#yes i am only on episode 2 yes i am still going to write big long analysis posts ANYWAY
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thinking about how eiji's a pole vaulter and how ash talks about eiji "flying" and how eiji's associated with bird imagery and how eiji's free (unlike ash) and how eiji comes in on a plane and leaves on a plane and how ash cannot fly, ash cannot be free, how nyc is ash's prison, and how ash is the leopard who dies climbing the mountain, unable to live at such elevation, how he was trying to reach the sky and be free but was always stuck to the earth, how he chose to die instead of climbing back down, how he chose to die where he could see the sky and hope and freedom almost like a bird with eiji's letter right in front of him rather than letting everything go wrong and ruin it once again, how eiji's a failed pole vaulter anyway, how a bad fall ruined his career and grounded him (physically and emotionally), how it took flying to america and meeting ash and needing to save him and skip for him to try flying again, how he landed hard and harsh and still the thought of that escape compelled ash to protect eiji at all costs because if he could fly that means something to him, even if he doesn't think he can fly, how eiji is the manifestation of his hope and how when he breaks and asks eiji to stay with him a while he folds himself over his legs and weighs him down and traps him and grounds him, how ash fights like hell to keep eiji alive not because he thinks he can be like him (hopeful, flying, innocent), but because he makes him forget the gravity of his situation, and so he can see eiji fly again. how he wants to see him escape. how eiji is a bird and ash is a wildcat and how ash never once saw eiji as prey. how eiji never saw ash as a predator. how it is eiji's naivete that first endears ash to him, how it is his freedom and flight and removal from darkness and his ability to leave that darkness that really roots eiji in ash's blood as something essential to him keeping on living in this hell of nyc. how it is that distance from the violence and that hope for the future that ash chooses to surround himself in as he dies. how ash dies in a dream because he feels more than anything that he can't fly like eiji, that he can never leave. how his violence is a part of him and will be forever, how it weighs him down. how he wants to enjoy the view from the mountainside rather than looking up from the ground below. as if they can both fly. as if he is with him up there and not grounded. eye-to-eye with what he can't have, seeing eiji's homeland: the sky. how he dies trying to reach the top because he couldn't take retreating and trying again. how ash, tired and tired and tired and convinced it will go on forever if he crawls back down the mountain, chooses to close his life deluged in eiji, in eiji's insistence that they can fly together, in eiji's hope for him and for them, in eiji's beautiful dream. how ash dies without trying to realize that dream. how ash, in dying, destroys it.
#banana fish spoilers#I'M HAVING A FUCKING MOMENT#mutual reblogged exactly one (1) piece of ash fanart and sent me on A Multiple Hour Long Thing and now im rewatching it lol#yes i am only on episode 2 yes i am still going to write big long analysis posts ANYWAY#whatever hope this makes sense. anyway#banana fish#okumura eiji#ash lynx#asheiji#hhhhh i can't believe i've only watched this twice in like what 5.5 years?? sheesh#anywayyyyyyy i care about them a lot ok. god#and yes i DO kinda have beef with the decision to kill ash off at the end but it really does say so much About his character#that he chose to die in the way that he did even though he's been throwing his life away since episode 1#dying in peace in comfort in solitude rather than in some chaotic battlefield.... ough...... in the peace eiji alone could give him.....#anywayss i relate to ash a little more than i should so. this one's for us cool guy bottoms up#edit i uh.... i forgot it was a leopard.... in the story..... but whatever it doesn't really affect the symbolic meaning it's just embarras#ing that i forgot >;/
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#Fifteen episode 2. Mmmmmmhhhhhh#The animation quality DOES get worse. This episode shows it lol#So many static frames stretching for so long... I feel so sorry for the animators.#I still stand by the fact that if studios can't provide enough budget or time to their animators seasons simply shouldn't be released.#But after all who am I to talk...#The scene of Dazai shooting at the soldier makes my blood freeze. Rimbaud throwing books in the fire is equally upsetting#Like I /know/ it's an anime about literature with constant metafiction referencesâ#and that this too has a symbolic meaning and is *supposed* to be upsetting but that said.#Seeing whole books being thrown in the fire is such a disturbing sight that calls for such a visceral response in me đđđ#The amv opening is nice! Makes me even more bitter about season 5 one lmao. Of the kind#ânot only we had to get a amv opening (((while we deserved a wholly ss/kk focused opening)))â we even got a bad amv ending at thatâ#Mmmmhhhh I hateeeeeee how they handled the Sheep đđđđđđđđđ Seriously this is just another bug instance of#âme and the author have WHOLLY different views of what human nature is likeâ#I just... Don't think... Children joining together in an hostile environment would act like that. I'm so much more of a t/pn kind of guy.#Children who come together to survive would protect each other and especially would trust each other. Why is there such a big lack of trust#Why doesn't Shirase trust Chuuya? Why doesn't Chuuya trust Shirase (with handling more information)? It's just dumb#It's dumb. It sounds stupid from the very plot aspect that Chuuya would act so shady and suspicious with the Sheep instead of being openâ#about what his course of action is. It's like he was trying to have them turn on him. It's stupid of Shirase to mistrust Chuuyaâ#when in eight years he never gave them any reason to doubt of him.#And I know right as I'm writing this that someone is going to read it and think âyou're completely missing on the unbalance of power thatâ#creates these dynamics of lack of trustâ but the thing is exactly that I don't see why that unbalance of power would ever come to be!#They're all just kids. They're aware of that. If Chuuya never had malicious intentions towards Shiraseâ I don't see why he would ever fearâ#his betrayal. Likewiseâ I don't see why Shirase and the other Sheep members would ever be so manipulative and disrespectful towardsâ#Chuuya if he's been nothing but kind to them (and we have no reason to think otherwise)?#It all comes down to: I think people are inherently good and willing to help each other. The author thinks not lmao. It is what it is#But I wish you could see t/pn. Where kids are constantly trying to outwit each other in order to OUT-SACRIFICE THEMSELVES for the others lo#I love t/pn it's my life... I miss it#random rambles#And if anyone would like to argue that Dazai specifically set them off to betray each other... Yes I DO understand that's what the storyâ#is suggesting. I just don't think Dazai - for how good. and infallible he is - is enough to scrape long-term relationships of trust.
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About An Official Spiderverse Artist...
Please do not just scroll past this post; read it.
If you guys follow me on twitter, you probably already know.
But if you dont or still want to read this anyway - here you go:
I aint big, but I got a growing platform that I see as important for me to use as a force for things that matter.
So here I am.
And I got something to say about a certain "artist".
There are so many fucked up people who call themselves artists who are so heavily worshipped by us who both get and or dont get outed in the world for things they do and for their general piss-poor behaviours and persons.
Im here to talk about one in particular (and certainly wont be the last).
There is an artist that basically EVERYONE here has seen art from before, printed in the official Sony artbooks too.
If you have seen this:
Then you have seen this artist before.
His name is Alberto Mielgo. He goes by @/pinkman_himself on twitter.
He is a HUGE part of the art direction and stylisation of the spiderverse movies, if that isnt already obvious. Because he was the former original art director of Into The Spiderverse.
Yes. Former.
Cuz he got "mYsTeRiOuSlY fiReD" from Sony 2 years into pre-production and completely removed from the project.
You may have also seen this character before:
Yes. THAT asian character from Netflix's Love Death + Robots, from the episode "The Witness".
Familiar? Yeah. Because this episode was also made by the same guy, Mielgo.
I aint going to talk about what happens in that episode and hesitate to encourage anyone to watch it - cuz all it basically is is a megalo-misogynistic, assault "glorified for the sake of aRtT", racially fetishised showcase of this crazy makeup/haired bdsm stereotyped asian girl sex worker who essentially gets murdered over and over and over after running for her life completely naked through the city for all of us to see for some fucking reason.
BUt yeah anyways, you can see it in the first pic, but Ill put it here to show more clearly - this here is NOT the character from LDR. But I can understand why you might think so:
Yeah. You read that name in the bottom right corner correctly. This is Peni Parker. His concept art of Peni Parker. A 13 YEAR OLD CHILD. Lookin suspiciously like and dressed as the adult person from LDR with ALSO the crazy hair, make up - WITH AN O-RING CHOKER AND BALL-GAG LIPSTICK (BDSM).
13. year. old. child.
This man only sees east asian women this way.
He likes them crazy, sexy, broken--
and young.
Cuz this man also wrote this on a now-deleted post on his website:
Yeah. He, this whole ass middle-aged white cishet male spaniard thirstin for kids since he was 18 for 12 year old girls.
Cuz 12 year old girls are a fuckin "KNOCK OUT" when they grow up, when they ripen up into adulthood, to this man Alberto Mielgo, aka @/pinkman_himself, this creature.
And if auctioning NFTs isnt bad enough (cuz yes, ofc he does that too - its literally the first option on his website) -
His entire fucking portfolio is of drawing women he had sex with.
His fucking PROFESSIONAL PORTFOLIO is all of painting and drawing women in very compromising, questionable ways of the VERY SAME WOMEN HE HAD SLEPT WITH THROUGH HIS LIFE.
They look as creepy as they are.
But the scariest part?
While I myself had only just found out about this some days ago as of writing this, some of us have known about this man and his antics for years.
And he keeps getting greenlit by the industry, over and over and over; winning awards, getting respected, praised, admired, even by fellow at-home artists like many of you out there if you dont already do so.
And nothing will happen to him cuz he is a white cishet male artist who has money and a following and connections and influence and power.
So yeah.
I just wanted to talk about a certain official Spiderverse artist to just let yall know there are freaks everywhere, and that no matter how small it is, it's people like me and you who need to do what we can to keep up awareness and warn our communities and protect our most vulnerable.
My suggestion is to take heed of what I said, ask questions about everything you will ever see again from anyone around you, no less the industry, THINK for once, and actually give a fuck.
Keep away.
Do not support this man.
But the decision is ultimately yours.
Stay awake, yall.
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(His face, publicly available as his imdb profile):
scary.
#have your truth but do not go harass this guy#jodido pedazo de mierda.#alberto mielgo#reblog to spread the word#likes dont do a lot#stay awake.#across the spiderverse#across the spiderverse fanart#into the spider verse#ATSV#ITSV#spiderman#spiderverse#concept art#art#psa#artists to block#marvel#sony#animation#pinkman_himself#love death and robots#netflix#im fucking tired of this shit.#dont miss this man for his artstyle - just take his artstyle for yourself and make it your own.#if you are a decent human being#you are already leagues better than this shite could ever be.#just take his technique and make it better by making it your own. thats it.#we wont miss you mielgo.#bai.
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BLACK PANTHER NI-KI (2)
SUMMARY: ni-ki wasnât acting the way you thought he would, he seemed moreâŚcuddly? less mysterious. you never expected him to act this way but you kinda like this. he was adorable.
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a/n: ohohoho i know you guys missed this series. well, everyone was having a very overwhelming response to ni-kiâs one and i am so thankful for that. i really enjoy writing ni-kiâs one. heâs too cute and since the baby says heâs a puma then he is a puma but for this he is still a cool black panther. not a duck, even though he is one
on the previous episode of âBlack Panther Ni-Kiâ,
there is no way he turned into his human form. your mouth was wide opened.
â(name).â he says.
even his voice was deep. this is just the start of living together, how would you survive?
â and now we continueâŚ
âni-ki, youâre-â
he shyly looks away, âthe clothes is a bit small for me.â
âoh, we can go shopping for some clothes for you.â you quickly went to open the gate. âhow about we go to the mall now before i bring you home?â
he shakes his head, black tail swishing downwards. which meant, he didnât like the thought of it. âi want to go home, our home.â
you blushed. âs-sure.â you cleared your throat and start to walk a little. âletâs go.â ni-ki jogs slightly to catch up with you.
the other workers were in shock to see ni-ki in his human form. in fact, they were even more in shock to see him sticking so close to you.
â(name), is that who i think it is?â one of your co-workers say. ni-ki growled lowly, it scares your co-worker.
âyes, it is. I'm sorry he's acting this way. he's just a little hungry.â you made up an excuse, knowing it was almost his dinner time. your co-workerâs eyes widened, they knew how feisty ni-ki got when he didnât get to eat on time.
âoh, go ahead. itâs bad if he doesnât get to eat.â you nod at your co-workerâs words and excused yourself to clock out of your shift.
once that was done, you start to walk out of the shop and towards the direction of your home. ni-ki followed, there wasnât any words exchanged between the both of you but yet, in a way it was comforting. you had made it to your apartment building, it wasnât exactly the nicest place but it did the job for you since you were only 19.
âwelcome to my home, itâs kinda small but i tried to make it cozy.â you had pointed to the bedroom, âthatâs the only room i have and itâs my bedroom. umm, maybe we can last here for a bit until i get a promotion for my job. how about you can take my bed and iâll sleep on the couch.â
ni-ki shakes his head, he clings onto you as his tail wraps around your calf. âletâs sleep in bed together. itâs lonely to sleep alone.â he buries his head at the crook of your neck and starts to rub his head against the spot. his black panther ears twitching a little as it touches the fabric of your shirt.
this was definitely shocking to you because youâve never seen him act like this. small purrs were heard as he gets more comfortable with you. you had rubbed his back. âokay, we can share a bed together.â you had declared. however, you werenât too sure if you could even survive being in the same bed as the big cat. he may be a cat but he is still part human, youâve never done such intimate things with someone of the opposite gender.
âiâm hungry.â he says. he looks up at you and you had noticed his hair was a little messy due to rubbing against you. you had reached up and smoothen it out but he was still a little too tall. instead of having you tiptoe, he bent down slightly for you. he purrs slightly, shivering as you were smoothening out his hair.
âwhat do you want to eat?â you had asked. the boy sighs out of content, his eyes were shut.
âiâm okay with anything.â
you had stopped touching his hair and retracted your hand. he frowns a little, moving closer and hiding his face at the crook of your neck. âi donât have much at home, mmm. how about jajangmyeon?â
he nods but doesnât move. âni-ki, I have to make food.â
he lets out a soft growl, slightly threatening but not enough to scare you. âcan we cuddle? I dont feel like moving around too much.â
âcuddling is for mated couples thoughâŚâ you whisper quietly but ni-ki seems to have heard. he huffs and doesn't move.
âthen we can become a couple.â he states.
your eyes widened. âwhat?â ni-ki still doesn't move from the crook of your neck.
âi-i like you. ever since you had started work at the shelter. I had seen you and you looked pretty.â his black panther ears twitches.
âoh, ni-kiâŚthat's too cute.â you had hold up at arms length to look at his face. he was blushing, couldn't even stare at you properly.
his black tail swishes from left to right, clearly showing how embarrassed he was. you had scratched one particular spot that ni-ki really loves and he starts purring. he didnât shy away from it. his tail wrapping around your calf.
âwe should eat first. letâs talk about this later, hmm?â you cooed as he his purring gets louder. he was enjoying the attention.
and so, you went to the kitchen to make jajangmyeon for the both of you. ni-ki looks at the food, his stomach growling as he smells the strong scent. his little tooth pokes out. âenjoy your food.â you say. ni-ki digs in and finishes it within minutes. he really enjoyed it. however, you had to remember. he was not a normal house cat, which meant he had to eat more.
âi need more food.â he huffs. alright. you really have to remind yourself that you had a big cat in the house. note to self: buy more food during grocery week.
âoh, i have some milk. maybe that might fill your hunger a little.â you poured him a glass and he happily drinks it. just like a hungry kitten. he wipes his mouth and looked super satisfied after drinking the glass of milk.
âcan we cuddle now?â ni-ki says. his ears perked up and his black tail swishes.
âoh, umm. sure.â with that permission, ni-ki grabs your hand and pulls you to your bedroom. you could feel your face heat up.
you had laid in bed with him. it felt awkward because honestly, what were you supposed to do it in this situation? a cute hybrid boy, who confessed to you like an hour ago that he liked you and wanted to cuddle with you.
âdid you remember when you first joined the team, everyone warned you about me?â ni-ki voices out.
you hummed, âi found their words very mean. i was sure you were misunderstood.â
âwhen i was first brought into this world. my mom, she didnât understand anything as she was young herself. well, in cat years. she was young and afraid. she had nobody to care for her as she was a stray panther hybrid. people took advantage of her and she was too kind for this world. they ended up hurting her a lot and experimenting on her. her body couldnât handle these experiments and she��she was gone. i was only a pup and so it scared me a lot.â ni-ki carefully tells you his story.
âthey couldnât experiment on me as i was still a baby so they just waited and waited until i grew older. i somehow managed to escape and some people found me before putting me in the adoption centre for hybrids. i closed myself off, i was afraid that the people that adopted me would hurt me. then, when you cameâŚi had a sense that you wouldnât hurt me. something about you was attracting me, it made me curious. which is why, i spent 2-3 years trying to gain trust on you to see if youâd be the best person to take care of me.â
ni-ki turns to face you, âiâm honestly scared that you might leave me. i donât have anyone else.â
you had cupped his face and he leans into the touch, âdonât worry. i wonât leave you. iâll be by your side. as your owner andâŚas your partner.â he closes his eyes in content. âiâll accompany you to the trainings too. you need to get used to being a human and also be careful around everyone.â
âokay, iâll go for those trainings as long as youâre there.â
âi will. you donât have to worry about a thing.â
with that, ni-ki brings you close and he wraps his arms around you. he falls asleep and so do you. the both of you slept peacefully in each others arms, it was a safe space for the both of you and ni-ki wouldnât have it any other way.
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alright, thatâs it.
iâm sick of seeing hate against people who donât read the project sekai stories. this fandom has a lot of problems and this collective hatred of anyone who doesnât dedicate hours upon hours to read the stories is one of them.
first of all, the event stories are fucking long.
each episode can be anywhere from 15-30 minutes if read as the game intends (with auto on). multiply this by 8, and youâre talking possibly 2-4 hours PER EVENT. this doesnât even account for mixed events, which have 2 extra episodes.
not to mention, there are 137 events on the japanese server (and 101 on the english server) at the time i am writing this. 3 hours average times 137 events equals a total of 411 hours. that is 2 and a half weeks of solid content. to say thatâs daunting for people who started playing the game any sizable amount of time since its release is a massive understatement.
not to mention, the events, if viewed in-game, take a massive amount of storage space. not everyoneâs device can handle the insane amount of space needed for this gameâs events (even moreso if you plan to listen to the voices)
not everyone plays the game for the events, and theyâre NOT needed to enjoy the characters.
i get it. if someone who hasnât read the events is trying to have in-depth analyses of the characters or the groups, theyâre bound to mischaracterize. the thing is, nobodyâs really doing that.
not everyone downloaded the game because they wanted to read 400 hours of stories. yes, they are a fundamental part of the game. iâm not trying to deny that. however, so is the rhythm game. i donât see any hate towards people who hardly touch the shows. because theyâre not for everyone.
you should be able to talk about, write fics for, and roleplay as the characters without needing to read the stories. yes, people may mischaracterize. but reading the stories doesnât make you exempt to that either. iâve read fics from people who read every story for the group the fics were about that still managed to get so much wrong.
the events can be serious triggers.
iâm a HUGE niigo fan. i buy nightcord merchandise, iâve played almost all their songs, and i love the characters. i have not read a single solely-niigo event. you know why? because they are extremely triggering for me â the most blatant example being the most recent event on ensekai; âfarewell, my mask.â
project sekaiâs stories are beautiful. but if oneâs writing is always light-hearted, it will not touch people as dearly. (i mean, for christâs sake, No Seek No Find revolves around this exact statement.)
and project sekai is no exception â their stories unapologetically dive into extremely heavy topics, including but not limited to emotional abuse, grief/loss, and being hospitalized. reading the nightcord stories as people have tried to genuinely harass me into doing would result in some extremely bad feelings.
and iâm not the only one â many people i know, some who have even reblogged and expressed agreement with posts hating on those who donât read the stories, have shared my sentiment. you cannot insist people read the stories like iâve seen many people do, because you have no clue what might trigger someone.
what should we do, then?
first of all, build up some tolerance. not everyone is going to read the stories, and some people may mischaracterize the characters. did someone make a character analysis that ignored a big aspect of a character? scroll past the post. did someone write a fic making a character say and do things they usually wouldnât? hit the backspace button.
second of all, try to be open-minded to the opinions of people who havenât read the stories. maybe they get their content through the commission song lyrics, or maybe they diligently read the area conversations. or maybe they donât! maybe they just want to talk about their fave.
if someoneâs misinterpretation is genuinely harmful or bigoted, call out the harm and bigotry. that person who called ena an abusive sister despite akito acting similarly? call out the misogyny. this goes for any harmful interpretation of a character or group.
and finally, try to have some fun. this is a game. weâre all fans. if you do nothing but perpetuate hatred, nobodyâs gonna wanna play toys with you.
#â narcissus.txt#project sekai#long post#sorry iâve seen this go on long enough. i had to say something about it#this is coming from someone who has read 3 events cover-to-cover#and has read snippets of like 5 others#watch me get so much hate for this lmao
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Am I the only one who likes Colin and Penelope in S3 part 2?
Part 2 was always going to be about Colin finding out about LW. Yes, he was very, very mad, but it was understandable because of what Pen wrote about Marina, Eloise and himself. Yes, he was harsh, but remember how he treated Marina in S1 after he found out she was pregnant? He was very upset and angry, and said some things he shouldnât have said.
However, this time itâs different, Colin knew he was in love with Penelope and still wanted to marry her. He found out about LW right before their wedding, so it makes sense heâs going to need time and space to digest that information. He loved her, but he also was hurt, angry, conflicted, jealous and in love. That's a lot of emotions to sort out. Just like with Marina, he said some things he shouldn't have. Colin is VERY sensitive, which is his best and worst character trait.
However, he was able to put aside his anger during the wedding and reassure Penelope with a nod that he wanted her to walk down the aisle. The love in his eyes was evident every time Pen was with him. Just when everything was fine and when it seemed like that they could work it out, the queen comes in saying one of the Bridgertons is LW. When he asked Pen to give up her column in that moment, she said no. Of course Colin was upset, especially since they hadn't moved past this roadblock.
Colin tried to save Penelope from Cressidaâs blackmail, but made things worse and he hated that he couldnât help. He's so used to helping Pen that he's never seen her be independent and work things out on her own. In the end, Colin realized he didnât need to be a hero and Pen didn't need saving. It took time, but he worked through his emotions and was able to be the husband she needed. He accepted his wifeâs choice and stood at her side. He loved Penelope deeply and was devoted to her.
Penelope also went through her own arc. Sheâs realized that sheâs made huge mistakes because of her writing. She was trying to do better with the power she held, even if she couldnât change the past.
She was going to tell Colin about LW, but kept getting interrupted or it was not the right time. She even gave up LW up after talking to her mother and Eloise. Pen only started writing again when Cressida nearly succeeded in trying to take credit for her work. Penelope stood up for herself and told Colin at their wedding that she wasnât going to stop writing because LW was her work. Unfortunately, it drove a wedge in her and Colin's relationship because he didn't like keeping her identity a secret anymore than she did. In the end, she found her voice, formed her own plan and came clean. The truth was out and she was free of the secret that was too difficult and too dangerous to keep.
No, Colin did not need to go to Penelope during or right after her speech. That was HER time and part of both their arcs. She was owning up to her mistakes and actions, and Colin didnât need to save her. He was looking at her with the love and support she needed. He nodded in encouragement and pride. Their time as a couple was after her moment in the spotlight.
These are flawed characters shaped by their home lives and experiences that life threw at them for 3 seasons. This was about two people growing, accepting each other for who they are and the love between them conquering everything else. Forgiveness was also a big part of their stories. Penelope had to forgive herself for her mistakes and ask for it, while Colin had to forgive Penelope.
Throughout the season, Colin had to learn to be himself instead of what society expected of him and to not be the hero. Penelope had to learn to come out of her shell and find her voice outside of LW. This is a big accomplishment for two characters who are at least 19 and 22 at the start of S3.
Side note: Iâve noticed the writers like drama for every couple on Bridgerton, particularly the last four episodes. S1 was heavy on lack of communication. S2 dealt with not wanting to fall in love. S3 dealt with secrets. Both of the main characters of these seasons aren't 100% happy until at least the last 10 minutes of the last episode.
I think in S4 weâll see Colin and Penelope as a happier and stronger couple. However, I donât expect to see a lot of them, similar to Anthony and Kate in S3 and Daphne in S2. Once the couples are married, they donât seem to get a lot of screen time in order to make room for the next main pairing, but are there to offer advice. Personally, I hope next season is Benedict's.
Anyway, loved this season! Polin forever!
#just my thoughts#just my opinion#bridgerton#bridgerton spoilers#bridgerton season 3#colin bridgerton#penelope featherington#penelope bridgerton#polin
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According to the leaks I saw from episodes 5 to 8, Helaena will get closer to Aemond. And Phia and Tom had to beg/fight to get those miserable Helaegon scenes. I saw a rumor that I really hope is false, that Helaena and Aemond will communicate in Valyrian, Da*myra vibes. I honestly don't know what to think... They're killing the greens. If this is real, maybe Maelor is Aemond's son and that will be the push I needed to stop watching this poorly made fanfic.
Yeah, I saw these leaks too. Listen, there were a moment during first season when I shipped Helaena and Aemond. Only because that one scene when young Aemond said he would marry Helaena if Alicent betrothed them. And because I didn't like how they wrote young Aegon. But before that I was really interested in how they portray marriage-siblings of Aegon and Helaena. I didn't really ship them then, but I was curious how they gonna portray the first real Targaryen marriage on screen. But then, as I said in the beginning, I jumped onto that Helaemond ship. But when I saw older Aegon on screen, I started seeing him as more complex human. Mostly because of Tom's acting. So, slowly I started to forget about Helaemond and then eventually came back to my first kind of ship of Helaena and Aegon. And I was really excited for season 2 just to see them interact of any kind of way and in any relationship, no matter if in married couple way or just siblings way...
And yeah, we had 2 scenes of them. Wow. And for one of these scenes they had to beg. I love Phia and Tom, I love them truly for defending Aegon and Helaena relationship and fighting for it, FIGHTING TO SHOW IT. The creators had one big opportunity to show us a spectrum of Targaryen siblings marriage, where too sides didn't want it at all. I mean, can we stop idealize these kind of marriage in this lore? I know all of these love stories about Targaryen siblings love, but I don't buy it. And then we have Aegon and Helaena in the most realistic that kind of marriage, where they were forced to do it, and get nothing. NOTHING. NOTHING. NOTHING.
I don't expect them to show us fifty scenes of Helaena and Aegon together in every episode. No, really not. I know they have complicated relationship. But I expect them to show us this relationship properly. It can be just one scene in every episode, but a good scene when we can have insight to this relationship. Is it that hard to show? Is it that hard to write?
Listen, listen! I am afraid... I am afraid they going into Helaemond because of the fans who created Helaemond. You know what I mean? If it's true... WE CREATED A MONSTER.
And yes, this will be fall of The Greens. I want Maelor to be Aegon's son. If they will try to change it, I think it will be better if Maelor wouldn't exist at all in this show lore. I am afraid they will destroy Daeron too...
Yes, You are RIGHT. This is a poorly made fanfic. And let be honest, The Greens have spectacular actors and only because of them, we The Greens audience still watch it.
And yet we still have a hope. But for what, exactly?
(Sorry for my English, I hope you will understand my message.)
#house of the dragon#helaena targaryen#aegon ii targaryen#hotd season 2#aegon x helaena#helaegon#aemond targaryen#aemond x helaena#helaemond
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On the WTNV finale:
Look, i like Brinknor. They helped me fall back in love with Night Vale when i was feeling particularly uninspired. It's hard to put it into words; i have adhd & i struggle to remember big intricate plots unless something reoccurring has really grabbed hold of my attention, and before Brinknor, i was struggling to sink my teeth into anything attention-holding, so to speak. I guess i was becoming less enthusiastic in Night Vale's storyline as time went on, even though i couldn't really work out why. I just couldn't stop tuning out. But, with Brinknor, there came a bunch of shiny new plotpoints- at a faster pace. The show could actually hold my focus properly, and my wtnv fixation was suddenly up & running again.
All this is to say that i know it's just my impatience talking when i say that i wish that the loose ends of those new, interesting plotpoints had been tied up a little more by episode 250. I adore the way they write about Cecil's childhood and his family, and i want Kevin & The Boy's arc to be given the same amount of love, and attention, and time that the Palmer siblings' arc got. The same goes for Tamika. And Carlos. And Lauren, actually. Yes, i know she was a central figure in the last 2 episodes, and i loved that because she's one of my favourite characters. I fucking adore eldritch Mother Lauren. But still, it was all too vague to really learn anything new about her or the desert otherworld. And, above all else, i can't help but think of how wonderful it would've been if Charles and Donovan were included in the finale- especially Donovan.
When Kevin first came back in 2023, one of my silly little hcs as to why he was apparently in the Smiling God's bad books (and why he didn't mention Charles or Donovan) was that because Charles & Donovan aren't from Desert Bluffs they haven't devoted themselves to the Smiling God like the rest of the townsfolk. They wouldn't "smile" properly. One of my darker ideas at the time was the possibility of Kevin having to choose between making them part of his faith, i.e., making them "smile" like the rest of Desert Bluffs (which i doubt he'd go through with after his mudstone abyss arc), or having Charles & Donovan leave town (which i doubt they'd go through with), or, doing neither & keeping quiet about his life with them to avoid drawing attention. If he chose the latter and then got found out, it would make sense that he'd stop being the Smiling God's favourite. Obviously, i never thought any of that was correct- i was just having fun- and i was excited to find out the real story further down the line.
But that didn't happen, and we still don't really have many answers. Everything to do with Kevin, and Lauren, and The Boy got wrapped up in about 10 minutes flat. We've already had an emotional Fatherhood themed episode with Cecil & Abby; we didn't need another one just for the sake of it.
With the context of what we already know about Kevin's father, the ending of episode 250 was just uncomfortable. Sure, Kevin's talked about his father positively before, but that's always been in contrast with the actual content of his memories. It's always been made clear that the script/the writers disagree with Kevin's sunny outlook, and therefore the listeners should too. Those moments are there to demonstrate just how fucked up Kevin really is, and that his positivity is just a coping mechanism. But this time Cecil spoke for him, so we didn't get Kevin's usual sing-song rambling. It was calm, and collected, and matter-of-factly. And this time there were no sugar-coated descriptions of abuse, only genuine praise. We were actually supposed to agree with him this time, and it made the whole speech (and ending) sound hollow and forced.
I really didn't like this episode. It felt rushed. It tried to cover far too much far too quickly, and it failed. But, despite all that, i am hoping that future episodes will bring some sort of clarity about what happened. And hopefully some closure about Kevin and his family, too. I want loose ends to get tied up properly and i believe that maybe, with time, the important ones will be. Slow burning subplots are kinda quintessential to Night Vale's writing at this point anyway. Brinknor definitely missed the mark with this one, but they're still incredibly talented writers and i'm not ready to give up on them like some of the other fans on here.
Besides, i think that some of Night Vale's worst episodes are still incredible pieces of writing in their own right. The bad episodes are only bad in comparison to the dozens upon dozens of absolutely phenomenal episodes that make up the rest of a show that is, for the most part, a joy to listen to. So, here's to some hopefully better episodes in the future, i guess.
#this wasn't specifically supposed to be a defence of brinknor btw- i guess i'm just in an usually kind mood today#lit student go brr#welcome to night vale#wtnv#wtnv spoilers#wtnv 250#kevin wtnv#wtnv podcast#brinknor
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Episode 9 & the season overall
MEEEEEH
Do I need to say more?
Like yes, fine, overall, it's not as bad as the previous two seasons. Overall, this was the best season since season 2.
But let's be honest, it's not some high benchmark to clear.
Structurally, this episode's problem is that it's the final episode yet it has the structure of an early-in-season episode. It solves a personal issue of Rayla and it deals out Aaravos's backstory, and it even recaps early seasons! If not for Aaravos's return in the end, this could've been the first episode of the last season. It still could've been, just move his return one episode earlier and the rest could stay the same. No reason Aaravos can't explain his backstory to Claudia after she lets him out. The whole "cast spell with love" was a bullshit excuse.
But the most prevalent issue of this whole series is its refusal to put its heroes through any meaningful trials or tribulations. Any time they have any meaningful choice to make, the story ultimately makes it so they don't have to pay the cost. Some examples:
Rayla decides to lose her hand instead of killing Ezran - Zym just breaks her hand-cutting bracelet.
Callum decides to use dark magic and regrets it - he just gets primal magic he can use with clear conscience. He arguably chooses wrong and then he's still given the good magic in reward.
That also entirely nullifies his initial choice of "use dark magic or have no magic." He just gets good magic.
Claudia kills a deer to heal Soren's legs and in the end... Nothing? She gets ugly I guess? Soren is perfectly fine, it doesn't matter that such a powerful dark magic was used on him, at most it's Claudia who bears the cost, and it's not clear what "looking ugly" really does, if anything at all.
The Dragon Mom ignores her injury and pretends she's fine - when she stops being fine she just stumbles across a healer by accident.
Or just this season:
Callum gets healed from using dark magic by a ritual. They say it's dangerous but eh, it seemed pretty easy, half an episode and done, and he's fine and has his primal magic. No cost.
Rayla thinks she'll have to choose who to save, but in the end her parents are at peace and happy to go. She doesn't really have to choose, she just goes with what the other people choose.
The Sun Queen strikes out at her brother's forces and in the end nothing happens to her lol. That whole Z plot line was ultimately a nothingburger. The big sun dragon wasn't even needed to release Aaravos. You could've entirely cut it out and just have Claudia sneak into the castle to get the egg!
And so on and so on. And it's just so tiring, because we're dangled nice stuff in front of us, like a possession arc, but then nothing happens.
Claudia just lets Aaravos out like she's intended for three full seasons. It's just dull. It's boring! It's, well, it's the definition of meh.
Guys tell me, seriously, am I the weird one? Is it weird for me that I expect the heroes to have to deal with complex issues and hard choices, and not the villains? Am I asking for too much?
Because it feels like the creators had some nice epic pictures in their heads, like Katolis burning or a big battle among the Sun Elves, but they just can't or won't commit to them. They don't write a meaningful story to accompany those pictures. All the heaviness is put on the antagonists, while the heroes, if they have any issues, typically resolve them within one episode - like the Sun Queen had a one episode long "arc," but she just had to listen to a story and she's perfect and flawless again! Callum's arc of struggling with dark magic and possession is the only such one, and it still came to an anticlimactic, easy end with the cleansing ritual.
Yes, the show can still do something with it. If I had more trust in this series and its writing, I'd say that sometime in the next season, Callum is going to use dark magic to save Rayla, breaking his promise, and then she'll be unable to kill him, breaking her promise, and they'll need to put themselves back together and come back from that.
But... I don't have any trust in this series at this point. They used false advertising in the trailer! There wasn't any scene with Callum having black eyes this season, yet they even used it as a thumbnail?
So with my zero faith in the writing of TDP, I'm presuming there will come a moment when it'll look like Callum might use dark magic again, but he'll then refuse and instead of suffering any consequences, he and others will be promptly rescued by someone, like maybe the Dragon Mom coming back during the final battle or something like that.
Because the heroes just got to choose right and they'll suffer no consequences for it. I guess the moral of the story is "just be good and things will work out on their own." In other words... "trust in God/Fate."
Amazing. That's exactly the message to teach kids, instead of "sometimes doing good is hard but it's still worthwhile" or "be smart and creative and you'll find a solution" or idk a hundred other messages this show could've had.
Like seriously, the setup where humans don't have inborn magic and elves do is such an amazing one. It could've been a story about humans outsmarting elves, about figuring out other ways to use magic, about not letting their lack of power put them down.
But nooo. Instead it's a story about those born powerful being always good and beautiful, and only a couple of them are bad apples - usually because they're deceived by one particularly bad apple. And if you're born without power (privilege, khy khy) you should just accept it and you'll be rewarded by fate/those with power.
This show is progressive?
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That Day | Levi x Reader Angst
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Summary: Ever since That Day . . . Anytime you became lucid, Levi spent all the time with you that you could offer him.
Word Count: 10.1k ( about 50 mins to read)
Megan's Note: This popped into my head the other day and I had tunnel vision to write this. I have written 90% of Part 3 of Allegiance. I decided to write this in one part and it's not entirely proof read cuz now that I am done I need to focus on finals LMAO. Posted: 5/2/24
TRIGGER WARNING: torture, scars, mentions of underweight. (please lmk if there's anything else I should add because I've never written anything this dark.) It's supposed to be angsty AF. Please know I did my best and I understand for having medical stuff wrong or something unrealistic. Enjoy and lmk if you cried cuz I cried.
âThis will not be discussed again,â Levi said firmly to the girl in front of his desk. She was frustrated and tearing up. Her dark hair was long and the girl had her arms crossed. Levi started pretending to read, hoping the girl would get the idea to leave. Annoyance crept up because the girl was still in front of Levi. He had nothing left to say. âPlease, leave. I donât want to discuss anything un-scout-related with you.â The girl sighed and headed toward the door. Before she could get near the threshold, there was a knock from outside. Â
âCaptain Levi, Itâs Eren Jaeger.â The voice said behind the door. The girl glanced at Levi and then opened the door for him. Erenâs eyebrows were furrowed and raised, his eyes alert. Then suddenly dropped to confusion, âOh hey Grace,â She walked passed without greeting him. Erenâs anxious tone returned, he was slightly sweaty and out of breath from dashing to the Captainâs office. âItâs Y/N. Sheâs lucid.â Levi looked at Eren, he slowly started rising from his desk. Engaged and forgetting anything else he was focused on.Â
Hange and Moblit with a clipboard stood against the wall in an attempt to stay out of the way. They were quietly listening to the girl behind the curtain groan. A nurse could be heard trying to get the girl to drink water, but she kept rejecting the offer. The girl kept mentioning how cold she was. Hange had not visited Y/N in a few weeks. At the end of each lucid episode, it was filled with nothing but frustration and guilt. If only things went differently. Levi and a few others should be here any moment. The door opened and Sasha entered, quietly. She knew the protocol, she stood next to Moblit near the door and silently greeted Hange and Moblit.Â
âNO! No, please! I donât want shots!â Hange could hear you hoarsely beg. Hange breathed deeply. She thought to herself, youâre in the room. We are safe. âCan we wait?! Please, no!â You screamed. Behind the curtain, the nurse softly reassured you and asked you to lower your voice.Â
âI think weâll start as normal, have Doctor Winston Yates and Levi assess Y/N, and go off based on this first hour,â Hange whispered. Moblit and Sasha nodded. âI assumed Mikasa has been reminded of her role?â Sasha nodded again. The door opened again and Dr. Yates walked in. He gave Hange, Sasha, and Moblit a thumbs-up with a big smile. The older man brought a warm presence. He lively strode behind the curtains.
âY/N! Good to see you awake . . . sheâs on IV fluids?â He loudly greeted you.Â
âYes,â the nurse said.Â
âTell me how you feel right now, donât hold back on me!â His chuckle is probably what you needed to hear. You didnât hear much laughter anymore.Â
âIâm tired . . .â You said softly. The door opened once again with Levi hastily entering the room, he glanced at the three and then went behind the curtain. Eren entered and held the door until it closed with a quiet click. âLevi!â You said and Levi sat in the chair next to your bed. You reached out your hand. He sat down and with a soft embrace he held your hand.Â
âY/N, how do you feel?â He asked in a low voice.Â
âGood, I want to sit outside.â Levi smiled and Dr. Yates and the nurse laughed.
âThatâs what we want to hear!â The nurse said.
âWe can go outside, later,â Levi assured.
âWe need to give her a shot, sheâs on her usual IV with concentrated vitamins and minerals.â The nurse said lowly to Levi and Dr. Yates. You panicked and jerked away from the nurse. You couldnât get far with the straps still clamping down your ankles. But you moved as close to Levi as you could. He wrapped an arm around you and then looked you in the eyes.
âJust a shot itâll be over really quick.â Levi whispered.
âIâll need her arm.â Levi freed you and held your hand with both of his. The nurse rubbed your arm and you felt the cool sensation. You closed your eyes. âOkay and youâre done.âÂ
âWhat!? I didnât even feel it,â You said.
âThere you go! Next time, bump her TPN to 2 liters,â Dr. Yates said, looking at your arms.Â
âSee nothing to worry about.â Levi said and you smiled at him. âLetâs brush your teeth and clean yourself a little then we can sit outside.âÂ
5th Debriefing Session:
Hange glanced at her notes before speaking. She sat in a comfortable chair at a table where the survey corps typically held meetings. Dr. Yates, Levi, Commander Erwin and Moblit sat at the table and turned their attention to Hange. Hange hated the debriefings. All of them did They only happened at the end of your lucid episodes.Â
âAccording to this recent episode, Y/N stayed lucid for four days. Her 2nd longest lucid. This time she was showing a more closed off demeanor. She only wanted to socialize with Levi, Sasha Brause, Dr. Yates, and Eren Jaeger. She was opposed to physical touch except for Levi . . .â She looked at her clipboard and sniffled. âMy hypothesis was correct that when Y/N showed signs of starting to revert and feel triggered, Sashaâs presence made Y/N feel safe. Twice during this episode, Y/N started screaming and Sasha was introduced and Y/N appeared to calm down and eventually went back to a neutral state. And like Dr. Yates mentioned in his therapy debriefing, Y/N is showing signs of improvement.â
âDay by day. Sheâs getting better,â Dr. Yates said to Levi. Levi was looking down at his lap. He hated these sessions too even though they were important. Though he did recognize signs of improvement, he felt defeated every time you got triggered. Guilt shredded him, as he went through the past seven months without you fully. Levi wanted you to live life with him.
âWhite pants or black pants?â Levi asked you, holding up both pairs.Â
âBlack.â For the first month after That Day, the pinstriped scars on your legs triggered you. As they healed and were less bloody, scabby and painful they didnât visually trigger you anymore. That was the first success from Dr. Yates working with you. Levi went behind the curtain and pulled it behind him to give you some privacy. It was now only you two in the cold room. When you pulled back the curtain slowly you let out an unsure sound. âUm . . .â Levi looked over at you looking down at your big pants. His heart dropped, but wasnât going to let you see his disappointment in you losing more weight.
âWeâll eat soon. Try rolling it.â He said.
âWhat?â He approached you and grabbed the pants and folded it down so the waist wouldnât fall down. Levi couldnât help but catch your eyes. He wanted to kiss you, but to him you were so fragile. You kissed him on the cheek and it elated him how lovingly you were this time. He wrapped one arm around you and squeezed you.
4th Debriefing Session:
 âY/Nâs overall behavior this episode . . .â Hange said and then let out a sigh. âWas . . .âÂ
âAggressive.â Levi said.Â
 Hange held two bowls of hearty soups with bread. One bread had an excessive amount of butter on it and in one of the bowls there was extra oil in the soup. She carefully walked with the meals in her hand. Moblit was next to her with the clipboard.Â
âWith the extra butter and oils, Iâd track probably a thousand calories for this meal. If we can get her to eat again later, Iâll call that a success.â Hange said and Moblit was writing on the clipboard in his hand. They walked outside of the dining hall and saw you and Levi in the distance. You were sitting on a bench under a tree facing away.Â
âSection Commander, her bread is as wet as the soup.â Moblit said, eyeing the pound of butter on your slice of bread.Â
â . . . Iâll do anything to have her be healthy again . . .â Hange said. Birds flew away from the tree Levi and you were sitting under. She sighed. Moblit looked at her and recognized her anguished expression.
âDonât be hard on yourself. Torture trauma could take multiple years to recover from . . .â Moblit said.
â . . . I just think about . . . only if . . .â Hange stared at the grass in front of her. Then she recognized the beauty of that moment. You were lucid and cooperative. Moblit was right to not be hard on herself. It was a good day because of the sun and the slight breeze. It has been Months since you were outside. Not only that, you wanted to go outside. Inbetween most of your lucid episodes, you were sedated, because you wouldnât stop screaming or kicking. Your vocal cords would get shredded and you would lose your voice. âGood Morning, Levi! Y/N! Are you hungry?â Hange found it deep inside her to sound joyful. You whipped your head around toward the voice. You gasped excitedly and jogged toward Hange. Levi walked toward the three after.
âFor me?â You asked.
âIf you won't eat it, I will.â Hange bent a little to your height with a smile. Levi took the two bowls from Hange. When the food was out of the way you hugged Hange and she froze out of shock then embraced you lovingly. She hadnât received a hug from you in a while. You seemed excited for her to be around. You hugged for more than five seconds and when you realized Hange wasnât going to pull away you did.
âThank you for the food!â You said, âCome sit with us!â You grabbed Hangeâs wrist and pulled her toward the bench. âYou too Moblitâ. When you looked back, you saw him writing on his clipboard and then he grinned at you. When you got to the bench Levi handed you the bowl with the extra oils and butter. âOh . . . I donât think thereâs room on the bench.â You scooted all the way next to Levi and assessed if Hange could fit in the small space.Â
âOh no worriesââ
âLevi, get up.â You said and he obeyed, which Hange laughed. Levi faced you while still standing next to you. He didnât want to leave your presence or miss anything you did. Hange sat down next to you.Â
âSheâs been asking about you,â Levi said to Hange then sipped his soup. Hange was certainly intrigued especially since the last time was not a good experience with you. She felt a sliver of hope.
âHave you been missing me?!â She asked. It was an eye opener for her, the last two months were not physically good for your health. Her heart dropped analysing you, you were skinny, looked dull and genuinely tired. She regretted not visiting you enough.
âYes, I feel so . . . out of it. Like I woke up from the longest dream . . .â You said. Then took a spoonful of soup making sure to get a little bit of the chicken onto the spoon.Â
âShe was talking about the time you were teaching her how to braid hair.â Levi said.Â
âHmm. Are you sure that was me?â Hange asked.
âOh well, I thought it was you, maybe not.â You laughed.Â
âHey, eat before it gets cold,â Levi said, tapping your ankle lightly with his foot.
âYeah. Yeah. I just want to talk to Hange.â You said.
âAwe, youâre so cute. But Leviâs right, you wouldnât want your food to get cold.â Hange said. Â
âCould you have put any more butter on this bread?â You laughed and Hange laughed it off.
âTry it like this,â She took your bread and dunked it in the soup. The bread was dripping in broth, butter and oil. You took the soaked bread and attempted to take a bite out of it without dripping on yourself.Â
5th Debriefing Session:
âYes, day by day, Y/N is getting better. My only concern is that she stopped having an interest in eating. Levi informed me that she would push around her food and barely drink water. I sat a table over and noticed two evenings in a row she only took a few bites.â Hange read from her notes. âHowever, I noticed the start of a trend. She always finished a bowl of soup. Perhaps at least one of the meals for the day needs to be soup.â
âWe can start a total parenteral nutrition IV when sedated. Then adjust the dosage.â Dr. Yates said and wrote the note down.Â
âGreat. Another thing I wanted to talk about which I mentioned before was her social behavior . . .â Hange took a deep breath then focused on her notes. âY/N had a small improvement from her last episode. This episode Y/N wasnât against socializing. Besides the few previously mentioned she seemed fearful or hesitant around some friends. I do not want to describe her as shy, just . . . disinterested.â Hange choked and then took another deep breath.
Levi stared at the books on the bookshelf. He couldnât look at his friend.
âHow are you?â You asked Levi. âYou are more quiet today.â He smiled, grabbed your hand and lifted to kiss the back of your palm. The four of you were on a short walk. You were unknowingly walking toward your next few tests. Hange was on the other side of you with Moblit on her side. A few scouts would walk past and greet Levi. He ignored them.
âIâm at peace being with you.â He said softly knowing moments are fleeting. You thought he was being cute. You stepped in front of him, wrapped your arms around his neck and kissed him. It took him by surprise. But you were giving him a pleasure he wasnât going to deny. He kissed you again, deeply and he thought how there is just no one else in his life he wanted. Levi was willing and planning on being patient for the time it took you to heal. Years. Decades. You made it through That Day. Levi knew you were worth the time to heal. He knew that healing was not linear. He intended to be with you for all of your moments. He remembered something and reached into his jacket pocket and pulled out your ring. âI cleaned it.â He grabbed your left hand and slid the ring on your left ring finger. Then he warmly smiled at you, gazing at his special girl. âSomeday when you are healthy, weâll get married . . .â Levi realized they were out in the open in public and glanced towards Moblit and Hange. Moblit was writing on his clipboard and Hange was acting like the bowls she was holding was the most interesting thing. He clasped your hand and continued walking, Hange and Moblit slowly trailed behind you.Â
When you got closer to the entrance of the dining hall the more noise you could hear. There were scouts laughing with each other. Some people standing in groups talking to each other. Some were out in the front enjoying the sun. A few people grouped in the front. Some faces you recognized but you havenât ever conversed with. It was getting louder as you approached the threshold. A girl with pretty dark hair caught your eye.
âMikasa?â You asked a little unsure. The girlâs eyebrows raised and her eyes were wide. âMikasa Ackerman?â She stepped closer to you. Hange, Moblit and Levi could see Mikasaâs eyes start to gloss over.Â
âY/N . . .â Mikasa said calmly.Â
âI havenât seen you in a long time,â You hugged her and she hugged you back tightly. Mikasa didnât want to let go. She kept blinking, but her eyes were filling up with tears. You pulled away, âHow are you?â You asked brightly. âKeeping Eren out of trouble?â She smiled through her tears. â . . . Whatâs wrong?âÂ
âWe havenât seen each other in a while. Itâs happy tears.â She sniffled and you laughed.Â
âYou look sad,â You said and touched her hair.Â
âI have something for you . . .â Mikasa gently went through a small bag she usually did not have with her.Â
âWhat is it, Mikasa?â Hange asked.
âShe got me a present!â You said excitedly. Mikasa found what she was looking for. She gently brought out paper that was folded twice.Â
âI found this a few weeks ago and I want you to have it.â She handed you the folded paper and you hesitantly took it. You carefully unfolded the paper. On the paper was a drawing of three girls. You gasped. It was a drawing of Mikasa, Sasha and you and the background you could tell was your room from your cadet days. Mikasa sniffled, blinked back tears, and quietly took a deep breath. âRemember? Jean drew us and Sasha when we were roommates in the cadet corp.â The drawing of you and your friends was done in pencil, but along the edge of the paper were names written in ink. In elegant penmanship was written: Mikasa, Sasha and Y/N. âI had it all these years, but I think you should have it.â Your heart felt like it was swelling in your chest. How could you not? You thought of the fun times you and Mikasa would plug Sashaâs nose when she was sleeping. She would swat and roll over leaving you and Mikasa giggling. You thought of the time when you peed your pants because Sasha made you laugh so hard. Another memory of Mikasa teaching Sasha how to braid hair and she tried it on you and put knots in your hair. Mikasa had to cut your hair. It ended up so badly that Mikasa braided your hair for the last year of the cadet corp. You thought of the time you stole Mikasaâs shirt for the day then when heading to bed your mattress was gone. Mikasa was like the sister you always wanted. You hugged Mikasa and she let a tear fall. She closed her eyes and enjoyed that moment.Â
â . . . Youâre the one that taught me how to braid hair . . . This is so sentimental, Thank you.â You said and when you pulled away you analysed the drawing again. âHey, how's Jean? Iâm surprised I havenât seen him yet . . . Whereâs Eren? Heâs usually . . .â You froze, you felt cold. You felt sick. Why did you feel scared? Mikasa stared back at you, her eyes grew bigger.Â
âY/N.â Levi grabbed your arm and held your head while embracing you.Â
âHow do you feel? Tell me your thoughts.â Hange said worryingly. She tugged on your shirt gently. You stared off and then you looked at Mikasa.
âI was just . . . wondering where Eren was . . . you two are usually together.â You said dazed and confused.Â
âLetâs sit down . . .â Levi said and you stared at Mikasa. She was still in her stance. She looked at you carefully, she didnât want to frazzle you. Though this moment for her was fleeting, she looked at you and appreciated that you were alive and lucid.
âDo you want to sit with me?â You asked Mikasa. More tears streamed down her face with a smile.Â
3rd Debriefing Session:
âThereâs not a clear indication why Y/Nâs long term memory was affected. There are gapsânot remembering long term friendships, routines, and some milestone events. But with this episode lasting 28 days and with the evidence that over time her health did improve over the 28 days.â Dr. Yates said. Levi stared at the books he always did. The survey corps went on a large scale planned expedition and unfortunately, you became lucid the morning they left. 19 days they were gone. Apparently, you kept asking for Levi. You were a little moody sitting in the medical room not being allowed to do much. You asked to go outside, but once you were outside you just wanted to go back in.Â
Levi was pissed when the survery corp returned and he received the message that youâve been lucid since they left. He wasnât there for the longest time you were lucid and he didnât know how much time he had left. When he did return to you, you became happier and so you started becoming healthier. Dr. Yates let you stay with Levi for a couple nights.Â
While staring at the books, his mind ended up thinking about one of the nights of you staying with him. You were on top of Levi practically begging to have sex. He thought about how you kissed his neck and palmed him teasing him with pleasure. You two havenât had sex since before That Day. He rubbed your thigh gently, he tried to pretend he didnât feel your pinstriped scars. You ran your hand through his hair, pleading with him to touch you. Levi felt like he was taking advantage of you and suggested going to bed.Â
âI suggest we can add a couple tests when sheâs lucid.â Hangeâs bright tone pulled Levi away from the thought of you.Â
âWhat are you thinking?â Commander Erwin asked.Â
âSince Y/N could not recognize Mikasa Ackerman, even though she should have for knowing her for so long. They were roommates along with a few others including Sasha Braus since the Cadet Corp. We could have Mikasa walk by Y/N and see if she reacts, says hello or recognizes her slightly. If she doesnât we could try having Mikasa approach her and have a light conversation to jog her memory.Â
âAnother thing I noticed was Y/N feels calm around Sasha Braus. Whether it's because they are long term friends or because of That Day. According to Sasha, she was the one that killed Hecate when she was torturing Y/N. We could conclude that subconsciously Y/N remembers Sasha saving her.
âOne last hypothesis. I was thinking if Eren Jaeger was around Y/N. She would not think about where Eren could be as that was the information Hecate was trying to get from us.â Hange suggested. âI recognize these âtestsâ do require the efforts of others, that are not mandatory. But I know they would want to help Y/N.âÂ
âHow long do you think expect her friends to help her?â Commander Erwin asked.Â
âWith all due respect, I am not the doctor. I am just summarizing her social behavior. I can only help, but I can not solve anything.â Hange said and then there was silence in the room. A sense of apprehensiveness to speak. They were ignoring what needed to be said.Â
â . . . Levi, thereâs a hospital in the capital that specializesââ
âAre you suggesting shipping off Y/N? She was lucid for almost a month. Sheâs improving.â Levi said sharply. Erwin let out a deep breath and decided to pin that suggestion for later.Â
Your fourth lucid episode was two months after. Levi was worried that you were slowly dying and not going to have another lucid episode. When you did . . . it was the worst behavior to deal with. Hange and Levi had to restrain you while Moblit attempted to sedate you with a syringe. You scratched Hangeâs face with your engagement ring.
As the day went on you felt tired. Though you did enjoy hanging and conversing with Mikasa, Eren and Armin. You were starting to feel out of it. Dinner was starting to be served and more of your friends came into the dining hall.Â
âIf I get you food will you eat it?â Levi asked.
âIâm just tired.â You said. It felt like a long day. Your social battery was starting to become drained.Â
âYou should eat, Y/Nâ Eren said.Â
âYeah weâre all going to get food. I think thereâs soup.â Armin added.Â
âI already had soup today.â You said, lethargically
âAre you saying F/N L/N has a limit on soup?!â A bright voice said behind you. You turned around and a jolt of energy burst from you as you sprung up to hug Sasha.
âSASHA!â Levi and Hange laughed. âI feel like I havenât seen you in a while!â
âIs soup all you had today?â Sasha asked, but it seemed like she was more asking Hange.Â
âI would like for her to eat more.â Hange said to Sasha.Â
âThen letâs get in line Iâm starvingâ Sasha grabbed your wrist and you guys went into the line.Â
During dinner, Leviâs heart swelled watching you be with your friends. It was the first in a while where you were smiling and laughing with them. Jean told stupid jokes that made you laugh hard. You laughed so hard you cried. Sasha gave you some of her soup so you could eat more. Armin didnât say much, but he enjoyed seeing you alive and healthy. Levi thought your smile was so warm and watching you from where he sat it was like he was seeing you for the first time again.Â
Your laugh, your smile and you being with your friends. Levi remembers being so shy and nervous to talk to you. Your courage and initiation to talk to Levi is what started the relationship. He glanced at the ring on your finger. He just knew. Denied it to himself, Levi thought he was ridiculous for knowing he was going to marry you only after interacting with you a limited amount of times. But you were just so considerate of him and caring for him. He never had someone like him for him. He closed his eyes and tried not to cry. He was grateful you were in his life. Levi was going to be by yourside for the entire time you needed to heal. He will marry you.Â
âLevi? Are you okay?â Hange asked. He opened his eyes and saw you intently listening to Erenâs story.Â
âI just . . . want to marry her.â He said.
After you were done eating. You braided Sashaâs hair and then Mikasa stood behind you and braided yours. You french braided Sashaâs and Mikasa was also giving you a french braid. When you and Mikasa were done braiding. Mikasa sat down in front of you and you started braiding her hair.Â
âHange! I could braid your hair!â Sasha turned excitedly to Levi and Hangeâs table. Hange raised her eyebrows.
âNo! I want to braid her hair!â You said to Sasha.
âOh come on please!â Sasha begged.Â
âHANGE LET US BRAID YOUR HAIR! YOU WOULD LOOK SO CUTE WITH PIGTAILS. â You demanded and Levi laughed. You dropped her hair and walked over to Hange, you started pulling her wrist but she was holding onto the table. âSASHA GRAB HER OTHER WRIST!â Sasha laughed and you both pulled Hange over to the other table.Â
âFine! Just normal, nothing fancy.â Hange appeased and sat down at your table.Â
âYou braid Mikasaâs hair. I want to do Hangeâs.â You said. Then you started pulling out her ponytail and brushing it with your fingers. âJeez, your hair is knotty.â Levi smiled. You braided her hair into pigtails and looked over at Sasha braiding Mikasaâs hair. âYou look so cute, Mikasa!â Mikasa blushed. âAwe Hange you look so cute, too!âÂ
âWeâll all have braided hair, now!â Sasha said excitedly.Â
âJean needs to draw us!â You said. âQuick, we need to get a pencil and paper!â Jean froze with a spoon almost to his mouth.Â
âWhen did I sign up for this?â He laughed.Â
âJust do a quick one!â Mikasa said. Molblit handed Jean a blank sheet of paper and his pencil. He smiled. He did want to remember this moment.Â
âOkay bunch up. Have Sasha and Hange stand behind you two.â You and Mikasa had an arm around each other and Hange and Sasha hugged you two from behind. It took a little, but you still chatted and talked with the rest of the table. Except for when Jean asked you all to smile. Then he let you get out of the pose. He continued drawing though and after a while he folded the paper twice. Then licked among the folds and split the paper into four. âLadies of the braid. I have your drawing.â Jean handed Mikasa a fourth of a paper with a drawing of the four of you with your braids. Then handed you another fourth with the same drawing copied over.Â
âJean, you drew it four times?â You asked and Jean handed the last fourths of the paper to Hange and Sasha. The four of you lined up the drawings you received by the ripped folds. You all had the same drawing of the four of you smiling with your hair in braids.Â
âYouâre an amazing artist, thank you, Jean.â Hange said admiring the drawing.Â
âThanks, Jean!â Sasha brightly said. Mikasa picked up the pencil Jean was using from the table.Â
âY/N, hand me your drawing really quick.â She put your drawing on the table and wrote something on an open space of the drawing. Then she gave you the paper back. You looked at what Mikasa wrote. In elegant penmanship was written: Sasha, Hange, Mikasa and Y/N.Â
âYou have such nice handwriting, Mikasa.â You said and she smiled hopefully at you. Then you hugged Jean and thanked him for the drawing. You happily strolled to Levi and showed him the drawing. It was like the drawing Hange showed him a moment ago. Except yours had the names written. Levi recognized it was the same handwriting from the other drawing.Â
5th Debriefing Session:
âWe need to have a tough conversation,â Commander Erwin started. âWhen looking at the big picture of Y/Nâs health. We are nearing the 6th month mark . . . Levi, the Survey Corps can only do so much . . . evaluating her when the one year markââ Levi abruptly stood up with a loud screech from his chair. He began to walk toward the doors. âHange wants to help Y/N! Her friends want to and are willing to help, butââ Levi ripped the door open.
âIf you want to send her to a hospital in Mitras. Honorably discharge me. Iâll go with my wife.â Levi slammed the door.Â
âOkay Hange. Yeah, okay.â Levi closed the door on Hange. He just wanted to spend some alone time with you. You carefully walked to the table while holding two cups of tea and gently on the table. For a moment you reminded him of his mother. You were so elegant and when you smiled at Levi his felt happy that you were his. He had love in his life and he was going to take care of you just like you have always taken care of him. He fondly looked at you and then he approached you and hugged you. You were his just like he knew he was yours. No matter what. âSit, I want to get something.â He said and went off to the corner where he had a small bookshelf. He grabbed a leatherbound journal and a pencil. He put it in front of you. âHere.â You stared at it.
âWhatââ
âRemember itâs your journal. You havenât written in it in a long time though. I want you to write an entry.â Levi gently said then he grabbed the drawing Jean gave you and he leaned it against some books on the bookshelf.Â
âOh yeah . . . I forgot . . . I used to write everyday. I had like 8 journals . . .â You trailed off.
âYea, you wanted to keep a record of your life. Maybe write how you feel or just what went on today. I think the last entry you wrote was near when we got engaged.â Levi said.Â
â . . .weâre engaged?â You asked confused. Levi closed his eyes and breathed deeply. He tried to keep the mood light.
âJust a little entry.â He sat down next to you and sipped on his tea carefully. You smiled and started writing about your day. âThen we could go to sleep early.â Levi enjoyed sleeping with you because he had poor sleeping habits. But when you slept next to him he got a few more hours. He gave you a kiss on the cheek and you turned to kiss him again on the lips. His admiration for you only grew watching you write in your journal. These little moments are everything he has to accept for now.
âI donât know what else to write . . .â You said lightly. Thoughts came into your mind and then disappeared. âIâm sorry.â Levi offered you his hand and when you took he gently helped you stand up and walked towards the bed. He then held your hand to his heart.
âLetâs lay down.â Levi said.
âCan I have a back massage?â You ask. Levi does his best to give you a shoulder massage, he carefully does his best to not hurt you, but he wants to relieve you of all pain. Levi tried to be as careful because to him you were so delicate and fragile looking. He wanted you to relax and be with him. Â
âIs this okay . . .?â He asked.
âKeep going.â You ordered and he obeyed then smiled. He moved down your back, pressing little circles into your back and along your spine.Â
âLetâs go brush our teeth and goââ Levi said, pulling away.Â
âNo more.â You put his hand back on your shoulders. He gave you a couple more seconds of massaging.
âOkay no more, your majesty.â He said. You jumped on him which took him by surprise. You attempt to pin him down on the bed and Levi let you. You kissed his forehead and he looked up at you fondly. Youre eyes looked so pretty. You trailed your hands slowly on Leviâs chest, feeling his carved muscles. You placed one of his hands on your thighs and you ran your fingers in his hair. To Levi you are everything. He reached towards your face and then touched your braid. âLetâs go to sleep.â You kissed him and fisted his shirt. Levi pulled away, âY/N . . .â
âPlease . . .â you mewled into his ear softly, knowing this is what gets to him. You put more pressure on him, feeling him getting harder. You tucked some of his fringe behind his ears. You looked into his steel grey eyes and the eye contact was making you feel heat in yourself, you havenât felt in a while. You grinded your hips and Levi was starting to breathe heavily. â . . . Levi,â you moaned, you knew it drove him crazy. âI love you so much.â
âIâm in love with you.â Levi said to you. You looked so pretty. Â
âWe havenât . . . made love in a while.â You said and continued to grind on him and Levi was thinking of the pleasureâs he could have with you. He hasn't felt your body in a long time and Levi wanted to feel you wrapped around him. He wanted to hear you whimper in his ear. But clarity came to the forefront.Â
âI canât take advantage of you . . .â He said quietly.
âYouâre not, I want you.â You started taking off your shirt. Levi stopped you. Pulling your shirt down. He sat up and hugged you, smelling you.Â
âY/N I canât . . . please letâs go to sleep.â You pulled away and gave him another kiss.
âOk.âÂ
When you slept next to Levi, he felt it easier to relax. His muscles untensed and he found it easier to fall asleep. Levi had terrible sleeping habits before you and when you slept next to him for the first time he realized you helped him. He slept a good six hours with you next to him. Levi realized you brought him a sense of peace and you always were positive and good natured.Â
You always had taken good care of him, sometimes he saw his mom in you. You reminded him that he was worthy of love and he saw you as someone who wanted to give love to your friends. He admired that you made friends wherever you went. He knew how much your friends love you and you saw them as your family. Your kind heart is what drew people in. Levi was glad you had a large support system, something he didnât have in life. He recognized that he wanted to marry you when he realized that you made up an entire family for him. He trusted that you would always be there for him and you were so supportive and loving. You made him laugh so much, feeling joy in life.Â
Levi half asleep rolled over, he felt the bed empty. He sat up and he was alone. He heard you in the dark room whimpering quietly. He saw your dark silhouette on the floor against the wall. His heart dropped, more time he begged.
âPlease,â you begged quietly. Levi cautiously approached you. âNo, please donâtâ You said as he got closer. He grabbed a syringe off of the table.Â
âY/N. Itâs Levi.â He said almost pleading.
âNO!â You pleaded. Holding your hand out to him as if that was going to stop him. He started to feel tears in his eyes, this was the first time he had to do this alone. There was a hope that you just had a bad nightmare and you needed comfort.
âCome back to me . . .â He said. You screamed loudly and it pierced his ears. He had to jump on you. You thrashed and one of his tears landed on you. You slapped him and pushed Levi. He grunted.Â
âY/N!â He said, pining one of your arms against the wall.Â
âNO! PLEASE DONT!â You cried out and screamed again. Levi used his weight to hold down your legs. He set the syringe down and did his best to pull your pants down. You panicked and fought him. âSTOP! I DONâT KNOW ANYTHING!â You pulled up your knee and tried to hit Levi in the croch. Levi cried. You were weak and Levi was much stronger than you. He managed to get a good surface of your thigh showing. You managed to get another slap on his face and he grunted. You screamed loudly, a cry in desperation. You whailed hoping someone would hear you and help you.Â
âPleaseââ
âPLEASE STOP!â You screamed, he winced at the volume going into his ear. He picked up the syringed and shot it into your leg. You screamed and Levi looked at you in the eyes hoping to find you somewhere. You looked at him in desperation, pleading to spare you. Levi had to hold you down until you got physically worn out, he cried waiting for you to go unconscious. When you were weak. He hugged you, he knew you needed help. This was the life he was dealt with.Â
Before he left his room, he laid you on his bed and pretended you were only sleeping. This time was so short again. What else could Levi do to help you? He knocked on the door and waited for a while. His eyes were puffy and his face was stained with tears. He knocked again and the door finally opened. Hange still had her pigtail braids in. Levi held up his empty syringe.
âLevi . . .â Hange said tiredly then she saw the syringe.Â
âY/Nâs in my room.â Levi said dismaly. Hange leaned her head against the doorframe and sighed.Â
âIâll get Dr. Yates.â She said.
That Day:
They were in a large room of a house. The windows were large and revealed that there were no other buildings nearby. They were almost in the middle of nowhere. Somewhere northwest Wall Rose. One of Hecateâs men was holding a knife to Hangeâs throat. Another was holding you by your waist and had a knife to your back. Levi and Erwin were on their knees and tied up. With another guy standing behind them. Hecate walked back and forth between the four of you. Her heels being the prominent sound on the hardwood floor.Â
âI recognize you, scout regiment. You know where Eren Jaeger is. So which one of you is going to tell me where he is?â She said toyingly. She has been wanting to kill Eren for years. She came close to killing him twice. She played with the knife in her hand. âCommander Erwin . . . top dog. Leader of the scout regiment. Tell me.â She bent down to level with him. He stayed silent. Hecate grabbed his hair and yanked his head back then sliced into his collarbone. Erwin groaned, gritting his teeth. You grimacing looked away.Â
âWe donât know where Eren is.â Erwin said lowly.
âLiar. Tell me where he is.â She said and Erwin didnât respond. She kicked him in the balls and he let out a gutteral groan and fell on his side. The scouts were on their way, though there was no hope of getting out of the situation. They needed to get here before everyone was dead. Erwin painfully coughed. Then she walked over his body.Â
âWhat about you?â She stood over Levi. He said nothing. You couldnât help but watch what she was going to do to Levi. She grabbed his shirt and yanked him up. âAre you going to tell me, handsome?â You felt a rage, but your fear was more developed. You knew Levi wasnât going to spill even if he was beaten to death. The four of you wouldnât. She slapped Levi and you closed your eyes.
âThatâs Captain Levi born from the underground. Heâs not going to talk.â The guy behind Erwin and Levi gruffly said.
âHuh, that's so?â She looked at Levi and pushed him face forward to the ground. She lifted up his shirt revealing his back and dug the knife into him. âIâll ask you one more time. Where is Eren?â You heard Levi muffly groan as Hecate dug the knife across his back. Beads of blood bursing from the cut. âCome on, Captain, I want answers.â
âIâm not answering you, bitch.â Levi spat at her. You raised your eyebows when you saw some of his blood. You wanted to tell Levi to not make her angry, but you stayed silent. She stood up from him and looked at him.Â
âHuh, of course, Captain.â She kicked his face. You jerked, âI believe you.â She laughed. She glanced over at you and Hange. Your heart pulsed. She strolled over to you two while wiping her knife. âI know how the dynamics work, captain . . . your attempt to provoke me? Iâve seen it a thousand times. Youâre not gonna talk.â You felt your heart in your throat when she eyes you and Hange. âBut one of you will.â You kept your eyes down. She stood in front of Hange. âNo need for that . . .â She said to the man holding Hange. He took the knife from her throat and put it in her back. âYouâre quite pretty.â Hange scowled at her. Hecate took Hangeâs glasses off then threw them on the ground then crushed her glasses with her boot. She kicked her in the stomach. She recoiled, the wind being knocked out of her and the man holding Hange caused her to not fall over. Tears started building in your eyes. âTell me where Eren is and you and your friends will be left alone.â Hange said nothing. Hecate slapped Hange. She whimpered. âTell me what I want to know. Where is Eren Jaeger?â Hange sniffled. Hecate breathed impatiently then looked at the ground she picked up a sharp glass edge from Hangeâs glasses. Then lifted a part of her shirt and jabbed the glass into Hangeâs abdomen. She cried out loudly and whimpered. Choking for air trying to regulate her breathing. Hecate walked over to you. You continued looking at the ground, noticing some blood was on her shoe. âWhy are you crying? Do you not like seeing your friends get hurt?â She taunted. She slapped you. You yelped and some of your hair got in your face. âWe donât have to do this, you know. Let me know darling, where is Eren Jaeger?â You stayed silent. A tear rolled down your cheek begging that the scouts would save you four. She swiped the blade onto your collarbone. Blood drew from your cut. You moaned and whimpered. âAnswer me. Or youâll get another cut.â She grabbed you by your shirt and pointed the knife to your abdomen.
âStop, she doesnât know.â Hange huffed out. Hecate turned her attention on Hange. Then glanced at you.
âBring Commander Erwin Smith over here, would you?â Hecate asked and the man brought a stumbling Erwin over in front of Hange. He made Erwin kneel. âCommander these pretty girls are your subordinates?â Erwin stayed silent looking at the ground. Hecate slapped him. âSo fucking rude not to answer my question.â She went toward you and kicked you, knocking the wind out of you, making you fall to the ground. The man who was holding you put his foot on your side. You felt paralyzed and then the pain set in. âWhere is Eren Jaeger? or these girls will get it.â
âI donât know.â Erwin said.
âYou do know.â Hecate said and then sliced a cut into Hangeâs collar bones. She whimpered. âTell me what I want.â She was starting to lose her patience.Â
âLeave them alone, bitch,â Levi with a strained voice said. Hecate kicked you in the chest and forced you to let out a cry.Â
âSay that again, Captain? I didnât hear you. Get her up.â The man forced you to sit up. She knelt in front of you and Hange eyed both of you. You couldnât hide your tears. âThis time itâs your choice . . . which one will get my knife?â A tear dripped onto the floor in front of you. âHmm?â Hange swallowed and wheezed.
âMe. Just giveââ Hecate cut your arm instead of Hangeâs, making you shriek. You cried out, not being able to hold it in. You breathed hard. Erwin winced at the sight of you two.Â
âOnce again, you or you?â Hange and you stayed silent. She sighed and kicked you to the floor again.Â
âShe doesnât know anything! Stop it!â Hanged yelled. Hecate grabbed Hangeâs hair, forcing her head back.Â
âI see . . . you care for her . . . â She let go of Hangeâs head. Then she stood in front of you. âWhereâs Eren Jaeger?â She asked Hange. She then held down the same arm she cut into earlier. Hecate started cutting into your arm next to the other one. You screamed trying to thrash your legs, but the man was holding you down. When she was done slicing you, you sobbed into the floor. Hecate sighed. âTake them downstairs.â One of the man jerked you and Hange up. You couldnât look at anyone. The one man forced Levi up and his nose was bloody. The last man got Erwin up and he was stumbling and wincing trying to keep up with the man. Hange coughed and her vision was blurry. They pulled you toward an area where the stairs went down. Levi was the first forced down the steps. âHold on.â Everyone froze anticipating what Hecate was going to say. âI want to ask her some questions,â she pointed at you. Hangeâs eyes went wide as she felt another man grabbing her. She watched as the man who was holding both of you, pushed you back towards Hecate.
âNO! WAIT! TAKE ME INSTEAD! LEAVE HER ALONE!â Hange, Erwin and Levi were pushed down the stairs by the other man. You went out of sight and Hange noticed Levi glaring at her. The men threw them in a cell, locking it and walking back upstairs.Â
âLevi, untie my restraints,â Commander Erwin whispered. Levi turned around and tried his best to untie the knot while not being able to see it. Hange started crying again sitting down. Then Commander Erwin untied Levi who was pissed. He walked over to Hange and grabbed her shirt.Â
âYOU IDIOT!â Levi couldnât care about his volume. âHOW STUPID COULD YOU BE?! YOU NEVER SHOWââ Hange jerked away from his grasp.
âI WAS TRYING TO PROTECT Y/N!â Hange said harshlyÂ
âDIDNâT WORKââ
ââI WOULD RATHER IT BE ME THAN HER!â Hange said. As Levi was about to retort back, the three of them heard you scream above them. Hangeâs heart pounded and she started crying. Levi took off one of his shoes and threw it against the wall angrily. Erwin started untying Hange. She slid down the wall crouching into a ball. They could hear you begging.
âNO! NO, PLEASE!â Then they heard you scream louder. Hange put her fingers in her ears, she closed her eyes. The special operations squad should come any moment. Hange then felt a pull on her shirt, again. Levi with a bloody face and a fire in his eyes was holding her.Â
âYOU FUCKING IDIOT. THE MOMENT YOU OPENED YOUR MOUTH. I KNEW THEY WOULD PICK HER!â Levi sneered.
âLEVI!â Erwin pulled Levi off Hange. Another scream was heard above.
âI was trying to get her to hurt me instead of Y/N!â Hange sobbed.Â
âBecause you opened your mouth she knew you cared about her! The moment you do that theyâll torture her to get you to fucking talk!â Levi said. âMy fiance is going to die BECAUSE OF YOU!â He pushed Hange into the wall.Â
âGET AWAY FROM HER!â Erwin asserted himself in front of Levi. âENOUGH PULL IT TOGETHER! WE NEED TO THINK . . . let's look around and try to get out.â Levi put on his shoe and Hange covered her face, sobbing.Â
âSTOP! PLEASE! NO!â They heard you above them. Hange got up and started coughing. She went into the corner gagging. Hange threw up in the corner. Levi kicked the cell door, it clanked and didnât budge. About ten minutes later. It was quiet. They didnât hear you screaming and they didnât hear yelling from Hecate. Suddenly they heard soft footsteps descending from the stairs. Hangeâs hope rose only for it to deplete when Hecate walked up to them. The knife she was holding was covered in blood
âComfy?â Hecate taunted. They couldnât look at her. âTerrible of you to not do anything about your friend . . . hey gorgeous!â Hange ignored her. âFine . . . Anyone want to tell me where Eren is?â She started backing away, smirking. âIâll just ask your friend.â She walked back up the stairs.
âWhere are they?â Hange whispered frustratedly. Levi leaned with his arm against the wall. He was facing the wall, the pressure was building in his nose and he was blinking away any tears forming in his eyes. They heard a thud and they heard you screaming above them, Hange plugged her ears. She continued crying. The three had dried blood on them and they stayed helpless in the cell. They heard you scream, beg and cry for a while longer. Hange felt paralyzed listening to you scream. She couldnât think of a way to save you or them. To her it was her fault, she shouldve kept her mouth shut. Maybe this wouldnât have happened if she kept her mouth shut. She hugged her knees. âIâm sorry.â She whispered. She glanced at Levi who had his forehead against his arm. In the distance they heard shattering, then some yelling. âCommander Erwin, THEYâRE HERE!â Levi turned around. There was a large boom above them and more screams and yells. Then suddenly rapid footsteps were descending the stairs. Moblit and Jean appeared.Â
âSection Commander!â Moblit exclaimed then he noticed the blood on Leviâs face and Erwinâs cuts.Â
âHowâs Y/N?â Erwin demanded.Â
âLet us out!â Hange screamed.Â
âHOWS Y/N!?â Levi yelled. Jean unlocked the door with the key from one of Hecateâs men. Levi ran out of the cell and dashed up the stairs, Hange followed after him. Hecate was dead on the ground and scattered on the floor were her men. Levi saw you slumped against the wall, Sasha was holding you. You had no pants on and instead there was blood dripping on your legs. Multiple long cuts down the length of your legs.Â
âCaptain!â Sasha exclaimed. âCaptain, her pulse is faint.â Levi caressed you. Your eyes were closed and your head was nodded out. âI think sheâll need stitches.â He shook you a little waiting for a response. He was revolted at what Hecate did to you. He let anger get to him, gritted his teeth then went over to Hecateâs dead body and kicked her four times, grunting.Â
âLevi!â Hange pulled him away and Levi pushed her off of him. Hange saw Mikasa crying at the sight of you with Armin comforting you. Levi went over you and Sasha.Â
âSheâll need stitches, she lost a lot of blood. We need to get her to a hospital somewhere.â
âSasha knows how stitch wounds.â Levi said.
âI donât have any supplies.â Sasha said defeatedly. Connie ran into the room.
âI found a small first aid kit.â Connie said, panting. âWe can clean her up and use whatever we can for now.â Sasha dashed over to Connie grabbing the first aid kit.Â
âCaptain Levi, are you wounded? Thereâs a bunch of blood on your back.â Moblit asked.Â
âAnd on my face. Y/N is more important right now.â Levi said, his voice breaking. He could not lose another person he loves.Â
6th Debriefing Session:
Levi didnât want to sit. He listened to Hange and Dr. Yates relayed the details to Commander Erwin. His time with you this time felt so short. This time was the most you, you have been since That Day. He stared at the window. Having the trees fill his vision. Watching some scouts walk by or sit on the grass. The sunset was emitting an orange sky. Your favorite. Erwin was right.Â
Levi leaned his forehead against the glass and closed his eyes. There was nothing left, but to wait for the next episode. Levi didnât mean to zone out. His frustrated thoughts were consuming him and he was with you the whole time. He was defeated and didnât know how to take the next steps.Â
It felt like there was no improvement. As he gazed out the window, there were no positive thoughts. This was the life he was dealt. He abruptly turned around making Hange pause.Â
âWhat is it, Levi?â She asked softly. He looked at the ground while walking past the table. Pressure building in his nose, his eyes starting to gloss over. He looked over his shoulder locking eyes with Erwin who had a sympathetic expression. With everything he had in him, he tried not to break.
âStart t-the paperwork, commander,â Levi did not win.Â
Three weeks later:
Hange cautiously walked into your medical room. She held the door until it closed with a quiet click. She heard faint beeping and it was quiet. She knew Levi was behind the curtain sitting with you.
âI know itâs you, four-eyes.â Levi said shakenly. Hange walked around the curtain. Levi sat in a chair next to your bed. His arms were crossed and he was leaning back into the chair comfortably. Leviâs eyes were red and puffy. He looked at Hange and she saw the desperation in his eyes. Though he was sitting, there was no one around and so she stepped forward and hugged him. Levi nuzzled his face into her shoulder. Hidden, even though there was no one to hide from. Hange softly rubbed Leviâs back.Â
âIn the morning, right?â She asked.
âYes . . .'' Levi pulled away from Hange and he stared at you. You looked like you were sleeping. He stood up from his chair and offered Hange his seat. They looked at you for a while. Both filled with thoughts. One thought after another. Begged for a change of fate. âDo me a favor . . .â Levi said and Hange didnât look at him. âStop blaming yourself . . .'' Hange put her face into her hands. â . . . I was an asshole that day. I was wrong for calling you an idiot. Nothing was ever your faultâ
âLevi . . .â she did her best to muffle her crying. âI thought if I could make it seem like I knew where Eren was . . . they would leave her alone . . . If only they questioned me instead . . .â
âStop talking like that.â Levi said defeatedly. âIâve forgiven you and you need to start forgiving yourself.â She sniffled.
âI wish I wasnât losing my best friend . . .â Hange said and they looked at each other, knowingly. Years they have relied on each other and built years of trust. âAnd you.â They laughed. Hange wiped a tear from her eye. Â
âY/N would want you to visit.â Hange smiled.
âShe would want all her friends to visit.â Hange said thinking of Sasha, Mikasa, Armin, Eren, Jean, Connie, Christa, and anyone she saw Y/N sharing joyful moments with. Everyone liked her, even Annie.Â
âYou donât need to ask, drop by when youâre available. You could stay with us.â Levi said.Â
âI will . . . I want to be there with her.â Hange whispered. She gasped because she saw your hand jolt. It was more than a twitch, Hange stood up anticipating for any more movement. âHer hand moved! She can hear us.â Levi grabbed your hand and they both hovered over you. Waiting for any other sign of consciousness. You did not move. Hange brushed your hair with her fingers. â . . . Y/N, Itâs Hange . . . If you can hear me, I love you so much . . .â No movement. No twitching or any indication of consciousness. âIâll visit you when I can . . .âÂ
In the morning, Levi and you started traveling to Mitras. Erwin and Darius Zackly ensured to put you in one of the top hospitals in Mitras. Fortunatly you did improve. Your lucid episodes started becoming longer and the periods inbetween shortened. You were not triggered as much. Levi was by your side most of the time.
 Two and a half years later after That Day you, Levi, and the psychologists hit a huge milestone. For six months you were lucid, your triggers no longer made you panic, scream and kick. You didnât need to be sedated. You were able to relay the details of That Day without being triggered. Levi was allowed to take you out of the hospital and live togehter in the city. That day was now a painful memory. You didnât cry when remembering it. Every now and then you would have nightmares about That Day, but when Levi woke you up you knew you were safe. You would calm down and then go back to sleep.Â
Two years and nine months after that day, Levi and you officially were married. Though he already considered you his wife, he was elated that it was official. Friends who visited you in the hospital were there. Most of the scouts who you knew attended. Commander Erwin was happy to see you healthy and happy to see Levi happier. Everyone mentioned how happy they were to see you healthy and like your old self. You met Sashaâs boyfriend, Niccolo at the wedding. But when she showed you a ring on her finger you met her fiance. You cheered and jumped up and down excitedly. You planned to hang out for a day with Mikasa and Sasha. Eren wanted to come, but Mikasa told him no.Â
Three years after that day, you barely thought of that day. You were free spirited and started to enjoy reading again. You mostly stayed home, cleaning, cooking and doing hobbies. Sometimes when the scouts were in town youâd invite your friends over for dinner. Most of the time you had a quiet and peaceful life.Â
Three years and two months later, Levi brought up the idea that he would return to the Survey Corps. You were confused and almost begging him to not return. You didnât want something to happen to him while he was away with the scouts. You absolutely did not want to go back. You wanted Levi to stay with you and continue the peaceful life you had with him. He agreed that he had everything he wanted. A home, a beautiful wife, a peaceful life on the surface, but he felt like he had a duty to fulfill. That he needed to payback Commander Erwin for helping him with everything heâs done.Â
It took a while for you to come around, but you wanted Levi to feel fulfilled. You knew he was capable of doing everything he could to survive. You knew he would come back to you.Â
Three and a half years after that day, Levi returned to being Captain of the special operations squad. You would visit each other in your free time. Sometimes you felt lonely, but you lived a peaceful and safe life which is what Levi wanted for you.Â
Thank you for reading through the editing mistakes. It takes a good 50 mins to read through this whole story and I just need to study for finals rn LOL
Also i know the villians are random. Lol originally they were going to be Zeke Peick and Galliard but i couldnt imagine them doing shit that dark LMAO
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I just saw the funniest thing about Stolitz and it really reinforced my belief that people just cannot handle the long period between episodes indie animation requires. They just cannot make connections for that long and their own personal expectations and imaginings of what it should be have too much time to percolate. As a recent comer to the HB fandom who watched the entirety of the series in a single afternoon and skipped the Pilot because itâs not canon I am having a completely different experience. I attribute this mostly to the Pilot, as that seems to have colored peoples opinions of Stolas and subsequently Stolitz in such a wild way and they had to sit with that characterization for so long they just cannot fathom that the story is playing out much differently than the Pilot set up. And yes a year is a long time to sit with expectations of a show direction and a characterization I wonât fault them for that.
âThey turned Stolas into sad clown boyâ. âThe show is all about Stolitz relationship drama nowâ.
Did we watch the same Season 1, Episode 2? Because our first ârealâ introduction to Stolas is immediately good dad, sad owl boy, relationship with Blitzo. The first episode sets up the current state of the Blitzø/Stolas relationship, sets up the business and overall character dynamics but doesnât really give us any information on their backgrounds or current emotional states. It hints at a few things coming up, a few things to look into further but nothing beyond surface level. As youâd expect from a first episode. The 2nd episode shows us that some major things were gonna be exploring are Blitzo and Stolas, Stolas and his family situation, Blitzoâs history as a clown and why he hates Fizzarolli bot so much, the Moxxie/Millie dynamic and brief brushings on Loona and how Blitzo interacts with his employees, but Iâd say we actually get more information on Stolas and Stolitz earlier on in the show than we do anything else. It was setup from the beginning that these were all major premises we were going to explore andâŚ.WE DO. We start the season that way. We end the season a little further down the road but still focusing on those basic things setup in the first two episodes.
I see a lot of criticisms of the writing but from my perspective, watching them all in a row the writing is pretty spot on in terms of set up, change, payoff. And the structure is exactly what we expect for a multi season show. They introduce Stolitz at one point in their relationship in S1 Ep 1, and by Ozzieâs we have a very clear change that was progressed through the other episodes of the season. That same narrative thread, introduced at the beginning of the show is carried through into S2 and the underpinnings of reactions we saw in S1 episodes 1 and 2 are revealed throughout, we now see why Stolas and Blitzø react the way they did in S1Ep1 via the storytelling in S2Ep1 and the structure of those two being the first episodes of their respective seasons is exactly what a writer should do. They feed into each other perfectly. A person watching only those two episodes would have no trouble filling in the rest of the seasons or the story at large and thatâs exactly what a serialized writer should do. The show didnât change anything midstream, it didnât shift plot points, it very clearly setup these pins to knock them down as we go on. Fizzarolli backstory? Done. Blitzoâs relationship with Millie and Moxie had several episodes of exploration, we see a bit more about Loona and Blitzo and Stolasâs marriage drama is the main catalyst for overall big drama and they are exactly where they should be if you are plotting this out using a three act structure for a television format.
Things are REVEALED they arenât changed, and while real life concerns and schedules and business things do affect how episodes get released or how things play out or which characters are available to appear, not knowing any of that background until AFTER I had already watched the show Iâd say the writers are doing a pretty remarkable job keeping the flow, of developing the characters and relationships and paying off what they setup waaay at the beginning 3 years ago when they released eps 1 and 2. Theyâve also done a great job of giving every character a little moment to shine even though, as they established in episodes 1 and 2, the main focus is on Blitzø, Stolas and how their relationship is the catalyst for everything. That itâs why I.M.P does what it does.
I highly suggest people watch it from start to finish without the Pilot, or at least just the first two episodes and S2 Ep 1 and take into account what is shown and setup at the very start versus the story we are currently at and I really think it will show that nothing has changed, the story is progressing as it should, at the pace it should, and that the characters are growing and changing as they should based on the things that have occurred.
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my boyfriend's boyfriend
jamie drysdale x fem reader ft. trevor zegras
requested by @corneliaskates: "okay in light of these photos⌠Iâm making you write jamie for me what about like moving in with him but like moving in with him also means moving in with trevor and⌠chaos ensues"
wc: 2.3k
warnings: blood in the context of undercooked food and also minor injury, reference to Jamie's shoulder injury and doctors offices, swearing, mention of drugs in a medical context, chaos, buffoonary
a/n: just some fun casual writing for a collection of scenes that i think youâd likely see upon moving into the zegras/drysdale household, pls enjoy the chaos! lots of this unhinged behavior we already knew about the 2 of them but a few details came from the recent "The Players Lounge" podcast episodes with jamie and trevor so go listen! (also would the homies wanna see me write for mason mctavish cause i really would love to do so)
Jamie stares blankly at the doctor as he continues to come to. He doesnât hear the inquisition the doctor made. The first thought on his mind is the only thought he's had since he skated off the ice, his left shoulder in a dead hang: his season is over, thereâs no way around it.Â
âMr. Drysdale?â The physician tries to get Jamieâs attention.Â
âYes, umm Iâll be there to help him. Iâve taken time off work.â Jamie turns his head slowly to look at you. He barely registers what youâve said. He almost wants to ask you to repeat it but he knows he heard you right. The doctor shifts toward you, flipping through the aftercare instructions and various medications Jamie will have to take. Youâre collected, attentive, and receptive all the while Jamieâs eyes bore into your profile, trying to understand. Heâs still drowning in self-wallowing and frustration and now is trying to parse through the funny sort of feeling in his heart watching you prepare yourself to be a part time caretaker for him. Not only are you here right now, youâve just admitted out loud, without any previous discussion between the two of you that you are not just willing but going to help him during his recovery?? He feels an intensity to communicate his love and appreciation for you that heâs not used to but ends up manifesting as,
âWill you move in with me?â The door to the exam room has just barely clicked shut from the doctorâs exit. Your spine is rod straight now from where you were previously collecting your purse and coat. Jamieâs always been a fiddler, twitching and messing with loose skin on his finger or the belt loop of your jeans, but now he sits perfectly still as he stares at you.Â
âWhereâs the big red button, I think they gave you too much of something bud.â Humor always serves as a great deflection tactic for you but Jamie wonât let you off the hook.
âNo no, Iâm serious. Do you want to move in with me?â Your expression remains slightly standoffish as you draw closer to the bed. As you prop yourself on the hospital bed, you notice his eyes are inviting, stoic: a safe place to land. Lazy fingers reach to soothe Jamieâs uninjured arm.Â
âWould you have asked me if you hadnât torn your shoulder?â Jamieâs nod is emphatic.Â
âYes, it probably just wouldâve taken me a bit longer to ask. You still make me nervous-- but like in a good way, in a good way.â Jamie stumbling over his words endears you like nothing else. âI kind of hate being without you, not in a weird codependent way, I just really like who I am when youâre around.âÂ
Your mind is already made up after Jamieâs unbridled honesty but you still have to ask,
âShouldnât you run this by Trev first maybe?â He is a member of the household, though not much of a contributing one. To sell his conviction, Jamieâs eyes donât leave yours as he reaches for his phone in the back pocket of the jeans he thinks heâs wearing. He gets an awful fright meeting bare skin under the hospital gown. Creasing at the waist with laughter doesnât hinder you too much as you dig for his phone in your purse. He takes it sheepishly from your grasp. As he dials Trevorâs number, you urge him to put it on speaker phone.
âJimmy! How high are you, man??â
âZ, Y/Nâs gonna move in with us.â
âI thought she already lived here?â
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Since the moment of Jamieâs injury youâve been practically inseparable. Surgeon consultations, post op, helping him dress, cooking for him, youâve truly been there for it all for Jamie. Now that heâs several months post op and regained most all of his range of motion, heâs been eager to pick up some slack.Â
âAre they closed?âÂ
âJamie my love, yes. Iâve literally had them closed every time youâve asked in the last 15 minutes.â You sigh, patience thinning at both the frequent reminders and⌠well⌠how goddamn slow Jamieâs being. To pass the time, youâve taken to concocting a game with the yellow spots on the inside of your closed eyelids.
âDude itâs been fucking hours would you hurry up already?âÂ
âTrevor, no one asked you.â Jamie snips at his childish best friend. Itâs date night tonight and Jamie wanted to cook for you. Trevor decided, because he is cripplingly codependent, that he just had to sit on the living room couch to scroll Instagram. Youâve mentally taken the under on Trevor stealing some of your bread with olive oil within the first five minutes of it being in front of you because âJimmy why didnât you make any for me too?â
âOkay it's ready, you can open!â Slowly doing as youâre told to readjust to the well lit dining room, you catch Jamie scurrying around to his side of the table. His face holds an adorably pleased expression, you can tell heâs very proud of himself. The spread in front of you is barbequed steak, bread with olive oil, and a green salad; a shockingly balanced meal. A normally restless boy, Jamie vibrates with excitement even more now as he waits for your appraisal.Â
âJamie baby, it looks amazing! Thank you!â Crows' feet emerge to compensate for his smile becoming impossibly wider, yet heâs still a bit shy, bashful after your praise.
âIâd hope so, it took you long enough Jimbo,â the peanut gallery croons again. You donât even acknowledge Trevor as you begin to saw through your steak⌠until red liquid begins to pour out⌠Stunned and surprised, your mouth gapes for a moment, finding the gentlest way to put things.
âJamie,â drawing out the final vowel, your eyes flick to his. His expression is eager with eyebrows raised in question.
âHow long was this steak on the barbeque for?âÂ
âLike 10 minutes I think? Why?â Jamie pales slightly at your question.
âI think the heat was too high babe.â Jamie observes his steak with a close eye and then oggles yours from across the table before reaching for his knife.Â
âWhat do you mean? You said it looks amazing, I mean look at those char marks!âÂ
âJamie baby, it's practically still mooâingâŚâ Trevor bursts out laughing, his stupid wheeze accompanying Jamieâs panic. As his knife breaches the admittedly lovely crust, bloody liquid pours out of Jamieâs steak as well. The color of his cheeks grows to match that of what's on his plate. Jamie starts to say something but itâs Trevorâs voice you both hear instead.
âJust put it in the microwave.âÂ
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The team returned last night from the East coast road trip. You and Jamie have been in denial about Trevorâs return, trying to stretch out the silence with a lazy day on the couch. Trevor however has had other plans.
âWhy do I have the least blanket right now? Iâm literally the tallest of us three.âÂ
âBecause no one invited you to join?â You shove at Trevorâs toes that are digging into your thigh from how youâre sardine-d on the couch. He whines as you do so, pushing at you back. Harder. âOw Trevor stop!âÂ
âWhat Iâm not fucking doing anything!âÂ
âGuys! I canât hear what theyâre saying!â Jamie bursts, effectively shutting you both up. Trevor glares at you as you snuggle further into Jamieâs chest, Jamie's arm visibly tightening around you. The face you give Trevor is smug.Â
âFine, Iâll just go somewhere else then.â As he stands from the couch he makes an equally childish display of flipping the blanket up and over your head, messing up your hair and covering your eyes.
Jamie coos quietly at you not to say anything or react so you remain calm and settle in to watch the rest of the current episode of Yellowstone with your boyfriend.
A few minutes later when there is a distinct cacophony of falling caps, banging metal doors, and at least a liter container of liquid (hopefully closed) hitting the floor, itâs not hard to tell Trevor has decided to do his laundry. He comes back upstairs acting as if nothing was afoot.Â
Itâs not until an hour later when Trevor has made the switch to the dryer that you notice something actually might be off. Wafting up from downstairs is a distinct smell of burning. You pause to be sure your nose isnât confusing something else before voicing your worry.
âDo you smell that?â Jamie sniffs violently enough to be audible.Â
âWhat are youâ oh shit!â Jamie moves from behind your back leaving you flopping onto yours from his quickness. âTrevor!!â He shouts while bounding down the stairs. âI told you, you have to clean the lint trap every single time you use the dryer!â His voice grows inaudible the farther downstairs he gets. Trevor peeks his head out from his room.Â
âWas he talking to me?â You canât help but laugh, hands covering your face in disbelief.
âWhy are we friends with you?âÂ
âIâm fucking awesome, duh.â
â
âOkay donât panicââ Is all you hear before you start to panic. âBut umm Z mightâve slipped on the roofâŚâÂ
âTell me youâre joking. Why are you calling me? Oh my god Jamie, call the trainer or something! Is he hurt?â Itâs brisk in the shade where you stepped out of your office to answer the incessant calls from your boyfriend. Youâre still not off for another hour.Â
âI think heâs okay. Definitely tore open his leg but we put some stuff on it. Heâs still complaining about it but you know him, heâs always complaining about something so I think heâs okay.â As Jamie finishes, your phone vibrates with a text. âI sent you a picture of it.â The picture reveals a shallow cut about 6 inches long down the front of Trevorâs calf. Thereâs still remnants of blood around the cut itself and more notably about 12 normal sized bandaids placed like a patchwork quilt over the area of interest. Idiots. âWe didnât wanna get in trouble with the teamâŚâ Jamie says softly, decidedly embarrassed.
âI see. Okay well great job with the band aids you guys. Iâll pick some more up on the way home and some other supplies. Why were you up there?âÂ
âI was playing guitar and Trevor came up to tell me he could do it better and then promptly took it from me.â Thereâs a pouty lilt to Jamieâs voice that makes you wonder if Trevorâs really the one that got hurt.Â
âDid he damage your guitar Jim Jam?â A shiver rakes your body as youâre desperate to get back inside the office.
âNo, thank god.â Heâs quiet, waiting for your reply.Â
âYouâre doing great Jamie, itâs really coming along baby.â He chirps a thank you, easily excited by your dismissal of Trevorâs insult. The two of you say your goodbyeâs over Trevorâs whining in the background.Â
On your way home, as promised, you stop at a drugstore to grab some gauze and larger wraps for Trevorâs âinjury.â You send a snarky picture of two contending boxes of Band Aids side by side to Trevor. Your caption âMandalorian or Tangled?â Something tells you Trevorâs reply is completely serious when your phone lights up with âFlynn Rider.â
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Jamie slips into your shared bathroom as youâre fanning gently at your face. He smiles kindly but doesnât start a conversation. Instead he reaches for his toothbrush and sets to brushing his teeth. The two of you donât normally get ready for bed together at the exact same time. Typically one of you is asleep on the couch and being prodded at by the other to come to bed. Well, you normally prod at Jamie while he normally gallantly carries you to bed without disturbing your sleep. As he brushes his teeth, Jamie observes you as his entertainment. He steadies himself with a hip popped against the counter and one foot crossed in front of the other.Â
Jamieâs attention does not bother you. Being the type not to speak until prompted, Jamieâs stays silent, his watchful gaze comforting if anything. That is until his lips form a small smile around his toothbrush that begins to grow. Finally you flick your eyes over to him in the mirror and notice toothpaste beginning to trickle down his chin. A drop that was lingering ominously begins to fall so you lurch forward to catch it in the palm of your hand, not wanting to risk the white carpet square Jamieâs standing on.Â
âIf you keep smiling like that youâre gonna get toothpaste on yourself Jamie. Be careful.â The toothpaste in your palm is flicked into the sink before you promptly rinse your hand. Jamie heeds your warning, deciding it's time for him to rinse as well. After his hands are towel dried he moves to hug you from behind. The smile is still on his face.
âSeriously, what are you smiling about, mister?â A giggle escapes your chest. You feel Jamieâs shrug against your back as you dig for another product in the drawer next to you.Â
âDunno, Iâm just so happy youâre here.â Around you, Jamieâs never shied away from honesty and itâs something youâve always appreciated. The last few months living with Jamie and Trevor has been chaos, hell at times, and insanely stressful but youâve still found joy in every moment. So you meet Jamieâs honesty with some of your own when you say,
âThereâs no place Iâd rather be.âÂ
Later, when the two of you find yourselves curled around each other in bed, under an excessive number of blankets, itâs like Trevor has ESP for when heâs being left out of affections. A knock on the conjoining wall confirms this theory. His voice is muffled but you can still make it out.
âI love you guys.â Jamie chuckles and kisses your forehead, shaking with laughter of your own.
âWe love you too Trevor.â
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(maybe scroll past if you love love bbc sherlock)
Me: honestly i fucking hate bbc sherlock by this point i mean yeah i loved the first two seasons loved loved loved them but then it haaad to get so complicated but still i could live with season 3 but wtf was s4??? And why did they have to... Do. That. Why make me hate even one John Watson i love my Watsons why did you make him a piece of shit in the last season, texting another woman to the point he considers it cheating is one thing i mean depends on the texts but that's forgivable it was just texting after all, anyway that's one thing but he blamed Sherlock so much for Mary's death when she!! She!! Jumped in front of the bullet to save him. It was her decision (why did she have to be a mega spy? Why did she have to surgery-shoot Sherlock. It wasn't as safe as she thought he literally died and came back and if the ambulance had come a couple minutes later he would 100% be dead wtf and he forgave her too) it was Mary's decision to sacrifice herself for Sherlock and he blamed him to the point where he basically internalises that Sherlock killed her. And i understand needing time alone or whatever but mrs hudson said he's sick, john, pls come see him and he was like yeah whatever sure if you insist ig.
Oh and . Yeah. He fucking. Beat. Him .Up??? Not punch him -haha funny- not hit him once, or even twice. No. He fucking beat him up. With punches and kicks and stuff. While he was looking at him like. Not quite believing. That his friend, "best friend" would do that to him. And yeah him being on drugs would have contributed but he ended up in the hospital?? After john beat him up. I didn't watch that episode in a while but i don't remember john being extremely remorseful or worried afterwards. He saw that cd from mary and only then he was like, "oh no my friend". Your friend. Your friend who would do literally anything for you. Your friend who a couple days later hugged you while you were crying. Did you even hug back? Did you ever apologize? I don't remember. He might've. But i dont remember it. And sherlock forgave him. Just like that. Worse even. I don't really think that he was that mad at him in the first place. Heartbroken, yes. Did you see his face? When john was beating him up? He wasn't even in his right mind, mega on drugs and stuff, and he'd just had a 'that is not the person i met' moment, tma fans wink wink, he was not well and you beat him up. You're a doctor too. Ha. Your best friend, the one who would do anything for you, die, kill, make himself sick to save your mental health or whatever was going on in that episode. In the following episode, days later really, he's made to choose to kill either his brother, HIS BROTHER, or John, and both Sherlock and Mycroft immediately, instinctively know that he's not gonna kill John. He loves him too much. I never really got it the first time around, the first time i watched. It's insane - Sherlock's devotion to John. He literally loves him above anything else, including himself. And I'm not a shipper. Oh i am usually a johnlock shipper but not them. I do still think they belong together but man oh man i hope john groveled. Why did they have to do that. Make us, make me hate john watson. I loved him. In the first two seasons, i really really loved him, he was my blorbo, well, the word blorbo didn't exist yet but he was. And i have a list somewhere titled 'heartbreakingly raw lines' and it's honestly mostly about the delivery of those lines and "no, he's my friend, he's my friend, please" is right there, nr 1. Nr 2 is close, it's from good omens, bookshop fire, also about a friend, you get it, and after these two there's a biig big big gap before the third. Those two are supreme, nr 2 is so so so heartbreaking but it did not even compete with nr 1. To this day if i recall that scene, those lines, "let me come through please, no, he's my friend, he's my friend, please " i feel sick. My stomach is twisting right now, as i write. I loved john. I loved their relationship. Friendship, whatever, autocorrect asked me if thats what i wanna say. Why ruin his character? Just to be edgy? Why would you make him beat up his best friend, that!! friend. Oh and then, once they did make him do that, just gloss over the fact. I'm not even saying make Sherlock be mad at him. That bitch loves him to the point it's almost pathetic. But there are other ways. How can you just gloss over that. He punched him several times, he kicked him while he was down. I'm sitting here thinking "what a piece of shit, punch a wall if you're that angry, i get being heartbroken about your wife, and feeling guilty, and overwhelmed, but that is no excuse". Why do i have to call any John Watson a piece of shit. Hell, why do i have to call this one a piece of shit, i fucking loved him.Â
That's the one thing i do really really hate about that show. They did a lot of other stuff, all the characters were edgy-ified and made a little worse, as opposed to the ones from the books (lestrade is fine actually) but it doesn't upset me too much, i just see it as its own show instead of an adaptation adaptation and yeah, really not that upset. And i didn't really notice at first but there was queerbaiting wasn't it. I mean there were just a little too many jokes. I guess. I did see it when i rewatched it. Still. I never really saw them together, yk? Like yeah, together forever, but not as a couple. Needless to say i was very happy when like two years after i first watched it i learned about QPRs. Like yeah yeah that's what i meant. So it had a lot of flaws i guess but stuff you could get past, yk. And the first two seasons really were amazing, i wanted to snort them. But i am glad i was only vaguely familiar with the stories when i watched it, i think i would've liked it a lot less. I mean acd Sherlock Holmes is such a nice man, he's a sweetie honestly, he giggles and rubs his hands together when there's a clue, and yeah he's got some 'get to the point' moments but he's not an asshole. He monologues about flowers at some point. I love bbc Sherlock (the character) too, i really do, but he can be a bit of a prick. Intentionally, not bc he doesn't realise it. Did he just decide one day he was a sociopath and leaned into it or what. That high functioning sociopath thing was just him being dramatic, we're not actually supposed to believe he was, right? God i haven't thought- really thought - about this show in a while. And i can't believe i thought for so long we were getting a s5. After how s4 ended? That was a "soo they had many more adventures but this is where we part ways with them, byyeeee" ending. Did you know, tv time had it listed as "to be continued"/ a running show for so long after s4 ended. So so long. After like 4 years i made my peace and I'm pretty sure even then it was listed as running. I checked on it again some time ago, a year or two ago and it was finally listed as finished and i felt both disappointed and relieved. Like if your loved one has been missing for years and years and you finally find out they're dead. You kinda knew that but.. deep down... But still, you're relieved to know. Well maybe not exactly like that. Tv time isn't the ultimate authority, but. No, you know what it felt like? Passing a corpse every now and then and one day seeing that they've been layed to rest in a grave. And maybe it's for the best. S4 did so much damage, I'm not taking good, owie my heart, damage, i mean ruining John, and... making the dog a boy??? I'm not gonna talk about the whole Eurus thing bc i did like one aspect of it (horrible labirinth with really fucked up decisions to be made. I never saw any saw movies [lol. Saw saw] but that's what they're like right?) but yeah just make her an actual supernatural force at this point. The fuck. So maybe it's for the best. Not getting a s5. I've made my peace a long time ago and as i said, I'm starting to feel like i harbour some sort of hate for this show. Not the "i wish I'd never watched it" kind, not the "tf what did i ever see in it" kind either (s1 and 2 my loves) but it is a hate nonetheless. I'm glad I've moved on from it.
People on the internet: omg they're talking about making bbc Sherlock season 5!
Still me: omg omg no wayyy yess pleaseee maybe everything will be fixed and nice and cute yesss gimme gimmeÂ
#Stream of consciousness over here#Thought i would write 10 lines or so#I was foolish#Anyway this has been therapeutic actually#Got it all out and stuff#Bbc Sherlock#Season 4#Actually im also gonna throw in here:#Season 5#i don't actually think there's gonna be a s5 btw i've been on this road before#The lying detective#I talk about that a lot don't i#John Watson#Really sorry to the people who are just looking for like... Another version of this guy#Sorry
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Riddle watches New Wish - Post #2
Episode begin! Title card gives us Hazel with wings, so I'm liking where this is going. Gives me "Mile In My Shoes" vibes, and this 100% sounds like a first wish a kid would make.
Cosmo and Wanda are on their 4th godkid in a row with damaged teeth (though in Crocker's defense, his changed later). I was going to say "bold move for giving Hazel the same teeth design as Chloe," but I'm pretty sure Chloe just has a chip, not an entire missing one.
omfg HARTMANVERSE HAS A BROWN-EYED CHARACTER!!!! We get them on occasion (I think some of the classmates in "Bunsen Is a Beast" had them, I think Willy Moore and maybe the tall girl?), but they are SO RARE and now we have a MAIN CHARACTER!
Usually, purple or pink is subbed in instead, even for humans (Exhibit Flappy Bob). Oh, this is exciting. This makes my heart happy.
!!! The title card !!! has Cosmo and Wanda with their OG designs! Even though they have new outfits now! That is super clever, and they're starting us off by giving us Hazel in FOP style too, for the card. That's fun.
Let's begin!
Oh, heckin' yes, we're gettin' a townhouse! Or... whatever this building is. I am already excited about writing 'fics about that roof.
Waxing crescent moon! I am already back on my moon obsession. But oh no, they put stars in it.
Oh, that is a bold move giving Hazel a toy named Rhonda when Wanda's about to enter the scene.
WAIT I KNOW HIM!!!
... Okay, it's not the same cat, but I was very close (and yes, I have this in my files; I have a Francis-centric work that's been in my drafts a few years, though I'm not sure I'll get to it at this point).
I am FASCINATED with the possibility that the photos depict characters in 2D while their bodies are 3D. Jimmy Neutron is gonna lose his FLIPPIN' MIND.
Who is Hazel's VA, do I know her...? /Looked her up- I've seen a few of the relevant media, but I wouldn't have nailed her down in this first sentence.
She's a sibling! Oh, finally... Only rarely do we get siblings in the Hartmanverse. I was so robbed by Mikey's clones in "Mikeyplication." When we saw the sneak peek of geeky Mikey, I thought there was a chance.
Plot twist, Antony pulls a Katty Katswell and shows up for a face-off.
I'm liking the direction this is going for Hazel having a lot of big life changes: Just moved to a new place AND just said bye to her big brother who's gone off to college.
Hazel talks to herself exactly the style I do, I love her.
SLKDFJSDKLFJS she does Chloe's classic squint, I love that for her.
Her first hypothetical wish (before fairies show up) is unlimited wishes. Oh, Jorgen's gonna love you.
Her dad calls her Hazelnut :)
crying, this poor girl wants to see her brother so bad that she thinks he's "visiting early" even though there's no possible way that's true.
Note to self, Hazel's room is last in the hall, to the right, with... wow, that's a lot of doors around her.
Oh thank GOODNESS we got lightswitches. Hey why are the doorknobs so low. Is that how they build them in this universe of chronically tiny children?
OH! Mom's outfit is reminiscent of Timmy's mom's! I like that. Wow, this family loves colorful shoes. Yeah, you goofballs must be new here. We don't do that in FOP.
T'was an apartment! Not a townhouse.
First Cosmo and Wanda sighting!! I paused instantly, but Wanda's definitely gonna point out that Cosmo has his crown still up. Hers has gone down for human disguise.
And OH YEAH, BABY! We get a back view of their hair? This is the show that keeps on giving.
Time for a Post #3!
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Entirely self indulgent rating post about the top 10 TV shows that made me fucking insane for some reason
10. Sense8
God, this was so good. Such a blessing. I saw part of the cast during a Pride Parade and it's one of my favorite memories. I felt every possible emotion with this show, I love it.
9. The Last of Us
This is kind of a cheat, because the obsession comes from the games, but it is what it is. It's one of the few games that had a big impact on me and I closely relate it to my relationship with my dad. Can't wait to cry my heart out at season 2.
8. Good Omens
It's a given, isn't it? That stupid angel with his stupid demon and their stupid God. GRRRAAWW. A lot of thoughts and feelings came from the fandom, I have to point out. It's been very nice.
7. The Umbrella Academy
I have the first issue of the comics autographed by Gerard Way!! I mean, yes, it's because I'm a MCR fan, but it became even more precious after I got into the show. I'm rewatching right now, preparing for the last season. I'll be a mess when I say goodbye to them. Can't even really think about it too hard or I'll cry right now.
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6. Our Flag Means Death
LISTEN THIS CHANGED EVERYTHING TO ME. What do you mean we can have a show THIS queer? It's all I want now. I ate it up. I smiled so much. I wanted this so badly and had no idea.
5. Interview with the Vampire
Feels like it should be top 3 honestly but I'll get there. This is also a cheat, I've been reading the Vampire Chronicles since I was like 15. Growing up with Anne Rice probably messed me up but hey at least I have great taste. And seeing them on screen? The way they made it BETTER? And Lestat?? Who has been haunting me for 15 years on and off??? And the second season and their reunion and and and?????????? I'm STILL insane about them and will be forever, I'm afraid.
4. Doctor Who
Listen. Listen. Okay. Yeah. What can I say? If you get into it, you're doomed. And I have been doomed for 10 years at least. I stopped watching for a while and got back last year, and it hit me all over again. I love this dumbass genius alien in a way that's calm, even. Just a permanent part of who I am now.
3. The Untamed
The year was 2022, it had been a while since I had a proper fixation and I didn't think it would happen with this danmei live-action, but then came Wei Wuxian. Guys, if I tell you I fell in love. Couldn't stop thinking about him. Everyday I was plagued by his smile and red ribbon and tragic backstory, yadayadayada. I really like other characters too, and their stories, but WWX did something to me that I still don't quite understand.
2. Queer as Folk (US)
This was a looong time ago and it didn't really persist over time like the others, but it was my first actual obsession. I was clinically insane over these gays. I had no one to talk to about them, so for every episode I wrote several pages of notes to comment to my (only) friend at school the next day, the poor thing. It was pretty much all I talked about because I spent EVERY MINUTE we had to talk going over the notes and explaining the episode. Like, between classes, during breaks, everything. Months of that. She held on firmly because she was a good friend, but I'm aware it must've been terrible. Like I said, insane.
1. Dead Boy Detectives
Maybe I'm putting this up here because it's my current hyperfixation? Maybe. But I don't think I have felt something hit as strongly as this since QaF over there. This time I can participate in fandom so I don't need to write every thought I have because it's all a big talk anyway, but I'm still pretty much having those thoughts all the time for *checks notes* nearly three months. I'm writing more than I have in years. I'm back at Tumblr after I don't know how long. I'm staring at GIFs over and over like I have the fucking time for that. I'm distracted at work daily. I talk about it in therapy. I have the main cast's notifications on. I'm getting involved in fandom discourse sometimes even knowing I shouldn't. It's a nightmare. I love it. I love them.
If you read all of this, congrats! Now you know how my mind works, kinda!! I'm open to talk about any and all of these shows. It's amazing how they mess us up. It's also scary, but anyway.
#sense8#the last of us#tlou#good omens#umbrella academy#the umbrella academy#our flag means death#ofmd#interview with the vampire#iwtv#doctor who#the untamed#mo dao su zhi#queer as folk#dead boy detectives#dbda
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Recommendation for something to watch and complete on a off day? I am also off today. Something soft and full of love preferably....
10 Soft BL's to Binge In A Day
(Since I don't sleep and watch high speed I binge full length Thai BL but I'm assuming you want something shorter than that, so I've limited myself to a 5hr runtime.)
1. Semantic Error (Korea Viki) - Sexy older boy discovers pouty younger boy has outed him as a slacker, starts out bullying him, accidentally falls madly in love. Korea hits it entirely out of the Parks by doing a university BL with everything we expect from BL just done exactly right. Korea's signature quality executed perfectly with added bonus good story, great pacing, stunning visuals, and fantastic chemistry. You cannot ask for more from a BL, let alone a KBL. Full review.
2. Seven Days (Japan grey in 2 parts Seven Days: Monday - Thursday, Seven Days: Friday - Sunday) - one of the best live action yaoi mangas ever made. The leads have excellent chemistry although itâs low heat, thereâs still more kisses than Cherry Magic. Popular first year Seiryo has a policy of going out with any girl who asks⌠for one week. On a lark, third year Yuzuru tests to see if that policy also applies to boys. Seiryo agrees that it does. Along the way they accidentally fall in love. All the angst is just teen confusion.Â
3. Our Dating Sim (Korea Viki) - I enjoyed every aspect from the casting to the very simple premise to the quietly smooth execution. Sure itâs very low stakes, but that makes it high domesticity and extremely warm and gentle. This is a fuzzy blanket of a story. Do we call this cozy BL? Why not? This one is going to live in my rewatch pile, I can tell already, and you know whatâs best about it? Every single episode is in that pile. Thereâs no skipping with this one, it might be good natured and calmly sweet but itâs tight and the pacing is excellent. It perfectly suited KBLâs short-length tendencies. Full review.
4. Light On Me (Korea Viki - Korea does an elegant pastiche of traditional live action yaoi but all tropes are cleverly deployed to bolster one of the most riveting love triangles ever put on screen⌠and I donât like love triangles. LoM strategically tailors classic BL tropes to 2 different semes resulting in pristine pacing, plot, and character development, explicitly serving narrative (not just to tick boxes). LoM is a master class in this trope drops. (If you write fanfic or romance you should study this show.) Full review.
5. Takara-kun and Amagi-kun (Japan Gaga & Viki) - I gnawed on my knuckles and squealed a lot with this show. Reserved cool kid who must learn to communicate to keep the tiny disaster nugget heâs madly in love with. It is beyond charming: soft and gentle, packed with cuteness and high school angst, thirst, & yearning. Was there plot? Not really. Was it emotionally tense and paced well enough for me not to notice? Absolutely. Did I enjoy the hell out of it? Oh yes. Full review.
6. HIStory 2: Crossing the Line (Taiwan Viki) - super low stakes sweetest story of the bad boy who falls hard for the senior on the volleyball team and then works to earn his love. You know itâs Taiwan so the kisses are great but in this case it also ends well. Only trigger is that the side couple is the stepbrothers trope, and some donât like that.
7. Cherry Magic (Japan indie subbed) AKA Doutei dato Mahoutsukai ni narerurashii - the sweetest, fluffiest, most charming bit of adorable ever, full of found family and pastry and serious slapstick, the characters are utterly bonkers, but cute about it.Â
8. Wish You (Korea Netflix or Viki, you want the movie version) AKA WISH YOU: Your Melody in My Heart - low stakes high pining romance about a pianist who falls in love with a busker who is on his way to being the next big idol.Â
9. Restart After Come Back Home (Japan indie subbed or Gaga?) - this one is perfect if you just want a beautiful loving movie, and one that is well filmed and complex enough to appeal to those who donât normally watch BL or romance (if you have a reluctant partner).Â
10. You Are Ma Boy (Vietnam YouTube) - is there angst? Nope even what could have been angst (a gay idol) doesnât materialize, itâs just cuties in a cafe confusing each other with cat & mouse games. The side het couple is a touch disturbing, tho.Â
Also Old Fashioned Cupcake, it's a bit more complicated than soft but a FANTASTIC binge watch.
(list updated May 2023, not responsible for ones that come after that date)
#asked and answered#rec list#BL's to Binge#bingeable BL#it's on viki#Semantic Error#korean bl#Seven Days: Monday - Thursday#japanese bl#adapted from a manga#live action yaoi#Seven Days: Friday - Sunday#Our Dating Sim#Light On Me#Takara-kun and Amagi-kun#HIStory 2: Crossing the Line#taiwanese bl#Restart After Come Back Home#WISH YOU: Your Melody in My Heart#You Are Ma Boy#vietnamese bl#Also Old Fashioned Cupcake#Cherry Magic#Doutei dato Mahoutsukai ni narerurashii
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