#why can't anyone ever be happy!!!!!!!!

[lolo-chi]

tbhk 121.....................

[godlygivenanxiety]

look, not to be a hater but the whole ekko/jinx alternate universe situation only proves that jinx was only ever loved entirely and completely by silco, that's kinda the point of how tragic jinx really is as a character,

vi either only sees her little sister out of guilt/sense of duty mixed with a desperate need to come back to something or as consequences to her own actions(taking away agency from jinx in the process);

ekko sees her through the eyes of an idealist which is exactly what he is and that's not bad by itself, but it makes her either A Problem or Someone That Needs Saving, that's what's going on in his head after that AU he transported to. he's comparing jinx to powder and he likes powder much better, so he wants jinx to be powder or to reignite the powder in her - basically, he thinks how vi used to think;

isha is a complicated matter because she did show kindness and affection towards jinx that wasn't equal to anyone else's, it was pure and idolizing, she loved what she knew of jinx.

the people of zaun don't love her, not by a long shot. she became a symbol to some(as we can notice in the reunion by vander's statue) and overall the assumption that she would get involved more after her attack and silco's death is a fair one; that doesn't mean they like her,

sevika maintains a connection to jinx through grief and a sense of helplessness along with familiarity, silco's death affected jinx's psyche but it also affected sevika's dream of zaun, they feel left behind by him;

vander... well, he only got to see powder and warwick quite literally just had the memories,

the ONLY character we see that meets her as powder and stays with her as jinx is silco; yes, he isn't a good guy and he does cause the whole separation, he sharpened her edges to make her into a weapon, he lied to her and manipulated her at times, none of these things exclude the fact he does love her so strongly, with zero conditions.

she fucks up in missions, she does as she pleases around zaun, she kills their people, she stabs him in the eye, has psychotic episodes and breakdowns, she kidnaps him, ties him down, SHOOTS HIM, she doubts him and his love, keeps running after the past when he's done everything to strengthen her and she was, at a point, the only thing keeping him from his dream of an independent zaun - none of these perceived sins and flaws made him wish for anyone other than her, as she is.

all silco wanted was to keep her, while everyone else either wants another version of her or none at all. that's the tragic part, even if she suddenly decided to be good, she would feel like a burden for not being entirely like people want her to be.

[fernlessbastard]

hot take moment cwilbur is literally just psychotic as all hell and i think people got way too comfortable villianizing the shit out of a man who was clearly portraying signs of severe mental illness. cwilbur was like im so fucking paranoid and scared and i think everyone is out to get me and hurt me and ive spiralled to the point i cant reach out to the people closest to me because im so afraid and lost in this spiral and im having constant panic attacks and hurting myself because i dong know what to do with myself and the only way out for me is to die. and everybody was like EVIL MAN WHO ENJOYS HURTING OTHERS AND IS ABUSIVE ON PURPOSE AND A VILLAIN AND SHOULD NEVER BE TRUSTED AGAIN. and then he came back and was like im still deeply troubled and afraid but im desperately trying to make up for the wrongs i did in the past and the people i hurt in my own way and communication is really hard for me but i hope people know that im truely sorry and i love them. im going to try my hardest to fix this in the only way i know how and then respectfully remove myself from the situation because i feel thats the kindest thing i can do to the people ive hurt. and people were like ABUSER ABUSER ABUSER EVIL MAN ABUSER. like girl

Yeah no based true real no questions asked

I'd hope I manage to portray Wilbur the way he deserves in my content, cause that man is heavily bpd coded and he just needs therapy and someone who genuinely loves him but also can handle his bullshit (which has exclusively and reliably been Quackity like, canonically)

But yeah no completely agreed. The man has issues and has definitely fucked up a lot but at the end of the day he really does need love and care and patience, but also boundaries (and therapy and meds, obviously)

[scoriarose]

I've been wondering for a while but how do you cohab your hognoses? How big is the terrarium? Do you have multiple basking spots? I can see multiple hides and the like and hognoses burrow too, so I'm curious about it.

I know baby hognoses can be cohabbed and start eating better, so does the same apply to adults? Do they have like their own favorite spots where the other one doesn't go?

It wasn't the original plan, but sometimes guidelines are a starting point and what an individual needs is different. While I would love the opportunity to explore the species as a whole and the benefits of cohabbing, I only have direct experience with these two very unique girls, and don't know if other snakes typically act like they do. Talking to other hognose keepers with multiple hognose snakes who let them socialize during play time it seems that most enjoy playing together.

That said, I wouldn't suggest an inexperienced snake keeper buy multiple hognoses with the plan of keeping them together. It can be dangerous if you don't know what you are doing, especially if those snakes are different sizes, sexes, and different aggression levels, among many other potential problems that go far beyond the topic of this answer.

Originally I got Scoria. I only planned to get one snake, but after a few months, seeing how sweet and friendly she was I thought she might benefit from a friend. I wasn't actively searching, just browsing casually every so often, until the day I saw photos of Sakura. I couldn't stop thinking about her. I looked her up again and saw their birthday was 4 days apart. I just had a feeling she was meant to be a part of our family and I've never regretted it. She needed us, and I can't imagine how she could possibly have had a happy life with anyone else, especially with how almost certainly she'd have lived it in isolation when she NEEDS a companion. They both adore each other, but Sakura can't live without Scoria.

Have you ever seen videos on the psychological study with monkeys and the cloth/wire "mothers"? It's incredibly sad, little baby monkeys were taken from their mother and given objects their only replacement. When I first got Sakura, she started displaying similar behavior with her motion activated camera, in addition to trauma reactions to human hands. She was easily startled and when scared would panic so badly she'd flail in blind terror, dunking herself in her water dish or throwing herself out of her enclosure and off the table (I thankfully always caught her if she fell so she was never hurt). Someone did something to her before I found her and she was petrified of human hands- it's like a dog that yelps and cowers when you go to throw a stick- they can't tell you exactly what was done to them but you can figure out they were mistreated.

She'd flee to her camera, as if she hoped it could help her. It reacted to her, so perhaps she thought it was alive. This poor sad scared creature clinging to the only comfort she had in a world she was alone and scared in. Constantly afraid. Wishing to just be able to feel safe for once, but not even being able to say no to being touched- she acted like she never had a choice before and it had done this to her. There were other signs she was mistreated, as she was nearly a year old when I got her, but she was so tiny she looked like a two month old. The breeder fed her enough to keep her alive, but as little as possible to maximize profits from selling her. She was always hungry and had food insecurity issues.

For Scoria's safety I had to quarantine the new snake- if she had an illness I didn't want it to spread. She was fine. I didn't realize the significance at the time, but a rock that had been in her enclosure I left on a table I let Scoria play on, and while doing her usual tongue flick she had a MASSIVE reaction to that rock. She went over to it and knew immediately this was not her own smell, this was someone else. That's how they first met, I suppose.

After that she saw her in her baby bin, and Scoria tried to free Sakura. Sakura wouldn't let me touch her, so I'd lure her into boxes and similar objects to carry her to the play area and sometimes outside Scoria's enclosure- she also tried to open Scoria's enclosure- both indicated they wanted to meet.

So I let them play together in a neutral place, a box with some vines to climb over and through. I was so scared they might bite or hurt each other. But no, both were curious and a bit cautious. They were friendly to each other and at the end put back in their own enclosures.

As time went on the pair started to bond, I think the biggest bonding points were during times something scared Sakura. I can't comfort her, a human terrorized her, me attempting anything would just make it worse. So I'd take out Scoria, and she understood. She'd see Sakura frozen in fear, flick her tongue on her, and comfort her, until she was relaxed and looking around again and calm. I think that's when Sakura realized Scoria was a friend, that she was kind to her. She had someone who finally made this terrifying world less terrifying.

One time when I was petting Scoria, who enjoys being pet, Sakura saw me touching her. To Sakura, touch=abuse, so in her mind the one being in all of existence who was her best friend was being abused. She had to have been scared, but in that moment she showed how much she cares for Scoria. She thrust herself between Scoria and my hand. She was trying to protect Scoria from being abused by doing the only thing she could- shielding her with her own body. This tiny little 12 ounce gummy worm was standing up to a massive giant that terrified her, trying to protect her only friend in the world. Scoria didn't understand what was going on, but I did, and I couldn't do that to poor little Sakura.

Scoria has helped Sakura so much, I don't think she'd be the same happy mentally well snake without Scoria. Still, there is a DRASTIC difference in personality if Scoria is around and if she isn't. If Scoria isn't around, Sakura tries to be brave but doesn't want you be touched, and is much more aloof, anxious, jumpy, and avoidant. But if Scoria is out and with her, Sakura is confident, curious, friendly, and relaxed. If I try to pick up Sakura she'll dodge - but if I'm already holding Scoria she'll want out and to be with her sister.

I say sister as they are only 4 days apart in age, but honestly Sakura treats Scoria like a mother. She races to her when she is afraid, she watches her to learn from her, she follows her and copies her, and trusts her judgement completely. Scoria, on the other hand, treats me like her parent, and does these behaviors with me. And while they mutually love each other, Scoria is upset if she doesn't get some time alone with me every day where I give her my full attention. She likes me doting on her, cuddling her, and telling her all the ways she is wonderful.

Anyways, when Sakura was in her baby bin and Scoria in her medium bin I put those on the same table top, and they'd fall asleep pressed against the side closest to the other.

I'd have to be blind to not see they wanted to be near each other. Still, stories of hognoses eating each other made me worried, so for many months I kept them in their own enclosures but let them play together daily during enrichment time.

Eventually I set up one of the two adult enclosures I bought- it's 4x2x2. I put Scoria's teen bin inside and gradually went from letting them play supervised, to leaving it open when I was home during the day, to any time I was home day or bought, to finally eventually leaving it open almost all the time. I say almost as after several weeks of them being together whenever they like, Scoria went into shed. Being blind and defenseless I thought it best to keep her separate until she could see again. Sakura took this as a declaration of war and was now a hostile frightened very unhappy snake. She was so mad. But once Scoria returned she forgave me. Knowing what I know, I can't separate them. They need to be together. They're best friends. They want nothing more than to cuddle and play with each other, and would sooner protect the other than do anything to hurt her.

I still have two adult enclosures. One is set up, the other never left its box. I can't separate them. It would be cruel. Knowing what I know, what I posted, and so many other things that would be way too much for one post- it would be heartless. But maybe the two can be combined into one really big enclosure when they become bigger.

As for favorite spots, sort of? During the day they go anywhere and everywhere and one will always find the other. If I take one out the other is anxiously waiting at the door to be sure she's alright. They seem to be fine if they see me take the other, but if one wakes up and can't find the other they get worried. During the day they often will be together, sometimes stuffing themselves into the same hide EVEN IF THEY ARE TOO BIG TO FIT IN THERE TOGETHER STILL. Silly. At night they choose their own separate dens or hiding places. Scoria favors the small moss hide or burrowing under the substrate. Sakura likes her wooden castle, castle tube, or hide under her paper hoarde. Sometimes they shake it up and Scoria is in the castle or Sakura is in a miss hide. I check on them every night and they're always in their own area to sleep.

So that's their story, and why they need to be together. I think cohabbing hoggies for their happiness and well being is something the community as a whole doesn't understand as well as it should, and bet most would be happier if in the least they had play time with other hoggies. From what I've seen from others who have multiple hoggies and let them play together supervised they are just like little kids who meet on a play ground and just start playing together having a great time. However, again, I wouldn't recommend someone not familiar with snakes and their care go buy two hognoses and put them in the same enclosure. I went with two young females the same age and size, and they were the ones who made the choice. I just had to accept it.

[lunarharp]

autumn witches

[sodaf]

if we're going to be so real. the source of 90% of my problems is that i get horrifically jealous and I have bpd. but the cool thing is i can also invent reasons to stay upset even if it's only one person upsetting me and he hasn't even interacted with me in a way that would be valid for me to get upset at because i come up with problems that feel worse than they are in reality and in response I stay up until 3am and start spiraling

[flying-cat]

I fucking hate it here. How does he manage to get so much support as such a horrible person. I don't give a fuck about your stupid goddamn non-issue made into an issue with your imagination with immigrants or the goddamn gas prices or your inability to find affordable groceries because they DO EXIST. I don't understand how you could ever vote for a man who has been DENOUNCED by SEVERAL PEOPLE, REPUBLICANS!!! WHO WORKED WITH HIM, who incited outrage among his weird followers in 2020 by falsely claiming that the election was "stolen" from him with NO PROOF OF THAT HAPPENING, who has made SEVERAL racist and misogynistic comments, and you all just let him off.

[thelastharbinger]

Tidbits of ATSV That I Enjoyed (Or Alternatively: Just Miles Being The Most Endearing Spidey Ever)

Miles patting The Spot's head after successfully webbing him (I don't see this as condescending, but rather him still engaging with the humanity of a villain like Spot) and ~very assertively~ telling/asking him not to escape.

"I'm like Robin Hood-if he gave to himself."

Miles' spidey senses going off when he arrives late to his dad's party because there's nothing more frightening than Brown parents when they're mad at you. Beware the chancla or correa!

O.k. So we all know there are different versions of the movie out there. You may already know that one of the slight differences is when Miles goes to save Inspector Singh. There's a version where you can hear Gwen's voice in the distant background yelling no! when she thinks Miles gets crushed under the rubble, and there's another where she's silent as she webs to him. Now, I have found ANOTHER version (online) where her shouting is even more at the forefront. She's practically screaming and sounds more desperate, (prolly because it's close to the same way her Peter Parker died so she's reliving trauma) and the fear in her voice is palpable. That one haunts me.

Jefferson trying to equate studying for his police exams to childbirth, which Rio quickly nips in the bud.

Ganke having a soccer poster of Son Heung Min, a famous Korean footballer who currently plays for the Premier League Tottenham Hotspur and is captain of the South Korean national team.

Miles having a Sashimi (his universe's version of Supreme, but I just like the idea that Miles loves eating sashimi. Like I know that kid has good taste in food) poster in his bedroom.

The fact that Miles kept in touch with Aunt May for long enough after the events of ITSV that he helps her move.

The Spot saying he was one of the more handsome scientists at Alchemax according to his colleagues.

Miles and Gwen having the same collectible toys, the only difference being that he keeps his in the box and she doesn't.

"Hey, don't try to wow me with big words, man," *in deep manly voice* "I do crosswords every day"- Miles after Spot points out Alchemax as "the crucible of our connection!"

Miles going, "This job is so dumb sometimes" after he tries to web Spot at the deli, but it goes through a hole and lands on his face.

"Nahhh, he seems more Dominican to me." Kinda want Miles to meet a native Dominican Spidey because that dynamic would highkey fuck hard *pun not intended*. They would repair relations between our two islands-PR&DR.

"Almost there Mami *smiley face* *cowboy* prayer hands*"

The college admissions coach at Visions Academy straight up saying, "That's your story! Now, just stick to the script..." Ma'am what???

"Calmate Mami, eso no es my fault."

"I've hit a lot of different villains with a lot of different food...I'm just trying to lighten the mood."

Miles in his angsty teen era and smart-mouthing everyone around him. Love that for him.

"He almost killed his mom as a baby, I mean, look at those shoulders." No but for real tho. Those shoulders are as wide as a truck. Kim Seokjin who??? (if you understood that reference, ily).

Miles writing a love letter to his dad in 2 cakes.

Gwen at the water tower chowing and saying how feelings make her hungry after her and Miles talked about how they can't be together cause it would end in tragedy. Like Gwen, come again?!

Also, Miles' and Gwen's talk at the Williamsburg Bank Building being lowkey the catalyst for the 2nd/3rd acts of the film. Without them both kind of silently admitting their feelings for each other, Miles probably wouldn't have chased after her the way he did. Pretty sure you know the rest.

"I bet she doesn't even speak Spanish," and Jeff going "Que barbaridad" in his very broken Spanish. Queue Rio's bombastic side eye.

Both Gwen and Miles referring to Spot as a Villain Of The Week, even though neither of them have spoken about Spot to each other.

"I was bitten by a-wouldnt you like to know? Know what I mean?" SIR. Chill. This movie is for children.

The Spot inverting himself, going from a white mass with black spots to a gaping black hole with smaller white spirals. It's giving Junji Ito.

The irony of Pavitr exclaiming, "Well that was another easy adventure for Spider-Man!" right before an incoming canon event. HIS. He was about to experience his first big loss, and his happy-go-lucky nature would've been challenged.

Miguel saying conyo! when all the Spideys start pointing at each other.

"!Cállate!" "Nosy!" Sidebar: we don't talk about Gwen's banter with bad guys enough. She's so funny!

A lot of the Peters saying hi to Gwen as she passes HQ because she is canonically the one lost love--the love interest they all would've ended up with had she not died, so they all have an affection for her.

Web-Slinger going "Giddy up!" Cause he's swinging up.

Miles offering his fresh new takes on how to deal with the Spot upon meeting Miguel, saying "He just wants to be taken seriously. Like we all do." MILES YOU BEAUTIFUL, COMPASSIONATE GOLDEN SUNFLOWER BOY I LOVE YOUUUUU.

Hobie referring to Peter B. as Humbling Reality Spider-Man, which considering how steeped in tragedy the Spidey lore is, is really saying something.

Miguel's nonono no puedo más no puedo más. His misery is very funny and delightful to me. Little bitch ass.

"You know you're the only Spider-Man who isn't funny." Yes! More Miguel slander in the next one, please! Little bitch ass.

"Snitch!"

Miles shouting out Peter's name for help whilst Miguel pins and lays into him the fact that he's an anomaly. This after he momentarily glitches back to his ITSV store-bought suit. Mimicking the way-in also the first movie-Miles shouting out Peter's name for his own rescue as Doc Ock attacks him at the research facility. Because even though he feels hurt by Peter at this point, that's still his dad mentor and he still instinctively looks to him for protection. Rip my heart out why don't you!

Gwen sneaking back into her and her dad's place just to get that printed polaroid of her and Miles, a pic she already has on her phone.

Earth-42 Miles wearing Nike while our Miles wears Jordans.

[itsseriouslyridiculous]

I really hate how my physical body looks so so so much. unfortunately there isn't much I can do about it.

[adore-gregor]

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[bl00dh0rs3]

God. God. God. Holy fucking shit i love Avatar so fucking much

[dearly]

Liam was so badly abused and mocked online. That needs to be called out.

i want to write about this but i don't have many examples--believe me, i KNOW it happened but i wasn't documenting anything because i was just hoping things would get better.

[netherdevil]

will literally throw up if anyone calls me feminine honorifics but if sanji does it i'm 100% okay with it for some reaso

[twinknote]

ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha i think i'm going to go. Actually insane

my brother's gf's parents just put in an offer on a house for them today and it was accepted! and anyone who is not deeply mentally ill and traumatized and disabled and stuck living with their shitty fucking parents in their shitty fucking moldy decrepit hoarder's house would be happy for them! and i'm Soooooooo not! i fear i need to be kept 1,000 feet away from their happy celebratory housewarming shit bc it makes me want to kill everyone and then myself! like my mom texted me that they got the house and i immediately just started having a mental fucking breakdown and laughing and crying hysterically!!!!!!!!

like wow that's awesome!!!!! that's so awesome that you have rich parents who can just. randomly decide to buy you a house!!!!! that's so cool and good for you!!!! it would be so cool if my parents even had a decent house that isn't full of mold and bugs and mice and probably asbestos and has no usable dining or living room because they're piled with random fucking shit!!!! it would be so cool if some evil rotting smell didn't waft through the vents regularly!!!! it would be so cool if they were functional and capable of cleaning!!!!! it would be so cool if they were able or willing to help me live literally anywhere else, or GOD forbid realize that maybe living here isn't good for me!!!! that would be SO awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but it's So cool that your parents bought you a 3 bedroom house on a whim 👍 it's so cool that my brother gets to live there without having to go through any of the barriers that come with buying a house. it's so cool that people are just able to make money and live in safe and comfortable places and both of those things feel entirely impossible for me to the point where i truly just feel like i'm not meant to be happy or even just safe and sane. it's so cool that people just magically get their basic needs met and i'm just over here like ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha i'll never have that! that's awesome 👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍

[archiveofyearning]

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[poet-tree-lines]

vagueing bout audiobooks again but this author seems like the kinda guy to kill off The Girlfriend TM and i really hope i'm wrong