#y’all are going to be SICK of me

[interstellar-productions]

So this is probably unimportant to anyone who reads this but i feel like i need to explain my though process here, I’m a psych major specializing in abnormal psych with interest in creative writing and art. Very much an art, science and history girlie. Im saying this so there’s some context to the way I visualize certain things.

I want to elaborate on my view of the foxes in a less scientific and more artistic view, metaphors and imagery.

I see Aaron very much as someone who internalizes his hurts. My brain conjures up the example that as he was growing up he was the type that every time a piece of him cracked off he picked it up, at first perhaps to use as a weapon. Taking the jagged edge and using it to lash out but that only got him bad things growing up with Tilda. (Who I imagine as the embodiment of catholic guilt, she knows what she’s doing is wrong but she’s so consumed by her hatred and bad choices the only way she can internalize it is through violence. Specifically directed at Aaron.) So as he got a little older he took those edges and hurt himself with them.

Aaron would have known from living with Tilda that physical marks raise questions that cause trouble, so it wouldn’t have been the same form of self harm that Andrew and some of the others used. But he i image he would have taken those edges and used them to hurt himself mentally, self hatred and self harm that doesn’t leave lasting marks.

Then Andrew and Nicky and Luther start getting in the picture. Tilda was always to strung out to notice and the men she brought around didn’t care. So Aaron learn to carefully shave the edges of his jagged pieces down, purposefully cutting up the parts of himself that remain and taking tape to stick it all back together. Trying to form some semblance of a human being that wont make people ask questions. The pieces don’t fit right though, some pieces are still jagged, some pieces are too smooth, some he cut down too much to be able to put them back right.

By the time AFTG is taking place Aaron has probably caused himself so much damage by trying to self internalize he issues that he more so resembles a stained glass piece before its soldered together. Just pieces that loosely sort of fit together that might be something one day but could also just as easily smash into a million pieces. 

Aaron lives his life being one step from the edge. A minor inconvenience could send him spiraling, a change in his routine throwing his entire day off. But he barely registers major incidents. Because for Aaron ignoring the big things is how he survives and yet the things that keeps him alive is focusing on the small details. The little things here or there that convince both him and everyone else that he’s perfectly normal. Sort of like how you can take a piece of glass and drop it from a pretty significant height and it’ll be fine so long as it lands in a way that distributes the impact. Where as if you drop a piece of glass from a small height but it lands on the wrong corner it shaders.

Aaron knows that if he can’t be normal, if he can’t convince himself or others that he is, he’ll fall apart. And if his pieces fall apart there will be no glueing them back together. There will be no getting back up. That’s part of the reason why the foxes put him on edge so much. He’s a unsoldered stained glass piece and the foxes are a swinging hammer. If they collide the foxes will survive but Aaron wont.

[yaolmao]

they should work together idk guys

[dearabsolutelynoone]

“Love's about finding the one person who makes your heart complete. Who makes you a better person than you ever dreamed you could be…”

Julia Quinn, The Viscount Who Loved Me (Bridgertons, #2)

[buckley-y]

I don’t even know if I want to keep watching the show anymore

[bleue-flora]

[peppermintslol]

They’re fine

[snzluv3r]

i actually feel so incredibly uncomfortable and isolated in this space right now and i know that’s silly because of how many people there are just like me who share the same feelings but idk…the fact that people even think this is defensible behavior is making me feel sick

[aheathen-conceivably]

And if I go, can I be like her? Like the ballerina in the box?

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

i try to spread information and stuff because that usually makes people more receptive to understanding how serious covid is, but a lot of being covid safe is being full of anger and frustration and hopelessness. for a lot of people, it’s not hard to wear a mask or not go places when they’re sick. so many people could still be taking precautions but just… won’t. and many of them (especially people close to me) are people who will talk about progressive policies and community care and allyship to marginalised communities but obviously won’t take the step to actually practice what they preach. i’m just tired of being told that i’m an acceptable sacrifice for people’s facade of normalcy

[hiyyihrts]

I recorded this off of twitter bc they deleted it on their tiktok and went private but it seriously pisses me the fuck off how y’all treat Colin AND Luke as if they’re somehow both one in the same person.

“Colin has redeemed himself” by doing what?? Becoming eye-candy for you so you suddenly see value and worth in him as a character because he’s ‘hot’? And redeemed himself from what exactly? Being a normal boy who has is own feelings and thoughts about people, including his friends and family?? Suddenly now that he’s had a ‘glow up’ y’all are accepting of him as a lead character and thinks he’s worth your breath and energy, while in the same breath calling him ugly and fat and not a pointless annoying side character???

These are not just characters appearances you’re commenting on, there are actual actors who play these roles and who have to see these fuckass comments of you berating their appearances all bc you don’t ‘like’ their character (who has done nothing wrong to you personally, mind you). Fuck this person for saying such shitty things about Luke. You don’t have to like a character but coming for the actors appearance when they’ve done nothing wrong is fucking low and shows what kind of person you are now that you think he’s ‘fuckable’. And reducing a character and the actors worth to nothing but sex appeal you think they provide for you is insane.

[raspberryluvr]

More dair mutuals pls!!

[wexhappyxfew]

Kennedy Egan and Annie Brady

I AM VERY MUCH IN A ‘HEHE’ MODE SEEING THISSSSSS!!!!!!! seriously!!!!! all the happy postwar vibes this is giving me as my writing is currently living in a constant state of angst!!!!! the idea of *annie brady* and *kennedy egan* has my head spinning - i’m just obsessed with the entirety of what fulfillment they will ultimately get from them. love, joy, hope, family! GOSH i’m so excited hehe! 🥹✨🫶

NOW…..dare i throw it out there since we’re ~on the topic~

Carrie Douglass AND Judy Rosenthal !!!!!!!

[lowcallyfruity]

“Watch buddy daddies” they said “It’s gay spy x family” they said.

NAHHH BECAUSE WHAT IS THIS ANIMECIAKCNDNFBFBDJFJFJF

I JUST FINISHED BUDDY DADDIES AND NGNFNFNDNSJFIFJSJ THIS ANIME IS SOOOO GOOOOD IT NEEDS TO BE MORE POPULAR

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[melrosing]

anyway in an absolutely wild turn of events I think I’m free of my hideous job and like. substantially richer for it??? lmao 2023 you really owed me

[mightgetsomewhere]

I genuinely can’t fathom how people who have never had a problem with food (restricting AND overeating because both are serious issues) view it. Like tf do you mean you get hungry after two hours? One of my siblings is onto me because I went like 6 hours without eating but like…that was because I wasn’t hungry???? On the flip side, I’ve noticed that I just keep fucking eating when everyone else has stopped. Free breadsticks at Olive Garden? I’ll eat them until they’re gone. Need something to do at a party? I’ll get seconds even though I’m not really hungry. I was never really an emotional eater aside from a few hatred-induced binges last semester at college, but I’m definitely a bored eater. Combine that with the fact that my parents don’t cook, so the occasional meals I had with my family all together were fast food/restaurant food, AND that all other nights, I was left to rummage with no supervision through the pantry to eat processed food in front of the TV/my phone for dinner, it’s a miracle I didn’t get fatter sooner.

[bratty-metalhead]

Primo isn’t appreciate enough, and that’s a crime.

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