#where to do you belong

[1introvertedsage]

[bixels]

As gen-AI becomes more normalized (Chappell Roan encouraging it, grifters on the rise, young artists using it), I wanna express how I will never turn to it because it fundamentally bores me to my core. There is no reason for me to want to use gen-AI because I will never want to give up my autonomy in creating art. I never want to become reliant on an inhuman object for expression, least of all if that object is created and controlled by tech companies. I draw not because I want a drawing but because I love the process of drawing. So even in a future where everyone’s accepted it, I’m never gonna sway on this.

[fumifooms]

I don’t like minimizing the importance and gravity of Laios and Toshiro’s fight into just being a childish squabble, even if to a degree it is framed that way, because to both of them it has a lot of personal significance and emotional weight and runs very deep to their characters… The fight isn’t nothing it’s a LOT, they made up but it’s not something easy to express and to get over for either of them which makes it all the more meaningful! I’m on both sides but there very much are sides, there’s no "they’re both having a ball, Toshiro and Laios hand in hand yay" side to the fight, that comes after

The fight with Toshiro WAS very scary to Laios, almost existentially so, but it’s moreso the "I thought I’d made a friend!!" bit and my god. My god actually

Like it’s not "just" about oh his friend liking him less than he thought, THAT IS SO MUCH. It’s a bond he thought he had being a lie it’s all the time and moments spent together either being a lie from his perspective or marred now looking back. It’s not only being upset at Toshiro for lying but upset at himself that he’s so easy to fool, it’s being upset that there’s something so wrong with you that you can’t even tell if your "close buddy" even actually likes you or not, it’s like. Holding my head. He can’t trust his own vision of events that happened do you see. There’s always this film of distrust that it could be a lie that should be there when he interacts with people there’s always this sense of cloak and dagger to expect backstabs out of nowhere because you CAN’T see it coming you CAN’T you CAN’T there’s something about you which makes it impossible so you CAN’T-

He’s so scared of not being able to read people. He knows it’s a weak spot he has, he’s always known. All of these bits are centered around social expectations and betrayals, the assumption that he doesn’t belong either in society or with other humans.

And Laios’ level of awareness is actually sort of complex to analyze, but it’s there, there’s how out of him and Falin he was the one sensitive to the ~aura of hatred~ he felt from the townspeople, there’s of course his nightmares whispering to him about the mocking looks, and how yeah actually he realizes that his gold stripper coworker was taking advantage of him. There’s of course the Winged Lion speech about his trauma and how he fundamentally mistrusts/dislikes humans to some deep seated degree, this distrust that he still keeps under control always. There’s how pre-canon he often wanted to suggest eating monsters but never worked up the courage to bring it up with the others. There’s how he gets across as stoic when he isn’t being enthusiastic…… We don’t know how aware and wary he is exactly in the moment but we do know he has some anxiety around social stuff, and looking back he does notice and aughh augh, the sense you have to hide yourself to not get hurt and be on your guard and shit and.

When you don’t know what to look out for and when to look out for it, the general ‘common sense’ of not always trusting people or noticing when someone’s messing with you becomes hypervigilance in social settings

"Man they really know what you hate huh." Being socially unaware literally plagues him, he knows, he knows it so well.

It’s so quick that it’s almost hard to digest how literal and blatant Laios summoning his monster to crush all the people who’ve hurt him is. His literal go-to coping mechanism for comfort in his literal monster-induced emotionally intense nightmares, saving him by taking away the upsetting element (the humans)

"Monsters are his coping fantasy, where they can whisk him away from humanity, all the hurt it’s caused him and its arbitrary rules" with the subtlety of a brick. Monsters are his comfort safe zone "because they kill humans" yes but no it’s because he pits them as the guardians against humans who to him are in the role of the agressors. To him they represent freedom from the shackles of what it means to be part of humanity, a fundamentally social species

[bikananjarrus]

thinking about how hera lost her brother and her mother to two different wars, and had a father who didn't believe in her and couldn't see past his own vision of the fight to give her the time of day, so she left her home and remaining family behind. thinking about how chopper crashed, went down with his pilot over a warzone, and would have definitely been sent to the scrap pile if hera hadn't saved him, but he still had to wake up to find out that his pilot was dead. thinking about how, after surviving order 66, kanan bounced around from place to place, never letting himself stay too long or get close to anyone because it could cost him his life if anyone found out who he was, and how lonely that would've been to have to bury his past like that. thinking about zeb, another survivor of genocide, thought he was the only one of his people left, truly all alone in the big wide galaxy, and feeling like it was partially his fault because he couldn't save more of his people. thinking about sabine who was young and made an ambitious, devastating mistake that she tried to fix, but her family and clan disowned her anyway, and when she tried to find a new group to belong to, they left her for dead all alone. thinking about ezra, whose parents were taken away from him at age 7 and the person his parents trusted to look out for him if something happened also abandoned him, so he was left orphaned and alone and had to figure out how to survive all on his own, scared to ever get close to anyone because what if they left him too?

just thinking about how every single member of the ghost crew was alone until they found each other. thinking about how hera started that all by first saving chopper and then by giving herself a new home (the ghost), and in turn, giving every member of the ghost crew a new home and a family they could rely on to never abandon them.

[lesiasmadness]

Professor Slayton over here

Shows up to a murderer reveal with a cup of tea

sits with his legs crossed watching the cops accuse a person he KNOWS is innocent (and is my favourite NPC how dare)

waiting for his moment

Luke, hold my tea

[lizardkingeliot]

happy fangs in his neck friday to those who celebrate

[kaiserouo]

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don't know what these white balls do but they sure look cool

[mayloony]

“ You need protection with pizazz!

And helping hands that also jazz! “

[kaddyssammlung]

[almondpiglet]

(wips) who here likes serijose or joserei!!! *exactly three ppl in the crowd cheer*

[lastoneout]

people getting upset at the idea that the way to stop your cat from killing wild animals is to keep them inside is the progressive version of pro-life assholes getting mad when you point out the real way to lower abortion rates is to give people comprehensive sex ed and easy access to birth control

you have no idea how many leftist environmentalist vegan types I know who have a cat and let it outside and get very fucking upset if you point out that they're being hypocritical and that keeping their cat inside will do more good for the environment faster and sooner than giving up meat or single use plastics, and also if they care so much about animal welfare maybe they should recognize that letting their cat outside is actively harming it and vastly increasing the chances of it getting sick, injured, and/or dying young

I cannot fathom the level denial it takes to get people to think like this but it's genuinely fucking infuriating and makes me want to tear apart a brick wall with my bare hands

[zehl0w]

Zenitsu agatsuma has got to be the biggest egg I have ever seen in my entire life

[kj-beastboy]

Pregnancy as a kink makes me uncomfortable so man am I glad your pregg Flug stuff is explicitly not kink oriented!

yeah I... don't wanna judge anyone... but it's more than that, it's downright terrifying to me. Blame my hormones bc I'm expecting irl but wow... I'm very sensitive and it feels dehumanizing. but ig that is kinda the point of the kink(?)

it's so common in fandoms!

I'm completely vanilla anyway tho, so not surprising.

I've tried to pretend for a super long time that I'm into kink, but most of them are off putting and I consider them intrusive thoughts, not fantasies. I'm kinda fluctuating between sex-repulsed and neutral (aroace) even fictional... ig kink just isn't for me. I tried so hard to get over it. I know some people in my asks/requests are gonna be disappointed but I'm sorry💔

I'm slightly ashamed of how boring I am and I have serious trouble connecting to anyone in fandoms due to this actually🤕 feel like the most NT autistic person ever.

anyway here's a doodle!

[crossdressingdeath]

The thing is at this point seeing people talking like Lucanis hates being a Crow and wants out is an easy way to learn that they do not in fact understand Lucanis as a character. There is nothing to suggest that Lucanis is unhappy as a Crow. "The training was torture and he resented Caterina for it for a long time" and "he doesn't like being a Crow" are not the same thing. "He's hesitant at the idea of being First Talon" and "he doesn't like being a Crow" are not the same thing. Lucanis likes being a Crow. Is it the path he would've chosen for himself if he hadn't been born into it? Maybe not (but "this isn't where they would've ended up if their life was different" applies to most of the characters in this series so it's not really valid evidence re the question of whether or not he's happy; if you're going to claim that Lucanis clearly hates being a Crow just because he didn't get a choice you'd better also be claiming that Alistair hates being a Warden, and I don't think I need to say that that's not the case). Does he wish the training had been easier to bear? Maybe so (and he's for sure going to be a reformer). I think people miss that while he does acknowledge the Crows' flaws—especially with de Riva, he really is much more willing to raise the subject with a fellow Crow—he never once expresses any dissatisfaction with being a Crow beyond him not being entirely comfortable with the idea of being named First Talon. I assure you he doesn't want to be Rook's house husband! He's gonna go back to the Crows post-game! That's what he wants! And people ignoring that because they can't handle the idea that he can like cooking and knitting and caring for the people he loves and also genuinely enjoy being a professional assassin is a real shame, because they're ignoring one of the most fascinating parts of his character.

[magpie-trove]

Actually I don’t think you are actually fr an adult author if you can’t write something without a s*x scene in it

[eddiewithcat]

cannot explain but

did anyone else get super “just make sure that you’re following your heart, not christopher’s okay?” vibes

…from maddie’s “and if there is something you need to tell eddie.. you will. just, in your own time” ?????

because they hold the same amount of weight for entirely different reasons, yet they both talk about the confusion of feelings…