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damn not even margaritaville is saving me from wanting to kill myself today
#reblog#you ever just like. crash?#just realizing i really need to find work soon but at the same time if i didnt have someone caring for me i would 100% not eat#and just starve to death#im really surprised i haven't died due to the elements yet to be honest. because it just doesnt occur to me to go warm up or to#go cool down in extreme temperature cause i cant feel anything and haven't been able to for a long time. and nothing brings me joy either#im only here because im too cowardly to kill myself but living is just existing in a haze of nothingness right#i dont enjoy anything and any positive emotion is fleeting. I'm not really proud of anything i do either. its just filling emptiness#and replacing the emptiness with movement#its not really a good existence but ive been living like this since i was a small child so why change i guess#regardless if i left people would move on and go about life. they'd remember me until they forget me and i become a memory anyways
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How much can you fit under your skin?
For @warning-heckboop's AU :3
#Haha get peeled idiot#fop#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents a new wish#fop dev#dev dimmadome#fop peri#art#digital art#fanart#candy gore#body horror#just a little#blood tw#fop gifted au#I spent like 2 whole days on this I cannot remember the last time I spent that long on a single drawing#Also sorry if the shading is ugly Im not used to doing smooth shading#art is so hard#His wings look a little scrungly because they're still like. Freshly hatched. still wet with mucus and whatever#Have you ever seen a butterfly fresh from the cocoon and their wings are all crumpled up?#so yeah their unevenness is intentional lol#I spent forever debating whether I wanted to put Peri there#but ultimately I thought it made the composition more interesting so I kept him#Also youll notice his wings are slightly different now I decided to redesign them to be a bit more galaxy like#its hard to see here but Ive changed the 3 dots to resemble planets in a row: Green for cosmo pink for Wanda and different pink for timmy#I think it came out a bit ugly in this but whatever Ive spend too long on this already#I wanted Devs wings to be reminiscent of gold. For some reason I really liked the idea of them curving inward too#Maybe to represent that hes selfcentered. Woagh it all points back to him Wough!!!!! anyway#Btw also sorry for no Nature AU content my motivation just kinda crashed. I have ideas still but getting around to drawing them is hard
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It was Maid Day today yesterday a week ago so I got struck by inspiration to draw the worsties, and it ran away from me into a whole AU where they’re coworkers at a maid cafe. She’s a med student & this is just a part time job, and this is his depression job while he gets his life back together. He needs something he can be workaholic about to forget what it’s like having a personal life and personal issues. He’s actually the accountant, but the new hire janitor (Izutsumi) doesn’t show up for half her shifts and is a sloppy worker, so he gets the extra work of doing her job on top of his because he’s undervalued and overworked. Of course, janitors also have an uniform to keep the aesthetic cohesion as they go about cleaning the place, of course.
Senshi’s the part time cook you only see slivers off, he’s kind and warm when you do see him and have a chat but most shifts he’s in and out the kitchen without a trace. Laios and Falin are regulars because Falin and Marcille are besties & in the same med school, Laios accompanies Falin as she visits her friend at work and gets hooked on the food. Chilchuck has to remind Marcille to work instead of chatting with Falin for an hour, and next thing he knows she’s distracting him from work too. That’s it that’s the AU. Inspired by this idol AU fanart a bit <3
This was not meant to be birthday gift but well…… Happy bday Chil!!!
Read from left to right
#Dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#Chilchuck tims#marcille donato#spoilers#dunmeshi au#Maid cafe au#Marchil#Workwife marchil save me. Kabuholm in the background bc i said so lmao#i think people forget marci n chil are coworker worsties first and foremost. Ppl should capitalize on it more#The orange hair swag that makes him look like a marketable idol more#You can tell idk how to draw maid outfits. I hate those hats sm I will miku miku beam them out of existence#Marcille does change her hairstyle everyday btw#they don’t get back together btw she goes you haven’t talked to me in 4 years and he immediately goes YOU haven’t talked to ME in 4–#i mean ehem i’m sorry haha… while Marcille is like 4 years?! 4 years…#Mei only did it bc Fler has been getting jittery again kept sighing#I wanted to draw Chil with a car key at his belt but it wasn’t meant to be#idk if marchil ever gets together in this one it’s an eternal summer coworker with tension situationship au#romance is when you slowly deteriorate his work ethics so he starts skipping on his worktime to spend it at the front messing around w you#once he’s blessedly in the office and he hears this huge crash and the Marci just goes ‘…… Chiiiiiil?’ cue sigh and having to repair#the coffee machine. So many lil comics i couldn’t indulge myself to draw save me#shoutout to the time as a cashier in training at a convenience store I was left by my coworker who was supposed to wash the greasy chicken#oven but didn’t so I had to clean it for the first time myself while I was alone in the store and was also supposed to man the front#Shoutout to my convenience store’s accountant helping us with cashier duties often when there was less job to do ty ty#Understaffed struggles are so real#People also call Chil a manager because the boss is most often away so he just does everything#There’s no union but maybe one day he’ll get to overthrow the boss idk#The pay IS good at least#Modern au
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THE ROOKIE- 6.03 ➦ Trouble In Paradise
#chenford#chenfordedit#the rookie#therookieedit#tim x lucy#tim and lucy#jesuis-assez edits: chenford#jesuis-assez edits: the rookie#jesuis-assez edits: season 6#jesuis-assez edits: chenford scenes 6x03#He really took care of her in this episode. [like always]#From giving her advice -> distraction -> keeping an eye on her -> letting her sleep in -> the trophy -> reassurance.#Just doing everything he could to be there for her and support her#to keep her from burning out. If she was ever to crash this episode... or to have her hopes dashed. He would be there to catch her.#and he did. “I'm sorry for disappointing you.” “You could never disappoint me.” Giving her the words she needed to hear in that moment.#He gave her what she needed in this episode and more.#More importantly... He knew what she needed and he knew how to be there for her. He is in tune with her.#His understanding of her runs deep and flows through his actions just how devoted he is to her.#Perhaps Lucy wore the necklace he gave her to the oral exam... Not just because it's from someone she loves but#So she could feel him there with her for support. As he has supported her from the moment he found out she was working towards this.#Even when it was killing him inside to do so because of his related trauma.#I don't always communicate through the tags... but when I do--- you can't shut me up 🙃 [and they become quite lengthy]
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can the mtt commit more crimes that just murder please i know theyre the MURDER time trio but ppppleasse,,,, please,,,,,,
they'd be terrible to be next to on the highway. horror's going 160 mph amd has long past gone over the speed limit. dust's out for BLOOD and by blood i mean your tires. he's somehow sniping those round rubber wheels from the high moving vehicle with the precision of a master fruit ninja player. if your car explodes or flips over in the process that's not his fault. and then to make matters worse for everyone on the highway killer's in the backseat scratching up the doors and windows of your car with a knife everytime horror gets close to another car and oops he accidentally just disfigured your face also did i mention theyre all drunk during this
ok so theyve all got the classic face WHY DONT THEY ABUSE IT!!!! horror gets to do a little paper mache to cover up his head hole and then wearing glasses. killer i dont know what the FUCK he can do to get rid of his perpetual tears but let's just pretend that theyre conveniently gone for now. and then all dust has to do is put down his hood! anyways identity theft is cool. imagine how much they could totally fuck up classic's reputation with this. set up fake tinder profiles and then scam people for their credit card info/free dates (while ordering every expensive thing) and stealing wallets. walking into various grillby's's around the multiverse and telling terrible jokes. like ACTUALLY bad jokes. and then of course just being a huge piece of shit at the bar. god theres so many things they could do pretending to be classic. which one of us is hikaru looking ahh except the only difference between the three is the color of the stains on their clothes (either gray (dust) black (killer) or red. well faded red (horror))
ROBBERY!!!! ROBBERIES PLURAL!!!??? train robbery gas station robbery bank robbery GOVERNMENT robbery (what would you rob the government for?? documents??? idk) anyways. mtt robbing a train except its just a really shitty plan and they dont know jackshit about what theyre doing. killer's taken over the conductor's cabin and now he is booking it. how fast are trains allowed to go idk but the maximum. anyways meanwhile horror's on the tracks fucking up the rails with his strength or whatever (listen i know he's weak but picking and choosing what hcs i believe in is my art) and dust is there to teleport him away before the train crashes into him and turns him into a trolley problem victim. and then of course that shit doesnt fucking work and the train just ends up flipping over and catching on fire or something (killer survives because of course he does he's killer). and then in the end dust just has to flip the entire train over and they just stroll into the part that actually HAS the money
and then they go out and get ice cream. sometimes the murderers need to take a break from murdering and just do NORMAL crime yk???
#dragging this absolutely ancient draft out of the trenches because i've been having a scene in my head that fits this#i mean not REALLY related to this since its not a crime. more like him reckless abandon of life! their own lives! yeah they die#imagining.... trio driving around in the mountains. dust's driving ans horror's in the passenger and killer's in the back seat because he i#and dust just starts speeding up like...... much more than he really should be in the fucking mountains#and killer points it out and now all of a sudden horror is absolutely terrified LMAOOOO trying to get dust to slow down#and then they crash. but if there's no one more determined in the world killer can always load a save and theyre alive again#and dust is STILL speeding when they come back even with the knowledge that they die and horror's still terrified#but dust just tells him to calm down and loosen up a little bit!!! theyll come back afterwards anyways and they dont even die in pain#and after a few more deaths horrors just like. ugh. fine. you know what FINE ILL GO ALONG WITH IT#he says as he starts laughing along with dust because man!! the feeling of looking out at nature right before they die in a blaze of glory#is GREAT!!!! and then you know something something horrordust have trust in killer to bring them back after they all die#something something horror is willing to give up his usual reservations to have fun with the other two#and its so fun afterwards.... because nobody but them gets hurt!!! dust and horror wouldnt wanna hurt anyone after their au lore#and killer has no reason to in this scenario. so it all works out for them!! the only people getting hurt are them and lowkey they deservei#the sans in the au is probably sooo confused as to why the world is reloading even though theres no human doing so 💀 killer you GOOF#theyve probably all died so many times but only they remember it. soooo cute.... only they get to see each other at their weakest 💔💔💔#killer absolutely abuses the save point when theyre all together i just knowww ittttt sooooo well#he wants everything to continue not restart or go back??? ok but everything IS continuous with these two#not like they stay doing one thing over and over anyways so its not really perpetual. anyways dust and horror would get bored along with hi#if they just kept doing the exact same thing over and over trying to find every possible ending. nahhhh#triglycercule this is sooo unhealthy none of them would do this!! ok well they make each other worse who said it was ever gonna be healthy#screw EVERYONE in the violet banquet discord server who indulged me in my trio waltz dancing in a field of flowers at 3 am. brainrot now...#this scene i described in tags totally happened in my trio meet each other fic btw. just that it hasn't gotten to this point at ALL yet 💀💀#tricule rant#killer sans#dust sans#horror sans#murder time trio#sans au#utmv
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as if it was never there at all.
#undertale#deltarune#utdr#gaster#ok little bit of rambling bc ive been catching up on a LOT of deltarune stuff#something something guy(s) who cant be perceived without also ceasing to exist#i had the thought yesterday that. gaster is sort of the anti-chara in a way. if you say his name he ‘disappears’#the game crashes or resets etc. literally the opposite of invoking chara lol#plus how chara is so associated with deletion of worlds. and here gaster is wanting to create new ones#creating new worlds. creating a vessel for the player. creating connections#and its so much more sad when you think about how deltarune is like. fundamentally his attempt to connect with the player#he can maintain a connection with us. but we can’t see him. or show him his own name. or acknowledge his identity in any way#or else that connection will be severed. or he’ll disappear. or he’ll cease to have ever existed#mystery man goes away the moment you interact. egg man was never there but he gave you an Egg#etc etc#the white egg noelle was given in her game makes me think about this too because#that egg remained there the whole time she was afraid of it. it couldnt be thrown away. it wouldnt hatch. it was just There#and then when she comes back later and decides to take care of it like any of her other pets. THEN it disappears#’_____ left home due to happiness.’#how do you form real lasting connections when the connection itself makes you disappear
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seems to me like zac oyama is repping some experiences of asian american schoolkids, defined by such hits like 'regulate your anger,' 'communicate clearer to deliberately misunderstanding assholes,' and 'perpetual sense of unbelonging in both the american part and the asian part of your life.'
#dimension 20#fantasy high#fhjy#zac oyama#gorgug thistlespring#great stuff! I can't watch that shit for entertainment#the asian american strugglebus... feeling like an alien hahahahahahahahahahahahahaahha#this is just surface level personal experience ofc like maybe I had a very specific version of childhood#oh yeah did i mention the Designated Role you get in school lol that's fun for literally nobody who ever attended school schools suck#but education is good! try not to drop out or at least get geds they help college is a good thing check out crash course on youtube#panic rambling in the tags tonite#my thoughts#talking about my asian-ness makes me so nervous my westernized brain is yelling 'shut up! shut up!'#I enjoy gorgug being rage-ful as a treat#asian things
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I've been picking mostly only the essential flirt options with lucanis in the romance so far (I've personally found the dynamic much more natural and mutual when you do that, more like forming a solid friendship slowly and inevitably becoming something else and less like you keep pushing on him and getting little back b/c he seemingly just gets overwhelmed and goes into freeze instead), and I think rye is a pretty hard person to read at the best of times even though he's been Down Real Bad from pretty early on and their chemistry as people is naturally really good. so the way the almost-kiss plays out in this playthrough feels a lot like it has the added layer of lucanis realizing that no but for sure rook is flirting and not just being kind or a good friend* it IS actually happening it's not just wishful/fearful thinking!!! and then uh. maybe going a bit too hard a bit too fast in all the excitement at that revelation haha
*in lucanis' defense he has seemingly literally never had a friend who wasn't his cousin-brother before, under those circumstances I suppose some confusion is extremely natural if not outright expected lmao
#meanwhile rook is kicking himself for being unprofessional b/c he WAS getting something important from spite there#and also lucanis had like. just woken up was that cool of me. should I have told him. should I have slowed that down???#watcher's duty crashing into watcher's longing blues ensues#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#lucanis dellamorte#oc: Ellaryen Ingellvar#rook x lucanis#rookanis#I think I might have done something hilarious and a little wonderful to the lucanis romance#by making a rook who's even slower to romance than he is fhskjfhsa#even here I was straight up like 'oh this is a little early for this don't you think' on rye's behalf (it's not we have to be mid-game)#imagine how he'd fare in some of the other romances you'd just bowl him over. davrin might kill him#(and also they would kill each other for unrelated reasons during it but that's another matter (affectionate I love my lads))#lucanis has been squinting at rook in stolen moments ever since the café scene like '...did I imagine that vibe. surely not right.#i'm pretty sure. but am I. I do know he likes me. but DOES he like like me or is that just what I want it to be. this is very embarrassing#for everyone involved' (it is)#davrin has had both their numbers the entire time tho. and been extremely annoyed but professional about it#he knew from the moment these two chucklefucks showed up in his recruitment mission. and has been an adult about it. mostly#even when they've made it real hard ('so I'm gonna go ahead and assume you're not letting the abomination serial killer run around#just because you're transparently excruciatingly sweet on him. right. RIGHT??')#I have accidentally given lucanis a pattern of falling for people who keep covered neck to toe at all times#but like not to be a metaphor for their emotional intimacy issues or anything haha. imagine.#I'm making my own heart so tender by imagining lucanis struggling to get rye out of his (many-layered) robes during the romance scene#and both of them laughing right from the soul in relief and delight at each other b/c like 'how could I kill a god only to be bested#by nevarran fashion. also how in the maker's name do you get dressed so quickly in the mornings this is intense'#'same way one does anything else lots of practice and a can-do attitude'/'well I'll just have to put in the practice then'#and they just hug for a while. *head in my hands* yeah okay I can be normal. I can be normal about this.
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The Therapist
There's a new therapist at school.
Normally this wouldn't really bother Peter at all, since he's never gone to see a shrink in his life and doesn't ever plan on it, but there's something... off about this woman.
She seems unassuming enough at first glance. Red hair, green eyes, bright red lipstick. But there is something in her eyes, something that Peter can only describe as a predator looking at its next prey, when she looks around the school at all of the teenagers milling about. Heck, even the way she walks makes her seem as if she is a predator stalking her prey.
It could always be some kind of power move, Peter reasons. He's met people like that before, who try to intimidate everyone around them into thinking that they are superior, that they are the apex predator and anyone who dares to cross them would pay for it dearly.
But his Spidey Sense went crazy around her.
He tries to brush it off as paranoia. He'd pulled an all-nighter last night in the lab with Tony because neither of them had been able to sleep, and he hadn't been sleeping well even before that. (Funny, how it had all started the night after he first bumped into the new therapist in the halls.) So his Spidey Sense is probably out of wack because he's tired. Simple as that.
But it seems like everyone in the school is depressed. Even Ned, who can't even muster up the energy and enthusiasm to talk about Legos or Star Wars or even the weather. It worries Peter.
Because it all started when that therapist came to the school.
He can't ignore it forever, he knows that. There is only so long his Spidey Sense can tell him that she is danger danger danger before he finally listens. He has to do something to help everyone.
So he researches.
And he falls into the rabbit hole of ghosts and ectoplasm and secret government organizations and the little, unassuming town of Amity Park, Illinois.
He doesn't sleep that night.
When he comes to school the next morning, Dr. Penelope Spectra looks him dead in the eyes, and smiles.
#dpxmarvel#peter parker#penelope spectra#peter's boutta get a crash course in ghosts and ghost fighting#he is definitely not prepared#idk why spectra is in new york#specifically midtown tech#but she is#peter starts digging into amity park#he just wanted to find out who spectra is#and he did find out that she's a dangerous “ecto-entity”#he does not know what that is until he does more research#he's very shocked to learn that ghosts are apparently real#meanwhile tucker and the rest of team phantom is freaking out#someone just hacked past the media blackout or whatever around amity park#(you can thank friday (or karen if you prefer) for that)#they're surprised to see that it's coming all the way from new york#and even more surprised to see that the hacker went for spectra's files first#almost as if the hacker was specifically looking for them >:3#maybe danny goes to investigate and finds peter#btw peter can sense ghosts with his spidey sense even if they're invisible. especially if they're invisible#they team up to take spectra down#danny helps peter make some ecto-weapons and a specter deflector or something#then they catch spectra (and bernard because he's probably there too and i'm kinda just now realizing that)#peter gives danny his phone number as thanks and tells him to call him if he ever needs anything#peter doesn't know who phantom is btw. he just knows that his new friend is a ghost that luckily knows how to use technology like phones#maybe there's even a bad reveal a little further down the line and danny calls peter in a panic because sam and tucker have done everything#they can and he needs to get as far away from amity as possible#peter is very surprised to find that his ghost friend is only half ghost and is then very ticked that danny's parents tried to capture#and vivisect him
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You ever have an OC that absolutely fucking nobody should date, both for their own good and the ocs? Like; 'you need 1000 years therapy not the pressures of a committed romantic relationship.'
But you give them that relationship anyway, usually with a character who also probably shouldn't be in a relationship right now, because they're fictional and there for you to study like bugs under a glass. And unrealistically it works out despite being a train wreck because you're self-indulgent and want the characters to have nice things. Spicy nice things, with an occasional hint of bitter when you're in the mood. Plus a thousand AUs where it doesn't work out that don't ruin the enjoyment because 'that doesn't happen in the canon-headcanon'
#We can deal with the trauma in fiction or pretend the world is controlled happy endings.#which is why it's more fun than real trauma which doesn't have an on/off switch.#babbling#OCs#Vel#edgelord hours#petty murder boyfriends#without going into the utter plane crash that was durgetash#villainous nonsense#Vel has no grounding in the world around him so he has to build off of another person. First it was Bhaal and now Bhaal was gone#Without a 'centre' he just collapses. There's nothing else to hold onto#He needs to develop his own identity but is decades away from that#Congrats to the boyfriend you're now the sole anchor because everybody else left and if you leave the world faces Consequences#But nobody will tell you that because it will poison the relationship#Just hanging out together in an undefined relationship: a mire of attachment issues and intense feelings and buried resentment. And guilt.#And murder. For fun and profit.#And fluffy happy moments#I think I'm gonna make a Tav with like zero baggage and marry Wyll and live uncomplicated happily ever after at some point#As a palette cleanser
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you don't need enemies when carlos is your teammate. the poisoned chalice alex is going to receive. i can't wait
recycling my own meme from first day of break when we got the carlos to williams announcement
#ask#e#i wish i payed more attention before carlos came to ferrari to see if he has always been like this to his teammates#or if it's charles' face card opening up the wound of his fragile masculinity that only blossomed in ferrari#that he somehow needs to prove to himself he is the alpha and never listen to preset strategies and team orders and never think about team#and rather crash both out than be clever and keep tyres till the end and blame the wind the sun the tyres and the goddess of beauty herself#instead of ever admitting his own mistake and generally just trying to appear a certain way to the outside world#newsflash boyo you are the beta in every universe please sit back down and observe how this sport is done#whoops i let the hater out accidentaly please forget the last minute or two you spent on this#i do not mind carlos therefore he cannot hurt me i do not wanna strangle him when he opens his mouth i do not wanna throw the williams cap#at him and rather nominate ollie for the rest of the season#ugh so hi :ú
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unnecessarily rated and ranked kitchen of witch hat volume 1 moments on silly gay madness
#witch hat tag#orufrey#read kitchen.#i think the puddings are equal 2nd place though...it really gets to me....TRULY bonkers unforgettable and characteristic oru moment....#aughhgough i'm so sleepy & tired im crashing to the floor..oh no..auugh i need help..gah..Oh my gosh i shall help u..We shall survive this.#^ nobody else ever i have literally never needed to be held up in my exhaustion you just go to bed#the points don't add up. the touching his forehead moment is just too strong. WHY??? i wouldn't go up and slap my hand on a friends skin#i'd be like Do you have a cold that's sad for you. good grief. good heavens#also the end of chapter 10 gets Sends me into the despair nexus points.
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How the fuck do I draw nutcrackers</3 (trying to find a consistent style depending on whomst I'm doodling
#I got asked is that the guy from fucknut after posting this in a server today<3#Also I figgered out how to draw feet. FEET!!#So by that extension I also comprehend shoes now. Yippee#I hate posing hands when the body is in an exaggerated pose you can tell I struggled in the first one from the page's scarring#I think he's so neat but I hate him because of his ass deciding he don't want to be consistent with me heehoo<3#Oh and there's my LC OCs smh (slash jay#Fortnite#Fortnite fanart#Fortnite Crackshot#Lethal Company#Lethal Company Fanart#Lethal Company Nutcracker#Lethal Company OC#My OCs#My Arto#I want to draw nutcrackers crashing the Company Cruiser but I can't draw cars FUCK YOU LIFE!!!!!#(I'll find out finna ball with this shit#keep calm and baller on 🛐#oh and#I just imagine the feather on Crackshot's hat to be mimicking a muzzle flare (if I got the term right#In turn I would likely color it orange-ish if I ever even rendered.#That‚ or arson.#Both work.#I am contemplating how to redesign Erik because I hate his attire!#I hate that nutcracker (lie)#I should stop yapping and hit post
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Does. Does the Scoundrel know that the masters are all Runts. Is she aware that these idealized idols are outcasts among space bats?
factually? yeah, she probably knows. there's no reason why she wouldn't.
but she, well. she doesn't think about it. she can't let herself think about it.
#because if she thinks about it then her entire worldview comes crashing down around her and her life falls apart#and she refuses to let that happen :)#the scoundrel is very well practiced in avoidance. part of it comes from having a violant mind that easily spirals#and part of it comes from just. who she is as a person#ask#as far as the scoundrel is concerned all of the masters are perfect and know what they're doing at all times#sure they might have made some. minor mistakes along the way. but that's not important!!#they're so much better and cooler and happier than humans could ever dream to be!! they're awesome!!! they're perfect!!!!!#who wouldn't want to be Just Like Them?#also you gotta remember this is the guy who saw mr wines' entire fall from grace and got the worst possible takeaway from it#the scoundrel is not exactly one for acknowledging the bigger picture.#scoundrelventures#as i said. self-perpetuating spiral. refusing to admit the truth bc it means her lies wont last forever#fallen london
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NaNo 2024: Victory!!
Hello, world, here's my tidied desk in the aftermath of FINISHING ANOTHER BOOK!!! It took me EXACTLY four (4) pens this year (I was literally writing my wrap-up stats in the back of the notebook when the in on the last one started to go!), on 82 pages across two (2) notebooks, and preliminary* word count is 71,541!! (*subject to change once typed--I count by hand and tweak as I type haha.)
Also featuring: the NaNo Earrings, Volumes 2 and 3 of the Bitch Journal (where I whine about writerly things and also Reflect On My Process--I learned very much this year and got a lot of dopamine from it!!), the tiny watch that kept me company in my tertiary writing space, the earplugs that made working at home Tolerable (mostly), and some of the frantic scribbles on scrap paper (I got a LOT of mileage out of a dead receipt that Panera misprinted for me lol).
Now, onward to TYPING!! I would love for this not to take most of December, so I'll probably have more Unhinged Goals About That (I don't know why I am the way that I am), but! The hard part is done!!
#nano2024#hh#writing#i already don't love the title i wrote at the top of the manuscript by the way lol#i might just call it 'the wintergreen house'#instead of a street address#it doesn't need a street address because of where it is#i just also like how 'seventeen wintergreen' sounds so....unclear lol#and anyway listen the half a space lichen doesn't really vibe with names humans can pronounce anyway#so they end the book not sure what to call it#or how to refer to it#which is fair because how would YOU try to pronounce a constellation of flashing lights and weird almost-smells??#exactly. good luck lol#ANYWAY I HAD SO MUCH FUN I LEARNED A LOT ABOUT MY PROCESS (i have tag rambled about this elsewhere i won't do it again lol)#100/10 recommend doing a Journal Thing if you have a creative process btw#to hack your way around said creative process#The Bitch Journal has been THE biggest game changer for me in writer land lately#it started out like the top one says 'mostly just whining' but it's wild how easily that slides into Reflection and Figuring Yourself OutLO#if i ever taught writing this is the only kind of journal i would implement#i had a professor who wanted us to do Idea Journals which fine cool observation things#but GOSH this one was SO MUCH MORE HELPFUL TO ME#and really framing it as whining was SO good#because you get all the gunk out and then words can GO#anyway. everyone needs a Bitch Journal i think#be a bitch do your bitching etc#nano#the Void already started coming for me last night btw#IT'S TOO EARLY FOR THE POST PROJECT CRASH LEAF ME ALONE!!!!
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ep.4 Vee from love mechanics will forever be my favourite despair animal
#yin anan#yinwar#love mechanics#IMAGINE HAVING THE PERSON YOUR PARTNER CHEATED ON YOU WITH SHOW UP AT UR DOOR FOR THEM AT MIDNIGHT#DEMANDING TO TALK TO YOUR PARTNER WHO YOU HAD DECIDED TO GIVE A SECOND CHANCE TO JUST A WEEK AGO BECAUSE THEY WERE LITERALLY GRAPPLING AT#YOUR FEET TO NOT LET THEM GO AND BECAUSE THEY HAD GOTTEN INTO A CAR ACCIDENT DUE TO THE 'OTHER GUY'#ONLY FOR YOU TO SEE THEM HUG THE SHIT OUT OF THE 'OTHER GUY' NEAR THE FRONT DOOR#FROM THE BALCONY OF THE SAME ROOM#CUZ YOU HAD TOLD YOUR PARTNER TO SORT THEIR SHIT OUT WITH THE GUY AND GIVEN THEM SPACE#OH BUT UR NOT DONE#YOU TURN TO SEE UR NEIGHBOUR#THE GUY YOU HAD KISSED AND HAD A DRUNKEN ONE NIGHT STAND WITH#ALL WHILE YOU WERE STILL DATING UR PARTNER AND THEN PROCEEDED TO EMOTONALLY CHEAT WITH ONCE THE GUY TOLD YOU ABOUT YOUR PARTNER BEING A#LITTLE CHEAT (like ur ass wasn't) AND YOU'D ASKED TO WAIT FOR YOU BEFORE UR PARTNER STARTED THE WATER WORKS AND CAR CRASHING#ON HIS BALCONY WITH ANOTHER GUY WHO HAD ALSO BEEN HITTING ON HIM#he looked like that balcony was gonna be. the last place. he was gonna be on. ever.#YALL HAVE TO SEE IT FIRST HAND
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