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update: i fit into my stiff ass high waisted jeans again !! haven't worn these in a while. this feels like such a reward

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this is so me i can't describe it

doing this one who's with me

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day 2 !!

went on a little walk again. ended up having to eat dinner with my family and ate way over my limit, but i pvrg3d it and woke up 1 lb lighter anyway <3

w31ghed in at 214.6 !!!!

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day 1:

i also went on a little walk :) i know i'm super under the c4l deficit but i like doing that, it makes me feel good. i did a omad with greek yogurt and pita bread, and i felt hungry after but didn't eat again !!

woke up today feeling decent, and w3ighed in at 215.6. i'll keep updating y'all <3

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BROKE MY MAINTENANCE STREAK, WOOOOOOOO

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just made this for myself, i'll lyk what kind of progress i make !!!

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IM STILL AT 217.5 damnit

okay actually though what do i do. it's been several days and i've been eating below 500 :(

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if masturbating burns c4ls then i must be in one hell of a deficit today LMAO

talk about cardio

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controversial opinion: yes, 4n4blr encourages disordered behavior, but it's still 100x better than most of society, which also encourages it and then refuses to admit disordered behavior is disordered. at least 4n4blr acknowledges it's a disorder, at least 4n4blr talks about harm reduction, at least 4n4blr talks about the negative side effects, at least 4n4blr acknowledges disordered eating as disordered instead of normalizing diet culture, models being forced on an0rexic diets, "girl dinner" that's 80 calories, normalizing fatshaming, etc.

"Take electrolytes" "Throwing up too much can hurt you" "700 calories a day is unhealthy" "Skipping meals/fasting is unhealthy" are all things I've NEVER heard about before Tumblr. You know what I HAVE heard before? "Skip meals" "Eat less" "Your thighs look fatter" "You look prettier when you starve" "Sleep, don't eat." "Drink, don't eat."

Every toxic mindset on 4n4blr I've heard countless times in real life as a child, from parents, society, other girls, etc. 4n4blr is the ONLY PLACE I've ever seen those ideas with the acknowledgement that they're harmful and disordered.

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fuck the 4na brain fog is real, i just zoned out through basically all of my therapy session

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tying my shoes while wearing high waisted jeans that are a little too tight to remind myself that it wouldn't be that uncomfortable if i wasn't so fat :)

little things like that are the true motivation

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IM STILL FUCKING MAINTAINING

i didn't think i'd plateau this fast :((((( what do i do guys, i've been stuck for a few days now

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my tips for f4st!ng <3

1. distract yourself! if you're at home i'll admit this is a little hard, but it IS very helpful :)) clean your room! do your makeup! do your nails! listen to music! make playlists! call your friends! make your bed! organize!

2. try on clothes that are too small for you! this one gets me the most, it's rlly triggering knowing that you aren't there yet (at least for me)

3. look at th!!!nsp000! i prefer looking it up on here or pinterest!

4. make lists of clothing you want to buy at your gw, if you f4st maybe you'll actually be able to fit into them one day

5. sleep!!! this one is the hardest for me lolz :p but you can't feel hungry if you're asleep :)

6. go on a walk! go walk around your neighborhood! or walk up and down your stairs! walk in circles in your room! it burns c4l0r!3s & distracts you :))

7. drink water!!! when you first wake up drink water, when you feel hungry drink water, when you feel tired drink water, when you want to quit drink water

8. stay away from the kitchen! the food in there is gross anyways & you don't need it! if you're not around food you won't want it as much!

9. dye your hair! this is usually very time consuming & will most likely take your mind off food

10. paint your nails! i know i included this earlier but i feel like it includes its own section :)) if your nails are wet you can't really eat food.

11. keep a reminder of your w3!ght! if you have a mirror in your room write your w3!ght on it, constantly remind yourself that's how much you w3!gh.

12. write your w3!ght on your hand! any time you go to grab food you'll see it and remember why you're doing this, how far you've come and how much farther you have to go.

there's def more but this is all i can think of rn! if you have any helpful tips share them in the comments <3

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my real issue is i hate waiting for long term rewards so when i don’t lose ten pounds after a fast i feel like im still failing

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NO BINGE DECEMBER

reblog to claim xx

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REBLOG if you are ACTIVE this DECEMBER ✨

..and i’m looking for mutuals lol