#worth his salt

[fate-tumbles]

It's good because now I'm getting high on own cosmic body

You said you never want to listen to a tiny dancer even when it came on in the car because it made you cry because it reminded. Did you have the last best something in your life. Which I won't mention because I'm dealing with this in my own way but there's things I need to keep private because I know it's the right thing to do and because I'm going to get really annoyed if I slip up because I'm tired, not because I'm an asshole. Because I'm not the asshole.

And defining you remix with a lot of new people adding to something old which made it so much better, or at least reminded everyone why they love the song in the first place so much.

Because to him at the time that he released it, it was everything.

I'm sad I missed his farewell tour because now I know I relate more to his troubles than you ever could imagine. Like every other celebrity and musician you look up to so much.

I think you hate that I really to them so much now and such a closer way. Or at least to me. Because I've always felt that you were a little shallow unfortunately. But I loved you anyways because I'm a loving person and you gave me something that I didn't think I deserved. And worse than that I didn't think I can get it myself because I was such a loser in so many ways in my life that I wanted to improve that.

But couldn't because I had no accountability.

[skitskatdacat63]

Its like stamping him with a sticker that says "OLD MAN"

[meidui]

WATCHING YOUNG ROBERT DOWNEY JR IN ONLY YOU AND SWOONING UNTIL I'M LIGHTHEADED

[shikai-the-storyteller]

It's taking me ages to write this chapter because every time I look through old VODs / notes to check something, I come across moments like this that make me want to lie down face-first on the floor:

[Context: Pac commits to the idea of taking the Happy Pills so he can create a cure. He's about to write a note to Cellbit to explain his plan.]

Pac: If Cellbit puts himself in this position, it's worse for everyone, because Cellbit is smarter when it comes to coming up with strategic plans, so he is the thinking mind of the Favela Five group, so if he no longer has the mind, he’s not capable of solving this whole problem, you know? But if I put myself in this position to help Cellbit so he can get the cure... You understand? It's better if I'm the bait. Right? I can't- I can't carry things alone guys, I've already lost Mike [...] if I lose Cellbit and I alone had to carry things, I won't be able to. But I think Cellbit can manage better. He is more independent, and he has Roier. He has a husband. I'm trying to– to be lucid here, understand? That's all.

Date: September 11, 2023 || Timestamp: 03:10:10

[bestworstcase]

I think it'll be interesting when RWBYJ tells everyone about the ever after, specifically Oscar/Ozpin. I think that'll be a hell of a slap in the face to those two. Imo it's pretty clear that Oz doesn't like the Brothers (his lie for his curse literally puts them in the WORST light to anyone who hears it), but isn't exactly open about it nor does he think on it much. But hearing that the 'gods' are essentially just people who got kicked out of their home would make him. Well I hesitate to say that he'd flip the fuck out, but I definitely think he wouldn't be happy at ALL. I'm sure he'd be furious while simultaneously having an existential crisis.

Frankly, Oz is just. An interesting character when it comes to his thoughts on the Brothers. He went from more or less listening to Light without question (but immediately started questioning when Salem talked to him- "Unsure of where his loyalties still lay-" he trusts Salems words but is confused about his stance on Light, perhaps afraid of questioning him), to putting them in a bad light repeatedly and more or less giving up on his task (there's far far easier ways to unite the world i.e. war- why would he deliberately make it hard on himself? He's far from stupid. He still foes his best to foster peace because why wouldn't he?). And, now, he's actively fighting his curse, and is doing so the second he got an ounce of hope.

I think why he hasn't really thought of fighting the Gods is bc a) he's still scared of them (and it makes sense, I'd be scared too) and b) he never knew that they, well, were just people. I think he'd need some convincing, but I really think he'd be happy to try his hand at giving Light a piece of his mind lol. Something tells me Oz has millennia of bottled up anger- something will eventually be the straw that broke the camels back, as even the most resilient of people can break.

Though I think the biggest issue would be the idea of teaming up with Salem. He's bitter and terrified of her, and although we don't know exactly what's happened between them since their first fight (beyond Oz spending several lives as an alcoholic, then wandering Remnant being reminded of Salem (not necessarily bc he thought every Grimm attack was her, Grimm just remind him of her)), it's entirely possible Salem has also done... something to hurt him. No one's that bitter or terrified of someone for absolutely no reason, but whatever the reason is, that'll definitely be an obstacle between him being allied with her against the Gods. Plus she also, yknow, tortured him and allowed Hazel to torture him (which Oscar took most of it, but they're in the same body).

I think that interaction would be... interesting. Especially since I really don't think Oz even is 'Ozma' anymore. Ozma is the foundations yes, but the merge changes you fundamentally. He has changed his name every lifetime (if Oz doesn't accidentally answer to the name Oscar I'll eat my left shoe), but how much of him really is Ozma anymore? Ship of theseus and all that. If he, by all accounts, isn't 'Ozma' anymore and Salem isn't aware of this, I think it'd be an interesting revelation for her. There's similarities between Oz and how he used to be, but I feel like 'Ozma' is functionally a deadname for him (Oz trans/DID allegory? /j). Especially since I think Ozma is just- not who he is anymore. He's tried living up to the name, but he can't and he knows it (the words his illusion in v9 says speaks a lot to his mental state and his opinion of himself).

God speaking of his illusion on v9, I think it's incredibly clear that what each illusion says pertains to that character in some way. And it says so so much about Ozpin and how he sees himself. It's ironic how the God of Light, associated with creation, made him, yet he thinks that all he does is destroy. He's scarily good at splitting people apart just accidentally (i.e. v6, Summer basically throwing him under the bus thus STRQ broke apart and blamed him, etc) too. Yet Salem, immortal via Lights curse, made herself through Grimm and is very good at rallying people. Dunno, fun thought there (it's why swap aus are so damn tasty with these two).

Sorry for the long ask, I just wanted to ramble in your inbox for a bit. I have many thoughts about Oz.

not. to be snarky but

To live free or die, it’s all the same The enemy was right, there’s no reclaiming In waves of shame We’re desperate to make amends But through a simple soul we lie complacent  Love brings us dreams But grief makes the heart burst at the seams  As light fills my eyes I’ll picture me beside her And pray that I’ll inspire  I promise I’ll be here until the end I promise I’ll be here until… Our story has been told Til our bodies break down every door Til we find what we’ve been looking for

terrified she’ll never forgive him and terrified of what will happen if she confronts the gods again, yes. but terrified of her?

the enemy was right. we’re desperate to make amends. grief makes the heart burst at the seams. i’ll picture me beside her. ozma isn’t terrified of salem; he is, explicitly, ashamed of himself and desperate to make amends and longing for her.

listen. you don’t have to go salem did dot dot dot something to hurt him. we KNOW exactly what she did; rejected the mandate, fought him, burned him alive. they blew up their home and killed their own kids. is this insufficiently traumatizing to explain him.

similarly i do not have to go ozma did dot dot dot something to salem: we know exactly what he did. we know why she’s furious and bitter and still hurting. it is not ambiguous.

he’s spent the intervening centuries hiding inside a narrative where salem is the Great Evil he must defeat because the guilt he feels for deceiving and manipulating her and the grief for everything he sacrificed is so unbearable that he can’t touch it except through layers and layers of distortion. but it’s bleeding through the cracks everywhere. the infinite man tried to be a hero and is a fool who may not be worthy of forgiveness, ozpin suggests. look far enough ahead from the ending of the girl in the tower, and you’ll find the hero who saved her turned out to be a villain.

he hates salem. (he deserves her hatred.) this is the wrenching internal war he fights with himself day after day and life after life; the only way he can live with himself enough to function is by hating her, but the hatred is a fiction, a lie, to protect him from his fear. the truth is that he neither hates her nor deserves her hatred.

i am being intentional about calling him ozma, by the way. i am also intentional about when i call him ozpin or oz. i do not think ozma is a deadname. i don’t think ozma is an ideal he is trying and failing to live up to. he doesn’t identify himself as ozpin; he says “the professor ozpin you all met was not my first form.” he dons these other identities as a mask—i am the combination of countless men who have spent their lives trying to protect the people of remnant—because he hates himself. ozma is who he’s running away from because he doesn’t think ozma has ever been enough.

that is why. salem distinguishes between ozpin and ozma the way that she does. and why she is able to differentiate between oscar and ozma even when oscar is mimicking ozpin, because ozpin is the latest in a long series of masks that ozma wears.

(ozpin is tippetarius enforcing his own exile, and thus he became the wizard. ozma is the true self imprisoned by the curse. he’s… named ozma for a reason.)

”what if you could be anyone?” <- the blacksmith does not ask ruby this question because ruby needs to stop being herself in order to be happy. she offers ruby a metaphorical representation of ozma’s curse—what if you could be anyone, slip into a like-minded soul and become that person—in order to guide ruby to the realization that only her true self is the right fit. this is what i like to call blunt force foreshadowing.

ozma is trying to be a thousand different heroes and salem has only ever wanted ozma. ozma then is not the same person as ozma now, but ozma is ozma is ozma. the ship of theseus is the ship of theseus, then as now. on those who enter the same rivers, ever different waters flow. read heraclitus.

the thing is. yeah. he’s going to snap like a brittle twig when he learns the truth about the gods… because he already knows salem is right, deep down. the enemy is right. it bleeds through even into the lost fable, which is narrated in his voice. jinn’s telling—his telling—obfuscates and twists away from salem’s interiority, her feelings, her motives except for the moment of her realization about the brothers: perhaps the gods were not as powerful as they seemed; she had lied to them, turned them against each other; they were fallible.

the enemy is right. he knows she’s right.

hearing what the kids learned in the ever after is going to shatter the cognitive dissonance preventing him from acting on that knowledge. it’s going to surface ‘until the end’ but now joined to the hope he has—since the end of v8—that he can make amends for his cowardice and lies.

ozma apologizing to the kids and asking for a second chance to earn their trust was, uh, a practice run for ozma apologizing to salem and asking for a second chance. the fallout of the lost fable (“there was so much you hadn’t told us! how could you think that was okay!” and “i gave my life to you because you gave me a place in this world; i thought i was finally doing some good!”) is a reflection of salem’s distress. the narrative is on her side. because. he lied to manipulate her and grievously betrayed her trust. in exactly the same way he did to the kids.

[pisshandkerchief]

my dad's one sentence review of A Complete Unknown

[jacksmusesdrv3]

I know I've twisted myself into a goddamn pretzel the past five or so years trying not to be 'too much' and backing off when I am

but

A good deal of why I started the #dr literacy tag is precisely because of this- I am beyond tired and fed up, with the kinds of things that people have ignored and left on my back- whether it's to do with Kokichi, or V3 overall. It's easy to deflect and call me 'delusional', and five years later never even consider the implications of having called me that over what I've been trying to grapple with, much less apologise to me sincerely and genuinely try to understand where I'm coming from and why it's so hard to discuss in the first place- not to mention why it's so easy to make mistakes not least because the way Kodaka plays with themes can be decidedly insensitive (and I was clearly out of my depth with that when I started this blog)

This isn't about all of you. A good number of people here have been wonderful about this, even if they don't understand all too well. But frankly such people are the exception rather than the rule, and the rule is that people don't bother to interrogate their own biases about Kokichi, or really grapple with the way him and V3's narrative might be constructed with bias. And this unwillingness to accept ambiguity and nuance results in some genuinely hurtful behaviour towards people who try to point out that, maybe, not everything was even his fault, or that his character and situation is far more layered than it appears on a first run of the game. Or even a second, or third.

So I'm gonna need people in that camp to swear that you'll do better about this going forward. No really. This situation I've been in didn't come out of nowhere, and while I've beaten the proverbial horse to death that I haven't always been fair or reasonable either, that does not mean I should just back myself into a wall and take the status quo that is 'Tsumugi is telling the truth and Kokichi is just a clown' as a 'fact of canon'. Because there's a very good chance that that might not even be true, and that there's even more tangled messes Kodaka left in the text to unpack that you never even thought of, and that really NEED extra care and nuance to fully understand.

I know you're probably sick of hearing this from me by now. But this is an issue that can never be helped until it's faced head on, and the effect of basically being pathologised over it (due to *checks notes* autism), is seriously damaging- the inability of people to address things as serious issues and themes rather than 'just the pet theory that came out of my nutty head', is something I cannot, on principle, force myself to accept. So please just think about the way you're approaching issues in the future. I will try to do the same.

[heloflor]

Out of curiosity, do you have any headcanons on Cosmo’s father before he died? I think in one of your posts, you said he was kind of an enabler? I haven’t seen that in other people’s works, so I found that interesting

While I do have headcanons about his relationships with his family (so wife and sons) which I’m going to share here, I unfortunately don’t really have any ideas about more personal stuff, as in what kind of person he was, what was his job if he had one etc. Papa Cosma as I call him is a character I simply don’t care enough to put much thoughts on. I’m basically fridging this man.

That being said yeah I do have some ideas for his relationships with his family so here it is! (1.2k words below)

Starting with Mama Cosma, as you say I did mention him being an enabler. Thing is, I see the two of them as remaining married up until Papa Cosma’s death. And given the kind of person Mama Cosma is I don’t see ways for them to be “happily” married unless Papa Cosma tried to justify his wife’s behavior.

Now there could be other ways to look at it but I’m not the biggest fan of those. For example you could say Mama Cosma hid her true nature until his death but given they were possibly together for thousands of years, and since she has no issues showing who she is to everybody else, I don’t see this happening.

Likewise there’s the possibility of him being scared of her and only staying for the kids, with Mama Cosma possibility threatening him due to having the strongest magic and the means to take everything in the divorce, but this idea makes me a bit uncomfortable. Also I don’t really see why he would still accept to sleep with her enough times to have a second child if he hated her/was afraid of her.

So yeah, the way I see it Papa Cosma genuinely loved his wife and as a result had a tendency to excuse her behavior, even if he himself often had to walk on eggshells around her. He would for example say that her angry outbursts aren’t that bad, that maybe Schnozmo should make less noise if he wants to avoid getting yelled at, that she’s a sweetheart when she’s in a good mood. Basically the usual enabler stuff.

Tbh the fact Papa Cosma doesn’t realize just how bad the situation is would very likely be indicative that he didn’t grow up in the healthiest environment, so I guess you could add this to how his personal life was? Maybe he had abusive parents which led him to normalize this kind of behavior, hence why he married someone like Mama Cosma? 🤔

So overall, the relationship between the Cosma parents wasn’t exactly healthy, with Mama Cosma running the show with very limited push-back from her husband. Hell maybe Papa Cosma would draw the line at physical abuse (including using magic for physical abuse), which Mama Cosma barely uses anyways, hence why she could get away with the verbal abuse her husband didn’t call her out for. And if she did physically abuse Schnozmo, she’d do it behind Papa Cosma’s back, and if the kid says something she’d justify/downplay her actions, which her husband would buy.

Now Papa Cosma’s relationship with Schnozmo would be a bit more complicated. Thing is, I see Papa Cosma as the more involved parent and I could definitely see him as a very loving father, but also he lets his wife get the final say in a lot of things including their son being grounded for trivial reasons. The most he could do would maybe be to shorten some of those groundings, or if some of said groundings have to do with Schnozmo being forced to skip a meal, he’d still bring his son some food “in secret” (not sure how secretive it would be, maybe Mama Cosma just wouldn’t care that much about whether or not the kid eats when grounded, just as long as she doesn’t have to see his face at the moment).

So I think their relationship would be a mixed bag. Papa Cosma is the more involved and loving parent so Schnozmo would be closer to him, but at the same time he’d be frustrated by the way his father lets his mom get away with everything. Though at a younger age Schnozmo would probably blame his mom for it, thinking his dad’s just a happy idiot for not noticing anything’s wrong. But had Papa Cosma lived longer, Schnozmo probably would have still ended up acting out for attention as a teen, becoming a con artist and cutting contact with both of his parents. He was definitely more forgiving of his father’s shortcomings as a child due to seeking out any form of affection from a parental figure, but as an adult he wouldn’t let it slide.

Also writing this down is making me realize that I’m basically making Schnozmo be more like his mom, having her wit and manipulation, while Cosmo is more like his dad, having a bigger heart and being naive. Not sure how Cosmo having more in common with his dad would play out in how his mom and brother treat him though. Like this could definitely be one of the reasons why Mama Cosma is like thatTM, but I don’t know how Schnozmo would be influenced by it when interacting with Cosmo. At the very least Schnozmo would have a similar “happy idiot” mentality towards Cosmo growing up, given what we see in his episode.

Speaking of Cosmo, I feel like the main thing Papa Cosma felt about him was concern. He was not expecting an overpowered baby, and being the magically weakest member of this family didn’t help. This man was just not equipped to deal with such a powerful baby, which could explain why the one flashback we have of him in the show features both him and Mama Cosma looking after Cosmo.

On that note, Mama Cosma seems like someone who loves babies so from Cosmo’s birth she likely was the one mainly taking care of him, as in she wanted to take care of him and was being possessive about him so her husband kept his mouth shut and let her have it. That doesn’t mean Papa Cosma didn’t bond with Cosmo, he absolutely did and loved his baby, it’s just that Mama Cosma was spending more time with Cosmo, and the fact she was slightly more able to handle the kid (not by much tough) helped.

Tbh maybe during that short time between Cosmo’s birth and the fly incident, Papa Cosma was spending more time with Schnozmo since Mama Cosma was basically ignoring him to focus on her new baby, both because baby and because op magic. This could be a reason why Papa Cosma’s death impacted Schnozmo, as he felt like he lost the one adult he could rely on just as said adult was being a better parent.

But yeah, in the end Papa Cosma loved Cosmo and spent time with him whenever he could, preferably with his wife around to help with Cosmo’s unstable magic, but his time with his baby was short-lived. Had he been around longer, I feel like Mama Cosma would have been less clingy of Cosmo since she had her husband for that, especially given that Cosmo was able to put some boundaries (ditching her to get married).

I do wonder if maybe Cosmo’s childhood might have been a bit easier, if only because Papa Cosma would be better at comforting him (and meaning it) than his wife. Like Papa Cosma would have wanted to help Cosmo with his magic but unlike his wife wouldn’t see his son as the problem.

On top of that Cosmo probably wouldn’t have cut contact with his mom, if only so he can still interact with his dad. Idk I feel like once married Cosmo might try to hint to his dad that maybe staying with Mama Cosma isn’t the smartest choice. Schnozmo maybe tried to tell him as well but gave up quickly enough. Then again Cosmo can be pretty naive and not realize just how bad his mom is, and who knows maybe Mama Cosma would have been more fine with Cosmo getting married, though she’d probably still make a lot of passive-aggressive comments.

So yeah, that’s all I’ve got for Papa Cosma. Hope it’s enough!

[punctus-interrogativus]

If Hannibal could (or did) make a good fried catfish, him and Will woulda fucked in the first season easy.

[permanentreverie]

user.lindsay is no longer active srry guys i saw hozier and died and went to heaven

[lilsam96]

Towards the end of 1x07, it's Thanksgiving, and Sydney has friends over when she gets a knock on her door.

It's Jack. And he outright tells her Shepard was the one that killed Danny (she already found this out while on her mission). And then this exchange is what follows.

"I'm telling you because I don't want you to think its my mission in life to keep things from you." "Then why do you?" He pulls something from his jacket. "FBI report, signed by the deputy director under Carter, clearing me of having any involvement with KGB. Sydney, you have to understand it was the height of the Cold War. After they caught Boyce and Lee in '77, everybody was under suspicion. So, I suppose in a way… Your mother's… accident was my fault…" Sydney looks at him with tearful eyes. "Since the FBI was after me." He pauses, shakes his head slightly. "If I could give her back to you, I would." They look at each other, Sydney gob smacked. "Take it." "I don't need to," she quietly says. He puts the paper back in his jacket. "You should stay." "Work." His response is abrupt, to the point. She nods her head. "I'm glad your trip went well." Another awkward pause. She knows he's avoiding hanging out with her. "Happy Thanksgiving," he says cordially. "You too," she replies through tears and a smile. He simply turns and leaves.

IT'S ALL KINDS OF COMPLICATED BETWEEN THEM. HE'S TRYING TO GAIN HER TRUST, SO HE CAN HELP PROTECT HER, BUT HE KEEPS LYING THROUGH HIS TEETH AND IT'S PAINFUL. The FBI wasn't after him, they were after his wife. But he can't tell Sydney that because that's a can of worms that has so many complicated issues that will only lead to more questions than answers and he can't deal with that right now. At this point, he's doing everything in his power to keep his daughter safe! 😭 But him admitting fault and wishing he could give Sydney her mother back feels like a half truth-- on one hand, yes, he probably feels responsible just because he fell for her and her deception. And he probably does wish he could give Sydney back her mother-- or at least Sydney's version of her mother. The one who was loving and kind and nurturing. And this half truth (coupled with the proof of his innocence of working with the KGB) alleviates Sydney's suspicions and vitriol of him. And that's good enough for him.

AND THEN HE USES THE EXCUSE OF WORK TO NOT JOIN HIS DAUGHTER FOR THANKSGIVING. 😭 And really, its because he just doesn't know how to be a father. He's out of practice. He's scared he's going to get it wrong and that he won't live up to Sydney's expectations. BUT! He knows how to protect from the shadows. That's where he works best. That's where he's most comfortable. And so, he avoids another opportunity to spend quality time with his daughter and learn how to be an actual father... And it's all very sad and frustrating. 😭

[randomnameless]

Can you imagine what the reaction would be from Edelgard fans if Wilhelm was ever made playable in Heroes, and instead of being against Serios or not trusting her, he is actually just her BFF who talks about her more then Cyril.

He also goes like, "What secret history about Serios are you talking about? dont talk shut about my bestie.

Willy in FEH?

Lol

More seriously,

Lower your expectations anon, after the nothingburger that was Altina's Supreme Alt, FEH made it clear that the Brave Supreme Leader FB and Hegemongard's FB were outliers - we won't ever get anything like this anymore, students will uwu about academy days and the friends they made for 10 months, Hanneman, Gilbert and Alois are old thus will never be released, and the rest is flanderized.

Assuming Willy is ever released though, I can see his lines purposedly avoiding mentionning Nabateans and being milquetoast "we must defeat Nemesis and bring peace to the land" x10.

Maybe his jp lines - heavily Pat'd - would have something like "Adrestia will unify Fodlan and make it a land for everyone regardless of their race" (Pat'd swap "race" by "background" like what happened in Engage!) which would destroy the "sekrit smokescreen theory*" to smithereens, but hey, we still have to this day people arguing Supreme Leader "You are a dragon you should not rule over humans" isn't biased against pointy ears so...

Ultimately, I think most people wouldn't care.

*That was already debunked in Nopes!

Willy being alive after the WoH and Lycaon's icing can't tell... Lycaon's successor that Seiros and her ilk control humanity, given that Cethleann and Cichol left, Macuil left and he goes to meet Indech in a remote location in the mountains...

But I guess Supreme Leader's words have more weight than what the game presents, or what Rhea'n'Seteth - who personally knew the dude - reveal about him. Sure, she's biased and all, but at the end of the WoC, the only Nabatean left to "act" in Fodlan was Seiros the Warrior - her brothers fucked off.

[riarnu]

"he says he loves me" but does he SHOW you ??????????????

[myromanholidays]

sometimes I just wanna break my tv watching Indian matchmaking but then it'll end with that precious old arranged couples montage or a surprisingly sweet story followed by a description of a filthy rich absolute loser man child that'll make me cackle more than I have for months and it's worth it

[blujayonthewing]

I gotta delete this before bed so justin doesn't see it in the morning but god felix is already down so bad for simon it's stupid

[sadsongsandwaltzes]

one thing that’s odd to me in baptist/evangelical circles is that theology is *treated* like a customizable lunch tray

pick your soteriology: calvinist/Arminian

Now pick an eschatological side argument: premil/postmil

As a treat, we can argue about continuationism

For the record, I’m not saying the theology itself states all these can be true or that it doesn’t matter. I’m simply pointing out how it’s put in practice and the lack of grounding doctrine.