#you didnt deserve it

[sillyxaly]

Short story.

Talked to my mom, cried to my mom.

And roughly translated she told me in regards to the last post "Even if I was overwhelmed thats not your fault and thats not a reason either." and she also apologized.

And I just thought that might be a sentence some people need to hear because their parents never did say it to them.

You were a child. Even if you were annoying and a lot and overwhelming. Its your parents job to handle that and its not your fault if they can't.

[deoxy-ribonucleic-acid]

you msy be lactose intolerant but i have a milk you will be able to take in.

[nixierain]

Ever

Feel your heart twist in sadness over one of your OC's cause their end is so unfair?

Cause thats how I feel about Ben... Its just so horrible... And I have horrible OC things, but this, this hurts me

[utterqueerdisasterthesimp]

im sorry

[ghostly-punk]

Lol

[a-heart-like-a-sparrow]

February 28th, 2024 - Unidentified Object

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Well, I actually ended up identifying that object. It was a dead fish.

It was in front of my house on the sidewalk. At first, I thought it was a rat because it was grey. And it was full of flies. When I got home in the afternoon, my mother had already thrown it away (fortunately). Poor fish.

Anyway. I'm exhausted.

I had 2 or 3 hours of Philosophy classes, and while I think I'll enjoy it and I like my teacher, today she KILLED me. She teaches Ethics, too. And I already have to get the photocopies. Like come on, it's the first week...

I also had a Latin American Literature class. I have 2 activities to make because I didn't do anything there. I was so tired, and I didn't know how to answer.

So yeah, it was a long day. I didn't enjoy it a lot. When I arrived here, I almost fell asleep. I'll watch a bit of TV and go to sleep.

On a lighter note, I finished listening to The Doors! I loved it, my favourite album is definitely "Morrison Hotel". I'll see if I'll listen to "Other Voices" and "Full Circle".

For now, I'm listening to The Postal Service's album "Give Up". They only released that one. So I may listen to it in just one day.

Whatever. That was all. Oh, I forgot to tell you, I had my first P.E. class. I was dying by the end of the class. It was just one hour and I couldn't get through it well.

HE EVEN WAS THERE. I was a mess.

I can't stop thinking about him. It's got to be my fault, I'm just lonely and take any ounce of attention someone gives me. Or maybe he IS a curse. I'm thinking about writing about him for the third activity I have for Literature tomorrow. In a very cryptic and creepy way. Because I really don't know hoe to explain it.

It's a shame I'll never see him again after he finishes school...

I'll miss him. Even we never were friends.

But yeah, I'll think about it. I'll get my things and make the covers for the school subjects I have tomorrow. And I'll eat some ice cream. I think I deserve it after a rather bad day.

Okay, I don't have anything else to say. Rest well!

I'll go back to yearning some more.

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[captainsaltypear]

for legal reasons caine needs to give pomni her own marketable gummipoo plushie. as a treat.

[awhooooga]

Amethia Tope I wish they had given you a chance

[fanaticalthings]

[Jason and Steph hanging out at Jay's apartment]

Jason: So you and Tim are like, done, right?

Steph: Oh yeah, it's definitely over. It was pretty mutual, too.

Jason: Oh, thank God. I didn't wanna say it, but it was a bit annoying whenever I invited you over, and you dragged Tim with you.

Steph: yeahhh sorry about that

Jason: It's just nice spending quality time without the rest of the bats butting in. I already have enough to deal with whenever I visit the manor.

Steph: Well, you don't have to worry about that anymore. I'm gonna be 100% batboy/Robin-free from now on!

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Steph showing up to Jason's apartment 1 month later with Cass in tow: So here's the thing-

[galaxgay]

I love the look on Crowley's face when Aziraphale does something bad without any outside influence. And not morally bad, just... definitely not something angelic

The sheer glee in her eyes, he looks like hes falling all over again every time.

[mueritos]

happy pride to all queer children of immigrants

patreon

[rammliedmania]

Hello, Potemkin artist? I'd like to request a commission please of Potemkin Guilty Gear...

WITH NORMAL BODY PROPORTIONS!!

this doesn't feel right bro

[crosallin]

Goodbye goodbye goodbye you were bigger than the whole sky.

[windkonig]

society has ingrained in all of us that bugs are bad and evil and scary and they Bite You for no reason and Sting You For Fun and I would like to challenge every single person that reads this to try to step back and challenge those thoughts. CHALLENGE that knee-jerk reaction to kill every bug you see. REALIZE that killing it doesn't have to be the answer. it's fine to not want bugs in your home. but I see so many people whose FIRST choice is to kill it, even though it'd be easy to just cup it and toss it outside. why?

one of the greatest things that got me over my extremely intense arachnophobia was knowledge. learning more about the thing I was afraid of made me realize, "oh, they're just little guys trying to get by too" and I stopped killing every spider I saw.

and it's like. no, that wasp didn't sting you for fun. it stung you because it felt scared or defensive. no, the spider in your shower isn't trying to kill you. spiders need water to live too.

you don't deem a scared dog/cat evil for biting you, do you? then why are we demonizing insects and spiders for feeling scared? they are so, so small and we are so large. they don't know anything about us, they're just trying to live life. they didn't know they built their web in a bad spot. they didn't know they built their nest next to your door. please, show some kindness to these tiny creatures. I understand you can't let infestations happen or wasps build in your walls, but whenever possible, try to put bugs in a cup and take them outside. yes, even wasps. even black widows. if you want tips for safely capturing bugs, I'm always around to ask.

also, to those who say things like, "x bug eats other pest bug, so they're okay" why? why does something have to benefit you to deserve to live? shouldn't all creatures have a chance at life, even if they're ugly, even if they don't benefit you, even if they do something you don't like? what gives you the right to decide to take the life of any animal just because ahhh it looked scary? please. all I ask is you try to be kinder. it's okay to be scared, it's not okay to pointlessly kill things.

[inkskinned]

you were raised in comparison.

it wasn't always obvious (well. except for the times that it was), but you internalized it young. you had to eat what you didn't like, other people are going hungry, and you should be grateful. you had to suck it up and walk on the twisted ankle, it wasn't broken, you were just being a baby. you were never actually suffering, people obviously had it worse than you did.

you had a roof over your head - imagine! with the way you behaved, with how you talked back to your parents? you're lucky they didn't kick you out on your ass. they had friends who had to deal with that. hell, you have friends who had to deal with that. and how dare you imply your father isn't there for you - just because he doesn't ever actually talk to you and just because he's completely emotionally checked out of your life doesn't mean you're not fucking lucky. think about your cousins, who don't even get to speak to their dad. so what if yours has a mean streak; is aggressive and rude. at least you have a father to be rude to you.

you really think you're hurting? you were raised in a home! you had access to clean water! you never so much as came close to experiencing a real problem. sure, okay. you have this "mental illness" thing, but teenagers are always depressed, right. it's a phase, you'll move on with your life.

what do you mean you feel burnt out at work. what do you mean you mean you never "formed healthy coping mechanisms?" we raised you better than that. you were supposed to just shoulder through things. to hold yourself to high expectations. "burning out" is for people with real jobs and real stress. burnout is for people who have sick kids and people who have high-paying jobs and people who are actually experiencing something difficult. recently you almost cried because you couldn't find your fucking car keys. you just have lost your sense of gratitude, and honestly, we're kind of hurt. we tell you we love you, isn't that enough? if you want us to stick around, you need to be better about proving it. you need to shut up about how your mental health is ruined.

it could be worse! what if you were actually experiencing executive dysfunction. if you were really actually sick, would you even be able to look at things on the internet about it? you just spend too much time on webMD. you just like to freak yourself out and feel like you belong to something. you just like playing the victim. this is always how you have been - you've always been so fucking dramatic. you have no idea how good you have it - you're too fucking sensitive.

you were like, maybe too good of a kid. unwilling to make a real fuss. and the whole time - the little points, the little validations - they went unnoticed. it isn't that you were looking for love, specifically - more like you'd just wanted any one person to actually listen. that was all you'd really need. you just needed to be witnessed. it wasn't that you couldn't withstand the burden, but you did want to know that anyone was watching. these days, you are so accustomed to the idea of comparison - you don't even think you belong in your own communities. someone always fits better than you do. you're always the outlier. they made these places safe, and then you go in, and you are just not... quite the same way that would actually-fit.

you watch the little white ocean of your numbness lap at your ankles. the tide has been coming in for a while, you need to do something about it. what you want to do is take a nap. what you want to do is develop some kind of time machine - it's not like you want your life to stop, not completely, but it would really nice if you could just get everything to freeze, just for a little while, just until you're finished resting. but at least you're not the worst you've been. at least you have anything. you're so fucking lucky. do you have any concept of the amount of global suffering?

a little ant dies at the side of your kitchen sink. you look at its strange chitinous body and think - if you could just somehow convince yourself it is enough, it will finally be enough and you can be happy. no changes will have to be made. you just need to remember what you could lose. what is still precious to you.

you can't stop staring at the ant. you could be an ant instead of a person, that is how lucky you are. it's just - you didn't know the name of the ant, did you. it's just - ants spend their whole life working, and never complain. never pull the car over to weep.

it's just - when it died, it curled up into a tight little ball.

something kind of uncomfortable: you do that when you sleep.

[biopsssihozz]

season two got canceled, im yeeting myself into the sun :")

ill go reread all edwin/cat king ffs i loved and cry now goodbyyyyyyyye