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WanderingBlindly Fanfic Masterlist:
Lando Norris/Oscar Piastri
October Birds (10.3k, 1/7 chapters, ongoing)
“Y’alright, World Champion Lando Norris?” Max asks, leaning back in his desk chair with his hands tucked behind his head. “Piss off,” Lando mumbles back, not liking the smile in Max’s tone. Besides, what can he say? ‘Bit lost, actually. Any idea how to handle the best day of your life feeling like the end?’. Or: Lando runs away to the wrong Perth. Oscar takes in a lost man.
The Guidebook but it's Different Because Now There's Stockings (8k words, oneshot)
The snap of the nylon, sharp against his thigh, resonates through the bedroom. But he can't rouse himself from his mind, can hardly feel his lashes against his cheek as he blinks lazily. Oscar's fingers are hot, nails lightly grazing the sensitive skin at the crease of his hip. And his lips, seemingly glued to his leg, trace along the top of the fabric. His teeth nip at the soft, thin skin of his inner thigh, tongue soothing the sting before Lando can process it. And, like a parting gift, Oscar whispers: "So beautiful..."
Oscar Piastri's (Full Homo) Guide to Fucking Your Boyfriend (19.4k words, 2/2 Chapters)
"Has my girlfriend ever kissed a guy before?" Oscar's eyes move to Lando's lips, lashes fluttering gold in the setting sun. Girlfriend. His mind goes silent, lips parted and eyelids heavy. It feels... nice. Hearing that. It feels good, even. Like Oscar's claiming him, possessing him. Girlfriend. He whispers back, feather-light. "No." Oscar looks back up, catches his eyes. "Do you want to?"
By Touch (1.6k words, oneshot)
Oscar's fingers shift, reaching for Lando's wrist and moving them both. "The hardest thing to learn, I think," Oscar starts, voice barely audible over Lando's heart, his shallow breaths. "Is letting yourself feel." Delicately, like one would touch the wings of a butterfly, Oscar ghosts Lando's fingers across his cheekbone. He's soft, as if the pink under his skin is a gently unfurling rose petal after spring rain.
Bite Down, Reverse It (1.4k words, oneshot)
“I’ve never —” He’s never heard Lando’s voice like this: tight and frantic, like he’s been caught. Shaped by my hands. “That’s fine,” Oscar breathes, leaning in closer — all he can see are Lando’s eyes in their seemingly infinite shades, all he can feel is his cock, already so hard against his thigh. “You’re gonna have to teach me.” Made exactly how I want you.
Lando Norris's (No Homo) Guide to Getting a Girlfriend (10k words, oneshot)
"Bet I could teach you." Oscar's eyes snap back to his, wider than the time Lando suggested they go skydiving in the off-season. "Teach me –" "The Lando Norris guide to getting laid." Oscar pulls a face. "That's not –" "Getting a girlfriend, then." Lando amends, holding up his largely-empty glass in cheers. "Cheers to not being a virgin, mate."
We're Not Really Strangers (4.1k words, oneshot)
"Fine," Desperate to move away from his increasingly not PR-friendly train of thought, Lando snags another card. "What's the first thing you noticed about me?" "Your eyes." Oscar freezes as soon as he's said it, mouth clamped shut and brows raised – shocked. At himself. Or: Lando and Oscar play ice breakers for a PR video, what could happen?
Impasse of Biting (12.5k words, 2/2 chapters)
"Maybe it would be good for you, something like this." Lando looks away from the espresso machine, over at Charles. "Like what?" "A vampire." "Charles," Lando breathes out, leaning against the back of his workstation and crossing his arms. "I've told you, it's not..." it's a me problem. He's the one that can't seem to connect to people, he's the one that's not noteworthy enough to want.
Too Close to Touch (2.3k words, oneshot)
"Sit up," Oscar groans, aiming for a more demanding tone than he can gather with Lando's mouth sucking lightly at his neck – not enough to bruise. Lando makes a noise in response, petulant and determined, that makes Oscar's head spin. Like he's addicted to him, unwilling to let go. Like this isn't some fucking insane bet that they made during the driver's parade. Or, Lando and Oscar make a bet: how important are hands when it comes to kissing, anyways?
It'll Pass (5.7k words, oneshot)
"Don't wanna win if you're not there." Lando says, pinkies still intertwined, looking Oscar dead in the eyes. He says it like it's common sense, like it's a normal thing to say to a teammate. Like it's not the closest Oscar will ever get to hearing I love you. "Promise." They let go.
Watch Me (5.5k words, oneshot)
It's half seven, and just like nearly every other day since he's moved in, his neighbor is in his bathroom – poorly concealed by the frosted glass window that's not nearly as frosted as it should be. He's standing on his toes, bending over his sink to get closer to the mirror, clad in next to nothing but short, black briefs. His eyes roam higher, heartrate spiking when he sees it, just like every other time he's seen it: Oscar's neighbor, a seemingly unmated omega, wears his collar. At home. Alone. When he's wearing next to nothing else.
Time After Time (3.k words, oneshot)
It's him, it's definitely... him. But it's him from years ago, narrower in the shoulders and more uncertain in his smile. He recognizes what he's wearing, remembers agonizing over it for the better part of an hour with George and Alex, both laying on his tiny dormitory bed with eager eyes. It's their first date.
Late Nights (1.3k words, oneshot)
Oscar leans forward and rummages through the bag, nabbing a pair of chopsticks and an unopened container. "Want me to stay?" Lando's heart sinks; has he been home late so often that Oscar would offer? "Babe, it's really gonna be a late one, I can't --" He talks around his mouthful of noodles. "I don'mind."
Someone in Seattle (11.6k words, oneshot)
“Could I, like… would you be my model for it? Maybe?” “That’s what the coffee was for then?” “No, that was, uh.” He can feel his face heating up, skin undeniably turning a deeper shade of red under Lando’s gaze – mirthful and a little something else. “That was different.” “Gonna say what?” “No.”
Keep Talking (2.7k words, oneshot)
Closing his eyes, pulling a deep breath in through his nose, Lando lowers himself to the floor – sitting directly next to Oscar’s spread knees. “Yeah?” Oscar asks, voice already softer – leading. He’s still sat casually against the sofa, looking down at Lando with warm, understanding eyes. Lando nods in response, eyes fluttering closed as he lets himself lean against Oscar’s leg, rubbing his cheek against his sweatpants.
Nouveau Hot (3.5k words, oneshot)
Lando’s hand moves faster, the knot in his stomach growing tighter with each stroke, each flick of his wrist. Easy muscle memory, it should be enough but — “Need you, need you, need you now, I- Osc, please I -oh fuck,” He’s rambling, the words spilling out faster as he desperately chases release — hips fucking up uselessly into his hand. “That’s too bad, isn’t it?”
Lando v Media (1.2k words, oneshot)
He’s very aware that fucking his teammate isn’t exactly the best PR move he’s ever come up with. And he didn’t need to be told that, to be clear. Though, to be even clearer, he was told that – Jon made quick work of pointing it out, as did the HR representative, as did the PR representative, as did Andrea. But again, he was already aware, so that all felt really excessive.
Bite Down (Show Me How) (1.2k words, oneshot)
“I’m a virgin, by the way.” Smooth start. Oscar, to his irritating credit, doesn’t even look at him from his spot, leaning casually against the elevator wall. “Yeah?” He turns his head, giving Lando a look that makes him realize he’s not the one in charge here. “Wanna do something ‘bout that?”
You Bring Me Closer to God (9.7k words, oneshot)
They’re still close enough to whisper, Lando’s hand holding him in place as he grins wildly. “You like it rough, Osc?” He doesn’t even care if it’s just a bit, just Lando’s stage persona washing over him like it does all his fans. Looking up at Lando, looking at the lipstick he smeared across his cupid’s bow and chin – it’s like he’s seen god. Felt it on his lips, tasted it on his tongue. Oscar grabs him by the nape of the neck without a second thought, pulling them together just as viciously as the first time. Or: In which Lando is a very slutty front-man for a small band seeking their big break, Oscar is an enamored bartender, and Jenson's bar brings them together.
Hot Pink Ring Pops (Would You Marry Me If I Was a Worm?) (4.2k words, oneshot)
“Oscar isn’t ever gonna marry me if I’m a worm, Jon!” He laments, the words uneven and jagged as he sobs (which, Jon realizes, can’t be good for whatever injuries he’s possibly sustained from the crash). Somehow more importantly, what the fuck did Lando just say?
Is It Gay to Watch Your Teammate on Tiktok? (Asking for a Friend) (12.3k words, 2/2 Chapters)
He’s sitting on the bed, dinner long since picked at, with his knees pulled up to his chest. He feels close to hyperventilating. It’s playing on loop, some sappy little edit captioned “i need to find someone to look at me the same way oscar looks at lando”. And really, who the fuck was going to tell him that Oscar smiles at him like that?
Mortifying! Anyways, (2.3k words, oneshot)
Mortifying interaction, but he’d survive. Besides, it’s not like the cashier was that cut– “Cute enough to make you stupid, huh Norris?” He could hear his smile before he saw his face, a proper Cheshire grin. “Fuck off mate,” Lando groaned, already trying to scrub the cashier from his brain. Except for the Australian accent, he decided; that bit could stay. Maybe his eyes, too, as tired as they had seemed. And his hair, which looked so soft in that kind of ridiculous side part.
If I'm Barbie, and You're Barbie, then Who's Driving the Bus? (814 words, oneshot)
Anyways, the driver room is largely quiet at the moment. But not entirely, much to Lando’s enjoyment. Buzzing from Oscar’s headphones, loud enough for Lando to hear the words, is a song from Barbie. Charli XCX, no less.
#masterpost#landoscar#liqfic#f1 fic#f1 fanfic#If I’m Barbie and You’re Barbie Then Who’s Driving the Bus?#Mortifying! Anyways#Is It Gay to Watch Your Teammate on Tiktok?#Hot Pink Ring Pops#Is It Gay Verse#You Bring Me Closer to God#Bite Down (Show Me How)#Lando v Media#Nouveau Hot#Keep Talking#Someone in Seattle#Late Nights#Time After Time#Watch Me#it’ll pass#too close to touch#impasse of biting#we're not really strangers#lando norris’s (no homo) guide to getting a girlfriend#Oscar Piastri's (Full Homo) Guide to Fucking Your Boyfriend#By Touch#Bite Down Reverse It#the guidebook but it's different because now there's stockings#October Birds
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You bring me closer to God 🔥❤️💋
#good omens#ineffable husbands#aziraphale x crowley#michael sheen#david tennant#good omens spoilers#good omens 2#gos2 spoilers#aziraphale#crowley#you bring me closer to God#nine inch nails
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have yet to stop thinking about the plane ride to Barcelona, aka the worlds most awkward plane ride in the world. Like who do we think sat together? Did Devon talk to any of them, like is she’s friends with any of the other teens? Did Eli and demetri drag other people into their drama, was demetri very obviously trying to avoid Eli, messing up the assumed plane seating arrangements? Was Robby brooding over his missing girlfriend and her dead mom the whole time? Were Daniel and Johnny still beefing or do we think they tried to save face for the kids? Is there any chance that Miguel and Sam were able to just have a nice time hanging out with each other on the flight or did they get dragged into everyone else’s drama? I’m so obsessed with the logistics of the Barcelona trip, not to mention the flight is like 11 hours long if it’s non-stop. it sounds like the trip from hell
#Like Devon is implied to be younger than them bc she’s always with Anthony and Kenny so like I don’t think she knows them that well#MAYBE Miguel from eagle fang days but I doubt they’re close and also he is closer to literally everyone else on that flight#Did she just awkwardly sit with Johnny like I know he loves her but it’s still sad#Also I beg the question (which may actually get answered) did Johnny and Daniel like bring their families??????#Like are Amanda and Carmen there? Is Anthony coming just to watch? That feels mean to him#If Anthony didn’t come then I doubt Amanda did which makes me doubt that pregnant Carmen did which then begs the question#Do lawrusso have to share a hotel room and hilarity ensues? To me? Yes#It’s just like I think there’s no way Miguel and Sam escape the binary boyfriends drama which is a shame bc they’re not fighting with anyon#They could have peace but alas#And then you know Robby is going through it#Oh my god it cracks me up so much I haven’t stopped thinking about it#cobra kai
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and happy pride to these assholes. it's still june so i can technially still make that joke right
#the nemesis speaks#nemesis art#malevolent podcast#malevolent fanart#god i hate tagging for new fandoms yall scare me. im stopping there#anyway i have too many directors notes for this. ive developed such a vivid image of john in my head#but absolutely nothing for the dude with the actual physical body lol#idk just thinking abt the fact that the trader said ''two appear before me'' implying he could perceive john visually#but it's hard to wrap my head around like. a totally separate body that john doesn't appear consciously aware of himself#so: i think they are generally tied together. like this.#but anyway yeah. tattered/torn piece of something else. shattered crown. open hood implying a face behind it.#(yellow also has/had a mask and an unbroken crown it's symbolic™)#the stains on the cloak are blood btw! since injury/death so consistently brings these two closer together#(and the red symbolically brings the yellow closer to arthur's brown color scheme)#the blood on the CROWN is legally john's though. or. the king's more accurately.#the intact crown on the king himself pierces through the cloak like barbs#this is all a metaphysical representation and not Actual blood ofc but (gestures vaguely) you get it#i'm talking too much whatever it's very late i probably shouldn't even be posting this WHO CARES#tomorrow i will have my proper pc back and not be drawing on an ipad old enough to have a tumblr acct maybe i'll do something better then#fuck it hit post#mv liveblog#<- almost forgot
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#You'd think of all times I'd be having stress dreams right now‚ but I'm not actually#In fact usually my dreams are horrible things of dreadful desperate danger and darkness and blood. Losing my children‚ losing other people#who trust me to help and save them.#But they've all been things like “woman is criticizing my soap bottles” (🤨) and “there's a tornado - but it doesn't hit us actually” and#“you missed a phone call btw”#But it's not that I'm not stressed. I am. I am tied up in all sorts of knots over this pending divorce hearing. And the pending CPS case.#<- That's going to court btw. Dallas has had a full year to do the mandatory six weeks counseling and has opted not to finish it‚ so they'r#taking him to court over it to codify that he is not allowed to have anything to do with us.#Fine by me‚ him being legally prevented from having anything to do with us has always been my hope. It'll be a hassle for me having to#*also* appear in court‚ but overall a small price to pay. And it also removes my last theological objections to the divorce;#the unbelieving has chosen to depart indeed.#So! *Good* news. But also not not-stressful.#(My back is *killing* me and it gets worse the closer February 6th looms.)#On the other hand I REFUSE to worry. Because there is No. Way. that God would bring us this far just to abandon us now.#And His fingerprints are *all over* the last two years.#(I am still not precisely 'looking forward' to the court appearances.)#Anyway. Fun stuff‚ fun stuff.#Nattering into the void
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was going through my blog trying to track down an old post i made talking abt my feelings on jolene and it was. much longer than i remembered it being. and haha yeah i still agree with it. i need to fucking. sort out my feelings on that character and that subplot
#like. its just been A Thing where once i thought abt it too hard it was just Wow i hate this actually#its not entirely like a visceral discomfort but its a sort of like. its unpleasant to think abt this for too long#like??? the easiest way for me to explain it is that normally its fine like ok a pursuer antagonist character to add lil backstory#but the moment you toss in the implication that she still has romantic feelings for him it jumps up to WOW THIS IS UNCOMFORTABLE#for me. for me. like just all of it? and some fan stuff that influenced it like. bad jokes and uncomfy phrasing that leans to linebeck bein#like an unwilling participant or ‘giving in’ like fan stuff also REALLY hasnt helped so i just. yknow avoid it#salty talks#might delete later but i didnt delete the og so whatever#like she is absolutely just. badly written. shes a joke and poorly written and its just. there and there are implications#it does just come down to. shes badly written and the way linebeck reacts to all of it doesnt help#like when i worry abt like. coming off as sexist. its like nah shes just fucking badly written#casca is a similar kind of character as someone aggressive to her love interest and lashing out at him despite having feelings#but shes like. well written. and guts reciprocates. and you like. see them communicate and grow closer#here youre just given a disastrous fucking aftermath where communication is completely broken down#and while the aggressive party still has feelings the other party actively wants to just not engage with it and actively doesnt care#cuz like. he literally does not bring her up or allude to her outside of her being immediately relevant i cannt see him being interested#GOD. i just need to write all this out i keep justifying myself with it i need to. get it out#im narrowing down. something. for how i think their backstory together goes with it being a lot of miscommunication and it just being like#a bad situation anyways with their last actual encounter being a violent one and its like yeah no that was a trainwreck#i know its a fucking like. comedic(????) subplot in a lighthearted childrens game#but it has Vibes to me and that game does have some darker vibes to it we all know that#and it just. i dont like her. i dont. i remember i used to be like. alright with her. and then i thought on it too much#casca addendum ig. shes objectively not like. well well written. but all things considered. shes pretty good#like im p sure she was made to suffer to make guts feel bad but. she does happen to be a kickass character in the midst of that
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the new troye sivan album is so good for situationship iwa tho 😭
#guys i go insane over at least one situationship fwb iwa thought a day i seriously Need him#the ff are all song lyrics#international straight shot to my heart????#open invite if u wanna come 😭😭 god i wish it was yoUUUUUU#i hope that i got u the way that u got me baby ???#COS I FEEL SO GOOD AROUND YOU?? can u imagine what we'd get up to??? there's smth diff abt tonightttttt#i dont think i can stop it i dont wanna go home alone alright ????#KINDA MISS USING MY BODY ?? FUCK IT JUST LIKE THIS PARTY DID TONIGHTTT#dont go bringing me that close cause i feel so good around you im going in tonight like i love youuu#inching closer to sunriseee how we're laying side bby sideeee#in the morning ur hands around my waist?? just us two??? in the evening on my mouth ??????!!??!#i dont wanna clean up yet keep it messy messy messyYYYYYY ??????#cause u mess me test me wrECK ME??!?!?!?!?!? all alone in my room m just thinkin bout youUUU#im still in it like that baby :-( a love junkie like that :-( im so silly like that :-( can u hit me back???#IM UNWELL#i talked so much again
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hope you're having a good week ! happy halloween and trick or treat 🎃🍬
trick or treaters!!! hello!!! i wish i had full sized candy bars to offer but instead I have this: half a bonus scene I wrote (and haven't edited) for you bring me closer to god, aka when rookie year is on tour :)
also might finish this one day!
Gimme Gimme More
He steps to the edge of the stage, toes nearly broaching the lip, and looks down at the crowd. Oscar could touch him, if he wanted to. Has touched him, like this. Rather, he's been touched.
"We're not a cover band," Lando smiles, toying with the microphone cord – wrapping it around his finger like a teenage girl on the phone. "But I know what you like," His voice drops a little, not quite a croon, not quite a whine, but entirely enough to make the crowd still.
Lando falls to his knees, the motion practiced. Familiar. He wants the audience to guess why, wants them to see the innocent flutter of his lashes, wants them to see the way his hips bounce on his heels one too many times to be unintentional.
The girls in front of him, the girls directly to Oscar's side, stare up at Lando like he's their god – eyes sparkling, lips parted, hanging onto his every breath.
Oscar knows what comes next, sees Alex and George flashing each other the look they always do when Lando chooses to intro the song this way.
"And I want you to like me," He nearly begs, and Oscar hears the girls gasp; one of them brushes up against his shoulder. Lando pulls the mic away from his mouth for a moment, leaning forward the mere inches it takes to be face to face with the girls, cord-entangled hand reaching forward to gently tilt one of their chins up.
Oscar can't hear him, but he knows what he whispers, lips so close to hers.
"Do you like me?"
She's frozen still, unable to even nod as Lando stares deeply into her eyes, as his question dusts across her skin like some sort of paralytic.
Oscar rolls his eyes, looking over to George – they both raise a brow. This guy, eh? George is saying, adjusting his hands minutely in preparation for where this is going.
Just as quickly as he creates the moment, he shatters it; Lando jumps to his feet, bolts towards the microphone stand, and the room fills with the sudden heart-shaking thrum from George's bass. "It's Britney, bitch!" Lando yells into the microphone, laughing as he struggles to shove it back into the stand, freed hands moving to his guitar.
#you ever listen to a bad metal cover of britney's gimme more and write garbage about it?#i do!!!!#Landoscar#You Bring Me Closer to God#liqfic#ask me :)#WIP
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Got Schoolyard Jam stuck in my head again chat, brain going mushy !! /notneg
#schoolyard jam#music#spotify#sallyface#Sally face#sallyface music#chat its so good#the whole SF OST makes me so happy#I really like ep 4's music#and ep 3#all the eps#teehee#the whole ost#I think I ascend whenever I hear it#sallyface music brings me closer to god#you could say im#a devourer of god#anyway
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finals mood: I am listening to closer by mindless self indulgence on repeat
#unwell <3#this is such a satosugu song#I wanna feel you from the inside (synth noises) you bring me closer to god (SYNTH NOISES)#squawk tag
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misery despair suffering etc etc
#purrs#delete later#two thoughts about separate things both causing the despair. thought / thing number 1 which i think ive talked abt on here many times before#but im saying it again: i am not good at being a friend in the ways my friends need me to be a friend. and in the ways friendship is thought#of societally i guess. i isolate myself constantly. i pull away from the opportunity to get closer with people i don’t know as well. i don’t#text back and then when im finally ready it’s been so egregiously long since it was appropriate for me to respond or reciprocate or#whatever it is i am so crushed by guilt and shame and embarrassment that i can’t bring myself to do it. i have so many unread messages and i#wont even let myself open them. and ive been like this for years. and i hurt someone very badly many years ago by being that way. and it was#more complicated than that but sometimes i remember it and how i acted and how i treated them. and i wonder sometimes if they check up on me#and i don’t want to be immature or weird or whatever for talking about it or wondering that openly. but if you do read this and you know who#you are: i am so sorry. i meant whst i said that i would never stop wishing you well and hoping the very best for you. and i hope you have#all of that and more. and im so sorry for not being brave enough to communicate with you or stick around. i really really am. and im sorry#to all the other people i have hurt by pulling away and shutting down and shrinking inside myself and not talking. ik it’s weird to post#that instead of just telling people directly but it’s the guilt. i am fully aware of how many people / groups of people i owe things to /#for but also just… miss. a lot. and want to talk to even though i won’t let myself. i don’t know why im like this and i don’t know how to#stop. but im sorry im not a good friend or even acquaintance or community member. and im talking to everyone now i guess including anyone#reading this bc god knows how many asks and messages i have on here. im sorry. i want to be a better friend. but i also never have spoons. a#and i also want to stay spoonless and cocooned on myself forever and never come out. and i hate that. i want to be a friend. i want to be#kind and giving and loving and generous in the ways you all have been with me. i want to hang out with people and send messages and be there#to lift people up and celebrate with them. but all i can muster is tapping like on social media and it’s horrific. i have gifts to make and#hello / checking in messages to reply to and roleplay starters to post and i just can’t do it right now and im scared i’ll never be able to#again. but it’s a self fulfilling prophecy. if i say i can’t do it then iwont. it’s not enougu to just be aware of it i have to act on it#and change it. but im exhausted and hurting right now and i have been for years and i need to heal first but what if this is healing.#idk. i rambled on that for much longer than i thought i would so nowim gonna say the second thing in a separate post. and it’ll be weird to#post about that in light of this and it’ll be weird to post this at all. but its been weighing on me so heavily today and i don’t want#anyone to think im ignoring them or not aware of being like this or whatever. and posting into the void is easier than telling individual#people to your faces even though i know it’s cowardly. im really truly sorry. i will try to get better once i have the strength to try.#actually yeah no not gonna say the second thing yet. it would be weird to say it now. this needs to sit a little first
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Nothing is hotter to me than ppl with dicks fucking fleshlights??? And there is not a lot of art or fics or even many videos with that sorta content?? Like dude if I had a dick I would be DEMOLISHING fleshlights esp the see through ones?? It is sO HOT!!!!
#princess talks#nothing brings me closer to god than watching a girl fuck a fleshlight in a short skirt lemme tell ya#or some tatted nb or dude going ham on one and you can see their arm tattoos??#ugh
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my day is going great! so far i:
missed suhoor
am menstruating
am being forced to fast
am being forced to pray
am being forced to do physically arduous tasks (i’m disabled 👍)
am crying severely with no tears coming out bc my body can’t produce enough water bC I MISSED SUHOOR
day is going great!!
#my body is wracking heavy sobs but nothing is coming out i am shaking beyond belief#i hate men who are so religiously misogynistic that they think they’re actually supporting women#how the fuck is forcing me to fast while on my period “bringing me closer to god”#just say you hate women and go#sometimes i think he just likes to see me suffer and doesn’t actually believe that forcing me to pray and fast is actually helpful#i don’t think i can last a whole week like this guys
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Remembering the way U looked at me (or rather, the opposite; he held his palm to his face and leaned back in his seat) when I messed up reeeal badly in jazz band. Unbeknownst to both of us, my bass trombone’s trigger was stuck so it completely muffled my sound and made my pitch something unreadable entirely 😭 but since we didn’t know that, he just thought I was unprepared
And he never gave me a ton of crap for it either, like he did with everyone else. He just expressed his disappointment and surprise through his body language. We were both surprised…. I don’t sound THAT bad like……. ever 💔
But at the end of class he walked into the room he’d sent me and some others in to work on our parts, just as I was hyping myself up and saying ��At least I got it (the part) down now!!”.
Then once we made eye contact (or lack thereof, again…. his body and head was turned towards me, but unless it was a small glance I missed, I guess he just couldn’t bear to look at me in that moment) he walked riiight beside me and my beaming smile and said “You better be ready for tomorrow… because that was rough.” I gave him a cheerful “yes sir!” as I went to walk out, then heard him drag his previous statement on, saying “reeeal rough. A disaster.”
like you don’t have to rub it in … but I didn’t really mind. It’s just U being U.
But the next few days, I had great rehearsals playing-wise, since the rehearsal time he gave me allowed me to really focus on making me sound better. He recognized it as well, seeing me play more confident, and only said things to keep my drive up. Thanks U!
and I gave him chocolate, asking him to pass it out to everyone else in the staff…. and he ever-so gently muttered in the softest voice possible, “okay, thank you so much.”
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#he liiittterallly admitted to me the other day that he had a girlfriend#he got all shy and bashful and smiley and quiet#and antsy when I started teasing him#It took a lot to get him to admit it but he did#I hope that level of trust brings us closer#and I hope he’s happy too…. I hope she loves him#ummm but of course I am still jealous and want him to myself but I’ll take what I can get#HE’S SO SWEET!!!!!#he said he was insecure about his veins popping out when he would laugh a ton#but I think it’s charming#in an oh my god that’s so weird kind of way#He’s like no one I’ve ever seen before. He’s one in 8 billion#I’m so lucky to have met you <3#❤️#U#personal#teacher crush#teacher crush community#tc community#tc#tcc#tc blog#tcc blog#tc attachment#teacher attachment#tc love#teacher love#tc ramblings#tc feelings#tc moments
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#god help me i don't mean to keep bringing up silly little things like this but i'm also trying desperately to resist#just rewatching the whole show for the THIRD time in less than 6 months they're rotting my brain#and like idk if this even makes sense it just got stuck in my head it's just so interesting to me like....#there's so many examples i won't bore you but the...relationship? between his play-acting and his sincerity#what he does for the bit and what he does on instinct and the messy convoluted combination of the two#- the 'good luck teresa. love you.' the 'what you've meant to me. what you mean to me.' -#he WAS basically a conman; he still is in many ways; he's so confident in his ability to pull off a trick#to the point where he thinks he can fool red john (and the courts and the fbi etc etc the list goes on)#and it's not that he can't fool lisbon - despite being the person who knows him best he has fooled her on quite a few occasions -#it's that most of the times he DOES fool her it's not the con that does it; it's the sincerity slipping through the cracks#it's the feelings he has for her that he can't possibly express but he can't seem to keep a damn lid on either#it's the way that the closer they get the harder it becomes for him to fool himself#also: hands#anyway i'm doing great (clearly)#tm
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