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hi, do u have any resources or info about how policies regarding trans inmates are impacting transmasc people specifically? im curious bc im seeing a lot about transfemmes being forced into men's prisons but haven't heard anything about transmasc folks, i fear there's something terrible happening to us that just isn't being talked about
There's obviously restrictions on gender changes. But first and foremost, there is the threat to reproductive autonomy.
People have been discussing the idea that gender starts at conception, but its important to note that it is also saying that life starts at conception.
The "at conception" part was not on accident. It was not just them going as far as possible. It was a pro-life message. And this is not speculation. On January 29th:
"And then, Mike Johnson took the stage, and the vibe shifted. The House Speaker claimed a massive victory for the anti-abortion movement, citing two small lines in an unrelated executive order from earlier this week. “I don’t know if you saw [Trump’s] executive order on gender,” he crowed to the thunderous applause of the crowd below, “But it defines life as beginning at conception rather than birth!” […] Right-wing leaders, for their part, are taking victory laps. Kristan Hawkins, the influential president of Students for Life proclaimed on X, “BREAKING: President Trump’s executive order that proclaims that there are only TWO GENDERS also recognizes that human life BEGINS AT CONCEPTION!” Pro-life lawyer, Mike Whitehead who serves as counsel to many churches, called the measure “masterfully precise,” saying that “personhood at conception is a foundational pro-life premise.” Rank-and-file activists projected that this move could “end ALL abortions in the United States, protecting human life at conception and keep praying that we will seize this moment.” But none of this chatter was as definitive as Speaker Johnson’s declaration from the stage, affirming that Republicans intend to continue to pursue personhood in this administration.
I think what this shows is how clearly attacks on trans autonomy are tied to attacks on feminized people's autonomy. And while this is true in many ways, including ones not related to having a vagina or a uterus or the ability to get pregnant, that is part of it. And if we are talking about centering trans people in feminism, then that has to mean centering trans people who need abortions in the discussion of abortion rights. There is simply no other way we as trans/feminists can go if that is our stated goal. Anyone who is not centering trans people who can get pregnant in their reproductive justice does not have their head on straight.
I think this is a really crucial moment where everyone who considers themself a pro-trans feminist needs to put their money where their mouth is and really start talking about anti-transmasculinity (although this isn't just ATM). We cannot survive the separation of trans issues and abortion. We need now more than ever to start consistently using inclusive reproductive/sexual language. We need to be included every time people talk about reproductive injustice. This erasure kills.
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Darkest Dungeon 2 spoilers for Abomination Backstory and Hunger of the beast clan update
Just a little character analysis The Abomination and how I feel about his new lore. It's a little long because I have thoughts about the sad science man
I’m probably in the minority with this but I actually really like the Abomination backstory in DD2. Like I genuinely like what it means for the character. I get the appeal of the idea that he was an alchemist who was experimenting with making a curse and accidentally cursed himself. I even had a similar headcanon about it before the dlc. But there's something about his story in dd2 that really hits me.
In the first game there was a bit of mystery around Bigby. he felt like the one hero that probably holds himself with the least amount of care. All the other heroes wear armor, have proper weapons, nice clothes that are well maintained. Bigby doesn’t have that. He wears teared pants, no shirt, no shoes, a single cloth that he isn’t even properly wearing, man is constantly gripping it. He doesn’t even bother trying to hide his brand. This is not a man who sees himself as worth taking care of. Is it because of guilt? Well he probably deserves it right? Maybe he brought it upon himself, maybe he was messing with things he didn’t understand and now this is his punishment?
And then we get the lore drop that the circumstance that led him to be like this wasn’t even his own fault. It was a horrible accident (that probably could have been avoided if he wasn’t being dumb and going to a well known dangerous moor, with no protection, at night, alone with no guide. I love you Bigby but that was not a pro gamer move). He was mauled, he didn’t want to die. Managing to save himself with a serum that ended up just sealing his fate. Then he was taken in and tortured by the church for who knows how long for reasons he didn’t understand (I don’t think he even killed anyone; they just mentioned a mutilated cow).
And then when he finally transforms he's horrified. Could you imagine his feelings? He was tortured, branded and right after that his body transformed into something horrifying before his own eyes. He has no control over it, no say to what happens. And then he wakes up, alone, surrounded by dead bodies he made. Because they were right. They should have been afraid of him. How could he ever trust himself again? When he caused all of this.
Bro is suicidal as heck man, even his in game dialogue has him constantly thinking he should die. This man does not think he is worth anything anymore.
I would also like to point out that his beast form doesn’t look right. It doesn’t look like a regular rotclaw at least (I think we all can agree it was probably a rotclaw that jumped him, they literally have an attack that mauls you with blight damage)
Like comparing the two side by side. One arm is bigger than the other, he barely has any fur, his legs are different being clawed instead of hooves, his teeth are sharper and he's a lot smaller compared to one (that last could just be cause of gameplay reason, maybe he's suppose to be the same size but he has to fit in the line up somehow)
I like to think it's because he made that imperfect antidote. I think he was legit supposed to either die from the poison that night but he managed to save himself with the mess of a serum he managed to scrounge together. Only that serum was not at all perfect because he used all the wrong things and he couldn’t remember the recipe so he ended up just making the mutation worse. Sealing his fate. Why else would Red Hook purposely make him an Alchemist and not just a regular guy that got mauled.
So in a way he is responsible for why he is the way he is but like, can you really blame him for trying to save himself? Bro forgot the recipe for the antivenom cause he was panicking and just rawdogged it. And now he probably wishes he just let the poison kill him.
But that's a personal headcanon thing not really important to this.
And then that one line in the last shrine.
“Goodbye to the man that wished to chart the stars” This line really shows you how little he thinks about himself now. He just wanted to be a study some plants, chart the stars, learn about the world. But he doesn’t deserve that anymore. He doesn't deserve to be comfortable, or treated well. The man he once was is gone, no more. He's not a man anymore, he can never go back.
He made one dumb mistake And now he lives with it for the rest of his life. He hates himself for it. Blames himself, literally puts the chains back on because he cannot trust himself ever again. Because of one dumb mistake he made. He seeks redemption for things that were completely out of his control. His story is a tragedy, because he never had a choice in it.
Anyway what I mean to say is, I really like this sopping wet cat of a nerd, with so much self loathing, that made one really dumb mistake and is being punished way too severely by the world for it. Quite literally the GOAT of all time
#I love making stuff up about characters#and overthinking everything about them#darkest dungeon#darkest dungeon 2#darkest dungeon 2 spoilers#dd abomination#dd bigby#long post#ouli talks#rambles
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We Listen and We Don’t Judge
Pairings: Nico Hischier x OC
Warnings: Spoilers for That Sik Luv, King of Wrath, King of Sloth, God of Wrath, and God of Malice but just a lot of fluff.
Summary: You are a viral booktoker and after seeing the we listen and we don’t judge trend with couples, you put your own twist.
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It’s not a joke that you are mildly addicted to TikTok. After all, by day, you worked for the New Jersey Devils as a social media girl but by night, you are one of the most viral booktokers on BookTok.
Currently you were doomscrolling on TikTok, waiting for your boyfriend, Nico, to come home from hanging at Jack’s and Luke’s place.
You suddenly come across a video of a couple doing the We Listen and Don’t Judge trend which you weren’t that completely unaware of because you had seen it on your for you page for the last few days.
“We listen and we don’t judge.” The couple both said before the woman started to talk.
“I sometimes don’t wash our fruit because I feel lazy.” She said, trying not to laugh.
The man burst into laughter. “Jesus we’re gonna get worms! We probably have worms in our bodies!”
“Well we listen and we don’t judge!” She clapped back and you began to laugh.
After about three minutes of watching that video, an idea popped in your head. You walked to your massive bookshelf that Nico assembled for you for Christmas last year and got out your copies of That Sik Luv, King of Wrath, King of Sloth, God of Wrath, and God of Malice from your shelf before walking back to the living room.
As soon as you walked back, you saw Nico walk in, taking his shoes and beanie off.
“Hey Schatz.” He said, wrapping his arms around your waist, giving you a kiss.
You pulled away to greet him back, Nico pouting a bit. “Hey baby. How was the hangout at Jack’s and Luke’s place.”
“Same old same old.” He said, his Swiss German accent being prominent.
You chuckled. “Why don’t you get changed.”
“Okay.” He gives you a quick kiss before walking into your shared bedroom before walking out in grey sweatpants and a devils hoodie.
“Hey Nico?”
“Yeah?” He asks.
“You love me right?”
“Are you breaking up with me?” He asked and you look at him gobsmacked.
“Okay no. I’m not breaking up with you-“
“Thank god.”
“I was literally gonna ask if you wanted to be in a TikTok baby.” You say.
Nico has been your biggest supporter and even though it was a mutual decision to keep your love life private, along with the occasional post of each other on your birthdays, anniversaries, and reposting posts of you guys in them.
“Oh okay. What TikTok?”
He plops down on the floor and looks at the pile of books on the coffee table. “What TikTok is it?”
You get your phone and open TikTok, going to make a new video, propping your phone on the little fake bonsai tree.
“Okay so we’re gonna do the we listen and we don’t judge trend except it’s with the books I read last month.” You say to your phone before stopping the recording.
“I say we listen and we don’t judge and tell you something about the book.” I explain.
“So I sit and look pretty?”
“Pretty much.” I answer.
I get out the first book, That Sik Luv, from the pile before clicking the button to record.
“We listen and we don’t judge,” you say, trying so hard not to laugh. “In this book, she’s in a religious cult, she doesn’t know that she is. Either way, the church that runs their town are trying to kill her so they hire this mercenary dude who becomes obsessed with her and stalks her and shows just how corrupt the church is. So one day, when she has to go to confession and he’s waiting for her in where she’s supposed to sit and they get their freak on when she’s giving her confession to the deacon and when he pulls back to curtain to pew pew her, he acts quickly and pew pews the deacon and they continue to get their freak on in front of the deacon’s now dead body.”
Nico mulls over what you said before saying, “I would read this book Schatzi.”
“What?!” You look at him horrified. “Like you’re not playing with me are you?”
“I mean I would skip over these kinda scenes but it seems interesting.”
“Oh my lord.” You muttered before grabbing King of Wrath.
“We listen and we don’t judge,” you said, forming her thoughts. “So in this book, both the characters are in an arranged marriage situation for reasons I can’t say. Anyway, one thing leads to another and he’s,” you mime fingering to him and he raises his eyebrows, “her and calls him an asshole and he replies with ‘I’m an asshole, yet youre dripping for me.’”
“Is this what you’re reading when your jaw is dropped?” He asks.
“Well like, you signed up for this.” You say.
“I love you too much.” He said, pulling you into him.
“I love you too.” You say and you grab King of Sloth.
“We listen and we don’t judge. So for context, her ex cheated on her-“
“He’s a dead man.” Nico fumes, his Swiss German accent becoming even more prominent.
“If you’ll let me finish.” You say, trying not to laugh at his outburst but you crack a smile. “Anyway, because of that, she has trust issues and when she’s telling him, so the mmc, her trust issues, instead of reassuring her, he sits her on her desk and goes to town with his mouth on her. He then proceeds to bend her over and goes to town on her and he puts duct tape over her mouth because she’s apparently loud.”
A beat of silence passes before Nico says, “If your ex cheated on you and you said that, I’d do the same.”
You whack the book on his head. “No you won’t.” You reply, both of you laughing.
“What, I need to remind him what he missed out on.” He responds chalantly.
You roll your eyes before grabbingGod of Wrath.
“We listen and we don’t judge. So in the first chapter, she wants to kill herself because her best friend killed himself and she on the edge of the cliff and she jumps, but then the mmc grabs onto her and he said that the only way he can save her life is if she performs a certain sexual act down there.”
“Like what do you mean?”
“He’s holding on to her and he’s like oh the only way I will save you if you do this certain sexual act down there for me.”
“And she does.”
“Well yeah. If we were in this exact situation, I’d do it because I value my life.” You respond.
“Okay true.” He says.
You get out your last book, God of Wrath, trying not to laugh.
“We listen and we don’t judge. In this book, she’s walking home at night with her headphones in and these two creeps are like following her but then, the mmc, who was stalking her, bears the guys up because in his eyes, he’s the only one that allowed to stalk her.”
“Oh.” He says. “That’s kinda stupid though.”
“What is?” You ask.
“Walking alone at night with headphones in. Like does she not have any sense?”
You burst into laughter at his words. “Literally the mmc asked her the exact question and it is pretty stupid.” You look at your phone before saying, “Guys, remember to not walk alone at night with headphones in. But also let me know if yall want a part 2.”
You hit the stop button and he pulls you further into him. “You know I love you, but this is the weirdest TikTok you made me do.”
You chuckle and kiss his jaw. “I know babe.”
#nhl#nhl imagine#nico hischier#nico hischier x reader#nico hischier smut#n. hischier#nh13#new jersey devils#nj devils#nhl fanfiction
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i fear ctm is super close to wrecking lucille, cyril and rosalind. i cannot fathom a couple as devoted to their faith as cyril and lucille jumping to divorce so quickly without trying to work things out. i can't imagine the cyril of previous seasons giving up on lucille and chasing after someone else. even if he didn't want to leave poplar permanently, it would make way more sense for him to plan more trips to jamaica in response to lucille's request instead of giving up on his marriage.
and i know the whole thing is complicated because leonie wanted to leave but zephryn didn’t, and i don’t think zephryn should be forced to quit because leonie wanted out, but the way it's been handled has been awful. like ctm has kinda make cyril look like an asshole. like lucille went through a traumatic miscarriage that required medical intervention, had to deal with rising levels of racism at her work and was close to committing suicide. when she went back to jamaica he visited her a handful of times AT BEST instead of staying for any extended amount of time and supporting his wife while she was seriously ill. when he did eventually go on a lengthy trip to visit, her mum died unexpectedly and, again, he basically went back to london asap. when lucille asks for a divorce after all this (which tbh is understandable), he isn't willing to put in any effort to save his marriage and is more interested in how this will impact his social standing at the church. and when the divorce goes through, he already has a younger replacement ready for his next wife. truly a character assassination for the ages. they took a man who was genuinely sweet, decent and cared for others and have totally annihilated him. yet the prevailing attitude i've seen from the general audience is that LUCILLE is the selfish one for “leaving him behind” which is absolutely boiling my blood. you cannot tell me that if the shoe was on the other foot, if cyril had moved back to guyana permanently after experiencing a traumatic medical event, rising levels of racism and the community, and suffering from suicidal ideations and lucille had decided to stay in poplar, she wouldn’t have been CRUCIFIED for being insensitive, heartless and evil for abandoning her husband when he needed her most.
rosalind has only been on this show for two minutes! we've barely gotten to know her! yet we're shoving her into this disaster of a storyline!! my god, all three of these characters deserve better. hell, i didn’t even want lucille and cyril together, but what a slap in the face this has all become to the fans who were invested in their relationship.
idk. I like cyril, or at least i did before the writers decided to do this. but the show is call the MIDWIFE. it’s about the women, and I don’t like that the first Black main character of the show is essentially getting written out of her own story for the sake of her husband. that’s not even getting into the issue of the show having a Black mentally ill woman being replaced by a younger, white blonde woman.
#call the midwife#i know the show is gonna make lucille the villain so cyril can get divorced without being the bad guy and i will not stand for it#if lucille has no defenders left i'm dead#and even then i will return as a spectre to haunt heidi at night
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Feel free to disregard this request, I don’t know if they are still open, but if they are, can I ask for the ghouls and ghoulettes taking care of Copia after he comes down with a nasty fever.
Poor dude overworked himself with paperwork and etc and got reckless in taking care of himself.
The pack notice his health sink low and see him to the brink of passing out on the hall and so they take him to their den and nurse him back to health? Bet you they would take really good care of their Papa since he’s always looking after their own well being too! Every single ghoul wanting to have a turn in helping him
So yeah, if requests are still open, might we have that please? 🙏
My requests are always open, Anon!
This is a wonderful prompt! Poor Copia deserves to be taken care of by his ghouls, especially when he's really sick and his ghouls are more than willing to take care of their Papa
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Copia rummaged through the bundle of papers in his arms, groaning as he turned a corner in the hall. He was exhausted, but there was work to be done. If he so much as took a break, then the paperwork would pile up and he would be up late for the fourth night in a row. It was tough, but it came with the new promotion to Frater.
He sniffled when a foul odor hit his nose when he lifted his arms when readjusting the papers. How long had it been since he took a shower or even put on deodorant? He couldn’t find the answer, but it didn’t matter. He could shower later if he had the time. First, he had to get to his new office and look over everything.
There was a faint chill in the air. He was being watched. He could see his ghouls watching him closely out of the corner of his eye but when he turned to look, they were gone. They had been asking to help him with his paperwork, but he told them over and over that he could handle the work on his own. They seemed so concerned for him, but they had their new duties and he had his own.
A wave of nausea rolled over Copia and he stopped in his tracks, feeling like he was going to get sick.
“Not now. I have work to do,” he groaned, feeling his forehead. It was warm. Too warm. Not good. He couldn’t get sick now. The church was relying on him. He couldn’t let his followers down now.
Soft chirps and chitters filled the air and Copia found himself surrounded by his beloved ghouls. Cumulus was the first one to approach him, holding an incredibly fluffy blanket.
“You’re sick, Papa. You need to take a break,” she said.
Cirrus was by his side, her cool hand on his forehead and giving him some much needed relief.
“You have a fever. You need to rest now,” she said, taking the papers from him. Copia didn’t protest, his shoulders hunched from the stress he was holding there.
“He needs a bath. When did you last bathe, Papa?” Dewdrop said, a noticeable grimace on his face.
“I…I don’t know,” Copia murmured, pinching the bridge of his nose with a sigh. He didn’t realize how bad of a headache he had and how weak he was until now.
“Have you eaten lately, Papa?” Aurora asked, her adorable doe-like eyes wide with concern.
“I had an orange…hours ago, mia cara,” Copia said, putting on a weak smile for his ghouls. They looked amongst each other in concern.
The room was slowly spinning now, Copia’s headache getting so strong that it was pounding in his head now. That wasn’t good.
“Maybe…I do…need to rest,” he murmured, growing weak in the knees before everything went dark. The last thing he heard were the distressed cries of his ghouls.
Copia groaned, slowly opening his eyes and finding himself in his bed. He couldn’t move, his eyes darting around in a panic until he noticed Rain curled up next to him. The water ghoul held him tight, his cool face buried in his neck and his arms wrapped around his middle. Copia noticed he had been changed into his comfortable tracksuit and a cooling compress was on his head. He breathed in and winced when he heard and felt the rattle in his chest before he let out a painful cough. That certainly wasn’t good.
Upon hearing him, Rain raised his head, chirping softly before giving him a gentle hug.
“You scared us there, Papa,” he murmured, touching the compress and giving it a burst of coolness.
“What…What happened?” Copia asked.
“You passed out, Papa. Scared the fuck out of us,” Swiss said, crawling out from under the bed. Copia would have screamed, but he was too weak to raise his voice.
“Ah, cazzo,” he groaned, watching on as Swiss laid on his opposite side. The multi ghoul cuddled close and nuzzled his cheek, his calming quintessence pushing away any discomfort Copia was feeling.
“My paperwork,” Copia murmured, trying his best to sit up. A single hand on his chest pushed him back onto the bed.
“Don’t worry about it, Papa. Cirrus and Aether are working together to finish it for you. Rest. Cumulus, Sunny and Mountain are cooking something good for you and Phantom, Dew and Rory are outside the door keeping watch. We’re not going to let anyone bother you while you’re getting better,” Swiss said.
“We’ll take good care of you, Papa,” Rain cooed, pecking him on the cheek.
Copia was at a loss for words. There had been plenty of times where his ghouls assisted him in his work and they always worried over him whenever he got sick, but he hadn’t gotten this sick in such a long time. He felt horrible for making them worry so much.
“Go back to sleep, Papa. We’ll wake you when the food is ready and when you’re feeling stronger, we can bathe you. The girls did as much as they could after you passed out, but you deserve a nice hot bath soon,” Swiss said, giving him a gentle squeeze.
Tears welled up in Copia’s eyes which Rain quickly wiped away.
“Grazie…Thank you…Thank you…,” Copia whimpered softly.
The ghouls purred softly in response, slowly pulling him back to sleep. He was so grateful for his beloved ghouls. He would have to properly thank them later, but now, he rested.
#the band ghost#ghost band#papa emeritus iv#papa copia#frater copia#nameless ghouls#nameless ghoulettes#swiss ghoul#rain ghoul#cumulus ghoulette#cirrus ghoulette#aurora ghoulette#ghost band fanfic#fanfiction#ghost fanfiction
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Good Friday. We remember the reason we have eternal life today. That Jesus died for us on the cross. Took an extremely painful death. A death every single one of us deserved and did it for us to have everlasting life with the Father. It’s sad to know we were the cause of His death. But encouraging to know that because of that death we can be forgiven of all our sins if we accept Him as the savior. Because of Him we can now have everlasting life. So whenever you feel down, feel hopeless, feel discouraged. Remember what this day means. Remember this as the truth. And remember the truth will set you free.
#good friday#jesus died for you#Jesus died for me#christian motivation#christian encouragement#christian inspiration#without him we are nothing#with him we have everything#crucifixion#he died so we can have eternal life#so we can be forgiven#so we can be healed#so we can be set free#you don’t have to be special or specific to accept Jesus#you don’t have to know the Bible front and back#you don’t have to be at church or go to one#christianblogger#you just have to believe with your heart and confess with your mouth that Jesus is lord#and you will be saved
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he’s mad she ratted him out
#doctorsiren#gravity falls#the book of bill#bill cipher#jheselbraum the unswerving#gravity falls fanart#digital art#my art#procreate#okay because 1. she used to be a henchmanic but I don’t think she was ever on his side#2. I’m pretty sure she was a spy or SOMETHING#3. when the shaman guy started rejecting Bill. written on the side of that page it says (in code):#‘which one of my henchmaniacs ratted me out’#and then the prophecy was given#and she’s The Oracle. which y’know…give prophecies#on her little scribbled out bio you can kinda make out that it says she’s the smartest one or something of that sort#but that she betrayed bill or something like that (I’m going off of memory)#and so I think she was never really on his side to begin with and was there to learn what he was trying to do#if I’m wrong *DON’T CORRECT ME* 🥺🥺🥺 please HAHA#I’m having a matpat moment 😎 I dunno I just don’t think she would have been on his side#also considering the fact that her name is ‘the Unswerving’#a term that means ‘unwavering’ or ‘steadfast’ and basically implies that she would not change her position on things#so it doesn’t make logical sense to me that she would have been on his side and then switched and then gotten that title?? idk#I just think about her a lot…I love you space fish mom…#just a goofy drawing I did during church 😁
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Ignore if you don’t want to read about me being stupid once again
#pls dont read if you cant handle venting and whining#once again i am here to say that i am the loneliest person alive and i feel like i can’t grasp the basic consept of friendship and do it lol#like idk how to be friends#i feel like i will forever be sad and lonely#and i know everyone will say you can talk to me and i know that but i’ve just been by myself for so long that i don’t remember how to have#actual conversations with people i feel like i am disconnected from reality#i feel like i am an extremely unlikeable person and that’s why i was all alone in highschool and idk i am oversharing on the internet again#because it’s the only place i kind of feel safe doing it#pls take care of yourselves first before comfoting me or anything im sorry i sound very pathetic#how do i start living again#how does one live anyway#im just in my head all the time#this was supposed to be hot girl summer but it’s once again summertime sadness#im so stupid!!!#im so anxious and depressed that i dont know what to do with myself#im so sorry for oversharing i have a therapist dont worry im kind of taking care of myself#but the eternal loneliness just wont let me go#idk how to be a person anymore#i’m just sad#thinking of going to a church and pretend to be a believer so i could have a community again lol
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Maybe I did this to myself but it does irk me when people see me knitting and they ask who it’s for and I say it’s for me and the immediate reaction is “you should sell it” yeah… let me spend at least a week’s worth of my free time making an item I like, want, and would wear just to sell it on etsy, making at most a £2 profit on materials and not being compensated for my time whatsoever 👍🏻
#i say maybe i did this to myself because historically i have gifted most of the items i have knitted#because the venn diagram of things i like to knit vs things i like to wear is actually 2 circles that don’t touch#i looove making hats. i HATE wearing hats#also i love making baby clothes but i don’t have a baby and i’m not going to have a baby#however lately i’ve gotten really into knitting socks and i really like to wear knit socks. it’s like the most affordable way for me to get#quality wool socks. and i’m going to be watching my shows anyway. the time will pass anyways#but it feels like people are deliberately making me feel weird for wanting to make stuff for myself and not profit off my hobby#and like i’ve made 3 pairs of socks to gift already because ‘tis the season or whatever. and i’ve started another pair for a friend whose#birthday is in january#genuinely it’s very weird to hear ‘you should sell it’ or ‘oh i want one!!’ about an item i’m making for myself. after 18 years of gifting#or donating basically everything i’ve ever knitted. like i’ve gifted 2 double bed size crochet blankets#everyone i’ve known who’s had a baby has gotten a cardigan or a blanket or hats or all of the above#i spent october making poppies for the church. i’ve never even stepped foot in my village church mind you. my neighbour asked me to help#do you know what i own? that i’ve knitted? a pair of mittens and a pair of socks.#you want some socks from me? alright. that’s anywhere between £6 and £10 for the yarn and that’s optimistic#i’m currently making myself a pair with hand-dyed yarn that cost me £18 including delivery#the needles i use cost me more than £10. time… let’s call it 24 hours per sock#i don’t know anyone with 18 years experience who makes minimum wage so let’s call it an even 600 for my time. tbh#DO YOU SEE how this isn’t a viable side hussle??? i physically cannot charge what my socks are worth#if i like you and you’re willing to wait; socks are free or cost whatever the yarn costs#if i don’t like or know you venmo me £620. and you’re still going to have to wait.#just pisses me OFF when people suggest i make an etsy page and they say it like they’re doing me a favour or giving me great financial#advice. like you’ve seen me sitting here all evening and i’m barely done with the cuff.. do you actually think selling these for £20 maximum#is going to help me out. i’m not selling them. they’re FOR me. i’m making them because i want them#also when my friend’s family was saying this to me and i was like ‘well the yarn cost a fiver’ and they got quiet and i was thinking yeah…#a fiver is the maximum you cheapskates would pay isn’t it. a fiver is cheap sock yarn bought on sale. or yarn that probably isn’t actually#good for socks. like don’t presume to give me financial advice when you’re this out of touch with the market please#next person who asks when i’m going to start selling socks is getting this whole rant in entirety tbh i don’t care anymore#personal#edited to add that i didn’t even get into etsy fees or whether i would even be noticed among the mountain of dropshippers LOL
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does anyone know how to get your extended family to stop sending you bible verses or do i just have to ignore it
#every time i think i’ve blocked them a new one shows up in my contacts 😭#thanks auntie… merry christmas to you… i would rather die than every join the church again but!!!!#they all know i’m a dyke so they TARGET me every holiday…#i wonder what makes them think that i’ll turn to jesus this year but not last year or the year before…#no matter how many times i have to be polite and say i’m not interested THEY KEEP ON GOING#i did not want to last year and i still don’t… for the same reason… leave me alone grandpa#they’re all trumpies too 🤢🤢🤢 GET OUT OF EHRE BRO LEAVE ME ALONE#i have deleted all of my personal social media accounts because of them too…#they just keep on sending me shit that i don’t wanna see or hear 😭#anyways… it’s christmas… lemme not be in a bad mood…#impossible tho because i’m at work rn#hope everyone else is having a good day 😭😭😭😭😭😭#enna speaks#krilling myself soon 🤦🤦
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sometimes i remember that most north fans don’t write him as an absolute insane person ethical manipulative girlfriend style and i’m like. what is he even then… just a pleasant white man? you know what. more power to you if you need a pleasant white man for a blorbo but god that could not be me
#most ppl write north as just like. a nice person i think.#i know him though. i know him.#like nork is SUCH a popular ship (at least like. historically) and every time i see it i go ‘haha that would never work’#and then i remember. oh right most ppl write these guys as like. just kind of decent dudes.#nork to me is like. worlds first ethical manipulative girlfriend (not actually ethical) x worlds first manic pixie dream Nice Guy#who both have literally no identity of their own and sure aren’t actually giving each other one#they’d be so miserable…#constant battle of ‘can’t you see what a sacrifice i’m making for you’#neither of them would ever admit anything was wrong. they both think they can fix it forever#just slowly falling apart. it’s fine :) they’re fine :)#n\orkington is even more baffling#i genuinely couldn’t even imagine the dynamic there#like i know it’s pfl uwu baby wash but even still#he’d be so miserable they’d treat him like shit ToT#oh god north/wash. wash run. WASH RUN.#noooo wash my little chameleon you can’t stay with him he’s going to make you his baby bird#he wouldn’t even realize ToT he wouldn’t even know why he’s unhappy. oh god. wash RUNNNNNNN#i just don’t think north should be in a relationship basically#‘what about churchnorth’ okay. let’s be real. do we really think church should be being in a relationship???#their toxicity perfectly cancels each other out into like. something that’s actually good for both of them#wraps all the way back around. horseshoe theory.#okay this has turned into pure rambling. it’s 4am
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*screaming on the top of my lungs* that’s not what Jesus would have wanted
(Venting in tags)
#this is in reference to my brother saying he doesn’t want a relationship with ME cause I’m gay and not living a righteous life#like oh you mean? me ? a sinner ? because I have a girlfriend and drink coffee??#as opposed to you#not a sinner#even though you cheated on your wife multiple times and assaulted me twice and someone else? and then kicked me out of your hous#when I was homeless in Idaho winter#because your wife was slightly uncomfortable with someone asleep on her couch? you#definitely righteous you#who should be in jail actually for some of the thing s you’ve done?#but no IM the sinner cause I don’t Believe In The True Church#and you’re the sinner because at least you pray and go to church. and Partake of the Lords Sacramrny#please forgive me for saying this but#THATS NOT EHAT JESUS WOULD SAY#SO ACTUALLY FUCK? YOU?#anyway I tore him a new one and now feel so good <3#I have to rant here or I’ll pass away#hi this is me#Tw#Tw rant#Tw abuse#vent#Tw vent#kicked me out after ONE night#fucjing unbelievable
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#New Beast#writing#poetry#2024#December 2024#December 15 2024#one of my favorite lines of literature is the last line of Portrait of The Artist#its “Old artificer old father stand me now and ever in good stead.” (the orginal has commas but you cant do that in tumblr tags…)#the line gives a satisfying conclusion to the books Icarus metaphor#and acts as a good segway into the uncertainty of Stephen’s life after he finishes school and leaves Ireland and the church#everything about it is brilliant down to the exact phrasing#first Stephen addresses who he is talking to as “old artificer” and thus we instantly know he is talking to Daedalus#then he acknowledges his relation to Daedalus when he calls him father — which would make Stephen Icarus#the fact that father is second to artificer portrays a favoring in one of Daedalus’ titeles over the other#and a reluctance to acknowledge Stephen’s place in the story as Icarus#after all this line is him asking that he does not fail in his attempt to be an artist and discover the purest mode of life#this line jerks identity around a bit and implies identity by context but not very directly#we only know the artificer to be Daedalus of course due to Stephen’s last name and the book’s subconscious Icarus metaphor#it isn’t directly stated who’s who and why. you just have to put it together yourself#I wanted to do that here#there’s this thing at the end where it calls the reader Daedalus then the minotaur right after talking about the monster in the labyrinth#the assumption is that the monster is the minotaur#but now its been established that the reader could be either and that it doesn’t seem to matter which name they answer to#now who the monster is is less clear#and given the talk of mirrors earlier it could be a reflection#all sense of identity and place in the story has been lost#I could go on but I don’t want to explain TOO much#anyways hope I succeeded in doing what I wanted with this one#which this one is mainly about how I realized recently that I am not exactly who I thought I would be at the start of high school#not really in a bad way or anything more like I looked at who I was and who had thought I’d be one day and was like “huh! neat”
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bo katan living the far too relatable experience of pretending to be religious for family or extended relations to keep the waters calm. when everyone else around says amen This Is The Way with conviction and she can quietly get away with not saying it. it’s like when you have to go to church for some holiday dinner - you just smile, nod your head, and take extra care to say gosh instead of god
#or like when the missionaries are over and you have to say ‘oh I just can’t pick one what about you?’ when they ask your favorite scripture#or like when you have to go to mormon girls camp and pretend to be buying and believing the shit they wake you up for at 6 am#the most realistic shit that’s ever happened in this show#the awkwardly standing there like yes He has touched me and I have found the truth and was baptized to rejoin#i have come back to the church yes of course I’ll see you next Sunday#of course I haven’t removed my helmet since This Is The Way#still don’t like her but the accuracy here is so funny to me#the mandalorian#the mandalorian spoilers#sw#Star Wars#bo katan kryze#z speaks
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I’m gonna be real with you guys, I kind of dread the idea of trying to raise any future kids in this church
#and it’s not because i don’t believe the faith. obvs i do#but like in practice i’m either going to be going by myself or with my mom & siblings or whoever#i don’t have any friends my age so idk how i’m gonna find good friends for future kids#and obvs i want them to have good friends#i do believe in the virtues of friendship and believe it’s an important thing for people to experience and work at#but also i’ve had a lot of heartbreak in friendship and have a complicated relationship with it#and when i think back on my own childhood in churches it was always so turbulent#both because my family didn’t gel with the cultures/ideals of so many parishes#and because my dad made enemies everywhere we went (for obvious reasons but still)#that wasn’t us kids’ fault#but it didn’t matter#i thought i had adults to look up to in faith#but i have literally none i have a close relationship with#and even the ones i respect that doesn’t mean they’re good around kids#or would like hanging out with me#and i don’t want just any random person thinking because they’ve talked to me a couple times#that they get say in the close intimate decisions or issues i have with my spouse or children#the whole thing is strange tbh#like i don’t even want to have a close relationship with some priests even if i respect them or like them#and too many priests think that just cause they see you once a week they know you and should have a say in things they know nothing about#idk man catholicism in america and maybe the world is just. so hard nowadays.
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my freshman year of college I was approached by members of this christian group on my campus and I hung out with them even tho I’m an atheist because they reached out to me first and I was open to hanging out with them as I needed new friends and honestly initially had fun hanging out with them. before the semester had started there was someone I met on a roommate site that I was going to room with but my university ended up putting us in singles by each other. I had invited them to hang out with me and this group and they weren’t like me and couldn’t easily say no to their advances to going to church stuff and I still feel bad about it years later. and I especially now see how these groups try to recruit loners or new students who don’t really have friend yet into their community which if I was a christian I’m sure would’ve seemed great but alas christianity is about trying to covert others to your religion and I was not about that
#I quit hanging out with those ppl I don’t remember if it’s because I just distanced myself bc that’s something I used to do a lot#or if I didn’t like their advances on trying to get me to go to explicitly Christian/church stuff#also there’s a friend/roommate of one of my friends and he’s very kind to me but he has done the ‘I need to spread the word of god to ppl#Otherwise I’ll feel bad that I didn’t spread his glory to save others’ type of deal and it made me sooo uncomfortable#Like I have such a bad association bc of my family and it literally made me have bad religious ocd when I was younger#and you can’t be like oh I don’t believe in it bc now they’re hellbent on saving you
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