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got reminded that a specific event is coming up that's triggering for us but that we can't really avoid and on the one hand we're better at dealing with it than we used to be but on the other hand it is still a strong reminder of a bunch of abuse we experienced as a teenager
#personal#thoughts#🍬 post#vent post#like we can cope with it and it doesn't usually give us panic attacks anymore#except I just saw it mentioned and immediately felt like shit and got stuck thinking about it and remembering the abuse for uhh#over an hour apparently#and we've had a lot of old trauma resurfacing lately as our brain tries to process stuff I guess#which doesn't give me much confidence in our ability to cope with it this year#also like this was literally just a mention of it. just the name of the event#which happens to be what people tag it as if they do tag it#so filtering may not be that helpful if just being reminded of it happening at all is triggering for us
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CW: vent in tags (I'm sorry idk Tumblr etiquette yet-)
unfortunately a lot of the corny self help advice turns out to be true but the thing is you have to come to those conclusions yourself otherwise it just sounds dismissive and dumb
#THIS IS SO TRUE!#I hear myself recommending advice I straight out dismissed#the magnus archives#tma#Mainly bcs even though I've gone thro similar things idk how to confort others (I don't know how I found comfort before)#It feels fake when I'm told to do it#And ig part of me doesn't want it to be true. To be that easy. Like what I'm feeling is real. It's not just a bit of low mood#It's depression and it's hurts me. It is a part of my life and I hate it#But it can't be fixed by just some deep breaths or positive affirmations right? It's more serious than that#I want to get better but part of me doesn't want it to be as simple as that because that would mean all that time I was just being dramatic#And what would it make all this? Pointless? Pathetic?#It feels fake anyways. Being told to do something. My brain's cynical so will find any and all flaws with the suggestion#And I just can't do positive affirmations. It's feels so so fake and like you're lying to yourself#And then it feels like you're being egotistical and self absorbed. Like oh look at me I'm so great and amazing. I just can't#I feel like I've gone off topic-#But like when someone else suggests something I can often dismiss it out if hand because I can list all the reasons it wouldn't work for me#But sometimes when you find it yourself - even if you know it's been recommended before - it works better#I guess it's because you've chosen to give it a try willingly?#Idk I'm still tryna find stuff that helps#Is this the kinda stuff you should post if Tumblr? What are the rules for like...vents ig?#This may be kinda triggering for some people uhhh content warning?#Shit but like you can't move tags so I can't add one at the top uhh-#Wait solution!#Okay well yknow sorry if you read all that and yea uhh imma head to bed now or pretend to :D
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Okay just an inconsequential mini vent/rant about internet/social media culture these days, specifically on tumblr. I fuckign HATE how certain tags can't be searched; you only get a stupid ass patronizing message and a redirect. And it doesn't even work the way they intended to, like, for example in the case of death right? Can't search it as a topic on it's own, but what we can do, for some reason is search 'tw death'... which is not exactly a neutral tag, since you know, it's a trigger warning tag. So I can't search for death-related folklore, discussion or beliefs with the tag 'death'? But I can specifically search for 'tw death' that yields people's venting, depression, suicidal thoughts, extreme negativity etc. etc. and this supposed to "protect" me?? as a user????? from WHAT exactly huh???? How does this shit help me hUh
I fucking hate HATE the sanitization of the Internet I hate it I HATE IT SO MUCH. IT'S so. THOROUGHLY unHELPFUL
(I may or may not also be extremely salty that I can look up dadson but not momson for some nonsense shitty reason but uhh that's another topic almost so)
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#proshippers against censorship#jackal barks#proship please interact#proshippers please interact#proship positivity#proship#proshipper safe#proshipping#proshipper#anti anti#ask#asks#pro stance
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hi hello! uhh new ask blog this is new i’m new to this help me hidjdjjskd
main: @churrothezanyrabbit (mostly active-ish there)
i have a discord, feel free to ask for it in messages!
for this blog, and especially due to me being new, asks won’t be answered right away at the beginning, and may take some time, so please be patient with me! (i’m begging for my autistic ass cuz i’ll get stressed out 😭🙏)
rules/dni’s for this blog!!
dni!!
basic dni, y’know, the obvious
dni if you are ableist, homophobic/transphobic, pedophile/pedo supporter, incest-liker/incest supporter, and y’know just the basics just DON’T BE A FUCKING JERK, and no fetish shit ew/lh
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rules!!
don’t send nsfw asks (dirty jokes are fine, just don’t make them too explicit)
magic anons are allowed just don’t do weird shit like turning a kid into an adult just so you can like them (bc if you like a child character, example being suzy[aka playtime], you’re getting mcfucking BLOCKED YOU WEIRDO), otherwise typical normal (i use that term lightly) magic asks are fine
for the love of dr reflex don’t do any m!preg asks bc to me that counts as an nsfw ask and i will not do it
no fetish art i’m not doing that it’s a nono for me (doesn’t count as nsfw, like what you want as long as it isn’t illegal but don’t bring it to me please/lh)
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things i WILL do!
draw (obv, possibly commissions but it depends)
post randomly bc i’m weird like that or im just bored
draw blood/gore/etc (but if it’s heavy i’ll prob censor it, bc ofc, people have triggers and i don’t want to disrespect them, tho if it’s light or whatever i’ll post it)
constantly give new headcanons to the characters (i’m autistic let me do my thing and you do yours without being a dick)
have sporadic on-and-off moments (as in i might not post for a hot while and then have this sudden spur of posting stuff quickly)
attempt to draw oc’s and such (as long as they’re not complicated)
draw other baldi’s OF COURSE :D (as long as they’re not problematic or too hard to draw 🥲🙏)
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things i WON’T do!
draw nsfw (obv)
post uncensored heavy gore
have any minor (y’know, like kid) characters do anything normal wear anything even remotely sexual in any way shape or form
accept asks relating to any political stuff or anything in the irl world (this world is purely fictional, and this is partly comfort for me to escape reality, so please don’t 🫶)
NO M!PREG I’M STATING IT TWICE
ship oc x canon/draw it (sorry it is just weird to me a little bit, ofc i have no problem with it but i don’t want it on this blog, respectfully! however i’ll be willing to draw said oc :3 …if it isn’t complicated 🥲)
interact with problematic content/au’s/other stuff (and if there is any other stuff that is problematic please let me know asap cuz i don’t want to support problematic creators!)
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reblogs are heavily appreciated!!
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my version of baldi is shipped with my partner’s version of baldi, who is named harris. if you are interested in princibaldi, baldiflex, or princibaldiflex or whatever else you ship then, don’t come to this blog, please. if anything, i’ll be posting it on my main, which is up there! i like those 3 ships, ofc, but i won’t be doing them here./lh
i will not stand for negativity and hate towards this blog, and if you send me an ask directed with hate towards me and/or my versions of the characters anonymously, i will not be answering you. if you don’t like it, get out and block me or something because i’m not taking shit from nobody.
i use tone tags! (please use them back i’m begging)
finally, take the boye!!
the polymorph who is indeed only 4’11”….. (will give other info later)
Phineas King Baldimore!
(he/they)
#phineas baldimore#churrothezanyrabbit#churro the zany rabbit#phineas blogs#my art!#bbieal#bbieal au#baldis basics#baldi#baldimore#baldi fanart#bbieal baldi#baldi ask blog
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NAME?: King_Kkeungi, Kkeungi, or Soda- If you've been around for the past 700 years...
PRONOUNS?: He/Him mainly, still trying to get used to They/Them over time. I identify as AFAB Transmasculine, but also very GNC.
MOST ACTIVE MUSES?: Jae (you are here!), also a shitload of others because I am literally insane.
EXPERIENCE/HOW MANY YEARS? Uhh, like back when AOL was still fucking dial-up. Shove that into your calculator, proceed to jaw-drop, and demand 'why would anyone put themselves through that, though'.
FLUFF, ANGST, OR SMUT?: In order of what I write the most: Angst, Smut, Fluff.
Angst is my bread and butter- We do love the bitter hardships, because a lot of personal growth and the potential for self-reflection.
Smut is usually me having no fucking clue what I'm doing, other than trying NOT to sound totally BORING for my poor writing partner.
Fluff is something that I normally get bored by, but I'm starting to appreciate more moments of Fluff and Domestic/Slice of Life content thanks to Oni?
I think the reason why the 'Second Chances' AU hits so differently is because our muses both didn't really experience a 'normal' upbringing nor childhood, so they're super motivated to allow this poor clone to just BE A CHILD and ENJOY LIFE and DEVELOP HIS OWN PERSONALITY. So, all of these seemingly minor and 'every day' occurrences and family-centered events aren't even things that Sephiroth and Jae-hyo have experienced in the past, like ever. And it's so far from perfect- They have no idea what they're doing, they both are better at killing people and being walking weapons than being like, emotionally attuned to a fearful child in a completely foreign environment. They're learning a ton of practical things, but they're also learning more about each other as individuals on an emotional level, which is really important development for them.
Anyway- Any of these three thread types can work for me, but obviously I am super into plotting and long-term exploration of our inter-muse dynamics!
LONG OR SHORT REPLIES?: It honestly depends on how my muse responds to my partner's replies- But I tend to go overboard and focus way too much on introspection that my poor mutuals can't even respond to in-character... so I'm trying to work on that!
PET PEEVES?:
Being a jerk about tagging- It takes like 2 seconds? Even if I DON'T think my mutuals might be triggered, I still tag heavy subjects out of common courtesy. I don't need some random internet troll telling me I'm a 'widdle babey who can't handle real fucking life!11' just because they hate mentally ill people and are lazy. I have survived so much 'real life' shit that they would struggle handling like an adult?
Rules pages that are rude and worded super aggressively. Chill out. We've all had bad experiences, I don't turn around and decide to be a literal asshole to complete strangers who are simply interested in my writing.
Vagueing and Passive-Aggressive behavior. You don't like smut? Blacklist the tag for people's NSFW content. Making a post in public and outright shaming people who are supposed to be your friends just because you personally aren't comfortable with sexual topics is way out of line. Also, we've all been browbeaten into ONLY posting smut on Sunday for ya'll, what more do you want to enforce on other people's blogs?
ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE?: All of my muses have some facet of their personalities that I generally base off of my personal experiences, but also I try to build each muse up with a strong sense of realism and do a ton of scholarly research in areas that I feel I am NOT well versed in.
Jae is probably the most... emotionally personal muse I have simply because I am actively exploring very serious and heavy themes with him that I myself have survived/been a victim of, in the past. It's a safe way for me to kind of explore said events in a more objective and rational fashion, rather than rehashing specific memories that can be extremely upsetting and makes trying to be kinder to myself incredibly difficult.
He is not a self-insert, though (not that I personally see anything wrong with self-inserts in fics or 'fan-geared content', but I also do not think it's a good nor healthy idea to roleplay yourself in an RPC). He's a character that was first birthed out of spite towards someone on my dashboard (via my Genesis blog) who was complaining about 'overpowered OCs' and claiming that there are 'too many SOLDIER OCs' and that the 'few Turk OCs are all lame yakuza wannabees and they suck'. Like, what fucking game did you play, fool? I swear to God, being exposed to all these cold-ass, rancid fucking takes from the general fandom side of the community has really soured my experience in the RPC as a whole.
TIME TO WRITE?: Morning is usually better for me, right after my medication kicks in. But it's also dependent on who I am talking to and how excited we both are for the threads/plotting.
TAGGED BY: @stupidiinspades/ @endlcssdreamiing / @endlcssdesiire TAGGING: @nightiingaled, @sadistpet, @inspiirefear, @wayan9an, @bukkuobujiendo, @serandipity, @agloryofuniicorns, @ilbound, @tredispade, @annjiru
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╰►I have to remember-- everyday is real.
hi im adonis. uhh i used to be in an actual world (heard it might be called "animals" here) where THIS world was a game i played a lot! now im in it and yeah its still kinda fucking weird.
fortunately i used that information wisely and now im a good trainer LMFAO i also have pets
yeah idk this is my own corner of the internet and i probably wont talk to you unless you talk to me first. which idek if ill do because i just miss my actual friends and shit
i think i got here in like june. ive been staying with some people who saw me sleeping in an ally of castelia. dont ask how i got there i also dont know
this is a self-insert blog. aka, this is basically me if i was in pokemon. i will most likely not interact with ANYONE first unless you interact first.
out of character section!!
─ⵌ penned by @adonciant (he/him, minor)
interaction!
pelipper mail/unmail/malice: allowed!
musharna mail/malice: allowed!
mystery gifts: allowed!
magic anon: allowed!
union circle: allowed!
in-character anon hate: allowed!
ooc/questions: allowed!
anyone is allowed to interact with my blogs! fallers, eeby deebys, hybrids, sapients, self-inserts, ocs, in-game characters and more alike are all very welcomed! if you ever want to start a roleplay, it's best to discuss it with me first.
non-rp accounts (excluding muns) please do not reblog pokemon irl exclusive posts, or comment under any of them.
note: if i dont get around to an ask, never take it personally! i will always read any asks i get, but won't always respond
─ⵌ all interaction from all blogs are allowed, unless you are non-pkmn irl. discuss offscreen roleplays with me beforehand. i may not be able to get around to your ask, but don't take it personally!
boundaries/notices
─the mod is a minor, and the character is also a minor! slightly suggestive asks are fine, but never should it come close to nsfw.
─if you ever want to create a connection/event between our characters, just dm me on either discord [adonciant] or on tumblr itself. i will be more than willing to hear your ideas and see what we can do!
─there are not many content warnings to this blog. to roughly list, drug/alcohol mentions/usage. this list is always subject to change, so stay aware. any triggering topics are tagged with associated tags (tw 'topic')
─ⵌ slightly suggestive asks are allowed, but nsfw is never allowed, always try to contact me if you want to make connections or events, and heed the warnings! [you will need to read over the warnings.]
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this will be one of the few blogs i am wary about anons. i might be a little bit more picky, or careful of how i answer them because of the fact that this reflects me as a person and so im tryna be careful
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If you want to make propaganda you can view the submissions here but please know the second tab which also contains the reasonings submitted has like every TW so be prepared!
Right now the rules of the next section of the tournament are as followed
You WILL be civil to the shippers of the ship you think is worse, no I do not CARE if it's abuse or incest or the most problematic thing in the world, we will be CIVILIZED. If I catch you spewing toxic shit about how all shippers of a ship are horrible terrible people who need to die you WILL be blocked. We are not here for a guilt trip! We are here to have fun being dramatic! Small PLAYFUL pokes are fine, but everyone should have fun even the shippers of the ship you think is worse.
I shouldn't have to specify but be like, actually decent about what you say, I had a person in the forms wishing rape on a character and like bro take that up with your ao3 search results not me or anyone else here. So like, yeah the characters are just characters, but theres a difference between edge and potentially being intensely triggering and uncomfortable for literally no reason.
If you want to make propaganda I advise either light hearted gags at a ships expense,
Example of a light hearted gag would be like a picture of Junko sitting on Mikan kneeling into a bench and a caption like "would you really not vote for this?" thats hilarious and doesn't target actual people.
Or you draw art for the ship that gives you less despair, branch out a bit. Never drawn I dunno Ryoma x Kirumi before but you think its less toxic then uhh Hajime x Mikan? Well here's your chance to try drawing some Ryoma x Kirumi! Make propaganda for the ship you want people to NOT vote for!
I can't enforce this but the tag you want to use for anything you create for this should be "#Despair Ship" this is so people can filter it out more easily. I'm here to cause fun, not make people frustrated because their tag got overrun.
Again I also can't enforce this but remember the point isn't to find the ship that's the most abusive, or the most toxic, its to find the ship that gets the most despair. For instance there are very few ships on the list I find personally more despairing then kokichi and shuichi, and that's because it's a lot harder to stumble on some of the more kneejerk offensive ships compared to how I cannot escape kokichi and shuichi making out no matter how hard i try. Like I said I can't enforce this but if you're wondering why a ship you think is more inherently toxic is losing, this is probably the reason why.
I am also a single person, while I have a friend who is here on the sidelines cheering me on, I hand made the bracket and everything else about this. If the brackets aren't perfectly balanced or a ship you don't like didn't make the cut, remember that I am just a single person.
Voter fraud is allowed and encouraged I'm not a coward this is the voting fraud website if you're determined to make a thousand sock puppet accounts just to make sure Celeste x Togami is the winner then that's the biggest possible powermove and I respect it. Also I guess I accept bribes now, because I think it's funny.
Thank you for all the support I've gotten! While rather small scale compared to other polls, the fact I've got people sending asks and following means a lot to me. Even if I barely get any interaction from here out, I still had fun and am happy to have done this. Voting will either open Saturday or Sunday but if I forget and it's a day or too late then feel free to shake me in the asks by short term memory is Not Good
#despair ship#ndrv3#goodbye despair#trigger happy havoc#danganronpa v3#ultra despair girls#danganronpa#danganronpa 2
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so.. is this working??
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oh lit, it is!! CONNOR!!! GET YOUR ASS OVER HERE-
You don't have to shout, I can hear you.
but i was talking =[[[[
well uhh... anywho!!!
welcome to this blog we made for uhh... uhm...
what did we make this for again-
We haven't decided yet. Plus, you roped me into this without telling me anything.
fair.
anygays-
Did you just say that unironically?
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ok uhh.. i think we're gonna use this to secretly plan a rebellion against our boss and the higher-ups at this fuckass facility and like
do other YA dystopian novel bs no one cares about.
...What-
OH SHIT I SAID THAT OUT LOUD UHHH
SORRY I RAMBLED!!!! <=DDD
It's...fine.
I'm just..going to use this for work stuff and public updates. Probably won't log on very often, though.
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i went out of my way to memorize and give you the fucking password to this god forsaken account entrusting that you'd actually do something with it alongside me so it isnt awkward and this is the thanks i get???
Elaine, I didn't mean it that way-
ARENT YOU TIRED OF BEING NICE, CONNOR?? DONT YOU JUST WANNA GO SILLY MODE???
Okay, you're taking this far too seriously-
RAAAAHAHHAHZBDNFMEKFNDNGKFGNCN!!!!!
...Okay, then.
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for those of you blissfully unaware of my current fixation, this is a dawn/dusk of the madness au nevadaposting blog!!!
ok now heres some rules
- no nsfw or suggestive asks/interactions. the admin (squid) is a minor and doesn't have the time or motivation to deal with that shit politely.
- dont be a dick (homophobe, transphobe, ableist, etc.). this should be obvious but it still has to be said.
- potentially triggering interactions are allowed, but put a warning beforehand or tag them properly.
♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡
HEADCANONS PRESENT IN THIS LIL SECTION OF THE AU (so far)!!
- connor goes by they/them. they are transgender.
#madness combat#madness combat oc#madcom#nevadaposting#nevada posting#dawn of the madness#day of the madness#dusk of the madness#dusk of the madness: overtime#genmorto-posting#intro post
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some nate facts :3
tagging @swanconcerto and @oceanicwhitetipshark because you guys seemed excited :3 fair warning though:
1. this is really long so don't feel obligated to read everything and
2. i mention nate's dad being an angry asshole specifically in relation to how it's affected nate, but nothing graphic or too in dephth. still, please be mindful of your own triggers <3
he's a werewolf! poor briar (remember, he's scared of dogs, hehe i am so funny)
like briar, he is the youngest child, he has an older brother (isaiah, 19) and an older sister (selah, 26)
nate is short for nathan! him and his siblings all have biblical names (take this with a grain of salt, i did like one google search so if it's wrong. idk)
his dad was a horrible and angry man and nate is constantly haunted by the fear that he will turn out just like his father
it doesn't help that out of all three siblings he looks the most like his dad. he has the same white hair and nose.
he somehow convinced himself that if he let's himself feel any intense emotions, even positive ones, they will turn to anger so he tries to keep a tight lid on everything.
he took some time off school and lived with his mom's childhood friend martha and her husband. they live on a farm in the middle of bum fuck nowhere (not really, just a small village but nate is a city girl (gn))
his mother hoped being away from the city he grew up in, and thus being away from a place he associates his father with, would help him "get over" his issues. with a bit of prodding from selah, their mom also got him a therapist near where he was staying
he still has some resentment towards his mom because of that. he feels like she just gave up on him and decided to push him away and out of her sight
despite that, his time away really did help him with accepting his emotions more but if you look too closely, you can see his smile falter a bit! :)
additionally, whenever he feels even the slightest bit of anger he panics and bolts
i should mention that his pack (formed by his parents and now solely run by his mother) used to treat him like a ticking time bomb because of his similarities to his father so uhh that did NOT help
of course not the ENTIRE pack but a few of the older members treating him that way was enough
that's why being away from all that was so good for him, it was just so refreshing to be treated like a person and to not only be allowed to feel freely, but to be encouraged to do so
his treatment has improved since he got back (thanks to his siblings letting it be known they won't tolerate this shit any longer) but he still gets dirty looks from time to time
there's rumors going around at his school that he spent his time away in juvie because his anger issues got the best of him
all this is very sad and tragically ironic since he's SUCH a sweetheart, always has been
evie transferred to his school like a month before nate came back and when he did, some people told evie that he was bad news and she was like what. he's a saint.
he loved being on the farm and really bonded with the animals. named every single one of them and can tell which is which no matter how similar they all look.
still visits and helps whenever he can
the type to be late to meetings because he got caught up helping every single person in his sight
sometimes just squats down on the side walk to watch the ants go about their stuff. he's hypnotized.
when he needs time to think he goes to one of those pet shops and stares at the aquariums until he feels the manager glare at him for loitering. he gets sad thinking about the fish being trapped but he likes watching them anyways
insanely good with kids. he loves watching the younger kids in the pack and they love him even more. he let's them climb all over him they use him like a jungle gym. so even if their parents are wary of nate they have to put up with him lol
does a lot of art! mainly pottery and poetry though!! but he also crochets, the repetitive movement relaxes him
in general he really likes working with his hands, that's why he enjoys pottery and the farm work so much
a disaster in the kitchen. local teenage boy tries to make eggs, 5 injured 1 dead
vegetarian!! almost vegan. he either gets his non-meat animal products from sellers he knows are ethical or not at all.
absolutely obsessed with shitty romance novels you know like the types you get at the airport. will talk your ears off about them. no escape.
this got really long so i'm going to make a seperate post with relationship stuff for my beloveds :3
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uh, is dream a slur now or something? I saw people censor it and your tag #dream mention and... kinda confused? even rowling or other globally hated people or people who legit belong in jail don't get censured so like... what he do '-' isn't he just the minecraft dude that had too many kid fans who scattered after his face reveal or something?
He's a groomer. Like proven groomer, he admitted to a Part of the whole thing, and many people then showed screenshot evidence that it meant it was all true bc if only the part he admitted was true it wouldnt make sense. He also went to court over it (which his stans were doing nothing but drooling over him being in a suit. not like. yknow. caring At All that this is a court case about him grooming a minor).
He's also generally an asshole, irresponsible with his platform, immature about a lot of things, and has a history of other tasteless bullshit (racism to name at least one thing). We would be here all day if I told you EVERYTHING that would answer your "what did he do." Anyone who sees this and wants to make a nice long list with links or whatever can feel free to do that though
Its also a trigger tag for some people because he and his controversies/etc make them that uncomfortable or angry
Sometimes not censoring his name means his stans find you and those pieces of shit will gladly doxx the shit out of you for speaking ill of him. Same with Ge*rge and S*pnap stans
Also I've seen "tw rowling" and stuff like it plenty of times, idk what secluded corner of Tumblr you've been in. I've seen tons of that stuff /nm
But yeah uhh he sucks, he's disgusting, he's a douche, and if anyone who sees this wants to include a list of links to threads or whatever about his past bullshit, feel free. We love to drag that loser here.
[Obligatory Dr*m stans do not fucking interact if this ask somehow blows up. Block me and leave me the fuck alone.]
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mushroom sly backstory!!!!!!! tw for general gross fungi shit, kinda body horror-y, etc
Some Guy, in ye olden times, is just fuckin around with fungi and makes this crazy powerful fungi! the ultimate life form!
it eats him
(not really lol)
it takes over his body and uses him as a vessel to spread to lots of other people
(since obvi no one at this time has special healing powers like sly, the fungi reaches the Brain Controlling point pretty fast)
the fungi basically decimates the town
a few brave survivors manage to kill everyone who was infected, the fungi on them kinda just. dissolves away
except the originally infected guy. idk why maybe bc he was the first one to be taken by the fungi so its like,,,, hardier or something
(hes basically dead but the fungi still seems healthy)
they smash his head into a pulp and bury him
"Phew! Thank goodness that's over with" they say! "No one will ever be infected by this thing again!"
BA DUM TSS
cue mr beewell. obviously hes only tryna dig up graves with mellified people in them so. i think there somethin weird about Some Guy's grave
maybe the soil looks weird or theres faint glowing mycellium or smthn idk im not the fungi expert. either way sly digs this guy up
the guy is completely covered in the fungi, but it looks very dead even tho it prob still has a faint glow
sly, being the genius he is, decides to partake in exactly Zero extra safety precautions and load this bad boy into his truck
because this thing looks weird and is potentially magic!
he takes the guy back to home base, unloads it somewhere, prob pokes and prods it a little before he hits the fucken hay
since the fungi needs about an hour of contact to spread, im saying he was just Sciencing long enough to catch the fungi. or he took a bite
however im also saying that since the fungi was mostly dead, there was no actual physical evidence of him catching it before he went ta sleep.
(no little mushrooms no weird patches etc)
so hes oblivious until he wakes up
he wakes up. notices some weird textures on his skin. turns on the lights and finds a mirror
what the fuck
theres patches of mycellium shit everywhere! and some baby mushrooms also
hes probably freaked out, he tries all the obvious methods of removing stuff, etc
calls up taylor eventually
[CUE CROWD CHEERING]
taylor time!!!!!!!!!! he also has no idea what to do. if this au intersects with mothboy au(prob not because its just. a Lot at once but its a cute idea) then they figure out eventually that t cant catch it. if its just Normal T then he just. wears gloves, probably a mask as well just in case of spores
they probably do some research, maybe t takes some samples for a lab, etc
at some point, maybe later in the day or the next day, sly is probably not having a great time bc those mushrooms are getting bigger and the patches have prob shifted a bit
GOOP TIME
as ive mentioned, the goops is kinda triggered by strong emotions. so hes just kinda secreting it rn.
gross
tub time!!!!!!!!!! hes like WHAT THE FUCK
probably calls t again
idk they just spend a lot of time researching and isolating. together #lovewins #slay
and at some point. evil grin. goodbye eyeball
prob starts with a film over slys right eye. kinda weird, a little concerning cuz it doesnt seeme to be coming off but. the mycellium patches always kinda shift around anyways + hes literally had Goop secreting out of his eyes before so.
hes in denial mode bc its Fine, actually, and also there's no good way to remove it other than shaving off any growth around the eye as best as he can
he wakes up in the middle of the night bc something feels wrong
everything looks kinda weird. a little off, like somethings missing
there is a giant clump of mushrooms growing out of his eye.
[LAUGH TRACK]
ok i think thats all for tonight folks!!!!!!!!!!!! uhh if any of this seems lacking in context any other info can be found in my mushroom sly tag 👍if u have any input/think this is out of character/etc lemme know ^_^
#chatty catty#sly#mushroom sly#lemonverse#YIPPEE#long post#body horror#lots of the beginning stuff was brainstormed with jess ^_^
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Tagged forever ago by my friend @pertinax--loculos but haven’t been in the headspace to even figure out what my last lines were let alone spend any time with my dear WIP. 🤷♂️ Just got back in there this morning and managed to work just a bit on this cute scene where Callie wakes up in Delaney’s infirmary after shit going down at Lyonall.
Callie POV
“Where’s Bennett?” she gasped, squinting against the blinding daylight pouring in from behind her.
Dig looked between her and Flora. “He’s, uhh, dealing with a whole lot of stuff right now,” he said. “Do you need him?”
“I need to kill him.”
The lady’s - Flora’s - eyes snapped to hers, deadly serious, scary.
“She’s high as a kite,” Dig muttered like an apology, but she was too zonked to figure out what for. “Let it slide.”
Flora glared at her another moment longer and even with the nasty look, she made Callie feel gooey soft. Ugh, Bennett was still in love with her. Just the echo of his heartache was enough to trigger her gag reflex.
Tagging @winterandwords, @poetinprose, @starlit-hopes-and-dreams, @avrablake, and @the-orangeauthor if they want to share their last lines :)
#oc: electra#oc: dig#oc: flora#writing excerpt#writing snippet#tag game#last lines#my WIP#the insuppressible electra ray
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This is a conversation between Lio, north, and mark (look at tags for who's who)
This was supposed to be for shits and giggles but it turned into a showcase of how a programmed part thinks(on a very minor scale, even this was semi censored for others comfort),
Mark is programmed, specifically with beta, gamma, zeta (the ones relevant to this post) and omega so very big trigger warning for that
Also trigger warning for slight transphobic remarks? north is transfem but our abuser likes to deny it, and so does mark
He mentions a 'king', that is what he's been taught our abuser is
Also this conversation took place over some amounts time with pauses in-between, ---- will be used to indicate time pass
Also, edit: I know the 'king' stuff sounds stupid, but you gotta understand that it's coming from someone who's brain is all kinds of fucked.
Hey
...
----
Okay we're done hi
...
At least answer me
Why.
Why not??
I haven't gotten permission.
... I think he'd be cool with you talking to me for a moment
Fine.
Okay, who's upset?
Not it.
Mm
Yoo!!
..
Okay got it not the time, what's up?
I'm not upset
Well you're feeling angry
I'm always angry
Yes but not this much
I'm okay, They're just being annoying, I'm annoyed
Stop pausing the video.
Oh shut up Its hard to do this while it's playing
Then stop.
??? No you??
You didn't get permission from our king.
Your king, you mean?
We're all supposed to follow orders.
Shut up, child
Was that supposed to be an insult? My king wants me to be a child, therefore I am
Hey let's not get into that, me and her are still typing this out
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Hi okay I edited the title of this post
Why?
Because you stared talking crazy sorry not sorry
I am not. I am expressing the truth, north.
Woah shiver me timbers you used my name
Both of you stop fighting, damn
He told me that I'm talking crazy, he's disrespecting my king.
Gasp
..damn-
Huh?
CANCELED!!!!!
what?
I'm going to just move the conversation along, because damn- uhh I'm confused on what's going on? I've been keeping the peace in headspace and haven't been fronting for a bit, who's the king?
It's ****
Oh
M-
Nah nah nah I'm not gonna let you finish that sentence, too much information dude, too much
This is getting kinda long, should we end it here?
Idk
🤷♀️
#lio.txt#north.txt#mark.txt#r0tting podcast#the annoyed one is lio#you can tell who mark is#and north is the silly one#osdd system#did osdd#osdd community#osdd alter#osdd 1b#actually did#actually osdd#osddid#traumagenic did#tw ramcoa#tw tbmc#tw slight transphobia
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As he fell to his knees, Kaeya hissed, gripping his arm tight as the searing-cold sensation of the curse ate away at him. Consumed his mortal flesh and marred it with monstrous influence.
His right side had been steadily engulfed by the affliction as it was, almost corrupted beyond any recognition. At least, to the average man, anyways.
One who knew the sight well and familiarly would easily realize what was becoming of his body. How it had now come to grow closer in appearance to that of the strange Abyssal creatures scarce few lived to tell the tale of, those he had followed in his pursuit of the truth.
Heralds, they were called.
Damnation, he knew very well, they truly were.
Kaeya hadn’t been at all surprised by this outcome though. He had been quite certain it would been a possibility from the start, having been warned by his father, time and again, to never linger too close to the creatures. Having witnessed the very man who dedicated his centuries roaming Teyvat into fighting the Abyss Order, and further heard from him the nature of their people’s affliction. Who had also adamantly warned him to stay away from seeking out more on the legacy of his surname and those involved.
Whatever the case, the reason for this change in him was clear–the longer he stayed amid and around those creatures, the more their Abyssal energy would taint him and take root within him. And then he would end up damned like the rest of them.
One would think knowing such a harrowing end would have kept Kaeya away from it all. Would have deterred him from delving too deep, and kept him content to remain in Mondstadt as he had initially decided. As Dainsleif had wanted him to. But well...
Unfortunately, he had never been a good listener.
And he had never been one to pursue something without taking out all the stops either, never once caring of the risks he would face along the way. No matter the investigation, no matter what he had to do to complete his mission, always, he always did with maddened determination and full intentions to pull through however he could. And he always did. But this time–
“There you are.”
Kaeya’s eyes widened as the heavy, deliberate footsteps echoed around him. Footsteps so familiar he could recognize readily above anyone else’s and without need for a moment’s thought. One whose unique Vision-imbued warmth he could pick out, even amid a crowd of similarly gifted others. The very warmth that had been all he’d known for the greater part of a decade, only to find himself left in naught but bitter cold the day he’d opened his damned mouth and ruined it all.
Once, his best friend. Once, his definition of home.
The twin half of his soul.
Kaeya closed his eyes, tipping his head back almost in prayer ( ha! As if any god would help him now! ) before pulling together his facade and shifting to smirk in the man’s direction.
“Well, well–fancy meeting you here, Master Diluc.”
A scoff and burning glare greeted him in turn.
Diluc looked as good as ever–which truly was to say he appeared an utter, hopeless mess.
The man’s hair was all tousled up and tangled, dark circles painted under his eyes that somehow seem to have gotten worse than Kaeya last remembered ( ugh, figures he never listened to Kaeya’s subtle little pleas to take better care of himself ), and his clothes were a rumpled mess too, all burnt and frayed in some places. Not quite what anyone, especially Kaeya, would call a sight for sore eyes at the moment, truth be told. Nor a truly pleasant one, considering the last time Kaeya had seen him look like this almost half a decade ago.
How Diluc could pull together some uncanny semblance of poise and dignity whenever he manned the bar or stood about the Winery after dealing with his little…covert side projects always eluded Kaeya. Especially considering how he usually took care of things, ever the brute compared to Kaeya’s more roguish methods. Honestly...never had he wished Diluc would have at least tried for that cover up than now.
Though Kaeya supposed it would be a bit much asking him to do the same so deep into the Abyss’s lair.
“Where is he?”
The corner of his mouth twitched at the sudden, blunt demand.
“Always straight to the point with you.” Kaeya cocked his head a slight, feigning contemplation as he softly hummed. “Pray tell, do you ask for the young Prince? Or are you worried about my dear pal Dainsleif?” His teeth bared in a grin at the sharp twist of Diluc’s lips. “Sorry to say, but you’d be hard-pressed to find either here. It’s just me. Lucky you, right?”
Diluc gaze hardened, as steam rose of his clothes. Wait—steam?
Sheer practice and habit maintained Kaeya’s composure as he turned further to better survey the cavern. Even as he felt pinpricks of dread blooming in his chest.
Stars–no wonder he’d felt so damn bad just now. He hadn’t realized how cold the space around him had gotten. How cold it had become in his wake, if he dared to gleam past where Diluc now stood. Although perhaps...perhaps he hadn’t noticed, because it had become something all too natural for him to feel, nowadays. Or perhaps because damn near every other physical sensation had come to dull compared to the agony of the curse eating away at him, more than they already had been before. Still…
Kaeya’s eyes raked swiftly over the frost and ice that had spread about the room. Over all the odd flakes swirling about in the otherwise still and stifling air, and the icicles that seemed to steadily grow and inch menacingly toward them as his own nerves thrummed and screamed. At the fog that slipped past Diluc’s lips with every breath he took, unlike Kaeya’s own—
“So…you’ve finally become one of them?”
Kaeya blinked, now clearly remembering with a start exactly why he had stumbled here in the first place. Of the actual corruption so deeply entrenched in his being, it near fully manifested now across his right side.
The side Diluc now had a clear view of. That had him far more on guard than before, his beloved claymore suddenly manifested in hand.
Kaeya claws dug into the now toughened, seemingly frostbitten-to-a-greyed-blue flesh of his palm as he laughed.
“Well, you don’t need to say it like that, Master Diluc,” he remarked, shifting to finally face his sworn brother head on. The movement almost had Diluc brandishing his weapon, ready to swing if Kaeya should dare draw close.
As if he could.
Kaeya couldn’t help the wry little scoff that left his lips. Perhaps he…couldn’t really stand upright right now ( weak, utterly weak- ) but he would still grace the man before him with the baiting little grin he knew he especially loathed to see. Just like the rest of him- “You wound me, y’know.”
The Wolf's Gravestone glinted dangerously as Diluc grip on it tightened.
I can do so much more than wound, the gesture almost seemed to say.
Kaeya managed a laugh in spite of it all. “Ah, right.” In spite of the lurch in his gut at the all-too familiar situation he found himself in. But, hey, better to mask his weaknesses before the other. “I nearly forgot.” Just as he always had since they’d reunited a mere year ago. As he did, even in their youth- "You never were fond of small talk."
A foggy exhale. “Neither of us have that luxury right now.”
“Because of where we are?” A tilt of the head. “Or because you won’t let me?”
Even with his jesting, airy tone, Kaeya couldn’t help the bitter jab in his heart as he spoke.
Though really...really, what did it matter if Diluc allowed him to speak and explain himself, or not? They both long since knew not one conversation between them could go without wicked jabs below the belt nor without leaving either nursing bruising aches that stung more than physical wounds ever would. Not one conversation could ever even begin resolve the bad blood and tenseness between them.
Could such a thing even help them now? With Kaeya in the worst of states, and Diluc scarcely a swing away from finishing what he’d attempted years ago?
Ha, even Kaeya didn’t bet on absurdities like that.
And Kaeya knew, far more than anyone else, that the Diluc who was so easily forgiving and caring to him had long since been stamped out like a fire amid a Snezhnayan winter. Probably because of his time wandering through one.
Or had it been Kaeya’s truth that had done that?
Diluc drew a slow breath, flames flickering to life at his fingertips and dancing along his blade.
Kaeya couldn’t help fighting the urge to cringe away in the face of them.
The light burned as much as Dawn had that very day. All he wanted to do now was flee in the face of it, crawl further into darkness to escape it. It was only the conscious fear of turning his back to Diluc now and the lingering threads of his pride and bravado that kept him in place.
Fear....ha. Since when did he fear anything?
Truly...had he come to be so far gone–
“And if I did...would you actually mean what you say for once?”
Kaeya swiftly glanced back up in surprise. Then a soft sigh left him in realizing the action had only served to make Diluc all the more wary. Ahh, seriously...!
“Well–”
You need only give me a chance.
The words stilled on Kaeya’s tongue before he could dare give them voice. Right, a chance...no, someone like him didn’t deserve such a thing. Diluc knew that as well as he. And Diluc certainly wouldn’t be the type to cave to such a plea either, especially not now.
As was evident by the way his grip tightened on the Wolf’s Gravestone’s hilt. Shifting as though he very well might swing right then and there–shit, would he really–
An abrupt wave of cold rippled through the air.
Kaeya couldn’t help the stilted snarl in pain, curling in on himself as the heightened, even if unconscious, use of his Vision burned in his chest. Burned, as it always had from the moment he’d gotten it. Burned, stronger and stronger still, the more tainted with Abyssal energy he had become.
Especially now, the more his steady corruption and transformation furthered.
Kaeya’s good eye widened a slight.
Right. His transformation.
The reason he had come to hide away here, like some hapless dying animal, the instant he’d heard the sounds of the knights challenging and fighting their way through the Abyssal domain. The very reason Diluc looked to him now with more wariness and enmity than he'd ever had before.
Was it still better than facing Diluc’s apathy and disregard?
Į’d͏͏ mu̶̧c̵̛h̵̢̕ ̶r͘àt̷̷h͟e̴r͘ ̷͜h̴̴e̴҉ ̛͞s̡͜m͡i͜l͟e ̷̡a̴͝t̸͠͞ ́͘̕me͠҉ ̴́a̵g̴a̧in-
Kaeya drew a shaky breath, jaw quivering a slight in a bated wince.
It rattled against his ribs now, felt near useless to him, no matter how long he’d have it go on. Uncomfortable, like if it were water flooding through his chest rather than air. If Kaeya didn’t know any better, he would almost say his body were currently telling him he no longer needed it. No longer needed the breath in his lungs, that he need only close his eyes and sink into the murky...Abyss.
A dry laugh left him.
Right...that’s what it all meant.
He truly was so far gone now–
“Kaeya–”
“Stave your hand a moment, Luc.” The nickname had the other man freezing right in place, halting his abrupt advance.
Kaeya huffed out a ragged exhale, releasing the clawed hand he hadn’t realized had been digging into his chest. When had that happened? When his Vision had hurt him? In his contemplation?
Whatever the case, he pushed the thought aside in favor of inspecting the self-inflicted injury.
Rather than blood, whisps of dark Abyssal energy spilled from his deep, gouged wounds–oh...had that been why Diluc had started forwards? The sight of wounds?
Ha, what was he thinking? For that to be so, the man would need to be concerned for his sake. And he clearly wasn’t. Why would he be?
Looking back at Diluc, their gazes brief met as the man searched him for an explanation.
Right. He wasn’t concerned...he wasn’t.
So then why was he looking at him like that?
A certain desperation crawled up Kaeya’s throat the longer he made the mistake to dwell and overthink as he always did. At the sight before him now, of the now flame-laced claymore, of the man’s ever burning inferno of a gaze–one Kaeya had long since been unable to decipher–now. Of realizing...this would be the sight he would keep in his memories forevermore. This mocking memory of their most harrowing day together. All he needed now was for Dawn to make its appearance, and they’d have their picture-perfect recreation.
Save Kaeya ruining it all, as always.
The thought had his gut churning, an odd feeling gnawing at his heart. Or maybe it was the festering curse, for all he knew.
Whatever the case...ha, what was he even getting so upset about? Had he expected to see a mournful smile? Pity? No, either from Diluc of all people, more so directed at him, would have been laughable. A dream at most, or perhaps a nightmare, better said.
Wishful thinking, really; truly, that of a fool with too much hope to spare, and a wonderful daydream to look forward to. Someone Kaeya had never truly been to begin with.
After all, it was his determination that brought him here, regardless of how it would have affected everyone else he know. Regardless of the consequences he would face in his venture, as he always acted–a man with something to lose and a future to look forward to would never do such a thing. Especially since he damn well knew part of those consequences had been accepting the fact that he would come to face Diluc once more. To face that weapon drawn his way yet again.
There was no doubt in Kaeya’s mind–Dawn burned to taste his flesh once more; more than ever before. And with Kaeya being laced with Cryo and the sinner’s blight coursing through his very being now...well, he supposed it was clear there was only one way this encounter would end.
How it should.
The thought had Kaeya’s steadily slowing heart thud painfully in his chest. Had dread and anguish thrumming through his very being, as he watched Diluc’s jaw clench.
A childish part of him wanted to beg–he had always been able to get out of any trouble when he did, duping Diluc and anybody else with his little pout as teary-eyed pleas. The lad never failed to rush to his aid either way, even when everybody and himself damn well knew Kaeya was responsible and/or more than able to handle it all himself. But he already knew such a thing would never work for him against the other ever again.
Maybe he should run. Run, and drag out the inevitability he must face now a little longer, like the coward he’d been for the past five years. He was always so good at that, running and rushing about to keep at bay each and every little thing he couldn’t bear to face. Perhaps now, at this very moment, it would ease his splintered heart enough for him to at last face it all.
Ah...but what did it matter how he ultimately felt? Kaeya was well-used to forcing aside any bubbling feelings of unease and panic. Especially when he knew what must be done. no matter how difficult. Especially before the man in front of him now.
Thus, he chuckled and shook his head. “Ahh...don’t worry, I’m not...I’m not going to fight you now, Diluc. Actually, I have just one simple request before you go on ahead.”
Diluc’s brows furrowed. “And why should I concede to it?”
Why should I believe you?
Kaeya drew a soft, weak breath, then lowered his hands to his sides, palms upturned as he raised his head. “Well, it would certainly be of benefit to you. I can promise you that much.”
You have no reason to.
But please, believe me just this once.
A breath...two...and Diluc’s stance neither relaxed nor steeled further.
Well, that was a sign as good as any.
Kaeya licked his dry, frost-flecked lips and steadied himself. Straightening up his pain-wracked body with as much semblance of dignity he could cobble together, then at last tilting his head back just enough to still meet Diluc’s gaze as he would bare his throat.
“Diluc, please...kill me now. And make it swift.”
A rueful smile tugged across Kaeya’s lips as the firm, deliberate hand upon Wolf’s Gravestone began to tremble. As Diluc’s burning, cruelly-stoic gaze at long last faltered, shock and the faintest glimmer of grief flickering across his features.
Had that truly been all it took to make the man look to him with something other than resentment and enmity?
Ahh...but of course. What did a sinner like him expect?
Truly, he should have expected nothing less from the cruel hands of fate.
#genshin impact#kaeya alberich#diluc ragnvindr#diluc#kaeya#//I completely forgot I don't just icons on here kdjfgnfkg#;mun drabbles#//Bc I listened to a playlist and I needed to write a Thing#//Like 2.6k words of self-indulgent Sad#//For my most favorite Genshin duo khjkfbkjgd#//Not sure if I wrote all I wanted exactly the way I envisioned but eh#//Might do a part 2 from Luc's pov with ideally Better resolution jkxndksgf#//A continuation and view into what he's thinking through all this; if you will#//Bc through this entire thing Kae is what we call an ✨ Unreliable Narrator ✨#//Who knoowsss#//Uhh; shit; what do I trigger tag with#self-harm mention tw#//Not done on purpose; tho'#//I dunno what else; if sb knows; yell at me kjfdgftg#long post for ts
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uhh. okay. uh. i'm trying to like. come up w/ words but it's hard bc. autism. but uh. basically as long as you're not hurting people irl & everything's tagged whenever necessary, i genuinely dont care at all what you ship or not as long as nobody irl get hurt. i. don't care what dark topics you write about (or don't! not everything has to be doom & gloom) either. i write about a Lot of dark topics, especially to cope with trauma. nobody has the right to take that from me. a lot of my characters (& the i.ntrojects they are based on because remember they are muses but they're Also i.ntrojects, these are actual members of our s.ystem with feelings of their own) are flawed & traumatized. especially as a survivor of a lot of these said taboo things that most people in general dont like to talk about because they think it's a "dirty" subject myself as an actual survivor w/ did, i've said this before many times on this blog, i'm a c.sa survivor, i'm a c.ult survivor, i'm an i.ncest survivor & i'm no longer afraid to talk about it bc i'm with friends (i hope). it's vital. it's healing. it's important that it's talked about so people who've experienced these things don't feel alone. i can open up about it here. there's some stuff i'm uncomfortable with & i won't write, sure, there's some things i choose not to write that other moots of mine will & i'm not going to be holding that against them for writing about a topic or not (unless if like idk a portrayal of a character is racist or ableist, you get the point, hopefully) & just because I Don't Write Something Does Not Mean I'm Telling You Not To. that's silly imo.
that has Nothing to do with me or my trauma because a) i can differentiate between fiction & reality & b) it's. really weird. in the year 2024 that people will straight up automatically assume just because you write about a topic that somehow automatically means you support something irl when you. Don't Know That, You Do Not Know The Person & c) It's Not About Me & That's Okay & d) people shouldn't go around telling people what they should or shouldn't write as a general rule, we're all grown adults here, that's rude, unless, again, you're politely telling someone that something's off like idk someone writing ableist or racist about a character, don't just go guns blasting ESPECIALLY when you Already Know That Someone Writes About Dark Topics & You Continue Looking At It Anyway ie someone writes a muse that's a serial murderer & you don't like gore & you continue to follow that blog anyway. thats on You. that is Your responsibility. tags exist for a reason. as long as everything's tagged it should be fine) about a specific topic, that wouldn't Change anything. said topics would still exist even if every single person stopped writing about a topic. cults would still exist even if everyone were to stop writing about it. my trauma would still exist even if everyone were to stop writing about the specific things i went through. if i don't like something, all i gotta do is just keep scrolling or if necessary block a tag. (not a whole lot triggers me, there's a difference between squicks & triggers & i'm. tired of people conflating the two when they're entirely different things). i hate to say it because it should be obvious but people don't magically wake up one day & decide to do weird shit for the shits & giggles. there's this weird increasing trend to obsessively search for "problematic" media or "problematic" characters in media to justify demonizing or cancelling it (i'm not talking about like i.e t.wilight where it has actual harmful consequences for n.ative people, i'm talking about people Looking for shit to get mad at & then get shocked that people are like "?") & i'm gonna be honest, a Lot of this is starting to sound like conservative bookburning & a lot of this sounds like the shit my old c.ult leaders used to tell me. it's really that simple. what matters most of all is education about said topics that tbh i find sorely lacking. let's educate people first on what something actually is (for instance, an actual cult & signs) & then people will decide what to do about it & how they portray something. because regardless of what someone else does (& this was something i've had to accept over the years), Not Everything Is Made For Me & That's Okay, I Am Safe Now.
idk i just find that people (in general, i promise it's not at anyone in particular, it's just something i've been meaning to talk about for a long while after seeing some stuff on my dash both on my personal blog & on seeing some stuff in the asoiaf fandom & ngl a bunch of other fandoms too from like years ago so like please don't take this personally /srs) are like way too eager to jump to conclusions about people about all this different stuff when you literally don't know them, that's another person sitting on the other side of that screen that has feelings & sentiments the same way you do. i'm 24. i'm grown (& still growing!). if i've somehow caused offense by not making myself clear enough i'm sorry. that's an autism thing. can we stop acting like this. pls. i'm a grown ass adult & what do i do when i see smth i find wonky or squicky? (& even then sometimes something can fluid)? i look at it rq then i go "oh. thats wonky, oh well thats none of my business!!", i then mind my own business then i keep scrolling. not everyone's writing journey is gonna be the exact same way & that's OKAY. don't hold other people back just because it's not the way YOU write things. you're not better than anyone else. like i've straight up heard of people in a fandom saying "oh you like [x] because [y] portrays [x]" when that person is literally a survivor of that trauma. please. people. stop this shit. quit acting like you give a shit about trauma survivors when you only think there's one way of being a trauma survivor, the "perfect" survivor. learn media literacy. stop clutching pearls. people can skip certain scenes. i think people forget that some media are Meant to be uncomfortable. it's Meant to unsettle you. sometimes things are written as a warning. see: midsommar, a LOT of other horror media, a fuckton of gothic fiction, all of that shit. if you genuinely can't handle a theme, you're under no obligation to consume it but acting as if they have no purpose or as if people, ESPECIALLY survivors, don't have a right to tell these stories, stories that often relate to the darkest most disturbing parts of their life, do some introspection. ask yourself Why you think that. nothing wrong with self reflection. obviously, that's not to say there's no room for critique or concern but u get what i'm saying i hope. you can like something or even a character without endorsing the topics involved therein or the character(s) in question. sometimes things that are dark & disturbing can be cathartic for people who've been through absolute hell but i'm Also not going to be judging people for being like "okie dokie this isn't for me!!", that's okay, people don't have to consume anything they genuinely can't handle, that's why communication is literally SO important in all kinds of things but like don't force other people in your bubble when they wanna be in their own bubble ykwim. we're all different. do what makes You happiest.
it isn't that big of a deal irl (unless if we're talking about the obvious like racism, homophobia, transphobia, queerphobia, etc). basically what i'm trying to say is like. there's honestly way more shit to be worried about than what someone writes or rps. don't be the type of person to be morally outraged at what other grownass consenting adults are doing because there's gonna be shit that dont make sense to ya. Try to be compassionate towards other people. give other people a chance to talk if you're able to. even if you don't always agree with what they're saying. if you need to, do what needs to be done. every single person deserves respect & what we're Not going to do in the year 2024 is act shitty towards each other just because we don't agree on smth. what we're Not going to do is use people's real traumas for discourse points no matter which "side" (i guess) you fall onto. more than anything, i (& we) believe in nuance, kindness, compassion & respect for each other. we're s.hipcourse/f.andom disk horse unaligned. We Just Work Here.
#ooc.#els bestie said i sounded ok & i asked them to hold my hand & they are so !! i literally wouldnt be saying this w/o them holding my hand lo#anyway please don't rb. please be kind. actually lets all be kind to each other. literally look at the person right next to you!!!!!!#& give them a bigass hug. i like bubbles. els bestie is also doing cpr on me. ok. alexa play temperature by sean paul#/ cults mention#/ incest mention#tbd.#<< MAYBE. idk yet#honestly i. really dont even like talking about this bc it makes me rly nervous. but i felt like i had to say it bc. well. things need 2 be#this'll likely be the only time i'll be talking about stuff like this bc. moral o.cd
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time for me to unfollow the haes tag bc istg i see more fatphobic stuff under it than actual haes
#and it fucking drives me crazy#like why tag your anti haes post 'haes'? or at least tag it as 'anti haes' as well so that people can block that tag#bc these posts can be quite triggering yk#and yeah ik people who do this are aware and they do it on purpose bc they hate fat people this much and they don't mind triggering them#and it makes me so mad and disappointed#bc its not ur duty to 'educate' people who have literally blocked the 'anti haes' tag bc they dont want to see ur fatphobic shit#like let people decide what posts they wanna se yk?? dont use tags that do not apply to ur post especially if it can be triggering#or at least tag it with sth i can block too istg#uhh sorry for the tag went#btw im not very radically haes but i wanted to see more posts abt that to just learn a bit more abt it#but i cant fucking do that here apparently
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