#where the fuck is her money going???

[emerald-oceans]

This is shitty of me but I’m becoming resentful of my dad. Every month I have to loan him money to pay bills and the rent since he’s been unemployed since February. His wife doesn’t help out with any of the money but they’ll go out to eat and to the movies together and use some of the money I’m lending him.

I’m working my ass off trying to save up some money and I feel like so much of it I don’t get to keep anymore. It’s frustrating because I had a goal I was trying to make by the end of the year and now I’m going to be several thousand short no matter how much overtime I work this December.

I’m pissed and I feel bad for feeling this way.

[non-un-topo]

POV: You're a tavern owner who just turned away a raccoon and an owl

[nordfjording]

Doing the biannual round of checking in on and managing my retirement and high interest savings accounts ($147 dollars)

[pilonciillo]

lol didn’t think someone giving money would give me anxiety

[pop-punklouis]

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[freakinator]

If you don’t mind, I’m gonna yap for a second.. I think another problem with Kab is how sudden the turn around was. Like in the first convo where Kab was acting “evil”, Zam fought back with the argument that she’s wasn’t really evil at all and I think he did believe that at least a little. And if Kab slowly began to turn her path around then he would be a bit more trusting cause he would have SEEN her actual emotional growth but the turn around was so fast, it feels like there was no emotional growth at all and that Kab is still the same as before, cause she basically is. She still wants Mane dead no matter the cost and she’s still, intentionally or not, trying to manipulate Zam, but she wants to be treated as if she’s had that whole long term emotional growth

yeah ii think this is where her majority experience with short-term smps really bit her in the ass, i think there are two main directions that other ppl take it tho: 1. is as what you speculate in that some ppl think that she hasnt had genuine growth and hasnt changed at all and 2. that she genuinely changes too quickly and is therefore unreliable regardless of if shes being honest or not

i think the reason zam was so receptive to her in silent scream was cause this has been a recurrent plot point for a couple streams now, kab trespassing zams base to yap while zam tries to decipher her wants and motivations until eventually she just let it all out and in that instance i think he did genuinely believed that she changed even if it was slowly/just a little bit

....but then die for you happened lol

ssee the thing about kab is that shes shes all-or-nothing, going from one extreme to the next after just a little bit of change in character which can be jarring to some ppl to say the least (unless you thought she was lying and therefore any character development shouldnt be believed i suppose) but is something that was a great asset in shorter and arena-based smps where you had to get as much advantage against your opponent as possible without having to worry about the long-term consequences of these actions ie them not trusting you while still having to interact often in mundane ways even after messing with them. while she Can be swayed this only really works with things she was already unsure of which while a great motivator and trait to keep her on track with her goals (again another great trait for short-term smps), can be really jarring and distressing for other ppl if the things she was absolutely sure about goes against their own perspective like for example her thinking that derapchu killing her constitutes zam getting payback for her as the protector of the server (The protector, not A protector like zam insists, The protector of the server)

i think shes far too used to the fast-paced instant acceptance of changed personality in arena smps that is a natural consequence of them being short-term and having a revolving door of members and teams which is why she expects ppl to accept her growth and efforts so quickly even if realistically nobody would hand over their trust that easily esp after essentially being harassed in their own home multiple times, like even in normal smps where theres a baseline amount of trust ppl still wouldnt trust you after doing that, what more in a server like lifesteal where general trust is low basically all the time?

[masquenoire]

Barring any new asks, I think that's the last of those 'icons only' memes and it was very fun doing them all! Thank you so much for sending them in everyone, I'm feeling more confident about activity again and will hopefully be inspired to write a bit more often from now on providing schedule eases up sometime soon!

[rotzaprachim]

meta incoming but one of the most fascinating themes of rogue one and andor to me is the idea that a parent’s (individualist) love of their child might not be enough to save them from the (structural) violence of the world, so it’s fascinating how fandom managed to sail right past that in a bunch of places

[svampira]

friendship ending vacations real cause we didnt even fight i just came home and realised i do naut like this bitch

[damndude69]

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[theclearblue]

Car-less. Laptop-less. Bitch-less. I have nothing left to my name

[lesbiansanemi]

Speaking of my roommate this bitch stresses me tf out cuz she’s finally like “okay you’re moving I gotta make a plan” except her…. Plan…… is driving across the country…… and living in LA………

[exopelagic]

WHY DID NOBODY TELL ME BURROWS END WASNT FREE

[cuntwrap--supreme]

Dog has a swollen lymph node. Just one for now. Which means her cancer is getting worse already. The longer this goes on, the more detached I feel from reality.