#// *i AM VERY AWARE. im not stupid

[cthulhum]

does anyone realize how crazy it is to have the actor of a mostly headcanoned queer ship say the fans were never crazy and they were right all along after 10+ years of everyone just absolutely going nuts over the said queerbaited ship

[james-spooky]

this is a test

[piplupod]

feels like the isolation is a gushing wound and going to the centre is just a small bandage. i think perhaps i am not really ever going to feel okay unless something miraculous happens. i am retaining some semblance of sanity now that I'm leaving the house and socializing with non-family more than once a week, but i am still hurting more than I can really tolerate and I don't know what to do about it. there doesn't seem to be a fix for this that I can enact.

[moodycarcass]

Actually writing down project stuff and trying very hard but not being brave at all about the fact I'm having to genuinely look at the reader and explain fantasy racism and the colonizer horse people. This all feels very stupid I am not going to lie

[perseuus]

i miss my friends :(

(a reminder that anything starting tagged 'hush emily' is usually my sad rambling thoughts that i feel i can't speak to people about so i instead write it on tumblr - please feel free to mute the tag)

[lebrookestore]

oh girl what the fuck

[theskywaslookingback]

My dad: *texts my mom the day after Father’s Day to see if I was mad at him because I didn’t call him*

Also my dad: *sends me a text on Easter and then radio silence for months* *does not call to ask if I have plans for my birthday* *does not text to check in on me* *does not invite me over to his house for anything ever* *allows my stepmom to use his money to prioritize her kids over me* *literally doesn’t ever act like he wants anything to do with me actually* *cancels or changes plans at the last minute because he decides he wants to drink instead* *offers to help my mom pay my car payments and then never does* *gets us gym memberships and then cancels them without warning because he didn’t have the money and just doesn’t tell me* *cannot hold a thirty second conversation without mentioning ‘the Chinese threat’ or ‘Covid was invented by democrats to replace Trump in office’*

My dad: Why doesn’t my child call me? I am the specialist most important person in the whole wide world. What could she have to be mad about?

[monmuses]

// *daily reminder that this blog will post about muses and certain shows that are considered problematic or controversial solely because of the topics they cover, the fandom behind the show, and/or the creators themselves. please understand that i do not care for the creators or worship them for creating said shows. i enjoy the content for myself only.

// *so if you plan on coming onto anon to trash on my interests or try to privately talk to me about how my writing is problematic, my muse choices are problematic, or me talking about shows in general is bad and you want me to change my view? don’t even fucking try it. you WILL be blocked. if you don’t want to see me post about shows i like, you are free to ask me to tag things if you wish to follow. if you can’t do that, unfollow and block me.

// *i’m tired of seeing my friends be bashed for their interests because of the creators behind it. it is NOT hard to separate the art from the artist. no one is the same when people have similar interests. don’t chase after people because you dislike something that they enjoy and YOU have the urge to try and change them.

[gender-trash]

physically cant read the harry potter books anymore :/ i was flipping through my print copies for Tom Riddle Information the other day and i kept getting sidetracked bc every three pages i saw some new stupid thing to get mad about. where does the wizarding world GET ITS FOOD FROM. DO THEY HAVE A CONCEPT OF LOANS. WHY IS DUMBLEDORE SUCH A FUCKING ASSHOLE. MANY QUESTIONS!!!

[thenarrativefoil]

ok I got something to say abt house md and that's that it has a whole episode (THE SECOND EVER EPISODE) concerned with how House's disability connects him to his work. And it is a fucking THESIS STATEMENT of an episode!!!

It says outright: The key to the mystery of this episode is that a child was adopted, and the love between him & the parents was strong.

It says, having put together multiple story acts: we'll throw you a bone of a conclusion statement: House misses playing rugby. The patient is a young rugby player, who before House's help would have developed full blown measles. He goes to see the kid play a game when he's better.

It says: Birth parents will refuse to protect their children in the most basic of ways (vaccination), and be offended you told them to protect their child

there's also the running joke, which concludes with: even though House's methods are wacko and rude, he uses the joke to pay for the cost of the test needed to crack the case.

also, flip side, it is pretty racist when House keeps doing racist things 'ironically' but then justifies his conclusions with some other """big brained misunderstood scientist man""" explaination, and Foreman is shown speaking up about the racism, and then is dismissed? by the episode plot? as if he could never understand House's super-smart-brain-time. of course House isn't being racist!!! he's too smart for that!!! 🤪

So! 2nd episode, wow I can't believe I still remember this show (a decade after watching it for the first time) and wow it sure had an opinion on everything! I forgot how preachy shows were in the early 2000s. That post 9/11 propaganda was everywhereeee and those writing patterns were inescapable.

[piplupod]

once again i get annoyed that i am so different from the average person because ppl make assumptions about me that are so untrue and get on my nerves HGSDJKL yesterday in the kitchen the lady was talking about how she and her husband are starting a hobby farm and i brought up how i'd love to have a sheep farm and looked into the logistics of it a year or two ago (before realizing how unattainable it would be lol i do not have the money to start that. plus now i am unfortunately disabled in a way that would make it nigh impossible to run). and immediately she said to me "oh you'd have to be okay with butchering the sheep though" expecting me to get all uncomfortable and i was just like "...yeah? i know? i actually do a bit of taxidermy work at home, and have looked into working in the funeral industry in the past" and she was so surprised and intrigued by the taxidermy stuff hdsgjkl like......

idk i just get frustrated when ppl automatically assume that i am unable to do smth or that i'll be put off by smth and then they act on that assumption in their behaviour towards me. i know it's nothing personal but i do feel like oftentimes it is misogyny-based since I am read as being a woman by anybody who knows me in any capacity more than just Strangers and less than "you are someone I feel wholly safe with" (because then i'd share that i am in fact not a woman lmfao). and it just irritates me because I feel like if I were a man then people wouldn't bring up the whole "oh you'd have to KILL animals !!!" whenever i talk about how i've always wanted to work on a farm, or they wouldn't assume I'm afraid of bugs, or they wouldn't assume I am grossed out by dead things, etc etc etc. i just hate the differences in behaviour and assumptions.

[magnoliamyrrh]

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[kabuwu]

Ummm -> guy who is feeling weirdly nostalgic abt some earlier shojo Mangas they've read when they were younger

[i-am-a-small-hobbit]

I am sad. I've been growing my hair out for almost a year at this point, and up until recently I had no idea how much curl it has to it. I wish desperately to grow it out veeerrryyyyyy long, but unfortunately I don't think my job will allow that (not my employer, my job is just very dirty in nature and I have had cows shit directly on my head before and I just can't see myself dealing with waistlength hair in the agricultural/dairy industry). So I am sad. I will probably never get to see the full potential my hair has and that makes me sad

[mrfoox]

Another one of those ... 'i' ve been lucky' but... Having ASD really makes you easier to manipulate and use and I feel I've been fortune to not have come across anyone who have done such to me...

[wellnoe]

emma and jean are performing in different ways and care about different things within that performance but it is misogynistic i think to position emma as like. inauthentic and curated to jean’s natural. jean is also curated.