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weinersnarf · 3 months ago

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Yorha android Miku, aka 39B

This drawing is the singular reason I have failed inktober. HOW could I concentrate on anything but this?? She has consumed me I fear

(Yes her sword is a leek version of Virtuous Contract. YES she is standing on a pile of leeks. YES I felt the leeks were too important to only mention in the tags.)

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 2 months ago

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Burning Rotten Bridges

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #mianmian #nie mingjue #jin guangyao #JGY is nothing but outwardly calm and carrying on his duties as the chair for the meeting #but in that small pause after Nie Mingjue commemorates Mianmian for leaving...you can feel the tension.#Because Nie Mingjue comes from a place of privilege. He's always been in a position where his legitimacy and political standing-#-were never challenged. He didn't have to fight for respect. He was born into this world respected.#For people like Mianmian and JGY who clawed their way up from the bottom...this is a huge deal.#Truth be told I have a lot of things to say about what it means and feels to be in a position where leaving is messy.#There are times where the situation is bad but to leave means that those years of your life will have been for nothing.#That all the other suffering incurred will be fruitless. So you just *keep going*. Because it *has* to be worth it.#Because going back to what you were before is even more terrifying than the hell you are boiling in.#My concrete example for this is post-grad academia.#Because that cohort will have spent over a decade pursuing a goal and leaving means...well...it means throwing away those years.#It means losing (likely nearly all) your connections. It means going into debt you'll never pay off.#It means putting up with some pretty heinous abuse from your supervisor because what are you suppose to do? Leave?#Leaving is for those with the privilege to have options.#And even if you do have options...#Ultimately we would rather love the pain we know than risk the unknown. Hoping it's worth it one day.#With that mindset established; never say JGY should have just left like Mianmian. He couldn't. This was what he dedicated his life to.#He never had the option. Even if it seemed like he did - no he did not. He never conceived this ending ever happening for himself.

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triaelf9 · 4 months ago

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"how do you enjoy *insert fandom here* I hear they're the worst"

Find the ppl who enjoy the thing you like the way you do. Ignore, mute or block the ppl who don't.

Ta-Da~

#literally just unfollowed someone posting petty snark about choices ppl made in game #their good taste in fanart isn't worth their superiority complex that THEY made BETTER CHOICES or whatever #been doing this since I was in Sailor Moon way back when #It helps a ton for Dragon age as well #and a MILLION PERCENT what I do for CR lol #I just thought adding the veil here was funny #b/c you do lose some of the magic #but at least your life isn't MISERABLE #No fandom is better than being among bad fandom TRUST me #and much like me in my own fandom space this probably will give me and 5 other ppl a chuckle XD

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why-the-heck-not · 2 months ago

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me, a responsible being, working on the coding project as I should vs. me, a dysfunctional shithead, getting distracted by reading about brains (once aGAIN damnit (it's my favorite "I need to study my field but bc I should do that it's an impossible unthinkable feat now, so I'm reading about something else to fool my brain I'm still being productive"-topic))

#but after my thesis me & brains have been on a break bc got tired reading abt them during that (bc I had a topic that sorta allowed me to #sidetrack to brain stuff also) but seems I'm over the brain overload now #yay? i guess #also no one who actually studies medicine/brains/etc. yell at me abt wikipedia and like ''why are u studying that like that''#I'm just going through the wikipedia & reading article abstracts path; nothing serious #also my procrastination has reached inhuman levels like it's a full-time job now #bc I have like a chill week's worth of work to do and then I've done the courses for my bachelor's degree #but sending in that ''heyy i'm done with the courses let me graduate''-thing fills me up with sO MUCH anxiety & dread I'm working so slow #now (even tho couldn't send that in for like a month bc gotta first wait the courses to be graded and stuff so in actuality I should #not be slowing down even a bit bc I need to finally be done with this damn degree asap; gotta move on and should've ages ago (it's actually #super bad how late I'm with it (1.5 mf years jesus christ; I'm not even like a little bit proud abt getting a degree anymore like I'm sorta #just embarrassed if I have to tell ppl like ''yea I graduated'' bc dude ?? only now?? u were supposed to be done with that 1.5year #ago what have u been doing (fuck if I know) so I'm keeping it like ''if anyone asks'' basis)))#(the tags and parantheses started a life of their own lol sorry abt that)#studyblr #studyspo #bookblr #booklr #study #november 2024 #2024

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claraoswalds · 8 months ago

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This is a brand new science for me, and I love it. The language of luck. 'Cause what is a coincidence but a form of accident? Two things bumping together unexpectedly. Like you and me.

#dwedit #doctor who #usertennant #userteri #userveronika #miatendos #userdiana #usertreena #ruby sunday #fifteenth doctor #maestro #*#originally this was just going to be ruby + snow and then it devolved from there #memories changing... being brought into the present..... some connection to the ancient one. luck coincidences connections.#the doctor describes the legion as a 'pantheon'; a group of gods. and so far they're all personifications #the toymaker is 'a living game'; maestro is 'the essence of music itself'; henry arbinger = harbinger and acts as prelude to the gods #then 'the one who waits' is perhaps... time? death?#and 'the oldest one'... that could mean a lot of things #my first thought was that the oldest one would be death since the finale is called 'the empire of death'. alternatively: life.#but if you connect it back to ruby: luck coincidences connections. so far that's been her whole thing. so maybe something related to that #then again we're only on ep 2 of 8 so... anyway. idk what any of this means but. thinking thoughts!!!#worth noting: if the snow is a warning it starts snowing in the tardis during the scan. it reveals her genetic id/species/age #but not her nucleotide composition. whatever tf that is. and it only gets to 75% complete before it pans away. but it does finish scanning #and in canon 6+ months pass between the end of ep 1 and the beginning of ep 2 so... presumably the doctor has SEEN those results. fwiw.

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moeblob · 3 months ago

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I love them! So much!

#detroit become human #kara ax400 #luther tr400 #i love them so much and have something planned for luther in the hes a 10 but series #i may have spent a lot more time on this than i planned (aka two! doodles!)#but you know what 100% worth it i love them and i love him supporting womens wrongs and and #i got so emotional the first time i saw his status updated to family im like crying over this family #also kara having the ability to not only die in almost all her chapters but also kill in almost all her chapters #like girl please i love you and i love that you are willing to be rational and not let luther kill a guy returning a glove #but also you are unhinged and i love you there is no downside to kara i love her #also she gets to not only be a blonde menace but she rocks brown and black and white hair??#truly a lady who can do anything is2g #this suggestion added a year to my life cause it was technically the first one received #even though its the second i drew - i got it first

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ohitslen · 7 months ago

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Tending wounds.

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triglycercule · 17 days ago

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horrortale waterfall game broke me sorry (hey just like horror!)

#say it with me: average triglycercule art if i locked in #THERES NO FUCKING ART OF THIS CHAPTER YET IS EVERYONE JUST SLEEPING OR SOMETHING!!!!! WHAT!!!!!!!!!#all the blue's supposed to be the light from the core after horror's eye was used to reactivate it btw #and (this was unintentional but anyways) the purpleish tone horror's clothes have is because he said that to aliza in the game #ohhhh my goddddddd....... how much is your life worth......... its worth so much but treated like its nothing #ACTUALLY not EVEN horror's life. just his body. screw the personhood in the first place #hey horror looks awfully similar to another black eyed and mouthed sans out there..... huh...... i wonder who.........#current horror saying that type of shit to past horror AS IF HES NOT SUPPOSED TO BE NICER IN THE FUTURE #this was originally an excuse to draw horror with the new gray eye but then i decided against it smh.......#and also an excuse to draw blood. the ONLY thing i'm good at rendering #my inability to render is really prevalent here. only covered up by the composition and harsh lighting and lineart and whatever the fuck #anyways TRIGLYCERCULE ART???? IN THIS DAY AND AGE?????? when was the last one........... probably my birthday rain of dust art LMAO WHAAAAA #well that completes my shitty trio focused art. killer's bday dust's bday (although it was so ass) and now this! now they all have 1 piece #tricule art #horror sans #horrortale #murder time trio #utmv #sans au #my horror bias has really been showing these past few daus #but i mean........ I MEAN LIKE WHEN HES THE ONLY ONE THAT STILL GETS UPDATES OUT OF THE TRIO IM ALLOWED TO BE OVERJOYED #as the sole horror representative of mtt nation i gotta fucking carry all the other 3 supposed horror enjoyers on my back 😒😒😒😒😒😒😒#bad sanses #bad sans gang #nightmare's gan #eeaaughhhhh hes not part of the gang hes part of the trio...... get horror away from nightmares fugly ass.......euaaghhhhh #but whatever. im so excited for this art to be locked in the Five Note Banger Jail!#IF YOU READ THESE TAGS THIS IS YOUR SIGN TO PLAY THE WATERFALL GAME OR REREAD THE HORRORTALE COMIC 🫵🫵🫵‼️‼️‼️‼️👿👿👿👿👿

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rocketbirdie · 2 months ago

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Cloud Strife

1 in 3 chance for each played 7 to create a Planet card when scored.

#........clown strife.................#if rebirth+queen's blood proves anything it's that cloud would absolutely get hopelessly addicted to balatro.#ffvii #cloud strife #balatro #my art <3 #my music <3 #ok so. obligatory commentary on the music.#this song isn't in A440! well at least the official version uploaded by louisf certainly isn't #not 100% sure exactly what it is but i approximated it to A446-ish? 446.5? kinda? it's funkyyy #(translated for non music nerds: all of the instruments are tuned sliiiiightly higher pitch than standard tuning)#gives it a ~weird~ vibe. even if just on a subconscious level #i learned a lot about pitch effects from this project actually! including how to cut/copy/paste pitch controls between patterns in FL #which WAS PURE HELL. two hours of my life GONE. because fl studio's piano roll can do everything EXCEPT copy pitch controls. 🤡🔫#so i had to dig through literally DECADES worth of obscure forums just to find a dozen obsolete workarounds and ONE actual solution.#well. at least i know how to do it now lol #boy oh boy... the price of knowledge is steep........#anyway. enjoy the cool jams 😎

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idontmindifuforgetme · 10 months ago

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It really is so true that you never know what someone’s going through behind closed doors. I’ve made being gentle and kind my default bc I’ve had super put together friends disclose the most harrowing time of their lives to me and it’s like oh?? You were going through that???? I would’ve never guessed

#It’s easy to reduce people to side characters or caricatures but you never know. You truly never know what someone’s going through or what #Could push them over the edge. Cruelty will never be worth potentially causing someone permanent damage #I’ve realized this after having a conversation w a friend of mine who sailed straight to med school #Tons of leadership roles #Thriving social life #Yet she just told me her hair was falling out from anxiety. Never in a million years would I have guessed that she was struggling #But she was and lots of people play things close to their chest like that #I really wanna be kind each time I can and to also come from a place of compassion #Bc ik I’ve been misunderstood by people before who reduced me to a caricature or just didn’t know what was happening in my life #I want to actively work on extending the benefit of the doubt to the same people I would want to extend the benefit of the doubt to me

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respectthepetty · 2 months ago

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Minase's friend telling him how easily he could hate him shows how superficial all of Minase's relationships are.

It's a telling moment in the episode because no matter how good he is, if he messes up just once, everything could be gone.

And he is always aware of that.

He recovers quickly, but the truth lingers. If he was himself, his true self, he would be hated by everyone.

And his mother has ingrained that into him since the very beginning. She would hate him just like she hates his father.

So under the guise of casual conversation, he confesses that he actually doesn't have friends. All of these relationships are hallow and meaningless because if he can't be his real self, then he can't have real connections. Everything is fake, like him.

And that's why Hirukawa asking him what he wants is the catalyst to his downfall.

As everyone in his life keeps pointing out, Hirukawa, with all his substance and authenticity, could ruin his perfect hallow life.

And that's something Minase is slowly realizing he wants. He is only existing as the perfect kid for everybody else, but it means nothing to him. He has nothing. This perfect life is empty and meaningless.

So he wants Hirukawa to ruin his life.

Because it was never a life worth living in the first place.

#Miseinen: Mijukuna Oretachi wa Bukiyo ni Shinkochu #our youth #ruin my life #because it was never a life worth living #these are my favorite stories #when a character realizes their life sucks #and someone comes along and ruins it #because that's what they needed all along #someone to ruin their stupid life and show them what living really is

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 9 months ago

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I'm a doctor, not a miracle worker.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wen ning #wei wuxian #wen qing #jiang cheng #Truly Massive disclaimer here: I am a Jiang Cheng enjoyer. I like his character. I enjoy that he is very flawed and volatile.#This episode of the audio drama has a lot of great breakdown scenes featuring JC - and they all deserve a feature.#But underlying this comic is a small meta comment of 'ah man I have too many comics of JC just wailing sadly'#My goal is to draw 6-8 comics per episode - I sometimes have to truncate and cut good scenes out.#Especially when a large majority is just different flavours of trauma and toxic relationships to your self-worth.#I would also like to make a note here that just because you lose the ability to do something that is very tied to your core identity-#-does not mean your life is over. It will feel like the end of the world. It will send you into a spiral of grief. It will hurt so badly.#Sometimes we do not realize how tied up our identities can be in certain things until we are cut loose.#You don't lose yourself. I promise the pain will fade in time. I promise you will find other things to tether you. I promise you will be ok #Life moves forwards. Time moves forwards. You move forwards.#Ego death just means an opportunity for ego rebirth. You are never committed to being the same person forever.#To wrap this around to JC: Yeah I love the twist with the core transfer but man I would have loved to see JC accept the loss.#Obviously it happens for a reason (story) but I can have my AUs. I can have these 'what-ifs'.#described in alt text #I'm trying it out! *please* give me feedback - I want to eventually Add image ID to all of these comics one day

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mamawasatesttube · 1 month ago

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something i like to think about sometimes is that. man. you could really create some kind of perfect storm with the combo of tim's post-infinite crisis fear of losing kon again + kon's intense, but generally passive, suicidality. guy who was so convinced he had to die a hero that when it happened he didn't even seem bothered by it (because he can't be traumatized by his own death if it was what he was literally made for, right?) x guy who has developed a whole new type of mental illness out of the survivor's guilt 100x combo. put them both through the wringer at the same time with one easy trick (make tim think kon will try to sacrifice himself for something) (and kon very well might!)

#rimi talks #i started to write a minor tag essay but it was so incoherent. thank you migraine i have no thoughts.#but like something something ptsd that rubs up against each other wrong. and having to learn to live and grow around it #kon having the realization that his life is worth more than what he could die for - that he doesn't have to be so sacrificial #vs tim struggling with the terror of being left behind again. of having to grieve again. of how it ate him up inside and made him--#--stop caring if he himself lived or died because so many of his loved ones already were dead #it's just tasty. it's fun.#...........#.......... wait a minute.#...........................................................................................................................................#did i already write this fic.#i think i already wrote this fic. where kon tries to kill himself again for heroism.#oh my god i already wrote this fic. okay. im. um #okay post canceled im going to bed. bye #timkon #tim #kon

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jesuis-assez · 5 months ago

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Tim unconsciously sending/showing signals of his feelings for Lucy

#chenford #chenfordedit #the rookie #therookieedit #tim x lucy #tim and lucy #lucy x tim #jesuis-assez edits: chenford #jesuis-assez edits: chenford multi #Or rather Tim's body responding to what his mind has not yet caught up with and his actions showing/ revealing #his feelings in full display. Or rather Tim's mind suppressing what he doesn't want to acknowledge #Tim closing the door to the possibility of having developed feelings for Lucy while she was his rookie or rather ..#Tim not thinking of Lucy in that light as she was his rookie but feeling so much for her and not understanding what he was feeling.#Because this is uncharted territory for him. This feels different. What he feels for her and what she has given him.#Or rather Tim needing to be in control and how he couldn't control his heart letting Lucy in.#Or rather allowing Lucy to take space in his heart gradually until she covers it completely with her love and kindness #and not realising just how deeply he had fallen for her. How she came to be this important person in his orbit #How she came in his life and changed it for the better. How she was his rookie and his friend and how this one person could mean so much #and how he can't bare to lose her.#How little control he had over how he feels for her and how he came to accept and embrace that #how the entire foundation they built was worth risking and exploring to him #because how could something so beautiful not be?#*takes a breath * ok. I wish I could convey all of this more eloquently but my brain is just not having it.

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quadrantadvisor · 1 month ago

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Obsessed with this image. The pose. The way his hip is cocked and he's leaning over and she's wearing heels but he's still like a head taller than her. Look at him. I'm making this my phone background

#jason todd #red hood #dc #batfam #i read the whole batman/catwoman gotham war event because my roomie bought the red hood issues #and the writing was not very good! what is bruce doing with his life.#but it was all worth it. to look at my boy #the outfit has grown on me so much #yes he looks like he should be in a ninja anime. what of it #my rambles

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tojisun · 9 months ago

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6 random songs from my 'On Repeat' Playlist

1. aerials - system of a down

2. hypnosis - sleep token

3. climbing up the walls - viscera

4. the jester's dance - in flames

5. cirice - ghost

6. how i fall apart - currents

tagged by @iite-cool (well vi tagged my main but i use this blog more LMAO) // no pressure tags: @whats-belay @stargirlrchive @oddityinthesky @tomiesdiet @dmitriene <33 mwah i love u all !!!

#sun rambles #my seventh one was actually that spongebob song (the bottom 2) LMFAO 😭#ur right this is me procrastinating my homework due tonight >:))#its worth 40% but im at that point in my academic life where it is what it is

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