#yet here I am lmao
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amalgam is NOT meant for strings
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at what point do you think the feeling of “I wasn’t supposed to live this long” goes away? never??
#deity dialogue#divine despair#even when I’m happy my thoughts are just.#I don’t think I was meant to live this long I don’t even feel like I was supposed to be born at all#in fact I know I wasn’t supposed to be born according to my mom but here I am#and sometimes it feels like with the way life goes that I’m being punished for existing when I shouldn’t#idk I feel like I should’ve died as a child or when I was in high school I don’t think I was ever supposed to live til my 20s#yet here I am lmao#ask to tag
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Girl help the Tumblr Philosophers are dealing with their existential terror by tumblring about it instead of experiencing the unpredictable but beautiful world unfiltered by the echo chambers of our algorithms firsthand
you may notice i use the phrase "my beloved" frequently. this is because i am in love with the world and everything in it. hope this clears things up <3
#it's me I'm Tumblr Philosophers#world is a fuck but god damn I'm always glad when I put the phone down#Yet here I am lmao
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Sometimes I forget that this man is like in the top 3 of "most tragic Hatchetfield characters"
Like no, this fucker does not deserve to be written like that, this bastard of a man does not deserve to die all the damn time and leave his younger bro to cry in their shared apartment every single night, wondering where the man he looks up to a lot has gone, not knowing he's never coming back, cause some other bastard decided he needed a blorbo!!
I refuse to believe that Theodore fucking Spankoffski is this much of a tragic character, when his whole character is just horny and dying!
YOU CAN'T TELL ME THAT A MAN WHO IS DOWN SO BAD HE WOULD CANONICALLY BECOME A FURRY, JUST HAS TO WATCH THE LOVE OF HIS LIFE DIE IN HIS ARMS AND GET TURNED INTO A BROKEN HOMELESS MAN WHO "GETS PRETTY SCARY SOMETIMES"
F me fr man, the Langs made me care for a man I wish to stay whole towns away from if he was real
#starkid#hatchetfield#ted spankoffski#he's literally such a terrible person yet here I am being his biggest fan#bastard but my bastard#my fucking goat man#goat man with a goat bro#part of the goat bros#I FUCKING CAN'T#can you tell I still have a fever lmao
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me: *seeing people yell about how they did Glintshore & Percy's death in the show*
also me: ..................anyway
#maybe its because its been fuck knows how many years since i watched 90% of c1#but i actually find the way they're changing things up super fascinating#i have questions to be sure and i think they're all having so much fun watching people go THEY'RE NOT GONNA PERMAKILL PERCY ??#(they're obviously not going to leave percy dead)#but because so many things have been folded on top of each other to keep the pace in this several hundred hour campaign adaptation#idk! i just think it's neat! obviously we're not done with ripley yet so we'll see what happens there#also people being like “i didnt need a sad backstory for ripley” like that wasn't the most obvious vehicle to introduce the assembly#a lot of these scenes they're adding in or folding together are doing a LOT of work#the storytelling action economy is honestly astounding#like don't get me wrong i get why people are weirded out by it (i am too! It's strange!) BUT it's not being done carelessly#some of you lot just want everything done 1:1 when they simply do not have the time to be doing that#i think i might do a full write up of how impressive some of this is when the season ends bc it really is a mammoth task they've had#the legend of vox machina#tlovm#legend of vox machina#critical role#c1#vox machina#lvm spoilers#tlovm spoilers#edit: to be very clear. i have been here since the very beginning. don't fuck with me lmao
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I love how you draw Luffy!!! But seeing Gear five Luffy?? Could you draw Ace’s reaction is he was still around? Also maybe more doodles of huge ass gear 5 dude?
ahh tysm!! I need u to know I started to draw an answer to this earlier this week and it turned into that one I posted w giant loof and law. There’s also more g5 in my queue now lol. Tysm for this ask I love g5!!
#and also I love drawing characters I don’t usually because of asks so tysm#I’ve only drawn ace unprompted once lmao#and he’s very fun to draw!!#nsfo#my art#one piece#gear 5 luffy#fire fist ace#one piece ace#monkey d luffy#straw hat luffy#sun god nika#also I keep being like sen stop posting shit immediately after u draw it ur running out of queue#and yet here I am
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JEONGHAN 💌 2024 New Year's Greetings Messages
#jeonghan.svt#3012#surprise!! i saud no original content snd yet. here i am lmao#i made these a few days b4 i left ^_^ bc also#i hope people like this jeonghan bc there was a Fine Line between him looking normal and him looking like a sunburnt white guy#so it's a little bit washed out unfortunately 💔 i was too paranoid ab making him look like raw chicken#svtsource#userzaynab#nanablr#homerunj#cheytermelon#userace#usersemily#jeonghan#seventeen#svt#yoon jeonghan#svt jeonghan
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in honor of my sudden re-binging of TRC, i finally bring out an unposted quality archive from 2017
#it's a wonder i still have it#idk how it is in other countries but here a lot of old clamps have not been reprinted yet and are therefore rarer than gold#so when i get new copies it's been long enough that i can start over from the beginning lmao. same strife with xxxh0lic#which unlike trc i did not read as scans first and refuse to. it will take me 20 years to see the end of the story#anyway this week i meant to draw and i said the next manga i'd read would be something new but here i am#gina if you're out there. i'm blowing you a kiss. kur0fai flavored#tsubasa reservoir chronicle#fai d. fluorite#mokona#this is not worthy of my artblog#pyro draws
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Editing them together real quick so they have a couple’s portrait like Jawbone & Sandra Lynn 💖🤧
#full character art credits go to cait may#idk if anyone has done this yet or not#if Porter stood up he just dwarfs him#Jace is such a size queen for real#I looked up the height chart for dnd races and you would not believe the spiral I went in realizing just how small Jace is next to Porter#I should be asleep and yet#here I am thinking about size queen Jace ugh#maybe tomorrow I’ll do Jace and Zara too#‘tomorrow’ I mean today in like 8hrs when I’m at work with nothing to do lmao#jaceporter#starbreaker#jace stardiamond#porter cliffbreaker#dimension 20#fhjy#jace 💫💎#port 🛥️
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i crawled out of artblock in light of recent events to draw this
#plvspw you wont be forgotten etc#i know its probably because of ip issues but lmao#a crossover has so much potential#these are just some doodles i am posting IMMEDIATELY they haven't been in the oven yet#only the microwave#my art#ms paint#my groobs are down here gumshoe#plvspw#professor layton vs phoenix wright#plvspwaa#ace attorney#professor layton#i drew emmy and franziska because reasons!!!#also flora and maya they would be besties. i know it to be true#laywright#no spoilers here for the first time yeowch!!!
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The Pacific and Mothers
#as someone who is new to giffing i should try simple stuff#yet here i am#lmao#the pacific#hbowaredit#my gif
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So, you and white haired boys, huh?
Oh don't even get me sTARTED...
Somehow they just keep getting worse and worse EACH TIME, I DON'T KNOW H O W
#ASTARION TOPS THEM ALL THO LIKE OH MY GOD - NO ONE CAN REACH THAT LEVEL OF TRAUMA#And EVILNESS QUITE FRANKLY#The most twisted fcked up sassy asshat of them all#of SOUL YOU GUYS WEREN'T AWARE OF YET#THAT ONE IS O L D#Lil' teenage me's first anime crush LMAO#At least I am self-aware enough about my TENDENCIES TO FICTIONAL MEN#And I DO mean FICTIONAL#I WOULD NOT WANT THIS IN REAL LIFE#“I CAN FIX HIM” NO BICH YOU CANT!!!!!! YOU CAN'T FIX A SINGLE ONE OF THEM#IT'S ONLY FUN IN FICTION BECAUSE IT'S FICTION!!! YOU CAN FIX'EM ALL IN YOUR FIX-IT-FICS HOORAY!#With Astarion I am just here for the show#He is so terrible it's funny as heck#And when he ISN'T nasty Neils voice performance for vulnerable gentle Astarion??? Goes down like BUTTER#OH YEAH THAT'S THE GOOD SHIT#I'M HERE FOR THIS#mod#reply#soul evans#guzma#astarion
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Currently stuck at the airport alone for over 9 hours on a 17 hour total travel time today and as soon as I figure out how to connect to the airport wifi it's over for you hoes /j
#i am ALONE in an empty airport and im going to be here for 8-10 hours by myself#and i cant even get food yet because my desk for my flight isnt open to get a check in so i cant go thru security#for the record i agreed to this since my ride could drop me off NOW or not at all because of Circumstances and i didnt want to intrude lmao#sara shush
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I blacked out and more Logince HS AU appeared on my canvas idk what happened (also ty @oatmeal-stans-the-trash-rat for some inspiration sorry it took so long to make a post about Them <3)
#spoondoodles#sanders sides#sanders sides fanart#ts sides#tss#logan sanders#roman sanders#patton sanders#remus sanders#janus sanders#logince#I am here!!! for the platonic relationships!!!!! in this AU!!!!!!!#i have a strong character arc in my head about platonic logicality growing up together as childhood friends you have no idea asdfghj#i think they were very dependent on each other for many years so much so they'd copy each other but they're much more independent in HS#only remnant of that is that they have the same glasses + emotionally vent to each other a lot - their friends circle has grown enough#they don't live in each others' pockets anymore. roman + janus met in theatre + are gossip besties like they just talk shit together#(not completely sold on janus' design yet ngl i'm not happy with how i drew the vitilego but i'm working on it)#remus + logan are partners in chemistry in a classic teacher act of putting the 'disruptive' kid next to the 'good student' kid in hopes#that logan would stop remus acting out. predictably what happened instead is that they're friends now + remus is still as disruptive#but in a way that entertains logan so they get their work done early. now the teacher can't separate them. lol lmao.#remus knows ALL. but has been sworn to secrecy so can't say shit. janus knows roman's feelings but only suspects logan's.#patton didn't even have to be told by logan he just KNEW + is choosing not to speculate on roman's feelings b/c he's too polite.#virgil isn't here but that's b/c he also KNOWS without being told + is in an even more precarious position than remus. if they were#on better speaking terms he'd commiserate with remus. alas they are suffering separately.#anyway enough rambling from me. many thoughts head full.
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I'm probably going to do a terrible job of articulating myself here but every time I think about the worldbuilding in Hatoful Boyfriend, I think about the implications of having the birds simply have adopted the structure and policies of human society and go insane.
It's clearly originally just for the ridiculousness of it all for the players, but AGH it explains so much regarding the extremely rampant classism/racism/speciesism and how apparently normalized it is. It also, to me, adds a bit of moral nuance to the Dove - Hawk Party conflict.
(Long post under the cut. I'm so sorry I just kept going.)
First off, I'm obsessed with the concept of the birds becoming sapient and simply... taking over a society that was not structured for them. It leads to difficulties in universe! Bird wings are not made for doing tasks that human hands can do naturally - there's a couple instances where the characters ask for Hiyoko's assistance or express envy since she can just do the task more easily than they can. The birds are outright disadvantaged in certain areas of life, and yet, the society is in such turmoil due to the newness of it all that there still aren't really any workarounds for stuff like this.
Not that there haven't been any suggested solutions, such as the Labor 9 series, put forward initially by the Dove Party. Yeah, you know, that one throwaway line about how the party that up until this point have been the "good guys" wanted to take still semi-conscious human brains and make robotic slaves out of them Cyberman-style? What the hell. And what gets me is that Shuu was able to find the initial proposal, which he really only made tweaks to, which means that the project was at least close to being finished on the conceptual/planning/design phase before somebody went "hey this is a little fucked up actually".
The Dove Party wants peaceful coexistence with the humans, while the Hawk Party wants to eliminate humanity entirely. But we don't really go into how these two lines of thought evolved. I believe I have a suggestion for at least one part of the puzzle though.
Of all the birds in Hatoful, who enjoys the most privileges and the highest status? Fantails, it would seem. A breed of pigeon that is popular as a pet, considered beautiful and sought after, and achieve high accolades in shows and competitions - for clarity's sake, fantails were valuable in human society, and this status appears to have transferred when birds became sapient and took over. Conversely, which birds are ranked lower and often blocked from entering certain higher class places? Rock doves, who, in human society, are given an unfairly bad reputation, and considered anything from unclean and dirty, to nuisances, to pests. Again, this status transferred over when the birds took over.
So, while we don't know too many of the birds who make up the agents of the Dove and Hawk Party, let's take a look at who we do know of.
Fantails (Yuuya, Dove Party) are considered valuable over other doves and pigeons for being specially bred for their striking tail feathers
Cockatiels (Leone, Dove Party) are some of the most popular and beloved companion birds, kept as pets and considered very friendly
Rock doves (Ryuuji, Hawk Party) are considered unclean pests who receive a bad reputation, and are generally not treated with respect or appreciation <;- notable thing to mention here is that Ryuuji actually does like humans - I think he was only Hawk affiliated for the grant money and research facilities, which... fair enough man.
Chukar partridges (Shuu/Isa, Hawk Party) are game birds, specifically bred and released to be killed and eaten, and considered a delicacy
...do you... see what's going on here?
(I haven't mentioned Tohri as he's a special case. Give me a minute and I'll get to him!)
The birds we see in the Dove Party are those birds that were already viewed in a more favourable light by humans, a favourability that transferred over to their new society. Of course they are more likely to advocate for coexistence! They have less to lose, overall. And the Labor 9 series, and how that could've ever been suggested in the first place, suddenly makes a lot of sense. For many of these birds, society the way it exists now benefits them. Some of these high ranking Dove Party folks may be less about actual peace and justice (like Yuuya or Leone) and more about maintaining the current order of things - humans coexisting under their control, while they get to maintain their status... which is itself a product of human invention.
The birds we see in the Hawk Party, by contrast, are looked down on or hunted. Historically, even before bird sapience, they did not have a harmonious relation with humans - and it's likely this status carried over to their new society also, with many of these birds being more likely to have been disenfranchised. Their goal of elimination is therefore reactionary towards perceived threat. After all, the people who suffer when things go wrong aren't the ones at the top - it's all the people who sit at the bottom of the social rung; the vulnerable members of society who do not enjoy the same advantages as others.
Of course, the Hawk Party has built itself up into such a powerful group that they may have lost touch with this starting foundation - the only thing that remains is likely that reactionary fear. After all, people caught up in the actual conflict - Nageki, Hitori, Ryouta, and Hiyoko - see this kind of horrible bloodshed firsthand (firstwing?) and just want it to stop.
Again, it's not usually the people in these political factions who are the ones caught up in their conflict. It's the individuals who lack power or influence.
But that's just the political groups themselves. On an individual level, it's kind of interesting to look at and theorize where along the spectrum our core cast falls based on their species/breed.
Ryouta (rock dove) is actually rather indifferent towards humanity as a whole - he just likes Hiyoko. However, his witnessing of the Heartful House tragedy led him to abhor violence and unnecessary loss of life, and I'd imagine his mother's later illness solidified this. Ryouta doesn't seem overly interested in political struggles or the broader implications of a lot of things - he's actually a rather self-oriented character when it comes down to it (this is not a judgment, nor a bad thing! I love my boy!). Ryouta just doesn't want to lose people, really. A conflict would mean more loss, and rock doves seem to have to struggle enough as is.
Hiyoko (human) is the daughter of two diplomats, but interestingly, we don't get to see much of her political views on things - perhaps because even if she expressed them, it wouldn't really matter - she's not herself a diplomat, and humans are the lowest of the low - her going to a fancy school doesn't really change that. Social-wise, except with her friends, she is tolerated, not accepted. Yet, it's safe to say that Hiyoko strongly disapproves of people who flaunt their status - she's quick to not take crap from Sakuya, to get angry on behalf of Ryouta and herself over the gull clerk's assholery, and also to defend Miru and Kaku as living beings worthy of respect. Interestingly though, she also uses Okosan's status as a fantail to get Ryouta to let go of him and let him do whatever he wants so... it's kind of unclear what her firm beliefs are. Perhaps, as a human, she still values fantails more highly. I don't know honestly. Implicit bias?
Sakuya, Yuuya and Okosan (fantail pigeons) may share the same breed, but their experiences are highly different. Sakuya is largely separate from the human-bird conflict, as he is unlikely to be directly affected by it. As such, a lot of his story and development has to do with actually learning and un-learning about the world outside of the limitations of his "father's" classist views, which he simply mimics without understanding the larger implications. Yuuya and Okosan, on the other hand, may be fantails, but are also looked down on and often treated as inferior - Yuuya for being a "half-breed" and for his reputation, and Okosan for being closer to feral than a lot of other doves. Interestingly, these two show more interest and respect for the individual than Sakuya does, who often makes sweeping generalizations based on status - which makes sense to a degree, as they've been on the receiving end of this kind of treatment, whereas Sakuya hasn't. Okosan believes that each person has their own "wonderful names" (read: identity outside of breed or status), while Yuuya is a genuine fighter for justice who is able to get to the heart of people, especially in Holiday Star. However, even though they have experienced classism, they still have certain privileges with regards to species/race - take Okosan's shock when Hiyoko and Ryouta are barred entry from his favourite store. None of them are quite as out of place in everyday society as some of the other birds here, and it's notable that "diverse" St. Pigeonations still apparently has a significant fantail student population.
Shuu (chukar partridge) is really interesting, as he doesn't particularly care for the politics of the Hawk Party, and yet his role as a killer/hunter of both his fellow birds and humans is an interesting reversal of the chukar being a game bird. Shuu also has a disability (his semi-paralyzed right side) which hinders him in bird society even more than most. His extreme, yet coldly logical solution to kill all humans to stop the fighting between them, could be as much his rationality, as his joy in the sadistic, as a reactionary survivalism (remember he was caught up in a human terrorist attack as a child - while overall he considered this beneficial to him, he also did lose much of his colour vision and the use of his right side, so it did leave him weakened). Shuu attains control by "flipping the script" as it were.
Tohri (golden pheasant) starts out in the Hawk Party, but much like his colleagues, doesn't seem to care much for their politics. Golden pheasants are game birds whose eggs can be eaten, but are more often bred and kept for their plumage - they're not prey, but they're not exactly pets either. All this puts Tohri in this interesting position of being somewhat in the middle of this conflict, and indeed he goes on to be a part of (found?) the Crow Party - an opportunistic group that seeks to benefit from the overall conflict. Golden pheasants are birds intended to be admired for their beauty and intelligence more than anything else, benefitting in some ways from humans without a strong connection or a reliance, and Tohri's opportunism fits nicely with that. (As an aside, our sole crow character, Albert, is also something of an opportunist, being an assassin on the fringes of society.)
Hitori and Kazuaki (button quails) are somewhat interesting. It would be both expected and understandable if Hitori held hatred for humanity after the Heartful House incident, or even before then, considering they were all war orphans. Instead, he doesn't seem to harbour any particular ill-will - he seems totally fine around Hiyoko, and her being a human has nothing to do with his reticence with letting Nageki hang out with her in the shrine universe. Kazuaki, too, doesn't seem to mind Hiyoko being human and isn't afraid of her any more than he is anyone else. While quails are game birds, with both meat and eggs being eaten, button quails are too tiny for that and are mostly kept as pets - they are considered cute, silly, and entertaining, though a bit too jumpy to be outright companion birds. The quails don't seem to experience too much in the way of speciesism (except arguably with the whole mistaken identity of Kazuaki's corpse... there may be a bit of an "all quails look the same" thing going on perhaps). At the very least, they are able to occupy teaching positions at a renowned school as respected intellectuals, and did go to university. Still, it's kind of a known thing that you don't put button quails with bigger, more dominant birds, since larger birds will often pick on them or even outright try to kill them simply because they're small and shy - this may, in hindsight, explain some of Kazuaki's demeanour.
Nageki (mourning dove) and Anghel (luzon bleeding heart dove) are the two who are uncommon bird species in Japan. Nageki is another war orphan, who would be forgiven for harbouring resentment for humanity, but instead is appalled at the violence and made a huge sacrifice to get it to stop. It's kind of unclear how Nageki fits into this society, as mourning doves are not prey or pets - they're wild birds. They live on the outside of the human world, and while Nageki exists within current bird society, he likely doesn't have a designated status within it. Nageki is unfortunately also alienated from much of the action due to his illness and later his untimely death - this is why a lot of Nageki's thoughts are somewhat from an observer's perspective, with his most emotional moments being derived from his rare direct experiences - specifically the Heartful House tragedy and the human killings he was forced into, which solidified a really firm stance of not wanting anyone to suffer like that. Anghel is another outsider, this time genuinely a foreigner, as opposed to Nageki. Again, Luzons are wild birds, not prey or pets, and so it's a bit unclear what his status is. This might explain why Hiyoko repeats Sakuya's remarks towards him without apparently realizing they're actually insults - Anghel is removed enough from the conflict she is familiar with that it seems she doesn't quite... get it. Again, Anghel's role is as this strange kind of omniscient observer, whose perspective is closer to the player's than to the rest of the cast. He definitely frowns on the Hawk Party's overall goal - the Demon Spores are evil to him, and his main objective is to stop them from spreading, as they would cause damage to both birds and humans. I attribute his morals to his mother having raised him right lol. The lack of a clear status for both of them may be why they appear to take the stance of judgment based on individual actions, but are not heavily involved in the conflict itself - while humans tend to like mourning doves and luzons, there isn't much interaction that goes on between them. Nageki and Anghel are simply less embroiled in bird society's human-derived status conflict, which makes them both outsiders and observers.
As a bonus note, Azami, Rabu and Kenzaburou are all species of birds that can be kept as pets (java sparrow, budgie, parakeet), which may account for some of their friendliness towards Hiyoko, and Kenzaburou's willingness to hire her. Kenzaburou is even a bit old-fashioned it seems - he sleeps in a cage, which implies his ancestors were probably pet birds themselves. It's likely he, in particular, has more positive views on humans.
...Please tell me I'm not the only one who spent ages thinking about the implications and workings of a fictional post-apocalyptic bird society. Also I hope this made sense I kind of went off the rails here.
#storyrambles#anyways this was supposed to be a quick write up. yet here I am three hours later. does this even read properly anymore. help.#the one thing i'm a little unclear on here is how the ichijou family fits into all this. ichijou mino the headmaster was a nicobar pigeon#i find it likely mino was hawk affiliated if we're going with the trend here (nicobars are heavily exploited for food/#gizzard stones/zoos/illegal pet trade) and also note that he signed off on the human representative directive#but i want to know how shuu fits into that as he was formerly ichijou utsuro. who has the ichijou name? why different species?#are they prominent benefactors of the hawks? interesting to think on#also i was thinking about the gulls - they seem to be fairly high class but gulls definitely do not have a good reputation with humans lmao#however gulls get to do whatever they want a lot of the time because they are loud. and like to bully others (including humans)#i hereby propose they gained power by doing much the same once birds gained sapience hjfhbdf#hatoful boyfriend#hatoful spoilers#holiday star#hatoful meta
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Auntie P being the most beautiful woman at the party despite only being there for 2 seconds. Her power!!!!!
#me?? obsessed with the older supporting character on a show with young canon lesbians?? seems pretty on-brand if I do say so myself#not my fault that I'm old lol#anin and pin are adorable but they are BABIES your honour!!!#I need someone age-appropriate to crush on I don't make the rules#anyways not to be a sappy lesbian but oh to be the lucky woman that gets to put a smile on that beautiful face le sigh#also I'm in love with her dress!! it's literally a shade of my favourite colour#absolutely gorgeoussssss#sidenote: I gotta tell you that making these shitty screencap posts with these youtube shows is a nightmare and a half lmao#bc of the way print screen works on my computer and the fact that you can't pause youtube w/o the progress bar showing up and staying there#and yet here I am painstakingly spending half an hour on 2 screencaps#just to have her beautiful face immortalized on my blog for all eternity#the things I do for you auntie p! the things!!!!#the loyal pin#shitty screencap posts (TM)
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