#the whole thing is strange tbh
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I’m gonna be real with you guys, I kind of dread the idea of trying to raise any future kids in this church
#and it’s not because i don’t believe the faith. obvs i do#but like in practice i’m either going to be going by myself or with my mom & siblings or whoever#i don’t have any friends my age so idk how i’m gonna find good friends for future kids#and obvs i want them to have good friends#i do believe in the virtues of friendship and believe it’s an important thing for people to experience and work at#but also i’ve had a lot of heartbreak in friendship and have a complicated relationship with it#and when i think back on my own childhood in churches it was always so turbulent#both because my family didn’t gel with the cultures/ideals of so many parishes#and because my dad made enemies everywhere we went (for obvious reasons but still)#that wasn’t us kids’ fault#but it didn’t matter#i thought i had adults to look up to in faith#but i have literally none i have a close relationship with#and even the ones i respect that doesn’t mean they’re good around kids#or would like hanging out with me#and i don’t want just any random person thinking because they’ve talked to me a couple times#that they get say in the close intimate decisions or issues i have with my spouse or children#the whole thing is strange tbh#like i don’t even want to have a close relationship with some priests even if i respect them or like them#and too many priests think that just cause they see you once a week they know you and should have a say in things they know nothing about#idk man catholicism in america and maybe the world is just. so hard nowadays.
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Lil messy comic I made for the shits n giggles
#I made this in black in white and then added color gradients over top of it#I should do that more in my art it’s fun and easy lmfao#Milo’s last name is Maddison btw#Milo doesn’t necessarily like people calling him that due to it reminding him of his father but Hazel likes teasing him#my comics#my comic#myart#art#artwork#procreate#Milo likes to not show his true emotions around people his whole thing is lying to manipulate people and to like. Make people like him more#He acts very charming but he’s a very angry guy with a lot of hatred in his heart#He has to keep his business afloat somehow though so tricks it is#Obviously not all of his personality is fake in public eye but like MOST of it is LMFAO#Hazel on the other hand is just deadpan angry 24/7 he doesn’t care to hide much of his personality#Besides being sad or showing weakness#Hazel and Milo have a very strange relationship#Hazel doesn’t care to push Milo’s buttons even though Milo could fire him at any time#But tbh Milo likes how Hazel won’t work well with him at times. He likes being pushed back (well most times anyway Hazel CAN get annoying)#Milo tends to be around a lot of yes men so Hazels a nice change of pace for him#It’s kinda why Hazel is Milo’s right hand man and bodyguard of sorts#doodle#doodles
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character/ship playlists are truly a lost art it's very tragic
#did 8tracks shut down finally????? the children are yearning for 8tracks#MY LIFE IS STRANGE AND BUBBLINE FANMIXES !!!!!!!!1 NO!!!!!!!#all my terrible mixes from 2011 my beloveds all gone#spotify sucks ass for trying to find playlists like that#because even when you finally do think you've found a decent x character playlist. it's gonna be full of bad songs that make no sense#with the narrative#which is why spotify needs to let you annotate playlists tbh#even then spotify is still inferior to stuff like 8tracks and playmoss (does anyone rmr flop playmoss) because it's still full of shitty#playlists#a song could be perfect for the playlist i'm making for x character but if there's One line that doesn't work then throw the whole thing ou#people aren't selective enough with the songs they pick. they'll just throw any fucking thing on a playlist#like i'm sorry but groupie love by lana del rey does not belong on a shiv roy playlist what is wrong with these people#i'm very PASSIONATE about this as someone who actually made fanmixes in 2011 :sob: and would spend#painstaking hours and days and weeks making stupid mixes that maybe 20 people mightve listened to :face_with_hand_over_mouth:#we need to get back to our roots we need to Rediscover
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top five taz ships in order??? -miz
in order? idk if this is in order of anything other than "order they occur to me"
Magnus/Lucretia (I am required by law to first list the ship I more or less invented in the spring of 2017) (first they are young and dumb, then they are middle-aged and haunted by the past!)
Taako/Kravitz (enemies to lovers speedrun, featuring canonical tentacles)
Taako/Magnus (listen) (seriously tho taagnus was some of the first fic I read in the winter of 2016/17!) (also Kravitz/Taako/Magnus is god tier imho)
Lup/Barry (Griffin's speech in the Legato episode? one of the readings at my wedding)
Merle/Davenport (I love my weird gay dads)
[ask me my top 5/top 10 anything]
#I have been told that the best kissing scene I ever wrote for TAZ was Avi/Lucas Miller#which I did as a goof tbh during a very strange day#idk if I ship it for realsies but it was fun to write#this is not even getting into the whole polyblaster thing#somewhere I have diagrams#taz balance#ask games
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i miss posting and making and engaging with ieytd content but I will be honest sometimes it feels alienating. as a lesbian.
#bee's buzzing#ieytd#i dont know.. its probably just me being Strange. but.#the Main guy in the fandom is juniper. and he's interesting! but. i don't... think about him as often#and when i do it's never in the shipping / x reader context i see so frequently in the tags.#i dont ship him with agent phoenix because. my agent is an it/its dyke. so i dont really engage in that side of fandom#i also dont think about the handler as often because. idk i just think about the women more!#but juniper and agent phoenix and the handler are like. the only people i see talked about often#which is fine!! people like them. i also like them just. not in the same way/to the same extent.#im here for the women. but. they're not talked about often at all :[#when they are it's usually briefly in passing.#they get the worst of the mischaracterization too imo. because people just do not give them the same depth as they like to give-#- charas like john. it makes me kinda sad tbh.#and also the fandom does not. seem to make much space for f/f content.#i know like. the handful of other people who make f/f content for ieytd.#and. god. idk im still honestly a bit ticked off by one solaris post that 1) was not a good analysis i will be quite honest.#it was very surface level. like really basic info and also iirc not entirely accurate? i cannot remember anymore#but. 2). it started by saying 'nobody talks about solaris outside of fabbylaris' and that still makes my blood boil.#like. not to vaguepost but. the fabbylaris posters ARE talking about solaris outside of a shipping context. please. please#also there was a whole Thing a while back where people started being strange about non-feminine nonbinary agent phoenix.#and as a nonbinary butch-adjacent dyke. it made my skin crawl!!! im NOT feminine and idk why making agent phoenix not feminine is.#apparently Bad to a certain subset of the fandom#sorry but im a dyke and i WILL make the player insert protag a butch lesbian who doesnt use she/her.#and if you have a problem with that please think about Why people making the player insert nonbinary and androgynous/Vaguely Masc is-#- such a problem to you. and whether that is alienating to the trans people in the fandom.#okay. im normal now. goodnight.
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How do you think jason would feel if the joker died in some random accident?
Okay, I had to think about this ngl.
He would definitely have mixed feelings about this.
Firstly, having the Joker dead is a positive, obviously. He could finally allow himself to be happy. Happy the Joker can’t terrorize anyone anymore and happy that he can finally live in peace without the constant dread that the joker is looming over him.
On the other hand, this complicates matters with the family. We know how much Bruce killing Joker would mean to him. Bruce killing Joker is killing his son’s murderer (ofc) but it’s also proving to Jason that Bruce did care about him and did love him. Because right now Jason thinks that his death was not enough and that he himself was not enough for Bruce to kill the Joker. In my mind, Jason lets himself get close because of the hope he has that Bruce still can fix his mistake ie killing Joker. But once Joker dies randomly, that hope is gone and then it truly is clear that Bruce didn’t care or love Jason enough to break his moral code. This kind of reminds me of the cycle of abuse and how abuse victims will stay with their abusers because of the hope they have that things will get better.
Then there’s also the fact that Jason himself deserves to beat the living shit out of Joker and watch as Joker dies under his hands. It would be very gratifying and therapeutic for him (and the readers, in my opinion)
Ultimately though I feel that Jason would be glad because now The monster is gone for good and there are much more positives because of that.
This is excluding the joker war and any possibility of there being different jokers because that’s just ridiculous
#Dc is always ridiculous though tbh#I’m sorry but the whole multiple jokers thing is just ridiculous#like I get that DC can’t permanently kill off a major villain#but this is just so tiring#And just after everything Joker has done.. he definitely deserves to die#Jason: I’m going to kill him!!#Bruce: NO! WHO ARE YOU TO DECIDE??!#Jason: HE DESERVES TO DIE >:(#Joker: Joke’s on you I’ll never die#I’ll be honest I like Joker as a character :/#like there’s a reason there are movies about him#He’s cool in a strange maniacal way#Imagine he dies like Eleanor from The Good Place-#like man just bends down and gets run over by a shopping cart 😭😂#That would be amazing#Thank you for the ask!#it was very nice to think about this/gen#red hood#jason todd#batfamily#batman#Joker#bruce wayne#dc#dc comics#character analysis#tw abuse mention#feel free to ask#oh shit I reached the 30 tags max#Red rambles
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Reading the Orchid Thief and lemme say. So fascinating to see someone like. Try to come up with a Reason Why humans like orchids. Two chapters here in a row pretty much treating Orchid hobbyists and plant hobbyists in general like one would an entirely alien culture- and don't get me wrong I understand why to an extent. Trying to make this book marketable outside just plant circles and what have you. But some of the way the camera is angled here is just. Fascinating.
Like, she explains how there are so many unique ways orchids evolved, as an attempt to contextualize for a reader why people might go crazy for them in specific, and describes individual species unique mating strategies, and the inability of them to self pollinate- but while I think that context is interesting it doesn't explain a damn thing. For one thing, having an extremely specific mating strategy is not solely an Orchid thing- a LOT of plants do it like that. Lots are flexible but I would say a vast swath are not and require specific things. For another- apples also don't self fertilize, but you don't have hundreds of thousands of apple varietal collectors.
She discusses their beauty as a reason they're collected- I won't deny that being a factor for sure, plants that humans like the shape of have a tendency to get collected and overcollected all the time- but like. A lot of people collect things that are traditionally ugly or even smell bad- and if it was exclusively a shallow pursuit, no one would work as hard as is required for an insane amount of orchids.
Part of the reasons orchids in particular are popular has to do with colonization. I can't articulate it all myself bc I haven't done research- but a genus that largely exists in tropical regions, that became popular in the late 1800s, that, in order to get in homes, white men would travel to all sorts of regions to take plants out of to get in the home? That is gonna help it get more popular than tomato or apple varieties for sure. I'm sure she's gonna touch on this eventually, given that the story she's covering actually involves the Seminole nation so I'm not holding it against her.
I suppose I'm just fascinated by her approach so far as to trying to understand why anyone would. Work to grow something? Really like something? I mean she pretty explicitly states that she "wants to want something" as much as these people want their plants- describes hobby communities and the idea of like. Working a hobby into your schedule or having friends related to the hobby as a "religion". She's baffled by like. Putting time and energy into a hobby and gaining joy and community from it and is trying to like. Break down orchids into their component parts to understand what makes someone. Want to grow a plant? And get community out of a hobby?
I'm going to be charitable and not make presumptions that she doesn't know like. The concept of loneliness and therefore a longing for community. Or that on some level she must know what common signs of autism are (ignoring her having spent several paragraphs describing several different people with classic signs and symptoms and then settling on "weird"). But it makes me want to turn the camera lens around for a moment. What makes someone presume that it's Orchid "obsession" (the word hobby is rather rare in the book acrually) that is particularly strange or more obsessed than other obsessions? What makes one abstract others hobbies and interests as needing a solve while the ones you surely have seen all over and even participated in aren't worth that examination? The line between "normal" and "abnomal" is entirely one made by dominant society
So this is why hobbies and kink aren't so different in the way they're perceived-
Orchids are an obsession to this author, to be highlighted and examined, or a hobby, to most people. They get a noteworthy category because they are seen as atypical. Sports-watching, however, is like. Never discussed as hobby. Watching football, watching soccer. It's just normal. No one says "that's my hobby." Even if a guy had a room full of memorabilia he would be noted as a "team fan" not a hobbyist. Sports has been declared normative, so it's not really considered a hobby by anyone. Plants? Non normative, therefore the same exact behaviors will get you considered unusual and a hobbyist.
Kink is the same way. People who are attracted to women being interested in breasts is so assumed to be normal and natural that no one calls it a kink. Breasts, the fatty deposits intended for feeding young, are expected to be hidden bc this kink (which everyone refuses to call a kink or a fetish or what have you) is seen as so universal. It's seen as immutable fact that there is a sexual nature to them. Feet however? If someone's into that that's a kink or a fetish if you're feeling kind, an obsession that makes you strange and worthy of examination and explanation if you're not.
I'm not arguing for doing away with calling things hobbies or kinks- I'm actually advocating for calling more normative things those words actually- I think it's just helpful to see where the framing of something, the way in which we choose to examine it, also has a lot to say about that which we leave unexamined, and unnamed. Because we don't categorize the normal.
#bookblr#just left me with thoughts tbh#the orchid thief#literally only like chapter 3 rn to be clear maybe a lot of this framing shifts. but like#she does go on discussing how she avoided keeping an orchid because she was afraid of it making her like everyone else she was speaking to#and like. thats when i was like. okay shes being exceedingly fucking weird in her approach to this.#and it makes her seem like. an evangelical xtian trying to avoid becoming corrupted. it made me start thinking too much#and then like. she also is like 'whats the deal w these orchids! why does everyone like them! ill go traipsing thru a swamp to find out!'#which is wild when like. maybe you could find out by growing them. the thing that all the hobbyists you find so strange are actually doing.#like only very few are going into swamps to find them bro#trying to explain why people like sports by going to the local park and watching children play basketball without understanding the rules#and then being like i dont get it!! like. yeah there are some noted differences here.#and also like the whole hike she hates it and doesnt want to hike and is unnerved by outside and walking. like girl! come on#she talks to a guy and is like why would you like orchids why would you waste your time waiting years for a bloom#and when hes essentially like. the time will pass anyway. shes like i still dont get it. but if i touch an orchid i might become insane so.#to be clear im enjoying this book. i think shes very funny. i also just think like okay. lets turn this lense back at u and ur weirdness#for more than 4 sentences girl. you read an article about a plant crime in fl. you. a woman who neither likes plants of any kind#nor lives in fl. and you flew down to learn everything you could. then you refused to actually grow a plant while trying to supposedly learn#everything about these plants to contextualize why someone would steal them#dude. girl. my friend. why did YOU do any of that?? you seem markedly stranger to me- someone who professes to care about nothing#but does all that. and then is terrified of. plant.#krogans thoughts
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genuinely always so shocked to see mirei hate. like literally god forbid women do anything.
#contra.txt#y5 haters in general... does playable haruka mean nothing to you...#DOES SHINADA TATSUO MEAN NOTHING TO YOU...#for legal reasons this is a joke people are allowed to feel however they want about whatever it's just viddy games#and i fully acknowledge y5 and its litany of flaws#of which there are certainly enough for any given individual to justifiably dislike/hate its entirety but I AM A Y5 LOVER THRU AND THRU#saejima's arc is just an arguably less interesting rehash of the one he had in 4?#(jail; jailbreak; betrayed by his lil buddy guy#but now we're sans the interesting character stuff of his feelings regarding the hit. & also i miss his hair.#& that's not even to say i think saejima is boring in y5 i think there's some interesting subtext to take away from his character#unique to this entry but it's pretty hard to deny how much is literally just y4 again but now he's bald)#BUT WHO GAFS he got buffed to hell gameplay-wise and punches bears now#and also baba's a great character and he doesn't have to do a whole chase minigame if a cop sees him anymore#bloated/unfocused feeling in general to the game?#WELL THAT'S JUST MORE CONTENT BABY!!! only a real issue if you're a completionist imo#+ are u telling me you don't wanna drive a taxi? u don't wanna play a video game in which the goal is to drive as normally as possible?#and i loveeeee multiple protagonists yay <3 y0 y4 and y5 are my favs so far lol (up to y6)#kiryu's inclusion in y5 also feels way more justified than in y4. he was so tacked on there i'm trying to remember what he even really did#other than tiger dropping as a boss fight before instantly forgetting how to tiger drop the second he became playable#and losing track of yasuko and getting tag-teamed by akiyama and tanimura (cough) and beating up daigo#but in exchange akiyama becomes the protag that feels kinda tacked on in y5. way less so than kiryu in y4 tho for sure#anyway. weird/strangely justified plot beats? WELL THAT'S JUST EVERY YAKUZA GAME#an arguably strange/poor writing choice for majima especially given how he ended up being written in y0?#well honestly other than the age thing i think it makes him more interesting... he's kinda fucked up!#but i do get why people are /really/ not a fan of it. ik i just said i think it makes him more interesting but if it gets retconned#or even just never mentioned again i wouldn't be surprised tbh#but additionally he's not even a major character in y5 so it feels like it's not really a significant complaint imo#anyway anyone can do this ('this' being acknowledging the flaws of a thing and then letting how much they otherwise enjoy#said thing determine how much they let said flaws influence their overall opinion) ...such is the beauty of subjectivity... i love you.#yakuza
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I still think about the time when Strange Aeons made a video about tumblr sexy men and brought up the fact that people were/are into the Madagascar penguins which shot into me the memory that I indeed find Kowalski the Madagascar penguin sexy and I will never come back from that
#strange aeons#the Madagascar penguins#tumblr sexyman#depths of tumblr sexymen tbh#honestly some childhood memories are fun/fascinating to remember and some are horrifying#this was- sure an experience#and like I can’t deny the fact that when I think about him I’m still down#and I don’t really want to watch the movie/show again#bc although it could make me go back on that#it could also do the very dangerous opposite which is awaken it again#lolollll#that’s mostly a joke lmao#but like yeah I’m just trying to leave that whole thing alone
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every time im in front i can just Feel like pretty much Everybody else in-sys just staring at me like prairie dogs ready to be alerted to any sign of anxiety
#its. mildly unnerving#that. might be contributing to how i obscure front a lot now that i think abt it. scopophobia system-wide and all.#its. a little odd. being.. Maybe the only one in front rotation with a whole lot of anxiety and Definitely the only one with self-hatred?#like it's just new for our system. its really strange to me feeling like the odd one out here#which like. overall? net positive. good thing for us#way way more of us to focus energy on helping others feel better#much smaller percentage of front time spent feeling like shit (emotionally. physical complications notwithstanding)#but also like#growing up and like. now especially as an adult#we've noticed well-adjusted people so often just HATE people with a lot of depression or anxiety or trauma#so our instinct is to Avoid people like that because. none of them have ever understood or cared or were willing to try at all in the past#so like why would it be different now#which. gets in the way of us making friends a lot tbh. we need more friends in a similar state of recovery as us#like. not still in the bad in a way that would very very easily make us spiral bc we overly try to help at our own detriment#but also not so well adjusted that a few bad days or relapsing doesn't ruin the friendship#but like that instinct we have. i keep applying it to my system mates;;;;;#even though they've shown me over and over and over that they care a lot and want to help as much as possible#i just. i can't. i can't accept it. i can't feel comfortable with it#im too neurotic
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kirk and uhura's friendship in snw is sweet but WHY did they have KIRK of all people give a speech to uhura about the necessity of facing death when the inability to face death is kirk's defining character flaw and something he famously does not overcome until the wrath of khan. hello???
#i make no claims that i am a kirk expert i barely think about that boy tbh#but come on. that's his whole thing!!!#star trek strange new worlds#snw tag#space the final frontier etc.#kirk: better than you and he knows it
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the things they choose to be open or private about are so funny because why have they (or dan at least) admitted to having a bondage bar above the bed but deny owning handcuffs
#not to mention handcuffs being a prop in ii and we know they have a whole prop box#handcuffs would be the least strange thing for them to own tbh
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Reckon I got clocked as qu**r by one of my mum friends the other day bc we were talking abt our types in men n I said I like a pretty boy n immediately when conversation moves on she’s asking me if I watch drag race n who my favourite queens are. An ally 😍
#op#motherhood as a bi woman is rly alienating btw guys#ntm the whole nonbinary thing like#constantly addressed as ‘ladies’ in the gc n convos about how we need a ~girls night#it’s very strange tbh I’ve never had a group of straight female friends like this#weird experience#impostor syndrome#yanno#like I’m not closeted but it hasn’t rly come up explicitly so I feel idk#just WEIRD#anyways
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Matthew MacFayden’s Darcy is a fascinating thing to unpack because I don’t believe it succeeds as a performance of Darcy or even as a performance in general (it kind of can't) but there are layers to it and it's not simple.
#the layers are: he’s a good actor. it’s a bad script.#okay simple enough but then it’s a bad script with several lines ripped directly FROM ONE OF THE GREATEST NOVELISTS OF ALL TIME#and so for a second he’s a good actor saying a great line and tbh it works in flashes#LOVE when he asks Caroline if he can defer her raptures til his next letter#Darcy dryness IN THE ROOM WITH US FOR A MOMENT#but then he’s also forced to stand up too quick and say ‘she’s upstairs’ in response to Lizzy asking about Jane#And it’s just. Giving Blurting? And I know he’s supposed to be flustered but it’s so not Darcy so it’s ooc and also jarring#and then there's his terrible haircut and the ill-fitting clothes and the strange blocking and direction#which add their own layers of bad#but then he ISN'T a bad actor and he's not not responding to Keira's beauty#there are moments where it's like.... yeah! that's a man who knows how to look at a woman!#he is not not connected to her. i know what people mean when they say they feel it#there's an energy! some glances! some warmth!#but then there's the thing where it's like. a) i don't think that he's the right choice for Darcy even in a better script#b) the script doesn't understand and has no interest in Darcy's true character and goes for the shy puppy/awkward/tumblr take on him#so both of those things are happening at once!!!!!!!!#and yeah it's just kind of so emblematic of the movie as a whole#not all the ingredients are bad but they are not well utilized at all#and also sometimes they are the wrong (good) ingredient#anyway do not mean to hurt any feelings or start any discourse i just am always trying to explain this to myself#and i don't think i've ever come so close tbh!!!!!#this was in my drafts from last night so i thought i would share it now#because I've always felt how much is wrong and how much is wrong as an Austen adaptation and yet there are glances#(that one gifset of them at Pemberley where they're talking about her playing and he's like 'no i said quite well')#(and she smiles and then he smiles and the light is golden and it's !!!!!)#but then there are moments that don't even work by that isolated measure!!!!#that just feel so weird and wrong!!!!! again. even by a sentimental measure#maybe even ESPECIALLY by a sentimental measure#so i'm always trying to unpack it more clearly (joe wright the clear villain being one takeaway) thank you for listening etc. more at 11.#2005 liveblog
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soooo is this man implying it's the empire that was the problem with uwu fodlan's border problems?
'cause i mean. that's basically what he just said.
#DCB Three Houses Run#random npc 482 giving us the whole truth of the story while hiding in plain sight#anyway i don't really think the empire is entirely the problem if it is part of it#it's just strangely interesting that an npc would mention this as if trade has been an issue for merchants bc#the borders are so isolated and he believes that when the empire is taken down that that will improve#like if there was any isolation problem for Fodlan what this guy is saying is that it's the Empire's fault#I just feel like it's a really weird lore drop thing if it's not true? and tbh it'd make sense#in that Rhea gets blamed for that stuff whe it was actually the Empire doing it to set her up#that would fit in perfectly with Edelgard's propaganda which if it spread badly enough#could result in Claude hearing about it and thinking it's true?
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watching the new fraggle rock - not season 2 which just came out, i havent even seen season 1 yet, that's what im watching
the glowing tail really is like gay allegory to all hell huh
#i mean much like xmen it's just a general othered/marginalized thing rather than specifically queer#and could even read it more as a neurodivergence thing tbh#considering it happened when boober was really happy and focused on a seemingly strange and mundane task#that he's just Very Very Interested In#almost like it's an interest that might be special#and obviously in general its a kids show so the intent is that sort of its okay to have differences thing#but also like the lie wembley tells mookey about uh oh boober just sat down and it went on there#is like the joke excuse stereotypical straight men give to how they get randoom shit stuck up their ass#so the whole it's a gay thing is still there
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