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ALRIGHT! Another OC asks post! Y'all know the drill by now, I gotta do my Warrior Cats OC: SkullFace, and my Elder Scrolls: Skyrim self-insert OC: Stalks-In-Shadows!!
Now, this time around, Imma switch it up! Stalks will be going first! As usual, any that cannot apply to her due to her universe will not be included...let's do this!
Heart: By far, her mate, Veezara is the one that means the most to her. As an assassin, let alone one of 7 remaining Shadowscales, herself and Veezara being two, her parents, Lurks-In-Depths(Mother), and Slays-By-Moons(Father) being two, and hers and Veezara's children, SoulWatcher(Sol, son, second hatched), Smiles-At-Dawn(Dawn, daughter, first hatched) and Crimson-Eye(Crim, daughter, last hatched) being the last 3, is not without it's dangers...she almost lost Veezara once...her hatchlings hadn't even been born at the time. She was taken by a lycanthrope hunter named Wolfsbane, and in the process herself, Veezara, and Arnbjorn were badly wounded...they tranquilized Veezara with something so strong...she thought they'd killed him. They got her as well, the difference being she was netted and captured. Veezara and Arnbjorn were left to "die." Bjorn later took Vee back to the Dawnstar Sanctuary...and when Veezara came to a few days later, so began the search that would tear across Tamriel to find Stalks.
Broken heart: Stalks has hurt a lot of people. She's an assassin. It's in the job description, basically. But she has also spared plenty. If she deems a contract unnecessary or a target innocent, she will appeal to the Night Mother and ask that they be granted mercy. And as the Listener, she has more sway in those appeals. The most she's hurt emotionally? Veezara, Babette, Gabriella...and Astrid. She kept her lycanthropy a secret for a long time, afraid of how they would react to her pure-blooded form...in the end, they all took it well, but they were reasonably hurt by the lack of faith in them.
Wine: Argonian Bloodwine is her drink of choice...and why not? It's a Blackmarsh original. A taste of home. She will enjoy one on occasion, specifically after a higher profile contract gone perfectly, which usually follows with the Brotherhood celebrating the win. She doesn't get "drunk" easily. Argonians have a natural resistance towards disease, and that carries over to the effects of alcohol. At most, she'll get a buzz and a warm feeling in her body, and it's a very soothing feeling...most contracts she has to get to HERSELF. She doesn't use Shadowmere very often, in fact more often than not she'll use her were-beast form to get from point A to B. She's not like other Lycans, she can cover ground quicker, and isn't limited in how long she can stay transformed.
!: By far? That moment when Gaius Maro had herself and Veezara restrained in Solitude, saying their Sanctuary was being put to the sword as they spoke...everyone she loved could have been killed that night. She thanks Hircine every time she is reminded, because it was her speed as a Lycan that got her and Veezara home, to aid in the fight to free their Family from the flames before anyone was killed...the only casualties were the Penitus Oculatus that were involved. Astrid nearly died that night...but Stalks wasn't letting her take the easy way out. If she could hold on through 3rd degree burns all over her body, and long enough for the others to find her, and even still SPEAK- than she could hold on long enough to be healed. Which she did. Stalks took over as the leader nonetheless...but that night haunts her.
Steak: Stalks does actually have healthy coping mechanisms, thanks to Veezara. Meditation is one of them, and going out for a swim alone with her beloved is another...helps her clear her mind and de-stress.
Wilted Flower: Stalks is typically cool under pressure, but if something gets to her, truly, instead of Fight, it will be Freeze, for a moment...before logic and fight to live kick in.
Strawberry: Stalks is a worshipper of Hircine, Sithis, and Akatosh...and she is a part of the Hist, the Argonian cycle of birth, death, and rebirth. She knows her fate after she dies is uncertain...The Void, the Hunting Grounds, Akatosh's realm, or Rebirth in the Hist?
Cherries: Her best friend is Veezara, hands down. Aside from him? Between Gabby and Babette. Astrid is working her way back up. But, she's known everyone pretty much her entire life.
Siren: Assassin, Law...what do you think?
Lipstick: Stalks is comfortable with her face, as well as her skin...she has amethyst eyes, and those are by far her favorite feature. They pool into blood red when she's angry, or in rare occasions, in extreme pain. This happened when she was laying her eggs.
Ladybug: A perfect day? With a contract, for it to be close by, easy, and DEFINITELY a guilty person. Without one? To spend a day with her beloved and her kids.~
Boxing Glove: She's an assassin. She's been in a hundred fights by now, and ALWAYS wins. She is professionally trained- from BIRTH.
Scarf: Easily her mate or her “sisters” of the Brotherhood. She has grown up with all of them, basically, and literally for her and Veezara, they trained together in Black Marsh since they were born…they know each other’s weakness’s, their flaws, strengths and fears. There is no one better to calm her.
Backpack: Assassins have to be ready for anything, expect the unexpected, as the saying goes. Stalks typically heads to her targets WITHOUT riding Shadowmere, as she has more stamina in her werebeast form anyway, and has the ability to cloak herself in it, and out of it, due to being born under the sign of the Shadow(Aka a Shadowscale). She learned of an enchantment that makes it so her clothes shift WITH HER. They don’t show up in her beast form, more so they almost get ABSORBED. When she shifts back, she’s fully clothed…thank the gods for that. It’s much more preferable to stripping out of her armor EVERY TIME to shift without ripping her armor, or destroy whatever supplies she has on her…but when she’s shifted for a contract, she’ll wear a satchel around her neck for supplies, weapons, healing items, etc.
Axe: What do you think? The answer is yes, to all of the above.
SkullFace is next!
Red Emoji OC Asks ❤️🩹
❤️ (heart) - Who is the most important person to your character? To what lengths would they go to protect this person?
💔 (broken heart) - Who has your character hurt most? Physically or emotionally? How did it feel? Do they regret it?
🌹 (rose) - What does your oc find attractive in other people? Are these traits found in their friends and/or romantic partners? Are they found in themselves?
🎈 (balloon) - What does your character do at parties? Are they a wallflower or a party animal? Do they go with friends or alone?
🍷 (wine) - Does your oc drink? What kind of alcohol do they enjoy? What are their drinking habits? What kind of drunk are they?
❗️(exclamation point) - What was the scariest moment of your character’s life? Does it still affect them?
🥩 (steak) - Does your oc have any coping mechanisms? Healthy or unhealthy?
🥀 (wilted flower) - How does your character deal with stressful situations? Is their fear response fight, flight, freeze or fawn?
🍓 (strawberry) - Does your oc believe in anything? Are they superstitious? Religious? Atheistic? Has anything in their past made them this way?
💋 (kiss) - Is your oc a good kisser? Have they kissed anyone before? Do they even enjoy kissing? What was their first kiss like in comparison to their most recent?
🍒 (cherries) - Does your character have a best friend? How long have they known each other? What do they like most about each other? How did they meet?
🚨 (siren) - What’s your character’s relationship with the law? Have they ever been arrested? What for? What are their opinions on law enforcement?
💄 (lipstick) - What does your oc think of their face? Do they have a positive or negative opinion? Do they wear makeup? Do they have a skincare routine? What traits do they like most about their face?
🍎 (apple) - Does your oc go to school or take classes? Did they go to college? What was/is their favorite subject? Did/do they get good grades? Did/do they enjoy school?
🐞 (ladybug) - What does a perfect day look like for your oc? What do they do? Who do they see?
☎️ (telephone) - Does your character know anyone’s phone number by heart? Do they prefer calling or texting? Who’s their favorite person to call/text? Do they have any typing quirks?
🥊 (boxing glove) - Has your character ever been in a fight? Did they win? Do they fight often? Are they professionally trained or self taught? Do they enjoy fighting or only do so when necessary?
🧣(scarf) - What comforts your oc? Is it an item? An action? A person? Whatever it is, how any why does it comfort them?
👠 (heels) - How does your oc dress? Are they stylish or casual? Do they keep up with trends or do their own thing? Do they prefer designer clothes or going to the thrift store? Do they have a signature item of clothing?
🍄 (mushroom) - Does your character like being in nature or do they prefer the indoors? Do they have any outdoor hobbies like camping or fishing? If they prefer the indoors, why?
🩸 (blood) - Is your oc squeamish? Are they disturbed by the sight of blood? Have they ever been in a situation where they had to overcome being squeamish?
✂️ (scissors) - Has your character ever cut their own hair? What about someone else’s? How did it turn out?
🎸 (electric guitar) - What’s your character’s music taste like? Do they have one or two artists they play on repeat or do they have a varied and eclectic collection of music? Do they like mainstream artists or prefer underground musicians? What genres do they enjoy?
🎒 (backpack) - What items does your oc usually carry? Do they have a bag or just keep everything in their pockets? Do they carry a lot or a little?
🪓 (axe) - Does your oc have survival skills? Have they ever had to use them? What would they do in an apocalypse? Could they survive?
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One Piece but Luffy is flirty as fuck.
This boy was raised on a bar until he was seven. He spend most of his time with Shanks in said bar and idolized that man. He heard so many things.
Then he was sent to live with literal bandits and I'll be damned if those dumbasses never tried to rip off rich assholes by schmoozing em.
There is also Ace and Sabo. These three tricked restaurants into believing they were an adult man. I can't imagine Ace not taking the role a little too far and flirting with waiters. Sabo was raised rich and he never grew out of that gentelmanly passive aggressive flirtation tactics that work on rich women, whick consisted of body language and small touches on the hands, shoulders and hair. After Sabo's incident it was only two of them Luffy would sweet talk people to distract them as Ace piled up dishes from the kitchen.
Worst thing is, he doesn't even know he is doing it. He is constantly using words like: love, honey, sugar, sweetheart, etc... and his crew just gets used to it along with pecks on the cheek and pats on their shoulders, arms, cheeks, legs... They know he doesn't mean anything bad by it but their first meeting were awkward at best.
Luffy: All this heat must be getting to your pretty head, what about you come with me sugar and sail the seas?
Zoro *thinking*: I will kill this guy.
-after all the fiasco-
Luffy: What do you say, love? Ready to go?
Zoro *thinking*: Wtf? I'm... gay?
Zoro: Aye aye, captain.
Luffy *twirling a lock of Nami's hair on his fingers*: You know stealing is bad, kitten.
Nami: Listen here you fuck-
Luffy: I knew your daddy, he was a nice guy, very handsome, just like you.
Nami, Usopp: WTF MAN???
(Zoro is getting the hang of Luffy-ism at the time so he doesn't outwardly react but still feels the shiver)
Luffy: All Blue can have all the fish at the sea, if only I get to keep you, darlin'.
Sanji *panicking bc some weirdo is flirting w him*: Nu-uh. I'm into women. Go away. Go. Just go!
Luffy: *Only ever addresses Vivi as Princess*
Luffy: The real monster is my heart, can't you hear it roaring?
Chopper *a doctor*: What do YOU MEAN YOUR HEART IS ROARING?!
Luffy: Sure u can stay Mama.
Robin: *morbidly curious and entertained*
Luffy: Wow, look at those guns, baby.
Franky: *too dense to know what flirting look like*
Franky: I know right. They are SUPER.
Brook: I can't feel anything. Why? Because I'm all bones and no skin! Yohohohoho!
Luffy: Does that mean you can't feel my love for you?🥺
Brook *panicked*: Of course I feel it! Deep in my bones! Yohohohohoho...
Luffy: You can have my heart mr. tall, dark and handsome.
Law * Slightly suspicious*: No thanks.
Luffy: U sure, sweetheart? It beats for u. *Wink wink*
Law *100% suspicious*: U-huh.
Luffy *At Wano*: Kids! Daddy is back!
Crew: *Cheers*
Jimbe *Resigned after Impel Down plus Marinefors plus Mermaid Island*: Yeah kids, daddy's home!
Everyone is mortified. Straw Hats are the flirtiest bunch u will ever meet. And Shanks doesn't even know what he has created.
#one piece#monkey d. luffy#roronoa zoro#cat burglar nami#usopp#black leg sanji#vinsmoke sanji#tony tony chopper#nico robin#franky#soul king brook#shanks#one piece makino#portgas d ace#revolutionary sabo#trafalgar law#jimbei#incorrect one piece quotes
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A very long ramble about a silly object show-
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I'm curious, what do you all think Suitcase or Knife will use the money for? (if they win and get a prize)
I like to think that if Suitcase won she would open a therapy or a place where everyone can come together and talk about their problem or maybe a flower or an accessories shop, and she would run the flower shop together with balloon, tho that's just very unlikely to me but it's a fun idea :]
But idk maybe it could backfire because Suitcase has her own emotional baggage, so maybe multiple people will run the therapy center and not just her, maybe Goo, Clover, Tea Kettle, Lifering, and Candle could help her, or even Balloon will try to help her!
I feel like after everything they've been through all of the contestants deserve a place where they can talk about their feelings because I know they're not doing okay after all of those bullshit💀
Knife- I'm not so sure about him but I like to think that he would open a gym so that everyone can train there and improve themself! Or maybe open like a coffee shop or any sort of beverages- don't ask me why I'm not so sure myself, I don't have that much idea for Knife *sobs*, and if he does open a gym maybe Thropy, Blueberry, Yinyang, Baseball, Lifering (yes, Lifering fits with both of the places) and Silverspoon will become the gym inspector!!
Just like Suitcase, Knife's Gym can improve the contestant but physically, I feel like the contestants can start training to prepare for the next season (if there will be a 4th season💀) because back in all of the season the contestant doesn't really have a place to train themself to prepare for the challenges so it would be nice if they have a place to do that!
Or maybe Knife will finally embrace his interest and open a doll shop and make a ton of custom Dora dolls for everyone!!! /j
Honestly, it would be nice if Knife and Suitcase won together and split the million to build their places together, so far everyone who has won the season has made something that everyone can enjoy
Oj made a hotel as a shelter and a place to stay for the contestants (because they don't have a home or a family and the game is their only place---)
Cabby built a library where everyone could expand their knowledge and improve their critical thinking
Now imagine this- Suitcase builds a therapy center for the contestants to improve their mental health and Knife builds a Gym center for the contestants to improve their physical health- IT JUST MAKES SENSE!!
The winner of the season gave something back to the other contestant!!! Oj provides shelter, Cabby expands their knowledge, and Knife and Suitcase improves their mental health and physical health!!!
SOMEONE PLEASE HEAR ME OUT ON THIS😭🥲
Maybe it's just me thinking way too deeply on this but I just want the contestants to live happily after all of this, I just want them to be happy😭🥲
Anyway let me know what you think, I would love to discuss more about this! And thanks for reading!!
#ii knife#ii suitcase#knife inanimate insanity#suitcase inanimate insanity#inanimate insanity#knifecase#kinda#this is just my excuse to make a long ramble about them lmao#anyway please hear me out on this#I need more II discussions#discussion#let’s discuss#feel free to discuss
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its taken me a WHILE to think of any interesting lore lol
- i had to save my sister once when she was really little. she took off her gloves, touched the snow for too long, and started getting a lot of pain in her hands, and the fastest way to get her to warmth was to pick her up and carry her home. we had a huge backyard so imagine carrying like a small 4-6 year old human across a huge field of snow thats at Least 3 ft deep. she had frostbite but i managed to get her inside in time to warm up her hands. she caught pneumonia a while later i'm not sure if it was related.
- i'm the only one in my family who WASNT taken to the hospital regualrly for medical issues. my brother basically lived there (born with a cleft palete and asthma, so, yeah), my sib had asthma and knee issues (their knee would dislocate randomly based on the smallest activity), and my sister had asthma, split her head open and had to get it glued shut, and shes a horse girl now so she goes pretty regualrly to check if she broke this or that. so far every single injury hasnt been worse than a sprain thank god. also my mom and dad both have so many medical problems its insane. i was supposed to be the "normal" one with no problems. needless to say, the only "doctors" i've seen regularly are counsellors for "therapy".
- i have a huge attachment to plushies of animals because i love animals so much i want all of them but i cant have all of them </3 so a stuffie will do. my nanna used to work at a hershey factory in our hometown and they had free reese's and hershey beanie babies for us for easter and stuff :)
- i learned what gay peoole were due to mean girls (2004), i basically saw 2 girls kissing in the background (unsure if this is actually in the movie or i made it up) and i asked my mom why they were kissing, and she said sometimes girls kiss each other! and i remembered telling her that i was definitely someone who liked girls and wouldnt mind kissing them. YEEEARS later (despite having memory problems) she recalled this and found out i had a girlfriend in high school, which is how i ended up coming out. because of this, everyone automatically assmes i'm a lesbian even though i've told them i'm bisexual like 600 million times since then.
- (fucking obviously) i grew up going to catholic school from kindergarten to 6th grade. not because my parents are super religious, just, there were rules about which schools we were allowed to go to. my dad's side was catholic and my mom's side was assimilated into catholocism, but eventually broke away. my great aunt does geneology and traced back our ancestors to native roots, so she basically went from catholic to following native teachings immediately. we were taken to pow wows since i could remember, so, we definitely had it better than they did. despite the whities trying to take our culture from us, we're still here <3 still sharing our language and stories and music.
- i was raised by the tv and computer. quite literally. i had an incident when i was younger that caused my dad to distrust people, so i wasnt allowed over at friend's houses or to hang out with them unless they knew them super super well. because of this, i tried to understand social interaction through tv shows like dawson's creek and charmed. on the internet i would watch smosh and... (sigh) sh*ne d*wson and dan and phil and would treat it more like an entertaining break. i swear i was on the family computer for so long sometimes my dad would tell me to go to bed 900 times and i'd stay on until at LEAST 1 or 2 in the morning talking to the friends i made over the internet that i wasnt allowed to have in real life. those friends actually helped me learn how to talk to people like a normal human being!! i'm greatful to them every day and i still talk to them all the time ^_^
- i pretended to hate girly stuff when i was a kid to overcompensate my masculinity, but theres so many "girly" things i really like! i really liked playing house, i really liked playing with baby dolls, i really liked sundresses and nail polish and stuff, i just never liked when all that made me a "girl" according to others, and i didnt realize that was why at the time. egg moment 🥚🏳️⚧️
theres way more fhat may or may not be interesting but ^^; i think thats enough for now
it's so weird to me that everyone on this website is a human person outside of their weird internet niche so rb this with a random bit of your lore
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So I'm not really that into Arcane fandom or anything like that but is anyone else a little worried for how season 2 is progressing thus far? I'm not talking about the apparent Caitlyn vitriol that some people are falling into- god forbid you have complex characters am I right. But watching the first act of season 2 it's all so terribly rushed and not in the same way season 1 had fast pacing but with tight writing to make up for it.
Spoilers for the first 3 episodes ahead but the fact that we barely even get to know the new enforcer characters that come to Zaun annoys me. The most we have is the girl introducing herself to Vi. The other two aren't even named in the show let alone have any sort of personality. For the big shield guy why is he even allowed to be an enforcer???? Sir you were seemingly living on the streets drinking away your problems last I checked with no indication you were or wanted to be an enforcer. The kid that follows Jinx around doesn't even have any sort of lines until episode 3- which would be fine if it was clearly a deliberate choice for her character but considering that the show is trying to juggle so much it just feels like she fell to the wayside.
I'm also very much not a fan of how the 2nd season is structuring its storylines thus far- certain scenes loose their tension because they're so intercut with other scenes happening simultaneously- take the vi and jinx fight for example. Like I get it you wanted to show how them interacting with the run was actively interfering with the fight but the constant cuts back and forth leave a bad taste in my mouth. The structure they use for the various sections with music overplaying them are hit or miss to me- some I love, some I think should have been actual scenes with dialogue.
I'm also really sad to see them seemingly rush over bits of character development we really need to see. Like take Vi- her not wanting to be an enforcer is 200% justifiable and believable, we haven't been shown anything about how the enforcers work that would give Vi a reason to want to join. And then after the attack in episode 1 she silently comes to a decision to join which fine, I can buy her wanting to help now that Zaun is conducting terrorist attacks. But she just agreed to the plan to use the gray against the people of Zaun???? Really???? Vi did??? Shouldn't Vi, someone who is only joining the enforcers out of desperate necessity, be way more critical of any use of force in the undercity? There's even little things like when Caitlyn arrests the henchman I was expecting Vi to stand up for him because almost *everyone* in the undercity is some sort of criminal so that they can survive. But no it just turns into Vi asking them to ditch the side characters we know absolutely nothing about.
Speaking of Vi- for the record the cait/vi kiss in my opinion was stupidly forced in. I would have liked to see their relationship develop this season because in season 1 I could see the beginning of something there. I really loved the moment in the first episode where it's only when seeing Vi that Caitlyn breaks down a little because Vi is someone she can trust to be open with. Great stuff to further develop- oh no they're kissing after no development just to make the immediately following break up more dramatic? Great yay yippee representation -_- Don't get me wrong I would have loved to see it develop into a romance but not in episode 3 with no buildup (1st season does not count as buildup to me for an actual romantic relationship).
This is also somewhat petty but I do hate the fact that Ambessa is revealed to be behind the memorial attack in episode 3- I much would have preferred for that information to be revealed to the audience alongside whatever character discovers it. Revealing it like that is dramatic, sure, but I feel like it ruins the mystery of Ambessa's morality in a way that is not satisfying.
All in all I'm not the happiest with these first 3 episodes but we'll have to see how the other 2 arcs go before making any judgement calls overall.
#arcane#arcane season 2#arcane spoilers#criticism#mae rambles#idk im just really unsatisfied with these first 3 episodes#i had hoped with them declaring this as the final season for this story#and with seemingly proper development time given to the team#that we would get an even greater successor to the 1st season right off the bat#bc if they know this is the ending then that means they had a very tight storyline planned out#but at this rate act 1 absolutely needed another episode to properly flesh out its shit and maybe not have things get sidelined or rushed#idk idk like i said final judgements will have to wait until the whole show is out
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I’ve never played Dragon Age before but I’m being won over by all the thirst posting lmao, what’s the best DA game to start with? Idk if there’s like an overarching narrative or if they’re self contained plots or whatever.
Omg I somehow missed this which is unacceptable given how much I love ya lol
YEEEES, WELCOME TO THE DRAGON AGE SICKO SIDE, MWHAHAHA
Okay, so if you're not totally allergic to old graphics I highly recommend starting with Dragon Age: Origins. It's an absolute masterpiece in storytelling, but also wildly politically, errr, incorrect lmfao. And with mods it looks amazing
You get to have a dog who can read. I'm not making this up. He understands human speech perfectly and only uses it to beg for treats. You can also ask him if he has something for you (like Scratch in bg3) and when he doesn't, the game makes you want to kill yourself because the camera pans down into the most SHAME ON YOU angle on him I've ever seen and he looks defeated. It's amazing lol
Your companions in Origins are straight up insane. A huge warrior who steals cookies from a child and calls him fat. A living construct who was once a dwarf but there was a situation and she spent 30 years inert being shat on by pigeons and now she's on a personal quest to brutally murder all of them.
Did I mention there's a bisexual assassin elf who spends most of the game complimenting the group's grandma's boobs? I’m not sure it’s a "good" plot point, but it sure is a plot point.
You get to be rescued from prison by any of your companions. If the dwarf and elf go, they lie that they are brothers and it somehow works. Or the companions can end up naked. It’s insane, it’s absolutely fucking insane
Or you can start with DA 2 and experience the joy that is Purple Hawke (aka choosing the sarcastic dialogue option.) I present to you some of the classic lines:
"So I should be looking out for a bunch of boneless women flopping through the street?"
"Let's be more specific. I don't do anything that involves children or animals."
"You should pay someone else. Like me. I like being paid."
"I'd like to know who this "Corypheus" is. With a name like that, he's bound to go "mwa-ha-ha" at some point. I just know it."
In DA 2, you get to run around for YEARS (yeah actual years) with your found family that sort of hates each other, everyone, or almost, is bisexual, someone is possessed, and everyone is horny.
Inquisition is a great starting point, though, if you don't want to go too far back. It’s friendly to new players and very patient with your questions about "What is a dragon?" and "Why does everyone hate elves?" It rehashes everything you need to know so you’re not like, "Wait, what’s a Blight again?" Plus, it directly ties into the new game, Veilguard, which is even friendlier since 10 years passed between the two games and it has no choice but to be.
But really, I feel like all of them are good are introducing/rehashing the lore
Also if you want to experience the most life-devastating romance with the elven embodiment of a poetic egg, Inquisition and Veilguard got you covered. @thessaralka wrote many treatises on it lmfao
Pick up the games ok pls ty byyye
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#(pathetic whining)#why does everyone i love have to live far#i am craving Community again. where are friends in my area who are not a 3 hour drive at least#week long drive at most#crying. wailing even#this is not my usual occasional feelings of “deer roadkill moment” but more akin to “sopping wet kitten in the rain”#philosophy sucks. the people who are actually engaged in that class are all not. self aware. like#the way they speak tells me everything i need to know. i love discussing shit like that. but the minute you start talking like#you don't work a job to be here then i'm immediately tuning u out. it's the Elitest Academic Bubble Syndrome#psych is more lecture and not a lot of discussion. and i'm cool w my coworkers but we're in such dif places in life that it makes it hard 2#connect outside that y'know#i'm hoping maybe next quarter's classes might!! surround me w some cool people ;; i'm taking my best friends' advice#i need an art class. even tho i hate traditional art classes. thinking ceramics would be cool AND maybe be filled w gay people#reader if you've made it this far. pick a god and pray for me please#i would just like. friends please c':#sap says#me: reads fics abt people my age carpooling 2 college or bonding thru retail hell#me: (head in hands)#argh. ooougherahraa. if only it were that easy :')
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you ask, and i provide. here's my essay on why i think this.
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The opening lines of the song “I shut my eyes/You call but I just cut the line/I know your style/I know that you want one more night/And I'm backsliding/Into this just one more time” can be read as Sirius constantly being the one into initiate it every time they have sex, and Remus is helplessly love with him so he gives in- he tries to resist it, but he eventually falls back into it. The start of the next stanza, “Too far from over you” emphasizes this.
The lines “I can feel your love/Your temporary touch/It's a hit and run/You go back there when you're done” talk about how when it they're together Remus can pretend, he feels what it would be like if Sirius loved him like that, but this love, this feeling, this “touch” is temporary- it ends when they're done. The comparison to a hit and run emphasizes how much it guts Remus everytime Sirius leaves after, because always leaves after. The lines “Don't you want some more/'Cause I can feel your love" are Remus begging for Sirius to keep doing this, for him to stay just a bit longer, because he'll have him any way Sirius will let him. He wants to feel loved by Sirius, he wants to pretend just a little more.
The line “Everyone who sees you falls in love” talks about how wanted Sirius is, and how aware of this Remus is. It makes Remus antsy, Sirius could leave him for anyone else who wants him, because everyone wants him. But in the line “You eat us up” we finally see insight to how much Sirius wants this too. Remus knows Sirius wants this kind of relationship at least, so he'll let it consume him- he'll let Sirius consume him, consume them. “You live like you're on camera” is an insight to the awe that Remus feels when he looks at Sirius, but it's also indicative of Sirius’ recklessness. This line could also mean that Sirius will do whatever he wants, regardless of other people's feelings-he does what's in his own best interests, at least relationships wise. “You slide on top/A moon to all the juice in us” explains how Remus is drawn to him, he feels a pull to Sirius so he let's Sirius dictate what their relationship looks like. Remuss the werewolf and the thing that causes all his agony whilst being his only indicator of safety.
From the chorus, the lines “Lay down in my shoes” beg Sirius to feel what Remus feels, and “Oh, so much déjà vu” could indicate how Remus pictures them together when they're just pretending they're only best friends around other people.
In the bridge, “Maybe in time/When we're both better at life/Daylight can open my eyes/And you'll still be by my side” Remus thinks about the possibility of them actually being a couple one day. The allusion to daylight is a jab at the fact that Sirius and Remus only meet up at night to fuck, daylight does not see them together. This is emphasized once more in the lines, "We've got these summertime nights/Night by night”. The lines “I let you eat me alive/I want you to eat me alive” being repeated bring light to the fact that once more, Remus will let Sirius have him, and he'll take Sirius anyway that Sirius will let him. To consume, and to be consumed- whatever he can sink his claws into, he'll have.
Finally, the repetition of the line “I can feel your love” at the end of the song emphasises how when they're together, Remus feels like Sirius loves him, maybe. He feels it, even if Sirius is too scared to say it. Even if he's too scared to ask.
pre-realtionship mid-fuck buddies wolfstar remus to sirus is this song
#if i had a nickle for everytime i wrote a 600 word essay about a song.#i'd have 2 nickles. which isnt a lot but its weird that it happened twice.#this was fun tho lol#harry potter#hp#gryffindor#wolfstar#sirius black#remus lupin#the marauders#glass animals#music#Spotify#music analysis#sirius x remus#sirius orion black#remus john lupin
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not a fan of people saying Odin and Loki are similar in a moral or decisive sense, particularly when it comes to Thor. that makes it sound like Loki doesn't know Thor or care about him beyond what he symbolises (regarding Asgard/the throne/family/worthiness), when that's a defining part of their relationship
#like i get WHY people go 'oh Thor is like Frigga (they care™/bring Emotions in) and Loki is like Odin (calculating™ /For The Greater Good)'#but if you make such a clearcut comparison you neglect a lot of stuff that Odin and Loki do drastically different#like there are literal contrasts that are pretty evident around Thor particularly#like Odin does expect Thor to be some ideal version of himself that obeys Odin implicitly and doesn't have his own volatile emotions?#while Loki more sees that Thor isn't who he tries to pretend to be and generally encourages Thor to realize that#the most obvious parallel would be how they in TDW try telling Thor that Jane won't work out#and Odin goes for the whole 'well they're insignificant' angle despite Thor caring about the humans and Jane particularly#Odin tries to go 'here's Sif and since you shouldn't have your own preferences (they're wrong and bad) consider my choice'#he largely disregards Thor's emotions#most people do on Asgard????#like it's literally wild how everyone saw Thor being major depressed and they basically told him to pretend to cheer up#like im sorry Thor's grief means nothing to y;all. he fell in love with someone very mortal and his brother is changed forever#Loki tries putting Thor off by first off. Thor KNOWS Jane isn't going to live long he's not never thought about it#he doesn't even make the decision for Thor he tells him to consider his choice well bc it WILL hurt him when she's gone#Loki is like treats Thor like a person and Odin is like nah I own him#I feel like in converting the brother/father relationship difference over people lose the differences in those aspect#they skip to similarities of heartlessness and Machiavellian ends meeting the means when Loki overall is#a far more moral character than Thor (at the start of Thor's arc) and Odin. and a lot of culturally Asgardian ideas#that's literally part of Loki's original characterization that he DIDN'T match up with their views#he didn't do stuff like take killing lightly like it's for fun and that's one of a long list of obvious aspects that make the setup cool#don't tell me Odin and Loki are the same#like there's some blanket understanding that Loki doesn't show or care about the people he loves#while Thor and Frigga have always been softhearted and refused to sacrifice themselves for what is deemed better for everyone#don't mistake selfishness for apathy and don't say Loki didn't cry himself through the first movie because duty to the throne comes first#that's literally Thor's bit#idk
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thinking about rebekah wanting to cure more than anything so that she could live a normal life, be human. thinking about elijah putting her under strict ruling that she had to prove herself worthy of such a thing, prove it wasn’t impulsive desire and would mean something in the long run even with everything she would have to give up and leave behind [namely the family] — NO VAMPIRE POWERS, no unnatural advantages. she must live as a human for a day. i can do it, rebekah swears. and she does. UNTIL SHE DOESN’T. until april young has been attacked; left bleeding out, dying. until she’s given the choice to let a pesky human girl who should mean nothing to her die. until it means that is the one girl who has been kind— without strings or hidden agendas —to rebekah, who only wanted answers and maybe a friend in such a friendless world. until matt donovan, the simple boy with the pretty eyes who is the embodiment of everything rebekah longs to be, is sitting at her feet on his knees begging she do something, that she help. a wrist bitten means a body healed. april young lives to see another day, and rebekah loses her chance at the only thing she has left to live for. only to find a temporary solace in matt, who promises her kindness, that a good deed can go unpunished, that no one has to find out … but they do. and it’s niklaus who makes sure of that.
#granted; silas was also to blame#as was elena#and if we’re being honest the cure was so far out of reach anyway#that’s why the added TO thoughts about her getting the cure later means nothing to me#and i don’t knowledge it but god this one moment#where rebekah wants for once to be so human and good to be the person matt and everyone says she cannot be#and she almost walks away from it bc it goes against elijah’s rules for a selfish wish#then does it anyway bc at her core … she knows#she knows better she wants to be better#she just doesn’t know how#so many years spent at nik's feet …#the embodiment of stay soft get eaten#she wasn’t always so cruel she wasn’t always so selfish#she may not regret all she does but she does have regrets#she’s still just a 17 year old girl who wanted to live a normal life#to love and be loved; unconditionally and without strings#but that too is out of reach yeah?#ic … rebekah, ༶ notes.
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where are the books and the movies where the chronically ill or terminally ill person lives? genuinely asking
(see tags. small vent)
#chronic illness#severe illness#hereditary spherocytosis#blood disorder#disability#i can't find any#and then a series i love ended with another chronically ill person dying despite there being a surgery#but they died in surgery after so much hope and love from everyone else around them and it just feels so.. personal#not naming series for potential spoilers#but i used to be terminally ill until i got my surgery#and now im still ill and im no where close to death i hope but i keep getting worse steadily. i have some hope but#why does it always have to end in death for us in media?#where are the movies for us to have hope?#not just achieving with disability but also living and succeeding with horrible illnesses that don't have good outcomes most of the time#sometimes i just feel like the flavor in someone else's story#like just the add on for someone else#where do we find hope?#why do we almost always die in every story?#i've only found one so far#and i've looked everywhere#it's just not very uplifting when so much media shows what can always potentially happen#i just want a happy ending where it's so hard to find in real life for what i fear the outcome could be#POTS syndrome#cptsd#post sepsis syndrome#sepsis#mdd#anxiety#illness#mental illness
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#Worst emoji combo ever but it’s gon be such big depression hours down here so scroll if you want im on the brink of throwing up#don’t you just bloody love it how over the past 3 years you’ve only seen people the large total of…. 4 times!!! An average of seeing someon#outside of school 1.3 times per year!! What a bloody fantastic way to spend your teenage years!#Don’t you also just love it when people talk right to you about how they all went out together over the weekend and like did some stupid#shit like your average high schooler would do and you’re just like “oh. I went to my 1 and a half hour long dance class and got ignored the#entire time and when you did try to talk they just spoke over you” oh my fucking god I hate that place so much even the teacher fucking#ignores me once we were going in a circle and she was asking everyone what they got for Christmas and I was in the middle of the circle so#thought hey maybe someone will actually acknowledge my existence but she fucking ignored me and went to next person like why the fuck#And now I’m debating staying in that shithole bc I was invited to a gc for that class and I stupidly thought that someone might want me#There. I wasn’t even invited I secretly scanned the qr code to join over someone else’s shoulder#everyone else there is the best of bloody friends and I’m just there talking to one friend who I don’t even think is my friend#“Hey man I’m really fucking sad rn can I talk to you” “womp womp have you heard stupid fact no.3848594 about my ocs while I ignore you when#you talk about anything else about me” oh my god shut up literally no one else sane would see someone like that their closest friend rn#At least someone wants to talk to me#Like what is it that makes people not want to see my please just tell me I’ll change I’m amazing at changing my personality to fit others#promise me on that I’ve done it my entire life#Even just messaging me more than once every year and I’d consider you my best friend this is how bad I’m getting#What is so bloody bad about me that no one else likes I don’t care how badly you fucking word it just something#It shouldn’t be normal to wish death on people you call your mates bc you heard about them all going out together without you#Oh dear did the gc’s without me in it there’s one for every friend group I’ve ever been in why isn’t there one for the main group I’m in rn#Idfc anymore just tell me what I’m doing wrong I keep asking people if they want to go out or how far away they live from some place#And it’s always met with ignoring me talking over me or immediately changing the subject#Please if you’re someone I know irl what the fuck am I doing fucking wrong I can’t fucking do this anymore be as mean as you like#Why the fuck does no one ever want to be around me why do I hear so much about stuff others are doing together but never me#It shouldn’t be normal to prefer being in a toxic relationship than what I’m in rn#I fucking hate everything
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Girl are you okay? Cause you've been looking through the "My lesbian experience with loneliness" tag again
Well the short answer is no :D
#the long answer is I saw one post of someone going 'well now that I'm 28 too maybe I'll try doing the same thing the protag does here''#and nearly cried because 28 is such a ridiculously long time away except not really except it's SO#fucking long and so close to what I was gaslit into believing I would ever have that I'd be lucky to make it to my thirties for no reason#and I never wanted anything different and just wanted to live and had panic attacks when reading but I'd still believe it was inevitable#and now I am suddenly having to come to terms with so much I want from life that I had resigned myself to never having because I couldn't#but how am I meant to do that? it's just hanging over my head now and it feels so stupid and I feel so out of place everywhere#it feels like I'm too bad at being a person to be loved and too angry to even admit I want to be#and too regretful to seek it because I'm scared of trampling over people's boundaries like people have done to me#and like I did too before I grew up and thought my way through having some empathy#why do only boys show any interest in me.... why is every friend I make entirely outside the range of people who could possibly reciprocate#why is it so easy for me to brush crushes aside aren't people supposed to suffer for this stuff#does that prove it's not a romantic crush and it's just that I want to be held and wanted#it feels so wrong to want this after fighting so much just to have fulfilling platonic relationships what's wrong with me#that I still want something else what more could I want this life is so ideal as far as 12 yo me is concerned#...when did my brain start viewing any and all kinds of want or ambition as doomed efforts for me?#I have such a headache all of a sudden#I think... the way I value self preservation has gotten all the way around into being harmful maybe#at least a little#everyone I know is nowhere near the amount of control freak as I am and they just go do things they want to do#have I seen them hurt over the consequences multiple times yes. but . I'm tired of hurting over absence#''did you know wishing you had more extreme and easily verifiable trauma is in itself proof of having undergone trauma'' well yeah but like#fuck why couldn't I be traumatized by anything else that wasn't literally the profession supposed to help you with all the trauma#delete later#like for real I want to delete it rn but I also don't
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#man ..........#loneliness beam attack . i hate it here#i miss having friends ! why does everyone i love live so far away !!!!!!#i just wanna be held for a bit is that so much to ask :(#the lonely 11yo girl in me lives on forever#s.txt
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the way some ppl villainize maria whilst simultaneously extending the most grace humanly possible to tommy and and abby and joel and tess is….. odd
#no shame to them i love the whole gang#but why is maria always the one portrayed to be ignorant of how life really is#about how far people have to go#as if she didnt live through her own shit and horrors too#the whole point of tlou is that everyone has a heartbreaking fucked how are u still alive story#just bc the show writers aren’t interested in giving maria any depth rn doesnt mean shes a completely flat character#she runs a town and sometimes shes written to be dumb as fuck#as far as who her husband is or who joel or or to the reality of the world outside of jackson#she probably deals with the world outside of jackson more than anyone in jackson#she knows how it is#like im sorry#but what#this is not abt any one fic or any one author LET ME SAY THAT#i just think the fandoms general attitude towards maria at times can be nasty#since when does being pragmatic equate to being a judgy witch#rant#im standing on this with two feet#have fun in my inbox all u want just keep it cute
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i really relate to the character of Belle (minus the being beautiful part)
#like how every day of her life is the same and how everyone around her just does the same chores every single day#like obviously those things have to be done#Belle wouldn't get very far if there wasn't a baker for example#all the people in the village do boring but necessary things#and Belle doesn't do anything to help loool#just reads all the time to try to escape how boring everything is#so this isn't a criticism of the villagers at all they are more productive than Belle is#but what i don't get is that they don't seem fed up of their lives and the endless repetitive days and chores??????#they seem happy?????#like i used to think that surely no one WANTED to live like that but i've seen quite a few people lately who claim to be content#with the most monotonous lives ever#which is good but i always assumed everyone else had that voice inside them saying LIFE CANNOT BE THIS BORING THERE HAS TO BE MORE TO IT#THAN THIS#turns out some people don't idk what's wrong with me then lol#i love my mum but she thinks i'm strange for not wanting to live in the real world and i'm like why would you want to?????
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