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fishfooddude · 1 month ago

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I Hate New York.

Part 3 of the Would you still love me if I was a worm? series

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“So she’s keeping the baby… and you’re moving in together… in New York?” Natalie asked slowly, trying to make sense of the info dump Carmy had given everyone at The Bear during family service that evening. Carmy nodded; he’d had this stupid love-struck smile plastered on his face since you had your conversation a few weeks ago.

“Yeah, she got this big promotion. I’m proud of her and wanna be with her and my kid, so we’re going to New York next week,” Carmy confirmed. Natalie wanted to be happy for you and Carmy, but she had this gut feeling that something would happen. She didn’t know how to explain it, but since becoming a mother herself, she could just sense when something would go down.

“I’m just- I’m just worried, Carmy. You two are moving fast. I just want to ensure you’re sure you want this.” Carmy shook his head at Natalie’s words. Ever since the two of you had decided to keep the baby and move in together- in New York, everyone seemed to share the opinion of the two of you moving ‘too quickly.’

“Sugar, I’m happy. Like- really happy. I never thought I’d have this… I love Y/N, and I know we haven’t been together all that long, but this feels right.” Carmy explained as he leaned against the wall of Natalie’s kitchen. She sighed in reply, but before she could say anything, cries came from the baby monitor. “Saved by the cryin’ baby.”

Natalie laughed, “Well, since you’re so ready to be a Dad, why don’t you go check on your niece?”

“Okay, here we have oven-roasted sweet potatoes with sauteed corn and squash. Then there's a kale salad with pumpkin seeds and lentils-”

“Carmy, I swear to god. You need to stop making me eat all these damn vegetables,” you whined as you slumped back on the couch. You heard him chuckle from the kitchen before joining you. Carmy squeezed your knee and stomped your feet as you pushed your hands through your hair. Carmy heartily laughed and leaned over to gently kiss your ever-growing baby bump.

“My love, I want that baby to come out all happy and healthy. You’re doin’ all the work in growin’ the baby and keepin’ her all safe and cozy- feeding you everything that little girl needs to be all nice and healthy is all I can do.” Carmy cooed as he rubbed soft, slow circles against your bump and lovingly gazed up at you. You laughed and pushed his hair out of his face.

“Let me eat a freakin’ donut. And some hot chips.” you groaned, “I am a hard-workin’ lady, and I can’t have a damn glass of wine or go to the Coral Omakase dinner my boss is throwing… don’t make me eat more vegetables.” Carmy laughed at your explanation and rested his cheek on your bump. You glared at him and pouted, “Are you really going to deny your pregnant girlfriend a donut? …And maybe some Sour Patch Kids…”

“I just want you and our baby girl to be healthy. All the books-”

“Carmy, I just want one donut.” you pleaded, giving him your best puppy dog expression.

Carmy groaned and moved to bury his face in your cleavage. “She’s gonna be able to do that too, huh? That look? She’s gonna have me wrapped around her little finger.”

You laughed and glanced at the clock, “I gotta go, babe. Thank you for making me lunch- even if it’s 90% vegetables.” Carmy rolled his eyes as he helped you get up from the couch. “Only a couple more weeks until you don’t have to help me up from the couch.”

“Well, in six weeks, I’ll be helpin’ ya with other stuff.” Carmy added before kissing your cheek, “Have a good day, and make sure you drink enough water.”

“You got it, Dr. Berzatto, my unofficial OBGYN.” you saluted and gave him a short side hug. Carmy laughed, and you walked out of the living room. He watched as you grabbed your bag from the floor and your lunch box from the counter. “I love you. See you tonight.” you smiled as you exited the apartment.

“Bye, baby,” Carmy called as he shoved his hands into the pockets of his sweatpants. He rocked on his heels before walking into the kitchen to do the dishes. Carmy had a routine since the two of you moved to New York. He did what he could for The Bear, mostly ordering and menu ideas. It never felt like enough, but Carmy couldn’t work at a New York restaurant again with the baby on the way. He was anxious enough about his impending paternity to ever work in a New York kitchen again; the idea of it made his ulcers flair up.

Carmy spent his days reading books about pregnancy and parenting. He became a regular at the local bookshop and library, getting his hands on everything he could. Being a Dad was unknown territory to him, and he didn’t have many fond memories of his father. He remembered overhearing his mom and dad fighting before his dad left and inevitably got arrested. Uncle Jimmy and Mikey were the closet things he’d had to a father figure, and with Mikey being gone, Uncle Jimmy was the best he could, and there was still a certain level of difficulty for the emotional side of ‘father figuring’ that Jimmy couldn’t fulfill for Carmy.

Carmy refused to let that cycle continue. Although he didn’t always understand his emotions, he was trying to do better for his daughter. That afternoon, after doing the laundry, he decided to tackle the last few things he needed to do in the nursery.

Soft pastel yellow walls were still bare, furniture needed to be assembled, and things needed to be organized. Walking into the nursery always brought a wave of peace over Carmy. Sweet stuffed animals sat on a shelf by the window with a collection of children's books and a basket of other baby needs. The box containing the crib leaned against the wall, along with a collection of paintings Carmy had done but hadn’t hung yet. In the corner was a vintage rocking chair the two of you had found at a flea market when you’d first moved. Carmy stood in the center of the room and couldn’t help but smile.

“Hey, I’m home,” you called as you entered the apartment that evening. “Carm?” you called when you saw he wasn’t in the living room or kitchen. You walked down the hall and saw the nursery door was askew. “Carm?” you asked as you nudged the door open.

“Oh my god.” you gasped as you saw the completed nursery before you, “You- Carmy.”

He looked over his shoulder and shot you a smile, “Hi, baby.”

“You finished the nursery?”

He nodded in response, “You like it, baby? I can change-”

“Carmy, I love it.” you cut him off as you fully entered the nursery. As you looked around the room, noticing all the small details, you’d absentmindedly started rubbing your bump. Carmy smiled and got up from the floor, placing his hands over yours after closing the small gap between you. You smiled up at him, “Thank you, Carmy.”

Carmy shrugged, “I just wanna be a good dad.”

“You are.” you smiled as you tip-toed up to kiss his nose. Carmy chuckled and shifted his hands from yours and around your sides to rest on your lower back. He laced his fingers together before pulling you as close as your bump allowed.

“I just wanna be different.” Carmy sighed, “My Dad wasn’t around much… people haven’t been the most supportive of all this, but I wanna be good for her.” Carmy put his chin on your shoulder as he spoke. “I want her to feel safe and loved… wanted.”

You wrapped your arms around Carmy’s neck as he spoke, “She will, Carm. She will.”

“You’re gorgeous.” Carmy complimented as he leaned against the bathroom doorframe. You rolled your eyes and continued curling your hair. He clicked his tongue and entered the bathroom, “Hey, you are.”

You giggled as Carmy hopped onto the bathroom counter and leaned against the mirror with his arms folded across his chest as he lovingly watched you. “You’re just sayin’ that. I’m freakin’ huge.”

“Yeah. With MY baby…” Carmy smirked as his eyes roamed your body. You felt a blush coming over your face as you shook your head. He chuckled and watched you finish your hair. As you unplugged your curling wand, he hopped down from the counter and came up behind you. You smiled at him in the mirror as he rested his chin on your shoulder and rubbed your bump through your oversized t-shirt. “Pregnant with my baby…” he muttered as he turned his head to nip at your neck.

“Carmy…” you giggled, “I gotta go to work…”

“Be late…” he snickered as he trailed kisses up your neck to the pulse point below your ear. You bit your lip at the feeling of his teeth graze over the sensitive skin. “Let me take care of you… you’re so fuckin’ sensitive; I’ll make you cum fast.”

You leaned against Carmy’s body and let your head fall to the side, giving him more access to your neck. Carmy left a trail of gentle, wet kisses on your neck before turning you in his arms and kissing your lips. A whiny moan escaped your throat as Carmy’s hands traveled down your back. He took the opportunity to slip his tongue into your mouth as his hands slid over your butt and hooked under your thighs. You squealed as Carmy lifted you onto the bathroom counter. He chuckled and broke the kiss, leaving you desperate for more, “You are incredible.” he smiled, running a thumb over his cheekbone.

Carmy looked at you as he moved his hands to your knees and slowly spread them as he lustfully gazed into your eyes, making you melt. His hands traveled up your thighs toward your hips. As he hooked his thumbs in the band of your sleep shorts, you felt a tingle surge through your body. You leaned back on your palms and lifted your hips, making it easier for Carmy to pull them down. After dropping the shorts on the floor, Carmy’s hands were back on your hips. He gently pulled you to the edge of the counter, giving him easier access to your exposed pussy. You felt your cheek get hot as he sank to his knees.

“What baby? You nervous?” he chuckled as he stared up at you. You shook your head and bit your lip, “Then what is it?” he asked as he softly kissed your inner thigh. Your body jolted at the sudden sensation, making Carmy smirk against your skin before placing another kiss higher than the last.

“I haven’t-” You paused your sentence with a soft whine as Carmy pushed your thighs farther apart and kissed higher. “I haven’t shaved in a while…”

Carmy shook his head as his lips finally reached your center, “I don’t care, baby.” he spoke softly. Before you could protest, he kissed your lips, making you twitch. Carmy inhaled your scent as he slowly ran his tongue up the length of your core, flicking his tongue when he reached your clit. You moaned softly and struggled to look over your bump to watch as Carmy devoured your core.

“Carmy!” you gasped, sitting up suddenly in bed that evening. He shifted half-asleep, mumbling something you couldn’t quite make out. “Carmy!” you urged, smacking his shoulder, causing him to shoot up.

“Is the baby coming?” he scrambled to find the switch on his bedside table as he spoke. As light filled the room, he saw you protectively holding your bump. “Baby? What’s wrong?” he worried.

“Somethings wrong…”

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lucidl0ser · 9 days ago

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So, saw your post and I love it!! So want to begin with I’m sorry if your requests aren’t open 😓😭 it stands they close so sorry if they are. But I still wanna ask. Can we get like THOSE sweet Tokyo revengers boys with a chronically ill reader? To be exact she has Bechterew (sometimes it’s called ankylosing spondylitis), if u don’t know what it is do research. Personally I also Gert very tried from it as well, and the medicine ofc. And yes, I have this I have had it since 14 💪🏻 but don’t worry I have learned to live with this shit and it’s fine. (I’m 17 know if ur wondering). But like here’s the twist to it all, I very often pretend like I’m not sick, often trying to do things that I shouldn’t, but I also don’t really complain or tell people about it either. They mostly discover it when they ask why I take so many meds or about my medical checkups. (That I have once every three months).

I admire how strong you are, and I'm glad you're happy and healthy despite everything!! I hope you enjoy! I choose a few that I think are sweet, I hope you don't mind! If i didn't chose one you were looking forward too, just ask for a part 2 and I'll write it!

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Sweet Tokyo Revengers boys with chronically ill! Reader

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Takemichi(he barely gets any x reader content guys)

○ Takemichi had no idea at first. You had to straight up tell him about your disability before he actually got it. After he did tho, he did his best to make your life just a little easier

○ He wouldn't notice if you were acting okay, even if you were in immense pain, but even so, he accidentally helps you feel better, even if it's just taking your mind off all the pain with his talking. He's very helpful unknowingly

Chifuyu

○ Chifuyu noticed your disability very quickly. He's not that stupid. Afterwards, he'd often ask how he can help and would often check in. If you're in lots of pain or upset, don't worry, you can pet Peke J! He always makes Chifuyu feel better so it's bound to work on you

○ He knows how hard it can be keeping track of so many medications, and if you'd let him, he'd decorate your pill bottles with special stickers to make it easier to tell them apart

Kakucho

○ As soon as he learns about your disability, he feels so much sympathy. He's gotta help you feel better and make you happy

○ If you get tired when out, he immediately offers to carry you til you get home or somewhere comfortable to rest. He's strong enough to hold you, and he doesn't mind♡

Souya

○ Despite how angry he looks on the outside, Souya is such a sweetheart. He's so caring and careful with your disability. He never wants to put you in pain or make you uncomfortable

○ He carries around your medication for you and anything you might need. Pain killers? He's got them. A heat patch? Got it. Drink? Already has it. He's very prepared and wants to make sure you're as happy as can be!

Mitsuya

○ Takashi is very understanding of disabilities. Some girls in his club have disabilities, so he's very prepared. He's very understanding if you just want some space or if you need help. He also knows if you're hiding your pain. He doesn't shame you, he just lets you know he's there if you need anything at all

○ He's very careful when you're over at his place, making sure to tell Mana and Luna to be careful around you. The last thing he needs is for you to be in any unnecessary pain. But the two are as gentle with you as Takashi is. Mana even offered you one of her dolls to hug when she sees you're in pain♡

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igotanidea · 2 years ago

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Father's day present : dad!Jason Todd x mum!reader

I'm so in love with this graphic UwU.

Requested by @parkjammys: sweet Jason fluff of him and his girls celebrating his first Father's Day, and although his baby girl is only a like year old she just knows her mum is giving dad kisses and copies her. (hope this will lift your spirits a bit, candice :) )

This is just purest form of fluff. Get your tissues ready.

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„Who’s my little sunshine?” Y/N cooed standing above the cradle watching her 1 year old daughter with a bright smile and yet, slightly wet eyes.

God!

If a year ago someone told her, that despite all the vigilantism she will have a kid with Jason, she would simply laugh at that person face.

But now? Now, she was the happiest woman on earth. She had an amazing partner and a child, both of whom she loved with all her heart. And it was even better since it was fully reciprocated.

“Gagagaga” d/n babbled, putting her little fingers in her mouth, laughing at her mother’s funny face, looking just so adorable.

“Oh, my little one” Y/N reached inside and her daughter immediately extended her tiny arms, ready to be lifted and hugged. “Who’s mummy’s daughter?” Y/N rubbed d/n nose, getting another giggle “You are. Yes, you are. Oh, I love you so much, peanut” the girl kissed the top of her daughter head, rubbing her back and holding her tightly to her chest. “And your daddy loves you too. And why we speak of your dad, we have a very special day today, you know….”

“Dada, dada, dada…..”

“Yes, honey. Dada. That’s right.” Y/N sighed “It’s Jay’s first father’s day and we are both going to make sure it’s special for him. God knows, how much he had to go through to get just a bit of happiness with us.”

“Dada!” d/n crowed again, squirming in her mother’s arm as apparently she saw something behind. At first, Y/N got scared that some assassin broke into the house and were to attack, hurt or kidnap them both, giving Jace another trauma instead of a happy father’s day (can you blame her considering the past experience?), but it was just the talk of the devil.

“Well, hello to you two my lovely daughter and her equally lovely mother.” Jason smiled brightly, closing the door behind him.

“Hi, honey.” Y/N whispered taking a moment to appreciate him being safe and healthy, not bruised, bloodied, scared or bleeding. Despite the fact that he didn’t fully give up on his vigilantism, he was far more careful during patrols. He knew what he had to loose. And that little moments, where they could just be a normal family, laughing and spending time together were everything for Y/N.

“How was my troublemaker today?” Jason took a step forward, leaning over and pecking Y/N’s forehead “did you get some time for yourself?”

“Just a bit. But you know, d/n is definitely father’s daughter” Y/N let out a chuckle “quicksilver. Gotta keep an eye on her cause otherwise….”

“Oh, I know what can happen. Do you need rest, love?”

“No, not really” the girl shook her head “I rest best knowing I have you two with me. But. Since it’s your celebration, we got a little gift for you. Can you take her so I can bring it?” Y/N handed the daughter to Jace who grabbed her tightly and did a little helicopter in the air, making funny sounds and entertaining his little girl. And to think that he was the one worried he would be a bad father.

He was the best.

“Wait, you said my celebration?” he frowned a bit, confused “it’s not my birthday or anything like that so what….?

“Oh, please, don’t tell me you forgot” Y/N yelled from the other room and soon came back holding a small paper bag “It’s father’s day, obviously.”

“Oh.” Jason’s eyes grew wide. His very first father’s day. The second that thought hit him, his eyes watered a bit. There was still this little, vicious voice inside, that sometimes told him that he did not deserve any of this. That after everything he did, he should not ever interfere with anyone’s life. That no matter how hard he would try, one or both of his girl will end up getting hurt because of him.

“Jace….” Y/N quickly approached him, cupping his cheek, recognizing all the signs of his doubts and memories and impending mental breakdown “Jason, baby, look at me.” He listened, his eyes focusing on her pretty face “I love you.” she simply said “your daughter loves you. We need you, baby. The past is in the past, what you did or who you were does not define you, you hear me? That was not you.”

“thank you….” he whispered “it’s just…. a lot.”

“I know, love, but you are not alone. Hell, you should know by now you will never be. You got us. You got family, Jason.”

“I love you both.”

“We know.” Y/n smiled and stood on her tiptoes, capturing Jason’s lips in hers quickly, pulling away way too soon for his liking. So taking the initiative, adjusting his grip on his daughter, he wrapped his other hand around the mother, pulling her back.

“I’m not done with you.” he mumbled, leaning forehead on hers.

“Really?” Y/N smiled, pecking his right cheek and then left and then his nose, giggling.

“Still not enough.” he connected their mouths again, kissing her with all the love and passion he felt. Jason was not good with words, especially with the big ones, but his actions and his gestures were the best expression of them and Y/N learned that through the years they were together.

“Jason!” the girl squealed and pulled away the second she felt his hand sneak under her T-shirt “Not in front of our daughter! And not now!”

“Later than?” his eyes became a bit darker as he watched the blush creeping on Y/N’s cheek. At this point answer wasn’t even necessary. “Besides.” He continued as d/n started wriggling a bit “I don’t think our grig mind us being all touchy-feely towards each other.”

“What do you…?” Y/N started, but as her gaze landed on her daughter she couldn’t hold back a laugh. D/N put her little arms on Jason’s shoulder for some balance as she leaned forward pressing her little, soft lips against his cheek leaving a wet mark. And then she giggled and repeated the action two more times.

“mamamamama”

“Oh yes, that’s right. That’s what mummy does to make daddy feel better” Jason whispered, heart clenched with all the feelings “guess she got her observational skills and intelligence from you, Y/N. Thank you.”

“For what?”

“For making this the best father’s day I could ever imagine.”

“You didn’t even open your present yet…..” Y/N pointed out.

“You both are my presents. I just want to be with you and hold you. Is that ok?” he whispered.

“Sure, Jason. As long as you want.”

“Perfect.” He sighed deeply and closed his eyes, minds wandering in some places only he knew. “But I still get to open that bag, right?” it only took him a minute to get back to his smug attitude he didn’t lose during the years.

“Sure, babe. We definitely have a no return policy when it comes to any present.”

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leafryoworks · 9 months ago

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I'm going to tell you what your favourite character in the amazing digital carnival says about you .

Please note that this isn't serious and I'm just want this to be silly . I might overdone in a few segments . Carnival au belongs to @sm-baby .

Caine : Autistic creature . You're probably afraid of being underachieved by people younger than you and you try so hard to not let it show . You tend to crave company but your differences also make you a tad left out by others . Still you got a special skill that you're sure only you have ! ...right ? Don't worry because while it may seem dark right know , the sun will come up and maybe the friends you need will come and find you .

Pomni : The most girlfailure . You tend to try to have your sh-uhm , responsibilities and thoughts pulled together to be a functioning adult but not all things probably pulled off succesfully . Still it's the thought that matters and the worst thing you could do is not try at all . Do that thing you wanted , you never know what might happen .

Queenie : You got underlying mommy issues . She gives you the classic wine aunt you never get to experience . There are things that you couldn't control , you might say it collars you down to your place . But...remember the loved ones by your side . They may not be able to offer the freedom you seek and...they may not be the best people they are right know but the worst thing you could do is abandon the ones that cared about you .

Kinger : Silly and a bit kooky . Trauma changes who you are and there are moments you're not at the best headspace . You probably seek entertainment to lose your sense of reality and not face the sadness and tragedy knowing it would rock your world in the worst case . You need someone to hold your hand , to give you company...eventhough you know subconciously that it's not real .

Jax : The artist who lost his motivation . You're a bit curious on how things tend to work and likes seeing the colour red on paper . The reason I only draw something so violent on paper was to let my anger out and you know what I'm trying to say connecting to this segment . And yet we all know that anger is just overwhelming sadness that you don't know how to let out . We all got problems and things that aren't aligned with others regarding in coping mechanisms . And yet...eventhough you might say you don't need them , who are you lying to ?

Ragatha : Mommy issues ! Abandoment issues ! You can't florish under pressure and negativety or else your heart will ached and cause you to not breathe . That's why you try to make things more easier for others so when they're happy , you're happy . If they're sad , you're sad . Literally . You hold on to your beliefs because no way you're wrong eventhough the evidence is right infront of you ! You live to serve for others because if you have no worth , why...did they kept you around ?...sorry , I got overprojecting , hah . The least you could do is actually let people have their say eventhough it's sad . Bottled up emotions are not healthy and might ruin you and the people you care in a long run . There are things you gotta accept eventhough it might go against on your beliefs . You can't control things in a happy get going situation , this ain't a tv show you can script 24/7 .

Gangle : Maladaptive dreamer . You don't know what's real and what's not fake . The people , the friends you make , are they real ? Your family even ? It's blurry as you toed the line and you find it hard to believe that they are real people you interact with eventhough you know it's true . Sometimes you could be doing work and panicked realizing you're in the real world and not in the world you made up in your head . You rather live your live in ecstasy while dreading the reality that awaits you outside . But enough of that , you got your blorbos in your head to keep your company because they're real ! ...but in your head or is there more...?

Zooble : The cool protector . You tend to protect those who are high up in your list and would be the one nodding your head sagely as your bestfriend rambles about their crush . You care about people just not overcaring to Ragatha's extent . People think you're cool and you probably are . And there are things , secrets that you have to hide of a friend from your other friends because...you know it's the best for their situation . Somethings have to be kept under high security for the best of your friends . You know it's for their best of them and you have to carry the burden to keep the people you care safe . That's your job .

Able : Charmer . You worked so hard to learn and understand your loved one's interests and going as far to be an expert on it . Surely when you are a master of it then you guys can talk and hang out more . What's wrong with that ? You just want to understand them a bit more closer but if that's not working then there must be something wrong . Maybe you're not trying enough so you would try harder . Time to hit the books ! There's nothing wrong with you , don't let the voices in your head fool you !

Bubble : He's so silly ! He reminds you of a pet you wanna pampare and put in a play pen .

Kaufmo : You chose the funniest guy in the cast , huh ? Excellent choice . You like jokes , bad ones even told by others because it means they have thought of cheering people up and that really touched your heart . You tend to be silenced eventhough you are right and yet sometimes they don't wanna listen . The other half is that they do listen , they just don't care . Eventhough the world may not look at it's prime for a moment , you knew you have to keep trying to make the best of it eventhough your attempts may not succeed . But it's better trying than not even trying at all , right ?

Alright people , that's a wrap ! Sorry if it may offend some of you so just letting you guys know it's not 100% accurate , okay ? Okay .

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alicenpai · 2 months ago

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🌟 ART SUMMARY 2024 🥂

this was a year where i didnt draw a lot, despite that, i tried to make every drawing count. thank you all for the support in 2024, here's to 2025 ! 🫶

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i continued my goals from last year with regards to perfectionism. the tldr is that i strongly feel my perfectionism kept me away from completing as many drawings as i could, and i had to make an effort to just finish drawings no matter how lukewarm I felt about them. especially since i could just edit them a bit afterwards, i've tried to get over the fear of reuploading. 2024 was a strange year, it came and went in the blink of an eye, even more than previous years! life has been stressful, so i've been trying to focus more on myself and taking time off drawing. ironic, although i think i succeeded in that above goal, i expected to get more drawings out of it, but ended up taking more time off drawing anyways. towards the end of the year, i started feeling more burnt out, and drawing became a slow and arduous process. i think part of the reason was because 2024 was my first year doing 5 events - 2 full weekend conventions (anime north and otakuthon), and 3 single day events (bamtori fall aapi market, toronto game expo, bamtori jinglebam market), when in the past 2 years i'd just opt to do 1-2 local cons. it was also my first time doing single day events, which were super chill! although you have to both set up and tear down on the same day, i felt more casual at those events, had more time to chat and look around. back to my point - despite being fun, doing so many events took its toll on me - especially during the colder months of the year, where i wasn't so used to going to events haha! usually i take fall as the time to rejuvenate and recover from summer events, but i couldn't really do that this year. i kept questioning myself, "does this drawing have appeal? will people buy this?" "is my art hireable?" and it's just not a healthy mindset to have. next year i'll try to draw more of what i enjoy and what's on my mind, instead of worrying too much if it's sellable! *feeling like the HAHA YES sickos meme* - 2025 art goals outlined below: - oc zine (aiming for a character guide with some test comics) - character interactions & poses! e.g. dancing, hugs - generally stuff that's more difficult to draw. my art is more illustrative, but sometimes i wished it was more engaging emotionally? like i want people to smile and cry with my characters... - illustrations that challenge me. when i say illusts that challenge me it's pretty abstract - do research and gather inspiration for every illust.. compositions that are difficult/complex and take a while to draft.. strong theme.. it's more for me to understand AHAHAHA. as the years go by you can see my art becoming more unified in theme and self indulgent... i want to keep going, i want to make art that is uniquely mine. less priority: - get used to sketching! truly miss how i used to fill up sketchbooks every year - sticker sheets (this is on the less priority list bc i will probably fulfill this goal regardless) - oc merch (happy with the stickers i made in the last 2 yrs, let's keep going!) - silly things! e.g. 4koma, silly doodles. comedy is an art, it IS a skill you can study and chip away at (e.g. comedians and comedy writers). make sure i take notes on really stand-out jokes i find funny & why

other various things to try and draw more of: - group pictures - animals - layouts and props. i find layouts and anything with hard surfaces difficult to draw, which is why i draw a lot of flowers and fabric LMAO. one thing i gotta do is start by either drawing characters holding props more (easy baby steps!) and/ or start drawing props around them and make my way towards harder things (e.g. practice drawing a character sitting, i'll start by drawing a simple chair, then a table, then objects on that table). this is also one of my weaknesses - draw the ground they're standing on if possible, e.g. characters standing on a grid - vehicles, if i can. i mostly draw stuff from fantasy series where cars don't exist LOL but i'll try...

#art summary #art summary 2024 #my art

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gaybananabread · 1 year ago

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I'm so excited to participate in your augtickletober! For number 28, please consider writing lee kirishima! with ler todoroki from my hero academia hehehe, a relaxing massage seems nice~ By the way if the number is already taken, feel free to change to any numbers (probably number 29 or 24 as backups just in case 28 got taken), thank youu!!

TickleTober Day 28 - Massage

Oooooh not a pairing I write for often! Still, the skrimblos must have their fun. Kiri would be the kinda guy to massage his friends, so nice! I hope you Enjoy!

Lee: Todoroki

Ler: Kirishima

Summary: A stressed-out Todoroki passes Kirishima, the boy’s mama-bear instincts kicking in. An innocent massage to help him relax leads to a rather tickly situation.

Warnings: none! This is a tickle fic, so if you don't like that, scroll away!!

Todoroki was stressed, to say the least. Working tirelessly to get his Provisional License, training hard to stay on top, and regular classwork had him going pretty much non-stop. Cold soba was his only escape, and even that was starting to lose its effect. It was all wearing on him, keeping his muscles tense and eyes sunken with dark bags.

The dual-quirked teen sauntered into the dorm’s kitchen, in search of his comfort food. His shoulders ached from tension, his neck and back in similar condition. The cold soba was the only thing he wanted at that moment. When he opened the fridge door, though, he deflated. “Damn it…” He had forgotten to make more the night before, exhausted from another night of rigorous training.

Kirishima walked into the room, a bright smile on his face. “Hey, Todoroki! How’s it…going.” He saw the other student’s tired, saddened form, concern blooming on his face. “Are you okay, man?”

He sighed, closing the door and cutting off the cool air. Was he okay? He wasn’t sure he knew the answer himself. “Uhm…yes. Why do you ask?”

That only made the bubbly teen’s brows furrow. “Because you look very not okay. You’re more tense than Aizawa sensei after dealing with Bakubro and Midoriya.” He smiled softly, a small huff of air escaping him. Though they didn't interact much, Todo knew he could trust the boy and enjoyed his company. “Maybe I am a little wound up.”

Kiri chuckled, getting a bit closer and opening the fridge. He noticed the lack of his classmate’s favorite dish. “If you want, I could help. I’m not the greatest cook, but I could try and make you some soba. Maybe a massage or something.”

The massage option caught his attention. He was stupidly tense; he could use a break. “I wouldn’t mind a massage, if you’re willing to give one.”

“So formal, Todobro. You’ve gotta loosen up a bit.” He was more than happy to help out his classmate, moving over to one of the dorm couches. “And of course, I’m happy to. You wanna sit down and I’ll help?”

He nodded, following him and sitting down beside the red-haired teen. Normally, he wouldn’t have been so accepting of the concerned gesture. Midoriya and the others had been working with him on asking for help, though; it was working. Kiri went right to work, rubbing circles in his shoulders. It was unfair how quickly the tension began to ease.

Eijirou moved methodically, working to ease his peer’s tense muscles. The sheer amount of knots he had to work out concerned him. “Jeez, man. You’ve really gotta take more breaks. This isn’t healthy.”

A small hum came from the tense teen; he was too lost in the calming feeling to do much else. At first, when Kiri was working his shoulders, it felt wonderful. He could feel the tension leaving, the tight pains fading to dull aches or going entirely.

As time passed, Kirishima’s hands wandered, moving to the base of his ribs and back. A small, annoying buzz came with the release, making him smile. Todoroki squirmed a little, trying to distract himself from the feeling.

Kirishima noticed the squirms, pulling his hands away. “You good? Sorry if I hurt you, I’m a little rusty.” Of course that’s where his mind went. That boy was too kind. “No, it’s fine. Just needed to move.” With a nod, the massage continued, right back at the dreaded spot.

Okay, that was fine. He could handle a little buzzing, no problem. At least, he thought he could, until Kirishima moved upwards again, gently poking his neck to feel for tension. Todo went rigid, a small giggle escaping him. Oh, he was screwed.

“Todoroki…are you ticklish?” Previous statement retracted. Kirishima wasn’t nice at all for asking. He knew the answer already, and knew the other boy would lie. “Uh, no. Just, um, thought of something funny.”

Bullshit. Kiri sniffed out the obvious lie, deciding to toy with his friend. “Okay then. I’ll be more gentle, just because.” He went back to massaging the other teen’s neck, making sure to scritch his nails on the skin every once in a while. Todoroki bit his lip, thankful his back was to the hero-in-training. Rosy cheeks and a poorly suppressed smile didn’t really help his case.

This continued for about a minute; Kiishima gently massaging the other teen, occasionally letting his nails scrape the sensitive skin, and Todoroki trying desperately to stay quiet. The bright boy’s patience was wearing thin, and although he’d love to continue massaging his friend, the giggle was too enticing. He gave up on subtlety, going and simultaneously squeezing both Todoroki’s sides.

He muffled a yelp, jolting forwards and grabbing the crimson student’s hands. There was no denying it now; Todoroki was ticklish, and Kirishima was gonna help him let loose. Kiri wrapped his legs around the other’s torso, pulling him back and against his chest. It was a classic Kiri play-fight move, one most of the other students feared and loved; it meant that he was about to get it.

Ten fingers drilled into both his sides, pulling a few surprised giggles from the serious teen. He tried to squirm out of it, but he was essentially trapped in a hug; pinned both around the middle by wiggling fingers and waist by strong legs, Todoroki was trapped. He probably could’ve burned his way out of the hold, but he would never purposefully hurt his classmate.

“Wow, so wiggly, Todobro. I’m just trying to get you to relax! Like these sides, they must be tense if you’re fighting it this much!” He knew that wasn’t why he was squirming so much, but it was an “excuse” to continue the tickling. Besides, teasing him was fun. He experimentally scribbled Todo’s navel, The results were better than he could’ve hoped for.

“K-KIHIRISHIMAHA! NOHOHO!” He practically squealed when he felt the boy’s nails on his belly button, his cheeks almost matching his left hair as he laughed. Kirishima adored the sound, happy that his classmate trusted him enough to cut loose like that. He didn’t really have much of a choice, but still. “Aww, there we go. You gotta release all that inner turmoil and stress, bro. Laughter is perfect!”

His well-meaning teases were completely unfair. Todoroki drummed his feet on the couch, twisting and shoving at his classmate’s hands. He didn’t totally hate what was happening, but still, it tickled! He just wished Kiri’s nails were focusing anywhere but his belly button. “MOHOHOVE! COHOME OHOHOHON!”

Feeling merciful, he did as he was asked, instead focusing his fingers on the candy-cane boy’s sides.Loud laughter gave way to sweet giggles, surprisingly bright for such a serious kid. “Kihiri- Kihirishihihimaha! Whyhihihi?”

“Why? You’re stressed, that’s why. I’ve never seen someone so determined to have an aneurysm before adulthood before. You could do with some giggles.” He squeezed his navel, making Todoroki emphasize it with a squeal. “Like that! Very cute, by the way. You should laugh more.”

Such a jerk! He wanted to protest anything Kirishima had just claimed, but he couldn’t. Truth was, the tickling was helping. While giggly and flustered, he was much less tense than when he’d arrived. He also felt much happier, though he attributed that to human interaction rather than the goofy touch.

Kiri could tell he was enjoying himself, at least to an extent. He hadn’t heard the actual word “stop” once. A certain sound, though, made him halt the touch. Was that…?

*grrrrrrlm*

Todoroki’s cheeks somehow got redder, that time from embarrassment. His stomach had growled rather loudly, reminding him of his long day and skipped meals. Kirishima was the one to laugh then, releasing his friend from the tickly hold. “Ohokay, your stomach’s got an opinion. Think we should get you some food, huh Todoroki?”

The half-and-half teen mumbled something under his breath, but nodded in agreement. He was hungry, and some cold soba would be nice. Kirishima chuckled, heading back to the dorm kitchen to prepare some grub for him and his friend.

Todoroki looked after him, a small smile on his face. He felt much better than he had before, his dampened spirits lifted by the other student’s silliness. He got up, following to help with the dish. He’d have to ask for massages more often…

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thestudyobsessed · 3 months ago

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I FEEL VERY GUILTY

No, this isn't a murder confession...kinda is tho. It's how i let down my mom, my dad and myself. I'm a girl that life didn't care to bless with good things that people normally have..like a stable income, happy family, healthy parents and so on. To get these things, i gotta work twice as hard for it which i why i chose the traditional way, school. I managed to get into an engineering university to study electrical engineering and it is very tough.

I could just quit...but i made a promise that i would push to my very best abilities and graduate, with very good grades and probably means of income by then.

I am at the brink of giving up...i feel guilty for sleeping, resting because at the end of the day, life is a competition..like it or not. And to make it out alive you gotta fight for yourself like there is no tomorrow.

I have decided that I will be using this guilt to my advantage. I will be working till (i dunno a nosebleed? K-dramas have their way 😂). This is another promise that I'm making, i will make myself and my mom proud. Happy.

Which brings me to the fact that i got to this realisation 5 weeks before finals. Thank God it's not too late, here i will be posting daily from today to keep track of my progress. Every minute of my day till finals will be used to the most advantage for ME. I will utilize everything i have and go all out on it.

THIS IS MY WORD. YOU'RE GONNA SEE ME SUCCEED

#past math study notes #study aesthetic #study blog #study inspiration #study motivation #study space #studyblr #study notes #studyspo

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burningcheese-merchant · 3 months ago

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Here is more lore and funfact abt Choco Powder since you asked

- He has the same wish granting power like Mystic, if it was anything his powers are more unstable. Because of this, mystic forbid him for ever using his powers for another person, she worries that he will end up like her, and the fact that Powder is so similar to her doesn't help.

- He is a very quiet but observant person, the type of person who will observe you wanting something and then the next day ur getting it. His love language especially to the people closer to him is gift-giving, it made him feel fulfilled.

- he meditated to relax, he learned it from Mystic. If he gets pushed over the edge he relaxes with sparring in the citadel's training area, he got it from Dark Cacao.

- he is very studious, mostly in the art of healing, and generally, as a prince it is important for him to be knowledgeable.

- he met dark Choco many times in his childhood, guiding him and teaching him, he never found out he had a big brother (mostly in childhood and teen years) so he thought Dark Choco is just a wondering soul

Dark Cacao sometimes slips and called Choco's name instead of Powder's

- he enjoys listening to other people, maybe Pepper Jack can yap to him and he will just sip tea and listen closely

- While he doesn't look like it, he actually is very empathetic but his way of handling sadness is not really healthy (Pepper Jack is the first person to notice this but doesn't know how to

I apologize if i yap too much abt Choco Powder, my brain goes overdrive every time i hyperfixated on my ocs haha

Been dying to answer this! I gotta get to all the other adoring fans in my inbox (/j), but I don't want to leave my friend hanging any longer. I'm really happy you're telling me more about Choco Powder, I want to share my thoughts!

I wonder how they first discovered that he inherited her powers? Did he hear someone say "man, I wish I had a good cup of coffee right now" as a baby and poof, he was waddling over to give them a coffee? Lol. I understand why Flour would want to keep him from using them, she knows the potential consequences... but is that really the wisest course of action? Would Powder not only end up more tempted to use them, specifically because he was banned from doing so (as kids and teens often are with things they're told are "forbidden")? If he's so similar to her, then she would know best how to approach the topic with him, I think. Like... a former drug addict warning their child against doing drugs, for lack of a better analogy. If anyone can get through to them, it's the person who already went down that road and faced its consequences. (Perhaps this is something Cacao can try to push? Maybe it could be something he and Flour argue about, even. "I don't want our son to get hurt or hurt others" VS "You are risking a self-fulfilling prophecy through your actions. The road to Hell is paved with good intentions. This is not the right way, we cannot stifle him like this, there must be some sort of compromise")

I figured. He seems like that, at first glance (great job conveying his personality through his design btw, I might not really be an artist but I do know a good character design tells you what a character is like before they speak). With the gift-giving... perhaps this can be encouraged as a "healthier" outlet for his want to use his wish-granting powers? Especially if the gifts are handmade. It would teach him the value of hard work and gifts coming from the heart as opposed to something bought in a store, as well as allow him to "grant wishes" in this way without the risk that might come with using his powers. (I wonder what he'd give Jack and Paneer? haha)

How does sparring with Cacao go? What weapon(s) does Powder like to use? He doesn't seem particularly violent at first glance (but looks can be and often are deceiving, of course); how much enjoyment does he really get out of these duels? Is he a skilled fighter? Is this a way he bonds with his father? Does Cacao congratulate him for his efforts? (Now I want to contemplate Pepper Jack VS Choco Powder lol)

A fellow egghead lol. He and Jack could hang out at the Golden Cheese Kingdom library together (it's where Jack likes to go a lot). And the healing thing... Paneer may or may not have a knack for that, too. But that's for me to address another time hehehe

How fascinating! So Dark Choco never really returns home in your canon, is that the implication here? When and how does Powder find out who he is? What is his opinion of him before and after discovering this? Does Choco know who he is? What does he think of having a brother? What does he think of Mystic Flour being in their father's life at all, never mind having a child with him? So many avenues to explore here haha

That sounds kind of awful tbh lol. Does Cacao apologize for the Freudian slip? How does it make Powder feel? I can't imagine Flour is particularly happy when it happens...

Oh, I'm sure Jack wouldn't mind that lol. He's not necessarily a chatterbox (that's a bit more his sister), but he'll gladly engage people in conversation if they seek one with him. And I don't think he'd be too bothered by Powder being more of a "listener" type (but he will want Powder to say something every once in a while. Just to check if he's really listening to him)

What's unhealthy about it? Does he withdraw from others? Try to suppress it? Stress-eat lol? And I'm sure Jack would notice, he is highly observant as well (and he would try to think of a way to help, he's very caring). (Jack doesn't handle his own negative emotions very well, either... and that becomes SUPER apparent in a particular story arc I have planned)

Thank you soooo much for indulging me and giving me Choco Powder lore! He's really cool and I like him a lot. I hope you share more about him with all of us soon!

#cookie run kingdom #cookie run fankid #cookie run oc #goldenspice #burningcheese #mysticcacao #pepper jack cookie #choco powder cookie #can I make tags for our kids? Is that ok? haha

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shilo-sumac · 17 days ago

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Do you have any care tips for Zorua? My little sister has recently befriended one and wants to catch it, but there is hardly any information on the internet. As you have a Zoroark, I thought you might be able to help!

oh! id be happy to help :D

this probably will get a little long so ill put a cut here to read more

Right, so, firstly, Zorua are a super fickle and shy species. They have a natural fear of humans due to overhunting in the past and will be wary of you even if you have good intentions. It's super telling of your sister's character that she was able to get one to trust her. She must be very nice :3

Zorua need a lotta places to hide to feel comfortable in a human home. They 100% need at least one of some sort of covered pokemon bed to make their den in. If not, they might end up hiding in a closet or under your bed. Please, please, please never force them out of a hiding spot unless they're in danger, it will break their trust, and its very hard to earn that trust back! Young Zorua usually hide inside their mother's mane for safety. A nice, quiet, soft, warm and dark place for them to retreat if they ever feel overwhelmed is highly recommended. This can either be a corner of the house or their Pokeball.

I'm not sure if your sister is a trainer looking for a battle partner or if she just wants a companion. Luckily, Zorua are great Pokemon for either! They enjoy battling, contests, or simply being able to snuggle someone 24/7 (zoroark are a little harder to keep as pets only but not impossible!) either way, it's best to start slowly with them. Don't introduce them to all your Pokemon at once or they may become overwhelmed! If they're gonna be a house Pokemon, keep them in one room for a while so that they aren't overwhelmed having access to a full house right away.

Zorua are omnivores, so you'll have to be sure they have a varied diet to remain healthy. High quality canine Pokemon food is a good base, but should also be supplemented with fresh fruit, eggs, raw or deboned cooked meat, insects, nuts and seeds! As treats, they LOVE cheese and pastries like pokepuffs. Though give them these sparingly! They WILL beg you for human food. An occasional bite of something like pizza won't harm them, but don't make it a habit!!!

While you should get them used to tolerating strangers, most Zorua will never warm up to more than a handful of people that they meet. It's just their nature.

Alright I thiiiink I got the basics of care down, now I gotta get to the negatives. I love Zorua and Zoroark but it wouldn't be right of me to not give ya this disclaimer: Zorua Love Pranks

They actually show that they like people by pulling what they see as harmless pranks, but their opinions on what is and isn't harmless is different from a human's pov. It's important to praise them for being good!!! But when they're bad, you need to *IGNORE* the behavior. Not yell at them! They won't understand why you are suddenly so angry, and this may break their trust in you.

Quick disclaimer: pulling pranks and casting defensive illusions are *different things.* Zorua usually only use their illusions when they feel like they're in danger or otherwise need to hide in plain sight. A Zorua infiltrating a family as a doppelganger is pure mythology. They may disguise themselves as someone they've seen before, but this is purely so that they can escape at the first opportunity. (Rarely they use their illusions to scout out something they're curious about, but they run pretty quickly if things get scary and tend to stay away from humans who might get suspicious.)

#shilo infodumps #pokemon irl #shilo speaks #rotumblr #rotomblr #pkmn irl #pokeblogging #pokebio #pokemon behavior #asks #anonymous #thanks for this ask it was super fun to write!

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pucksalotguys · 5 months ago

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Chapter 8

Masterlist to series

WC:10.3K

CW: SMUT, Minors please DNI !!! extreme sexual situations

Back with chapter 8 and it’s a good one, if ya don’t like cheating in fics then look away and if ya don’t like smut that isn’t vanilla also kindly look away 🫶. Shit hits the fan between all parties involved and a big big bomb is dropped at the end….happy reading 💙

(If you enjoyed this chapter let me know please, anon is on for a reason and I promise I’m nice ❤️)

When morning came Cece did her best to keep normal as she got ready for the day, soon it turned into noon and she glanced down at her phone every few minutes in hopes of getting a text from Sidney but received nothing. She wondered what had happened for him to get so drunk, if Jacqueline had been suspicious of where he was that whole afternoon, every negative thought raced through her mind. The worst part was that she knew she had no right to feel that way, they had only had sex once and he had made it clear she’d essentially be his mistress till he could get things settled. She knew she couldn’t text him but at this point she was hoping even Jacqueline would text her Before she could drive herself more insane she gathered her purse and made her way down to the pool area where she saw Nate already waiting for her “There you are” she grinned “And here you are” he stood up “Hope you don’t mind I got this little area by the pool, the day’s nice so I figured why not” “Okay with me” Cece nodded as she took a seat in front of him “A really nice day actually, how was your night ?” “Oh god” Nate rolled his eyes “I meant to text you, Jacqueline was so fucking rude to you for no reason and then once I helped Sidney up to their suite she kicked me out super quickly. She’s got some superiority complex because she’s from some rich ass part of Connecticut, she’s never liked me much. I’m only nice to her for Sid and the boys anyways” Cece nodded as she sipped her water, her throat feeling like it was about to close up. Now it all made sense why he hadn’t bothered to text her, he was with his wife. He had been with her and had gotten what he wanted so he then went back with his wife and was now ignoring her “She’s just a different person is all” she said “Maybe she’s just having a hard time you know ?” “You mean with Roman ?” Nate asked “Yeah I bet, she can’t accept the kid has a disability. She’s so overprotective of him, he just wants to play. He’s such a sweet smart kid, so is Aaron” he grinned “He’s more of the defiant one but he’s cute” “Who are we to judge” Cece gave a shrug “It’s just unfortunate for everyone involved, but there’s always room for change, always.” “She’s a shit person and even shittier mother” Nate looked at her “I get it Cece, the kid’s different but she’s fixated on that” he shook his head “So he’s gotta use the wheelchair ? Who cares ?

There’s people that would be so happy just to have kids period and instead she’s researching weird ass doctors and wanting to put the kid through these long ass surgeries”

“What would you do Nate ?” she asked “I’d just want my kid happy” he admits “If he’s happy and healthy and he’s with me, I wouldn’t care. I’d just be content to have a child who loves me and knows I love them” “Do you want kids ?” Cece smiled softly Nate chuckled “I do but I only want one” “One ?” Cece furrowed her brow “What’s the fun in that ?” “I feel like as far as my career and seeing myself playing till I’m in my early 40’s one kid would be all I could handle” he admits “Smart of you to admit that” she nodded “But I want 5” “5 !” Nate’s eyes widened “You want a whole football team, no way” “Yup” Cece smiled “But you only want 1 so that’s a big red flag to me” she teased He chuckled “I’d compromise with you, we’d have….let’s see” he tilted his head “Alright I got it, we could have 3 and then we could get a dog and down the road maybe a cat” “Whoa there we’re friends and nothing more” Cece chuckled “Let’s slow it down” “For now” Nate winked “For now”

She couldn’t help but laugh at their conversation, mostly because of how serious he seemed.. Part of her really liked Nate, but deep down knew it couldn’t be anything more than a nice friendship but even then she was willing to keep that with him as long as she could stay in contact with him

They ordered their food and sat in silence for a bit checking their emails and such, suddenly from the corner of her eye she could see them. There they were, sitting together in a private cabana on the other side of the pool

“Jesus I shouldn't have talked about her, she’s like beetle juice” Nate made a face “She appears when she hears her name”

She chuckled “Don’t be mean” “Let’s eat and get out of here, I’m not trying to babysit” he joked as he shared his burger with her Everything was fine until she slowly saw Aaron leave Sidney and Jacqueline, who were too preoccupied with Roman in the corner, and walk over to the deep end of the pool. She kept his eye on him and before she knew it he had jumped in “Shit !” Nate stood up and took his things out of his pocket quickly “Jacqueline ! Sid ! He’s in the pool !” he yelled

Cece’s eyes caught Aaron struggling to keep his head above water, his little arms flailing as he tried to stay afloat. The inflatable floatie had slipped off his arms, and he was beginning to sink. With a face full of panic and fear. By the time Jacqueline and Sidney would walk over to their side it could’ve been too late so without hesitation she got up and jumped in the pool She cut through the water with swift strokes and reached Aaron just as he was starting to go under. His small, frightened face emerged briefly before he started to sink again before she grabbed him gently but securely, wrapping her arms around him “You’re okay” she coughed “You’re okay” “I’m sorry” he gasped trying to talk “I’m sorry” “It’s okay” she repeated as she swam him back to the shallow end where Sidney, Jacqueline and Nate were already waiting with wide eyes

“Oh my god, baby !” Jacqueline exclaimed while she sat Roman on a chair and quickly grabbed Aaron from her arms “Are you okay ?”

“Give him space Jac” Sidney whispered as he wrapped a towel around him and glanced at Cece “Thank you”

“Keep an eye on your child” she said back as she started to cough to clear her throat “You might not be lucky next time.”

“I don’t appreciate those words” Jacqueline said, her eyes glistening “You don’t have kids, you have no idea what it’s like to watch two children. We don’t need your judgment”

“You were focused on one and not the other” Cece stood up as Nate covered her up quickly with a towel and hotel personnel surrounded them for more assistance “I don’t need to lower myself to argue with you, right now my child matters” Jacqueline snapped “Sidney let’s go to a hospital immediately” Cece walked over to her purse and took out a pulse oximeter and put it on Aaron’s finger “His oxygen is normal, if you see his breathing get weird or he complains about chest pains that’s when you go to a hospital, it could be dry drowning but I don’t think that’ll occur since he was in the water no more than about 40 seconds before I pulled him out” “How do you even know this ?” Jacqueline asked “Why should I take your advice rather than a real medical professional ?” “My mother is a top pediatric surgeon in the state of New York” Cece looked at her “I’ve been trained in the basics since I could walk. I chose to chase a writing career rather than going into the medical field. I guess this proves I chose the wrong calling” “Thank you Cecelia” Sidney stepped in front of her and offered her his hand “We owe you one”

“Nonsense” she shook her head and took a step back, ignoring his hand “I would hope any other individual would do what I did”

“Come on Cece” Nate removed her wet towel and replaced it with a bathrobe from a hotel worker “I’ll walk you back to your room”

“Thanks” she whispered, taking one last look at Sidney before walking away with Nate

“You’re insane” Nate chuckled as they got the elevator “I was about to jump in but you beat me to it, you’re fast as hell. I turned around and you were already in there on the deep end”

Cece let out a small laugh “Thanks”

“I’ll wait for you while you shower to make sure you’re okay then I’ll leave” he nodded

“Stay” Cececlia nodded, not wanting to be alone as they got in her room “We can order room service after I get out and watch a movie if you don’t have plans”

“Cool” Nate smiled “I mean….sounds chill”

“Loser” Cecelia chuckled, entering the bathroom as she heard her phone buzz and sighed I’m sorry about what happened today and I’m so sorry I ignored you all last night. You know I’d never ever do that on purpose. I just got upset I had to leave you and be with Jacqueline all night that I drank way too much. I wanted to be with you, not with her. She shook her head and angrily texted back Forget about what happened yesterday, it was a huge mistake and I regret it. I don’t want you texting me or calling me again. Email me anything that has to do with business. Have a GREAT rest of your trip with your family. It was a rude text but it was exactly how she felt at the moment. At that moment she wanted him as far away as possible. **************************

Back at the hotel room with Sidney and Jacqueline things weren’t much better, in fact they were worse. Way worse than Sidney could’ve ever imagined and he was close to just phoning it in completely.

“Take a seat and have a breather please” he tried convincing her “Please Jac, don’t get yourself all worked up. Everything is okay”

He was lying but at this point he was desperate to calm her down, he knew in moments of anger with her that she often said things she didn’t mean. For her sake and for the kids' sake who were sleeping, he knew he had to take the higher road, even if it meant her insulting Cece.

“I hate her. I cannot stand her” Jacqueline whispered as she folded their clothes and harshly threw it into their suitcase “Sidney you better tell Kyle she’s out. I won’t be able to stand her if I see her again.”

Sidney shook his head and put his phone away before looking at her and scoffing out of shock “You seriously want me to get her fired after she saved our son's life ? Let’s be real here for a moment Jac, that’s insane”

“You heard the way she spoke to me” she defended “She’s no one to speak to me that way, nobody. I don’t care how much medical knowledge she has, I don’t care that-”

“Enough” Sidney whispered “Enough already, please. Let’s move on from this already, Aaron’s okay and we’re going home tomorrow. Let’s not dwell on his any longer please” “Oh you've had enough ? You that’s here to give the same old interviews and take the same pictures you do every year ? You ?” she shook her head in disbelief “Wow, well aren’t you just exhausted ?” “I didn’t ask you and the kids to come” Sidney looked at her “In fact I told you not to come, that it was a bad idea and that you should’ve stayed home. Look what happened, was it worth it Jac ?” “I wanted a family trip” she shrugged “One can’t prepare for accidents, they can happen at anytime Sidney, you just said that.” “A family trip to Las Vegas for 2 days to a resort that’s all adults with 2 little kids who you gave to a nanny all day yesterday so we could go out and act like we’re the perfect couple in front of all our friends. Yeah some family vacation” he nodded as he left to the other room to not wake the boys up from their naps Jacqueline followed him and closed the door “Whatever you have up your ass, you better get over it” she sat in front of him “Listen to me when I say these words, we’re a family Sidney” she pointed at him “You are my husband and I am your wife and we have been together for 15 long years. You’ve been through shit and so have I but we’re a unit” “And how many of those 15 years have actually been good ?” he asked back “Tell me Jac, how many ?” She stiffened and cleared her throat “We’re simply having a dry spell is all, it’s common with loads of couples especially ones that have been together as long as we have. It’s not as worrying as it seems”

Sidney sighed deeply, running a hand through his hair “Yes. Exactly that. I don’t know how we got here, but it feels like we’re living separate lives now with patience running thinner every single day and I don’t know what to do anymore”

“That happens in marriages” Jacqueline said simply “You want sunshine and rainbows 24/7 ? I can fake it if that's what you want me to do ”

“No” he shook his head “I just don’t want bullshit, I don’t want any kind of that. I’m so tired of this happening with us.”

“And I’m bullshit, is what you're saying ?” she frowned “Wow the king of bullshit is trying to say I’m bullshitting ? That’s a new one I haven’t heard from you. Way to go Sidney, you’ve done it again babe ” “Now you’re putting words in my mouth Jacqueline, don’t” he stood up “Don’t do that please” “Or what Sidney ? What are you gonna do ? Cry about it “ Jacqueline rubbed her face in exhaustion “You've done enough of that in your career don’t you think ? Don’t you get tired of it ?” Sidney shook his head “You’re being very difficult Jacqueline, hurting my feelings isn’t okay nor is it gonna help. I’m man enough not to snap back at you, I care about you enough to not hurt your feelings like you hurt mine” “You did last night” she said back “Oh god, I was wasted out of my mind Jacqueline ! I don’t wanna have sex when I’m wasted !” he stood up “You don’t wanna have sex with me anymore at all !” she snapped back “At all, it’s been weeks since we were last intimate Sidney weeks, that’s not normal” “You only wanna have sex so you can get pregnant again” he finally said “I know you got your IUD removed, I heard that phone call last week Jacqueline, I’m not stupid.” From the look on her face he knew she wasn’t expecting him to know, he was still even a little surprised to hear the lengths she was going to deceive him and in a perfect world maybe just maybe he’d be okay with welcoming another baby with her but after being with Cece and knowing how badly he wanted her, there was no way. “Quiet huh” he nodded “Hmm surprising” “I just want a baby with you….why is that so bad ?” Jacqueline whispered “Why Sidney ?” “I don’t want anymore kids” Sidney looked at her “I’m done, I don’t want more. The idea of welcoming another child ….brings me stress not happiness. And if you’re not gonna take care of yourself then it’s up to me to do so. I’ll get the vasectomy first thing when we get back to the city”

Jacqueline’s face fell at his confession as she looked to the side “I see”

“We go to such a dark place so much of the time Jac, it’s not…it’s not okay” he said calming down “It’s not a good feeling when we say these horrible things to each other” “Yet rather than be comforting or a little supportive, you just judge me constantly” she whispered “So forgive me for not being the nicest to you, it’s hard to do so when I feel like I constantly have to be prepared for a fight with you” Jacqueline admitted “I hate it Sidney, I hate it so much. I don’t like being that way with you” “Yeah I am too” Sidney nodded, not wanting to argue anymore as he held her hand “We really should get some food for us and the boys, I’m sure they're gonna wake up super hungry” “Room service is fine” she said with a grin “I’m gonna put on a movie for the boys when they wake up” “I’ll go down to the lobby and get you that salad you like and some pizza for me and the boys, I’m gonna go see Nate first though” he went up to her and kissed her forehead softly “Just….rest for a bit okay ?” “Okay” Jacqueline nodded He had lied again but he didn’t care, he took off and the first place he needed to go was to Cece’s room, he was desperate to talk to her to clear things up. He knew what she was thinking and he needed to let her know nothing had happened last night. Things were confusing but he knew at the end of the day who he would end up picking

Upon arriving to her door he took a deep breath and knocked on her door, he waited and waited and was about to text her when the he heard the door unlock

“Thank you, you can-...what are you doing here ?” Cece whispered as she closed the door behind her carefully “You can’t be here Sidney”

“I came to see you, can I come in ?” he asked

“No” she shook her head “You can’t”

Sidney frowned “Why not ?”

“Because Nate’s in there sleeping” she whispered “That’s why”

He crossed his arms “Excuse me ? What the hell is he doing here with you ? Why is he sleeping ?” Cece rolled her eyes “Don’t. He’s sleeping because we were watching a movie and he fell asleep. I don’t owe you explanations now leave” “Get him out” Sidney blurted out “Now” “You leave my room” Cece said sternly “I take it you got my text ? I meant that”

Sidney shook his head “I was drunk, I was so drunk but I remember what happened and I….I hated that I had the best hours with you and I had to go be with her. I got wasted to make the time pass” he whispered

“That’s horrible” Cece frowned “And not okay and neither is what we did. I don’t wanna be with you if you’re married, that’s not who I am. That’s not what your wife deserves, as big as a bitch that she can be” she admitted “Even then most importantly it’s not what your boys deserve, I cannot and will not ruin a family it’s beyond wr-” ‘It was ruined before you came into the picture” Sidney cut her off “I told you this already, I told you that once I get to Pittsburgh it’s done. I’m asking for a divorce, I mean it. I don’t wanna be with her, I wanna be with you” he held her hand

“I can’t be the reason for a family ending” Cece said “I can’t, do you know how I felt when I saw you earlier today with Jacqueline and the kids…how could you be with them like nothing ? Don’t you feel guilty ? I sure do”

“Don’t do this to me” he said softly “Cece….please, can we talk back in Pittsburgh ? Please”

“Talk” she looked at him “To talk…you hear me, to talk. Don’t text or call me until you’re ready to talk face to face”

“To talk” Sidney repeated as he took a step closer and kissed her gently “To talk…don’t ice me out Cece, that would kill me”

Cece couldn’t help but respond by kissing him back, there was something about him that she couldn’t pull away from. Her arms wrapped around his neck quickly as his hands gripped her waist, them just making out freely in the hotel hallway until they broke apart after a few seconds

“I’ll see you in Pittsburgh” Sidney kissed her again

She rubbed her face as she watched him leave and opened her door back up, she walked in as she saw Nate come out from the bathroom “Oh you woke up” Cece said softly “I did” he nodded “I got up and happened to get out just in time to hear you and Sidney” Her face reddened as she realized what he had heard and immediately sat down next to him “Nate please….listen to me it’s not….it’s not like that” “Cece he’s married” Nate looked at her “He’s got a wife and children, he’s not gonna leave them for you. He’s not, you can’t be with him. I know he told you he will but you need to know he won’t. Him and Jacqueline have been together almost half our lives, he won’t leave her. You are gonna be left as the other woman, I know how this goes, I’ve been around men who do this shit over an over.” Cece shook her head “Don’t say that please” “Listen I don’t doubt he wants you” he said “I mean I want you, hell every fucking man wants you Cece, yet you want the married one ? You’re better than that, so so much better”

“I have faith in Sidney” she whispered “It’s gonna be hard but I believe in him, I believe in us”

“Cece I’m not gonna tell him I know nor will I tell Jacqueline but I will tell you that this won’t end well for you and if you need anything I can be there for you” Nate met her eyes “You need to prepare yourself”

She felt herself shrink, more than anything she was deeply embarrassed he now knew. In such a short time she had gained affection and care for Nate and now even the way he looked at her was different

“You….think different of me now ?” she asked him “Be honest”

Nate nodded and gave her a small frown “I do Cece, I do. How could you ? You’re so beautiful and you’re young and you could have anyone you want and you went for a man who’s 10 years older than you and that’s married and has a family. That’s really really low”

“You don’t pick who you fall in love with” Cece responded “I know it sounds and looks bad but you just don’t get it. Have you ever been in love ? Have you ever fallen in love so quickly that you think it’s not possible ? That you’re living in some never ending dream ? A passionate and honest love that you just know is right in your heart despite your mind telling you you’re crazy ?” He paused for a bit before nodding “Yeah….I have” Cece sighed “Then you understand me and you know that….that it sounds and looks bad but it feels right” Nate simply shrugged “I don’t know what to tell you Cece, I just don’t want you getting hurt” “I’m a big girl” she nodded “I can handle whatever comes my way” “Well in case you need anything you have my number” he grabbed his sweater “Text or call me if you need me, I can help you the best I can. I lov-....like you and I care for you a lot” Cece sighed softly as he left out the door without giving her a hug, she felt hopeless in the moment and honestly scared. She knew once they got to Pittsburgh that things could be much much different. **************************

A Month Later

Things had been as awkward as Sidney could have imagined but he had finally decided this was the night he was gonna ask Jacqueline for the divorce. He had barely been able to text Cece at all nor see her as all his time was spent at the rink and it was slowly driving him insane “The boys are asleep” he said as he sat down with her in the den “Can we talk ?” “I’m glad you brought it up” Jacqueline nodded as he took as eat “Sidney I have something to tell you” He looked taken back as he nodded “Oh okay, what is it ?”

“Well” she started, a small smile forming on her lips “I….I think I’m pregnant”

Sidney shook his head “Jacqueline that’s not possible….we haven’t had sex in…what ? 2 months maybe ? I used a condom”

“Condoms aren’t exactly 100% sure” she said “And well….I haven’t gotten my period either and I’m never late…you know that” He nodded, suddenly feeling the urge to throw up “Well….would you like me to get you a test ?” “Nonsense” Jacqueline shook her head as she got up from her seat and went up to him, taking a seat on his lap as she caressed his cheek “I have an appointment with the gyno up already tomorrow, I want you to come with me” Sidney nodded “Of-Of course…listen…are you sure about this ? We slept together just under 2 months ago and used condoms and when I finished it wasn’t anywhere near…you know”, he was quickly cut off with her lips onto his. The feeling of discomfort written across his face as she wiped his lips “I know times have been….difficult” she whispered “But I truly believe this is a miracle, this is what’s going to bring us closer. This little miracle” she placed his hand on her stomach “Jacqueline we don’t know if you are yet, listen maybe I should go get a test” he said softly “Those tests aren’t even accurate half the time” she shook her head “Tomorrow I’ll have a urine and blood test, plus the doctor can do a sonogram”

Sidney felt his eyes well up as he shook his head “I just….Jacqueline we can’t have a baby…we can’t” “I know there’s problems but we can work through anything, I already scheduled us for therapy too. Everything will slowly come into place like it always does” she wiped his eyes “There’s no need to feel overwhelmed, I don’t feel that way so you shouldn’t either” “You need to listen to me, please” he murmured meeting her eyes “You and I have been together for almost 20 years, I know you. This is just a tough spot but we’re going to be okay, we always are” she said simply

“Jacqueline please, we need to talk mo-”

Jacqueline kissed his forehead “We need to be the best versions of ourselves and we need to get some rest, tomorrow is a rather important day”

There was no way he’d make a fight so rather than push it he just did as told and went to bed, lying next to his wife he didn’t love and thinking of the one woman he knew he did.

When morning came they started off their day by dropping off the boys at preschool and heading to the doctors. He held her hand as they walked in and were taken inside a private room, he sat in a chair as a nurse came in and took her blood and collected a urine sample “You should've had something to eat” he whispered “Fasting isn’t safe” “I’m okay” Jacqueline nodded as she sat on the examination bed They both sat in absolute silence for an hour, no one talked or even made eye contact. Sidney felt like he was gonna scream, he could see her keep busy on her phone scrolling and typing away but not once did she turn in his direction. She was nervous and he knew it, little did she know he was nervous too. When he heard the door creak open he sat up straight,

“Mr and Mrs.Crosby, nice to see you two. It’s been a while” she came in and closed the door

“Hello Dr. Heinz” Jacqueline shook her hand “So….any news ?”

“Well” she said softly “You are not pregnant”

“What ?” Sidney whispered

Jacqueline chuckled softly “That can’t be, I haven’t had my period in 2 months now. I’m always on time, I am never ever late. The last time I was late I was pregnant with my twin boys. There has to be a mistake”

“Mrs.Crosby there’s some things we should speak about, why don’t you come into my office for some…privacy” Dr Heinz said

“He’s my husband” Jacqueline said “He can hear anything you have to say to me, he’s with me for a reason”

Dr. Heinz nodded “Very well. I took a look at your urine and blood tests and there’s no pregnancy but what’s showing are unbalanced hormones, so much so that I have a feeling that the reason for your periods not showing up are because you are in premature menopause” she revealed

“Along with high FSH levels and low estradiol levels and what you answered in the questionnaire about having a loss of libido and your irritability and mood swings along with your weight gain I see here in your chart despite you being an active woman, all signs point to it”

“Well I don’t want that” Jacqueline crossed her arms “I’m only 38 years old, I’m healthy. I take very good care of myself” “Premature menopause affects about 5% of women, it can happen to anyone regardless of how well they take care of themselves, often times it can be genes but truly the only advice I can give is continue an active lifestyle with healthy eating habits and a good sleep schedule and it may bring your menstrual cycle back and if it doesn’t then it’s just gone. Not the worst thing that can happen” Dr Heinz offered her a sympathetic look “Don’t be hard on yourself, sometimes nature simply takes it course” Jacqueline nodded quietly “okay….thank you” “Email me or call if anything please” she grinned as she left them alone “So I’m old….that’s what it was” Jacqueline whispered “I wasn’t pregnant, I’m getting old. That’s it. I’m 38 years old and I’m in the stage of premature menopause already.” Sidney let out a soft sigh “It’s not a bad thing, we both are. I mean….we’re both pushing 40” “I can’t be in menopause” Jacqueline said sternly “I can’t, it’s not gonna happen to me Sidney, it’s not. I eat right, I exercise every single day. I have a sleep schedule, I do everything to a T. This cannot be happening to me ” “Stop the negative talk” he stood up “Listen it’s okay, it’s just life. You think I don’t feel myself getting old ? Of course I do, I just don’t think about it” “Easy for you to say” she grabbed her purse “This is all your fault” “Me ?” Sidney looked confused “Yes you” she snapped “You stress me out, you just couldn’t agree to have a baby again like I wanted 3 years ago couldn’t you ? You had to string me along and tell me it wasn’t the right time and how Aaron and Roman needed us, how Roman needed some time to get used to things” “Forgive me for not wanting to have another child so soon after ours finally got a proper diagnosis” he said “Times were chaotic, between them being toddlers and Roman having his surgery and all his therapies believe me when I say a new baby was the least of my worries. I knew we wouldn’t be able to handle it” Sidney sighed “We’re barely handling it now”

“I could handle it, you’re one that can’t” Jacqueline said “You care about one thing and one thing only, hockey. Newsflash Sidney, times almost up for you” “Yeah it is and that’s okay” he nodded “But if you think just because my career’s almost over that I’ll be there like your lap dog, you’re dead wrong” “Please, as if you’re useful for anything other than holding that stupid hockey stick” she walked out “My keys are in your purse, we drove here together” he followed her “Take a fucking uber, I have brunch with the girls and I’m picking up the boys to head to a play date later” she called back as she got in the elevator Sidney stood in the hallway and sighed, he looked at his phone and saw the time. He knew exactly where he was going.

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“Sidney” Cece said as she walked towards her apartment door “Why are you just standing here ?”

“We needed to talk” he reminded her as he leaned against her doorframe Cece nodded “Yeah…yeah come in” “Thanks” he grinned as he followed closely behind her, his hand going for her waist as he turned her around and kissed her passionately “I missed you…. I missed you so much, not talking to you was so hard” “You actually didn’t call or text me” she murmured as he kissed her neck “I respected your rules” he unbuttoned her top slowly “But I missed you….I can’t be away from you, I can’t”

Cece kissed his cheek as her arms wrapped around his neck “I know, I can’t either” “I don’t wanna be away from you that long anymore, it was torture” he whispered “Pure torture, Cece I know you wanna talk and I do too and I’ll get on my knees if you need me to but…please please…I wanna be with you” “Took you long enough” she groaned as she felt him pick her up

He stumbled to her room and laid her down on her bed quickly as he threw his shirt on the floor once they undressed. Times were desperate and he would make sure she not only knew that but would feel it too. His body on top of hers as he kissed down her neck and took off her skirt, his hand reaching up to her core, massaging every so lightly “I missed you” Sidney kissed “I missed you so much” “I want you inside of me already” Cece whispered “Where you belong” No time was wasted as he quickly positioned himself on top of her between her legs and began his thrusts, nice and slow like he knew she liked. Soon the sounds of moans filled the room and her arms wrapped around his neck. It was a good rhythm as he sighed contently and picked up the pace up a bit

“How do you want me” she kissed across his jaw “Tell me”

“Can you get on top of me…please” Sidney whispered “I want you to ride me”

“Whatever you want” she sucked on his bottom lip as they switched positions, she gently stroked him a bit before she straddled him and carefully inserted him, releasing a loud whimper along with him when she started to move her hips forward

“Oh fuck” Sidney groaned as his hands went to fondle her breasts “Not too fast” he murmured

She nodded in pure ecstasy, throwing her head back when she found the perfect pace and began to bounce slightly on him

“You’re so perfect, I don’t wanna cum yet” he whispered when she leaned over him “I don’t wanna finish yet”

“We can do other stuff…” Cece made eye contact “You wanna cum then cum baby, it’s okay”

He didn’t need any more encouragement as she started to move faster and he finally released himself with a groan, holding her while she leaned over him

“I don’t last long when I’m with you” Sidney tried to catch his breath, looking down when he realized he was still inside of her “I like it” Cece kissed his forehead “I like that I make you finish fast, it’s sexy” He couldn’t but chuckle “Says the sexiest woman there is….it’s been a week and I swear your tits got bigger if that’s even possible” he nuzzled his face between them, sucking lightly on one as he looked up at her “You like that…I can feel your goosebumps” She nodded as her eyelids got heavy “It feels good” “Yeah ?” he whispered as his fingers toyed with her nipples, tugging ever so slightly “How about you tell me what you want done to you….” “I have toys…in the drawer” she gasped out Sidney raised his brow as he let go and opened the bedside drawer, smirking when he saw her collection “Damn, someone’s horny” “I take care of myself” she kissed him “I like making myself feel good…but now I have you for that” “I can use one of these too” he pulled out a vibrating wand “Lay on your back for me and spread your legs” Cece felt heat in her stomach as she did as told and bit her lip, she watched as he turned it on and felt her breathing pick up as it touched her “Not too high…not too high….right there” she whined as it began to hit her “You’re such a good girl” he whispered as he applied directly on her clit Sex was sex, it was always going to feel good but there was something that was just so sexy about Cece that just felt different. She was confident and adventurous, she liked being in control but didn’t mind when he took over. Sidney had never felt that way with Jacqueline ever, she bored him to no end. Cece on the other hand was hot, she a firecracker in life and in bed and she liked being with him “Talk to me” he murmured “How does it feel baby ?”

“It feels so good” she started to fondle her breasts “It feels like heaven”

“You look so pretty this way” he traced her slit, tasting some of her juices with his finger as he led down to her face, their noses touch and he kisses her forehead just before he sank his fingers inside of her causing her to gasp at the sensation “A little wider for me baby” She instantly spread her thighs wider as his tongue found his way inside her mouth and then moved down to her breasts, sucking and biting down “Fuck” Sidney gritted out “Your pussy feels so good” “Don’t stop” Cece groaned “Baby I need more, I want more”, she took his face and brought his mouth down to hers as she kissed his jaw and wrapped her arms around him, dragging his bottom lip between her teeth “I need you inside me again” He put the toy down and fit his cock at her entrance again, grabbing her hips as he thrusted in and pulled out slowly only to slam back in “You’re so tight” “You feel so big” she whined as she tried to spread her legs more for him as she squeezed his hips, somewhat guiding him a bit more while she rolled her her own to meet him deeper “Oh…right there” “I’m so fucking lucky” Sidney moaned “So lucky you're mine, you're all mine” “I’m yours, I’m all yours baby” she whimpered “Now make me cum” For a moment it felt like everything stopped as Cece held onto him, her body moving up and down along with the mattress from his thrusts. She felt herself contract as her body tensed up, she knew exactly what was coming “Yes” she cried out, shuddering and shaking as she attempted to catch her breath again but he doesn’t stop yet, she could feel herself get warmer as he slowed his thrusts down and pulled out “I want you on top again” he panted

She instantly pinned him on his back as she straddled him, slowly rolling her hips forward as his hands gently glazed down her back and cupped her ass tightly, giving her a smack making her whimper “More…More”

“You’re so bad” Sidney shut his eyes “You’re so fucking bad”

“Make me be good then” Cece murmured against his lips as she leaned over him “You like when I’m on top…when you can touch me all over”, she continued her movement, tensing when she felt his fingers in another area “You wanna try….we can try” “Yeah” he nodded quickly “Is that okay ? I’ll just use my fingers” She kissed him again as confirmation and relaxed when she finally felt him, reaching her own hand down to rub her clit as a way to ease the pressure, after a few more minutes she backed up against his hand “I want the real thing…I’m so fucking wet, let’s try” “I’ve never…..what if it hurts you ?” he whispered “I wouldn’t be okay with that” “It won’t” she shook her head “Just…just be slow” They got in position as he gently teased her entrance, he was eager. He wouldn’t lie, he knew she knew and it turned him on. He let out a deep breath as he pushed forward, pressing into her as he crowned her, making sure he was moving slow. He could see her hands balled into fists and felt her breathing pick up as he continued to go slow “Baby are you okay ?” “Slow….just like that…slow” she whimpered, sucking the air in through her teeth feeling his slow thrusts “I…I…oh fuck baby keep going”, she kept her breathing controlled as she felt him move deeper “I love it deep…I wanna feel all of you” “That’s so fucking good” Sidney panted, sweat building up on his brow “So good” Cece closed her eyes and arched her back more, extending her ass the best she could for him as he received the hint clearly and picked up his pace slamming into her ass as she felt her body on fire. It was rough and messy and there were no complaints on her end, and clearly none on his. “You like that ?” he released a moan while giving her ass a slap “You like me fucking your ass like this ?” She nodded, delirious with pleasure “Yes…yes” Time felt as it stood still as they went at it in that position for a good while, moans and whimpers coming from the both of them. She whined when he gripped her hair and pulled her head back, looking in her eyes as he kissed her deeply

“You’re mine” he kissed “all mine”

Her breasts bobbed as he continued to fuck her from behind, she couldn’t handle it anymore as she fell forward when he let go of her hair, she could hear him grunt and let out small breaths finally letting out a gasp as he spilled inside of her “Oh god” she whispered, her legs shaking

She could feel him lay on top of her as he pulled out, their wet bodies sticking together like glue while his hand carefully stroked the side of her face “It’s okay, I got you” he whispered “Are you okay baby ?” Cece nodded and lifted her head from the mattress after a few minutes, her hair stuck to her flushed face “I need to shower” “Not yet” Sidney kissed her forehead “Stay here, I’m gonna get you some water and I’m gonna clean you up, you just relax” He put his pants on as he went to her kitchen and grabbed some water and a few kitchen towels, he left the water by her nightstand and wet the towels with warm water in the bathroom, when he went back to her side he bent down and began to gently wipe her down. Covering her back up with the bed sheet when he finished “I could’ve showered” she whispered, her fingers caressing his cheek “I know…but I want to do this” he met her eyes She chuckled softly “Damn you let a guy have some both ways and suddenly you get princess treatment” “Cece come on” he kissed her “Don’t say it like that, I’m not just some guy….I’m…well it’s complicated right now but you know what I mean. I’m not losing you Cece, this is all gonna be over soon…and we’re gonna be okay” She nodded as he came back to bed and laid next to her, deep in her soul she hoped he was right 2 Months Later

It happened more often than she’d want to admit. Any chance they had alone they had sex. In her apartment, in his, in an office at the practice complex. It was dirty, it was rough, it was who they were. This time it was in a car, her car to be exact in a rather desolate area miles away from the city. Somehow a hidden kiss had turned into a make out session with an uncomfortable quickie in a bathroom stall and now here they were….fucking in her car

“Right there” Cece whined “right there please

Sidney smirked as he wrapped an arm under her thigh and held her closer to him

“You ask nicely and I’ll always give you what you want” he swirled his tongue over her clit

“Y-Yes” she stammered out, holding onto his head “Keep going baby”

He sucked and licked every inch of her, nibbling and kissing around her pussy and thighs, teasing her hole with his finger tip, he heard her moan and did it again this time undoing his belt and sliding down his pants at the same time

“More….more, please more” Cece whined

He opened her legs wider and put one through the middle of the two front seats and the other over his shoulder. He then pushed her down carefully in the back seat as he came down on top of her by instinct her hands went to his hips

“Tight fit” Sidney murmured, gripping the door handle above her with one hand as his other held her hip so he could slide in

“Fuck !” she cried out, her hands moving to his chest

His arms almost gave out as he tried to catch his breath and leaned down to kiss her “Cece….baby, just hold onto me” In a quick movement he he slid out and thrust back inside, causing her to arch her back off the seat

“Oh shit” she whimpered lazily keeping her eyes open “So deep, so good”

“I know” Sidney kissed her again “You’re so wet princess, you take my cock so well”

She nodded wordlessly and wrapped her legs around him to make things easier, she knew she was gonna be sore this time. His thrusts were deep and quick, at one point she moved her purse behind her head to keep it from hitting the door so much

“I’m sorry” Sidney panted “I’m sorry baby”

“Shh” she put a finger to his lips “Just keep fucking me”

He continued his movement for a few more minutes, at some point he knew he’d thank himself for taking good care of his physique, he just never imagined it’d be when he was fucking the life out a girl 10 years younger than him Once he felt her walls tighten around him he went faster, the sound of her whimpers and moans and the wet sound of his cock in and out her pussy was music to his ears. He wanted to have her whole, every part of her. “I’m cumming” she cried out, her mascara stains down her cheeks from the overwhelming sensation “Baby….baby…oh fuck !” she screamed once his hand went back down to rub her clit with his thumb

They were so cramped up in the backseat she couldn’t even squirm beneath him, she knew what he wanted. It had become a ritual at this point, she brought his mouth to hers as she gently bit his bottom lip. He loved a good make out session post finishing, if she didn’t make out with him after they were done he’d say something

“Fuck” he whispered into her mouth, his breathing coming out slow

“Yeah…I know” she licked her lips when he nuzzled in her neck

“Somehow we didn’t flip the car” he half joked “It sure felt like we were”

Cece chuckled as he peeled himself off her and wiped his left over cum off her with his hand, blushing when she closed her thighs at his touch “I’m sensitive you know that”

“I’d eat you out again but I don’t think my jaw can handle anymore movement baby” Sidney teased

“Hey….not nice” she changed the best she could and fixed her makeup

“Aren’t you happy I can stay with you again love” he kissed her cheek “I can hold you all night and not leave”

Jacqueline and him had been separated for a week now, after the doctor fiasco and some other fights it was actually her who had asked him to move out. He saw the boys every single day and face timed them every night but it still wasn’t enough and he knew when he’d ask for the divorce officially there would be hell.

It scared him, if there was one thing that brought fear into him it was the idea of losing Roman and Aaron. He shook off the bad thoughts and finished changing, knowing at least he had Cece. He was falling more and more in love and he hoped she felt the same

3 Months Later Things had been calm, nice. Jacqueline still allowed him to go over to tuck the boys in for bed and had even invited him over for dinner a few times a week. It was nice, it was peaceful and brought him joy to see the boys content and not on edge. Even Jacqueline seemed a little lighter now, joking and actually having pleasant conversations with him

He still hadn’t asked for a divorce but given how things were going he was optimistic they would do well by the boys and have an amicable one. After enjoying dinner he made his way back to Cece’s. Now, he knew if Jacqueline were to find out he was with Cece she’d have his head on a platter. In her mind they were separated to fix things, he didn’t have the courage to let her down and he wouldn’t do so until he knew 100% the boys would be okay

“Hey” Cece smiled wide as he greeted him by the elevator, giggling when he picked her up “I missed you”

“Hi baby” he kissed her “I missed you more”

She held his hand as they went up to her apartment “I have wine and music”

“Nice set up” he grinned as he looked through them “This one” Sidney pointed at the vinyl as he bent down to pick it up “Lionel Richie and Diana Ross, wait who are they ?” he looked confused

“Are you serious ?” Cece grinned “Lionel Richie from The Commodores ? Diana Ross from The Supremes…..come on babe, they wrote one of the best love songs there is, Endless Love”

Sidney looked it over as he played it “This sounds so 80’s, I don’t like it” he made a face

“Because it is” she chuckled “This is one of the most iconic love songs there is, how do you not know it ?”

“Maybe because I’m not from the stone age babe. I was born in 87, I was brought up in the 90’s.” he kissed her head “But I love that you listen to all kinds of music, what’s next ?”

“A classic” Cece pulled out another and smiled “THE best album of all time….Thriller by the king of pop himself the late great Michael Jackson” “Aw yeah the dude with the super scary music video that made me shit me pants when I was 4” Sidney held it “I know him” She laughed and played it “Human Nature is one of the best songs there is, there's a reason this album is so good” Sidney sipped his wine glass and sat down on the floor with her as he listened, he loved how into music she was. She knew every artist and genre there was to know, her collection had everything in it. Sometimes he simply liked looking at her rearrange them over and over again till she felt content with how they looked He liked the song she had chosen, he hadn’t really considered himself a music person but so far he was enjoying it as he nodded his head to the slow beat, He looked again when he pulled out another and grinned “Hey I know this guy, Billy Joel” “He’s so good in concert” she nodded “Dude’s a living legend” Maybe it was the wine or the fact that they were in a calm intimate setting where he felt comfortable, but something in his soul told him it was time to let her know where his heart was. He scooted close to her and let out a deep breath “Cece…” Sidney said suddenly as he reached for her hand “Yes ?” she asked “I love you” he said softly There it was….the L word. The word he wanted to drop ever since the first time he was with her. It was a big one but he knew he meant it and he knew that there wasn’t another woman he could ever love more than her despite circumstances “You don’t have to say it back” Sidney whispered “I know what you’re thinking. I’m still married and you’re waiting for the divorce and it’s coming. Jacqueline and I have been separated for a month now and I’m gonna ask her for it next month. I’m gathering what I need in regards to lawyers and such but soon….it’ll be over and I’ll be able to start this new life with you and I know it sounds cheesy but-”

“But nothing” she cut him off with a gentle kiss “I love you too” “You do ?” he whispered “Of course I do” she held his face in her hands “You’re so special to me” Sidney smiled and leaned his forehead against hers, maybe things would be okay after all

4 Months Later “Just tell her already…please” Cece whispered one night in bed “Sidney it’s been 4 months baby, she’s doing well….I think it’s the right time to finally end it” “I know” he rubbed her back “I know trust me it’s just….she opened her studio and she’s been doing so well…I don’t wanna ruin it for her” “I get that, I do it’s just….it makes me feel bad when….when you come over and you have sex with me and then you answer her texts and calls. Last week she called you at night and you…you got up and answered her…we were in the middle of sex. You just pulled out and left me in bed like nothing I felt so used” she whispered “Baby I’m so sorry” Sidney leaned down and kissed her “You know I only answer her calls because of the boys, just in case it’s an emergency” “I know and respect that but….it can still hurt” Cece admitted “I’m sorry love” he hugged her tightly “Just tell me…is this just fun for you ?” she asked “I can handle it” Sidney quickly shook his head, his eyes glistening with emotion “Don’t ever say that, you know I love you. I want you, I only want you. You’re who I want forever Cece. I would be ruined if you weren’t with me” “I just want us to be okay, to not have to hide, to not have to be so secretive…it sucks” she says “It does”

He held her as he kissed her head, comforting her for a bit “I know love” “We’ll be okay” She nodded “i know it” “We will” Sidney assured “No more sadness” she sat up and brought the sheet to her chest “Did you like what I got you for the road…” He smirked and felt his cheeks redden “Oh man, those pictures were hot. I keep one my wallet you know” “Babe no !” her eyes widened “Don’t do that, are you insane ?” “Relax” he chuckled With the season starting and him being away more and her being busy while on the road, intimacy had become more of a challenge. Sexting and jerking off during their facetime calls could only do much so one day she handed him printed polaroids of herself….naked. They were the hottest thing he had ever received, she didn’t know it but he had kept them in his safe in his apartment, but he liked to tease her every now and then “I only keep this one” he took out his wallet and removed a picture hidden between his cards.It was one of her he had taken with his phone but had secretly printed from her camera one day in her apartment, nothing sexy or over the top, just a picture of her looking through her records “Will you sign the back for me ?” “And put what ?” Cece chuckled “Hmmm….put the date we first made love, so I always know when I knew I was in love with you” he grinned “What a sap” she teased as she took a nearby pen and wrote on the back of the picture “I love you to the moon and back and around all the stars, 9/13/24- Cece” “Cool, now I have you with me even when you’re not there” he kissed her forehead “Which I won’t be till later today, I have some things to drop off at the office then my yearly dr appointment in the late afternoon”

“Sounds good to me, shoot me a text okay ?” he laid down with her for a bit and got dressed afterwards to see the boys for the rest of the afternoon, heading over just as they had pulled in “Daddy !” they both smiled wide “Hey, looks like we got here at the same time” he smiled “How about we play a little outside before dinner time ?” “That’s fine” Jacqueline grinned Sidney helped Roman with his wheelchair to their backyard as he played with him and Aaron, after a while he tired them out and took them back in the house as he laid them down in their beds for a nap before dinner. He took a quick trip to the bathroom and washed his hands as he looked through the house and checked on everything, he didn’t even realize his wallet had fallen out of his pants while playing with the kids and when he did his face paled He kept his breathing stable as he made his way down the stairs and back outside, he looked around everywhere and it was nowhere to be found. Panic ensued as he went back inside through the living room and saw Jacqueline standing quietly, his wallet in one hand and the picture in her other

“It….we need to talk” Sidney whispered

“Answer my question Sidney” Jacqueline whispered “Is it her ?”

He nodded “Yeah…..yeah it’s her”

With a swift movement Jacqueline raised her hand and slapped him across the face, the sound resembling a shotgun being fired as he stumbled back against the wall and held the side of his face. When he turned his head she could see the corner of his lip bleeding. By pure coincidence her wedding ring that she still wore had been the one that had cut him

She went up to him and slapped the other side of his face as hard as she could, this time she heard a grunt come out of him

“I fucking knew it” she seethed “I knew it ! I knew you were with her !”

“Jacqueline stop” Sidney whispered as he put his hands in front of him “Just-“

“How fucking long ?” She asked as he looked up at the ceiling “If you’re fucking praying I can tell you right now God is not listening you piece of shit ! So tell me how fucking long !”

“A little over….” Sidney hesitated for a bit before letting out a deep breath “A little over 4 months”

“Wow” Jacqueline whispered as she felt the wind knocked out of her “You-You fucking monster !” she grabbed a nearby lamp and threw it at him

“Jacqueline stop !” Sidney ducked in time “Listen to me-“

“The date on this….this was when we were in Vegas…..you fucked her while I was there with the kids…you monster ! I’m gonna kill you !” she took nearby coffee table book and threw it at him “You’re gonna wake up the boys and they’ll be scared…calm down” he whispered, holding his eye in pain “Please” “Leave” Jacqueline pointed to the door with a shaky finger “I promise you, I’m going to ruin yours and Cece’s life….I promise you Sidney. I’m going to hurt you two just like you hurt me so be ready…no money is the world is going to be enough to help you” Sidney gulped as he took in her words and left back to his car. He knew a war was coming, he took out his phone and noticed missed texts from Cece and called her back immediately as he tried to keep calm “Hey” he said softly “I….I got some news at the doctor” she whispered “Oh…kay” he said quietly “You’re freaking me out here….just say it because I have something to tell you too and it’s not good Cece so tell me now” “Sidney I’m pregnant” Cece said softly And just like that things had gone from bad to worse. He pulled over on the side of the street and hung up on her, sitting in silence knowing life was about to be the hardest it had ever been.

#sidney crosby #sidney crosby fanfiction #sidney crosby blurb #sidney crosby imagine #hockey fic #sidney crosby fic #nathan mackinnon #sidney crosby fanfic #nhl fic #sidney crosby story

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the-badger-mole · 1 year ago

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AU Bot Plot: Can't Waste a Good Party

It was a disastrous wedding. Katara had been dubious about accepting a catering job for her older brother's college friend's wedding, having been warned by so many other wedding vendors never to work for friends and family. She thought it would be fine since she'd never actually met Zuko, and his insanely rich family had offered her a generous bonus on top of her full fee. It had been hard to turn down, especially since her business was still so new.

The wedding, Sokka had told his sister, was between Zuko and his off again/on again girlfriend, Mai. Privately, Sokka had told Katara, he wasn't thrilled that Zuko was marrying a woman Sokka had dubbed an emotional succubus, but Mai's father owned a company that Zuko's father wanted closer professional ties to. Hence why Ozai Kaji was spending a fortune on his son's wedding. Katara thought it was a bit antiquated use an arranged marriage that way, but it was none of her business as long as the check cleared. And it did.

Now Katara was glad that she'd added a no refunds clause to her contract. The bride hadn't shown up. No call; no note; no friend to tell Zuko and the gathered families what happened. She just didn't show up. And poor Zuko was left standing at the altar looking hurt, embarrassed and confused while around him the guests were in an uproar.

Sokka, proving himself the right choice for best man, snuck Zuko out the back while Ozai and Mai's father, Ukano shouted back and forth about what this meant for their business ventures. The wedding was taking place at a sprawling resort hours away from anyone's home, so leaving wasn't really an option that night. Sokka had made a call, a few guests who'd been sat in the back row snuck out as the warring families hurled insults and abuses back and forth. No one else had even thought of the reception yet.

Katara took no convincing, and with the wedding planner still tied up at the ceremony venue, there was no one to stop a party from happening. Sokka and Zuko's uncle, Iroh, convinced the jilted groom that he needed to eat, and there was no sense in letting good food go to waste. Iroh had offered to sponsor the bar that evening as a wedding present, and saw no need to change that plan, though now he paid the venue owner to keep out anyone else from the wedding unless he or Sokka said they could come in. They had some serious bucking up to do that evening.

"I'm sorry this happened to you, man," Sokka was saying as he pressed a glass of whiskey into Zuko's hand. "But I've gotta tell ya, I always thought Mai was wrong for you. She was so mean! I couldn't understand why you put up with her. Father or no."

"Sokka's right," said Suki. "I know you kept saying she made you happy, but all you two ever talked about was how miserable you were."

"I never said I was miserable," Zuko protested. "I said we hate the same things."

"Oh, and that's such a healthy foundation for a marriage," Suki snorted.

"Well, we can't all be you two," Zuko waved between Sokka and Suki. "So grossly into each other."

"Oh, trust me," Suki raised her brow at Zuko. "You and Mai were plenty gross." Zuko scowled at his friends, and then slumped back into his seat with a groan.

"I'll never find anyone else," he said. "Mai was the only one who would even consider marrying me."

"You'll find someone else," Sokka promised. "Dude, you're a total catch! Suki, back me up."

"You are an absolute hottie," Suki affirmed. "If I wasn't madly in love with Sokka, I'd take a run at you myself."

"Alright, that's enough!" Sokka tossed a crumpled napkin at Suki.

"What?" Suki laughed. "I was just cheering him up."

"I'm glad you two are able to find things to laugh about," Zuko cut in. "It's not like my life is falling apart or anything."

"Sorry, man," Sokka said, patting Zuko's back. "We're just trying to help."

"Then let me go back to the hotel," Zuko snapped.

"It's better to lay low here," Sokka insisted. "Iroh's got the front door covered, so none of your crazy family can get in. If you go back to the hotel, everyone's going to be hounding you. We've got a party of ten here with no crazy aunts or in-laws or fathers. We've got food, we've got booze. Once Jin figures out how to connect her phone to the sound system, we'll have all the sad music you want." Sokka looked around conspiratorially and then whispered to Zuko. "Plus, I have it on good authority that Jin might be happier than most that your wedding got cancelled, if you know what I mean."

"Sokka," Suki chided.

"What, baby?" he looked at Suki with wide eyes. "I didn't say you told me."

"Sokka!"

"What's my brother done now?"

"Hey! Here's the world's greatest chef!" Sokka cheered. "Is dinner ready or what?"

"I was just coming to let you know we'll be setting it out soon. I'm sorry it wasn't ready. I was anticipating more time." Zuko turned to say something, but then he froze.

"It's fine," Suki said quickly. "The appetizers are delicious."

"And the bar's open, so we're all good," Sokka said. Katara raised her brow at her brother.

"I see," she said. Then she turned to Zuko with what she hoped was a professionally sympathetic face. "I'll get the food set up, and then I'll be out of your way."

"You can stay," Zuko said hurriedly. He ducked his head and shrugged. "If you want. It's...it's not like you need to work the reception anymore."

"I don't want to intrude," Katara started.

"No, stay!" Suki insisted. "You've worked hard. You deserve a break. Right, Zuko?"

"Yeah, sis!" Sokka pressed. "Join the party! Zuko just dodged a nuclear missile. We need to fill him with booze and food and cake until he recognizes this was a good thing."

"Sokka!" Katara gasped. She rolled her eyes and turned to Zuko. "I apologize for my brother. He was taught better, but I guess it didn't stick."

"It's fine," Zuko said. "And it's fine if you stay."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes!" Suki said, pulling out the seat between her and Zuko.

#atla #zutara #sukka #au bot plots #runaway bride #THE YEAR OF CONTENT!!!!

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bronx-bomber87 · 1 year ago

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Happy Saturday Fandom :) Wanted to post links to the last few I know they came over the holidays in case anyone missed them. The master list has also been updated. 4x22 , 5x01, 5x02

We’ve reached our yearning era and I’m here for it. This one may not have a ton but it’s just enough that at we were all dying for more. I was so excited to be an era where very aware of their feelings but couldn’t be together yet. Good stuff. Let us proceed shall we?

5x03-Dye Hard

We jump one month into the future. Because Lucy has gone to UC school. So our couple has been apart for some time at this point. Making that longing extra intense. Lucy arrives home to a surprise party of sorts. She's just returning home from UC school. Tamara and Chris welcome her back with mustaches. I love how excited she is Lucy is back. Always take some cute hugs with them. She tells Lucy the she has to head to school but wants to hear all about it tonight. I love them so much.

Leaves us just the clown and Lucy. Bleh. She asks him how he’s doing? Says he’s doing ok. Typing is still hard but he’s glad to be back at work. Was going crazy on the couch. Tells her there’s something else that’s been helping him more. An online group trying to hunt Rosalind. Kinda like the one she was apart of for Aaron’s case back in 4x16. Lucy doesn’t look excited about this idea. He says they contacted him few weeks ago. They call themselves Dye Hards.

Hence the name of the episode. That their research is actually impressive. They compile all their credible tips in an encrypted document. Called the ‘mother doc.’ Lucy’s face is screaming how much she hates all this. But instead of reading her like he should he presses her further. Because it’s Chris…never respects any boundaries she’s putting up but sure man keep going. Force her to read about the one person who sets her PTSD off like no other.

Just so you can have some peace of mind…grumble….Dislike him so very much. Lucy tells him how not healthy this is. (It really isn’t…) That she’s just a patrol officer. He whines about how the task force is ignoring him. Of course they are ya putz. It's why he’s dragging her into this. I hate this very much. Lucy gives in and says she’ll give his doc a look. That good ole guilt driving her decisions about him some more. Smh.

Roll call starts out with Grey congratulating Lucy. She successfully passed UC school. Telling everyone that is no small feat. Look at Tim ever the proud husband. That look alone says everything you need to know about her crushing it. The soft looks in his eyes. That soft gaze he only reserves for her. *sigh* Oh pining era you are lovely.

Lucy trying to contain her emotions about all of it. Grey calling her out and congratulating her. Tim looking at her like she hung the moon and stars. Couldn’t be more telling if he tried. She can’t even look at him. Just messes with her thermos. Lucy not really knowing how to react to the attention. Especially Tim’s…She just nods and hopes they move on.

Aaron and Lucy come out of roll call together. Lucy is congratulating him on making P2. Lucy also commends him on being a good aide for Tim. Aaron is very aware of Tim and Lucy. Maybe not everything but enough to offer stepping back. Then asks Lucy if Tim said he’s doing a good job? Lucy says no…that she made that last part up LMAO

Reminds me of 1x02 when Wrigley did the same to her. Thinking she got praise from Tim early on. Only to be crushed by the fact that he hadn't...Yeah you gotta really earn that Tim Bradford praise Aaron lol His reaction to that fake news is hilarious. Lucy can't lie and has to let him know no such praise has happened. Sorry my man.

Lucy follows it up with he hasn’t replaced him yet LOL I mean that’s a lot coming from Tim. If he wasn't happy he would've traded him away like baseball card. Lucy adding on 'So he’s…happy.' As happy as one could be without his person by his side sure. This next bit it sticks in her throat a bit as she says it.

Telling him he should stick with him. Obviously killing her to be to be apart from him. To pass up taking being his aide once again. But she wants to keep the distance up. For the same reasons as 5x02. Hurts too much to be around him when she can’t be with him. The pining era is so good for these moments. Aaron asks if she’s sure? Because she doesn't seem sure...

Only they could have such immense chemistry with an intense stare. One that is across the room from each other BTW. The longing is palpable af. Angsty goodness right here. Also those are some smoldering bedroom eyes for Lucy. My god idk how she could function after him looking at her that way. Would make me hot under the collar good god. That man wants her back in his shop. But we know that isn’t happening anytime soon.

So much pining and tension with just one look good lord. His stare does end up affecting her. Her breath hitches a little when they make eye contact. She stammers a little in her advice to Aaron. I love how they find each other those across a room. That magnetic pull only they understand. It’s automatic no matter what’s going on. Lucy rambling on about needing some quiet time anyways..You know for her next steps in her career...

More like Tim thinking time. Let’s be real. I love how the entire time she’s just staring at Tim. Spending most of their conversation just staring right back. Even when he’s looked down. She misses him so much. That is very evident in this moment. When she finally breaks off her longing she notices Aaron looking at his phone ha Not even paying attention to her anymore. Making a sassy comment that he hasn't even heard a word she's said. He apologizes and says he has to deal with something personal.

We start out with Tim and Aaron. Tim feeling extra surly after seeing Lucy. Much worse getting to be that close and not really getting to see her. So Aaron is on thin ice when Tim sees him buried in his phone. He apologizes and says he’s having person problem. Tim saying this is a ‘personal life free zone.’ Ha! Not since Lucy Chen entered your life it isn’t…

Aaron tells him it could derail his career. Tim sighs and that little bit of Lucy’s influence comes out. He asks him what it is? Aaron going on about a dating site. Using a thirst trap LOL Tim’s reaction is too damn funny. ‘I wish I didn’t…’ Look at our softie helping Aaron with his problem.

He goes on to tell Tim he was cat-fished and now the dude is blackmailing him. Tim is confused saying he thought the pic didn’t show anything? We find out this guy has photoshopped something worse. He shows it to Tim and I’m dying. ‘Could’ve been worse…At least he was generous. LMAO Oh Timothy I love you so.

We catch Lucy riding solo. She sees a homeless man go into an abandoned building. Calls it in saying she going to go look for squatters. She calls back in after she’s finds nothing. Saying she is Code 4. That is before she notices a freezer open with wallets in it. The man she followed in traps her in the old walk in freezer. Thankfully it’s out of commission. Unfortunately it blocks her radio signal. Leaving her trapped there with no one to tell she is….You can tell she wants to shout a whole lot of expletives above ha

Aaron gets contacted by his catfish. He wants a PS5 and delivered to his apt. Tim is so funny in this scene. Saying oh good he’s a dumbass LOL Giving up his location and needing something they can obtain on the way. Aaron doesn’t want to give in but Tim makes a good point about the photo. It’ll be in police evidence and he doesn’t want that ha. Aaron says good thing he has a gamer connection in K-Town. Tim shaking his head not shocked in the least about this. Of course he does...

Poor Lucy tries once again to get ahold of dispatch but to no avail. She has to try and talk her anxiety down. I would be doing the same thing to try and relax. Telling herself that at some point there will be a welfare check. (Well Tim will for sure…) She can’t do anything until that point. So she pulls out her phone and starts reading that mother doc the clown sent. Lucy is too funny as she reads these messages.

I love her talking to the smiley face on the freezer LOL She is so adorable I cannot stand it. Then she stumbles upon someone making sense. As she reads it aloud something clicks in her brain. A saying Rosalind told Nolan a long time ago. The 5 star meal comment. Lucy starts to get restless again. Jumps up and starts banging on the door for help again.

They show up to the address and it’s a teenager..he just wanted a PS5. I love how stern and authoritative Tim is with this kid. Saying bad behavior doesn’t get rewarded. Mmm no it doesn’t. Idk why that does it for me with Tim but it does. It’s yum tum city and I am a resident. They get the kid to delete the photo and take down the profile. He says they suck when Tim takes the PS5. Cracks me up he keeps it for himself. I love this man so very much haha

We return to the shop and Tim’s Lucy radar is going off. Aaron’s going on about the kid still but Tim’s mind is elsewhere. He has Lucy on his brain. Has that panicked look he reserves only for her going on. He asks Aaron the last time he heard Chen on the radio? He replies he can’t remember…maybe like hour or two ago? Let me start with I adore him waiting to hear her voice on the radio. Then noticing he hasn't in awhile.

How he keeps track of not hearing from her in some time. Tim knows she’s solo today. You know that man was subconsciously keeping track of her in the back of his mind. Some serious married vibes here my love. This definitely doesn’t line up with the 'moving on’ you were talking bout in 5x02. When Aaron says least 2 hours worried Tim arrives. He’s freaking out something has happened to her.

I’m sure he’s also thinking if she was riding with him this wouldn’t be happening. But she isn’t…Tim contacts dispatch about her. They say it’s been over two hours. Angry/protective Tim also joins the party. Welcome sir nice to see you. Telling dispatch they’re gonna talk about that later. Phew lord. You know that man is going to destroy dispatch over this. Hell is going to rain down on them for not keeping track of her. For now he just wants her location to check on her. Needs to get his worried husband portion to settle first.

Once they’ve arrived he calls out her name a couple times. Lucy finally hears him and bangs on the door. Then comes a DELICIOUS shot of his arms/forearms. My god it’s like they’re trying to make me a puddle. The definition in his arms as he pulls that door free.* fans self* god that man is in shape. Mmm Legit drooling as he pulls on that door. Forearm porn AND biceps shot. I’m a happy girl. Like hot damn that is a thirst trap of a shot above.

He gets the door to finally pop open. Also nice thigh/bootie shot of him as well. I'm not mad about it. Asking her how she is? So very worried about her. Unfortunately Lucy is not in the frame of mind to receive it. Just tells him she has a lead on Rosalind. Not the response he was expecting…He asks 'What?' anyways. She tells them about the message boards Chris has been on. Filled with arm chair detectives. Tim asks her if they found her? She says no she thinks one of them is her.

The Feds get brought in cause Chris’s dumbass has been talking to her. Feeding her stuff about him and the investigation going on. Because well it's Chris. Can’t read Lucy when she’s being obvious af so why would he notice this? Lucy is sweet and tells him he didn’t know. I on the other hand am like dumbass LOL He asks if he should set up a meet. Yes Chris, she’s a highly intelligent psychopath she wouldn’t see through that at all…

Garza saying Cyber crimes is now involved. They’re going to try and track her through her IP address if possible. Chris is feeling like the dummy he is. He leaves the meeting upset. I’m a bad person enjoying this lmao I mean Tim would’ve been Lucy’s real target but he was in Vegas with her. She knows that’s her fierce protector. So he was the next I was gonna say best thing but that’s not true. But closest thing that would rattle her.

Tim and Aaron arrive at the station and there is posters everywhere. Everyone is laughing. Of course Smitty has them and is glowing over it. I mean Tim did pick Nolan over him for union president. So of course he is enjoying this. It's of Tim photoshopped naked with a cupcake covering him up OMG. Tim is seeing red. I don’t blame him. Just when they thought their catfish was over he pulls this. Clearly pissed at Tim for taking the PS5 and lecturing him.

They arrive at Pavi’s house with the felony papers. Tim saying he can file these today. Or he could use his skills for good. James needs someone to teach computer literacy at the center. That if is does this twice a week he’ll shred them. Otherwise he has 18 months to file these. He’s a little snot and throws Tim’s words about electronics back at him. Tim says he’s lucky Aaron believes in second chances. His mom calls him and he says to text him the details. I love Tim leaving Aaron hanging for his fist bump LMFAO. He does tell him they did good though so that’s something. Aaron has to fist bump himself ha.

Lucy gets to join the task force with the FBI. They’re headed to Seattle where the IP was traced. Lucy looks like an absolute bad ass in OP gear. A determined look on her face. They make it inside and find two bodies…sadly the homeowners. Psycho worked out of their house and just left their bodies there as she did. She is a one sick cookie. Lucy sees her message written in blood on the wall. She is long gone.

Not a ton in this one but what we did get was real good. Plus I always enjoy Tim/Aaron time they have a good dynamic. Fun to watch them together.

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Side notes-non Chenford

Intro of Celina Juarez. I wasn’t sure about her at first but ended up adoring her. Just like Aaron. Good job writers haha

Did love Tim tearing Nolan a new one about Celina bad stop. Was sexy af. Maybe shouldn’t have been a turn on but it was LOL

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