#wish i was smarter

[tarathecogsci]

I wish I had more dedication and drive. Instead I'm staring at this new code base with a file format that's new to me, overwhelmed, head swimming and just done with everything before I even really started.

[august--and-everything-after]

Just watched another one of Laura Kampf's videos and now I need to do a deep dive on why you can use coffee to bring out the colour variation of Damascus* steel. Is there a job where I can just research cool chemistry for pay? I so badly need to know why this works. What reactions are happening? Why coffee?

[the-lifestyle-17]

Feels like no one is ever in my side. Only ever trying to talk me out of how I feel…..how I feel is how I feel, why can’t you just except that..

[levisrations]

Post war Levi and you share a son and every time he sees you being gentle and soft with him he might shed a tear. Probably remind him of his mother and how happy it makes him that his son gets to experience safety and gentleness from not just you but from him too. He’s got such a soft spot for his son he can’t help but smile or laugh whenever his son is being silly or cute. Levis identity always had to do with him being the strongest and being the one that protects and well since his injuries he’s had to face the fact that he’s not like he used to be but seeing how his son seeks him out for safety and reassurance, always feels better when Levi is home, it fills Levi with happiness. His son doesn’t care, he still sees his dad as his protector. Even if you’re close if he’s nervous or scared by something he calls for his dad or simply crawls/runs to him. Levis always happy to reassure his son and tell him everything is ok nothings gonna happen, he won’t let it.

[maurypovichofficial2]

And I’m thinking back to how the last few years of Liam’s life was met with ‘you’re done you’re through go away nobody wants you. You’re irrelevant’ down to when he did something as simple as congratulate Harry for his album of the year Grammy I remember seeing comments like ‘he’s so jealous what a loser lmaooo’ ‘he’s not going to text you back bro let it go’ even if he did want to get the other boys’ attention so he could relive a time in his life that has been over how is that any different from any of us saying we wish it was 2014 again when they were at their prime.

[kindaasrikal]

Garmadon is totally into strong women who can and will beat him to a pulp whilst cussing him out.

For some reason, it runs in the family.

Edit: you know that tag i added saying “wish i could say Morro too but he’s probably the strong woman in the relationship”?

Yeah, that’s the Fsm too.

No, I’m not explaining.

[rotzaprachim]

Turning reblogs off but worth a read about how the same fucking PAC (with Elon musk among others as a donor) tells Arab Americans that Kamala Harris supports Israel and Jewish Americans that she supports Hamas.

almost like people actually in charge have soemthing to gain from turning Arabs and Jews against each other in tangible ways, no?

[clumsyghosts]

Numb3rs: I want The 5th Man, Angels and Devils, and Hangman meta.

I want to read about how Charlie shut down when Don was shot at in the first episode and retreated to P vs NP just as he did when his mother was dying; when Don is stabbed he becomes obsessed with uncovering a serial killer.

His solace is in his math work.

When Amita is kidnapped, Charlie can't focus. He can't work, he can't pull the algorithms or concentrate on the data, so he retreats - not into his work, but to his other safe space: Don. He seeks comfort from his brother physically when he's prevented from seeing what he believes is Amita's body. Emotionally, he can't stay in the conference room where all the math takes place, so he goes to the bullpen, in Don's cubicle, Don's space, until Don comes to talk to him.

Until Don saves him from himself, like he has his entire life.

I wish more GIFs were made of these episodes. There are so many good moments.

[skeletoninthemelonland]

😭😭

[gooch-cancer]

(spoilers in the vid and following text!!) no cuz i totally understood what she meant by this scene cuz like omfg I WENT THRU THE SAME THING!!! i mean the dude wasn't sleeping with my sister but STILL !!!!

[t8oo]

there is some symbolism iv never considered in that one episod of pt5 where zenigata rescues fujiko before she kills lupin

[skunkes]

when past experiences influence present day interactions

[mellotronmkll]

Like I genuinely feel like a lot of fans of like late 70s/early 80s new wave and post-punk especially the 'weirder' and more artsy and high concept stuff would love early they might be giants Like can you not get enough of elements of the avant-garde in pop music do you love when music is sarcastic and irreverent and witty and surreal and absurd and DARK do you like when music sounds a bit scary and challenges and unsettles you do you like when its been made with DIY production on the cheapest crunchiest instruments and is performed in gritty underground clubs and presented to audiences in novel ways do you like when artists seek to play with and redefine the relationship between artist and audience or do you also just like when frontmen get down autistic silly and sensitive style and freak everyone out with the way they incorporate performance art into their live shows like just. please contact me so we can listen to the 1983 demo tape while holding hands and I tell you all about it and then I play you a bunch of hissy staticy recordings that were ripped off of an answering machine 40 years ago and you will be changed

[good-beanswrites]

hii!! can we get some platonic fuuta amane interactions please? thabks !!!

Ahh yes, thank you so much for the request! I love them so much ;--; They've been making my brain go brrrr lately with T3 possibilities, though I decided to stay away from the drama for now. Here something sweet after T1 verdicts but before the attacks -- they're just hanging out :3

Yuno smiled down at Amane, finding her hunched over a table of craft supplies with Fuuta. The guilty verdict had hit them hard, so it was good to see them in better spirits. She tried to peer over her shoulder to see what they were working on. “Aw, what are you two up to?”

Amane returned her smile. “Fuuta is teaching me to misbehave.”

His face twitched in horror. “Oi, you can’t just go around saying that!” He looked frantically at Yuno. “We’re just folding paper planes.”

Amane lifted her chin. “You said in middle school, you made them to throw in class.”

“I said my friends made them to throw in class. And it’s not like I’m telling you to throw them. I was just making them because there’s nothing better to do in this damned place. You were the one that said it looked fun and sat down to annoy me!”

Fuuta huffed at the accusation as Yuno walked away, laughing. He returned to the design he was folding. He hadn’t been giving an explicit step-by-step for each, but Amane was keeping up just fine. They each had a small pile of various plane designs they were adding to. 

Running a finger along a new crease, he gave Amane a sideways look. “Though, you could stand to misbehave a little bit.”

“I did.” She reached forward to mimic the fold on her own plane. “That is why I’m here.”

“Eh? I don’t mean you should commit crimes!” He scowled. “I’m talking about normal kid stuff, nothing against the law. Like staying out too late, driving your teacher crazy, funny vandalism–”

“--Vandalism is against the law.”

“Oh come on, it’s harmless! Don’t even try to argue that a little graffiti is comparable to what got you here.” He rolled his eyes. “So? What about that other stuff?”

She shook her head. With neither disappointment nor pride, she said, “I never left my home at night. And my teachers were far too strict.” 

“Aw, it’s the strict ones that are the most fun to prank!” He pointed to Amane, adopting the most persuasive voice he could manage. “You gotta do some of these things, or you’ll turn out with a stick up your ass. Like Kotoko, or Mikoto. Or a weirdo like Kazui and Mahiru. Shidou’s more or less normal, and he’s the type of guy to break some rules now and then.”

“And you?” She raised her eyebrows at him, feigning innocence. “I take it you turned out perfectly because you misbehaved as a child?”

“Hey, I never said I was a shining role model or anything. But I mean it. If you stay like this, you’ll grow up to be a boring loser, another cog in the wheel.”

“It is an honor to be a part of something bigger than yourself, to find belonging, and purpose.”

“Tch, don’t be such a pain!”

“I wasn’t.”

“You know that’s not what I was talking about!”

“What were you talking about, then?” She gave him the same expression as before, and wondered if could hide her genuine confusion. 

“Don’t play dumb. I know working in a group is a good thing, but you don’t want to kill yourself for leaders that don’t give a shit about you. That’s a major issue in this country, you know? In government, and corporations, and all that. That’s not belonging, that’s just exploitation.”

Amane stayed silent.

Oblivious to the emotions flashing across her lowered eyes, he nudged her in annoyance. “And the best way to break from that is to loosen up a bit. So have a little fun now and then, jeez!”

She picked her creation off the table. She turned it over in her hands. It had come out perfectly sharp and clean. “I’m having fun now.”

Fuuta, preparing to argue with whatever she said, blinked. “O-oh.” 

“At school, my favorite activities included choir practice and the arts. It has been difficult to sing here without accompaniment, so I am grateful to have the opportunity for crafts.” She looked at him earnestly. “Despite your past of disobedience,” she smirked, “I always enjoy your company.”

His expression twisted up, but he couldn’t hide the reddening of his ears. “What do I care if a brat like you likes my company?”

She smiled. “I’m not a brat. As established, I am very well-behaved.”

“That’s even worse!”

“Tell me about this plane, Fuuta.”

After sufficiently rolling his eyes and sighing, he agreed. He started explaining what made these planes different from the last: how they compared on speed, accuracy, and length of flight. It didn’t really matter if they were just going to toss them around here or the panopticon later, he thought it would be helpful to teach her anyway. Maybe if she ever was inclined, she’d remember which ones were best for pinpointing a teacher’s back, or a warden’s…

[byknightfall]

Thinking about her again

[separatist-apologist]

rhysand: "she needs to think i'm a cop, so i will be very careful with how i act and what i say around her"

also rhysand almost immediately:

i guess murder is his love language lol

Rhys is like, is that not how cops talk??? He doesn't know.