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While the Ethereal Genome concept has yet to be tidied up, I would like to take the time to finally write out that aforementioned "little something" regarding Terra, Garland and Ethereals.
(The one perk to this having taken this long is I actually have even more to write here! That being said, this one is pretty sizeable. I highly advise not clicking that little "read more"/"keep reading" bit unless you're fully committed!)
To begin, we'll start with talking Terra. Terra, on its universal pursuit for answers as well as other planets and their crystals, making use of their magical "fusion" art to try to elude the "decay" all the while, acquired energy sources as needed along the way to fuel their travels. One of these energy sources happened to be Etherealism - namely, remnants of it. As novel as I make Etherealism out to be, honestly, you can find it in various shapes and sizes all throughout the cosmos. And because they are comprised of energy (and are spectral entities as well, which have more or less been confirmed as an energy source in various Final Fantasy worlds. Shout out to fantastical fossil fuels!) these remnants proved quite successful as fuel.
However, they weren't merely reduced to fuel as they did in fact prove quite fascinating (and they were looking for answers to their crisis any and everywhere, of course!) They were initially taken in as a subject of study as well, but their research only really boomed when more complex forms of Etherealism (something more than these inexplicable fragments of light, ions and mysterious soul-like matter just floating around like space debris) were encountered.
Now, as for why I decided Terra shares some notable history with Etherealism in this story, there are quite a few reasons for that...
▫️ The Desert Palace
Look, it's the room I constantly keep forgetting about! Therapeutically forcing myself to acknowledge its existence today. 😎
Once I realized the likelihood of Kuja kidnapping any number of the "main cast" at one point or another for any duration of time throughout this story was notable, I knew I was going to have to better arm him as well as the palace itself to hold them hostage.
Why do that? Well, I have a story to write and it lends itself to the storytelling! Look, they'll be fine.
As the plot currently stands, there's at least one Ethereal in the party and detaining them is no easy task. Not only can they spook their way around a little bit here and there, but they're dangerous and have the potential to just destroy everything if things get heated (quite literally) and they feel threatened. Now, you could argue that they might hesitate when it comes to being destructive, given other lifeforms being present and not wanting to harm them - plus, even in the case of going ghost mode, they couldn't help out their friends that way. However, spoiler alert: at least one of those Ethereals may not care about saving friends, so... playing on their emotions isn't enough to keep them all in, sadly. It'd work on only one of them. Which isn't enough for me..!
So, I felt Ethereal countermeasures should be considered - and I figured these countermeasures could be made possible if Ethereal research had already been integrated into Terra's history - at least enough to where, to some extent, they knew how to contain it and subdue it. The more I thought about it, I realized it actually was more than possible for them to encounter Etherealism during their cosmic travels of yore. So, I decided to roll with the idea!
Seriously, they'll be fine. Trust me!
▫️ The Ethereal Genome
So... with every cosmic horror comes the horror element, right? And Ethereals easily fall into a cosmic horror category!
If there's anything we've learned from the genre, making use of an alien body in any capacity can prove volatile, yielding both grand discoveries and tragic consequences... (Once again, I'll make an FFVII comparison: they essentially did this with Jenova; just imagine the Terrans did something similar with Ethereals in this particular story. Kind of.)
Among the consequences of handling Etherealism was one of its most toxic traits: Ethereal radiation...
Countless Terrans were lost to this silent, but deadly long term killer before a more viable safety protocol was established. Protocol that was able to be passed on to Garland once he was created, who would proceed to elaborate upon it himself. For many - and I mean m a n y - years, Garland was successful when it came to working with Etherealism. However, there was still room for error. Particularly when the creation of Genomes began. One singular Genome, one singular encounter with improperly contained Etherealism and a whole lot of luck (or lack thereof) later... rather than the discovery of a lesser Genome slowly expiring, one would be made of one slowly being "infected" by Etherealism.
This lesser Genome became a harbinger of many future Genome deaths. She grew to eventually be a source of this Ethereal radiation, a contaminant allowed to walk free, unknowingly poisoning her own kind as they just as unknowingly allowed themselves to be - until those radiation levels were detectable/detected by the systems in place and their source able to be singled out.
When Garland finally became aware of this, rather than doing what some may consider reasonable (such as attempting to terminate her and/or casting her out of Terra) he decided to do what any of the more scientifically-driven or the cliché "mad scientist" sort would do: cut his losses for the sake of the learning opportunity at hand. There was no way he could literally throw that away. And so, he contained this Genome as he would any other Ethereal remnant.
In containment, she remained for a very long time as well. For study and for safety. While containment method was the same, the study was a little more complex than what would be applied to your "average" Ethereal remnant. (A bit like keeping a venomous snake, studying its venom, hoping to develop an antivenom, etc. That and things of the like.)
One day, however, after Kuja has his "little" meltdown in the main FFIX storyline and destroys Terra, she would finally be freed from containment. Cast from a state stasis, essentially - energy deprivation - and no explanation just to be immediately subjected to all this radiation and energy from the overly-abundant use of Ultima and the chain effect of the Iifa Tree going haywire (remember the mist tangent and me talking about how wild of a ride it can be for Ethereals to encounter and especially intake? Keep that in mind) this makes for a very Not Great™��� experience for this little Genome gal.
Despite the chaos of it all, however, she does manage to make it out! To the Shimmering Isle, where she hardly makes it beyond the now dead portal, huddling up, curling into a little ball somewhere amidst its edifices. Tormented and traumatized (even more.)
While this Genome bears the usual stoic to be expected from her kind, because of her Etherealism, she did actually have time to grow a little bit, in a way - or at least the Ethereal part of her did - just enough to grant her the ability to think and feel things outside of the usual lesser Genome range. Just enough to be troubled by the things that happened to her, on some level. 🥲
I would like to note one little detail here: I've taken a bit of a lore dive with Terra and Genomes, yes, but nothing too dreadfully deep, so... I will confess, I'm not actually all that sure if the lesser Genomes would have names! They were essentially vessels without souls - once given a soul, they would be given an identity by extension. In that respect, I formulated the headcanon that these guys have no identity until that transpires.
If that is incorrect, I'll be more than willing to make that correction. 💙 Until then, though, that is the lore!
The Ethereal Genome technically bears no name until later in the story, having earned it outside of Terran means. She eventually is named "Yoko." (Given that Mikoto's name is Japanese in origin, I thought I'd play off of that and have Yoko's name also share some Japanese roots! One of "Yoko's" various meanings translates to "sun child" or "child of the sun," which I thought was more than appropriate for an Ethereal kid.) ☀️
▫️ The Treasure Map
(God bless "treasure map" stock imagery. I didn't need an image, but I wanted one since the other two had some... hahaha!)
Lastly, but not least-ly! Has a little bit to do with that silly little map and the treasure hunt escapade it forges as well. There is Terran symbology and Ethereal reference alike made among the many associated puzzles and clues.
Why exactly this is, I'm still admittedly brainstorming, so I can't quite go into too much detail with this point yet. However, the connection in cryptography is definitely there. I still feel it's worth mentioning, in that respect! It could very well be a point I return to and elaborate upon someday in the future as I have the previous ones. 🤔
(Of which, I will say that's how Kuja got sucked into the whole thing and what ultimately leads to taking the main gang hostage too! I'll leave the full story for later or for an actual bit of story that may be written in the future, though.)
#🌠 Ashe Anon | Starlight ✨#midnight musings 🌃#Kuja 🪶🌹#hitting enter#will give this another pass later#I couldn't manage beaches and friends yesterday#so here's a titanic tangent for today!#(I've had this one in the works for a while though)#(I was only just brave enough to hit enter today)#haha!#Sometimes#it's the commitment of sharing the bigger ideas that are very susceptible to error that makes them so spooky#but they're just as subject to change as needed just as well#maybe not as easy to change#but subject to it even still!
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I wonder how many times Clark and the batkids + Alfred revived Bruce with the Lazarus Pit and just never told him abt it
#he pieces it together later but i mean. its so hard for him to miss now that hes looking back at it#like why is he always always always cold with a turtleneck on and heating blasting#why is his appetite so scarce? how come his sleep deprived body withstands hours - sometimes DAYS - of patrol#and functions perfectly? how come time passes by but he stays the same? why wont clark and dick stop giving gim#*him looks of loving grief?#why does harley slam her fists on her head when she sees him? ' no no no you're gone. you're GONE. I KNOW you are!'#why does selina smile at him with such heavy pity ' sorry bruce. i don't do ghosts'#bruce wayne#dc#dc comics#batman#batfamily#clark kent#dick grayson#jason todd#bc they def exclude the cloning. they dont want another bruce. they want THEIR bruce. tim#like can you imagine jason getting up in tim's face and just ' if you're not gonna stand by us then stay out of our way'#dark bruce? tired. dark BATKIDS? sign me the FUCK up#batdad#text
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might come back someday to clean him up or do a better piece for him but. here's what i have for now??
eastern dragon doesn't make sense canonically but this is already so far from canon i don't care anymore
how do you even attach a bird to an eastern dragon they’re just noodles (i settle for neck fluff)
#laios would pass out on sight probably#im so tempted to draw another of him#i might make his clothing even more losse/torn#the og dragon is western but i dont care anymore give me noodle#no but for real how do you fuse a bird with an eastern dragon#i couldn't decide on mane color so I might change later#i gave him little antlers and face scales cause why the hell not#his eyes were also originally gold but i decided to keep em black?#actually i'm probably gonna increase dragon part size#brother is dead inside#shuro#toshiro nakamoto#シュロ#delicious in dungeon#dungeon meshi#ダンジョン飯#my art#chimera toshiro au
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the new girl at one of my favorite bakeries called me pretty this morning and it literally melted all my stress away 🥺
#kai.rambles#i was feeling sad bc my grandma is in the hospital and when i went to visit her they wouldn’t let me pass bc my license is expired#which okay ik that’s my fault but i took my passport with me just in case and the guy straight up told me that it wasn’t a valid form of id#and im like yeah tf it is ITS A PASSPORT and he said no#and while i was waiting for my mom to come down to the lobby an old lady came in and he turned her away for the same thing#and dudeee okay you turn me away fine fuck off but an old ladyyy??? at that age they don’t pay attention to that just let her pass#and then he argued with another woman bc she brought a flower arrangement and it had water so he couldn’t allow it HELLOOO??!?#so i had to leave and went to go get breakfast for my mom at least bc she stayed the night and i was supposed to stay the day#and when i came back to give her the food she told me that the nurse that was with my grandma asked what happened bc she wasn’t expecting#my mom to return and when my mom told her she immediately got so angry bc that same guy#didn’t allow her and a couple other nurses to bring in a cake for one of the residents#who’s birthday is today and they had a full on argument this morning#so it was all in all awful and now my mom has been there for more than 20 hours until later tonight when my aunt goes over :(#anyway this turned into a whole rant im sorry but im so mad bc i know for a FACT that a passport is a valid form of id#and he was just being a fkn dick#but the girl called me pretty and it took some stress off and she really liked my blush#and i liked hers so we had a little makeup 101 exchange and it was so nice at least 🥺#and i have a couple cute asks to answer that have made my day as well so i’ll get to those in a few 🥰
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The Evil Dead (1981)
"Why have you disturbed our sleep, awakened us from our ancient slumber? You will die! Like the others before you, one by one, we will take you."
#the evil dead#1981#horror imagery#eye horror#gore tw#sam raimi#bruce campbell#ellen sandweiss#betsy baker#richard demanincor#theresa tilly#tom sullivan#joseph loduca#rob tapert#ted raimi#american cinema#video nasty#evil deadology#horror film#thus spake the people. evil dead won my poll on which horror franchise to work through next‚ and somehow this was the one that I'd not seen#a single second of; the entire trilogy (and various follow ups) passed me by. i still felt like i was coming into this knowing it beat for#beat because of the inevitable cultural osmosis you get when a film is this influential and this popular; i knew the plot‚ i knew Ash‚ i#knew what to expect. what i didn't expect was quite how good this was. received wisdom had it that this was the rough first indie film that#was followed by better‚ more polished instalments but i have to say‚ taken on its own merits‚ this is a hell of an achievement#it's immediately apparent both that this isn't just another DIY splatter nasty made to cash in‚ and that right from the get go Raimi was a#highly creative and fiercely original talent. there's no reason‚ if making a cheapy gore film‚ for Raimi to be shooting from behind the#swinging pendulum of a grandfather clock‚ or to include genuinely sweet character moments like Ash and Linda playing a cute game of#avoiding glances whilst he gives her the pendant (and so wonderfully and so darkly inverted later‚ as her demonic form plays the same game#whilst he digs her grave). seriously messed up fx in places‚ very real sense of dread‚ absolutely phenomenal sound design#sometimes the classics are classics for a reason. an absolute masterclass in indie shock horror and a massively fun time
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Reading moodboard #84430940 (Patreon)
#Doodles#I wonder what this is in reference to lol - could be anything really!#Bit funny actually - I was reading something else in overlap at the time - a fic from another fandom though it ended up not being for me#Different authors just speak to different people! It was fun to come back to something familiar and realize Just how much I appreciate it ah#Novel and familiar! My very favourite <3 And of course it was a wonderful experience on top of that hehe ♪♫#Numbers lol - I really have done way too much age headcanon math pfft#I just love timelines! And even if the hints aren't exact they /are/ hints and I'm going to use them!!#The numbers that are established are such fun markers - and using characterization as hints towards how many years have passed! Ah! ♪#Like how it's definitely possible that Max took a two year but considering his family he was probably pushed to do a four year#There's no confirmation either way but it's just so fun to consider what they'd do based on how they're written!#These are the kind of written math problems I enjoy hehe#I was being a bit self-deprecating for that doodle actually tho lol - art mimics life and all that pfft#Also confirmation of him being a Lit Major ❤️����💖💞💗 Small details give me big love you must understand this lol#As evidenced lol ♪ Adding to my playlist definitely didn't help it very strongly upgraded to Big Love for like a week straight lol#Terrible ♪ Couldn't stand it <3 Genuinely painful ♫#Lol - ''finding'' more - it's what had my blood on fire! I'm so grateful for mirrors#Anyone who's been following me for a while knows I have this whole thing about Legacy and what you leave behind and the internet in general#That the internet is forever except when it's not - that plenty of things get deleted or lost etc. etc. and it makes me very sad :(#So seeing that there was an in-built preservation - it only saved Some things but anything saved is precious!! It made me very happy <3#And then finishing off 💔💕 Beautifully heartbreaking ah#Even skim-reading later made me cry again! It's deeply affecting hhh#Another experience I'm so happy to be able to have ♥ Another tally on the wall haha <3
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i am once again apologizing for my lack of activity/responsiveness
my childhood cat passed away a few days ago which has just been more stuff on top of everything else for me to deal with to stress me out and upset me
i'll try to get back to stuff. Eventually. as soon as i can</3
#mar.txt#still very much upset about losing him,but it's kind of faded for numbness now#still not holding up great though especially considering how sudden it was#he was all fine and healthy and then just suddenly started to rapidly go downhill and within like. two days he was gone#he was so weak. couldn't move almost at all,his meows were barely just meow-sounding exhales. the last two things he did were#getting my attention so i would come to him,then attempted to crawl onto my lap and despite me being less than a foot away he couldn't make#it. so i brought him onto my bed on my lap with me. and then at some point later after another sudden onset of diarrhea (which seemed to#take absolutely all of his remaining strength) and i'd brought him back to my bed after cleaning the poop off of him he got my attention to#move his head so he could look up at me. and that's how he passed. looking up at me.#despite everything,he was purring. so weak and faint i could hardly feel it,but. he was purring,maybe until the moment he finally passed.#he was obviously suffering. and we couldn't afford to get someone to put him down so we just did what we could for him.#i'm glad that,at least,he was happy in his final moments. he wanted to be with me and i'm glad i could give him that. i HAD needed to go out#that day but i opted to stay home because i was worried he'd pass while i was gone. sure enough if i had gone out he would have.#i'm glad i could give him the comfort and company he wanted in his final moments. i'm glad i made him happy enough in them to purr even#despite how weak he was. i'm glad he didn't pass alone and possibly in pain.#ive lost a lot of pets in my life. but amos? he's only like. three years younger than me? we practically grew up together. ive known him his#entire life. no amount of being told it hurts to lose a childhood pet will ever compare to the reality of it happening.#i buried him outside my window. so he's close to home.#vent post? i guess?
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So, I met my nurse today and she said I'm finally getting scheduled for the ADHD testing on Dec 18th—after all these years. Albeit she said that it may not change a thing, but it's good to test it anyway.
I also had a discussion with my teacher today about my problems and we went through some stuff, and I might feel a little bit more enlightened about some things, which will hopefully help me.
Still. I'm having trouble with planning some stuff at my workplace because the staff there simply doesn't have time, and my instructor is also a very busy person (plus she's fussy and impatient and a little upset/disappointed with me which is not making it any easier for me), so that is still giving me a lot of stress right now.
So, I don't know. On the other hand, one teacher says I'm doing a good job and that I shouldn't quit. Then again, this particular school and their style of teaching simply might not be the thing for me and I expressed that concern today as well. I need help getting through with some stuff and nobody has time for me, so it's obviously not good.
I also need to find another place to train soon and that workplace would have to be something where I wouldn't have to manage 15 things at the same time and well. Finding that could be a challenge, too.
But. I suppose we're going somewhere.
#personal#last week i cried twice after a workday#and my nurse also mentioned today that i still have a learning disability which will definitely make things harder for me#but also that there's nothing that can be done about it so... great#so i mentioned this to my teacher and she wrote it down but#basically there are only two choices for me now#either i pass this training somehow and plan my displays at my current workplace so well that i never have to do this again#or i will only complete my training for this period and then find another workplace and do my displays there#i can't postpone them much later apparently or so i understood. so they are not giving a lot of choices there really#and we did talk about me considering another school as well#where i can spend more time in the classroom actually learning things and less time working and trying to study at the same time#because this clearly isn't working for me. i can't do two things at the same time. not well at least. and i want to do well#but i tried applying for that kind of school in this field last summer. i didn't get in & i was 8th in line#i would've gotten in working with kids instead. but that school was further away and i probably would've found it even more stressful#than what i'm doing now#so i don't know. this is so fucking stressful for me honestly#like i like what i'm doing but i also really hate what i'm doing because this also requires stuff from me that i am simply not good at#and i'd have to put extra energy into it but i don't have much energy in me right now tbh#ugh
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October 29th 2014 : DFB Pokal second round, Bayern-Hamburger SV (3-1) (part 1)
The first assist from Thomas Müller to Robert Lewandowski
#this goal is a presage because we will have to wait quite sometime before seeing another one but he exists to announce what will come later#this goal is a display of robert's intelligence who lets the ball go because he is offside#of thomas' determination and willingness who runs for the ball even if the situation looks desperate#and it's his efforts which gives hopes to lewy who decides to follow the action and encourages philipp to go for the pressing#and thomas' pressing makes the defender do a mistake#but it's such an intelligent pressing because he doesn't go for the ball or the player#he positions himself between the defender and the keeper to be on pass' trajectory#and then instead of trying to score himself he gives the ball to robert#who is perfectly positioned alone between the two defenders#he tries a first time and fail#but he stays focused and determined which helps him to react quickly and to succeed the second time#and then them pointing at each other ridiculously simultaneously#thomas müller#robert lewandowski#müllendowski#müllendowski anthology#fc bayern#bayern-hamburger sv#dfb pokal#2014/2015#remember me but forget my fate#19/?#edit because this isn't long enough 🙃#if you look closely thomas never looks up or looks around#he seems to only be focused on the ball#and he knows where lewy is and the pass is perfect
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I FUCKING HATE WRITING AUTOBIOGRAPHIES
#The first time we were introduced to that idea was by an arts teacher#she was very good. one of the best teachers we had. I loved her. but for the love of GOD I couldn't do it#I stopped trying with that task since it was optional anyway#BUT THEN#like two years later. our language and literature teacher tells us to do a biography and IT IS NOT OPTIONAL#I procrastinate the two months he gave us. and the day before handing in the work I do it but it barely passes the standard#I think “what a hassle. at least I won't have to do one of those again”#SURPRISE BITCH#God gives me a huge Fuck You#and now my philosophy teacher (who before assigning us this task was one of my favorites) tells us that if we don't do this he WILL fail us#messages to my friends: ANOTHER AUTOBIOGRAPHY. I don't like philosophy anymore. I hate it.#fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck#rant#personal rant#angry rant#autobiography#original post
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To be brutally honest, a lot of the issues with public school are because of parents. Negligent parents don’t give a shit when they get a phone call about their kid cussing out a classmate or throwing a chair, but they sure as hell care when they hear their precious baby got recess time taken away for acting up in class. Problem kids don’t care about getting sent to the office or being put in ISS, because to them, it’s a free vacation out of the classroom, and their parents don’t hold them accountable for their behavior, so they’re not scared about consequences at home, either. So then, teachers are facing pressure from “customer service mindset” admin to “handle it on their own,” which means teachers are having to constantly stop what we’re doing every five seconds to address behaviors instead of actually getting to teach the rest of the kids who do want to learn and get their work done, which ultimately puts everyone behind.
#it’s admin too tbh#in my school last year I saw two students get into a fight out of the blue from across the classroom#I called admin to come take them out#the AP emailed me later on all ‘’well what were YOU doing when this happened?’’#basically passing the blame onto me lol#apparently I’m supposed to have magic powers to physically control each kids at all times from every point in the room#meanwhile kids were back in my class the next day like nothing happened#parents were called and did not care#although one of the kids’ parents had called the office about me taking their kid’s recess time away another time#and I got in trouble for that#so basically these kids are learning they can do whatever they want with no consequences#whatever I’m done with teaching after this year#no one gives a shit about solving any of the real issues. I’m done!
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adding stuff to my cart because committing m*rder is illegal.
#angsti rambles#excuse me but it took me 1 hour and thirty to arrive to work#with a delay of thirty minutes#and like my hours are flexible so like I don't have a specific set of them#like I could arrive later and I'd have to stay later but ugh#but the fact is that I literally exited my house at 8:14 and the bus should arrive at 8:19#didn't pass alright let's move onto the one at 8:35#it didn't pass and we had no clue#I had to -> take one bus -> take another -> walk for ten minutes (btw also onto a suspended bridge that gives me anxiety)#just to arrive with thirty minutes of delay#and discover on the bus from some girls that it's likely because these fuckers are doing construction works and didn't have the decency#to even warn people ahhh
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the phenomenon of sitting next to your crush in a gay manner.
#🍂 arian's shit#🌌 arian contemplates his universe#arian's friend may be the prettiest boy he has ever seen#three p.m to four pm was cool#after school and he's there too#i was going to take a seat to another table and he told me to come sit next to him#pretty cool.#and then then#he takes the same bus as me#i mean sort of#i take two buses and the first bus is the same one we take and he had left school a little later than i have after school#off with his friends before (there is this unspoken rule that i can't really interact with him when he's with his macho guy friends#people think i am a girl and fucking morons have this idea that girl + boy = dating ????#so yeah can't interact with him and have got to pretend he doesn't really exist like today where we were in the bus terminal and he was#with his friend and i passed by them trying not to make eye contact#and then he had to go to his bus which is my bus and i tagged along with him#gave him a pocky stick thing#and we got on the bus#now there's also this unspoken rule that if there's an empty bus you shouldn't sit DIRECTLY next to someone#there are like millions of more seats and just. don't sit next to someone. give them the space.#was going to take another seat after he sat down and he looks at me and is like “you can sit next to me. if you would like.”#so i do. WE TALK !!! i really like him like fuckk#he is so pretty to look at#he is so nice and funny#the tales of a boy who is going to be bald
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in a perfect world, jetspike happens and they have a skitty.
#doodles#fanart#cowboy bebop#trainer bebop#pokemon#jet black#spike spiegel#post rfb…but years later…….#i like to think theyve retired from bounty hunting at this point but im not sure what else they would do tbh!!!#i have ideas#but anyways. they live on solid ground now and faye gifted them a skitty.#at this point shadow has passed away…and maybe jet eventually gets another dog!!!#but right now he gets a cat.#because spike needs another pink pokemon and how could i not give him a cat.#shes usually sleeping on the windowsill…#shes also the first pokemon jets actually shared#the first he gifted away but eventually effectively took back…the second was ein who followed ed instead.#skitty gets a name that starts with ‘’s’ ive decided but idk what yet.#she likes to feel tall (perches atop spike)#also yes ive decided that jetspike can be canon to the au now. as a treat. for me.#sweet pea
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hi i'll get to a few more blurbs after my event tomorrow mwa.
#my schedule is getting busiers again hsudjsjsja makes me ANGRY bcs there are so many good prompts in my inbox rn hushshshsjs#i have another debate next week. a research abstract due. an lgu profiling due. two long quizzes. kill me now 👩🦯👩🦯👩🦯#anyway watched the latest zb1 mafia ep while working ricky looked as pretty as ever 😔😔#ppl in the comments praising wook and hao and yes they played smart but give my man gyuvi some credit too he hardcarried.#have to review a few more documents for tomorrow (later's) event then pass out bcs i have to get up at 7am to set up our stage design 😭😭😭#november u r so mean 2 me
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#life be giving me whiplash lately lmao#my banana boat is down again - an oil leak that shorted my starter 🙃#stressful time of year because we're coming up on both dads birthday and one year since his passing just a few weeks later#but I also finally bit the bullet and fessed up to the dude ive had feelings for for a while now#totally set myself up for disappointment because thats just been what lifes been handing me for the last year and a half or so#but it actually went really fuckin' well#he was essentially in the same boat as me#definitely FEELING something but valuing the friendship so much that it crippled us both#we've both helped one another grow so much over the last year or so and sort of restored a bit of one anothwrs' faith in humanity#didnt wanna risk fuckin' that up#plus he just assumed I wouldn't feel that way#but yeah it went really well and I'm REALLY proud of myself for taking that leap of faith 🥹#i told him I'm not expecting anything right out the gates#mostly just trying to open that dialog with him and to spend more time together#see where things go#met up in person to talk about it a bit today and be brought me a fuckin' bouquet 🥺😭#this is some straight up 'mutual pining but they're idiots' shit 😂#but its cute and im glad it ended up the way it did 💚#AND I've already had the asexuality discussion with him so he knows and is entirely cool with it 🥹💚#actually had that talk before feelings evem came into the equation
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