whisk you away.

♡ It’s just too bad if you like older men, because soon enough, you’re surrounded by younger men- and they plan to keep you with them for eternity.

[cal-daisies-and-briars]

Final theme is “past, present, future!”

🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️🧜‍♂️ (Past! As you know I absolutely love your buddie season two and beyond rewrites and I’m especially loving this one! Their shared secrets so early on into knowing each other just leading to even more trust and having each other’s backs on an even higher level! It’s beautiful! And I’m loving the reworking of Buck being able to go back to work much sooner but that post-injury struggle still manifesting with his mermaid form! It’s such a fun twist!)

⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️⚖️(Present! Or pretty much since it’s right around where we’re at in canon. Buck’s figuring out his freaky justice-vengeance powers! And of course his first plan as soon as he’s in control is to help his Diaz boys! Very classic Buck and I can’t wait to see how it all plays out!)

🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️🌤️(Future! Letting their future inspire them to accept that they deserve joy and will be able to keep it! Absolutely beautiful! Can’t wait to see them continue to enjoy their gorgeous life together and get back to their time to work on making it happen!)

I hope you have fun writing Cal! As always, sending lots of love and gratitude your way!!

- PCA <3

HEY! Doing this one next because I am quite desperate to finish Promising Light.

I hope you liked 🧜‍♂️!!!

102 for ⚖️(He sure is figuring things out for Chris and Eddie!):

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“Not all of it,” Buck agrees.

Eddie’s eyes narrow. “You saw something about me.”

Buck leaps to deny it, but he’s never been a very accomplished liar. Especially to those who know him well.

“No, I-”

“Don’t lie,” Eddie says.

Buck sighs. “Yeah, I did.”

Eddie’s expression falters. “Did I do something bad? When we first started hanging out, there were a few drunken nights I don’t really remember, but-”

“You didn’t,” Buck insists. “Not at all. Just… Around for something he did. Okay?”

Eddie looks troubled, still. 

“Eddie… Do you remember more than you maybe want to?” Buck says. “Because-”

“No,” Eddie says quickly. “No, I don’t.”

Eddie isn’t a great liar, either. Better than Buck. But Buck knows him pretty well. He remembers more than he’s saying. Does he remember what he said about Buck? Is he scared that Buck saw that, too?

“How about this?” Buck diffuses the situation. “I’ll tell you everything I saw after we go see Chris. I don’t want anything to distract from that.”

Eddie nods. “Okay. Alright, that makes sense.”

“I do have to tell you about Hen and Chim first, though,” Buck admits. 

“Wait, he did something to Hen and Chim?” Eddie gapes. 

“Oh yeah,” Buck grumbles. “Which was really all I needed to see to make a verdict. But I got to suffer the rest.”

“Should we kill him?” Eddie asks, only half-joking.

“Hmm, no. I think I got him good enough.”

iv. 

Over the next few days, Buck practices more and more. He chooses call victims. People who are hurt and in a bad spot. Who have just had something terrible happen to them. He can’t undo what has happened, but he can be part of their rescue, and ensure something good in their future. And it feels good. Not as addicting as doling out vengeance. But pretty damn good. It makes him feel content in a way he wouldn’t have expected, like his soul is at ease. 

So he keeps doing it. He does it whenever he can. And he feels better and better. It becomes less and less disruptive to his day. Until finally. Buck feels ready to try it on someone he cares about. 

“I don’t know who to start with,” Buck says to Eddie, the morning he decides to try. They have a four-off coming up soon. If he can confidently do this today, they can use that time to go see Chris. So Buck really wants to nail it.

“Not me,” Eddie says quickly. 

“Well, I know not you,” Buck says. They’d both agreed. Buck isn’t allowed to fix anything for Eddie before he does it for Chris. The best for Chris is what matters most. After that? Buck fully plans on making sure Eddie avoids every harm that might befall him. 

“As long as that’s still clear,” Eddie says.

“I know! That’s why I am asking you for help. Who do I pick?”

“Bobby?” Eddie suggests. “You always want to make Bobby happy.”

“I don’t know if I’m ready to see some of the… Uh… Harder parts of his life.”

Eddie winces. “That’s fair enough. Maddie?”

“Same thing,” Buck replies. 

Eddie snaps his fingers. “What about Chim? You could help him, Maddie, and Jee. And, pretty sure his life has been a little less fucked up. I think.”

Buck considers. “That’s a good idea. Plus, he deserves a break after wedding encephalitis.” 

“Ah, yes. The rare strain.”

“Shut up, you know what I mean,” Buck grumbles. 

“Yeah, I do. Chim deserves the best,” Eddie says. “No matter what.”

And Buck agrees. Wholeheartedly, he agrees. All he has to do is find a natural, not weird reason to touch Chim, for even a second, at some point today. 

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It’s strange, because they’re a decently touchy group. They’re all tactile. High-fives. Pats on the shoulder. Playful punches in the arm. The works. But for whatever reason, Buck feels sort of paralyzed trying to figure out how to naturally touch Chim. It should be easy. Second nature.

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The most he can think to do is ask him questions. Ask him normal, not alarming things about himself. Things that won’t mean anything to Nico, but that Buck can store away forever.

“How was school?”

“Good! Fun! Except Kyla fell off the swing and hurt her knee.”

That sucks for Kyla, whoever that is. Hopefully a child. 

“Did you learn anything new?”

“Umm, I put blue paint on yellow paint and it turned green.”

He talks quick and fast, words blending together, like he’s desperate to get them out of his mouth. Eddie looks between them both and smiles. Yeah, yeah. Buck gets it. He does that. 

“Wow, buddy. That’s pretty cool.”

It goes on and on like that. He asks him what he thinks of everything they do. Every piece of food they eat. Other, random things. He learns as much as he can about Nico. His favorite color is ‘sometimes orange.’ His favorite animal is a chimpanzee. His favorite person is Bobby. Okay? Ouch. But a good choice anyway. His favorite TV show is something Buck has never heard of. He likes the old Disney Tarzan movie. He wants to go to the arctic. Why? Classified apparently, because he just shrugs. By the time the clock warns Nico’s bedtime is approaching, Buck’s brain feels stuffed with little tidbits. 

He doesn’t want it to end. But it has to. It has to end, if it’s ever going to begin. 

“You tuck him in,” Eddie says again. “I mean, unless you want me there, but… Maybe take the moment alone?”

“Bailing on bed time duty a second night in a row?” Buck jokes weakly.

Eddie rolls his eyes. “Put it on my credit.”

“Interest rates go up,” Buck warns. But he doesn’t complain. He agrees, even. He wants to say goodbye alone. It’ll be good to have that moment for himself. Him and the son he hopes he’ll get to meet again someday.

Eddie hugs Nico goodnight. Kisses the top of his head. Tells him he hopes he has sweet dreams. It’s all very normal. Affectionate, to be sure. Not cold or distant at all. But normal. All the hallmarks of a man who has learned to hide any complicated emotions from a little kid, and also who has his head wrapped around stepping out of this fantasy. Buck’s own mindset isn’t so straightforward.

“I’m going to call Chris,” Eddie whispers to Buck before Buck heads to Nico’s room. “And, uh… Explain.”

Ah. Yeah. That’s the goodbye to the son he hopes he’s going to see again. Sooner. And far more likely. Buck gets it. 

Buck smiles thinly. “Tell him I love him. And that I was so happy to… You know.”

Meet him like this. 

Eddie nods. “I will.”

“See you soon,” Buck exhales heavily. 

Then he walks off to tuck Nico into bed. Something we won’t get to do again for years. 

Buck doesn’t rush it. Maybe it would be better to. Less painful. Shut the door and tear the bandaid and… And run. Run backwards until he can run forwards, right back to this moment in time. But he just can’t bring himself to do it. He takes every second he can. 

He reads three stories, despite Nico reminding him good-naturedly that the limit is usually too. He lingers after, stroking his hair the way he had the night before. 

“I’m sleepy, Daddy,” Nico yawns, falling asleep with his head tucked against Buck’s chest.

“I know,” Buck sighs. “I’m sorry. I’m keeping you awake.”

“It’s bedtime,” Nico says. 

“You’re right,” Buck says. He kisses his head. “Sorry, buddy. I’m just going to miss you, is all.”

Nico gives him a funny, sleepy little smile. 

“It’s okay, Daddy. I’ll see you tomorrow.”

Buck’s throat tightens. 

“You will, Nico. You will see me tomorrow.”

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Eddie ends his call with Christopher around the same time as Buck emerges from Nico’s room. His eyes are red and puffy, irises gone bright. Eddie’s heart sinks. He knew it would hurt him. He knew. Eddie tried to avoid any additional heartache. But he gets it. He gets why Buck handled this the way he did. Eddie doesn’t know how he’d be, if he had to go back to a world without Chris entirely.

“You okay?” Eddie asks gently. A stupid question, really. He knows he’s not.

[niallerspayno]

Between the Lines - Chapter Nine

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The click of your door handle makes you glance up from your laptop just in time to see Louis stroll in, his grin so wide and mischievous that you know immediately he’s up to something.

“Don’t you knock?” you ask, raising an eyebrow as you lean back against the couch.

He ignores your question, plopping down beside you. “Still working? You’re killing me, love. Come on, live a little.”

You roll your eyes. “Some of us have deadlines, Louis.”

He sighs dramatically. “Deadlines. Responsibilities. Boring, boring words. You’ve been so serious lately. It’s not you.”

“It is me,” you retort, closing your laptop because you already know where this conversation is going.

“Nope. Not the real you,” Louis says, his grin widening. “The real you just needs a little push. A little spark of fun.”

“Fun that’ll get me in trouble, you mean?” you ask, folding your arms.

He shrugs, unbothered. “The best kind of fun.”

Despite your better judgment, you feel your resolve cracking. Louis always has that effect on you. You’d sworn to keep him at arm’s length after everything lately, but he’s like gravity—you can’t resist him.

“Alright,” you say finally, sighing as you stand. “But if this ends with me getting grounded by Paul again, I’m blaming you.”

“You always do,” he quips, springing to his feet and grabbing your hand. “Come on, we’ve got a mission to complete.”

…

The plan is pure Louis: simple, chaotic, and doomed to get caught. Liam’s duffel bag, left unattended in the hallway, is the perfect target for a whipped cream ambush.

“You’re ridiculous,” you whisper, holding the bag open while Louis shakes the can with glee.

“Ridiculously brilliant,” he corrects, spraying foam into the bag with an artist’s precision. “And don’t act like you’re not loving this.”

You’re about to protest, but the truth is, you are enjoying it. The adrenaline, the silliness—it’s a welcome distraction from the heaviness of the last few weeks.

But as you’re sneaking back toward the elevator, disaster strikes. Your foot catches on the edge of a suitcase, and before you can catch yourself, you’re falling backward. The impact sends pain shooting through your ankle, and a sharp cry escapes your lips.

Louis is at your side in an instant, his face pale with worry. “Shit. Are you alright?”

“I don’t know,” you admit through gritted teeth, clutching your ankle.

“Stay here. I’ll get someone—”

Before he can finish, the elevator dings, and Niall steps out, his expression instantly darkening when he sees you on the floor.

“What the hell is going on?” Niall demands, his voice sharp enough to cut glass as he strides over.

“She tripped,” Louis says quickly, his hands raised in defense.

“Doing what?” Niall growls, his gaze flicking between you and Louis.

“It was just a prank—”

“A prank?” Niall’s voice rises, his accent thick with anger. “Are you serious, Louis? She’s not your bloody sidekick!”

“Alright, calm down—”

“Don’t you dare tell me to calm down,” Niall snaps, kneeling beside you. His hands hover over your ankle, careful but shaking slightly. “Are you hurt? Can you move it?”

“I think it’s just a twist,” you say softly, trying to diffuse the tension.

“See? She’s fine,” Louis says, though his voice lacks its usual confidence.

“Fine?” Niall looks up, his blue eyes blazing. “She could’ve been seriously hurt! This isn’t a game, Louis. You can’t keep dragging her into your crap!”

“She wanted to do it!” Louis fires back, his temper flaring now. “She’s not a kid, Niall. She makes her own choices.”

“Not when you’re pressuring her!” Niall snaps.

“Enough!” you shout, the sound cutting through their argument. Both of them freeze, their attention snapping to you. “I’m fine. And I agreed to the prank. It wasn’t Louis’ fault.”

“That doesn’t mean he’s not reckless,” Niall mutters, his voice quieter but no less angry.

“And it doesn’t mean you get to talk to him like that,” you retort, your tone sharp enough to surprise both of them. “He didn’t force me to do anything.”

Louis gives you a small, grateful look, but the tension between the three of you is thick as you try to stand.

“Alright,” Niall says, his voice tight. “Let’s get you back to your room. And then we’re done with this pranking nonsense, yeah?”

You don’t answer, leaning on him as you limp away, feeling Louis’ gaze heavy on your back.

Niall helps you to your room, his arm gently but firmly supporting your shoulders. Despite your protests, he insists on guiding you the whole way, his brows furrowed in frustration. You know he’s angry—not just at Louis, but because he hates seeing you hurt.

“Just sit down,” he orders softly as he helps you to the edge of the bed. His voice is gentler now, though you can hear the underlying tension.

You wince slightly as you sit, and Niall’s gaze drops to your ankle, now swollen from the fall. “Let me grab the ice pack,” he mutters, rushing off to the bathroom without another word.

As you wait, the silence between you two is palpable. You feel his worry in the way his movements are rushed, almost panicked. It’s sweet in a way, but it also reminds you how overprotective he can be. The last thing you want is for him to feel like you need to be coddled. You’re not a child anymore.

When he returns, he sits next to you on the bed, carefully placing the ice pack on your ankle. His touch is gentle, but there’s an edge to it now, as if he’s holding back something. His lips press together, a clear sign that his mind is still racing with thoughts.

“You know, I can’t believe Louis sometimes,” Niall begins, his voice tinged with frustration. “He never thinks before he acts. What if you’d really hurt yourself, huh? What would he have done then?”

You flinch, suddenly irritated by his tone. You know he’s just trying to protect you, but he’s missing something.

“I didn’t really hurt myself, Niall. It was a sprain. I’m fine,” you snap, your voice sharper than you intended.

He looks at you, eyes widening. “But that’s not the point! He put you in that position—he pushed you into that prank, and now you’re hurt because of it!”

“I didn’t have to do it,” you fire back, frustration rising in your chest. “I’m not some helpless child, Niall. I agreed to it. It was an accident. And honestly, I’m fine.”

He stares at you, incredulous. “You’re defending him? After everything? He doesn’t care about you like I do. He never will.”

You bite your lip, trying to hold back the rush of emotions threatening to spill over. You care for Niall—so much—but you also have to be true to yourself. You can’t keep relying on him to fix everything.

“I’m not defending him, Niall,” you say, your voice trembling slightly. “I’m just… I’m just saying it was an accident. It wasn’t his fault.”

Niall’s jaw clenches, and you can see the hurt flicker in his eyes. It stings you more than you want to admit. You hate seeing him upset, especially when it’s because of something you said.

“But I thought—” He stops himself, taking a deep breath. “I thought we were getting back to normal. That we were on the same page again. And now you’re defending him like—like you don’t need me anymore.”

The words hit you like a punch to the stomach. You weren’t trying to make him feel that way. The last thing you want is to make Niall feel unimportant to you.

“I do need you, Niall. You’re my best friend,” you whisper, reaching for his hand, but he pulls back, shaking his head.

“No,” he says softly, standing up. “I’m not just your best friend anymore. Not like this. Not after everything that’s happened. And maybe I shouldn’t have been waiting for you to see that.”

The pain in his voice is clear, and it breaks something inside of you. You want to explain, to make him understand that you never meant to hurt him, but you can’t find the right words.

“You’re right,” he says, his voice distant. “You’re not a child, and you don’t need me to protect you. I can’t keep doing this.”

His words hit you like a wave, sweeping over you with an intensity you weren’t prepared for. You watch him as he grabs his jacket and heads for the door, your heart sinking with every step.

“Niall, wait—”

But he’s already gone. The door clicks shut behind him, leaving you in a heavy silence that feels impossible to fill. You sit on the bed, your heart racing, and you realize just how much you’ve hurt him. The last thing you ever wanted was to push him away.

But now, it feels like you’ve done just that. And the emptiness that fills the space between you is almost unbearable.

…

You’re sitting on the edge of your bed, still feeling the weight of Niall’s words, when you hear a soft knock on your door. You hesitate for a moment before the door creaks open, and Liam, Harry, and Zayn poke their heads in. They’re all wearing concerned expressions, clearly aware of both your injury and the tension surrounding it.

Liam’s the first to speak, his voice light, though you can sense the underlying worry. “How’s the ankle? You okay?” He takes a few cautious steps into the room, his eyes flicking to your leg where the ice pack rests, still pressing down on the swollen joint.

“I’m fine,” you assure him, though the words feel hollow in your chest. The pain in your ankle is nothing compared to the ache in your heart after the argument with Niall. “Just a little sore.”

Harry leans against the doorframe with a raised eyebrow. “We heard about the whole situation with Niall and Louis, too. You doing okay with all of that?” He says it with a knowing glance between him and Zayn.

You sigh deeply, letting your shoulders slump slightly. “It’s been a mess,” you admit, voice quieter than you’d like it to be. “Niall’s mad at Louis, and now he’s mad at me too.”

Liam makes his way over to sit beside you on the bed, giving you a moment to collect your thoughts. “I heard the prank was… well, let’s just say it affected my luggage in ways I wasn’t planning on,” he says with a half-smile, trying to lighten the mood. “But it’s no big deal. You’re still you, and I know you didn’t mean for anyone to get hurt.”

You chuckle softly, appreciating his attempt at humor, but the smile fades quickly. “I know I didn’t mean to get hurt, but… Niall’s really upset. I think he feels like I’m not thinking about him anymore, and I just… I don’t know how to fix that.”

Zayn sits down in the chair near the window, crossing his arms with a concerned expression. “You’re not ruining anything, you know,” he says, his voice soft but firm. “Niall’s your best friend. He’ll get over this. He’s just got his own stuff going on. But if you don’t talk to him, it’s not going to get better.”

Liam nods in agreement, though his eyes are still focused on you. “Yeah, mate. You’re a team. You’ve been through worse than this.” He leans forward, looking at you more seriously. “But that’s not all of it, is it? What about Louis?”

You swallow hard, the name making your heart twist. “I’m not mad at him for the prank. I mean, yeah, it was reckless, but it was an accident. I… I don’t blame him for what happened.” You glance down at your hands, picking at your fingernails in an attempt to steady your racing thoughts. “It’s just everything else that’s going on… with them.”

Harry steps into the room fully now, moving to sit beside Zayn. “What exactly is going on with them? You’ve been so caught up in all this drama, it’s been hard to keep track.”

You take a deep breath, turning your gaze to Liam first, then Harry, and finally Zayn. “I don’t know where I stand with either of them, really. Niall’s my best friend, and I know I’ve hurt him, but… then there’s Louis. I don’t know how to feel about him anymore. He’s always been the reckless one, and part of me appreciates that. It’s exciting. But… I also care about Niall. I don’t want to hurt him, but I don’t want to feel guilty for spending time with Louis either.”

Liam runs a hand through his hair, clearly struggling to understand your position. “Look, I can’t tell you what to do. But you can’t keep avoiding the problem. You need to figure out what you want before you hurt them both more.”

You nod, feeling overwhelmed. “I’m trying. I just wish it was simpler. I just wish they could understand…” Your voice trails off, too tired to finish the thought.

Zayn stands up from the chair and walks over to where you’re sitting. His hand rests on your shoulder in a comforting gesture, his voice soft but filled with sincerity. “Look, love… they’ll understand. But you can’t keep bottling this all up. You need to talk to them. Both of them.”

Harry’s smile is gentle, and he nods in agreement. “We’re here for you, no matter what happens with them. But don’t let this mess sit for too long. You deserve to feel heard, and so do they.”

Liam glances at the clock on the wall and stands up, giving you one last look before heading for the door. “I’ll leave you to it. But if you ever need to talk, we’re all here. No matter what you decide.”

You manage a small smile, feeling the weight on your shoulders ease just a little bit. “Thanks. All of you. I just… I need some time to think it through.”

As the door closes behind them, you’re left alone with your thoughts again, but this time, there’s a sense of clarity. You know you can’t keep avoiding the issue, not with Niall, and certainly not with Louis. But how do you navigate this tangled mess?

…

It’s past midnight when the knock on the door wakes you from a light doze. Your ankle throbs as you shift under the covers, and you wince at the pain, barely able to move it without discomfort. You weren’t expecting anyone, not at this hour, and for a moment, you wonder if your mind’s playing tricks on you.

But then it comes again—the soft, almost hesitant knock.

You push yourself upright carefully, your injured foot staying tucked beneath the blankets, the pressure of standing too much for your sprained ankle. Instead, you call out, your voice faint with a mix of confusion and exhaustion.

“Come in.”

The door creaks open, and you don’t even need to see who it is. You recognize the familiar shuffle of Louis’s footsteps before he speaks.

“I… I’m sorry to wake you.” His voice is low, and there’s a note of guilt that laces through his words. He stands in the doorway, his figure cast in shadow, but you can feel the heaviness in the air as he steps into the room. “I just… I needed to check on you.”

You shift uncomfortably in the bed, not sure how to respond. But you can see it in his face—Louis is clearly on edge. He’s here, apologizing for something he feels responsible for, even though you’ve told him it wasn’t his fault. You breathe in slowly, trying to shake the weight of everything that happened that day—the prank, the fight with Niall, the pain in your ankle—but all of it feels too close, too fresh.

“I wasn’t sure if you wanted to talk,” Louis continues, his voice trailing off as he watches you. “But… I couldn’t just leave things like they are.”

Your heart aches at the sincerity in his words, at the vulnerability you don’t often see from him. You offer him a small smile, though it’s bittersweet. You still don’t know what to say, or what you’re feeling. The mess of it all feels too complicated. Too much.

“It’s okay, Louis,” you murmur, your voice soft, yet a little raw from everything that’s happened. “You don’t need to apologize. It wasn’t your fault. It was an accident.”

He steps closer, lowering his gaze. “Still, I should’ve known better. I never meant for you to get hurt. I just… I wanted to make you laugh, not… hurt you.”

You try to reassure him, even as a small wave of frustration stirs within you. “Louis, it’s fine. Really. I’m okay. Just… maybe not for a while. I don’t want to talk about that right now.” You rub your temples lightly, a subtle attempt to ease the tension that’s building behind your eyes.

Louis hesitates, clearly weighing whether to push, but he seems to sense that you need something else. He bites his lip, then nods quietly, his gaze flicking down to your swollen ankle.

“I just—” he pauses. “I know you’re upset. And I get it. But… if you want, I can stay. I won’t talk about anything serious. I just don’t want you to be alone right now.”

You let out a breath, the weight of the day finally catching up with you. There’s a lump in your throat, and suddenly, you feel too small under the burden of your thoughts. You don’t want to be alone. Not now. Not tonight.

You nod, the quiet sincerity of his offer making your chest tighten.

“Okay,” you say softly, your voice almost a whisper. “I’d like that.”

Without another word, Louis moves to sit on the edge of the bed. He doesn’t rush. There’s something gentle in the way he settles himself next to you, pulling the covers down slightly as he lies beside you, keeping a careful distance but radiating warmth. He turns onto his side so that he’s facing you, his expression soft, not like the teasing or mischievous Louis you’re so used to seeing, but someone more tender, more… protective.

The shift catches you off guard, and for a second, you just look at him—at how different he seems. He doesn’t push. He just… is here, quietly present, offering you the comfort you didn’t realize you needed until now.

“Is this okay?” Louis asks, his voice quiet, almost cautious, as he reaches for the blanket and gently tugs it over both of you. His fingers brush against yours, and it’s soft—just a simple touch, but it feels so grounding in the chaos that’s been your day.

“Yeah,” you breathe, the exhaustion making your eyelids heavy. “I… I just need some quiet. I need… some time.”

Louis doesn’t reply at first. Instead, he scoots a little closer, careful of your injury, until his arm finds its way around you, pulling you gently against him. You stiffen slightly at the contact, but then you let go of the tension, letting yourself relax, feeling the warmth of his chest against your back. The slow, steady rhythm of his breathing fills the space between you, and it’s the comfort you didn’t know you were craving.

His hand rests lightly on your waist, fingers brushing the skin of your shirt as he shifts again, carefully adjusting until you’re both nestled under the blanket, the world outside muted and distant.

“You can sleep, you know,” he murmurs softly, his voice warm against your ear. “I’ve got you. You’re safe.”

You close your eyes, sinking deeper into the mattress, the gentle press of his body a soothing weight. It’s not the same as being alone, but it’s exactly what you need right now—someone who understands you without asking too much.

The quiet stretches on, and you feel the tension of the day start to dissipate. Slowly, your breathing evens out, and your mind quiets for the first time all day.

Louis doesn’t say anything more. He simply holds you as you fall asleep, his hand resting softly on your side, a steady, grounding presence that pulls you into the softness of slumber. In his arms, you feel like maybe, just maybe, things will be okay.

You don’t know what the future holds, but for now, you can rest.

…

The morning light filters softly through the curtains as you slowly wake, warmth enveloping you. You’re still in Louis’ arms, his chest rising and falling in a steady rhythm beneath you. For a moment, you let yourself just bask in the peace, the steady sound of his breathing grounding you, calming the turbulence that’s been swirling inside you for days.

You don’t want to move, not yet, but eventually, you have to. Carefully, you slip out of bed, wincing slightly as you put weight on your sprained ankle. The movement doesn’t go unnoticed, though Louis is still asleep, a faint smile lingering on his lips.

You’re unsure how much time has passed, but it feels like you’ve been in this bubble, suspended in a moment of calm. You take a breath, reminding yourself that you need to face everything today. Slowly, you ease yourself to the bathroom, preparing for another day of dealing with the band and the aftermath of yesterday’s drama. When you return, Louis is sitting up, rubbing his eyes, still looking a little sleepy but instantly alert when he sees you.

“Morning,” he says, his voice low and warm, laced with the softness you haven’t heard from him in a while.

You nod, offering a small smile. “Morning.”

He stretches, a teasing grin forming on his lips. “You know, I could just carry you to breakfast?” he offers, his voice full of mischief.

You raise an eyebrow, eyeing him suspiciously. “What’s the catch?”

“No catch,” he says, standing up and walking toward you, his smile never faltering. “Just want to be a good friend.”

You can’t help but laugh, the absurdity of it all lightening the mood. “Fine,” you say, rolling your eyes. “But I’m not letting you get away with it.”

Before you can protest further, Louis scoops you up effortlessly, his arms strong and secure around you as he hoists you onto his back. You can’t suppress the laugh that bubbles up, even as you wrap your arms around his neck to steady yourself.

“I swear you never stop with the antics,” you tease, your voice full of warmth.

“You love it,” he retorts, his tone playful as he starts walking toward the door.

The trip to the dining area is filled with laughter, the sound of it filling the hallway as you lean into him. Despite everything that’s happened, despite the unresolved tension between you and the others, right now, it’s just the two of you, and that feels good.

When you enter the dining area, the rest of the band is already sitting at the table, chatting casually. The light atmosphere doesn’t last long, though. You catch Niall’s eye and immediately sense the shift in his mood. He’s quiet, his jaw tight as he stirs his coffee.

Louis sets you down gently, and as he steps back, he slings an arm around your shoulders, giving you a small, reassuring squeeze. You look around the table, trying to gauge everyone’s mood, but it’s Niall’s silence that feels the heaviest.

Liam, always the peacemaker, is the first to speak, keeping things light. “Morning, you two,” he says, his voice bright. “Louis, I hope you’re not planning on carrying her everywhere.”

Louis laughs, clearly unfazed. “If it helps her rest her ankle, I’ll do it all tour long.”

The group chuckles, but you notice Niall’s eyes flicker between you and Louis. He’s still quiet, and his lack of words is loud in its own way. He hasn’t spoken to you since the argument yesterday, and his gaze, though unreadable, feels like a storm brewing.

Zayn chimes in with a joke, trying to lighten the mood. “It’s not the first time we’ve seen Louis acting like this. He’s been known to be a bit of a drama queen.”

You laugh along with the others, but the moment you glance at Niall again, his expression doesn’t change. His silence speaks volumes.

You can feel the weight of his unspoken words, the tension between the two of you thick in the air. It’s hard, navigating the fallout from yesterday, and it feels like you’re walking a tightrope. Between Niall’s hurt and Louis’ proximity, it’s all becoming more difficult to balance.

Niall’s voice finally breaks the silence, but his words aren’t directed at anyone in particular. “I’m just… I’m not hungry,” he says, pushing his plate aside.

You feel a pang in your chest at his words. He’s pulling away, retreating again, and you can’t help but wonder if this is the beginning of something even harder to fix.

“I’ll grab something later,” Niall adds, standing abruptly and leaving the table without another glance at you.

Louis raises an eyebrow, clearly sensing the shift in the air. “What’s up with him?” he asks, though his voice doesn’t hold judgment, just curiosity.

“I think you know,” you say softly, your heart aching. You want to say more, to explain everything, but the words aren’t there yet. Not today.

Liam gives you a sympathetic look before turning to the others. “Let’s just eat, yeah? Niall’s got a lot on his mind. We all do.”

You nod, but the weight of it lingers, a cloud hanging over the table. And you’re left wondering, once again, just where you stand with everyone.

…

Next chapter

[beefromanoff]

Project Mockingbird Ch. 15

summary: the tension...is palpable. but maybe a breakthrough?

pairing: Bucky Barnes x OC

author's note: TWO IN ONE WEEK! I love seeing everyone's responses to this story! it's so fun to write, and it's definitely heating up. let me know what you think!

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The sterile air of the training room hummed with a tension that felt almost palpable. Bucky stood, arms crossed, in front of a giant digital screen displaying a complex urban environment. Charlotte, her focus intense, studied the map that sprawled before her. It had only been two days since the attack on the compound, and though she’d been released to sleep in her own bed the first night, she wasn’t cleared for combat training until her broken ribs had healed and the stitches had been removed from her leg. She’d opted to return to lessons with Bucky almost immediately, despite their spat in the medical wing. Her desire to avoid being alone with her thoughts was stronger than her desire to avoid him. 

He wore his normal daily attire: tactical pants and combat boots, a snug black shirt hugging his chest. Charlotte wore almost identical garb, with loose cargo pants the most comfortable to wear over the bandaging on her leg. 

"Okay," Bucky began, his voice steady, "you have your objective. Hostage situation, downtown area, high civilian presence. Minimal casualties, maximum stealth. Your move."

Charlotte paused for a moment before pointing to a section of the map, tracing a potential entry route. "Rooftop entry here. We can use the neighboring building as a vantage point."

Bucky shook his head. "Too exposed. Snipers could easily pin you down. Next."

She bit her lip, her frustration growing, then suggested, "What about a distraction? Create a diversion on the opposite block to draw them out."

"And risk civilian casualties? Not an option. Think, Charlotte."

She took a deep breath, regrouping, before offering another handful of potential ways to diffuse the situation. With each suggestion shot down, Charlotte's strategies grew more audacious, her patience thinning. As her ideas got sloppier, Bucky’s feedback got more critical. 

“You do that and you might as well just surrender now. They’d see you coming a mile away and have all their forces ready to ambush you. Are you prepared to send your whole team into a blatant trap? You’re not even thinking this through.” He shook his head, running a hand through his hair.

Finally, she snapped. "What do you want from me, Bucky? To pull some genius plan out of thin air? You're not giving me anything to work with!"

Bucky, unyielding, leaned forward until his face was inches from hers. "I want you to think. Real situations won't give you 'anything to work with' either. You need to adapt, improvise, and most importantly, keep those hostages and your team safe."

Charlotte's eyes blazed. "You think I don't know that? You're acting like I'm some rookie who's never faced a real threat!"

“Last time I checked, you are a rookie. When was the last mission you came on?” Bucky's tone hardened. "I'm trying to prepare you for situations where there might not be a clear right answer. You think I don't see your potential? I do. But potential's not enough when the lives of people you care about are on the line. You need to be strategic, not just brave. If you run into an escalated situation with nothing but ‘kick ass’ in your arsenal, you’re going to get yourself killed."

The air between them crackled with tension as Charlotte threw her hands in the air. "Oh, so now you're the world’s leading expert on nonviolent negotiations? Last time I checked, only one of us  has ‘World’s Deadliest’ on our resume and it isn’t me.” She didn’t shy away, getting even closer to his face. “Tell me how much strategy came into play then, Soldat."

The words hung heavy, a low blow that cut incredibly deep. Bucky's face tightened, a flicker of old pain in his eyes as he set his jaw. If looks could kill, she had a feeling she’d have already taken her last breath. Instead of the verbal lashing she expected, he took a slow breath before stepping back.

"That's not fair, Charlotte, and you know it," he replied, his voice low but sharp enough to slice through the tension.

Charlotte, her chest heaving with a mix of anger and regret, met his gaze. The room felt smaller, the air thicker.

"I—" She began, then stopped. What was she doing? This was Bucky, who'd risked everything, who'd been through hell and back. And here she was, using his past against him. "I'm sorry," she said, the words feeling inadequate. "That was out of line."

But Bucky's demeanor had already shifted. He looked at her, his gaze piercing, and for a moment, Charlotte thought she saw a flicker of something more—anger, betrayal, perhaps even hurt. But it was gone as quickly as it appeared, shuttered behind the steel walls he was so adept at erecting.

"Yeah," Bucky finally said, his voice cold and distant. "It was."

Without another word, he turned on his heel and walked briskly away. The sound of his boots against the floor echoed in the large room, each step thundering through her. Charlotte watched him go, her heart sinking. She wanted to call out, to apologize again, to explain that her words had come from a place of frustration and fear, not malice. But the words stuck in her throat, tangled up with her pride and the lingering sting of their argument.

As the door slid shut behind him, leaving her alone in the silence of the training room, a mix of emotions roiled within her. Guilt for having crossed a line, anger at Bucky for being so impossibly difficult to work with, and beneath it all, a gnawing fear that she had just irreparably damaged whatever fragile connection they had been building. 

She sank down onto a nearby bench, her injured leg protesting the sudden movement. The physical pain was nothing compared to the turmoil swirling inside her. She had wanted to prove herself, to show Bucky—and maybe, more importantly, herself—that she was capable, that she wasn't the weak link. Instead, she had let her temper get the best of her, lashing out in the worst possible way. The worst part? She really was trying. All of her suggestions, at least the early ones, were instinctive. Had she been in the heat of a mission, thinking on the spot, she would have acted on them. Acted on them and gotten people killed, as Bucky was so keen on reminding her. Goddamn him, this was difficult for her. She didn’t come from a military background before her capture by HYDRA, and she didn’t have years with Earth’s Mightiest Heroes honing her skills. She knew how to fight, how to survive, as she’d proven time and time again. Yet, all he seemed to be able to see was where she fell short. Brute strength and violence had gotten him through some of the worst horrors known to man, and here he was, telling her that wouldn’t be enough. Well, it would have to be. That was all she had. 

The room felt oppressively large now, the echoes of their argument bouncing off the walls, a reminder of how quickly things had spiraled out of control, as they always seemed to do. Charlotte wrapped her arms around herself, a futile attempt to ward off the chill that had nothing to do with the temperature of the room.

______

The night air was crisp, and the lake below was a reflection of the starlit sky as Charlotte stood alone on the balcony, wrapped in her thoughts and an oversized sweatshirt. The events of the day had left her raw, her emotions a tangle of frustration, guilt, and an indefinable ache that seemed to pulse with the night. She’d avoided the common room until she knew Bucky would be in training with the SHIELD agents, then shut herself in her room until after dinner, leaving only to get herself the plate of food she knew Natasha had left in the fridge for her. After another failed attempt to sleep, she’d awoken in a cold sweat and found her way out to the balcony. 

Behind her, the sliding door whispered open, and she stiffened, half-expecting another attack. But when she whirled around, already setting her feet in a defensive posture, it was to find Bucky standing there with two steaming cups of coffee in his hands. The panic must have shown on her face because he raised the mugs candidly, showing the peace offering. 

"Vanilla, extra cream," he said, extending one of the cups towards her. The gesture was so unexpected, so gentle after their harsh words earlier, that Charlotte found herself momentarily lost for words. She couldn’t remember ever telling him how she took her coffee, and yet here it was, smelling perfectly sweet and familiar.

She took the cup, feeling the warmth seep into her fingers. "Bucky, I—I need to apologize. For earlier. I was so out of line," she started, but Bucky shook his head, cutting her off.

"No," he said firmly, "I pushed you too hard. I haven't been fair to you, haven't given you the credit you deserve." He leaned on the balcony railing, his gaze distant, reflective. "You saved the compound, Charlotte. While we were off chasing ghosts, you...you showed you have what it takes. In the heat of the moment, you did what you had to, and you saved lives." He tilted his head to meet her eyes. “You risked your own. I just…don’t want you to have to do that again.”

Charlotte's facade crumbled, her carefully constructed walls falling away as tears welled in her eyes. "What's wrong?" Bucky asked, brows furrowing in concern.

"I just... I didn't feel prepared," she admitted, her voice trembling with emotion. "I was terrified the whole time, and I had no idea what I was doing. Everyone keeps calling me a hero, and I don’t…I’m not one.”

Bucky's head tilted as he took a step closer, his gaze searching hers. "You did great out there, Charlotte. You saved this whole place, and the lives of everyone in it."

Charlotte shook her head, a bitter laugh escaping her lips as the tears spilled over. "Did I? Or was it just dumb luck?"

Bucky reached out, gently cupping her cheek and wiping away her tears with his thumb. "Hey, don't say that. You were incredible. You held your own against HYDRA."

“I was scared shitless. I kept thinking how it was my fault. My fault they came here in the first place, and it would be my fault that the compound fell while you were gone. The whole time, I was just…making it up as I went.” She laughed coldly again, looking up to blink back tears. “Everyone keeps acting like I did something amazing, when we both know I only survived because of you. You’re the only one who sees through me, sees that I don’t have a fucking clue what I’m doing and I hate it. I wish you weren’t right, but you have been. Every single goddamn time.” She angrily wiped her tears with the sleeve of her sweatshirt.

Watching her, sensing she wasn’t done, Bucky’s hand rested reassuringly on her shoulder. 

Charlotte looked down into her mug, seeing her reflection warped on the surface of the liquid. "I felt terrified," she confessed, her voice barely above a whisper. "Confused, lost. It all felt so... unnatural. I was second-guessing every decision, worried I was making the wrong move." She stared blankly ahead, eyes unseeing as her gaze looked somewhere past the lake. "I took it as a sign that I'd never make a good Avenger."

Bucky leaned back down over the railing, frowning at her. "Do you think you're the only one who feels that way? Even after hundreds of missions, there are times I'm still scared, still doubting." He paused, searching her face. "That fear, that uncertainty, it doesn't make you weak. It makes you human. And it's what makes you think, makes you evaluate and choose the best path forward, even when it's hard. It doesn’t mean you’re not cut out for this…it just means you actually give a shit about what you’re doing."

Charlotte met his gaze, and in that moment, a connection forged in the heat of conflict and cooled in the calm of understanding passed between them. The swift forgiveness of her incredibly cruel words. The raw, brutal honesty. The peace offering. The lack of judgment as she broke down in front of him. "I guess we're just trying to do our best, huh?" she said, a tentative, watery smile touching her lips.

"Yeah," Bucky agreed, his voice soft but steady. "We're all just trying to do our best.”

Charlotte stared ahead, taking a slow sip of her coffee. Bucky studied her for a moment, his gaze searching. "Why are you up so late, Char?" he asked quietly.

She hesitated, the words catching in her throat for a moment before she spoke. "Nightmares," she admitted quietly. "I’ve always had them, but they've been worse since... since the attack. I see all the other outcomes, if I’d failed. Tonight I dreamt that they got me, took me back there. That’s the worst one. Sometimes I have to get outside, under the stars and fresh air, just to remind myself that I'm free."

Bucky's expression softened, a flicker of understanding passing through his eyes. "I know what you mean," he said, his voice low. "I still get them too. I imagine that I wake up from cryo, and this was all a dream, that I was never free. That’s my worst one.” 

Their eyes met, a rare moment when both of their walls had come down. Their looks mirrored each other, vulnerable and bare, waiting for the other to make one wrong move and get shut back out. Neither of them spoke. Even speaking the contents of her nightmares aloud had made Charlotte’s hands tremble, and she took a deep breath, her fingers tightening around the warm ceramic of her coffee cup. Breaking their gaze, she looked back out into the expansive night sky.

"Are you...scared? Now that they’re back?" she asked hesitantly, her voice barely above a whisper.

Bucky didn't hesitate. "Shitless.”

Charlotte reached out, her hand finding his on the railing. She expected him to pull away, to retreat into himself as he so often did. But to her surprise, he didn't. Instead, he tightened his grip, his thumb tracing small circles on the back of her hand.

They sat in silence as the night stretched on around them, finding solace in each other's presence. They had no answers, no reprieve in sleep, not even peace in their home, but they had a hand to hold onto, anchoring them in their fear. And with it, they found a flicker of hope, a glimmer of light in the darkness that threatened to consume them both.

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The Avengers' kitchen was a hive of activity, with pots clanging, eggs frying, and the aroma of breakfast filling the air. The team members moved about with practiced ease, each contributing to the morning chaos in their own way.

Sam, wielding a spatula like a pro, called out to Natasha, who was expertly flipping pancakes on the griddle. "Hey, Nat, you sure you didn't miss your calling as a short-order cook?" he teased, earning a laugh from the others.

“Maybe in the next life,” She winked, flipping another perfect pancake.

Steve couldn't resist chiming in from his post by the toaster. "I don't know, Sam. I think I’ve got her beat," he quipped, waving his burnt toast in the air. Charlotte wrinkled her nose as she walked past it, the bitter smell assaulting her. 

“Good morning sunshine,” Sam called before resuming his whistling, clearly in a great mood. Charlotte wondered if he’d just gotten back from Calla’s apartment, and when they’d stop splitting their time now that the secret of their relationship was out. She made a note to ask her friend later.

Bucky, already stationed by the coffee pot, flashed a grin as Charlotte waltzed up. "Coffee?" he offered, holding out a mug with a knowing look.

Charlotte raised an eyebrow, smirking. "Second coffee in less than twelve hours?”

Bucky shrugged nonchalantly. "Don’t get used to it," he deadpanned.

“Don’t be such a good barista.” She teased, sipping from her mug before hopping onto the counter beside him.

Their exchange didn't go unnoticed by the rest of the team, who exchanged knowing glances and playful nudges as they observed the interaction.

Sam couldn't resist a quip. "Well, would you look at that? Bucky's finally learned how to share," he teased.

Natasha smirked, shooting Bucky a pointed look. "I guess miracles really do happen.” 

Always ready to diffuse a situation, Steve called. "Hey, Charlotte, I meant to tell you," he began, catching her eye. "Tony and Pepper are coming back to the compound later this afternoon. Pepper wants to meet with you.”

Charlotte's eyes widened in surprise. "Really? Why?" she asked.

Steve nodded, his expression reassuring. "Yep. She wants to talk about hosting a press conference. They think it's time to let the world know who you are.” He gave a reassuring smile. “Don’t be nervous, you’ll do great. We’ve all done them. Even Bucky.” He elbowed his friend as he sidled past, plopping down at the head of the table. 

Charlotte raised her eyebrows, still looking hesitant. “If you say so.” 

“At least you'll look better on TV than Sam," Bucky said dryly, giving her a sidelong look.

Sam bristled at the jab, shooting Bucky a mock glare. "Hey, watch it, Barnes. I'll have you know I've got a face for the big screen," he retorted.

“Is that what they’ve been telling you?” He raised an eyebrow, dodging a swat from Sam’s spatula. Giggling, Charlotte felt slightly more at ease as her friends fell into chaos around her. 

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Smoothing her shirt, Charlotte approached the sleek conference room with a mixture of anticipation and nervousness. She wasn't sure what to expect from this meeting with Pepper Potts, Tony Stark's famed and formidable right-hand woman. Did she do something wrong? Was she in trouble? The thoughts raced through her mind as she pushed open the door and stepped inside.

"Ms. Rossi, thank you for coming. Please, have a seat," Pepper greeted warmly, gesturing to a chair across from her. She was beautiful, looking equal parts polished and genuine. 

Charlotte forced a smile and took a seat, trying to hide her unease. "My friends call me Charlotte, or at least, everyone here does.”

Pepper chuckled. "Alright, Charlotte. It’s a pleasure to finally meet you."

“Likewise.” She raised an eyebrow. “Although I’ll warn you, I’m not overly keen on the idea of a press conference…if that’s what this is about.”

Pepper chuckled again. "It is, but just know there’s no pressure. This is my professional recommendation, if you desire to be a more public part of the team. We’ve had quite a few incidents of public scrutiny over the past several years, and we’ve found that it makes everyone’s lives much easier if we stay ahead of it. And since you’re new here…"

Charlotte leaned back in her chair, adopting a more casual posture. "Then we should get ahead of it before the public can find something to scrutinize."

Pepper smiled. "Exactly."

“Well, let’s hear the game plan, then. You’re the expert.” 

Pepper clasped her hands together on the table atop a stack of notes. "Well, with everything that's been happening lately, there's been quite a bit of interest in you."

Charlotte raised an eyebrow. "Me? What’s been happening lately?”

Pepper laughed softly. "Modesty, I see. But yes, your journey has captivated a lot of attention. You were all over the news with your stint in gymnastics, and then you even made a splash as a big fish in Las Vegas, all before disappearing. The internet is very difficult to slip anything past, and it didn’t take long for them to put things together. People love a mystery."

Charlotte tilted her head warily. "That’s one thing to call me."

Pepper smiled. "Indeed. But, we have an opportunity to share your story with the world. On your terms, the way you want it to be told. As much or as little as you’d like to give, anything would help prevent people from writing the narrative for you. Show them who you are before they can tell you."

Charlotte's skepticism showed on her face. "Ah, the old charm offensive, huh?"

Pepper nodded. "Something like that. It's a chance for people to get to know the real Charlotte, not just the headlines they’ll inevitably see if you join the Avengers Initiative."

“Who says I’m joining the Avengers?” She raised an eyebrow. 

“I’m very good at my job.” Pepper winked. “And don't worry, you won't be alone. The team and I will be there to support you every step of the way. We’ll prepare you beforehand, be right there to step in if you get uncomfortable or don’t know how to answer something. You have my word.” 

Charlotte gave a half smile. "Alright, I'll do it. But if I say something wildly inappropriate or incriminating, I can’t be held responsible.”

Pepper laughed. "Have you met Tony? I don’t think we’ve ever had a press conference without something wildly inappropriate or incriminating. You’ll do just fine.”

[moonsanoverthinker]

PLEASE TELL ME MORE ABOUT VOICE CHANGES IN TMA I WANT THE WHOLE RANT

LETS GO! Expect semi-coherent thoughts and a lot of random side notes. Also I apologise in advance for how long this post is, but then again I was asked for the whole thing and I like to over analyse x

Also second apologies, I didn’t intend for this to essentially become a weird essay / notes hybrid that goes well off topic! x

(This is JonMartin focused because those little men have a permanent place in my head)

Edit: I added the more thingy because then it’s not one super long text post (1. So I don’t have to scroll through it every time and 2. I only just found out I could do that!)

SERIES 1-5 SPOILERS (sorry forgot to add this!)

Series 1 Jon was fairly consistent in how he’d say Martin, usually pronouncing the R and the T, the ‘professional/formal’ way (Gotta try and convince people you are in fact the head archivist) as well as the tone usually being a little harsher when he was making unprompted jabs at Martin. (Also side note, MAG 14 where he talks about Martin maybe getting chopped up, sounding far too happy about that prospect Jon). MAG 22 is where we actually get to hear Martin, after hearing nothing but slander from Jon. Obviously he’s making a statement for a traumatic event but there’s a clear difference in how they speak in terms of confidence with Jon and nervousness from Martin. (Also side note 2, I listened to mag22 again and I forgot how much Martin wanted to prove his experience was real to skeptic Jon, makes me a little sad) That edge is still there in Jon’s voice but it’s softened the tiniest amount at the end when he’s actually providing solutions to Martin (Hurt/Comfort described as work) Then we get to MAG 39 where they have a real conversation! There’s still that ‘professional’ tone from Jon but this is the first time he actually has some form of emotion that isn’t annoyance, instead it’s fear. Also the ghost conversation where it just feels like the roles have flipped, with Jon being the one who doesn’t understand and Martin making fun of him. (Side note 3 I still think one of the funniest moments in MAG 39 when Martin mentions he records poetry on the tapes because of the lofi charm and then there’s the solid few seconds of silence with only the fire alarm sound).

Series 2 is pretty much the same between the two of them, but occasionally we start to see a different side to Martin when he’s answering Jon back. Like the whole ‘accidentally stabbing yourself with the bread knife’ conversation, he answers him a little firmer (like you would to someone you care about deeply) and in MAG 56 when Martins confronted by a paranoid Jon he answers in a firmer way but it feels less like it’s out of care and more just out of trying to diffuse the situation. Series 3 is where things start to change a little, we get Martin clearly being pleased about people saying him and Jon were ‘close’ as well as Jon mentioning ‘office gossip’ where he sounds like he’s attempting to convince himself ‘it’s natural and normal’. (The denial was strong)

Series 4 is where the big changes come from the two of them, and to me it almost feels like a role switch between them. Jon becomes the one practically pining and Martin becomes the one to deny it. There’s Jon demanding to know what Elias did to Martin, the constant asking about him as well as Jon actively seeking Martin out several times. MAG 124 is the first conversation between the two of them in series 4, Jon sounds excited to talk but Martin just sounds flat (it gives series 1 vibes) and this same pattern of Jon’s tone changing while Martins stays flat is carried on throughout. Then we get to MAG 154 (let’s gouge our eyes out and run away!) But first Jon thanks Martin for the ‘intervention’ which has says in that sarcastic tone, Martin jumps to the defence and Jon apologises and that is when Martin almost goes back to sounding how he used to. Then we get to the big we can leave together moments, Jon’s frantically trying to convince Martin and there’s a genuine hope ‘I could derail everything. We could derail everything and then just leave!’ To which he is met with Martin shutting it down with the harsh reality of the situation. Then we get the Mahtin’s (I can hear it, I don’t know how else to write it) and relief from the two of them as they leave the lonely together (I’m not crying) and everything ends in the cabin, nothing bad happens and they just live in Scotland with the cows

We’ve made it to series 5 where things are a little bit fucked! So let’s start at the beginning, Jon just sounds defeated, the thing he’s being trying to stop is everyone’s issue and he feels it’s his fault. Martins trying to sound reassuring and hopeful that things can be changed. Also there’s the various points where they sound almost happy despite the situation, ‘Eye spy literally everything’ ‘You are my reason. Just wanted to make you say it!’ And there’s warmth to the two of them, an oddly refreshing happiness that only comes in those short moments before everything’s awful again. (Side note 4, maybe I’ve got it a little wrong but Martin sounds less nervous in his voice, follows the character development of adapting and becoming a stronger character from dealing with everything) ‘You have to promise me, that your going to do everything in your power to live’ There’s a firmness in Martins voice but it sounds more like he’s either trying to convince himself that Jon would do that or he’s trying to convince Jon to do it. MAG 194 starts with the argument as the reality of it all is finally recognised. Martins clearly hurt by Jon claiming ‘it’s the only option’ resulting in him sounding more frustrated and almost like a petulant child. ‘Breaking his promise.’ ‘That’s not fair’ Jon just snaps at the accusation, despite it being partially true. This argument is similar to MAG 154 (to me at least) because of the pleading and convincing from Jon and the disagreement and bordering mocking from Martin. Jon was in an impossible decision and was attempting to justify his own sacrifice but Martin was mostly focused on the two of them living. ‘Tough! The world doesn’t care what you accept. It just is.’ Is Jons final attempts in the argument, he knows there is limited options and limited survival rates, it’s like he’s accepted the end of it all, then Jon does the statement, proceeds to make a joke of the lack of arguments given by it and says ‘I’m going to go and apologise to my boyfriend’ and there’s the brief smile in his voice again. Jump ahead a little to MAG 199 where we get the somewhat calm before the storm. And there’s a weird calmness to the two of them when they talk but there’s a mix of defeat and acceptance from Jon because he was always going to try and sacrifice himself, and then there’s defeat and hope from Martin because he knew Jon would try but clings to the hope that maybe everything will be okay. Ah onto MAG 200 the one that proceeds to hurt us all, again there’s the acceptance from Jon but also fear and determination to ‘win’ over the fears no matter what it costs him. Martins a mix of betrayal, anger, sadness, fear because well the promise was broken and he was going to be alone again. But it’s the final moments, there’s fear but they still cling to hope that they will be together no matter what happens.

[002yb]

The problem with sharing a best friend with the man you’ve been hopelessly crushing on for two lifetimes is that said shared best friend will inevitably notice and swear that ‘he’s got this.’  In fact, it would be his pleasure to hook his boys up.  To say Jason is mortified would be an understatement.  He doesn’t want to be hooked up.  He was more than content to take his little (persisting, devastating) crush on Dick Grayson to his grave.  Again.  Because it deserves to be buried.

“A bit dramatic, don’t you think?” Roy accuses, then turns around and offers Jason his most playful, dickish smirk. “Yeah, I think you two might actually be really compatible.”

Let it be known that while Roy Harper isn’t a detective, his best friends are and over the years he’s picked up a thing or two.  The only reason he noticed Jason’s crush is because of a completely unremarkable interaction.  Just a fleeting glance from Jason when Dick happened to pass by - all golden and gorgeous even post workout as Dick mundanely wandered into the kitchen for water.  Just a ducked head, uncharacteristically bashful and something that Roy hasn’t seen since Jason was Robin.

It’s precious.

Just as sweet is how Jason puffs himself up, aiming for belligerent and missing by a mile.  Jason hits somewhere closer to endearing, in Roy’s opinion.  Menacingly cute with his rosy cheeks and an aggressive scowl.

Not so precious is the actual night terror that Roy can see staring at them from over Jason’s shoulder in the distance - eyes narrowed and lips curled into a scowl, expression colder than the forgotten ice-water on the counter.  It’s damn near bone-chilling, actually.  A lesser man might jump at the undercurrent of disdain and displeasure emanating off of Dick, but Roy is more than familiar with how Dick sulks.

It’s a bit harder to place where Dick’s feelings are though.  Jealous?  Obviously.  The question is why.  Roy has his suspicions, of course; he’d gamble on them too, if push came to shove.  Jason and his feelings deserve to be handled with more care though, so...

“Grayson!” Roy shouts.  Immediately, Jason’s shoulders shoot up to his ears with tension as he bristles, shoving Roy in retaliation although Jason can’t know what Roy has planned yet.

Dick, too, startles.  The dark aura that had been hanging over him fades away as Dick smiles - a well-practiced thing that’s more habit than anything as he makes his way over to them.

“Harper.  What’s up?” Dick asks.

“You dating anyone?”

The look of panic on Jason’s face is comical.  It would be more funny if Jason were to look up from where he averts his gaze to see that Dick clearly looks at Jason, gaze lingering before pulling away to look at Roy, sheepish.

“Not at the moment.” Dick tells him, brows furrowed a bit because he knows that Roy already knows that. “Why?  You offering?”

Oh.  Oh, no.  Commonplace as this playful teasing between Roy and Dick is, Jason isn’t familiar enough with their dynamic to know that it’s all harmless fun.  The death glare that’s abruptly shot Roy’s way is a promise of violence like Roy has never known before and it’s frightening.

Roy stands by it:  Dick and Jason are definitely compatible.

Dramatic.  Jealous.  Scary and devastating in that awe inspiring way only natural disasters are.

“You know I’ve already got a special lady in my life.” Roy says, nearly beaming with pride and disarming both of his friends in an instant.  Lian is a light in all their lives and the perfect means of diffusing any situation; bless her.  “Todd is single here though, you know?”

Once again, Jason levels Roy with a look that speaks of Roy’s future demise - their friendship be damned.  Roy can’t help but chuckle to himself because for as fearsome as Jason is, he’s such a maiden.  It’s no wonder Lian always wants Jason to play the princess in all her games of make-believe.  It might also say something how somehow Dick is always the prince... fuck, his little girl is so smart and insightful.  She figured it out before any of them, huh?

Dick’s attention shifts to Jason - his flushed cheeks and burning ears and the passionate snarl that mars his features.  It’s obvious to Dick that he’s missing something, but Roy offers him nothing but a cheeky smile.  As neutrally as he can to avoid having Jason’s ire turned on him, Dick says, “Cool.”

“Roy, I swear - “ Jason starts.

Roy cuts him off with a brilliant smile and even more brilliant suggestion:  “You guys should go out.”

The panic that washes over them both is hilarious.  It has Roy internally cackling.  These bastards always one-up him in so many ways, but now he’s got something over both of them and it’s amazing.  He’s never seen either of them look so flustered; eyes wide and jaws either dropped or clenched as they struggle to process and react.  That both of their thoughts went to the same place is promising though, hah!

Because they’re both stunned still with mortification (Jason) and stupefaction (Dick), Roy grins and playfully torments, “Wingman for each other.”

Dick and Jason’s matching grimaces are possibly the funniest thing Roy’s seen in some time.  It’s instantaneous, mirrored on both of their faces.

Roy feels so damn powerful.  These two will be fucking by the end of the night, for sure.  Roy told Jason that ‘he’s got this,’ and he meant it.  If Dick caves to the notion of helping Jason find a beau (and he will, generously kind and self-sacrificing man that Dick is), Jason’s competitiveness will surely have him giving in, too.  Jealousy and an unspoken possessiveness will handle the rest.

It’s just a matter of time.

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It’s been a bit since I’ve posted something like this.  Or written much of anything, ahahaha.  Rough as it is, hopefully it’s still enjoyable. (●˙꒳˙●)