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Some photos from Pioneer Cemetery, one of the oldest (if not the oldest) cemeteries in Door County. The only two families buried there are the Claflin and Thorp families.
Some interesting facts about various graves and the deceased who reside there:
Hugh (top two photos) was seven when he died. The only things in bloom in that cemetery so far this year were near his grave.
Both Horace O. Thorp and Freeman E. Thorp died in water-related accidents—Horace by drowning; Freeman in a shipwreck.
Brothers Albert and Charles Claflin died just over a year apart from one another—both while fighting as Union soldiers in the Civil War.
(April 12, 2023)
#jessie lynn mcmains#photography#iphoneography#cemetery#door county#wisconsin#graves#history#my photos#i go to this cemetery whenever possible#which means at least once a year#it’s so tiny and so old and once i saw a bunch of snakes there in the tall summer grass#and it’s very haunted but in a way that feels very good#glad haunted not sad haunted#even with the children and the drowning victims
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I was thinking to myself recently how wild it would be if this fandom was big enough to do a kinktober. Alas...
#me rambling#or like at least one of those week things for a ship or a specific show#maybe that's more attainable#also i say any of this as if i am a known smut writer when i definitely am not 😂#i would like to be i'm just not confident#but there could be gen options too#it's just funny to me because the source material here is so out there it kinda lends itself to kinks right?#i mean there is canonical mpreg in tyo#eddie is sticking a whole sofa up richie's arse in one of the bottom lives#alan b'stard is a canonical sadist in bed#and out of it too#there's other examples i can't think of now#i also just constantly think about fandom events i'm afraid#idk why my brain is like this i just constantly wanna set up creative events but unfortunately for the nichest things 😂#the rik and ade fest is great but only runs once a year#sometimes we do scumbag secret sanata#but those things both depend on collaboration to a certain extent in that one person is creating for another#which is great!#but what i'm proposing here is free reign to just take a vague prompt and make something for it#fic art edits literally whatever#to be posted here or ao3 or instagram or wherever else#because it could be fun and we could all hype each other up#and sometimes creativity needs a nudge#or just the chance to break from a bigger project for something short#i am waffling a lot i'm sure i'm gonna run out of tags soon but let me know if this appeals to you#even by an anon if you're shy!#this is very vague i'm not even sure what the specific event would be centred around#like should it be for a single show or everything#maybe i will open a discussion? probably not but maybe 😂#rik mayall
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ANGST!?
It's still in the oven but we're cooking over here 🍽️🍳
#i cant wait for people to see the amount of effort i put into Kaiba's legs in this#sneak peek#i mean i can give an angsty funfact in the meantime i suppose???#Which would be that (In the AU timeline) DSoD is canon. So essentially Eve and Kaiba only had two years together before transcend game#And once Kaiba started the project he started to become more obsessive over it. Essentially ignoring Eve for transcending#And once Kaiba left for the afterlife he didn't end up saying goodbye to Eve. Even though he did come back this emotionally destroyed Eve#This has quite literally nothing to do with the comic but It's at least something???#(obv he came back victorious but unintentionally damaged his relationships. i dont think Mokuba was happy either)#anyway hoping to pump this out soon. comics take AGES#WIP#yugioh au#yugiohoc#bondshipping#giant/tiny#gt#oc x canon#answered asks#ask#angst#ssv talks
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There's a new contender for my least favourite returned item to handle at work.
Not the top spot for the least favourite, that one still goes for the overalls with the fleece lining that always seem to come back covered by pet hair and dandruff *on the inside* which take me approximately 20minutes each to brush clean.
No. But there's a new contender for the second place.
So there's this simple, black casual dress, that on its own isn't too bad. Not like some other fashion line items that seem to be designed to be as hard to fold neatly into a bag, this dress isn't even near the hardest to handle.
However, two times out if three, whenever this particular dress gets returned, it comes back with its neckline covered in makeup. That I then have to spend forever trying to wipe and brush clean. (Sometimes not even managing that and being forced to send the item to second-rate box to go through that whole process.)
Can you maybe, please, when trying on clothing items (be it at a store or at home for web orders), think of the poor warehouse workers who have to clean up after you? Do me a solid and keep the items clean, will you?
#shut up paper#Paper does a job#yes even in the stores#because once the season is over the unsold items will get returned from the stores and back to the company that originally sold them there#which means they get to be the warehouse workers' problem once more#at least in the company that pays my salary we handle clean and sell/send on items that get returned unsold from old seasons#depending on item they stay in the circulation sometimes for years untill someone buys them at a discount if not before#they don't get thrown into the recycling bin unless they're *actually* broken or otherwise beyond salvaging#or old enough their season number no longer exists but that takes several years#and at that point there usually has already been a sale with steep enough discount they've already found a home
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i genuinely have No idea when you sleep ive known you for ages and i still dont have a single clue of your time zone it is so bizarre to me you are basically a cryptid
This is so funny to me help,, I love the idea of being some mysterious cryptid,, always awake,,,
But ,, I’m afraid the boring answer is just I do Not Have a sleep schedule anymore. most of the sleep I get is from little naps I take throughout the day + night so im like,, always awake but somehow also always asleep
#kite answers#I feel like we've talked abt this before ?? maybe im making that up KFJHKFH but yeah the answer is my sleep is just fucked#if u srs wanted an timezone then pacific LOL (until uni is over at least then who knows where ill end up again :'') -#but for uni I am here...)#BUT timezone tbh means v little atm since... sleep schedule is broke </3#Ik its bad and I am going to try and fix this next year once this school term is over its just brutal right now#none of this which u needed to know but I like to yap sorry spicy KFHFKJH#:'p
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Spending the weekend with my oldest friend and his wife and they're like, "Yeah we got married last year and got a house and are going to visit Ecuador in a few months and then oops we're also pregnant and having a baby it's due next May haha 😋 so what's new with you??" and I'm just like, "uh... i uhhhhh got a new tattoo? Still fully and pathetically unable to not be single though 🙃"
Kinda want to crawl into a hidden corner and claw my own face off
#life of faye#they're wonderful people and i love them dearly#I'm just ashamed at my own inability to do anything meaningful with my life#my friend even acknowledged that we're probably in different spots in life at least partially due to him having a supportive family network#and me... not having that at all#which is nice to have acknowledged but i still feel like such a trash person in comparison#like i don't want a baby but i want the rest so bad#i want a house#i want a fun and loving partner#someone to travel and enjoy life with#and then them getting pregnant means no more yearly Shakespeare trips 😔#when it felt like we at least had something to catch up on once a year#sucks man#obviously I'm being a selfish asshole because they're great and they're going to be great parents and they're so happy#but old friends with children scare me#they're entering into a section of life that I will never have any part of#and i feel weird and uncomfortable around them after that#so this weekend feels like the last time I'll be able to enjoy my friend's company#very bittersweet
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i miss her…
#cant believe i forgot about her till the photobook q&a im so sorry witch mona~~~~~~~#press f for honeypre atelier gachas it was gone too soon™️#(currently e x t r e m e l y worried and stressed for tomorrow like never before b u t i have to appear like im fine sobs save me monachann)#(can i go on a stress-prompted tangent here about something inane? no? toooo bad im gonna go off anyway~~~~)#ok so. like. since witch mona is the image i have up ‘ere and since it’s still 七月… today’s tangent will be on irl spooky stories!!#s o. presenting a decently repressed memory from my childhood that resurfaced while i was hibernating at home:#anyways. well. thoughts about the afterlife can vary from person to person yes? there’s no one true correct belief after all#but the one question that unites us all is probably the one and only ‘are ghosts real?’#and well. for personal reasons i think so. i mean i’ve seen this one dude i hate get possessed a couple of times so welp. cant deny it ig.#wild story about that actually. back in the day my family’s finances were allegedly doing so badly that [dude i hate] had to pick up#a *c e r t a i n* side hustle for extra cash. that side hustle? literal grave digging at the cemetary. at night no less#and *ofc* he wasn’t respectful about it in the least so ofc some spirits followed him home. yay. free roommates.#one(?) of them even took residence in my room at the time and im 80% sure they ate my history textbook :( much sads#anyways well once that guy had too much to drink (which was rather often tbh) he’d get possessed. fun!#the only possession i ever saw was the n-rarity angry ghost who’d just huff and puff in silence with unfocused eyes most of the time#he’d occasionally put on a leather jacket too. but that was like a r-rarity event that didn’t happen that often#my mother had the chance to also witness the mosquito (who tried to barge into my room for fresh blood) and the 姑娘 (self-explanatory)#which is kinda unfair tbh. i wanted to see the ur-rarity ones too :( mostly bc it’d be funny to see a guy i hate act ooc (impure intentions)#oh right. how did we get the dude out of his possession? we just shook his arm really hard. prolly caused some lasting effects but who know#i think he could also just sleep off the possession but idk i was asleep for the ur-rarity incidents.#cant ask the one witness of it bc i dont want to bring back unnecessary flashbacks of [guy we hate]#anyways it’s been years since we moved out from that place and i still want my history textbook back. mostly for the principle of it but—#and so that’s the tangent of the day. i feel weirdly less stressed now thanks witch mona#i do wonder how my grandparents are faring on this 七月 though…#b u t !!!!! tomorrow’s date on the lunar calendar says it’s an auspicious day for wishful activity and starting a new job!!! so… maybe~~~~?#hauauauauauauauuauaaaaaa anyways insane tangent over stream mona’s new album ok bye#oops forgor to disable rbs i hate how easy it is to forget to use this function man
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#ah yes. my old friend: getting nothing done all day bc im too paralyzed to attempt to read anything#thanks. i hate it here#today felt like i was trapped in october of last year. which was disorienting#bc it was cold ang gloomy out and i just kept listening to doomsday by lizzy mcalpine#itll get better once im back in the habit of things. at least that's what im telling myself. just expect me#to complain a lot bc im back in the torture machine. by which i mean life as a grad student#evolution prof: u should be reading at least 20 papers per week. and shes right but also what if i just lay on the floor and expire#what then? oh hey u use text to speech on papers? that must b super helpful! yeah sure it takes 2 broken things:#my ability to not process audio and not understand text in order to try to put me on a normal reading level.#except that it still fucking sucks and i hate everything.#and it doesnt even fuckibg matter for this class bc shes giving us pdf scans that are image based not text based#so i cant even use text to speech. which is ya kno. real fucking cool. welp. its been real#goodbye to any sort of notion that i appear to kno what im doing. or that i can read anything#oh god. why tf did i decide it was a good idea to come back?#dread! paralyzing dread! oh how ive missed u#unrelated
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musicology comps are officially on my horizon. and it's apparently four back to back one hour exams 😩
#sasha speaks#taking me back to my high school days with those 4 hour ap tests#hopefully i get a fifteen minute snack break in between each test 😩#but they're pass fail and you get a second shot if you screw up once. you have to pass all of them to graduate though#and failing twice means you don't get the degree#i do get to pick which classes the exams cover though. on the other hand at least one of my choices my advisor is making for me...#well so it goes#i should get it done sooner rather than later. hopefully that means spring but if spring is kicking my ass i'll do summer instead#then it's just another year of libsci and i'm out....
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could NOT stop thinking about THIS VID in relation to fallon. i draw her as a sex menace so often that i feel the need to reinforce that she has a very specific type of Professional Brain Damage
#kels draws#garden of bitches#i havent drawn brody and fallon in a million years.. ive MISSED THEM#im p sure he was a nurse once upon a time in at least one au so here he is. either nurse or scrub tech#being in OR with these two would be a fucking nightmare id probably quit the same day#polks is sleeping which means no brody ref but i dont actually think ive drawn brody accurately even once in the past 10+ years#anyway fallon and colin went into medicine bc ashley was putting them in the hospital constantly growing up#ashley went into medicine bc he thought he was so good at patching colin up but colins an absolutely fucked cryptid eldritch abomination
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I really hate the inconsistencies that exist just to make SB (and CF technically) work, but also how hard Petra basically simps for Edelgard to the point it deconstructs aspects of her character.
In Houses she mentions her siblings being in danger if she died, but in SB she just doesn't even make any mention of them in this situation. She's just willing to possibly die all of a sudden for someone who never actually treated Brigid like its people were independent (which she could've done at literally any time from the moment she became emperor). She was relatively vocally I guess you could say "good" to Petra, but the way the writing handles Petra's response to all of it feels like Petra's just been brainwashed.
Petra says she would always choose survival and makes a point to emphasis that, but in SB she's completely and carelessly willing to risk her life and possibly throw it away... for Edelgard? Who still has not actually officially freed Brigid? And if Petra were to stop being Edelgard's ally?
"Reconsideration". Because Brigid was never freed and now they're not going to be as long as Edelgard is in charge, because their queen is no longer bending to her will and fighting for her. If she was ever truly planning to free Brigid, Petra's decision alone not to fight for her shouldn't have changed that fact (especially since she supposedly gives her the choice in Houses to fight for her or not, and on non CF routes she does this by sending a letter, to which Petra refuses).
It should, of course, be obvious with this that everything is very not hunky dory between Adrestia and Brigid, but then...
...eh wot hooligans???
I mean sure, if you considered forced vassalage to be "peace" and not being a free people "peace" then sure. But like... it's not a peace her people want and she should know that, but the game tends to do this back and forth with this topic. I hate it though because it makes it come across as being forced into submission and not having the means to fight back is "peace".
I know this game has lots of issues with uh, if you're attacked or if you were defeated by another military force you should submit and be happy about being taken over, and when you can't fight back anymore that's "peace" because nobody's fighting... but uhh... why is that only an issue with the Empire? I mean, we know why - the devs wanted to walk with her and they admitted it! But like... they should still know when they're writing something reeeeally icky.
Duscur doesn't have this problem and they're not under Edelgard's foot. Anything under Edelgard's foot though is treated like they should be thankful for her control and/or invasion(s). That just overall sends a really nasty message. I don't know that the devs meant to do that as far as an Empire, but I do think it's because they went a little hard with the Edelgard bias and somehow forgot what it would look like to an audience playing the game.
It's like they know it's not a good thing but they keep pushing the "Brigid isn't actually free but it's still peace because nobody is fighting" narrative.
Like... I don't care how much you love a character you're writing. You can't tell me that oppressed nations would just call oppressions "peace" or that their leaders would be more than happy to fight and die for the leader of the nation oppressing them. It gets even worse when you get into the racial territory of it, but that's a topic I've already covered so I'm not gonna go over it again here.
#DCB Three Hopes Run#I know ppl have talked abt this before but it's still smth that bugs me and#frankly this game is only a year old so the issues that were present in Houses#now being present again in Hopes means they were not fixed at all in the writers room#as recently as a year ago. I'm glad they went back to normal FE formula with Engage bc of shit like this#And yeah reminder I discuss some of the negative/harder topics here and not just what I like#I don't tag anything like this outside my own tag(s) though bc I'm not interested in discourse#but I still want to be able to talk about this stuff and I do have some mutuals who are interested in these discussions#which I say this bc I have a section of mutuals who don't like these discussions#and a section of mutuals who do want to discuss this stuff and typically the ones who do go into these topics#tend to be on/posting/etc around the time I'm posting this one so I try to balance when I post these things#around the time those mutuals will be on and when the others are sleepingggg zzzz bc I got at least a bit lucky with that!#Generally one side of y'all are awake at once so it works out pretty well#I talk abt things in equal measure with things I love abt these games so if it's just smth that#I want to talk abt then I do with all my little details and stuff bc that's what I do for all FE games#If I don't like smth I'm gonna talk abt it just like if I like smth I will talk abt it
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do you ever feel casually suicidal? like you're not depressed or anything you're doing fine but also it feels like a convenient option
#if you can't make connections with people or be seen by anyone then like. at least you can feel like you're helping a better cause#to like charities and gfms and anyone else#but you have to tone that down bc you're slowly losing money bc you still can't get a job#and bc you don't have a job it means you're just stuck in the house all day. which gives Way Too Much opportunity to Think about everything#and also so like. i still share a room with my sister but it was fine bc she'd stay at her bf's a few nights a week#but he's got a job that's a bit further away and basically she can't go round his as much. so now it's maybe like once a week#the room is getting messier so it gives me less energy to do anything#you can get really into an unhealthy weight loss obsession bc at least it feels like you're getting towards something#but idek is set weight theory real? bc once i get down to a certain point it suddenly resets#like honestly counting calories and donating money to every gfm i saw and writing a film script was what kept me going#but first one isn't working and second i need some sort of income and third is finished and i have no way of actually creating it#and then there's the whole lack of stable hyperfixation and ability to find new music i enjoy#and realistically what would fix me is having a good job that i enjoy and somewhere to live on my own#but until i get a job that's currently impossible. and even then it probably won't feel like enough#my entire life is lived on my phone i need more physical objects but i don't have enough space#bc i share a room with my sister. it's like all my problems are connected#and i have enough optimism that i still think it'll get better in the next few weeks. maybe i'll be able to get a job and that'll#get everything going again#but at the same time i could easily just die#I've graduated from uni. I've seen the who live 3 times. I've crashed my car twice. I've watched 30 years of corrie. I've met various dogs#what else is there to do with my life honestly#(<- joking)#but yeah like. in summer 2021 i almost got suicidal (it was just letting the occasional thought linger in my mind etc)#but that was bc i was so depressed#but now it feels like i could just kill myself. but more just out of convenience#idek. i'm not gonna kill myself. bc i have a job interview on tuesday. and just in general i won't#but there is this casual feeling of like. well i might as well. i can't describe it#ramble#suicide tw#weight loss mention
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I wanna. Pick them up in my mouth and shake 'em around like a dog obliterating a squeaky toy
#you can tag anyone you feel this way about but I was thinking about Rook hunt in particular#tbh I feel like he'd picture the same - just with Vil and Neige#he wanta his oshis to be besties (he is just lime me fr) (just a liiiittle furyher frim reality)#(I view neigexVil as nore of a crackship until we get more Neige development/lore)#(our queen Vil doesn't deserve to be genuinely shipped with someone who's kinda 2D rn.#But I respect people who flesh out neige with headcanons - they write the dynamics realy well tbh)#(hopefully we get more RSA development at some point I think that'd be cool)#(plus I'd cry if TWST just. stopped. after the last NRC OB)#(I mean it'd make sense aince that's where the story is based and it'll probably end once Yuu finds a way home#- which feels close now thanks to Ortho)#(But at the same time I. have been following this since it first came out when I was about 16 - same age as the first year squad lol)#(and I feel like it'd feel weird if we stopped getting main story updates)#(Im rambling a LOT lol - probably because I'm tipsy haha)#(hope someone can relate to my lamenting of future woes though)#(Oh well - I should atop borrowing sorrow from the future and live joyfully with the now)#(I do miss my friends who've stopped being in the fandom though - and my friends who deactivated and idk how to contact now)#(sugarandmelody... zacrazyvalentine... I miss them. but we had fun#writing and stuff. and I suppose that's what matters in the end. that we had fun.)#at least - I hope they had fun too. and I kinda hope they think about me how I think of them sometimes.#have a nice day if you're reading this. I rambled in the tags a while and I understand that it's kinda long lol.#and probably riddled with typos#I'm tearing up for some reason haha. well it is what it is#I hope each and every one of my followers know how amazing they are - I hope y'all have a wonderful day - evening - or night#I wish I could hug people across the internet lol#I should stop posting on tumblr while drinky haha#tw drunk#tw drinking#i'll tag it just in case#don't wanna cause discomfort and stuff
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i seriously can't comprehend not having a summer or winter break when u get a job. what do u mean i have to work all year around
#no i need my three month reset#ideally i dont need a vacation to recover from daily life#but thats capitalism <3#at least school is fun#what if work is just stress and no fun#thats why i wanna work at the nonprofit i am a member of i like going there and i like the staff and i already do that work#as a volunteer and in internships so i could enjoy it maybe how i enjoy school#as long as the job is mentally and emotionally stimulating and not physically strenous#i can work for like 8 months of a year#same as how i go to school#ideally i only work 6 months of the year and 6 months i do something else#but once again <3 capitalism#actually audhd#actually autistic#actually adhd#🧃#see the reason im thinking ab this is bc i realized working means regular paychecks so less financial paranoia#and stability.. which i like and am always desiring with school i get a big sum of money every few months and then pennies rest of theyear#except last semester when i got my work study and now i realize i like being paid more regularly it helps with my financial trauma#so now i am thinking i wouldnt mind working (if i wasnt in school bc two at once is too much for me)#i could work 10 hours without being burnt out i think 15 max but that is pushing it. this is why i need my diagnosis lmao#at least i have affordable housing and benefits for food and utilities so i actually could work 10 hours and have enough to pay for things#but like adult jobs are usually full time idk like to be a staff member at a nonprofit like i want to be#idk im sure theres a way to do it how i want#or i could get a semi boring remote job thats early hours and i have the rest of the day to myself like summer 2022#i barely remember work from that summer bc early hours and i did what i wanted for the rest of the day that was a very good summer.. mMM#i want my whole life to be like that summer thats my picture board#but not broke ahah
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it’s never going to get better, which is great
#[with quiet desperation] it’s the shame. i don’t think there’s a cure to the shame#i can’t stop getting caught on the what-ifs and if-onlys. and i know that’s no way to live#bitter shrug. born wrong. awful archaic way to feel about yourself isn’t it#i’ve never— well. i’ve never been in love with someone who didn’t say mean and ugly things about it. which doesn’t help i don’t think#these things stick. it all sticks. maybe i’ll never be happy. mutters into my pint#the trouble is i’ve known it all my life and the shame’s never subsided. in hindsight it seems like i was very confident about it for a few#years of my teens and i have absolutely no idea how i did it#…. actually scratch that. i do. i was interacting with other transgender people frequently. and now i’m not. perhaps a factor#or actually anyone who gets my name and my pronouns right on a regular basis. it’s astonishing how hard it is once that’s missing#but it hasn’t— well. it’s not like the movies or the novels. nothing is. is there a greenwood for me?#is a happy ending imperative for me? and i think it’s also the pall of knowing that i’m not#actually going to top myself and thus i— if i’m lucky— now have decades stretching out in front of me#i need to unpick the shame. i need to fall in love. not least with myself— though that really is very silly. joy#it’d be a bloody difficult do. and it’d be impossible on my own#i’m an anachronism. i’m british. it’s hard. i should really be in the bronze age#i know i’ve got time (good thing) and i know i’ve got time (life sentence)#and this is all compounded by the fact that i don’t actually like to talk about in depth. or i don’t think i do because i never have#maybe i wish i could ignore it. the constant sense of something-other and not-quite. i see other people to whom it brings such joy#and i envy them. endlessly. painfully. here is the life…. well#does anyone have a cigarette. i think i’m going to go mad.#one can’t ask for…. i don’t know. affirmation. reassurance. it’s all so complicated#it’s winter. at least it’s winter
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#i am Dying#so for reasons im not gonna get into i stopped taking my meds a couple months ago#and luckily my mood and depression/anxiety hasnt been an issue at all!!#in fact im usually very happy and content#but one thing has come back and its come with a fucking vengeance#like i thought it was annoying in high school#but now its downright hindering#like im making up for the past 9 years or whatever#and i didnt realize until this week that its probably bc im off my meds#and unfortunately its making my insomnia bad again which means im starting to have another issue that i had in hs#its only happened once but if it continues then things will get bad lol#im trying to be vague on purpose bc this is soooo embarrassing#i cant talk to my friends abt it bc we dont talk abt that stuff (or at least they dont w me so i dont feel comfortable bringing it up)#and i would talk to my sister but i dont want her to know im off my meds#so like. dying#i have a plethora of my insomnia/anxiety/depression meds dont get me wrong#but in order to take them again i need to update my insurance w the doctor#then go to the doctor#then get a referral to a specialist#who can hopefully help me#and then i can take my meds again#i knowww i should bc my slope be slippin#but like im in a good mood and am content with everything in my life but my work and my issue that i need a specialist for#so im not very motivated to do things i dont wanna do#idkkkk#sorry im rambling lmao#vani.key
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