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NO AND YOU PEOPLE COULD MAYBE HAVE SLEEP APNEA PLEASE SEE AN ENT
(Like. I’ve worked at an ENT office and this is literally one of the questions on the sleep apnea screening forms that we make people fill out)
this also happens when im writing sometimes, but ill be reading and after a while, it gets to the point where my eyelids are drooping and i can hardly keep them open and im wondering if it's just a me thing, a chronic illness thing, or a generally common thing. tia!!
#sorry for the harsh tone#but sleep apnea is kinda dangerous? esp when bad#people fall asleep at the wheel of a moving vehicle#or you could just. die in your sleep.#and it’s prob not that severe#but even as a minor thing it severely impacts your sleep#like. you sleep worse than normal people.#and will probably feel tired all the time.#which is a symptom of a lot of things#and this is the ‘im tiredddd’ website#but it may be worth talking to a pcp/gp about#bc the treatment (involving meds and/or surgery) is fairly simple#like. soft foods and you can go home after a day following the surgery#that’s how ok it i#bc it usually just removes excess fat around the inside of ur throat/back of your nose area#which opens your airways#the meds do the same thing too#anyway this has been a psa#please talk to a doctor if you’re falling asleep while doing mentally stimulating tasks
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one small step for. kitties
#mine#cats#i was gna share th process vid of this but its just 90% drawing little dots not thrilling#anyway i had a Day today but we live we go forth !!#i am going to try a new journal thing bc th hobonichi hasnt been slaying ngl . i might b a filofax girlie#ive bought a 2nd hand one off ebay for 12£ which will Do For Now to see if actually like it#i need to figure out th sizing of my pages im gna make my own....brain is so so small#i was gna do mini pages for daily journaling but i think ive excepted i am not. gna journal everyday like thats not happening#n then what happens when im then using dated journals is i fall behind n then i hve such an atrocious memory i cant remember what i did#like 3 days prior to back fill so its lots of empty pages and AAAA#ironic that i am journaling to help my symptoms but my symptoms r stopping me from journaling. can i win once#anyway i think this system will be better yes yes
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me: finally accepting theres a good chance im autistic and starting to work up the courage to ask my parents to see if i could get a diagnoses but being scared to
my mom: do you ever think you have adhd? if you want to do a screening for add next time your at the doctors you can
me:
#for context im terrified of being the person who sees stuff online and diagnosis themselves and then is wrong#which is why it took me so long to accept im —probably— autistic (bc now i have done research and stuff for it)#and id see adhd things that were relatable but i felt i related more to the autism + self diagnosing both felt weird (for me not in general#but now like. my mom is willing to accept i might have add??#(there was a long talk in between her asking if i ever thought i had it and her saying i could get a screening where we both agreed that#—if i did have it— i didnt have the hyperactive part. hence the add vs adhd thing)#and now that kinda through off my plans because like. what if i do also had adhd. or something#so yeah small crisis woo#i need to actually look i to symptoms and stuff for adhd though#because im not saying anything til i know more about it and if i actually do have a lot of the things#but this also gives me a chance go write about the autism things as well bc i told my mom i would look into the adhd#so now i can hopefully find a way to bring that up#ive mentioned that autism is a spectrum recently which i didnt think she knew before#so progress i guess#wow long rant in the tags whoops#jasper’s posts#moots have some jaz lore i guess
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ahhhh yes. mal du pays my beloved.
#isat#in stars and time#mal du pays#isat spoilers#technically#anyways this is a super specific thing to my thoughts but the basic idea is that i have a lot of headcanons about sif being a system#for a lotta reasons really. projection and source memories are a large one#ive named mal du pays lucius in my brain because its a common name in guadeloupe I THINK and well. thats the original insp for the island#its up to interpretation now buuuuuuut.....ya know. anyways i have many thoughts on sif system and lucius in particular#being what feels like a manifestation of all their negative emotions and symptoms#BUT BUT BUT#i also imagine theyre the first which is why their name is lucius to me. og host. sif is the split turned host. teehee#so naturally deep down they have a lot of their connection to the island#soooooooo. feelings ensue. yadda yadda i am typing too much#im so normal
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miss Toskarin you’re not convincing me that Skyrim was the ruin of all western rpgs. In fact you’re convincing me that the issues began with oblivion.
I'd better be careful or else I might convince you of my less loudly-held beliefs
#I liked oblivion well enough but it's got a lot of Very Serious problems that were never solved and instead festered forward into genre norm#although technically if you want to get more specific here#the problems that I complain most often about now actually started under the surface of morrowind's development#and intensified with the reception to tribunal#and then caught on fire with the lessons learned from bloodmoon (which is proto-oblivion in a lot of ways)#as with so many things the damage was more in the wrong lessons being learned from games with scrappy development cycles#and how those became incredibly toxic when applied as the standard for development rather than a freak accident of planning#consider how oblivion passively fucking up your character was a solution to people trying to play off-build in morrowind#and how skyrim being incredibly easy was a solution to oblivion's level-rotting#and how both of these solutions are solving a symptom by removing friction without replacing it#which is further incentivised because the game now has fewer features that would turn off someone who would otherwise not play an rpg
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woke up to a notification about my air conditioning unit apparently being part of a huge recall due to potential mold (great, i'm allergic to that) and also dayforce (which i use for work) being like "there was a cybersecurity data breach event; letters are being sent out to affected individuals"
it's a great day to be an adult, friends 🚬
#robin.txt#idk if i'm included in that dayforce thing but i guess we'll see#the A/C thing tho... i'm about to double check but i'm pretty sure#which is so hilarious because i woke up with allergy symptoms lmfao#but it could be any number of things especially since i was outside a lot yesterday#it just has me wondering now.... like has this contributed to all my issues?
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She fucking steamrolled me.
#i got my meds but at what cost#idk of this is even the right thing#i feel like she wasn’t really listening to me#and which symptoms are actually troubling me#it’s mostly that i can’t think right and am having delusions#she focused a lot on halluvinations#most of my hallucinations are benign#fd ramblings#also she misgendered me a lot so that wasn’t fun#vent cw#saneism cw#ableism cw
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having extremely cancellable thoughts as i fall asleep
#i can see where the dan autism truthing comes from but i dont think he has autism#i think it's a secret third thing (some kind of trauma-driven neurodivergence like cptsd or a PD#which can often have a lot of overlap with the symptoms of autism)#i need to double check if those things can be considered nd iirc there's no rigid clinical definition of neurodivergence#and some schools of thought include acquired conditions not just congenital stuff but don't quote me on that#anyway goodnight i love a mentally ill bad bitch#delete later
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”having cats is so cozy :3 they’re so cute aww look at her purr aw what a sweetheart”
i’m collecting pieces of a bird into a plastic bag on this fine sunday evening
#catsitting rn for my family’s cats and like they’re not even fully outdoor cats but somehow still manage at this (the other one is actually#a good hunter & as grossed out as I am abt this I feel like a proud mom#like yes u go my lil beast#they have like a limited outdoor access but sometimes birds fly in and like she’ll get them if they do)#(good thing I've watched lots of House md recently so obv now convinced I have every parasite & bird disease etc. under the sun)#(in abt a week I'll have weird symptoms and go into a hospital and they'll think it's lupus or something until the cranky middle-aged#vicodin addicted malpractice man runs into the room and goes ''were u !! around dead birds???!!!! recently !" and that's how I won't die#I'll just have a lungful of worms or something (which is a very real episode in that show that horrified me to no end))#anyways I digress: everyone say ''good job'' to her she's a great hunter and bois we're feasting tonight! (gave them extra chicken wet food#in hopes that'll fool her into thinking that was her catch-of-the-day (felt bad abt collecting away her trophy))#july 2024#2024
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Sometimes I research ocd bc I go 'hm crap wait what if I dont have it' and then relate to everything I research, then realise 'Hey that was probably just an ocd thing you did you dumbass'
#this happens a lot with a lot of random things#recently it was fatal familial insomnia#i dont have that but i do have ocd which likes to convince me of that#intrusive thoughts are so so dumv#*dumb#garlic breath#npd safe#aspd safe#cluster b safe#ocd#obsessive compulsive disorder#actually ocd#'what if i dont have enough intrusive thoughts for ocd' you have them multiple times an hour and are infuriating to deal with#and then also not realising HEY THATS A SYMPTOM OF OCD YOU ACTUAL IDIOT#ive done that so much with adhd. which i am literally diagnosed with
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It's really, really nice to have a doctor say, "Oh yeah, that makes sense" after years of having people tell you your pattern of pain can't be happening and/or is inexplicable!
#whoo validation#i went to a pain management clinic today#and I gave him my five pages of typed notes of my symptoms + everything I've tried#and he was like#i've seen things like this before#and you've done most of what i would suggest#and done a terrific job tracking it all#but i do have a few more ideas#which is delightful#but also it's just a relief to have some idea#of why this might be happening#most of the doctors and specialists i saw before believed me#but were very stumped#this is a chronic pain thing I've dealt with for over a decade#op#happy news#in other good news I've had a lot of success lately treating my anxiety#with new meds#so much health stuff finally starting to look up#50
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thursday quest - no physical therapy today - make and eat lunch sooooo early but i can do it!!!!! - get ready for wedding - attend wedding! yay! (: - decompress well when i get home <3
#its thursday quest#god i'm so anxious about it autism style. so many uncertainties that i simply cannot account for alone. but i'm being sooo 'brave' about it#(keeping it to myself. except for posting about it)#taxi company hasn't texted me the drivers' details yet and i emailed them to be like ummmm your policy is to pay before the day#would you like to email me the payment details so i can do that? and they were like 'we'll send the driver details soon' ummmm#there isn't much soon left!!!!!!! it's happening tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!#they're probably just not Organised™ in the way i prefer to be. which is objectively fine it's just challenging for me personally.#i do not think it's Bad but!!!!! i've never taken a taxi before <- guy who Is Scared Of Taxis Specifically but has to face#their fears because they're disabled and have no other choice.#worst case i am down the money and no-one arrives to take me home i guess :P but it'll be afternoon AND my family are there so#in theory i could just get a lift home even though that would mess up other people's plans sooooo bad. UNLESS they have already drunk uhhhh#in which case i guess i'd just ask for help calling a taxi to the place. plany of people who can do such things easily (unlike me)#it'll be fine!!! i can ask my siblings if need be bc they are so niceys and will not get mad at me for being autistic o7#My other worry is being too hot and being in a rush getting ready bc i have to eat a proper meal due to the symptoms syndromes#and we are leaving when my lunch usually is so that's a whole thing. which ALSO doesn't matter and I can do! it's just hard!#where is that post that's like 'managed mental illness can look like absence of mental illness 😅'. NOT saying being autistic is mental#illness i am saying that the specific extreme anxiety i have is for me linked to autistic issues with 'the unknown' and boy. does this#social situation also have a lot of unknown.#BUT I CAN DO IT! and dare i say even have a nice time!!!!! it's just i get so so scared beforehand but i will not express it in a way that#impacts or inconveniences anyone else!!! i can handle it by myself at my house and it'll be fine
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i know i don’t have the intensity of a diagnosable mental illness that causes breaks with reality on a regular basis but like. i’ve forgotten who i was for no reason. i’ve gotten out of the car after a normal drive home and realized that i don’t know where or who i am or how to get into the house or what a sofa is. more than once i’ve blacked out while driving and “woken up” in a completely unfamiliar part of town with no memory of how i got there. all of that was terrifying. so it’s like. thinking about michael going deeper and deeper into the distortion scared out of his mind and losing himself bit by bit until he was nothing except the evil he thought he was sent in to destroy makes me feel. extremely sad.
but then at the same time he was strong enough - he stayed himself enough - to ensure that the distortion, while it was using his body, was always still a little bit him. it never escaped who he was - a scared, uncertain person who nevertheless cared so deeply about his friend and his mentor that the distortion couldn't help but emphasize it, even when it wants to call him pointless and disposable - so that the distortion was kind to sasha, and helped tim and martin, and even sort of looked out for jon. which makes me kind of stupidly proud of him.
#two things about michael remained: he was scared and he was kind#and in the end (exactly like jon) he just didn’t want to be a mystery. he wanted someone to know.#RATTLING THE BARS OF MY ENCLOSURE. HE WANTED TO BE KNOWN HE WANTED SOMEONE TO CARE#aster liveblogs the archive show#but yeah uhhhhhh 101 has never like set me off before but it did kind of. put me in that headspace again#which was……..you know. less than fun#aster chat#these were isolated incidents not regularly occurring. like i said im not saying it’s So Bad#just! you know. it’s less than fun ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#im sure people with more severe symptoms/illnesses have a lot more intelligent and interesting things to say about it
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Like, Killcode in execution wasn't too scary which is understandable bc of the nature of the show n such but like. Could u imagine??? The idea of Killcode at the start was basically "your biggest flaw has turned into its own being and it's hungry." It's hungry and it's scratching and it wants out and it will do anything to get that freedom. It will rip at you from the inside out if need be and there is nothing you can do about it.
Like maybe I've been looping "that unwanted animal" too much but I think that + a more scary and feral KC could be sooooo fascinating. I just want Sun to look at Moon in the eyes and instead of seeing his brother, he sees nothing but red eyes and white pupils that are looking at him with a primordial hunger.
#xero says things#IF.... THAT MAKES ANY SENSE????#kc—despite being /thee/ killcode—doesnt have very a lot of... kill code-y symptoms#Bloodmoon was the much more violent and brutal of the two#which as kinda always bugged me LOL#So this is kinda just like... what if KC truly reflected what makes it the /kill/ code?#What if was just as bad—if not worse—about its urges than Bloodmoon?#What if it couldnt be reasoned with? What if it spoke in nothing but snarls and growls?#What if it was a fuckinf beast..........#tsams#killcode#xero thoughts and rambles
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Something something autism and things sounded better in my head
Something something schizospec and things sometimes sound worse in my head, but almost always sound even worse outside my head?
Much love to all neurodivergents out there who feel wrong out there for daring to be yourself
#autistic self-awareness#schizospec problems#SchizAuSpec#been havin rambling attacks online today#autistic#autism#autism awareness#actually autistic#just realized the last sentence maybe doesn't even make sense#actually schizospec#comorbid conditions#comorbidities#schizospec comorbidities#it's hard typing out all my big-ass words#of which i always seem to be inflicting the task of expressing outwardly on my fingers#it's so dang hard typing out all the big-ass finnicky words my brain always seems to be relentlessly tasking my woefully inadequate fingers#with expressing#a heavy cross to carry for (hopefully) enacting greater good; helping get some actually frickin truly progressive thinking going out there#here's hoping my “way with words” which often to me feels more like a hindrance honestly cos I can't access support#will one day finally lead to some better understanding of our struggles#and you know while i speak too many words; i find the writing of those on the other end of things - poverty of speech i think they call it#(clinically at least)#anyways - those of y'all who experience difficulties with making full sentences#i can understand y'all a lot better than I can most neurotypicals lol#and- not to get all gushy- but i think you're awesome and i will always be an ally to those at different levels of speech ability/capacity#than me; and more broadly those with different experiences of schizospec than me#i do not really wish to speak over anyone - ideally i would like a harmony of all our varied voices fighting to be heard/for change together#sorry to get sappy on main and I'm sorry if it was too many words but it is one of those kinds of days w the disorganized symptoms#still in recovery from Sunday I think (it's Tuesday now • nearly noon)#neurodivergent
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Once again no crafts to update, but here’s those fish I drew yesterday!
#the person behind the yarn#fish#sometimes I draw a new thing and it feels like I’ve unlocked a new skill#like I’ll get a pop up that says unlocked: you can now draw billowing and spots. congratulations!#or something? idk I don’t play many video games so idk how the achievements are worded lol#I am on new meds for my Symptoms Disease and they are helping a lot but there’s always an adjustment period#because when my body starts functioning better than usual my executive function kinda spins out for a while?#it’s getting better! but crafting has been slow#I also got some blood test results back! I test positive for autoimmune antibodies#which is one of the first quantitative blood test results I’ve had EVER in over a decade#I’m trying not to get too excited before I talk to a doc#but it’s actually four different blood test results that are abnormal this time and all four point toward autoimmune#…plus several more that point to me being a little bit anemic
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