#you expect me to be insulted over that?
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Oh hey, I didn’t tell you guys, did I?
I got a hate anon!
It was while I was on accidental hiatus, I think, which... my guy, I wasn’t even around for a time there, the fuck?
Anyway, I deleted it and had a laugh, because like? It was so stupid? Fucker just popped in, wrote “you’re a [F Slur]!” and left.
Buddy. Buddy. Really?
You came to a fandom thirst blog run by a non-binary TV-Head thing, what did you expect?? That’s a you problem, my guy. 😂
I’m so fucking amused, I can’t even...
#I mean technically they weren't WRONG#but like#you expect me to be insulted over that?#you're a shit person anon please touch grass#spark speaks#cw hate#cw homophobia#cw f slur
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steph and babs don’t need personas, as far as anyone is concerned they’re just family friends.
bruce has his “brucie wayne” persona, very clumsy, playboy, kinda air headed but still very smart and wants to do good for gotham. which of course makes him seem naive cause good?? for gotham??
dick has “richie grayson-wayne” who’s dabbled in modeling before becoming a gymnastics teacher. also very vocal about his “adorable little siblings”
jason never really had a “nickname” after all he was from crime alley and he had to look GOOD for them or else they’d go back to “he’s just like the rest of them”. his persona was very empathetic and kind though, which worked great for him since that’s how he was like. he always talked about doing several non profit charities. the elites switched their opinions of him on a dime, although the rest of gotham adored him.
damian refuses to go by a nickname. his persona is based around animals, mostly about abandoned animals. it’s very clear his goal for the future is to make good animal shelters and help every animal he can. it’s the only persona he could stomach and there were SEVERAL other ideas
cass is “cass wayne” very quiet, polite, generally just there in the background. normally hanging around one of her siblings, most often tim. although her being around him unnerves some of them, she’ll get a look in her face and then her and tim both know they were lying. they fully get why she hangs around tim
duke is regularly seen as the normal one. pleasant to be around, kind, but generally also just there. very normal student, not really sure what he’s gonna do. the elites don’t particularly for him, though the rest of gotham love him.
tim’s persona differs from the rest pretty heavily. he can’t get away with being like bruce, the elites vividly remember janet and see her in him very often, which vaguely scares them if they’ll be honest. he’ll act like “Tim Drake-Wayne” to unsettle them, after all he’s a Drake why is he acting clumsy? they’ve seen him when he was younger and he was the spitting image of perfect. it makes more sense to them when he trips and lands right where he can tell them something no one else can hear. “Timothy Drake” is what scares them though. the tim that casually whispers secrets no one else knows, who points out someone they’re supposed to have a “private meeting with” in a week. who has nearly cause several of them to go broke with such simple actions, and the only reason they didn’t was cause he let them stay rich. there was one elite who insulted damian near tim and suddenly said elite had to get an apartment in crime alley, pay his now ex-wife, a kid he had with some random person, and several debts
the fact that lex luther and tim are some kind of friends also doesn’t make them feel super great but that’s another issue
#tim drake#bruce wayne#damian wayne#jason todd#cassandra cain#dick grayson#unhinged tim drake#chaotic tim drake#i am pushing the tim and lex being weird friends who aren’t really friends but they tolerate each other significantly more than you would#expect. gotta be on good terms with the in laws right?#tim starts walking over to someone and they scramble for a reason to leave and hide#dc stands for disregard canon#is tim fanonized in this? yes. am i gonna stop making him like that? no. and you can’t make me#lex: who are you trying to bankrupt now?#tim: that bitch right there. she insulted cass’s clothing who does that? ig she also called me a slur but who cares#lex is debating if he needs to get someone to take care of a dead body. mentally preparing for this to be thing to make tim go super villain
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btw i will forever recommend just. refusing to engage in discourse. its free its easy and you literally arent missing anything LMAO - 99% of discourse on here is just on the most pointless petty shit that literally doesnt mean a single thing to anyone in real life (i am looking directly at you "pRo/AnTi" shippers), and the other 1% is genuinely important shit... that isnt going to be solved in any productive way by insulting '''the other side''' online. arguing with strangers online never changes anyones mind all youre doing is making yourself *and* your cause look annoying as hell :thumbsup: maybe chill out. find a hobby.
#dont even get me started on how apparently this entire fucking site has never heard of nuance in its life#im ngl dude i think if youre boiling down a complicated topic to 'well this is the good side (my side) and then the BAD EVIL SIDE'#and putting anyone who even slightly falls out of line with your beliefs on the evil side#like. thats not gonna be productive in the slightest right. you understand that right#if you wanna have meaningful nuanced discussions with people you actually know about serious topics then go for it!#just dont drag random strangers into it#if i have to see one more post with dumb bullshit acronyms that everyones expected to know that insults anyone who doesnt blindly agree wit#them i stg#'if you dont agree with this then clearly youre a [evil side] who hates [group] and does [bad thing]. theres no other logical explanation#for you possibly not agreeing with me'#and theyre talking about the most obscure insane discourse youve literally never heard of before thatll be flooding your dash for the next#month#had to unfollow a really good artist because they just kep reblogging the most aggressive 'every [evil side] sucks and hates [good side] an#doesnt care about them and wants to oppress them'#(said '[evil side]' wasnt even a moral stance it was literally just something you were born as. like. you get how thats fucked up right)#which uh. sucked! especially since i was part of that [evil side]#anyway midnight rant over tldr uhhh discourse stupid go get hobbies#and if i ever mention what discourse topic inspired this post ill probably get torn apart LMAOO#(hint: its one of the stupid pointless ones)#me.txt
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literal hot take: fahrenheit is better than celsius. not just for everyday use, in every context.
first off: the degrees are smaller so the system is more precise, simple as. but more importantly fahrenheit--which is older, and originally european--was designed to be intuitive to the human experience. celsius was designed to match two of the conversion points (it doesn't account for the vaporization point) of one (1) substance, and... well, that's all!
0°F is about as cold as we can stand for much time, 100°F is about as hot, and 50-60°F is comfortable (depending on the weather you're used to). it's an easily-understood system where numbers convey meaning without requiring memorization.
those figures in celsius are -17.777°C and 37.777°C. if you dont have a learning disability/dysgraphia, take a moment to imagine how hard it would be to interpret those numbers. the comfortable goldilocks temperature of 60°F becomes 15.555°C, which doesnt map to any scale we use. but people use scales of 1 to 10 to describe comfort every day! a 1 or 10 is too extreme, and so are 10°F and 100°F.
celsius saves us having to memorize two important numbers--which every american does have memorized, 32 and 212--and sacrifices the legibility of every other number on the scale! is it better to memorize two numbers and make the rest of your system intuitive, or to make those two numbers easy and need to memorize everything else?
i don't think this argument is unreasonable or difficult to grasp, but it always gets intense pushback from international folks, even friends that i know are reasonable people, who don't engage with my points and insist that the universality of celsius must mean it's better. it uncritically considers the system one was raised with as superior purely because it's familiar--which is what americans are accused of!
i get it. america sucks real bad in a vast wealth of ways you are absolutely correct to criticize. and when our systems differ they often really are worse (imperial vs metric) or are equal, which means it would be better to match the rest of the world (driving on the right, though we aren't the only country that does). this is not one of those times! popularity doesnt make something better.
you're welcome to prefer the one you're used to, and you can even argue that americans should adopt celsius because you think ease of conversion matters more than ease of use. but claiming celsius is a better system is just not true.
P.S.: if you say something on this post, i politely ask that you 1. keep a sense of proportion regarding how important this really is (i.e. not very), 2. take the time to consider and engage with my points instead of clowning on my stance without actually thinking about it in the way i described above. uncritical acceptance of local customs is supposed to be an american thing, don't bite our style!
#kicking a hornet's nest bc you feel youre in the right#i cant stress enough how much flack ive gotten for this and i expect more but i must speak my truth#i had a friend looked down upon and insulted over this today so i wanted to speak out about why folks are wrong abt this#(other than being dicks)#(but that too)#sage speaks#sage original post#if you come at me with the kelvin system im gonna uno reverse you with the rankine system#im going to kill ty betteridge and edgar woe.begone#mostly for other reasons but also this
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kerubim pushing the goultard/arty yaoi shipper agenda onto baby joris??
#joris @ goultard (conditioed by ages of kerubim's gushing): I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE.#goultard: (he knows im a mass murderer?? very expected and normal)#joris: (he's a guy who can't get over his ex just like kerubim and its so fucking cringe when coupled with him constantly insulting me)#wakfu#dofus#im cryingg#why is he telling all of this to baby joris.#the guide to krosmoz is so good i NEED to review it because its pretty much 99% kerubim infodumping about lore to joris
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I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently
#facebook always does that 'here's a post from this day 8 years ago' thing. and I see old comments interacting#with people and it's so like.. OOOOO~~ where are they now?? what's going on? how much have they changed as people?#how much are they the same? this is fascinating. i should contact them!!' but then it's like... take that to it's logical conclusion though#you would contact them and then IF they even responded it would take you 80 years to respond and then they would#think there was something wrong or that you were trying to be insulting or something. To contact anyone I need to include an 85 page#disclaimer of all of my social issues & mental illness things. 'If i take 3 weeks to reply I promise it has nothing to do with u' etc lol#THIS is why more people need to be into phone calls/voice calls/some form of audio real time communication/etc.#I think one of the main things that's hard about messaging through text for me is it's so unscheduled and open ended#(plus it takes forever if you're talking about anything in detail and gets very long very quickly)#because like you can send a message and then just get a reply whenever. and then you're expected to reply back whenever#so it's like you never know when the response will come or when a new obligation to reply can come up? so it's like this sudden thing with#no outline?? if that makes sense. whereas a phone call is very like 'hello let's schedule a call from 10am - 2pm on thursday'. And you know#EXACTLY when the interaction will start and EXACTLY when it will end and you can plan around it in your schedule easily.#I have the reverse thing of a lot of people (how people don't pick up phone calls/hate calls/only text)#I would literally talk on the phone with a stranger. I would have a discord voice chat with someone I barely know.#if someone I hardly even remember from elementary school asked to have a voice call with me out of nowhere I would do it.#but if a stranger MESSAGED me?? or someone I barely know sent me a TEXT or something?? I will never reply probably#It's just too vague and weird. and you can't read voice tone over text. and the interaction could last forever with no clear end#point and etc. etc. But a call is like. set. established. clear boundaries. you can read the flow of conversation better. rapport. etc. etc#I get that I guess people feel more anonymous or distanced over text?? but you can have fake phone numbers on the computer. or do like disc#rd calls. or zoom without a camera or etc. etc. Also the distance that's present in text is BAD distance because it just means that tone is#not conveyed properly and you will never truly get a sense of the person's conversational vibe or mannerisms or how well you really click.#ANYWAY ghgjh...... I'm so so so interested in concepts of like.. How did that one kid I used to talk to in elementary school#but then they moved away in 5th grade - how did they end up? what are they doing now?? etc. etc. Like despite the severe social anhedonia#and general lack of connection with others I'm just really fascinated in like.. idk. the human development of it all and like#the concept of how we're actually a million different people through the course of our lives ever evolving in different iterations and etc.#PLUS again. i love nostalgia. sometimes old peple you know might remember a shared memory or can tell you about something you forgot#or etc. like it's SUCH A COOL THING in CONCEPT but I am too socially inept generally speaking lol. which people I still talk to today are#familiar with my 'phone call once every few months' communication style. but strangers would just be like... wtf. And I don't blame them#Sure I literally cannot change the physical health + brain issues i have - but also I know enough to not put others through that lol
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so I watched the show and like. I wasn’t as angry as I expected to be. because it was so incoherent and so not resemblant of yakuza that I couldn’t really latch onto something to be mad about. like it’s just. such a mess.
#the cinematography was so uninteresting and all the scenes were so quick and sporadic that you can’t really Feel anything#there’s no time to get attached to anyone or anything and so much backstory is thrown out that everything either makes no sense or lacks#any significant impact#like how are you gonna make an adaptation of something and expect the audience to know enough about the source material to fill in the gaps#and yet divert so much from the source material that it’s nearly unrecognizable.#really wacky choices being made here#honestly the only thing that made me actually like genuinely irritated (as opposed to confused and disappointed) was the soundtrack#like. absolutely dismal. the only songs that stood out were western songs everyone knows and they were so horribly cliche#like tell me this was made by westerners without telling me#that’s such an insult to yakuza’s over a decade long discography that's generally always Very strong#at the very least the composers/producers put a ton of thought and effort into it#and the show just. says meh whatever. and throws in mr blue sky and fucking MAD WORLD#i'll give them SOME props for making yumi and yuko ('miho' i still dont get why they changed her name)#have some level of personality and 3 dimensionality#honestly i felt more sympathy and connection to both of them than i did kiryu#rambling#yakuza
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Pulptober 2023: From Pulp to Super
Sorry, but. Guys. Today's theme is just too good NOT to talk about the Batman/Green Hornet crossover two-parter.
Context: In the second half of the 1960s, there were two superhero shows on air: Batman, which everyone remembers fondly for the genuinely good quality and camp aesthetics, and The Green Hornet, which was much more down-to-earth, and only run for a season. It's pretty good, too, though personally, I maintain that the Green Hornet should be stuck in time in the 1930s. But that show was set in the same universe as Batman, so, might as well. Reality isn't really working in that universe anyway.
The Green Hornet appeared twice in Batman. One was a short cameo while Batman and Robin were climbing up a building, the other a two-parter crossover, in which Britt Reid and Kato go to Gotham while chasing a criminal who is building his entire empire on selling fake stamps to collectors.
Some of the highlights include:
Stamp collection as an extreme sport
A pretty young lady they need to help whose entire personality is the color pink
A message spelled with the letters in a bowl of alphabet soup
Britt agonizing about having to go up against Batman despite them being ideologically on the same side, meanwhile Kato is just like "Meh, I can beat up anyone, it's not a problem"
Britt and Bruce pretty directly telling each other that they think his costume is stupid, whereas their own costume is the best and coolest thing out there without either of them knowing whom they are talking to
The four heroes almost getting turned into stamps
Kato staying in the hotel while Britt is doing all the investigating. Which, Kato getting sidelined is an eternal problem with the Green Hornet stories, but in this particular case, it reads more like him taking a look at Gotham and going "Yeah, nope, not dealing with this city. Have fun with your stamp collection, Mr. Reid. I'll just stay here in this nice hotel."
It was just a very fun two-parter. It is my favorite Batman episode, obviously.
The relation with today's theme is that the Green Hornet started out as a pulp hero in the 1930s, but by the time we got to the 1960s, he was still there, pretty much unaltered, only that everyone was treating him as a superhero. Idk, personally, I like to use the broadest possible definition for a superhero, so as soon as masks and secret identities are involves, I will call it a superhero. So yeah, the Green Hornet can be read as both.
#you could not expect me NOT to take this opportunity#dang now I want to watch it again#but I don't have my hard drive on me so I won't#WHY DON'T THEY MAKE MODERN BATMAN STORIES LIKE THIS ONE??#like DC has absolutely the means#if they wanted to have a Batman vs Green Hornet movie they could get one made#they could even make it 'daaaark' if they wanted to#IDK I just want to see more of Bruce and Britt politely insulting each other over petty things#it was FUN!!#*sigh*#superheroes#Batman#The Green Hornet#pulptober#pulptober 2024
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wow, you get bullied a ton in middle school and think you've grown immune to it, get to adulthood, and then unexpectedly find out that getting bullied actually feels ten times worse than it used to
#negativity#offered an opinion with sources in a discord discourse channel (my first mistake yeah i know) and promptly got absolutely dogpiled on#they aren't insulting me (that's against the rules) they're just collectively laughing at me and implying i'm stupid#like oh okay cool#i thought - maybe they're teens?#NOPE self-reported all over 25#cool cool cool this sucks even worse then#shoutout to one guy who basically said 'all our voices matter' and hearted my two messages though#i'll take even that tiny support tbh#i thought my position was so obviously at least understandable also#anyway my first msg was my opinion the second was me saying 'hey uh i didn't want discourse actually just wanted to offer an opinion'#and then got jeered at again for 'why'd you click on the channel then you idiot'#which like. yeah okay fair#but where else would you rather me put my opinion? fucking general??#no i knew i'd get a little clowned on i just didn't expect it to be like six different people#anyway i'm mad and hurt and this sucks#the crying lady 'you're all so stupid' meme is me rn
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You know, watching CSI makes me go "damn, so many people murder out of anger and passion. I just don't understand how people could get angry enough to do that" but then I remember a certain customer I had the displeasure of meeting and how even now just thinking about it weeks later I STILL want to slap this fucking bitch into next week and then I went "oh. That's how'
#cookie talks#CLARIFICATION. I DO NOT WANT TO KILL THIS LADY#but oh my GOD it is on fucking SIGHT next time i see that motherfucker#i will deadass tell her we are no longer going to serve her i do not fucking care. you do not belittle and insult me and my crew with slurs#over food you never fucking PAID FOR#and expect to come into my restaurant again#anyway. i hope she trips on a curb and breaks her fucking back. i hope she never has a good day of her life ever again.#i fucking hate this woman
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please remember that it is a compliment to be disliked by people. most people don’t even like themselves. think about why you even want to be liked by somebody. why do YOU like YOURSELF?? why give a fuck about whether or not somebody with so much work to do on themselves doesn’t like you? they literally do not even like themselves. they can’t genuinely “like” you.
#mine#so tired of people who literally only know to people please#‘people pleaser’ is such a joke of a phrase bc they’re literally the most disappointing people i know#they don’t respect themselves#they live in such a way that is so repulsive to me it literally gives me euphoria to know they dislike me#call me names lie about me tell me you never wanna see me again#it’s literally bliss#like what do they expect?#for me to cry on the floor and beg them to love me?? i am not a fucking codependent like everyone else you know#i’m not gonna fucking fawn over you after you mistreat me#and of course no one else will defend me bc they’re all cowards too#afraid to not be on the narcissist’s team#bc the only other team has literally one player and that’s the scapegoat / truth teller#literally who tf wants to go against the narc?? nobody!! that’s why they think i’m stupid#it’s a blessing to be hated by cowards#it’s a sign you’re doing at least one thing right#acoa#family systems#codependency#narcissitic abuse#sick & tired of people living in these beat-around-the-bush type relationships where they are never direct and they are never happy#they don’t actually CARE about each other#they just want to be comfortable!!!#well it’s not COMFORTABLE to grow#‘you’re not the same person you used to be’ yeah well you’re EXACTLY THE SAME!!!#i love when people think that’s an insult#go ahead and tell on yourself#you have never changed or grown or confronted the ways that you treat people#i’m over it#it’s such a joke when these people try to talk to you
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Collective and final post should've just been an apology and a promise to do better. But I guess that's just too much to hope for.
#ceci speaks#nonsims#text#delete later#definitely shouldnt have had more lies and easily disproven claims in it tsk tsk#and continuing to insult the people triggered#shows absolutely 0 remorse not that i expected any better#you didnt say one damn thing you did wrong not one#you couldnt even admit or say sorry for ONE thing#i said sorry for my stupid ass meme reference joke which was dumb of me and was the only leg u had to stand on#which ur tryin to spin as me being anti asian with covid which is fucking stupid considering#i am asian too u stupid fuck and i had patients calling me corona and ch**nk and not wanting me to tend to them before they fucking died#i know about covid racism against us very fucking well#i dont need a statistic to tell me about it bc i was knee deep in ppe trying to get blood from ppl that blamed me for it existing#i watched people die from covid for three years straight i know it all fucking well#and yet i still apologized bc the joke was in poor taste and i feel bad it was misconstrued and hurt others#you cant even apologize to the people you hurt bc youre too focused on not being wrong about anything#you can delete the posts if u wanna theyre already there#in screenshots#i tried to get you to stop for over a week and you wouldnt leave me alone#i refused to mention your name for days and you kept insulting me and mentioning me over and over again#and you had the nerve to call other ppl stalkers just because they shared ur cc in a cc finds channel#now you're trying to talk nice#or nice enough that someone might feel sorry for you after you showed your entire ass for a week#i dont feel sorry for you one bit#not after all the bullshit you said that youre trying to delete now that ppl found it#too late#eat shit#negative#im done for the night goodnight and sorry everyone
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the truth is, a bunch of you need to seek therapy before trying to instigate a revolution because it's very obvious by the way you move you will start eating each other faces off the moment the evil government falls off
#say what u want abt elites but at least they know how to stay on code#they hate each other BUT acknowledge their mutual benefits and know how to gloss over their grievances#many of you are well intented but lack BIG TIME at emotional control and focus#like you really expect support from me while telling me to kill myself ?????#'oh but i dont expect support from you anyway that would be insulting uwu' OKAYTHEN LEAVE MY ALONE ?#like what are u expecting from ME? didn't u have a president to impeach??#papi watch#papi truths
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Been reading about underground bins in Liverpool and also how now they don't need the alleys for bins in some places they've cleaned them up and put like plants and seating in them so they can sit with their neighbours and wow I'm having intense feelings of envy. I don't know what I want more, underground bins or a clean alley lol
#the alley by my house is not wide enough to have seating and i think it's too dark for plants#(im trying to grow them in the wall of next door anyway but who knows)#(i know its bad for the walls. that's why I'm growing them in next doors wall not mine lol)#(this isnt unreasonable i swear.nextdoor is a shop not a house & they have never once attempted to maintain their wall so its falling down)#but it would be nice for someone other than me to be invested in cleaning it. it's always full of sick and abandoned kebabs#but underground bins!!! wow that would be something. rn we have a tiny bin cupboard that's only big enough for 1 home rather than 6#no room for recycling so those have to go in the porch and one of our neighbours gets pissy about it and occasionally takes the bins lol#(it's only me and 1 other neighbour that bother to recycle)#sometimes i find them inside other ppls household waste bins(so i have to dig them out) & those bins always have rotting food so it's gross#and sometimes they just bring them indoors and arrange them to block the hallway so i can't get in my house#but underground bins??? that would be something#maybe one day one of my neighbours will join in with cleaning the alleyway. be the change you want to see lol#I've got brought one of them over to my side with plant pots in the carpark & we are now jointly responsible for the gardening#and another one started recycling and got himself a bin after i ordered myself some bins#who knows who might join me in vom clean up#it's always the ones you don't expect. my recycling & gardening buddies are 2 of our angriest neighbours and spend most of their time#when not gardening/sorting recycling starting pub fights. unexpected allies#avoided them at first as didn't want to get on their bad side but turns out that was not what i needed to be worried about#i did not intend to win their loyalty but now have to keep intervening as they are trying to fight/ threaten people for me#I'm glad we are friends but please stop calling our landlord to yell at them/insult them on my behalf#i did not ask you to do that. i think the landlord thinks I'm in on it.#how often is this happening? half the time i find out months later by chance.
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Have you ever been assumed to be romantically attracted to someone and even just the thought of that makes you want to throw up . Anybody
#had someone's husband in my dms going on about how i want this bitch romantically and frankly if i hadn't been so busy crying i would've#actually thrown up . absolutely disgusting idea . vile even . horrid concept#anyway tldr im down a best friend because he didn't tell me anything i was doing was wrong after telling me that everything was okay and#then sent his husband after me to call me a creep that was obsessed with him that also apparently tried to make out w him#the same trip that my best friend of five years told me he hated having me in his hometown to see him graduate.#this was after i found out my cat had been murdered and mutilated and thrown in my granma's garden . that day happened to be my birthday#because my ma was kind enough to drive me and my lil brother down there to go see him graduate bc he was also supposed to move in w us the#month after . and he told me right after i got home that he 'didn't think it would be good for our relationship' and apparently#just didn't know how to tell me until a month before it was supposed to happen . bonkers times over here#anyway i didn't want to make out with him . he cried after i wouldn't have sex w him just last december . which i specifically got high as#shit to avoid . and i dont even have like. actual examples of what i was doing wrong to go off of so now i just get to live in mystery#forever ig. like shocker that the person that's been my best friend for five years would tell his husband to say that to me and not say that#shit to me himself . this is a wild to me . i feel like im going insane . can anybody even hear me what's going on#you know its bad when your mama gets so sick of you crying over a friend that she hugs you for the first time in years#also i cant sleep my head hurts . crying is evil . devils liquid . might watch rpdr or something . still nauseous over the idea of being#into him romantically btw . like still nauseous over that . like what a fucking insult to our entire friendship#does saying that we may as well have been made of the same atoms mean like . nothing . does nothing ive said to or about him not mean anythi#ng if its not romantic in nature . what did i do that wasnt enough for him. i fucking told him he outgrew me and that was fine i just#wanted to know if we were still friends or not and he said we were and i believed him. if he told me the sky was green i would make it so#ripping my hair out . am i being dramatic . am i the only person that wasn't expecting this . am i the only one that didn't know#when i had to tell people who knew about the moving plans that he changed his mind the first fucking thing i was told was “i thought it migh#t happen.“ WELL I FUCKINH DIDN'T . AND NOBODY TOLD ME#this is like . the second most humiliating moment of my life . aside from movinggate because at least nobody irl has to know about this#anyway . this boy could've taken my blood and i'd sit there and smile while he did it because he was my best friend .#i was so glad we got to grow up together. i miss him already. im taking my little brother to school my myself for the first time and all im#gonna wanna do is tell him about it . im tired . i want to sleep . im still so nauseous . did none of it mean anything just because ive#never and will never like him romantically. does that make everything less worthy somehow#i hope he never talks to me again. i dont think i could handle this again. he let is fucking husband say that shit to me. not him.#puppmeo misery
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so i left the mormon church as a teenager (15ish? 16?), but stayed in attendance until i was 20. i was pretty up front about the whole deciding-it-wasnt-true process with my bishop, who frankly took it really well, but it wasnt like i pulled all 150 ward members aside and had a heart to heart with them. anyway, i didnt believe, so at 19 i didnt go on a mission, and while some people in the ward were totally fine with that, others werent. and there was one woman in her late 50s who pulled me aside one day to interrogate me why i hadnt gone on a mission.
"the duty of every young man" she said.
and the thing is, im autistic. and a lot of people assume that when youre autistic, your social skills just arent very good. but thats not exactly true. your Be Polite skills are kind of eh, and they tend to stay that way, but as a sort of survival mechanism your Be Rude skills become amazing simply because you get put in tons of situations where your choices are to Function or Be Polite. and no one can choose Be Polite forever. the world demands function, it merely encourages politeness.
anyway, it can really catch neurotypicals by surprise, because hey, heres this kind of awkward, graceless guy, who stumbles over his words a lot and is very apologetic. hes probably a huge pushover. but i'm only like that when we're playing The Polite Game, because i am frankly kind of bad at it. but when its time to play The Rude Game, i go fucking ham and asking about the not-going-on-a-mission thing is Super Rude. so i said:
"sister hadlock... they wont let me go because i lit-er-ally cannot stop sucking dicks. i dont know why, its just so, so hard."
*dramatic pause*
"also - its very difficult to stop."
anyway, it almost killed her. i think she'd expected to just kind of steamroll me for the entire conversation, but the answer crushed her soul. instead of continuing her interrogation she made a noise like a horse drowning in a bog and left.
to add insult to injury, she went to the bishop after that, thinking he'd chew me out for being an ass, but instead he chewed her out for not minding her own business. then she went to my parents after that, who basically went "yeah, babylon was pretty rude. but youre also pretty rude. what are you, mad that he's better at it than you?"
i really loved that ward.
#mormon#exmormon#that ward was actually very kind to me#i know a lot of exmos have horror stories about getting ostracized but i only wound up leaving when i moved to my college campus#and ive just never been interested in attending anywhere else because it wasnt about Mormonism#it was about those guys#the village that raised me
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