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I have thoughts about Anakin. I'm not going to go in depth, other people have and I don't have time.
What if he was suspectable to the dark side, to Palpatine because everything in the temple was new and confusing, but the idea of ownership and subjugation was familiar? All those little whispers and dark intentions were exactly what he was used to, what he thought the universe was always meant to be. After growing up a slave, I think the Dark felt like truth and Light felt like a lie, or a pretense at best. He was lost and without his mother for the first time in his life, and the light felt distant, meant for other people.
Did control ever stop feeling like home? It was all he'd known, wouldn't hints of it be more comfortable and real than the absence?
#star wars#anakin skywalker#palpatine#dark#light#there's something about scars that aches to open them#if only the admittance they are there#when removed from home#you cling to the remnants fiercely#and now Anakin crushes everything he grasps
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Seeing so many people lump Bad into the category of "He mistreats Foolish! He doesn't care about him at all and doesn't trust him!" is incredibly frustrating when you actually SEE them interact outside of Bad messing with Foolish stuff.
Yes, Bad messes with Foolish but they do it to each other. It's a mutual thing and never go across any boundaries (if they do they'll back track and undo whatever was done. Like when Bad encouraged others to build inside the dragon, before they left he made sure they undid all the blocks that would affect the look of it from the outside) and as a "thanks for letting me mess with you so much" Bad leaves multiple gifts for Foolish! The platforms at the perfect height and distance to look over the titan, the scavenger hunt for Foolish's 10 stacks of pizzas with a massive reward for him and Leo at the end, making the conduit for Foolish when asked, the beacons at the titan and the backpack with many enchantment books, blocks, exp and upgrades.
The 2 trust each other but are also out to get each other. Bad wouldn't leave Pomme with Foolish if he thought he wasn't trust worthy of watching his daughter. Foolish wouldn't leave the tree in his home Bad and Pomme made if he was genuinely bothered by it (Bad expects it to disappear at some point too, as it's Foolish's home). Foolish and Bad wouldn't have followed Jaiden together, the 2 relying on each other to make sure they didn't lose her and stayed invisible (even if they did argue 99% of the time). When in the dungeon Foolish wouldn't have been calling out to Bad, asking if he was okay as Bad was being swarmed by mobs.
If Foolish was actually trapped in the nether, Bad would have tried to help him get out. If Bad truly didn't trust Foolish, he wouldn't hang out with him at all or tell him things, or even give him access to his home. He wouldn't have stuck up for Foolish against Max when they were talking about kicking Foolish out (even if he did play into it too, but that's how they are with each other. Foolish told Max Bad did a survey for the federation for the exact same reason, to make the other look bad)
Others might not trust Foolish or might mistreat him, Bad however does trust Foolish. And Foolish trusts Bad. Bad knows Foolish's limits and while might push them, he knows where to stop. They can predict each other's actions and motivations incredibly well. They respect each other and trust each other but show it differently to everyone else, in a way no one else understands because they've been friends for that long.
They both trust each other with their kids. They know the other is a great parent as much as they might say otherwise.
So no, Bad should not be lumped in with everyone else who doesn't trust Foolish or mistreats him. Because he doesn't. He trusts Foolish more than anyone and they treat each other the exact same way, Bad just having more free time to mess with Foolish.
#qsmp#qsmp badboyhalo#qsmp foolish#qsmp ramble#It's frustrating when you know Bad does trust Foolish#They both know it too#It's not a secret or anything#They prove it time and time again that how they act towards each other isn't serious at all#Bad would have removed Foolish from entering his home if it was truly a case of “Bad doesn't trust Foolish” or something#Especially after last night's prank around his home
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Haven't found this here yet, so I wanted to share it with some links for education.
Found it from-
Twitter post by OmarSShakir
IG Post by visualizing_palestine
Created by-
AAANY (Arab American Association of New York)
Gaza Is Palestine
#2023#Important#Palestine#Gaza#free palestine#this is genocide#*EDIT it is now November 20 so these numbers are sadly small in comparison to the actual losses#*Please don't stop talking about Gaza and Palestine! They are being forcibly removed from their homes#*Or just brutally attacked and murdered when not removed#*and I say 'removed' but it's really the only word I can think of besides 'fucking bombed and harassed and terrorized into fleeing'#*BUT don't stop talking about them! Israel is commiting genocide and the world powers are ALLOWING it#*This has been going on for 75 years! It must end now!#*Also keep doing your own research - DO NOT rely on western media or even large organizations for both sides#*This is a genocide built on greed and racism and Israel has lots of money and political ties to buy their 'truth' to be published
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devoting your entire adult life to getting your brother back is crazy work when you remember having a brother is 80% being annoyed by the only person who understands you
#gravity falls#stan pines#ford pines#i love the elder pines twins listen id do the same exact thing for my brother#in fact we were separated for some time after i graduated HS and was forcibly removed from the home at 17 by our parental unit lol#and when we reunited it was relieving but also like oh yeah this is The Guy Who Can Piss Me Off#its just silly funny to think about
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Promotional for Tate's company in my interp of A Better World AU.
FULL TEXT BENEATH THE CUT‼️‼️
God, I love exploring what he can do if he hadn't suffered through his father abandoning them and then YEARS of caretaker burnout as he tried in vain to heal his dad. What if he hadn't learned to fear his intellect and skill. What if Appalachia hadn't been cut out of him by being raised in the Bay Area. What if his abilities and cultural identity were both nurtured and encouraged by loving parents and a strong educational support system. What then. 👁️
I think he definitely still has his issues, because public figures often do lol. Fame causes so many problems. But fuck if I don't wanna let this lil scruffy genius out of his mental cage of repression, burnout, and depression. I think he's wild, enthusiastic, and has so much heart and spirit underneath all those layers of bullshit. 30 years of suffering and he is in his 30s, the divergence of the AU puts him on a radically different path from childhood and that makes him a TOTALLY new person.
On the highest peaks in the world, the strongest tethers aren't your rope, but the emotional ties which unite your climbing team and keep you connected to those waiting for you back home. Whether it's by blood or by choice, Tater Higgs McGucket understands the importance of family. Son of revolutionary inventor and co-founder of the Institute of Oddology Fiddleford Hadron McGucket, Tate describes his father as his closest friend, collaborator, and mentor. In collaboration with family friend and other co-founder of the Institute Stanford ("Ford") Pines, the three first designed their renowned supplemental oxygen delivery system after an expedition studying anomalies in the Himalayas.
"Our investigation took us to Camp 1 of Manaslu," Tate described in an exclusive interview with Mountaineering Monthly last week, "And I was shocked by the amount of traffic. This was some of the roughest terrain on the planet, but we saw more people out there than on some of my hiking trips back home in Oregon. . . Ford was our interpreter, and after talking with the locals, we realized that there were all these companies selling tickets to the top — with sherpas puttin' themselves on the line just to ferry tourists to the summit."
The influx of inexperienced climbers has had disastrous consequences, as Tate witnessed firsthand. "A lot of these people, they're physically and mentally capable of makin' that kinda climb, but maybe they don't follow best practice. You can summit without any oxygen, if ya stop and acclimatize along the way. But that takes a while, so it can be really temptin' to ignore your body and throw an oxygen bandaid at the problem. But then you're puttin' yourself in an emergency situation if it fails. While we were there, one of those climbers ran out, and a sherpa had to run more oxygen up there. I told him there was a storm a-comin', but he went up anyway. And we ended up losin' 'em both."
Tate's growing twang was underscored by a nervous bouncing of his leg, and he took a moment to collect himself before resuming the interview.
"Dad and I had a look at these open circuit breathing apparatuses. While they were reliable, we saw they were plum wasteful. Knew we could make somethin' better. There's a growin' culture of risk-takin' 'round them mountains. And maybe we cain't stop the industry that's causin' these problems, but we can at least make it safer for them climbers. 'Cuz at the end of the day, regardless of what ya think about these people? With an accident like that, there’s people left behind that're a-hurtin' somethin' fierce. Partners, friends, kids without parents. I mean, just the thought of losin' my dad like that is enough to break my heart — but that's reality, for both the families of that climber and the sherpa who died tryin' to save him. . . Naw, I reckon we can do better."
That was how the youngest McGucket, who had become a household name in the 1990s for his work in designing personal computers with his father's company, first ventured into the world of alpinism. But what he hadn't expected was to fall in love during the process.
"I always needed nature," he explained, "I get overstimulated awfully easy, and so I go out there to clear my head. Been hikin' and fishin' since I was a kid. . . And so, after workin' with climbers to test this equipment — I saw a lot of them eight-thousanders up close, right? And one day, I just knew I had to see it from the top."
But having become familiar with the dangers involved, Tate knew that preparing himself for such a climb would be no easy task.
Luckily, he found a trainer in Ford's twin brother, Stanley Pines.
“Stanley is a stand-up guy. Real old school. Throws a hell of a punch, catches a hell of a catfish.” Tate said of his mentor, “He’s a fighter. So I knew I needed him, because all it takes is one slip up or act of god for these expeditions to turn life-or-death. And he’s been great. Neither of us knew much about rock climbin’ or mountaineering before all this. But we’ve learned together. And having summited a few eight-thousanders now, I can tell ya, I wouldn’t be here without his help.”
Also aiding in his expeditions were his prototype real-time weather and vital monitoring systems, which have since become standard issue in all McGucket brand protective wear. But Tate is most proud of his high-frequency beacon system, which allows climbers to communicate with their partners and first responders — even from inside perilous crevasses.
"The danger of avalanche or serac collapse is real. There are times when your life just ain’t in your own hands. Our systems allow climbers to communicate when they’re entering or exiting a perilous area, and can send out an SOS. They’re also constantly pinging, so in the event somethin’ does happen, they’ll help your climbing partners or first responders find you.”
But high altitudes aren’t the only place you’ll find the twin peaks of McGucket Mountaineering. Tate’s inventions have seen heavy use by first responders of all stripes, from firefighters to wilderness search and rescue — and he has recently signed a contract to manufacture respirators for medical use.
"At the end of the day, it’s all about making it home safely.” Tate concluded, “You gotta prioritize what matters most. You can do incredible things in this world, but none of it matters if you can’t share them with the people who love you.”
#gravity falls#tate mcgucket#yes i write tate with an accent even though he was raised in oregon in this AU#bc i hc that he probably had a LOT of problems after starting public school (during his dad's initial absence)#autistic overstimulation & shutting down#plus classmates harrassing him asking if hes from beverly hillbillies#and teachers correcting his dialect out of him as improper#in Fiddleford's absence emma may has to be the sole provider and it's just difficult to fully address and prevent that#but in this AU fidds comes home to find his son terribly insecure#believing hes stupid (when he was bright and chrious and already brushing with ALGEBRA when Fidds left) bc “hillbillies are dumb” and he#“forgets how to talk” in school when his classmates get loud#and he sees Tate self correcting his accent and#and fiddleford has been thru this himself personally in college#we know he was holding back bc his accent got thicker as he devolved with the memory gun so#yeah fidds would have homeschooled him 😤 not allowing his son to experience the same fuckin trauma#and so tate recovers his accent in this au whereas my normal verse tate has it forcibly removed#though he knows how to code switch and is trying for this interview#it usually gets thicker with anxiety lol#fuck me forgot the art tag#my art#ramblings
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being a huge fan of tlou but also like. thinking that certain stories are built for certain mediums. like the entire theme of tlou2 is grounded and fresh because it’s a railroad/story video game that still affords you mechanical choices in how you navigate the world. i just don’t have a lot of confidence that presenting that story in a tv show with the minimal adjustments that they did in s1 will be fulfilling or compelling in any comparable way. because with tlou1 some of the like. beauty of that story was simply that it was such an emotive story contained in the medium of video games. and some of that was retained just by hitting similar or expanded emotional beats in the show, like the episodes that expanded on the life of the characters and the realities of that world. but truly so much of tlou2 emotional depth and ‘why does this story matter’ rests in the fact that’s it’s your hands on the controller, continually choosing to go forward in the story and have hope that it will work out in your-as-ellie-or-abby-or-somehow-booth’s favour. and you simply cannot get that in a non-interactive medium like television. like i do think tlou2 is a good story but it’s a good story because of the investment required by the player to keep pressing buttons and keep returning and to feel the adrenaline like responses of high intensity moments and be jarringly shifted into backstories that only increase the frustration. in general i’ve been thinking a lot about cross-medium adaptation and on the one hand i am glad that season 1 makes the story of the last of us more accessible to people who wouldn’t pick up a video game but it’s also like. maybe instead we can destigmatize video games as this inaccessible and dangerous medium a bit more instead of just . implicitly agreeing . like no maybe your mom won’t pick up a video game controller and play the last of us . but maybe you can play the game in the living room. sometimes the mediums that stories are told in aren’t just important but are actually foundational parts of how the information of a story is conveyed and that’s not only okay but is fucking fantastic. we should be happy actually that there are so many ways to collect a bunch of themes and ideas and put them together and hold them out to someone else and say “won’t you consider this with me. won’t you feel these emotions and care about these characters with me.”
#i’ve been thinking about this both for academic and personal reasons#where like. my thesis literally includes discussion of tlou2 and it’s profundity because of the players position as in control but without#real decision making power in the story#and it’s like. you’re the person animating these two ptsd ridden women who subject themselves to be puppets to their#own grief . and there’s something particularly resonant about the fact that you can’t change the Story. you can only play it.#and like . i’ve talked with my mom a lot about the last of us#since i played it the first time and it really just rocked my shit. and i remember walking out my bedroom after i’d finished tlou2#feeling that odd mixture of empty and completely fulfilled by a good story with tears in my eyes#and a few years later when i visited home and had happened to bring my ps4 along with me and i was having a rough time#my mom asked if i’d want to show her tlou. because she knew i loved it and because i’ve told her it has tropes she’d enjoy#but the only games she’ll ever play are point and click because she’s stubborn and some physicality stuff#but like i remember sitting on the couch just. playing this game and it wasn’t the exact same as her playing it herself . but sometimes her#commentary was like it was.#i just. idk man. tlou lover wants to be hyped but seeing the exact same visuals from the game just in tv show format is like#. what’s the point. why are you distilling the themes by removing the active (non)agency of the player and#replacing it with the passive role of ‘watcher’ in a story so emphatically about having an active role in the action#anyway#tagging this#tlou#for blog organization but this isn’t discourse or whatever just me thinkin my thoughts on my blog
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I have to say i rly love when media(webtoons here) show a chara getting attention for their looks and make a point of showing multiple genders, not just the opposite gender, in the crowd admiring them... subtle way of saying lgbt rights...🥰👏👏
(from 3 of my fav webtoons... The Makeup Remover, No Home, When the Third Wheel Strikes Back)
#the makeup remover#no home#when the third wheel strikes back#twsb#tmr#I LOVE ALL THESE WEBTOONS AND HIGHLY REC#feel free to add on more examples from media if u have them <33
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"...my one year anniversary being on testosterone!!! I had a vision of capturing my total gender euphoria [...] My trans and nonbinary body is divine I honor my body as it is now, and as it will be as I continue to become more and more myself..."
#hoping this doesn't get flagged labeled or otherwise restricted. hoping & blowing this whole building up#there Is queerness & an observable butt & such & [what i already know abt the stuff that does get flagged removed etc]#of course if there's a problem & this tag's commentary is irrelevant: the video! full thing!! their voice aaaa!!!#trans people trans people trans people Trans People Trans People Trans People!!!!!!!#asia kate dillon#injection vwv#their scruff their smiling their laughing the appreciatively lingering shots of leg & armpit & stomach hair#my never having heard their voice from this past year. seeing the post with the preview of this realizing it ft. testosterone like Exhale#hearing their voice after a year of hrt crying!!!! weeping!!!! been playing snippets over & over; getting familiar; getting misty; basking#selfies / home video journaling when it's also Theatre Performance Staging Modeling Photography Filmmaking Documenting Envisioning#seeing a not so unrelated like just. little documentation A Day In The Life type clip from '67 by a trans woman; resonating w/this#talking even theoretically abt Her future journey; shots of mannequins ft. the underwear/lingerie she'd like to wear then. wah
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spoilers for manga ch104 and ch106 below the cut
everyone good? okay
let's delve into the whom is secretly related to whom theories.
I suppose we've more or less heard of the Handler aka Sylvia Sherwood is Anya's long lost bio mom (or at least related) theory,
but have you considered:
Jeeves is somehow related to Twilight, who is originally [Redacted]?
I know it was shown in manga that [Redacted] doesn't have any bio siblings in his family, but what if there is a cousin 1 or 2 times removed or a half brother or long lost twin elsewhere?
both have blue eye color (wiki says Jeeves has dark blue, but I can't find a coloured version of Jeeves, so no guarantees yet *shrug*)
both have quick reflexes and combat skills
both are really good cooks (this guy made a gourmet dish in the middle of a forest; and Twilight under-covered as a world-class chef before)
both care a lot for children and are sometimes lenient on them
both have a over-the-top serious female subordinate
even the way they look to the side, or mannerism wise is rather similar *deja vu plays in the background*
look me in the eye and tell me you haven't seen Loid/Twilight make these expressions before
I know some are really wide common ground for people in this story setting (e.g short reaction time and fighting skills from wartimes/occupational needs) and I might well be grasping at straws Endo put in for Foil comparison between the 2, but the similarities are uncanny
#sxf#spy x family#sxf manga#sxf spoilers#similarities similarities#loid forger#agent twilight#Jeeves aka the Desmond's butler#just speculations for now#granted his hair is not blond but at least that makes for the cousin once removed theory more plausible than others#I almost thought Twilight somehow sneaked into the Desmond family when I saw Jeeves#unless it was just to show Daiman has a brand of proper rapport from home which is similar to Loid's brand of caring#which explains why Daiman seems somewhat comfortable around Loid even upon first meeting back in end of s1
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So... when are you going to watch Department S?
(Asking anon because obv you will never guess who this is now! XD)
who is this... how could you know i have Dept S still to watch... what's happening? Surveillance??
#jk#i am currently removed from my physical media collection.. but hoping to fix that#and maybe when i visit home next i will try and marathon it as quickly as i can??
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I always thought is very tricky to draw that wrinkle that goes from the nose and around the mouth and still male it look good, but gosh you nail it in every art, super expressive and pretty. Looking at all your drawings 🔍🕵♀️ to properly appreciate and study it. But wow really in love with your art style is so expressive and pleasing to look at, and the colors are so pretty 👌👌👌👌
i LOVEEE drawing wrinkles!!! it makes faces soso so expressive and i try to add wrinkles to every character i draw whenever i can. and the fact i also love drawing characters smiling (they make me happy, so i want to be able to share my joy to other people by drawing them smiling too!) which of course makes that wrinkle around the nose and mouth more prominent :-)
im not a person that can draw well from memory, i use references excessively even if it doesnt turn out the same way from the reference im copying from in the end 😊
i drew these out real quick but i have no clue how to explain any of these so i just thought about sharing it with you anyways!
call it "cheating" or whatever, but most of the time i even trace over the reference just to have a base i can copy the expression im trying to draw from. i do art for fun and if it makes my process that much easier then. well!
anyhoo, ignore the fact these are all mr lassos... i just love him a whole bunch 💛
#im not saying 'tracing is good!' as a whole. never trace from other people's work and pass it off as your own obviously. i just think you -#can learn a whole bunch of tricks and how to draw specific things if you just Trace Over References#'ohh but youll never Get Good by just tracing though! :/' who cares. i love drawing men being silly and thats enough for me.#Getting Good be damned!#apologies if this doesnt make any damn sense LMAO !! i just got home a couple hours ago and its now 3am zzzz#pn.ask#theres also the matter of me being obsessed with handlebar facial hairs and how it 'removes' the upper lip when im drawing so i use the -#bottom part of the mustache as the line for the mouth itself#ITS THIS WHOLE PROCESS.... IDK!!!! wish i could explain it any better but i am. so bad at writing down my thoughts. why cant i just beam -#them directly into your mind smh#THANK YOU FOR THIS ASK THOUGHHHH i waited till i got home before answering it because i have some stuff i wanted to say
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Found a new restaurant that delivers at 2am and they had a lil' message being supportive of picky eaters in the comment box, so you could ask them to remove stuff from your order. I always ask for no tomatoes bc I hate the texture, and I would have done it either way but it was nice to read that!
Anyway, the food just arrived and they put so many tomato slices in it, so I guess that was a wash.
#personal#they were sliced in small squares all over it too so it's even more inconvenient to remove#at least when they're full slices I can just pick them off#this is not me putting them on blast btw the food was really tasty and I'll probs order from them again#it was just a funny juxtaposition#if this were at home I'd just give them to my fiancé#but we're both at work rn
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Lot's of questions were brought up that night -
#A moment from our AU#the power had gone out due to a murder investigation and everyone was supposed to go home...#misty stayed behind with Chip despite him being locked behind his override bevause she didn't want for him to be lonely...#Tawney played a blind eye and let her stay in his office#Cathal ended up summoning Chip through a broken access point in his coding#he was forced to fix it tho when Brian was notified of strange activity happening in Chip's programming#Misty thinks it's nice Cathal tried removing the override despite his attempts not working#ttcc#toontown corporate clash#toontown#toontown: corporate clash#au#ttcc au#maybe one day ill reupload this in better quality... im not a good photographer lol
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brother was talking to me about how if you almost die from an extreme-temperature-related incident then your body is just forever fucked towards that temperature and that's why i think kiryu and saejima are weak to ice. i dont know why aoki isn't like that too but ignore that statistic everything else tracks.
#snap chats#i already made this post highkey but im making it again cause i didnt know this was an actual real thing ☠️#my brother learned this when he started to work for target. because apparently that's a thing they tell you frame one#'snap how did this topic even come up' i am LITERALLY so glad you asked :) the cold has almost claimed me twice#am i exaggerating Maybe but its my fucked up body temperature now listen#when i was younger i got locked out of my house for like. three hours since i was a latchkey kid#and my dad wasn't supposed to come home with my siblings (from their after school events) for Three Hours#and it had snowed outside and Was Cold Yeah and i couldn't get in cause i forgot my key like a weiner#and yeah. was really cold :) my dad was real cross with me when he found me shivering in the shed LOL#he made me hot cocoa tho so its ok. second incident's just funny No I Talk About It Evvery Other Week#and im p sure i talked bout the first incident too but yeah that time after the con when i was at my sister's#like i cannot stress how cold it was because It Was Late November and the cold still existed#and my sister's heater just. Didnt Work but yeah. i wont go into detail cause i share this story every five seconds#POINT IS i've always had a hard time with the cold- like i'm cold nearly all the time even if the room is 90 degrees#i wont be COLD cold but i'll be colder than i like#anyways can't believe i'm weak to ice this is so sad. i love winter..#aoki isn't weak to ice cause uhhhh /aoki/ didnt almost die in the cold 🥴 masato did 🥴#imagine changing your identity so well that you just remove your past elemental weakness. fucked up.#alright bye
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random hc's about cipher + her accent
She *is* an American citizen despite her very obvious London accent. She was born in New York while her father was under the employment of V0ught in their R&D department ( hence why/how she got V'd up as a baby ). Rog moved the family back to London shortly after her first birthday to help set up a satellite lab there ( they are V0ught International, after all ). She has dual citizenship, but V0ught obviously doesn't want to acknowledge the British one at all.
Also re: her accent, there was a real push and a lot of pressure put on her while she was attending g0dolkin to lose the accent completely so by the time she was an upper classmen and being considered for the se.ven it couldn't be held against her. V0ught brough in vocal and linguistic coaches and everything. While she did learn to tamp it down, she doesn't make any real effort to hide it. TBH she hates how she sounds without it, and at this point, what are they going to do about it? It would be too weird for her to suddenly not have it now.
Re: her accent part 3, she makes a point to lean into it an makes it even more pronounced around an absolute prat like Fi.recracker for shits and giggles.
#she'll go full on eliza d00little / my fair lady just for the reaction#i'll tag this properly when i get home but i just needed to remove it from my brain#meta tbt.
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Path Choice: Hunt
||Long overdue thoughts regarding how DH obtains his paths and what it means to him. I did want to like write a drabble about it, but now have this short summary of my thoughts.
The Hunt
Initially, Dan Heng followed The Hunt because he feels like he should. Ever since he was born, he was educated of Dan Feng life and crimes (or more like drilled it into his head). Because he is Dan Feng reincarnation, Dan Heng had to bear his punishment.
By following the Path of the Hunt, the Reignbow Arbitor, Dan Heng feels that "he" (Dan Feng) can find redemption- forgiveness for his sins. That way, Dan Heng won't be haunted by that man past anymore.
There is some idea that Dan Heng met Lan in a dream before he was sentenced to banishment. Unable to recognize the vast space around him, he sees a shooting star moving too fast for his eyes to follow: Beautiful but terrifying. All he hears, as arrows of light descends toward him, are along the lines of: "A Scion of Permanence? The Azure Dragon who attempted to drag the Stars into the ancient sea. Very well. If you seek to redeem your crimes, then take my arrows and vow to annihilate all of Yaoshi spawns in your path."
Then Dan Heng wakes up, confused about his dream. He had no time to decipher it when he's escorted out of the Luofu; exiled. The first signs of Lan blessing are subtle:
The first signs of wind gathering in the palm of his hand (a gift to hide the waters running down his veins)
The confidence he feels unflinching in the face of danger as he wields his spear.
The whispers in the back of his mind (Dan Feng? Lan? Who?) that guides him how to keep his footsteps quiet, to find weaknesses against his opponents, and know when to retreat/fight.
But upon his first meeting with Blade as they clashed, Dan Heng realizes the impact of Lan blessings. The single-minded focus he had, his defenses shifting to pure offensive, and the aggressiveness in his strikes he never had before all because of Blade as his enemy. The fury and hate that tastes like bile in his throat does not belong to him.
It belongs to Lan, and it is Lan that controls him at this moment.
Dan Heng hates it. He hates it even more when he feels something else fighting within him- Permanence, Dan Feng maybe. Struggling to keep Lan power at bay, forcing Dan Heng to stagger in his movements and slow (barely avoiding the lethal strikes of Blade).
Oh, Dan Heng is sick to his core that he has no control at the moment. He hates the feeling that he is never free, even in his own body he has no autonomy.
The first time he stabs Blade in the heart, Dan Heng finally feels like himself. He throws up, the whispers in the back of his mind slowly fading. He believes it was Lan at the moment, but the many times after that...
Dan Heng only slayed Blade if the situation is necessary, and it was within his own choice. In a way, he feels like Lan is watching nearby and mocking him.
The thing is, an Aeon's blessing is also a curse for Dan Heng, he was unaware at the time that the beast he killed many times is the same man his previous incarnation, Dan Feng, dearly loves.
And remember, Lan only requirement for Dan Heng in exchange for his blessings (and allowing him to follow his path) is simple: Annihilate Yaoshi spawns in his path. :)))
Inspired by @everlastiingiimmortals and their amazing Jing Yuan Erudition Path HC's. >:333
#the guard of the express (dan heng)#lotus moon blooming from mud (il dan heng)#jade personal headcanons#||I will do Destruction Path later#||This is a hot mess. I was suppose to do a decent summary.#||I will go back and edit this later#||Remove some tidbits here and there that don't make sense#||I am sleepy#||Willow I still love your Jing Yuan HC's of how he got Nous attention and the impact it had on his life...In all the bad ways. :DDD#||This is long overdue zzzzz#||I also need to decide Dan Feng Path too#||Hints of XingYue#||Okay I was going to add that Dan Heng does love the Luofu despite the shit that happens to him but he considers teh Astral Express#||His home now#||As I wrote the “Follow teh Hunt as a path to redemption” thing#||I really went ahead and be like hehe punishment for Dan Feng where Dan Heng ends up taking that punishment too#||Note Dan Heng absolutely feels like shit because he's not sure if he's in control or something else is which#||adds to his fear when he starts to come to terms that he cannot escape Dan Feng past; that he won' be himself anymore but someone else#||OKay I shut up here now before the tags are filled with more rambles
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