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bro thinks he’s esnupi!! 🎸🎶🐶 (he is)
I found this little rocker snoopy on Pinterest and immediately thought of George.. I just had to draw them together!! 🤭
george harrison irl ☝️
#churro art#my art#digital art#fanart#illustration#the beatles#beatles fanart#george harrison#snoopy#pls don’t look at the guitar too much HAHSHA IM STILL A BIT RUSTY AT THEM#despite not being that great at drawing guitars I still love obsessing over every little detail on them hehe#sorry I just had to draw my fav with snoopy… its what girls do 😔#I have more beatle stuff I wanna finish :3#although this style is something a bit different I love it!!#it’s very similar to what I did with data and Picard in like February but more rendered heheheh#I love it this may be one o my fav drawings this year!#which isn’t saying a lot I’ve been#slacking. tbh HAHAHA
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Me 🤝 characters with the surname “Harkness”
#Agatha all along#doctor who#Torchwood#Agatha harkness#Jack harkness#marvel#kathryn hahn#john barrowman#mcu#whovian#if I had a nickel for every time I’ve loved a character with that surname…#I’d have two nickels. which isn’t a lot but it’s weird it happened twice.#I… love Agatha more#which feels weird to say#since jack has been my comfort character since 2012
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this is a test
#i’m bored i just wanna see how many words i can put in the tags like will it just keep going on forever or will they stop me like i know th#the tag limit is 30 ok so the iindividual tag limit is 140 characters that’s actually so rude i wanted to keep going forever and see how lo#g this could be but i guess we can do this 30 times ok what the flip should i talk about hm i was playing the guitar today but i rage quit#ause the song was hard and hurting my fingers! ermmmmm it was sunny ok this is boring let’s think of more exciting things to type hmmm acco#ding to all known laws of aviation- jk i’m not doing the bee movie script but can you imagine i think that would be funny hmmmmm words i lo#e podcasts so bad that’s a fact no one has ever know before my blog definitely isn’t all about audio dramas the people are definitely not a#ready aware of this jesus christ this is only the seventh one of these this is actually quite a lot of space i underestimated how much i ha#e to type btw there’s probably spelling mistakes in here somewhere or autocorrect has been annoying but i cba to retype anything so i don’t#care lolllllllllllll how do you feel about oscar malevolent i feel a normal amount actually (lie) yk what i really miss sam and colin alrea#y like i’m actually not okay i really hope we hear from sam again in s2 and also colin ngl i hope ur in the computers soz or not dead miss#im like a bastard my paranoid it king ok erm im running out of things to say um heartstopper s3 was crazy good i cried lmao i love gay peop#e so much it’s crazy i hope it gets renewed for s4 i need to reread the comics lowkey and the books they’re all so talented for being so yo#ng it scares me ngl !!!!!! the tmagp hiatus is getting to me slightly like february in reality is soon and not that far away for how podcas#ts go but seriously how am i supposed to live until then without knowing what happened. please colin be alive. ive only just realised i can#use fills stops. sorry that’s made everything a bit messy. i should’ve been doing this before. whoops. anyways. hi mutuals i love you all s#much i hope you enjoy my rambles and shitposts cause i enjoy yours very much! never think you’re being annoying i literally don’t care be a#annoying as you want posts as much as you want i am ur biggest fan <3 im getting a bit fatigued from typing like my mind is blank basically#now it’s just turned into a. stream of consciousness but i don’t really have any thoughts to put here idk if we’re halfway ermmmm omg it’s#lmost halloween how crazy is that time is flying by i kinda forgot it was october lmao. it’s wild how it’s basically almost christmas. like#what. that’s illegal. how is it wintertime again. what the flip. i miss summer already take me backkkkkkk. i hope my phone doesn’t crash or#smth cause i’ve not saved this as a draft and i cba to do any of this again. maybe i should save it. ok i will when i reach the next tag bc#ok it stopped me but i’ve saved it and holy jesus it’s a lot of text im just sat here giggling there’s really no point to any of this other#than me being bored sooooooooooooooooo (imagine if i just did the letter o for every character wouldn’t that be crazy) so wait there’s 140#haracters and 30 tags so what’s 30 x 140. someone hurry. i haven’t done maths lessons in two and a half years i’ve forgotten everything wai#let me get the calculator app ok im back it said 4100 characters so. i dont know how many words that roughly is but its. a decent amount. o#what the flip why am i wasting tag space with maths. i hate maths. my screen time has been actually soooooooooo bad recently like damn some#one put my phone in a block of ice please joshua gillespie style. my mind is running out of things to say. do i talk about myself. im james#im 18 which is weird cause wdym im an adult go away. ive run out of facts. i love podcasts and procedural dramas that stupid firefighter sh#w is my life unfortunately. i think chappell roan should be the queen of england instead of king charles. i dont like having a king cause#ho needs men in power not me. ok um this is the last tag equal rights for all. yolo. the time will pass anyways! thank u boredom ok bye gn:
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Oh. Thats a friend group of mine making a whole ass new group chat without me in it. Okay cool. Love that.
#we had one but they went silent#one person said they were upset with me bc I had ‘ditched them for my new friends’#which. I don’t have any new friends. I’ve been trying to keep in contact with them but get hardly any response.#tried to apologize and say I’d ’do better’#but am still getting little to no response#and. one girl sent me a screenshot with the fb group icon in the corner#and it was everyone except me#which. lovely.#and they’re acting like my life has been amazing and wonderful#when it’s been one thing after another with the move my friend dying and a bunch of other shit#so yeah sorry I’m a bit absent a lot is going on#and I feel like they think im lying to them or making it up#like. idk what to do anymore#this isn’t about anyone here btw#btw the person who sent the screenshot didn’t send it to be mean she was showing me something she was going for#and I pretended I didn’t see it and just acted happy for her#now I’m not even gonna bring up my stuff to these people at all#idk man#this just hurts
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on a note to all: my plotting style is something i like to call i have adhd and if i see you on the dash and have an idea chances are i’ll im you about it. i’m an anxious little dude who isn’t always active in a broad scope, and it’s always been my nature to reach out to people. that doesn’t make me even remotely anxious. not even remotely expected to answer me — i totally get it, sometimes you don’t feel the vibe — but a general psa about how i work. i come from the dinosaur era where the only way to communicate with one another on any level was to directly talk to them and frankly i don’t even know how else you’re ever supposed to plot with a person otherwise. like… how do you write if you never talk????
#CLAWS RETRACTED.#[honest to god this isn’t shade at anyone im literally just trying to explain i am never on the dash and when i am i take handfuls of rando#snapshots to send to whoever’s in my scope at that second. which is i know ridiculous but when you’re me and you’re mobile 100% of the time#because the other 75% you’re doing everything for everyone in your life it becomes exceedingly hard to WANT to stare at a laptop screen.#even if im home im 100% mobile most of the time. basically what im saying is: as an rper i will totally drop into your im’s randomly if#something strikes my fancy. if that’s not your bag i totally get it. the plotting call life has never been mine to own. a lot of the time#it’ll be a person likes it and then you reach out and it turns into ‘haha neither of us have an idea’ which then kills the whole thing.#hence why -i- tend to approach especially if you reblog something or wishlist it and it crosses my path. like. im so happy to try almost an#anything someone wants to give a shot so long as you feel like playing ping pong with me about it. I’ve always been an exceedingly social#person because i just… love people. and for a person literally exploding with anxiety… I don’t do anxiety about talking to people. I USED#to long ago until I LITERALLY forced myself to just… not give a fuck. but honestly? do it scared and now it’s just fucking do it. I#apologize in advance if I can be a pain in the ass and if it’s not your dig I comprehend an unfollow. im a very involved and interested#writer and frankly it’s how I keep myself able to enjoy this hobby by not making it too serious. like. sometimes I read someone’s rules and#im like Jesus Christ I would love to remember all of this but my brain only has so much ram. idk when the big invisible book of online#etiquette was written but I must have been sleeping in class for that one.]
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Behold, my latest and most enamouring new obsession:
Malina, Lady of the Chief of the Northern Water Tribe. As if Red Lotus child OCs weren’t niche enough
#my art#artists on tumblr#the legend of korra#lok malina#still feel like that’s too vague of a tag but I can’t come up with anything better for now#and yeah. she has completely stolen by heart and I don’t know how to feel about that#don’t think I ever was this attracted to my own art before#to be fair the design isn’t mine. it’s very heavily based on something nina drew back in 2021#because I did not have the energy or creativity to come up with my own thing#but the art is all mine and I genuinely adore it. super proud of myself which is a rare occurrence#anyways. kat and I spent three days digging this niche lower and lower and now have a he#*hell of a lot of lore about this basically nonexistent character#for lore about a lady from the North Pole a lot of it is rather hot… to the point my cheeks are burning non stop#I would say I’d let her do anything she wants to me but in my very specific aroace-adjacent case it’s more like#I’d let her tell me to do anything she wants to her#if that makes any sense and I have not completely lost my goddamn mind yet#okay. enough yapping. back to the art itself#lazy background because I suck at those and am not currently attempting to learn them. I’ll probably do that over the summer#about time anyway. my characters have been placed against an off-white background for far. far too long#this is the first piece in just over a year that isn’t tagged with sotrl. which is kinda weird tbh#I’ve been drawing my OCs almost exclusively for nearly 5 years so it is genuinely surprise I’m branching out#*surprising#less branching out and more diving from one hole into another but y’know#anyway. in my personal and very correct opinion she turned out absolutely gorgeous#her servants are way too lucky and unalaq is way too much of an idiot. no offence to vaatu but he could never beat out this#and I also have Kat’s personal and very correct opinion to back up my own. two against the void. once again we’re winning#I wanna draw her a lot more bc she has completely possessed my brain. I just wish character interactions were easier to draw 😭#I’ll figure it out. just need to fight my visualisation issues for a proper idea. brb#okay I’m almost at the tag limit so. in summary:#she 🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵
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one thing I love about following celebrities/artists who are honest and proactive about their mental health struggles etc is I can’t count the number of times someone I know is going through something and I’m like ‘I’ve got a song for u’ and how much of my life involves telling myself ‘if [redacted] can do something/get better/etc then so can i’ (and having actual real evidence of it in front of me) and I can’t understate how much I appreciate these things.
but at the same time it involves a whole lot of watching people I care about suffer and you learn to read the signs and infer between the lines in songs and interviews, and yes we can never fully know what they don’t share with us, but when they do share things it’s not a big stretch to be like ‘this seems like it’s what life is like for you and I have taken encouragement from it but you deserve so much better’. and it’s easy to find ways to get angry at a predatory industry and realise things that could be hurtful if you’re already fragile.
and we can advocate for some things and help ourselves and the people around us feel better but it’s hard to meaningfully reach your faves as an individual. and there are things we can’t say on the internet in too much detail, speculation becomes the harmful kind of gossip, and so sometimes it’s a whole lot of internally saying ‘you’re doing incredibly well to have gotten to where you are but I wish for your sake things would get better faster’
#curse and catch 22 (not the song)#I didn’t mean to make this so anonymous as a post but maybe. it’s applicable to a lot of artists. I don’t know#just thinking about how sometimes someone will say something and it’s like ‘oh honey’ if you can see. why they might be saying it#like a glimpse into the top of an iceberg that makes a lot of sense to be there given other things they do and talk about#I feel like we’re in a unique position as a fandom with the way all four of them have been so vulnerable in different ways#and they may not be perfect but imo no one deserves to suffer like that especially for an extended amount of time. but the thing is#sometimes the fans are suffering and so are our faves and people appreciate the relatability and don’t have any basic compassion#or ability to see past their own struggles. with this fandom especially compared to a lot of others I’ve been in and I think I know why#but in the end the way I see it we’ve gotten so much relatable content and encouragement (bc the Finding The Positives Vibes which are ther#and sometimes there’s nothing we can give back apart from being a part of systemic change which all of us deserve for ourselves too#idk if this band is unique in this or I just find them more relatable personally and thus easier to see how hard they’ve worked#on themselves and taking risks in order to be honest. and it reminds me of the quote about how suffering won’t make your art better#healing will. and so imo anyone whose art is really good when they are going through a lot has me thinking. imagine what it’d be like#when life isn’t so hard for you?? or when you’re getting better but it just takes a long time I’m like. you deserve to feel better faster#this all said I’m incredibly proud and I’m not trying to insinuate there’s anything catastrophic going on bc there absolutely isnt#I am not in any way worried. I’ve seen tragedies about to happen and these guys show none of the signs. but I do relate to a lot of tidbits#pertaining to. certain chronic mental illnesses and/or being neurodivergent in an unaccommodating world (don’t ask which)#things I would anticipate would be a lot harder when there’s hordes of often fickle occasionally predatory fans to contend with#sometimes I just think of this idk#celebrities are people#5 seconds of summer#5sos#5sos fandom#cw mental health things
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just so y’all know i am still going to answer the two (2) asks regarding the selfship asks that i have left, i’m just too exhausted from work to do them right now 😭 either tomorrow or monday i’ll have them done and posted!!! 💗
#⟡ — kayleigh’s yapping#they’re in my drafts and i’ve started them but work. has been kicking my ass. 💀#it’s that i have to walk 7 dogs when i get there and before i leave#and i have been walking over 8k steps each shift for the past week or two 😭#which isn’t a lot tbqh but for my chronically ill ass it is#especially considering it has been below 40℉ and raining every shift i’ve worked the past week#(muffled screaming) it’s okay the puppies have been born thankfully#and i just gotta get through tomorrow’s shift (today technically since it’s after 12am) and then monday’s shift#i have a psychiatrist appointment on tuesday afternoon and am gonna get a grocery pickup order afterwards#and then spend the rest of the day cleaning/organizing#and then go hang out with my irl bestie on wednesday bc she says she’ll come cry outside of my window if i don’t 😂
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trying to break my writers block by attacking stories from bizarre angles seems to be working I shall learn nothing from this
#midway through writing something that is meant to be gempearl centred#but it's from mumbos pov as he hides under the Gs base trying to trap one of them#and also it's a follow up from the gempearl thing I posted yesterday#i’m actually surprised how well it's going rn i’m gonna be honest#i’ve been writing a lot of the same thing for a while and I think it's become a bit stagnant for me#which isn’t to say I no longer like the trope because it remains to be my favourite#but I have written p much Only that for a year lol#wren wrambles
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BABY WATCH 2024!
First 24 hours with the new kitten. Thought it was a she, but did a closer inspection earlier and I’m leaning towards a he.
Anyway, the good stuff: he is the sweetest, most well behaved kitten I have ever seen. He’s an angel. He spent most of last night sleeping on my chest. I haven’t had such an actively affectionate cat in ages. The two I have now are sweet, but they don’t really cuddle. This little dude does. This little dude is awesome. He follows me around, doesn’t get into things he’s not supposed to, and instantly knew how to use a litter box. If he wasn’t so young, I’d think he was an abandoned indoor cat. But he’s baby. My baby. Still needs a name, though.
The not so good stuff: I DO NOT need another cat! I live in a small apartment with two other adult cats and a small dog. New cats are also expensive! He’s gonna need shots and to get fixed and, to be painfully honest, I really don’t know if I can afford that now. Shit, I’m basically out of (human) food until I can get some cash on friday. It’s rough. I’m really anxious. I love this little guy. I didn’t just pick a random kitten. I’d seen him outside a couple of times and I just… I hated the idea of this way too trusting little guy trying to survive out in the world. He just kept crying out at me and following me. There are other stray cats around, but this one is so small and so sweet and he followed me home and he loves me so much I literally started crying while holding him bc I didn’t want him to ever have to fight just to survive out there. I hate it. I mean, I love him, but it does make me feel kind of sick inside bc I know it’s not exactly a smart decision to take in a stray right now. Life sucks. He’s curled up next to me in bed now and if he wasn’t so tiny and sweet and wonderful, I might be okay not keeping him & letting him stay outside with his friends. I’m glad he’s not a human baby or I’d really be freaking out right now.
Anyway, I’d die for him now so it’s a done deal. My baby now.
#baby watch 2024#I love him!!!!!#im also really anxious and sad about how I’m going to afford/live with another cat#this is why I can’t look at the adoptable cats at pet stores. it will 100% ruin my day.#absolute unobtainable dream would be to one day own a large piece of land and adopt/foster as many strays as possible#blegh… stressful#but he’s a little angel so it’s okay#it’ll work out in the end#the juice is worth the squeeze as they say#a baby#I should say I do have a ton of experience with raising kittens#things were kinda… out of control when I was a kid#at one point my family had almost two dozen cats in the house which sounds terrible I know#hoarders level terrible#there were a few stray cats we fed and then took in#and then they turned out to be pregnant and had babies everywhere#so yeah we had a ton of kittens#we managed to get most of them adopted though so it wasn’t like we were living with a horde of cats everywhere#just long enough for them to ween off milk and be adopted#it was a very rough time#so this past day I’ve been having a lot of flashbacks to taking care of kittens#skipping school to take care of them. in like 5th grade. stressful. not smart life decisions.#what can I say I’m dumb as hell#this isn’t important#you can ignore this#text#mine
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greatly enjoying lords of the fallen so far! there’s been a few performance issues (frame rate drops, graphics etc.) but its still a fairly well polished game. the areas are absolutely stunning as well- the vistas in the backdrop are amazing to admire. and umbral? an entire world that you can just hop in and out of? cool as fuck. the ability to dye armour and the general designs? awesome.
only just cleansed the first beacon and there’s already a couple of optional bosses i need to go and do before i press on!
also………. buff women
#lotf#got a lot to say but i don’t wanna compliment it too much#incase i hate the rest of it#ngl i feel like people have been rly unfair on the game if it maintains this quality#oh the invasions are shit though#there is barely any fandom for this game I’ve noticed#which isn’t a good sign ngl
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I’m the type that can and will cry if think too hard <3
#random post#me tag ∠( ᐛ 」 ) |/#I’m not an overly emotional person in the stereotypical way. but I do get in my feels when thinking about life and the experience of living#I’m like. constantly explaining things to myself cus there’s never really a time or place to talk about it#also my method of explaining things is very not coherent sometimes. so it takes me a bit to really get my point across in a comprehensible#way. I’m a big thinker. I have many thoughts and ideas a views. a daily thing of mine is noticing problems#and then fixing them in my head with thought out explanations and motives and outcomes#it’s like I’m talking to someone else. much like how I format my text posts. that’s how my inner monologue is#me talking to myself is actually me talking to someone else. someone that isn’t real#anyways it’s a daily occurrence. every day of my life is spent with thoughts similar to those breaking down a movie#lots of thoughts from adhd. compulsive thoughts from ocd. overwhelming thoughts from autism. distressing thoughts from bpd#ya. this isn’t a vent I just need to like. see the thoughts in writing so I can do smth else. like eat this muffin ive been staring at for#over an hour now <3 mmmbfbg yea muffins are hard to eat now cus I had some with mold and food mold especially is a big nono for me#spend like. five minutes examining the damn thing before I even consider taking a bite. I’m very hungry an thirsty </3#when your mouth is so dry you can taste your own mouth 👍 I’m experiencing#nothing in particular. just experiencing. I wouldn’t have it any other way. I like having an experience and living#drank my tea and I had like. hallucinations of like an alcohol prep pad. I’ve been using those in my ear cus. tmi. had a pimple that’s#causing problems so mom suggested that. it burned! which means it worked so word. I’ve noticed lately that both me AND my family have been#using ‘word’ a lot. dad says we’ve been saying it but no we haven’t. if we had I’d have BEEN saying it. maybe we’ve used it before for a bit#but now it’s back. idk. I’ve said it in class on more than one occasion lmao I don’t look like the type to say smth like that but whatever#it’s like when I used to say bro after every sentence like 10 years ago lol. we’re a family of parrots we repeat eachother a lot#I started saying I love you out of no where and they started doing it too. we whistle at eachother from across the house. sing ear worms#together. quote funny things at every opportunity and drive the joke into the ground. everyone in this house is a different kind of mentally#I’ll and it’s the most beautiful clash of personalities because we’re all so annoying and we love eachother so much and also our#communication is shit because some ppl have hearing loss and another is a short fused child and some are quick to interrupt and some dont#get a word in and some just can’t explain and some can’t understand. we get there eventually at some point. we don’t get the full grasp of#how much we love eachother yet. but we’re gettin there. anyways this went into several different directions but they’re all good ones#I think. if you read all this good on you! this is my brain 24/7/365 haha ok love you
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fellas is it feminist for a country to consider bearing a child to continue the royal line the principal duty of said country’s house of queens, regardless of whether they want to or not? is it feminist to value women primarily for their ability to give birth? is a country feminist simply because it is ruled by women—which, mind you, is not because women are valued over men but rather because the royal line only ever bears daughters because of magic, because this is a fantasy novel—even though they’re treated/viewed like that?
#I’ve had enough of the inys is a hashtag feminist matriarchy takes I’ve had enough!!!!!#this is ‘the fire nation is feminist’ all over again#the priory of the orange tree#a day of fallen night#tpotot#inys#sabran berethnet#though unlike the fn I wouldn’t go so far as to call inys structurally sexist because there is evidence it isn’t#(see: succession being determined solely by birth order and gender not being a factor; women and men being able to hold the same positions#and it not being remarked upon)#but it is not. feminist either#which tpotot & adofn especially. explicitly criticise#elli rambles#also dgmw I’m not saying the queens of inys have the hardest & most terrible lives ever but. they’re definitely not exempt from the sexism#that is inherent in monarchical systems…#which is like a focal point of adofn!#I understand that a lot of ppl who’ve read priory haven’t read adofn bc it hasn’t been out for incredibly long but like. use your brain…#<- impossible task for fandoms apparently#roots of chaos#roc#r#a
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being primarily an artist (as in “someone who draws”) these days is pretty funny to me but also very strange once i give it some thought. i’ve defined myself as a writer for 1/3 of my life and it was my biggest dream to be a published author (and i am!). i wanted to major in languages and that was my plan up until the second to last month of senior year of high school lol. and then once i finished my books i stopped writing. i felt like i had written everything i wanted to write. super weird after a decade of investing in a project!!
and then seeing myself as someone who draws and not as someone who writes is still new to me. not that they are mutually exclusive, i just mean it as my defining characteristic. i’ve drawn all my life but it was never my number one Thing. you guys should see my art from three years ago omg. i still like writing and i do it very unpretentiously here and there, but it’s not something i think about very often. and that’s weird!! it used to be my everything and now it’s just another thing!!!!
#i’m fine with it though i just think it’s funny to think that#if you met me at a certain point in my life you see me as a writer. and if you met me later on you think me of an artist#think of me as*#‘languages’ isn’t the right translation for what i wanted to major in but ‘letras’ doesn’t have an approximate#conceptually though imagine it as if i wanted to major in english#i love portuguese. it’s a beautiful language. both in normative but also semantically#no sentence in english will ever come close to the amount of meaning you can conjure up with three words in portuguese#and i’m saying that as someone who loves english. because i’ve been l speaking it since diapers as well#i don’t know i’m just thinking!! i still love words a lot. we had a phenomenology class today (which i also love)#and it made me remember how i got into psychology through it. because it’s so closely related to the language and meanings#inside said language. and then it got me thinking about this#being dedicated to drawing is a recent development in my life lol
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#idk why I’m putting this in tags instead of an actual post#this is a postitive thing#anyway#i’ve been ‘working out’ (in quotations bc it’s very small and short but it’s still exercise!)#and i’m actually seeing results??#I’m mostly working on my upper body/arms bc of vanity reasons#anyway my biceps and my back look. dare I say. kinda hot.#and I can do like ten more consecutive push-ups than when I started!#which again isn’t a lot but it’s progress and I’m proud#anyway I gotta work on my cardio for actual health reasons not vanity ones#It’s just still kinda really hard to get out of the house#I wanna start doing the uphill trail near my house again but it’s hard to motivate myself alone#and like my dad would go with me but he makes a lot of ‘jokes’ about my health and fitness level that are actually kinda hurtful#he made one of those in front of the friend I did it with a couple weeks ago#and it didn’t ruin my sense of accomplishment but it also definitely didn’t feel great#I know he doesn’t mean anything by it but like. I kinda wish he could just be supportive or even normal about it.#this got off topic#I’m happy for myself and feeling good in my body#I’ve got a ways to go but I’ve given myself a really solid start#personal#fitness
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unsure if I’m being normal, extremely weird, or just neurodivergent rn send help
#ode by ode#am I crazy or is this normal but I think so little of myself that I’m convincing myself I’m being weird#OR is this weird but bc I know my threshold for normal is a bit fucked so in turn I overcorrect and can convince myself I’m being normal#or is this just a neurodivergent thing so it feels like the right thing to do and isn’t inherently weird but is something I’d be judged for#anyway I sort of met this girl#by which I mean she’s an usher at a theater I go to a lot#and she’s ushered the last two shows I’ve been at and both times we made eye contact and she smiled at me#and I’m pretty sure she recognized me today#and we definitely bonded over both being gay when I talked about Oscar Wilde at a post-show talk#and thennn I found out that the theater prints a list of every employee in their programs#and I went through the list of ushers and found her on Instagram#bc I really wanted to say hi and talk to her and learn her name#but both shows I had to leave w my family before I had the chance#so I. I followed her??? on Instagram???? is that crazy??#like should I say something?????????#was this unhinged or normal or what#help help help
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