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Tf 141 but Mafia AU
I KNOW I HAVE SO MANY IDEAS RN AND ISTG I WILL INDULGE ‘EM WHEN I HAVE THE TIME BUT THINK ABOUT IT—
Price as the head with Ghost and Gaz as his right and left hand respectively, with Soap being the right hand of Ghost.
Basically think of them as the people behind the scenes keeping the town- you recently moved into- safe from the other rivals families like Kortac, Makarov’s, or Shepherd’s.
And here comes precious you, fresh out of a job and desperate to find money for rent. Which solely becomes your demise when suddenly your job at a bakery became a battlefield between two families. OR alternatively, that bakery is the common ground between families- the neutral area per se, in respects to the old Italian couple that raised the community<3 (who are now raising you as well lmao)
Although, chaos then ensues when that land gets handed over to you- thus making it a battlefield, all over a simple thing of that unclaimed land.
Or so you think. 🫢
#unedited#crackfic#tf 141 poly x reader#tf 141 poly x you#tf 141 x you#tf 141 x reader#tf 141 poly#cod x you#cod x reader#cod mw2#ghost cod#soap cod#cod modern warfare#cod price#cod gaz#cod oc#what am i doing i should focus up
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"Weeeh! I wanna recruit Minthara on a good playthrough! Weeeh! I don't like the ultimatum and want to keep both Minthara and Halsin! Weeeh! I wanna make Minthara good! Weeeh! I don't want Minthara to break up with me!" Minthara deserves more content but none of these things are at all what she needs or deserves. No, these are all things that you want for yourself, but do absolutely nothing for her. This is one of the biggest L's in the game and it will forever enrage me because I just know it will never happen.
Minthara deserves to confront Orin like all the other companions do with their abusers. She deserves to scream and yell at Orin. She deserves to cut at her the same way Orin did, make her bleed and scream in pain. Minthara deserves to torture Orin, just as she did her in the mind flayer colony. Minthara deserves the right to roll up to the Temple of Bhaal and beat the shit out of Orin with her bare hands. Leave Orin begging for mercy in which Minthara will not even give her a drop. To slam Orin down on that altar and slice her throat, offer her up as a sacrifice to the father she is so blindly devoted to.
And yes, Minthara would be afraid. She would be TERRIFIED. Despite how strong and powerful Minthara is, she is also the only one afraid of Orin. Unlike Ketheric, or Gortash, or Sarevok, she is the only one who fully acknowledges just how dangerous Orin actually is and does not underestimate her. She will walk down into that temple, intending to duel Orin with a massive disadvantage because she is terrified.
Minthara choked when seeing Orin again in the mind flayer colony. She choked when seeing Orin as an imposter, throwing her deep into the ocean of paranoia and fear. And she is so entrenched in paranoia that it actually becomes palpable to everyone around her, even you. She describes herself as paranoid, but this is the first that you actually see how paranoid she is. And she choked again when Orin kidnapped someone in camp, making her feel inadequate, making a mockery of her for being unable to protect one of her own. And every day that passes, the more and more likely that the victim is going to die and she has doubts on their survival.
At every possible avenue in which Minthara could have done something or said something about Orin, she froze in place with fear. But she's had enough. She cannot be afraid of Orin forever and she doesn't want to be. One way or another, Orin has to die and she wants to get over that fear. She needs to know that Orin is dead, for herself.
This would also make the alurlssrin confession all the more impactful. She wants to tell you that she loves you in the best way that she can because of the very high likelihood that she will never have another chance to do so. She would beg you to come with her as you give her the courage. She has the courage to face her fears and confront her tormentor, because she knows she has you in her corner. If you have the courage to stand up to the very gods themselves, then she can stand up to Orin. Romanced or not, your presence alone is enough to give her the strength to do something she would otherwise be too terrified to do.
Minthara deserves the honor to solo duel Orin in a fight to the death. Minthara deserves the right to achieve vengeance for herself. No, I do not care that this confrontation would conflict with a Durge playthrough. In fact, it would provide a phenomenal source of some interesting, and toxic, drama between Durge and Minthara. Especially if they're in a relationship. This also does not mean that Minthara killing Orin instead of Durge would not have its consequences (because it most certainly will). Even if Minthara does not fight Orin, it would be so much better if Minthara was just given the fucking chance to yell at Orin like all the other companions in their personal quests.
#bg3#baldur's gate 3#minthara#minthara baenre#evil murder kitten#orin#orin the the red#i spend a lot of time theorizing what a good personal quest for minthara would look like#and i've even written a mock up personal quest for her#one in which could have a major impact on minthara's character and who she chooses to become in the end#but instead - all of you 'good only' players focus on the wrong things and would prefer to bastardize her character#just so you can feel better about yourselves#rather than look at what minthara needs for a proper character arc and genuine character growth#minthara's change should not nor should ever be along the lines of morality#but a deeply personal and internal one in which she makes the choice to change for herself#if minthara ever were to get more content#it absolutely should be about direct interactions and a confrontation with orin#i literally do not and cannot care about the rest#but she will never get what she actually needs because the whiny babies who don't appreciate her character#are crying and demanding all the wrong things that do absolutely nothing for her#and larian is bending over backwards and breaking her character just to make *you* happy#and denying her the justice she deserves#this is literally the only thing on my wish list for patch 7 - but i know it just won't happen#but i will hang on to the hope that i am proven wrong once it does release
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can someone plz cry with me
#txt#so overwhelmed#and dreading work#I am so nervous about my future#I don’t see a point in working towards a career that isn’t based on passion#and I’m so tired of the advice I get being “do something you can tolerate that pays well so you can focus on hobbies outside of work#bcuz like where? how? I can’t do anything without a degree. and degrees are expensive. and even if I had a degree. I’ll need to have years#of experience#I don’t want to do something boring even if it gets me by#and there probably aren’t that many jobs available any#so I’m in this limbo where I can quit work yet cuz I don’t fucking know what I should have lined up#and I wanna go back to school but the only in person classes I can take are 2 hours from me#and I can do it online but I won’t get the same connections#so I just have to exist in this state of unhappiness and know in the back of my mind that no job will ever satisfy me#bCUZ WORK FUCKING SUCKS UNLESS ITS SLEMTHING YOU LOVE AND TJAHS HARD TTO COME BY#thank you this is my rant. if you don’t like it jump off a cliff. it’s my blog and I’m blogging dumb a as
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actually so low on morale.
#sami rambles#i don't think anyone without a chronic illness can understand what it's like to then get sick on top of that because like.#my flatmate who gave me this chest infection carried on with her life like it was just an annoying cough.#which i have my own issues with regarding like passing it around because she wasn't wearing a mask anywhere :/#like with my condition at least when i get sick my whole body shuts down in order to actually have enough energy to fight the bug.#but my body stops functioning the way it should#my brain slows all the way down so i can't focus on anything#so i am literally just reduced to lying in bed until i start to get better#and it's not even like i can really do work whilst lying in bed because again. brain no work!!#so im just bored and there's a thousand things i need to do but i cant focus on any of them long enough to actually do them#and even thinking about doing them feels like im thinking about taking up the mantle of sisyphus and rolling that big fucking rock#anyway. I'm going up a hill with my friends tonight to watch the fireworks and drink hot chocolate idc if it kills me
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ok but the fact that "aziraphale is softening. they haven't spoken in a hundred years: he's realizing they're still friends" and "there's no need to thank me that's what...friends...are for" was in the same night is making me go INSANE
#we NEED to talk more abt the 1941 ep im so serious im not normal about it like i had such high expectations and it suppressed them all.#am i disappointed there wasn't a rejection scene like i predicted?? yes ofc but also aziraphale said he did the apology dance that year so#i wonder what else could've fucking happened#but anyway. let's focus on what DID happen: aziraphale literally GLOWING with love in the car. crowley telling him to shut up cause of a#compliment. aziraphale helping crowley out and crowley looking at him like 'you'd do that for me?'. crowley not only letting aziraphale#practice magic with him but ACTIVELY playing a character to help him and i mean that scene was literally just crowley flirting with him#crowley indulging aziraphale by going to the magic shop with him and agreeing to participate in his show despite the fact that he NEVER EVEN#SHOT A GUN BEFORE. him just leafing thru the guidebook till he realizes there's a miracle blocker than starting to frantically flip thru it#her hands SHAKING on the gun and them being so afraid of hurting az. 'no paperwork :))' sure my guy that's what u r so happy about ofc#'but do u really think it went well' 'absolutely' with such sincerity. the book description saying smth abt ifa demon were to happen across#aziraphale they should report it immediately to the demon crowley. 'you could've just walked away' 'well you said 'trust me'' 'and you did'#its just. its one of my favorite eps it's so nice#good omens#azicrow#good omens s2#aziracrow#go s2 spoilers#go s2#good omens script book#good omens s2 spoilers#aziraphale x crowley
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I'm not huge on the ending I'm pretty sure I'm getting for Wyll here and will be rewriting it in my head, but this was sweet
#my posts#⚔️#⚔️ light in the shadows#like the whole 'i'm going to go to hell to fight demons' thing can work with my tav#who is the most boring cardboard cutout of a protagonist i've seen in a long while#but she's a paladin and has 0 ties to the world around her so sure. she can go along for that#but if you're not down for that (and i am not) you either end up being long distance#(i hate being long distance)#or you make him duke which the game does not seem to want you to see as a morally good choice#considering both options to say he should do that just focus on doing it for power#never mind that the city will have been hurt a lot by everything that happened in the game#and wyll is a good hearted person who wants to help others#which could be perfect for helping to rebuild and create a better society here#anyway. i will be coming up with something else for my ship lore#idk i'm having trouble putting into words what i'm feeling with this#but either way. I Am Upset
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remembers my isat tattoo hcs from one million years ago
#radio rambles#ooh…………….#started thinking about the different tattoo styles from diff countries…..#since. none of them have any technically one to one. real world country inspirations i feel like i should have. free reign on this kfkd#vauguard to me gives the vibe where tattoos would be highly symbolic. through shapes and lines mainly#vague / abstract designs that have meaning to the . tattoo-wearer (whatever that word would be jfkd)#so like. i think my hc for nille was a lot of tattoos? designs would be big and think and blockier i think.#poteria…… maybe they r more artistically inclined#more preference to realism on a tattoo / or stylistic inspiration#pictures. etc. goal: look cool#on my hc siffrin knows how to do very basic (and amateur lol) stick n poke tattoos…#he wouldve learned in poteria#ka bueee somewhere between the two methinks#heavy focus on symbolic tattoos but they are more. pictures than simplistic shapes#odiles lower back tattoo representive of her ex-polycule (hc with my server jfjf) is made up of objects to represent her partners#mwudu i am not so sure…… trying to like. remember what we know about mwudu jfksjd#maybe they are not big on tattoos. el oh el#i didnt mean to. put all tbe thoughts here. i sorta wanted to. make an art post. and explain it all#but whayever . i guess. take my thoughts.
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hi fellow neurodivergent people
i hate to jump on the "i think i might have adhd" bandwagon, but if i think i might have adhd, how do i bring it up to my care team as a 28-year-old cis woman who was a massive overachiever until i couldn't keep up the ruse anymore?
#idk what happened when i got laid off it seriously is like my brain BROKE i cannot do anything#i have not done much of anything in a year. and i think it's bc my coping mechanisms were 1. self-medicate but ESPECIALLY do that while#2. overcommitting. because it kept me busy and distracted. i excelled in school because i could focus on it without it giving me anxiety#school was honestly almost the only thing that didn't give me anxiety as a kid. and i never felt quite Right like i didn't feel like i fit#in with my peers. i've always felt like a human being that isn't a person. like something's not quite right. i excel but i feel like i'm#doing it wrong because it's SO hard for me. i graduated my BA and BS programs with a 4.0#but it came with the cost of alienating all of my friends and family and becoming really reclusive and weird and distant and anxious#but i really just wanted to do well at the one thing i felt i was good at. which doesn't seem like something i should take note of#idk. my life feels like a claustrophobic box. i feel like i'm buried alive and i can't get myself out because i can't work#because i can't focus. but maybe i'm just stupid and lazy and want everyone to take care of me forever so i can continue laying around doin#fuck all. which i do a lot because i'm chronically ill. idk. like is there ground to stand on here. i literally have zero friends rn#and i feel so so so sos so anxious any time i am working because i worry i'm going to do something wrong or forget to do something or make#lots of mistakes that get me in trouble. i'm so scared of making mistakes it keeps me from doing anything at all. but i get so anxious bc#i'm not doing anything! i'm wasting time! and i can't focus on anything when i AM working because i have to get up and pace#like i HAVE to move around or i start to feel like i need to peel my skin off like i'm an orange#like. is it anything at all. or is this just me being someone who has Other Stuff going on
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A bit of angst, but like, just a tiny needle of it. Or not, who knows?
Also, entirely out of context,
#Fuck is this the right time to start doubting my abilities?#because I think it is#I'm a demisexual without practical experiment in physical interaction WHAT I'M DOING HELP.#this ISN'T my first fic#but it's my first time writing a couple think#is it my anxiety kicking or am I fucking it up? Who knows!!#the famous: kiss me so they won't look at us#gaalee#rock lee#sabaku no gaara#naruto#help#Am I supposed to put much emotions or should I focus on the touch part AAAAAAAH#Here in Brasil we say: Ver o circo pegar fogo e o palhaço morrer queimado#But I'm the clown
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Dread be dreading
#ughg#i usually have awful thoughts randomly popping up here or there#make me pretty anxious for a few days then i won't think about them for a while#but man i can't handle doubts suddenly resurfacing#like this monday i was listening to my last lecture and everything bad i cooked up a in the past few months hit me like a truck#couldn't even focus i was too busy internally chanting shit fuck i don't want this i made a huge mistake shit shit#i won't be able to handle all this responsibility i'm so tired this will butcher my mental health should have chosen media studies fuuuck#what was i thinking what am i gonna do help#then proceeded to distract myself with an electric outlet otherwise i might have started crying#:/#and those thoughts aren't wrong unfortunately#i love this university and the classes and the things i study#the teachers and my classmates and the kids i got to take care of#but i don't think i could do this for real#i'm not even struggling with anything i'm just scared and tired as hell#and thought i could just. power through it- like if i'm stubborn enough it won't matter that it's draining#but damn#and hell originally i came here because i wanted to teach english to kids#i guess my expectations were too high i don't feel like i've learned anything that useful this far#and turns out it won't get better#we just gonna do presentations again#to be fair i loved researching nursery rhymes but i hoped we would have... more. of that#also about media studies. chief... i crave to be there#could have picked the english specialization there too- i'm a moron. a bozo. holy shit#well. gonna go through this semester either way. because again everything i study here (almost everything) is genuinely great and useful#and perhaps i'm just in a Pit right now#the dread pit#should probably break this to my sister. somehow#random squeak
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Conflicted about something (actually has been on my mind for a long time, it's just never been brought up), but like. I do like portraying Moe with self-harm scars. I like to treat the scars the same way I treat its acne/the scarring that comes from that. Just like, a candid portrayal of Well, that's just how it looks. Because of this, I also don't like the idea that self-harm scars should always be trigger-tagged. Kind of gets into the idea of what bodies should be "censored", and like, man, sometimes people just look like that...
But I also do wanna be mindful... I wonder if the rule of thumb should be, if the self-harm is the focus of the piece? Then you should probably tag it? But then that kind of gets ambiguous fast like. Usually I color Moe's scars to be pink/faded. So even when they are visible, they don't jump out at you really. But this recent piece I wanted to emphasize the scarring. Is it emphasized enough to warrant a tag...? But the piece really isn't focused on that. It makes up part of the storytelling/theming of the piece, but also does sort of fall into the category of "Well Moe just looks like that".
Do you. See the conflict here.
#idk idk... i think there are several reasons i always am particular about portraying it.#but it's never really meant to be a focus. at least not in the work i put out there. i don't have an interest in the nitty-gritty of it#just like. bread crumb trails i guess. where you can see things and based off of canon info you can extrapolate#like. what would be going on behind the scenes hypothetically. but also i am just aaall about the imagery#we don't have to get into it. but you can See what's going on here. you get the jist of it.#there are other examples where things get ambiguous or the imagery is so lax idk if i should tag it... i guess we'll see#okay. so i said i don't like getting into it. but. but. i DO want you to consider.#how being a healer w self-harming tendencies kind of goes crazy.#the way moe is always trying to hide in one way or another and the way moe is just Destructive. on SO many levels.#guy who is gonna repent about it. guy who is gonna lick its wounds in the dark about it.#guy who is gonna try SO. SO. SOOOOOO FUCKING HARD. to be 'worth' it somehow. to make up for it.#guy who was supposed to 'fix it'.#instructions unclear it fucked it up SO BAD. SO SO BAD. OH GOD. OH FUCK. IT'S FINE. IT'LL BE FINE JUST GIVE ME A MINUTE#REAGARDLESS. what the fuck am i talking aboyt .#whatever#moe lore
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me a week ago: i love my job!!
me now, after having a mid-year review that amounted to you’re doing an excellent job and you bring such a valuable perspective to our practice but i don’t have the ability to give you a raise right now but don’t worry bc i just hired a new CFO to try to figure out money so we can maybe give you a raise later this year: *breaks into a cold sweat as i crack open indeed dot com*
#like how have you hired FOUR new employees in the past year (two new providers a new admin assistant and now a CFO)#without having plans for people to level up?#also i have talked to a friend who got hired at a similar practice a few months after me and she’s already making way more than me!#and you know who else makes more than i do?#my 19yo nephew who didn’t even finish high school. to be fair he’s grinding way more than he should#but also so am i!!#my disabled ass is working 6-7 days/week almost every week and i can barely afford to LIVE in the city where i live!!!#anyway don’t mind me i’m only apartment hunting#while also knowing that my paycheck is about to be hundreds of dollars lighter every month bc my health insurance is about to kick in#right now it’s either looking like we are gonna have to live in the world’s shittiest apartment (not even in the nice part of the city) or#we might just have to find something outside the city. which would be farther from work and friends and everything#yes i am having a full mental breakdown every single day and it’s only gonna get worse bc i’m due to start pmsing any second now#and also my last day at my hospital job is this weekend#bc everyone (including my boss) has encouraged me to quit and focus on only the one job#so now that’s also at least a few hundred bucks more i won’t be making every month#godddddddd#i hate it here i hate it here#did you know? having a fulfilling job still sucks if you aren't fairly compensated???#this is also what happens when you are part of a hot girl profession where everyone else is married to husbands with tech jobs#so they don't have to worry about money like this#anyway anyway anyway#i have never had anxiety so high that i feel as if i might puke before and i used to have a panic disorder so this is a fun new experience#a nice cherry on top of the typical summer depression which is also beating my ass yet again!
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there are already so many posts about palestine, so im gonna make one about israel. the recent attack from the 7. october is the first genocidial attack on jews of this degree since the holocaust. i cant speak about other countries but in germany things are reverting back to nazi times, with david stars painted on front doors of jews and jewish synagogues and kindergartens being closed down or swept empty because the people are terrified. antisemites and the far-right extremist scene is emboldened and empowered by this attack. they look at everyone‘s reaction very closely and at least for my country, ppl are insanely silent about it, which is like a legitimation of their views and their actions. i want ppl to remember that! there should be more space in this anti-genocidial activism than there seems to be currently, one that includes jews. i dont find it funny at all that my timeline, if politics cross it, and that most posts, if i go to the tags, talk about the settler colonialism and the attempted genocide by israel on palestine, but not about the baked-in antisemitism and the degree of terror and severity this recent event has. there are gonna be long-lasting consequences on all sides and its not gonna be fun, there has to be a way to talk about all of it, all human lives lost, all genocides happening and attempted, without letting one fall under the bus because its easier and fits the narrative of the modern justice warrior. years ago they said that this is a fight of anti-colonialism and anti-genocide, not jews vs muslims, in the topic of israel and palestine, but by choosing to not mention one and focusing exclusively on the other now u make it into one. what im seeing currently is a lot of performative activism and one-sided focus that does not help anyone at all save for those profitting from this situation, which are the antisemites, the nazis and the far-right extremists, the hamas and everyone else in league with them. please think about this for a minute and be conscious of whom u are unintentionally aiding
#cant believe i need to say this but:#no i dont agree with israel‘s settler politic#yes i do think what they are doing in gaza sounds like attempted genocide#yes i am side-eyeing them and their politics and their established power and their weaponized victimhood#no i dont think its good that there is so little focus on palestine civilians in the media#yes i think there should have been and should be more focus on what theyve been forced to under under israel#and no i dont think that contradicts my point nor should it#palestine#israel#gaza#current politics#i seldomly say anything about anything thats currently going on in the world#i want my blog to be a place where i can escape from that#but this is making me very angry and i wouldnt forgive myself if i simply shut up about it
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So uh... remember that Lancer crossover I was working on for Spookami? And how I put this tag on the original post?
Well that's actually happening for real now, because our GM is not only running a oneshot separate from our main campaign this weekend, but also very encouraging of letting us pull expy nonsense. Joke's on him if he think I'm not committing to the bit, though, so have the portrait I drew for the "Pilot" section of my character sheet.
Most refer to Waka in this AU by his callsign "Onmyōji". Those that don't usually just call him a pain in the ass.
#Bamboo's Art#Okami#Lancer (TTRPG)#Crossover#Waka (Okami)#What's funny is I'm not even the only expy in this party nor did I pick the weirdest source to pull a blorbo for a mech pilot#The mech frame I picked is even striker melee with a focus on using swords and agility -hell yeah- I'm gonna do that have you SEEN this guy#(for those lurking the Lancer tag: were at LL3 and I'm going full Mourning Cloak baby I'm about to become a fucking -nightmare-)#I got into such a groove when I hit the shading part that I was up until 3 AM last night finishing this. Worth it tho.#Drawing all of those moon-tribe-esque patterns was a gd nightmare though shading them was a lot more fun than I anticipated#Also to the anon who asked what color I paint Waka's eyes when it's not the middle of the night here's your answer: they're dark brown!#I should probably make a full ref sheet for this design at some point but for now y'all get portrait#Callsign: Onmyoji
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During class today we were discussing once more Alaska Native history and I think about the absolute tragedy of so many families and people being displaced from their homes. Being ransacked and people being dehumanized. I think about how that is actively being done right now in Palestine and it breaks my heart constantly. The same thing that happened to my own people is happening once more. Nearly a year now they have to face the absolute horrors and constantly pushed out of their lands.
There are so many go funds me right now dozens that need funding, but one that I want to link here the boy Named Muhammad who is nicknamed Uncle Tito who is currently in the northern Gaza Strip.
I found his tik tok one day and He performs for the children there to bring hope and some much needed moments of happiness to them. I find that his work he is doing is absolutely important. Key to resistance is joy despite everything and he is bringing that to the kids. I really wanted to highlight him and his own fundraiser.
If anyone could donate anything it can make a difference in his and his families life.
#Palestine#free palestine#important#gos this is probably poorly written#rambling and rambling#but I feel like I have to say something#but hearing about Alaska native history#and all the awful horrible things that happened#how my own people were just treated horribly and the absolute injustice#there is still so many scars in our communities#I can’t say much I mean I’m quite a city kid who is still disconnected from my own tribes and culture#but still it’s what happened and I can still feel the affects today#this is happening now again in Palestine#it keeps me up at night thinking about it#it feels like despite how much I try to donate to help it is only a drop of water in this big ocean#but it’s important to keep persisting#i genuinely hope for the safety for all the palastinians#and they will return back to their own land#god here I am making it all about me#they should be the focus of attention#whatever I’m rambling#I hope I can make a difference in at least one persons life#if I can do that at least it’s something
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the desire im capable of feeling for a person is insane like i rlly cannot see any other way my life could go that i'd be happy w unless im by their side in their arms :((
#genuinely idgi. w my other crushes i daydreamed but i didnt wanna get close to them rlly. this is more than a crush how does it work#r u supposed to go crazy or am i a freak#i mean like.. idk!!!!! idk anything im so confused!!!!!!#all i know is that when i wake up their my first thought. when i do anything during the day i wish i was w them doing those things#when i go to bed i think of them#every thought i have i wanna share w them. it feels good nd nice to share everything w them#it's exciting to talk abt my boring fkn day. it's exciting to listen to details of their borinf day#like thats music to my ears. everything. i want. when i think of watching a show i want to know what they think of it#when i come across a movie my 1st thought it hmm wonder if theyve seen it#when i come across various ideologies nd stuff im like hmmm i wanna discuss this w them#it's all them them them them!#im jealous of the air they breathe the ground the walk on. those things get to be so close nd im so far away#i dont know#cant.. imagine. i mean maybe to other ppl#being in love and loving someone is .. idk. i've never experienced it before so idk anythinf#im just... so.. dizzy#i cant focus on school even if im like yeah wow im gnna go homeless if i dont do my homework lmao#i cant read my books or watch shows bc i keep pausing nd being like ok but what if WE were in this position#well. maybe. im ??? is this what love is? or am i too intense? should u be able to function anyway? idgi
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