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damn not even margaritaville is saving me from wanting to kill myself today
#reblog#you ever just like. crash?#just realizing i really need to find work soon but at the same time if i didnt have someone caring for me i would 100% not eat#and just starve to death#im really surprised i haven't died due to the elements yet to be honest. because it just doesnt occur to me to go warm up or to#go cool down in extreme temperature cause i cant feel anything and haven't been able to for a long time. and nothing brings me joy either#im only here because im too cowardly to kill myself but living is just existing in a haze of nothingness right#i dont enjoy anything and any positive emotion is fleeting. I'm not really proud of anything i do either. its just filling emptiness#and replacing the emptiness with movement#its not really a good existence but ive been living like this since i was a small child so why change i guess#regardless if i left people would move on and go about life. they'd remember me until they forget me and i become a memory anyways
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How much can you fit under your skin?
For @warning-heckboop's AU :3
#Haha get peeled idiot#fop#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents a new wish#fop dev#dev dimmadome#fop peri#art#digital art#fanart#candy gore#body horror#just a little#blood tw#fop gifted au#I spent like 2 whole days on this I cannot remember the last time I spent that long on a single drawing#Also sorry if the shading is ugly Im not used to doing smooth shading#art is so hard#His wings look a little scrungly because they're still like. Freshly hatched. still wet with mucus and whatever#Have you ever seen a butterfly fresh from the cocoon and their wings are all crumpled up?#so yeah their unevenness is intentional lol#I spent forever debating whether I wanted to put Peri there#but ultimately I thought it made the composition more interesting so I kept him#Also youll notice his wings are slightly different now I decided to redesign them to be a bit more galaxy like#its hard to see here but Ive changed the 3 dots to resemble planets in a row: Green for cosmo pink for Wanda and different pink for timmy#I think it came out a bit ugly in this but whatever Ive spend too long on this already#I wanted Devs wings to be reminiscent of gold. For some reason I really liked the idea of them curving inward too#Maybe to represent that hes selfcentered. Woagh it all points back to him Wough!!!!! anyway#Btw also sorry for no Nature AU content my motivation just kinda crashed. I have ideas still but getting around to drawing them is hard
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It was Maid Day today yesterday a week ago so I got struck by inspiration to draw the worsties, and it ran away from me into a whole AU where they’re coworkers at a maid cafe. She’s a med student & this is just a part time job, and this is his depression job while he gets his life back together. He needs something he can be workaholic about to forget what it’s like having a personal life and personal issues. He’s actually the accountant, but the new hire janitor (Izutsumi) doesn’t show up for half her shifts and is a sloppy worker, so he gets the extra work of doing her job on top of his because he’s undervalued and overworked. Of course, janitors also have an uniform to keep the aesthetic cohesion as they go about cleaning the place, of course.
Senshi’s the part time cook you only see slivers off, he’s kind and warm when you do see him and have a chat but most shifts he’s in and out the kitchen without a trace. Laios and Falin are regulars because Falin and Marcille are besties & in the same med school, Laios accompanies Falin as she visits her friend at work and gets hooked on the food. Chilchuck has to remind Marcille to work instead of chatting with Falin for an hour, and next thing he knows she’s distracting him from work too. That’s it that’s the AU. Inspired by this idol AU fanart a bit <3
This was not meant to be birthday gift but well…… Happy bday Chil!!!
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#Dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#Chilchuck tims#marcille donato#spoilers#dunmeshi au#Maid cafe au#Marchil#Workwife marchil save me. Kabuholm in the background bc i said so lmao#i think people forget marci n chil are coworker worsties first and foremost. Ppl should capitalize on it more#The orange hair swag that makes him look like a marketable idol more#You can tell idk how to draw maid outfits. I hate those hats sm I will miku miku beam them out of existence#Marcille does change her hairstyle everyday btw#they don’t get back together btw she goes you haven’t talked to me in 4 years and he immediately goes YOU haven’t talked to ME in 4–#i mean ehem i’m sorry haha… while Marcille is like 4 years?! 4 years…#Mei only did it bc Fler has been getting jittery again kept sighing#I wanted to draw Chil with a car key at his belt but it wasn’t meant to be#idk if marchil ever gets together in this one it’s an eternal summer coworker with tension situationship au#romance is when you slowly deteriorate his work ethics so he starts skipping on his worktime to spend it at the front messing around w you#once he’s blessedly in the office and he hears this huge crash and the Marci just goes ‘…… Chiiiiiil?’ cue sigh and having to repair#the coffee machine. So many lil comics i couldn’t indulge myself to draw save me#shoutout to the time as a cashier in training at a convenience store I was left by my coworker who was supposed to wash the greasy chicken#oven but didn’t so I had to clean it for the first time myself while I was alone in the store and was also supposed to man the front#Shoutout to my convenience store’s accountant helping us with cashier duties often when there was less job to do ty ty#Understaffed struggles are so real#People also call Chil a manager because the boss is most often away so he just does everything#There’s no union but maybe one day he’ll get to overthrow the boss idk#The pay IS good at least#Modern au
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THE ROOKIE- 6.03 ➦ Trouble In Paradise
#chenford#chenfordedit#the rookie#therookieedit#tim x lucy#tim and lucy#jesuis-assez edits: chenford#jesuis-assez edits: the rookie#He really took care of her in this episode. [like always]#From giving her advice -> distraction -> keeping an eye on her -> letting her sleep in -> the trophy -> reassurance.#Just doing everything he could to be there for her and support her#to keep her from burning out. If she was ever to crash this episode... or to have her hopes dashed. He would be there to catch her.#and he did. “I'm sorry for disappointing you.” “You could never disappoint me.” Giving her the words she needed to hear in that moment.#He gave her what she needed in this episode and more.#More importantly... He knew what she needed and he knew how to be there for her. He is in tune with her.#His understanding of her runs deep and flows through his actions just how devoted he is to her.#Perhaps Lucy wore the necklace he gave her to the oral exam... Not just because it's from someone she loves but#So she could feel him there with her for support. As he has supported her from the moment he found out she was working towards this.#Even when it was killing him inside to do so because of his related trauma.#I don't always communicate through the tags... but when I do--- you can't shut me up 🙃 [and they become quite lengthy]
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as if it was never there at all.
#undertale#deltarune#utdr#gaster#ok little bit of rambling bc ive been catching up on a LOT of deltarune stuff#something something guy(s) who cant be perceived without also ceasing to exist#i had the thought yesterday that. gaster is sort of the anti-chara in a way. if you say his name he ‘disappears’#the game crashes or resets etc. literally the opposite of invoking chara lol#plus how chara is so associated with deletion of worlds. and here gaster is wanting to create new ones#creating new worlds. creating a vessel for the player. creating connections#and its so much more sad when you think about how deltarune is like. fundamentally his attempt to connect with the player#he can maintain a connection with us. but we can’t see him. or show him his own name. or acknowledge his identity in any way#or else that connection will be severed. or he’ll disappear. or he’ll cease to have ever existed#mystery man goes away the moment you interact. egg man was never there but he gave you an Egg#etc etc#the white egg noelle was given in her game makes me think about this too because#that egg remained there the whole time she was afraid of it. it couldnt be thrown away. it wouldnt hatch. it was just There#and then when she comes back later and decides to take care of it like any of her other pets. THEN it disappears#’_____ left home due to happiness.’#how do you form real lasting connections when the connection itself makes you disappear
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seems to me like zac oyama is repping some experiences of asian american schoolkids, defined by such hits like 'regulate your anger,' 'communicate clearer to deliberately misunderstanding assholes,' and 'perpetual sense of unbelonging in both the american part and the asian part of your life.'
#dimension 20#fantasy high#fhjy#zac oyama#gorgug thistlespring#great stuff! I can't watch that shit for entertainment#the asian american strugglebus... feeling like an alien hahahahahahahahahahahahahaahha#this is just surface level personal experience ofc like maybe I had a very specific version of childhood#oh yeah did i mention the Designated Role you get in school lol that's fun for literally nobody who ever attended school schools suck#but education is good! try not to drop out or at least get geds they help college is a good thing check out crash course on youtube#panic rambling in the tags tonite#my thoughts#talking about my asian-ness makes me so nervous my westernized brain is yelling 'shut up! shut up!'#I enjoy gorgug being rage-ful as a treat#asian things
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also like au where teenaged Li xiangyi runs into also teenaged di feisheng mid fight with a di assassin, li xiangyi finds out about the mind control bug via idk overhearing the two Di kids being like 'yeah neither of us want to do this really but y'know. it's not like we have a choice' or whatever, and thus li xiangyi, baby activist for JUSTICE ends up fully derailing his sort of vauge plans to set up a sect in favour of dealing with this terrible injustice because it's, y'know, pretty fucked up and also he's been in the martial world for about six weeks max and in that time he's seen one (1) sect fully massacred like his repressed trauma backstory, presumably thrown himself into a bunch of other unfair fights, and is now faced with a guy only a couple years older than him who's digging his kind-of sect brother's grave after being forced to fight him to death because of fucking mind control slavery
(because on the one hand he's still kind of an arrogant brat, and on the other hand this shit is fucked up and also super personal and kinda complicated in a way that 'just sword the problem to jail/death' can't actually fix, given the whole mind control thing, and he is very rapidly finding out that wow, turns out everything off the mountain is actually very extremely fucked up and way more complicated than he thought.)
shan gudao shows up after like, barely a week away doing idk, sketchy nanyin related things probably, and his arrogant brat of a shidi is immediately hey guess what shixiong new plan we can get back to sect building later, also this is my new best friend he's awesome at sword and barely socialised, also also he's crashing with us now or rather I'm crashing with him and his band of weirdos he's collecting!
#mysterious lotus casebook#li xiangyi#di feisheng#waters words#anyway Jinyuan alliance But Plus Li Xiangyi is just. incredibly compelling in the kind of train crash way to me#di feisheng who is fully Not Ok bc killing another di kid and then there's this? random arrogant brat?#but he knows and he has skills and he's maybe the girst person to ever tell him#that hey. that wasn't ok. that was fucked up. let me help you.#(also like i sort of get the impression that the thing that tips di fortress from 'wow brutal training but like. fine'#to 'oh thats Fucked Up and Super Evil' is actually the mind control bugs. like. socially#li lianhua only finds out about the bugs when they go to di fortress!#prior to that it seems kinda like. not Fine but like. not 'oh my god what the fuck' that di fortress is just churning through kids)
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i guess ive always loved media where characters are bitches to each other for No Reason other than It's Funny........... im watching a lot of retrospective videos of thomas the tank engine, and also animal crossing. and it's like that paired to my fixation on twst right now........ im sensing there has been a pattern here all along .....
#characters that hang out all the time and then look at their comrade in arms and are like. wow you look like shit and i hate u.#it's so funny#so many trains ttte is like you offer NOTHING to society unlike ME because i am THE BEST this railway has EVER SEEN EVER [crashes and dies]#animal crossing gamecube you could just like. talk to a character and theyd want you dead#sometimes youd have a convo with NO user input whatsoever and theyd literally storm off angry or whatever#or like take your items#with no way to stop it#even in wild world im p sure my snooty villagers would be like damn bitch you dress so poor. or something fkljdsgklj#listen i loved new leaf but i was already missing the aggro villager moments in that game for sure#and then of course. twst. where everyones bullying their besties Forever For Fun#im watching a vid rn about ttte and it's so funny i forgot when thomas meets terrance#hes like hi. im thomas. your wheels are so fucking ugly.#BITCH YOU JUST MET HIM#what other media did i enjoy because everyones a little shithead... im sure theres more lol
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You ever have an OC that absolutely fucking nobody should date, both for their own good and the ocs? Like; 'you need 1000 years therapy not the pressures of a committed romantic relationship.'
But you give them that relationship anyway, usually with a character who also probably shouldn't be in a relationship right now, because they're fictional and there for you to study like bugs under a glass. And unrealistically it works out despite being a train wreck because you're self-indulgent and want the characters to have nice things. Spicy nice things, with an occasional hint of bitter when you're in the mood. Plus a thousand AUs where it doesn't work out that don't ruin the enjoyment because 'that doesn't happen in the canon-headcanon'
#We can deal with the trauma in fiction or pretend the world is controlled happy endings.#which is why it's more fun than real trauma which doesn't have an on/off switch.#babbling#OCs#Vel#edgelord hours#petty murder boyfriends#without going into the utter plane crash that was durgetash#villainous nonsense#Vel has no grounding in the world around him so he has to build off of another person. First it was Bhaal and now Bhaal was gone#Without a 'centre' he just collapses. There's nothing else to hold onto#He needs to develop his own identity but is decades away from that#Congrats to the boyfriend you're now the sole anchor because everybody else left and if you leave the world faces Consequences#But nobody will tell you that because it will poison the relationship#Just hanging out together in an undefined relationship: a mire of attachment issues and intense feelings and buried resentment. And guilt.#And murder. For fun and profit.#And fluffy happy moments#I think I'm gonna make a Tav with like zero baggage and marry Wyll and live uncomplicated happily ever after at some point#As a palette cleanser
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you don't need enemies when carlos is your teammate. the poisoned chalice alex is going to receive. i can't wait
recycling my own meme from first day of break when we got the carlos to williams announcement
#ask#e#i wish i payed more attention before carlos came to ferrari to see if he has always been like this to his teammates#or if it's charles' face card opening up the wound of his fragile masculinity that only blossomed in ferrari#that he somehow needs to prove to himself he is the alpha and never listen to preset strategies and team orders and never think about team#and rather crash both out than be clever and keep tyres till the end and blame the wind the sun the tyres and the goddess of beauty herself#instead of ever admitting his own mistake and generally just trying to appear a certain way to the outside world#newsflash boyo you are the beta in every universe please sit back down and observe how this sport is done#whoops i let the hater out accidentaly please forget the last minute or two you spent on this#i do not mind carlos therefore he cannot hurt me i do not wanna strangle him when he opens his mouth i do not wanna throw the williams cap#at him and rather nominate ollie for the rest of the season#ugh so hi :ú
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The Therapist
There's a new therapist at school.
Normally this wouldn't really bother Peter at all, since he's never gone to see a shrink in his life and doesn't ever plan on it, but there's something... off about this woman.
She seems unassuming enough at first glance. Red hair, green eyes, bright red lipstick. But there is something in her eyes, something that Peter can only describe as a predator looking at its next prey, when she looks around the school at all of the teenagers milling about. Heck, even the way she walks makes her seem as if she is a predator stalking her prey.
It could always be some kind of power move, Peter reasons. He's met people like that before, who try to intimidate everyone around them into thinking that they are superior, that they are the apex predator and anyone who dares to cross them would pay for it dearly.
But his Spidey Sense went crazy around her.
He tries to brush it off as paranoia. He'd pulled an all-nighter last night in the lab with Tony because neither of them had been able to sleep, and he hadn't been sleeping well even before that. (Funny, how it had all started the night after he first bumped into the new therapist in the halls.) So his Spidey Sense is probably out of wack because he's tired. Simple as that.
But it seems like everyone in the school is depressed. Even Ned, who can't even muster up the energy and enthusiasm to talk about Legos or Star Wars or even the weather. It worries Peter.
Because it all started when that therapist came to the school.
He can't ignore it forever, he knows that. There is only so long his Spidey Sense can tell him that she is danger danger danger before he finally listens. He has to do something to help everyone.
So he researches.
And he falls into the rabbit hole of ghosts and ectoplasm and secret government organizations and the little, unassuming town of Amity Park, Illinois.
He doesn't sleep that night.
When he comes to school the next morning, Dr. Penelope Spectra looks him dead in the eyes, and smiles.
#dpxmarvel#peter parker#penelope spectra#peter's boutta get a crash course in ghosts and ghost fighting#he is definitely not prepared#idk why spectra is in new york#specifically midtown tech#but she is#peter starts digging into amity park#he just wanted to find out who spectra is#and he did find out that she's a dangerous “ecto-entity”#he does not know what that is until he does more research#he's very shocked to learn that ghosts are apparently real#meanwhile tucker and the rest of team phantom is freaking out#someone just hacked past the media blackout or whatever around amity park#(you can thank friday (or karen if you prefer) for that)#they're surprised to see that it's coming all the way from new york#and even more surprised to see that the hacker went for spectra's files first#almost as if the hacker was specifically looking for them >:3#maybe danny goes to investigate and finds peter#btw peter can sense ghosts with his spidey sense even if they're invisible. especially if they're invisible#they team up to take spectra down#danny helps peter make some ecto-weapons and a specter deflector or something#then they catch spectra (and bernard because he's probably there too and i'm kinda just now realizing that)#peter gives danny his phone number as thanks and tells him to call him if he ever needs anything#peter doesn't know who phantom is btw. he just knows that his new friend is a ghost that luckily knows how to use technology like phones#maybe there's even a bad reveal a little further down the line and danny calls peter in a panic because sam and tucker have done everything#they can and he needs to get as far away from amity as possible#peter is very surprised to find that his ghost friend is only half ghost and is then very ticked that danny's parents tried to capture#and vivisect him
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congratulations to Mme. Pascale Leclerc, who has surely just experienced both the funniest and most unhinged weekend a mother could ever have. Dear fucking christ, I hope your middlest son brought you a bottle of champagne for yourself, ma'am.
#kazoo noises#charles leclerc#cl16#monaco gp 2024#zoomies posting#sports posting#like man. where to begin. one of your racecar children is back in town for the weekend. he has yet to have a truly good work#weekend it seems in town. now this year. we're feeling ourselves a bit. we're feeling optimistic even. and then ur son becomes talk of town#because he keeps doing fucking bits on twitter about adopting his coworker who is friends with your youngest son. this goes on long enough#for actual reporters to comment on it. no one is willing to blink first so by friday night we've yes-anded ourselves to a grandson#(congratulations mme leclerc)#things go well. and then at qualifying they go DAMN WELL#BETTER THAN EVER REALLY! but man. im superstitious. i dont trust shit until its over and the dust has cleared#(the adoption jokes have continued by the way) and MEANWHILE everyone is eyeing that starting grid. were humming. we're making vague hand#gestures when commenting. we're all thinking. Maybe? (the streets can hear u tho. keep it down)#race starts. lap one CHAOS. so many fucking crashes. i'd faint if i had a child even in karting honestly.#(every parent in this sport deserves a prescription for laudanum)#but he's not in it. hes at the front. and he. well. he just Stays There. Through It All. and the laps tick down. until the race is run. and#there he is. your middlest son. cross the line and into the books. first place. home town. what curse indeed. thats your boy!!!!!!!! THERE!#they play the radio of him winning and the audio is peaked because he screams out so loudly. you can hear the water in the laughter.#later theres gonna be videos and photos taken of him pushing his boss into the harbor and diving right in after the man. those photos are#gonna be fucking studied in photography classes one day. and STILL! everyone involved with that goofy joke about him adopting his coworker#(who. despite all the silliness of the race stayed second place and got a podium) is still carrying the bit like a baton relay. Do you have#him over for family dinner? might as well add a plate i guess! people are joking about your youngest son having two nephews? a dog born#maybe a month ago and a man born about... what twenty three years and about a month ago? fuck it! family dinner#sorry this bit got away from me but as someone who loves my homecity and my mom so much it might actually be like.#a visible growth inside my body if they do an autopsy on me at time of death or like. my love will eat me alive. sometimes the charratives#gets to me#anyway cheers mme leclerc i hope you party so fucking hard this week
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unnecessarily rated and ranked kitchen of witch hat volume 1 moments on silly gay madness
#witch hat tag#orufrey#read kitchen.#i think the puddings are equal 2nd place though...it really gets to me....TRULY bonkers unforgettable and characteristic oru moment....#aughhgough i'm so sleepy & tired im crashing to the floor..oh no..auugh i need help..gah..Oh my gosh i shall help u..We shall survive this.#^ nobody else ever i have literally never needed to be held up in my exhaustion you just go to bed#the points don't add up. the touching his forehead moment is just too strong. WHY??? i wouldn't go up and slap my hand on a friends skin#i'd be like Do you have a cold that's sad for you. good grief. good heavens#also the end of chapter 10 gets Sends me into the despair nexus points.
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How the fuck do I draw nutcrackers</3 (trying to find a consistent style depending on whomst I'm doodling
#I got asked is that the guy from fucknut after posting this in a server today<3#Also I figgered out how to draw feet. FEET!!#So by that extension I also comprehend shoes now. Yippee#I hate posing hands when the body is in an exaggerated pose you can tell I struggled in the first one from the page's scarring#I think he's so neat but I hate him because of his ass deciding he don't want to be consistent with me heehoo<3#Oh and there's my LC OCs smh (slash jay#Fortnite#Fortnite fanart#Fortnite Crackshot#Lethal Company#Lethal Company Fanart#Lethal Company Nutcracker#Lethal Company OC#My OCs#My Arto#I want to draw nutcrackers crashing the Company Cruiser but I can't draw cars FUCK YOU LIFE!!!!!#(I'll find out finna ball with this shit#keep calm and baller on 🛐#oh and#I just imagine the feather on Crackshot's hat to be mimicking a muzzle flare (if I got the term right#In turn I would likely color it orange-ish if I ever even rendered.#That‚ or arson.#Both work.#I am contemplating how to redesign Erik because I hate his attire!#I hate that nutcracker (lie)#I should stop yapping and hit post
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Does. Does the Scoundrel know that the masters are all Runts. Is she aware that these idealized idols are outcasts among space bats?
factually? yeah, she probably knows. there's no reason why she wouldn't.
but she, well. she doesn't think about it. she can't let herself think about it.
#because if she thinks about it then her entire worldview comes crashing down around her and her life falls apart#and she refuses to let that happen :)#the scoundrel is very well practiced in avoidance. part of it comes from having a violant mind that easily spirals#and part of it comes from just. who she is as a person#ask#as far as the scoundrel is concerned all of the masters are perfect and know what they're doing at all times#sure they might have made some. minor mistakes along the way. but that's not important!!#they're so much better and cooler and happier than humans could ever dream to be!! they're awesome!!! they're perfect!!!!!#who wouldn't want to be Just Like Them?#also you gotta remember this is the guy who saw mr wines' entire fall from grace and got the worst possible takeaway from it#the scoundrel is not exactly one for acknowledging the bigger picture.#scoundrelventures#as i said. self-perpetuating spiral. refusing to admit the truth bc it means her lies wont last forever#fallen london
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girls we might have a problem (i couldnt sleep last night because i was thinking about her, i havent stopped thinking about her since yesterday, ive been rereading our texts for the past hour)
#this wont be a problem righttttt ahahhaha#no because i already like someone but she just came and crashed it all like girl how dare you#but shes so pretty dude#shes so lovely too she gets me#shes so silly#she makes me feel so pretty#“good night darling” marry me#shes like everything i want ever#i feel so conflicted about this#girlblogging#thoughts ୨𖹭୧#AND SHE LETS ME TALK AND SHE DOESNT FIND ME ANNOYING#LIKE SHES SO AHDHSJSJSSJS#WE HAVE DIFFERENT INTERESTS FOR A LOT OF THINGS BUT SHE ALWAYS LETS ME TALK AB THEM#chat is this infatuation#chat im scared#chat i love her#my princess ୨𖹭୧
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