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#txt#so overwhelmed#and dreading work#I am so nervous about my future#I don’t see a point in working towards a career that isn’t based on passion#and I’m so tired of the advice I get being “do something you can tolerate that pays well so you can focus on hobbies outside of work#bcuz like where? how? I can’t do anything without a degree. and degrees are expensive. and even if I had a degree. I’ll need to have years#of experience#I don’t want to do something boring even if it gets me by#and there probably aren’t that many jobs available any#so I’m in this limbo where I can quit work yet cuz I don’t fucking know what I should have lined up#and I wanna go back to school but the only in person classes I can take are 2 hours from me#and I can do it online but I won’t get the same connections#so I just have to exist in this state of unhappiness and know in the back of my mind that no job will ever satisfy me#bCUZ WORK FUCKING SUCKS UNLESS ITS SLEMTHING YOU LOVE AND TJAHS HARD TTO COME BY#thank you this is my rant. if you don’t like it jump off a cliff. it’s my blog and I’m blogging dumb a as
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Apologize to Metroplex right now ! 😭
Alright, alright 🤣
I Can Feel You Pt 10
Metroplex x Reader
• You’re gone and with you the only reason to cling to the drone. Too exhausted to maintain the connection as he’s dragged to Ratchet, to the medbay. The medic coming around to frown at him, he lets go. Needs to build up the energy to try again even as despair drags at him. If he recharges, he loses time. Days, years, decades. How long does a human live? Long enough that you’ll still be there when he stops dreaming or will you be gone without a trace? Slipping through his servos without him even knowing.
• “Ratchet said it was a drone,” Hound is telling Bee as you pick at your MRE and wish for real food even though you know how impractical it is for them to waste supply shipments on you when they can smuggle up these things that last forever in bulk. “Apparently one of Metroplex’s, but everyone thought they were destroyed at some point during the war. It must have activated somehow and was trying to follow some old prerogative. Creepy, if you ask me.” Your food clatters to the floor as you stand, staring at Hound as both bots look at you in surprise.
• Needs to rest. Needs to build his strength. To find you. To find the other two drones. Where are you? Safe with the Autobots, but he can’t sense you. Harder to focus now. Doesn’t have the energy to hunt for you, you’re so small and he’s so big. But you’d seen him, reached out to him and broke through his lonely isolation. Spoke to him, that soft voice sinking through his exhaustion. Waking him enough to reach out to you in return. Are you okay now without him watching over you? Worried about his silence? He’d just wanted to hold you in his arms, even if through the drone was the only way.
• Heart racing, you remember the way the bot, the drone, had been reaching for you. Almost desperate to get to you. Had that really been Metroplex? “You okay?” Hound asks as you start running for medbay. Is that why he’d not answered you? Because he was doing whatever he’d had to do to activate a drone to fetch you? He hadn’t abandoned you, hadn’t lost interest. Just too stretched thin to answer you? You’re crying you realize, vision blurring. When you’d been cradled in his mind, you’d felt how tired he is, how badly damaged he is despite the Autobot’s attempts to repair him. Hurting. Breath ragged, you enter the medbay, banging an elbow on the door in your hurry as you run deeper inside the building.
• Sneakers squeaking, you slide on the floor, almost missing the drone. Not even on a berth, it’s just leaned against a wall, head tipped forward and visor dim. You don’t really understand what’s different about the drone from the bots, but remember Hound saying it was creepy. “Metroplex?” Touching its hand, you look up at that slack face. “Can you hear me?”
• “Get away from there before that thing comes back online and accidentally crushes you,” Ratchet growls, as he spots you, coming to investigate the noise. “It won’t even notice.” And you don’t know how to explain that it was Metroplex, that he was looking for you. When you’d told them the Titan was speaking to you, they’d thought you were joking or imagining things. They won’t understand this, either. So you just nod and wait until he vents tiredly at you and goes deeper into medbay. And then you climb up on the drone, sitting on his thigh so you can lean into his warmth. Waiting for Metroplex to find you. Willing to wait as long as it takes.
• Time is a difficult concept for him, moving so much slower than the Autobots he shelters. Coming back to awareness, he’s not sure how much time has passed, but hopes it wasn’t too much. That he’s not too late. Stretching out his awareness, reaching to hook a thought in the drone and relieved it’s still in the same place as his awareness spills into it. “Again? Primus, how many times have I told you to get away from there?” Someone’s voice, angry. There’s a warmth against him, a softer voice arguing as he tries to remember how to work the body all over again. Optics opening and seeing Ratchet, the medic’s own optics widening before he lunges. “Move,” he demands and Metroplex’s borrowed head tips down. Sees you there against him, waiting for him. That hand reaching to take you away and he moves faster than he thought he could, catching the medic’s wrist. His other hand shaky as he ghosts a servo against your cheek and you lean into his touch. “Hi, Metroplex.”
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I've been thinking a lot about Leonarda's not-death ever since it happened back in April.
("What death?" you might ask, to which I say: "EXACTLY!")
Back in mid-April, Vegetta and Leonarda were mining together in a one-block wide tunnel. A mob (a Petriman) got between the two of them, and Vegetta told Leonarda to step back while he took care of it. At this point, they'd spent enough time together that he trusted Leo to listen to him.
Instead, she was killed by the same sweeping edge bug that killed her siblings.
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Vegetta's reaction here is what's really interesting to me. Unlike most other parents on the Island, there are no shouts or tears – only a very brief "Hmm" and then silence. He very quietly takes stock of the situation, saying "Vegetta, no" and wondering aloud why Leo didn't defend herself. In chat, Foolish says "It was a bug, right? LAG" to which Vegetta slowly responds "Yes, lag. Bug." (Despite this, Foolish still asks "WHAT HAPPENED" in chat, though Vegetta doesn't reply).
Instead, he creates a slightly wider space in the tunnel where Leo's body is. He continues quietly taking stock of the situation, wondering why Leo didn't defend herself (which is what necessitated his intervention). She'd been lagging a lot that day, and he figures that must be the cause, and eventually when Leo re-appears out of thin air in the middle of the cave and collects her stuff, she confirms that the lag got to her and that's why she didn't fight the mob.
Now here's where things get interesting:
Vegetta checks the tab list. Online, it's just him, Leonarda, Roier, and Foolish. He quietly tells Leonarda "The body has already disappeared, and without a body, there is no crime. Nothing is happening. Did you die?" Leo shakes her head, and Vegetta shakes his head too, and in the kind voice he uses sometimes with Leo, he says: "I believe you have not died. Where is the body? It isn't anywhere, no mija. If it was a mistake, it was a mistake."
Leo says: "I saw Diosito (God) pa, and I was scared. God, what am I doing here?" and Vegetta laughs, telling her it's alright. Leo says "No pasa nada (don't worry / nothing happened)" and Vegetta says: "And the people who are watching us have not seen it either." To Foolish and Roier, he messages: "Secreto."
And the funniest thing about this is it worked.
Not a single person spoke about it. I saw this entire event go down live and I didn't see a WHISPER of what transpired among fans. I can't even remember if the QSMP official accounts talked about it (they sure didn't mention it in Vegetta's recap of the day). We could discuss this in meta terms of course– Leo was having known lag issues that day, Vegetta's beloved by the admins so of course they're willing to turn a blind eye rather than slap a "?" over Leonarda's life on the Eggstatistics, but meta talk isn't what I'm interested in here.
I'm interested in q!Vegetta, the weird "god-adjacent" aura he's got, and the way the universe bends to his will.
Before he took a break from the server, Rubius seemed to be a caretaker for the Eggs who died (for example, he was present when Maxo, Quackity, and Mariana & Slime said their final goodbyes to Trumpet, Tilin, and JuanaFlippa). Because of his role as an "angel" and some of his dialogue during the early days of the server, it's not a stretch to say he probably came to collect any Egg who lost a life. I can imagine he did the same when he saw Leonarda die – that is, until Vegetta said "And the people who are watching us have not seen it either." Realistically, we know Vegetta was saying this to Chat (and possibly the admins as well), but again, we're looking at this from an "in-universe" perspective.
I wonder if Vegetta was aware of Rubius' role, and this was his way of telling Rubius "No. I won't allow that to happen." We know Rubius has a soft-spot for Vegetta (and we also know that Rubius was cast out of heaven several months later) so it makes me wonder if these two instances are connected.
Either way, this isn't the first time the laws of the QSMP universe have bent for Vegetta, and I certainly don't think it'll be the last.
Rubius or no, Leo didn't die that day.
Vegetta made sure of it.
#i talk#QSMP talk#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#I FOUND IT#I wrote this post TWO MONTHS AGO#MAYBE LONGER!!!#I had clips and links prepared but I have no idea where those went#I'm not gonna bother saving this as a draft and risk losing it again#I have nearly 70000 drafts on my main blog but by some miracle this got saved in my art blogs' drafts instead#than the stars#Anyways. Leo was killed by a whale a few days later because Foolish was in the bathroom lmao#''powerful god-adjacent man who bends the laws of the universe'' vs. ''man whose entire life is a series of sitcom episodes''#I still really want to write out that ''QSMP genre'' thought I had ages ago. It's still relevant and always will be relevant#but anyways#I wrote this months ago on very little sleep but DANG. It's a banger.#I miss writing analysis stuff I wish I was in a headspace where I could do this more like I used to#QSMP analysis
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Let Me Stay
Ex! Spencer Reid x Fem!BAU Reader
Synopsis: You and Spencer have gone back to normal, somewhat. But it only takes one conversation to ruin that all again. All you wanna do is stay, but he won’t let you.
Category: Angst
Warnings: not really a happy ending, established past relationship, maeve arc, mentions of death and suicide, takes place during 8x17 “The Gathering”, mentions of 8x17 events, spencer being a lil sad shit, crying, reader was in a past relationship before spencer, it’s just really sad, let me know if i missed anything! <3
Author’s Note: here is part two to “when you’re lost in the darkness, look for the light”! it’s short and sad 🤗 might make a part three???
part one
After helping Spencer, things were back to somewhat normal. You’d both bumped up from only talking on cases to the occasional small talk near the kitchenette or asking how each other’s days were going when you both were in the elevator on the way to the bullpen.
Everyone seemed to notice the change but hadn’t said anything to indicate that they knew. But then you’d heard Garcia gossiping about it in her office the other day to Morgan.
“Can you believe it? They’re finally talking again! Isn’t that great? Small talk can lead into something more! Maybe they’ll finally get together again and my ship will sail!” She’d fangirl and you shook your head with a small chuckle escaping your lips. (She was always so hell-bent that you two would eventually get back together).
Not that you didn’t agree with her, you always hoped you’d get somewhere with Spencer again. You just didn’t know when you could. He was still in mourning over Maeve and you knew he needed time to heal before dating again. You’d wait forever if you had to, unfortunately.
He still seemed quiet during most of the cases or would bury himself in his work to avoid feeling his feelings. And you couldn’t say you blamed him, because if it were you, you’d do the same thing. You have done the same thing. So, with understanding, you left him alone. And you were waiting for him to come to you.
And then you had that case in Minnesota. Your unsub was Peter Harper, he had stabbed women and pulled their tongues out pre-mortem. And you knew that him pulling the tongues out had some kind of significance to him. The disparate set of women victims was chosen at random until they discovered one connection between the women and it was that they all have a very strong on-line presence, their deaths telegraphed by stories in their own online blogs, messages or texts.
They’d finally found him at a public pool, ready to throw a woman in the pool and to wait for her to drown and when the team finally found him, he’d had a knife to his neck, ready to kill himself. You and JJ tried to talk him down off the ledge and told Peter he’d get help and that everything was gonna be okay. But then Reid had spoken up, telling him the truth and the total opposite from what you and JJ were saying.
Peter had killed himself shortly after that. And Reid walked off in frustration. You and JJ shared a look, wondering what the hell that was about.
You’d gone back to the office after filling out your paperwork. You were ready to go home, to relax and to wash the stench of this case off of you. And while you were packing up, you’d overheard Hotch and Reid’s conversation nearby. You knew Hotch was questioning his decision with telling Peter Harper the truth — that it wouldn’t get better, that it was gonna be hard to get help.
And when questioned about it, Reid’s answer was simple. “Well, Hotch, I thought the last time I was in a situation like this, I did exactly what I was supposed to. I told a perfect lie and that didn't work, so this time, in the hopes of saving someone's life, I tried something different.”
And then it was clear what this was about. Maeve. And you’d known that he still wasn’t over her. And of course, it really hadn’t been that long since she died, the wounds were still raw.
When you saw Reid abruptly leave the convo between him and Hotch and head towards the elevator, you knew to follow immediately. You’d worried a lot about him since what happened with Maeve. And you guessed that you just wanted him to be reassured that he had someone in his corner.
“Spencer,” You called in the parking garage and he’d turned around at the sound of your voice and could tell by his sigh that he was in no mood to talk with you but regardless he stopped.
“Look, I really don’t want to talk right now—” And you should’ve just left it at that. But you pushed, like you always do. Instead of walking away, you interrupted him. “I don’t care if you don’t wanna talk, but you know what you’re gonna do? You’re gonna listen.” Spencer crossed his arms, obviously in defense mode as you continued.
“Spencer, we have given you time. We have been there for you thick and thin and all we wanna do is help—” This time, he interrupts you. “Have you ever thought about the fact that maybe I don’t want your help? That maybe what I need is just a little bit of space?”
With that, he walked off.
And you’d officially had enough.
“Do you really think that you are the only person in the world who has lost someone?” You exclaimed and Spencer stopped in his tracks, his back still facing you. “Well, you are barking up the wrong tree because — newsflash, Spencer — you are not the only person who’s lost someone. When I lost—” You pause, not wanting to say his name. “I was… such a wreck.”
You gulp, deciding to continue, hoping your words were getting somewhere with him. “And you helped me, remember? I never would’ve gotten through that if you hadn’t of helped. And I pushed and pushed you away but you didn’t leave. You stayed. All I’m asking is to let me stay.” You walk over to Spencer and he looks down at the ground, avoiding your eyes as you choose to stand in front of him.
You bow your head, wanting to meet his eyes as you put a waiting hand on his soft cheek. You move his head to look at you. “So, let me stay.” He can see the tears forming in your eyes as you practically beg him. His eyes gaze over to your lips before quickly going back to your eyes.
“Please don’t shut me out when all I wanna do is help.” You tell him and instead of nodding and listening to you and asking you to stay, he walks away. Because if he stays any longer, he might kiss you. And you don’t deserve that. Not right now.
He walks away, leaving your heart in pieces and you in shambles. He chose his path, so you must take the same route and forget you’d ask him to let you stay.
#criminal minds#mgg#spencer reid#spencer reid x reader#criminal minds fanfic#criminal minds x fem!reader#spencer reid criminal minds#spencer reid angst#spencer reid x fanfiction#spencer reid x you#spencer reid x y/n#spencer reid oneshot#mgg x reader#g4rvez-r3id
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hello!! i love you writing btw and i have an idea, tmi but i’m currently facing an online perverted stalker (he got me feeling scared) so i was wondering how the LnD boys would react to a reader facing the same issue T^T
if you don’t want to write for all the boys, just xavier is enough! thank you so much if you do decide to write this
Knight
Dude, I’m so sorry this is happening to you :(. I’ve had a couple stalkers before, not fun at all. Hope you’re safe ���
Warning: Stalking
You don’t know how he got your number. At first, it was strange messages about your hair. How pretty you looked in the sun. If the pancakes you had at that cafe were good. And that maybe you should both get some sometime.
But…Who was this person texting you?
You’ve never texted back. But that didn’t deter him from texting you more.
I love the way your hunters uniform looks on you.
Have you eaten today?
You looked lonely on that walk..
You were a strong hunter, everyone knew that. But the fact he seemed to know everything going on in your life at every waking moment started scaring you. And the worst part is, you could never find that fucker.
No matter how hard you looked, you couldn’t find a lead.Just people minding their own business. Was he tracking you? Was it your phone? But this was your work phone. So how was he stalking you—
“Are you alright?”
You looked up to see your boyfriend’s concerned face. He had taken you on a date to a local cafe for some coffee and egg tarts, but you seemed…distracted. Your fingers strummed anxiously, your bottom lip raw from how hard you’ve been biting it, and your eyes seem to dart this way and that looking for something. Scared of something. He’s never seen you so frightened before.
“Is something wrong?”
Do you tell him? Yes, he was your boyfriend, but he was so busy with work. And it’s just a stalker, you didn’t want him to think you were weak…
The sound of your ringtone made you jump. It was another text. From him. With a shaking hand, you pick up your phone and read it.
Bet he won’t make you cum like I would.
Hypersensitive to your feelings, Xavier snatched the phone away, eyes narrowing when he read the text.
“Who is this guy?”
You shake your head, signifying that you didn’t know. He scrolled up, scanning the countless texts this man has sent you, each one getting more and more graphic.
Xavier gets up abruptly, extending you his hand. “Let’s go.”
You nod, placing your hand in his, feeling just a bit safer as he guides you out the cafe with an arm around your shoulder. He takes you home, dropping you off at your apartment, pocketing your work phone. “Take tomorrow off. I’ll handle this.”
His tone leaves no room for debate so you can only nod and agree. Xavier’s countenance softens as he gives you a reassuring smile and leans over to kiss your forehead. “Don’t worry. Soon all these troubles will fade away like a bad dream.”
You had no choice but to trust him.
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The next day, Xavier jumps through your balcony window after work, still in his Hunters uniform. Like a knight in shining armor. It startles you, but he only smiles, walking over in proud strides, greeting you with a kiss. “Hello, my love. You have nothing to worry about now.”
You give him a slightly skeptical look, but Xavier answers your confusion by placing your work phone in your hand. There was one notification. An apology from your ex-stalker. Tearing up with relief, you look into Xavier’s eyes, asking if it was true. He gives you a warm smile and nods.
“B-But how?”
“I have connections.” Xavier shrugs. “And access to things you don’t. But…Promise me that next time you’re having trouble that you’ll come to me for help? I can’t stand seeing you so scared…”
You wrap your arms around his neck and kiss him.
“Deal.”
#⭐️l&ds#☀️l&ds#love & deepsace x reader#xavier x reader#xavier lnd#xavier lad#xavier lads#xavier love and deepspace
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Astrology observations
Scorpio risings causing drama without even meaning to
Capricorns are the hottest placement sun and rising
Everyone says it’s probably Leo or libra or Taurus but Capricorns have this I’m hot and it doesn’t matter energy. Like those placements know they’re hot. They got the bone structure and legs
Everyone thinks it’s Scorpio but I would NOT WANT TO MAKE AN AQUARIUS ANGRY. These people can be calculated and smart. They don’t feel in the same way other people do typically so they can really whip out some unwarranted shit.
Aries moons going 0 to 100 in half a second.
Virgo aries combos especially Virgo sun aries moon or Virgo rising aries… acting first thinking later and regretting everything:((( these can be some very… stimulated people.
Cancer Leo Taurus in the big three loyal and selfless with a dash of manipulation
Leo Venus will like you and still make you chase for a year you’d better be ready to chase!
Venus in the second know their self worth.
Mercury in Pisces/Sagittarius or in the 9th or 12th house how’s that ADD/ADHD??
Cancer stellium/ Virgo stellium with those stomach problems.
Where your 6th house ruler sits is how your health shows up. 6th house ruler in the third might need glasses or have hand problems. 6th ruler in the 12th might have mental health problems. 6th ruler in the 5th watch your heart.
Aquarius moons are so chill if your not tryna have a relationship with them and humble too. Like they won’t start shit.
Neptune in fire houses (1 5 & 9) have the reputation of being mysterious but isn’t as mysterious as everyone thinks, they don’t really know themselves either lol.
Further, neptune in the first just doesn’t see themselves the way you see them
Neptune in the 5th probably have identity issues, people like them better on drugs. Struggle to see themselves the way others see them causing misinterpretations
Neptune in the 9th people don’t see the spirits on your side lol. Maybe people don’t see that you can see through them
Saturns not all bad, in houses where you must acquire (earth houses 2 6 10)
Moon in the ascendant will have children especially with planets in the 5th.
Capricorn or Saturn in the 5th may have a hard time conceiving or having children
Uranus in the 5th… just make sure you wrap it cause get ready for those unexpected pregnancies. Also what’s up with those one night stands??
Neptune in the 11th most likely means friends at a distance or friendships where you do a lot of drugs and alcohol. Friends Can be artists as well. Best case I think these people are celebrities and connect with masses online.
Mars in Leo are HORNY and loud about it
Pluto in the third can cut people with their words
Moon in the 10th makes people comfortable around you yet a distance between you and other people?
Neptune in the 10th where’s your dad lol?
12th house ruler in the 10th everyone talks about you behind your back so much gossip
Virgo men lowk like it when you call them out🫢🫢
Pisces moons can’t stop lying huh? Like you don’t even know why your doing it
Virgo rising s are so hot. Like subtle beauty look good without makeup.
Virgo sun women’s personality is basically just whatever copies and compliments their best friend…
Fire sign moons are soo DRAMATIC
Moon in first = heart in sleeve
Thanks for reading let me know what you think please don’t copy my information!
#astrology#astro observations#astro placements#synastry#astro chart#astroblr#venus#8th house#5th house#placidus#saturn#cancer#capricorn
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who in svt would get as close as possible to you in the subway train while you're standing and hover over you, just to assert their dominance? i feel like it would be mingyu and coups the most, god i can hear those shit eating grins-
ohmygod
also, what about being afraid to ride public transportation unless you’re with him… you probably had one uncomfortable night ride and told yourself never again. then minghao told you to call him whenever it’s late and you have somewhere to go. you have to close your eyes the first time and focus on the feeling of his hand holding yours. with time, you go from watching him alone, to the scenery outside the window to the fellow passengers in the subway car.
mingyu and seungcheol… they’re the boys to ride with during rush hour and the odds are not in your favor for getting a seat, but you’re glued to his strong build, barely noticing the sudden jerks. it doesn’t hurt that his cologne overwhelms your senses in the best way, and his knuckles run up and down the length of your spine continuously. hell, you nearly fall asleep.
every one stares at jeonghan when you take the train together, but he’s too focused on the details of your day and convincing you to come to a few of the abroad tour stops or entertaining you with his latest debacle
joshua meets you at your stop every night he can and ohmygod how it releases all the butterflies and love confetti. he leans against the closest light post and you beam
once, you and jun waited at a bus stop for two hours in the pouring rain, and the memory is something you write down again every few months because you’re terrified it will leave you before you write your wedding vows
soonyoung would light up like a christmas tree taking a train in europe during your honeymoon. so many pictures. so much love. so wholesome
reading the same book with wonwoo who looks over at you and waits for your approval to turn the page. he stops reading if you fall asleep
you convinced jihoon to take a mattress on public transit once. it was a distressing experience, and now he won’t even whisper metro card
seokmin packs sandwiches for you in a cute lunch box he ordered online, and you exude a cheshire-wide smile every time you read his notes. he also loves to take public transportation for dates. like picnics only happen if you take the bus because in his head, they go hand in hand, and watching him sit beside you with the gingham blanket on his lap as he mindlessly trails his fingertips over your hand on the way to the park makes your heart melt
you’ve watched seungkwan on the train for months and try not to laugh at his unimpressed expressions or his dissatisfaction with an americano picked up from a new cafe. every time you try to talk to him, his stop is coming too soon, and you’re terrified of making him late or interrupting is schedule
you finally connected with hansol on the bus after months of stolen glances. it took you a couple weeks to realize you ride bus five at the same time at least a few times during the week. you’re amused and keep track of how long it takes for him to notice and gradually work his way closer to your seat until he gets on three stops late and the only available spot is beside you. he says: “did you forget your headphones?” before offering you one of his airpods. the first song he plays is one of your favorites, and it gives you chills
chan meets you at the red line and always has a book in his bag for you to read if the car gets crowded. having something else for you to focus on is his top priority, as if his hand in yours wouldn’t do the job just fine
#seventeen reactions#seventeen fluff#seventeen blurbs#seventeen imagines#seventeen scenarios#seventeen drabbles#seungcheol scenarios#jeonghan scenarios#joshua scenarios#jun scenarios#soonyoung scenarios#wonwoo scenarios#jihoon scenarios#seokmin scenarios#mingyu scenarios#minghao scenarios#seungkwan scenarios#hansol scenarios#chan scenarios
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Project: Galatea
Pairing: Miguel O'Hara x AI!reader
Synopsis: Allowing you sentiency made things more complicated between you and Miguel. But Peter Parker from Earth-199999 decides to take on an unfinished impossible project of his late mentor, and possibly bring you and Miguel back together.
Warning: Questionable nerd writing, spiderverse context, angst
Word Count: 6218
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You are one of Miguel O’Hara’s greatest regrets.
You were created as an artificially intelligent system and with the advancements brought by the time Miguel created you, he was able to make you connect, bond, and feel. He was lax with your restrictions. Thinking of you as a companion than a holographic computer system.
He gave you a name that is not patterned to your system, it was just a name he gave you as he thought it suited your features that was just generated by the programming. He wanted your appearance to be something that is yours, and not something that he created based on what he preferred.
You usually sat on Miguel’s shoulders before he even became Spiderman, working as a bioengineer at Alchemax. He knows it’s late when you start yawning and you lean on him for a nap, kind of like how someone would put their phone on a power saving mode.
“Miggy, let’s sleep?” You often say as you plop yourself atop his hair.
He just chuckles as he works on his suit, getting tired of the easily ripped fabric of his previous gear, he decided to create one that is made of unstable molecules. “You can go offline. I’ll have to finish this.”
“’M not sleeping if you’re staying up.” You huff. “Come on, you can work on that tomorrow.” You fly in front of him and cross your arms.
He notes how your halo is a bit dimmer. “Alright.” He often wondered if you can really get sleepy. You are created through codes and though it is evident that you can have emotions, you can’t possess qualities the same as a real person would.
Your wings flutter excitedly as you flap them so you can perch yourself back on his head.
It was a little inside joke between you. You are the rational voice when he is about to do something stupid. An angel on his shoulder. Your sudden appearance would often startle his enemies and wonder what the fuck you are and you would simply smile, point at Miguel and say, “I’m his conscience.”
Your halo and wings often glowed in the softest hue of pink and white. Their hue depends on your mood.
Miguel yawns as he enters his bathroom. You shriek and shield your eyes when he lifts his shirt up to strip.
“You pervert!” You stomp your heel on his forehead and even though he can’t feel it, your annoyance was enough to amuse him, Miguel’s laugh was muffled by his toothbrush.
You often sit on the faucet as you wait for him to finish his shower.
“What does a shower feel like?” You muse, your chin resting on your hand while your elbow is perched on your thigh.
“Uh…wet?”
You roll your eyes at his response. You look away from him when he comes out of the shower, a towel wrapped around his waist.
“It’s refreshing, I guess.” Miguel shrugs as he scoops your light projected body on his large hand.
Your tiny hands hold his thumb for balance, not that you need it but you felt the need to anyway.
“Go offline now, firefly. See you in the morning.”
“Don’t forget to buy groceries tomorrow.” You say before flickering. “Goodnight, Miggy.” And you disappear.
“Goodnight, Y/N.” He smiles.
On Sundays, you both share lazy mornings. He would often walk around his apartment in nothing but his boxers and you eventually get used to it. You would sit on his shoulders as he attempted to cook for himself.
“No, it should be three tablespoons of soy sauce, not teaspoons.” You would correct him every now and then and he would just switch the utensil, knowing that you have unlimited access to the recipes online.
You would lie on your stomach on the throw pillow he would put on his lap as you watched a movie. “She easily could have transferred the data and he won’t have to go through all that.” You would comment now and then as your tiny feet sway in the air. “But that’s fine, I guess, he looks hot fighting the bad guys.”
Miguel would jostle the pillow and you would dramatically roll as you struggled not to fall off, it was probably because of the spatial awareness he gave you.
You would often sulk when he goes on dates. Not responding when he asks you how to tie the piece of fabric that should be his tie. He often found you sitting on top of the bookshelf, your knees tucked to your chest as you drew shapes on the dust covered surface, the shapes not really being made, reminding you that you are only a projection, a hologram, an artificial being, someone who can’t be with Miguel.
“Oh, come one, firefly.” Miguel would sigh as he watched the soft glow behind the books. “It’s only a date.” But you don’t reply.
When he comes home, earlier than he should have been, he’s a little disappointed when you don’t greet him.
“Y/N?�� Where are you?” He calls as he looks around his apartment. His hands are already loosening his tie. “Come on, I didn’t even kiss her.”
Miguel chuckles lightly as he sees your head pop out from behind the picture frame containing a silly photo of the two of you. “You didn’t?” You ask.
“Nah, her breath stinks of onions.” Miguel throws his coat on the sofa and he collapses next to it.
You giggle and you fly to him, landing on his chest, laying down on your stomach once more as your hands support your cheeks. “Yeah? You didn’t like her?” You ask a little excitedly.
Miguel shakes his head as he keeps his eyes on you. He smiles when you cheer out of happiness.
He would also have fun watching you play dress up in front of his holographic tablet. He’s in his bed, just lounging and you’re on his abdomen, swiping the screen to find a new dress to wear. Miguel glances at the clock on his nightstand. You’ve been at it for hours.
“I like this one, what do you think, Miggy?”
The man turns to look at you, only for his spit to go down the wrong tube, making him hack. “What the hell is that?”
You look at the white skin tight dress that covers your tiny holographic body. “A dress?”
Miguel frowns at you. “Says who?”
A cute brow is raised at him. “Calvin Klein.”
He clicks his tongue. “It looks like underwear. The fuck would you choose such an old brand for?”
You scoff and continue to scroll to look for something else. “It’s a classic.”
“Well, I don’t like it.”
Then it happens one day.
You are helping Miguel battle Mysterio when he meets her. He caught her just before she fell to her death.
Next thing you knew, they were going on dates.
“Yeah, I know. I’ll deal with the symbiote sighting tomorrow evening.” He says hurriedly as he makes his way to his front door but you land on the doorknob and you look at him angrily.
“You can’t choose a girl over an entire city!” You say sternly as you place your hands on your hips.
Miguel raises a brow and smirks down at you. “What an exaggeration. Are you jealous?”
Your frown deepens. “Miguel, you can’t seriously go on a date when Carnage is at large!”
He straightens up and looks at you, annoyed. “If I wear the mask all the time, I’ll go mad. Just let me be Miguel O’Hara for tonight.”
Miguel does not return to his apartment that night.
And you don’t respond to his calls for a week.
“You’re such an inconvenience, Y/N.” He quips. “I made you so you can help me with my work.” He says as he looks around for the villain that was wreaking havoc in the city. “Stop sulking and do your job!”
You would reluctantly pop out and help him, only speaking when needed, giving him the information that he needs and nothing more.
It was difficult for you to watch Miguel slowly fall in love with her, and even more so when he loses her.
He became sad and angry, very angry.
“Miguel? You need to rest.” You say softly as you watch him perfecting an experiment. You peer on his work and your eyes widen when you see a powerful focused energy hovering on Miguel’s work table.
You immediately fly to his face. “Are you mad? Do you realize what you are doing?” He turns to the other screen but you follow him around. “You can’t tamper with time and space like that.”
All lights suddenly go off and Miguel exhales deeply through his nose, his eyes full of rage as he glares at you. “Power it back on.” His voice is low and it was the first time you have ever felt fear because of him but you stand your ground.
The man does not falter with his disapproving look on you but you refuse to power his computers back to life. You won’t just stand around and let him interfere with the natural order.
“My name is Miguel O’Hara and I am authorizing a shutdown sequence.” He says and you frantically look around as a bright red screen flashes behind you.
“Miguel, don’t do this!” You cry to him, your eyes begging as you press your tiny hands on his cheeks but his eyes remain cold as he stares at the screen.
“Commence shut down of the Intelligent Digital Assistance System. Project name: Galatea.” Miguel looks at your pleading eyes. “For good.”
He watches your eyes fill with sadness before your form flickers just like how it used to whenever you whisper ‘Goodnight.’ And he watches the pixelated tear roll down your cheek before you disintegrate into a million tiny pieces.
The events that followed after his decisions of tampering with the fragility of the multiverse was his punishment.
There was no undoing it all.
He wished he just listened to you when you tried to stop him. It wouldn’t have come to all of this.
Now, he dedicates his life to protecting what else is left. Trying to keep the multiverse intact to prevent the same mistake from happening.
And Lyrate Lifeform Approximation was created, or Lyla.
Miguel made her different from you. Lyla is created to be more objective, more functional, with just a right amount of spunk for a bit of personality.
The Spider Society was then formed. A strike force dedicated to keep the multiverse from tearing apart.
In there, he found a sense of sympathy. The people in there suffered just like him. A lot of spider-people were in pain. But not all of them knew how to follow orders. Not thinking about the consequences of their actions. Never willing to sacrifice a portion of themselves for the greater good.
Like Miles Morales.
Or Peter Parker of Earth-199999.
They both came around eventually, after a couple or more heart attacks from Miguel.
Peter Parker was trying to learn from Spider-Byte and how future tech works. He was given a specific holographic screen in the corner and he’s been trying to pick it apart for hours.
“Wow, Ned’s not gonna believe this.” He whispers as his eyes dart from one file to the other, being connected like faint orange lines.
“Hold on, what’s this?” Peter mumbles as he taps on a tiny file that is placed separate, somewhere isolated, forgotten.
“Can I?” Peter scratches his jaw. “Should I?” He shrugs before opening the file. He rolls his chair backward as the tiny file explodes to the most intricate coding he has ever seen. He saw something like this before. When he studied Tony’s AIs. Or at least what was left of them.
He clicks on a file, one of the millions. A large ‘RESTRICTED’ was flashed on the screen in bold red letters. He tries again and the same word is flashed. He tries again and again until he sees Miguel O’Hara himself in front of a mirror and a miniature angel on Miguel’s hand.
“You like it?” Miguel asked.
The holographic angel nods excitedly, pure joy evident in her eyes. She twirls around in front of the mirror, inspecting her wings and adoring her tiny halo.
“Miggy, it’s perfect!” You fly up to kiss his cheek. The connection between you was impossible to miss.
And the screen goes blank.
“Are you kidding me?” Peter grasps his hair as he jumps around in excitement. Peter squints his eyes to read the file name. “Galatea.”
“Greek mythology Galatea?” Spider-Byte wonders behind Peter.
Peter flinches, his sidersense clouded with the amount of enthusiasm being contained in his body. “I-I don’t know. I don’t know yet. It’s-”
“That’s the file name of my older sister, Y/N.” Lyla suddenly pops out between them.
“Lyla, you know her?” Peter asks, not being able to hide his eagerness. “Is she an AI like you?”
Spider-Byte and Peter look at her in anticipation. “I’m not sure if I should talk about her.” She looks skeptical before she breaks into a wide grin. “Well, there’s no order for me not to so I suppose I can.”
Two sets of eyes follow Lyla around as she glitches towards Peter’s screen and she pops up a photo of you sitting on Miguel’s head as the two of you wore similar aviators.
“She’s Miguel’s first AI companion. Way before the Spider Society was even created, before he was even Spiderman, I think.” Lyla rubs her chin as she opens her own tiny screens. “Though, I’m not sure. Miguel replays their videos together in the dark when he thinks he’s alone but I can’t really find most of her files.”
“It was compressed there.” Peter points at the screen, trying not to get distracted from what Lyla just told them. “Did she get corrupted by a virus?” His thoughts wandered to the articles he read about Ultron.
“No. She uhm.” The small screen Lyla created vanished, making her glowing face look a bit dimmer. “Her program was shut down.”
Spider-Byte glanced at the screen that has you and Miguel in it. “Why shut down a working program?”
Lyla glances at your face on the screen. “She was created differently. More empathetic and subjective. For some reason, she was sentient.”
Peter gawks at her and he shares a look with Spider-Byte. “Was that even a possibility?” Spider-Byte asks.
Shrugging, Lyla gives them a tight-lipped smile. “Well, it happened, didn’t it?”
“She was sentient but she was shut down?” Peter asks incredulously. “Did she go rogue or something?”
Lyla shakes her head no. “She was the total embodiment of those wings and halo.”
“Then why was her program shut down?” Peter asked, his face twisted in pure confusion and disbelief.
Lyla doesn’t respond and turns to your picture with Miguel and your matching smiles.
Spider-Byte sighs. “They got too attached, didn’t they? Her and Miguel?”
Peter frowns at her question but remembers Wanda and Vision J.A.R.V.I.S.
An impossible idea pops in Peter’s head. It’s irrational, risky, and impulsive but those are just some of the qualities Peter got from his mentor.
“Do you think Miguel would give her codes to me?” Peter blurts.
Lyla and Spider-Byte looks at him as if he just asked if he could go break a canon.
“Absolutely not.” Was Miguel’s response to Peter when he finally asked the bigboss for your codes.
Peter curses under his breath. He even had to ask MJ and Ned to help him create a presentation as to why Miguel should give your codes to him.
“Oh, come on. I rehearsed that speech for a week!”
“She holds classified information. I can’t just give a copy of her to you.” Miguel says as he taps on his holographic screen.
“Not a copy. The original code.” Peter says more seriously. “Protocols and memory.”
Miguel pauses and glowers at Peter from his shoulders. The look was enough to make Peter second guess himself but his resolve comes back, stronger than ever.
“I’m trying to bring her back to you.” Peter says loudly.
This catches Miguel’s attention and he turns to look at Peter from above the platform in his office.
“Elaborate.” Miguel looks at Peter with a blank expression.
Peter pumps his fist secretly and clears his throat before speaking.
“I am currently studying bioorganics and I’m trying to complete an unfinished project of my mentor, Mr. Stark. He created a synthetic body that is not made of vibranium but something that is made of organic materials. You know, like a real person.”
Miguel looks at the screen next to him which is flashing Peter’s proposal. “And you want Y/N to bring life to that thing?”
“Well, it won’t be easy without the mind stone but I heard she’s quite sentient.” Peter explains while gesturing with his hand way too much, clearly nervous. “That is also assuming that her operational matrix adapts to the organic body.”
“What if you fail? I’ll lose all her data.” Miguel says, a threatening tone clearly heard in his voice.
“Last time her file was opened was years ago.” Peter quickly shut his mouth when Miguel throws him a dangerous look. “What I’m trying to say is, this is a chance. You could potentially see her again, this time, with a physical body.”
Miguel heaves a sigh and chooses to glare at the walls instead.
“I know something painful must have happened for you to shut down her program like that. But it doesn’t feel right to trap a sentient being in a set of codes.” Peter frowns at his feet and grumbles the next words. “Come on man, I’m trying to give you a chance to apologize to her, face to face.”
Silence fills the entire room.
Peter is waiting for Miguel to yell again but he is taken aback when he looks up to see a defeated and longing look plastered on Miguel’s face.
“Just…” Miguel pauses, it was difficult for him and Peter can see it. “Don’t destroy her code.”
“Thank you, Mr. O’Hara. You won’t regret it!” He beams at Miguel.
“I sure hope not.” Miguel turns to his screens to resume his work. “And Mr. O’Hara was my father. You can call me Miguel.”
Peter wasted no time and started working on the project right away when he got back to Earth-199999.
It was difficult, trying to follow Bruce and Tony’s work. Especially when the body is more susceptible and reactive. You even had the anatomy of a real person, inside and out.
The project was something that Peter cannot do on his own. He needed his friends and MJ and Ned were more than willing to help. Both were hesitant with the thought of literally bringing an AI to life, considering what happened before in Sokovia. They did not know you, MJ and Ned, they were wary as they should be with all the risks they were about to make.
Peter had to turn your code upside down, in and out, trying to look for glitches or any malicious intent but found none.
The three of them are taken by surprise as to what your synthetic body could do.
It was MJ who noticed first. You have a lymphatic system.
By next week, Ned finds out that you have a fully functional endocrine system.
There was always something in you that they discover for the first time when they delve deeper. Which makes it difficult for them to make real progress. Just as they thought they made a breakthrough, your synthetic body just shows another ability that blurs the line between you and humanity.
“You need to stop looking at her like a robot.” Miguel tells him one day as Peter seeks any advice from him, considering that he did work in Alchemax as a bioengineer. “Treat her like how you would treat a human.”
That was when Peter decided that just him and his friends can’t do it alone. They were only college students!
This project calls for someone who has a doctorate in medicine and knows the human body like the back of their hand.
It was difficult for them to get Stephen Strange to have a look at the setbacks they encountered in your body. But when given the right information and told what he wanted to hear, Stephen was already opening a portal to Peter’s dorm room.
“I’ll tell you what’s the problem.” Stephen says. “Some of her neurons are meeting in a terminal. Electrical impulses can’t get through, causing circuit failures.”
Peter squints on the holographic screen that Stephen zoomed in. “Yeah. That’s where the mind stone is supposed to be.”
“But the AI has an awakened consciousness, she won’t be needing it.” Stephen mutters more to himself. “And the mind stone's already gone.”
Ned walks over to look at the screen, a cup of hot chocolate in his hands. “But you’ll be able to redirect them, won’t you?”
Stephen does not respond, only staring intently at the holographic form of your shell.
MJ glances at the anxious look on Peter’s face as he awaits Stephen’s answer. When silence still follows, MJ rolls her eyes.
“Don’t get your hopes up too much, Ned.” She sighs, making Stephen narrow his eyes. “There could be a thousand neu-”
“A trillion.” Strange emphasizes.
“A trillion neurons to redirect. He might be a neurosurgeon but he is not a miracle worker.”
Ned sucks in a breath and raises his cup to his lips and sips quietly, eyes wide, awaiting Stephen’s response.
Stephen suddenly rips off the sling ring and slips it somewhere in his robes. Peter takes a step back, almost getting hit by Stephen dramatically taking off his cape. “I’m about to become your deus ex machina.”
MJ snatches a piece of bread sitting on Peter’s dining table and takes a bite, sending a wink to Peter.
“Stark really outdid himself.” Stephen marvels at your intricate anatomical structure. “The shell does mimic the human body, the nerves, fiber, and vessels.” Stephen squints at something and hums. “But there’s the issue of physiology.”
Peter looks at the metallic casket and to Stephen. “What about physiology?”
Stephen points at the left side of your pelvis. “That’s an ovary.” He drags his finger on the screen to point at the right side. “There’s another one here.”
Peter could only look at Stephen. Waiting for him to confirm what was running in Peter’s head.
Surely Tony did not think that far ahead to give you that ability. That is ethically ambiguous.
“It is possible that it is not functional.” Stephen rubs his jaw. “Perhaps we could think of it as a vestigial organ for now.”
Peter simply nods, following Stephen as he zooms in on your lumbar spine.
“She has a functional endocrine system.” Ned recalls, making Stephen whip towards him. “I ran a noninvasive test and I detected traces of estrogen, progesterone, and FSH.”
Stephen runs a hand on his face. “And hCG?”
Ned ponders for a moment. “Yeah, human chorionic gonadotropin was also there.”
MJ clutches her bread a little too tight. “She is capable of gestation?” Her voice came out as a shaky whisper.
All eyes turn to Stephen who shakes his head. “That is ridiculous!” He chuckles dryly. “That shouldn’t be possible.” He stares at the holographic image of the synthetic shell. “Was Stark trying to play God?” His voice was starting to raise, his fist clenching.
“Whoa, I’m sure that’s not it.” Peter raises a hand nervously as he gulps.
Strange points at the casket. “You realize you’ll be bringing a being to life that isn’t supposed to exist.”
“She has a name!” MJ interjects.
“You understand that you are overstepping your mortal bounds.” Stephen continues.
Peter looks at Stephen, shocked. “Please, sir! I-I only want to finish this project for Mr. Stark.” He points at your holographic body. “And set her free from her digital prison. We are about to give her a chance to live, like really live.”
Stephen glances at your metallic casket warily.
“She’s not a villain.” Peter says more calmly. “I checked her code a thousand times.”
Stephen shakes his head.
“I can’t believe I’m about to take part in a project that is the peak of Stark’s god complex.”
Peter grins.
The chance of meeting you does not seem so impossible anymore.
Miguel watches Peter Parker of Earth-199999 with a sharp glare.
The “project” that the kid told him about has been going on for six months but he has been given zero updates regarding your progress.
His jaw tightens when he catches the kid stealing a glance at him from across the cafeteria in HQ before ducking his head again.
“Why don’t you go ask him what’s wrong?” Peter B says blankly at Miguel as he stuffed his mouth with fries. “Kid’s been doing that for the past hour.”
Miguel scoffs. “If he has something to say, he will be the one to approach me.”
For the past months, Miguel has been dropping hints to Avenger Peter, the nickname seems to really make the kid happy so the entire Spider Society just rolled with it. Miguel made sure to assign him on missions that might aid his project. The kid can be dense sometimes in picking up indirect messages but Miguel does it anyway, almost sighing out a breath of relief when he watches Peter’s eyes glimmer with realization.
“Whope- Okay! I gotta run. See you around, Miguel.” Peter B snatches his drink and clumsily leaves.
Miguel glares at the man’s retreating form before he hears his name being called.
“What?” Miguel spits.
“Uh, is this a bad time?”
Miguel looks to his side and narrows his eyes at Avenger Peter. Finally, he mustered the courage.
“What is it?” Miguel straightens, his enormous arms crossing in his chest, looking a bit threatening.
Peter looks at the empty seat in front of Miguel, he’s not sure if it’s rude to just sit there without being invited to but he does it anyway.
“It’s about Y/N.” Peter whispers rather too loudly, basically defeating its purpose.
Miguel’s eyes flickered with fury, making Peter swallow harshly, trying to choose his words very carefully.
“I know I really took my time with the project but the good news is that we successfully transferred her code to the shell.”
Oftentimes, Miguel would pitch in sarcastic comments but he can feel the weight in Peter’s words that he finds himself closely listening, trying to take in every detail that Peter shares.
“We managed to synthesize her code and reprogrammed her synapses to sync and adapt to the body.” Peter heaves a breath. “But the thing is, we can’t get to wake her up.”
The crushing feeling of losing someone again was not easy for Miguel to ignore but he nodded at Peter’s words.
“Did you try amping the power source?” Miguel suggests.
Peter nods slowly. “Yes. We tried from nuclear fission to the arc reactor.” Peter leans back on the cafeteria bench, looking too nonchalant despite the shadiness of his words, Miguel won’t be surprised if one day he finds out that the kid’s locked up in prison for conducting mad experiments. “I was thinking of contacting Thor but I really didn’t know how.”
Miguel masks the disappointment in his eyes with a stern look. “Did you make sure that you got all her system matrix properly embedded in the body?”
“Definitely!” Peter nods. “It’s like she’s far away, dreaming. She’s there but she’s also not. Y/N’s shutting us out.”
A pindrop silence befalls them.
“What did you say?” Miguel says sharply to Peter as he leans slightly forward.
The kid unconsciously leans backward. “Y/N’s…shutting us out?”
It all clicks in Miguel’s head.
“She needs me.”
Peter’s eyes widened at his bluntness. “Huh?”
“I designed her program to only respond to me. I shut off her system. Of course. Her protocol does not recognize you.”
Slowly, Peter catches up, his eyes widening in barely contained excitement. “Is she programmed to activate upon voice command?”
Miguel rises to his feet, quickly making his way out of the cafeteria while Peter giddily follows, the largest smile plastered on his face.
“I’m certain I can get her to respond.” Miguel mutters as he taps into his multiverse gizmo.
The familiar building up sound of the portal fills the air and soon enough a cluster of patterns and colors emerge right in front of them.
With purpose in his steps, Miguel crosses the portal headed to Earth-199999, to you.
Peter’s room was nothing short of underwhelming compared to the building they just stepped out of but Miguel can see the traces of genius scattered around the room.
On top of a desk, piled notes for astrophysical physics. Next to the kitchen sink, a perpetual motion machine that is made of the most tedious house materials. In a corner, a phone is being charged and is hanging by the charger cord.
The lights suddenly power off, coating the room in darkness. “I know you’re sensitive to lights.” Peter shrugs, to which Miguel only nods.
“Stop right there!”
Miguel turns to see a girl threatening him with a piece of…toast? And another kid who is doing a very poor karate stance.
“No, MJ, Ned. It’s fine, he’s here to help Y/N.” Peter raises his hands and steps in between Miguel and the other kids.
“Where is she?” Miguel asks.
The kid trying to do the karate stance points to the corner of the room that is covered by a screen.
Miguel easily slips past them, he didn’t even have to try.
He ignored the calls as his feet just led him to where you are. He didn’t know what he should be expecting to see. But he knew it wasn’t the metallic casket.
“She’s in there.” Peter stands next to him. “It’s powered enough and it should activate when you power her system on.” Miguel can only nod at Peter’s words. “We don’t have a hypothesis yet as to what would happen when she rises. But we could probably expect that she would manifest signs similar to someone who just woke up from cryosleep. Orthostatic hypotension could also be a possibility-”
Peter pauses when he feels MJ’s hand on his shoulder. MJ nods to Miguel’s pained expression.
The time they spent on your project was enough to drive them nuts and they are dying to see you but looking at Miguel’s face, they know they might never fully understand the longing he feels.
Peter does not know what happened between you two but he can ask another day. He watches how Miguel’s fingers carefully brush the metallic casket. If Peter didn’t know better, he would have been greatly disturbed with the amount of vulnerability the man is showing.
“Well, we’re gonna step out for a bit as you wake her up.” Peter says with a softer smile gracing his lips. “And I really appreciate the hints you drop every now and then.”
MJ smiles at Peter and she interlaces their hands together. Ned nods at the two and follows them out.
The soft footsteps soon fade and the sound of the door locking into place reaches Miguel’s ears.
A quiet buzzing was audible from the box that contained you. It must have been the energy they tried to power you with. But it was endearing to him in some way that only he could wake you.
There were only a few times where a man of such stature as Miguel O’Hara was brought to his knees. This was one of them. His knees hit the cheap fabric of the carpet and his weight bears on his skin. Miguel lay his hand flat on the cool surface of the metallic box. And he leans his forehead to it.
With his voice hoarse, he whispers your name. He swallows the rest of the words. He does not know why. He cannot wait a second longer to see you but the fear grips him hard, just like how it did for years.
It was a cruel terror but his desire to see your face again overpowers any fear.
“My name is Miguel O’Hara and I am authorizing a startup sequence.”
Miguel grits his teeth when he does not hear the same beeping sounds that precedent your arrival. His forehead creasing at the memory of you begging him not to lock you away. He did not deserve you, not after what he did. But Miguel O’Hara is a selfish man and he would stop at nothing to have you back.
“Commence booting of the Intelligent Digital Assistance System. Project name: Galatea.” He sucks in a breath, this time, meaning the next words with all honesty. “For good.”
Silence has never been louder. It clogged the room, suffocating him.
“Please, wake up.” He brushes his lips on the freezing cold case.
A hiss is released by the contraption and Miguel’s eyes widen as he steps back to see you better. But as more hissing sound came, vapor flooded the area where the metallic flaps were slowly opening.
Then a hand grasped on the opened flaps, then came distressed gasping.
“Y/N!” Miguel didn’t know what he was doing, his body was acting on its own as he hopped inside the casket to help you sit up.
Your hair covers your face and Miguel reaches to brush them to the side, his large calloused hand rubs on your bare back to soothe you. It felt unreal to finally have you in his grasp, hearing you, seeing you.
You whimper in pain when a particular cough rasped on your throat.
“Hey, take it easy.” Miguel whispers as he crouches down so he can see you eye to eye. “Breathe.”
And when you look up to him with your eyes heavy with exhaustion, Miguel halts his movements as he feels himself being caught up in a temporal illusion.
Time, space, everything felt irrelevant the moment your eyes met his.
“M-Miggy?” You whisper.
Miguel breaks into a disbelieving smile.
He watches your moonlight bathed face contort to confusion. You raise your delicate fingers, reaching out to his face but stopping just before your skin touches. You hesitate, not sure if what you see before you is truly the man you loved.
The tips of your fingers brush on his cheek so softly, he almost doesn’t feel it and you let them run across his warm skin so you can cup his cheek.
Your chapped lips break to the smile he missed and loved so ardently.
He closes his eyes as he lets your fingers dance on his skin. He holds in a breath when your fingertips smooth out the crease on his forehead and his much larger hand captures your wrist.
For so long, he wanted to apologize. He did, countless of times, in the darkness and silence of his room, to a photo of you. His apologies only floating in the air, unheard.
“What I did to you was wrong. Everyday, I regret it. I promised you happiness when I created your code but I upset you and I have no right to be hurting in the way that I am. I was so stupid for shutting your system down when you were only looking out for me.”
The moonlight bathed you, making you glow, an ethereal sight to behold.
“I wasn’t ready to say goodbye when you shut down my program.” You say as you place your hands on his shoulders. “But there is nothing you can ever do to make me stay mad at you.”
He was about to protest when you hushed him.
“I know.” You smile at him tenderly. “You don’t have to say anything else. I know.”
Miguel could feel his chest tightening. The complexity of the quantum physics, he has no trouble understanding, but what you do to him, he is easily lost. “I don’t deserve you, firefly.”
You nod. “No, you don’t.” You yawn before flashing him a sleepy smile. “But I’ll stay with you anyway.”
He chuckles, eyes boring into yours.
You are as stubborn as he remembers you to be.
Your breath mixes together as you let yourselves draw to each other.
His arm slips to your waist, pulling you flush to him.
“Pervert, I’m not decent.” You mumble against his lips. “I have so many questions.”
“Save them for later.” Miguel captures your lips in his. You let out the deepest breath you have taken and you let him mold your lips together. “I screwed up.” He slots your bottom lip between his and he nibbles. “But I could spend the rest of my life making it up to you.”
You hum, amused. “Are you sure about that?” He kissed your shoulder. “I can be quite a handful.”
The corner of Miguel’s lips tugs upwards. “Believe me, I know.”
A teasing smile creeps on your lips and the half-lidded eyes that you are giving him are making him feel fuzzy, it was like you were never apart.
“You are so in love with me.” You press the tip of your finger to his chest, teasingly accusing him.
He shakes his head as he laughs.
“Always have been.”
Project: Galatea • Project: Pandora • Project: Eros
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To add on to the person asking about Larry and if u think it was real- I (unfortunately) used to be one- but as I grew up and kinda connected the dots I realized that if they were together, it likely evolved into something very unhealthy. There’s plenty of evidence that A) Harry wanted a solo career and B) Louis didn’t know. Amongst other unhealthy things… my guess as to why Louis gets so triggered by Larry of course is likely bc of his son, but also bc it’s likely that people are romanticizing his relationship with an ex that hurt him. Can you imagine ur S.O betraying you and you 1) can’t say anything about it 2) have to talk nicely about them anyway but also 3) everyone keeps shipping you two and you can’t scream that this person hurt you. I think they’ve forgiven each other and I don’t think that there’s any true bad blood, but I can imagine it’s exhausting to have to hear about
My guess is that Louis knew that Harry wanted to go solo (if Zayn did, surely Louis did), but at the time of hiatus, Louis (+Niall +Liam) didn’t know how much Harry would try to disassociate himself from One Direction. I think that was the most painful to Louis, Harry’s disloyalty. Louis could probably forgive Harry’s greed and the poor choice of friends, but not the insult to a band he was very proud of.
I also don’t think Harry’s change was something that happened right away; it wasn’t a switch that turned on January 1, 2016. Through 2016 Louis had a lot of personal issues to deal with (Freddie’s birth, Jay’s illness), and if I recall, in early 2017 Louis was patiently watching and waiting to see what would happen. There was a feeling of optimism that all of 1D could all do some sort of solo projects and support each other. Remember when Harry retweeted the photo of Louis drinking a milk shake, in April 2017? Harries won’t admit that he did this intentionally, but Harry Styles did, and the tweet was left up for 45 minutes. I think Louis was aware.
In 2017, Louis had praised Harry’s music and film (and hyped everyone else’s projects), wished Harry a happy birthday online, and given a lot of good will. Louis also denied Larry in July 2017 so Harry wouldn’t have to (but he still got to say he was “unlabeled”— LGBT friendly). At some point, it became clear that Harry wouldn’t return Louis’ good will, and that it wasn’t in Sony’s plans, either. Louis had taken the high road, and he got played. I think Louis used a word in his 1883 magazine interview, that people who weren’t native to LA but were transplants from elsewhere were “snakes.” For Louis, that’s a loaded, emotional word, with a lot of personal betrayal behind it.
I do think that Louis gets very irritated by the mention of Larry these days. You can see the difference in his facial expression between 2017 (sardonic, playful) and 2024 (tired, sick of it, disgusted). Louis took the extraordinary step of blocking HLD. Blocking a UA is something he has never done.
I would agree with you that Louis has gotten over whatever happened with Harry. He talks about Harry as a brother, not unlike Niall, in a neutral way. Both at the Euros finals and at Liam’s funeral, they were in the same vicinity with little to no interaction— neither positive nor negative. They didn’t avoid each other but weren’t visibly warm toward one another. Louis’ sister Lottie was at the funeral as well, seen only talking to Zayn’s family. Louis had no interactions with Ben Winston or James Corden, whom he’s known for ages. When Louis did talk to someone, it was Zayn.
Part of the reason that I think Louis is able to let go of the past is that he is secure in his own career now, with his own investments and projects, and a clear way ahead. AOTV was an exorcism of sorts. When Louis wrote Walls, he could say goodbye to those traumas through his creativity. When he made AOTV, he processed the trauma from One Direction, including the most hurtful, most traumatic times. Unlike Harry, Louis has no pettiness. He doesn’t really ever blame others, but rather tries to work out how to get it out of his own system.
But you can understand that a normal person only has so much forbearance for fans’ invasive, toxic nonsense. No matter how clearly Louis shows his displeasure, Larries don’t give up. I think this is one main reason that Louis rarely ever comes on social media.
Addendum: I also think that because Liam died from issues of addiction, anxiety, and lack of self-confidence, Louis feels responsible in a way, because he had always tried to publicly support and defend Liam. And I do think that Louis feels his bandmates could have done more for Liam, especially Harry, who never publicly returned Liam’s support or friendship. I think this is a very tough thing to forgive. I think Zayn’s gesture is wonderful, and I know Louis sees it too.
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the way i’m stupid and can’t tell if paige and sasha are actually married or not in your book. like i need you to tell me if it’s wife as in like legal marriage or wife as in ik i’m gonna make you my wife so i’m calling you that now even if we’re not married
they're married babes
Was I Talking To You?
Chapter four: Was I talking to you?
warning: none
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VINODOL RESTURANT
ZAGREB, CROATIA
8PM
After the half-day plane ride, the UCONN Huskies found themselves at the Italian restaurant on the first floor of their hotel, taking the time to grab a hot meal and get to know each other. Since most visitors were outside enjoying the festivities in the area, the restaurant was mostly empty, allowing the staff to connect three tables for the players and coaching team instead of splitting them up.
“Okay, as the player who’s been here the longest, I think I should start the ‘get to know you’ conversation,” Aubrey said, straightening her posture.
“You’ve been here the longest because you refuse to leave—not because we want you here,” Sasha commented snarkily from her seat beside the tallest player on the team.
“Any... ways!” Aubrey gave her best friend a dismissive wave, which Sasha swatted down before sticking her tongue out. “Like I was saying before I was rudely interrupted.”
“No one interrupted you,” Sasha shook her head. “I waited until you were done before I corrected you.”
“Just because Paige lets you walk all over her doesn’t mean you can start with me,” Aubrey shot back, aiming her remark at the blonde seated on the other side of the team captain.
“What did I do?” Paige threw her hands up in surprise. “This is between y’all; I’m just a witness.”
“Don’t come for my wife just because your girl doesn’t wanna claim you,” Sasha remarked, leaning over to give Paige a quick kiss—only to be interrupted by someone throwing a piece of bread at them.
“You may be married to her, Paige, but just know she comes to bed with me every night,” Azzi teased, glaring playfully at her best friend.
“That’s because y’all binge-watch early seasons of Dance Moms and yell when you think a dance should’ve scored higher than the others,” Paige pointed out, her voice rising.
“Because everybody and their mama knows Chloe should’ve scored higher than Maddie!” Sasha raised her voice, emphatically nodding.
“Maddie does the same freaking dance over and over! They’re not tired!? And then they score her higher,” Azzi complained, reflecting on the show’s obvious favoritism, since every viewer knew the truth—that the show was set up to make Maddie successful, and Maddie only.
“Excuse me! Excuse me—I was talking,” Aubrey said, drawing attention back to herself.
“If you really wanted to talk, you would’ve talked,” Sasha said, turning back to face her curly-haired friend.
“I was, until— You know what, I’m not even going to address you,” Aubrey waved her off, directing her attention mainly toward the freshmen. “We’re gonna go around and tell each other our name, year, and what we want to do after school... I’ll go first. I’m Aubrey Griffin, I’m a graduate student, and I want to play in the WNBA after school.”
“I can’t tell by the way you keep coming back,” Sasha mumbled under her breath.
“What was that, Sasha?” Aubrey exclaimed, hearing Sasha’s mumble.
“I said sit down so I can introduce myself,” Sasha replied with faux politeness. “Sup, losers, it’s your girl, the Assassin, and I’m ma—”
“Nobody calls you that,” Aubrey interrupted, rolling her eyes.
“Actually—actually, if you took a break from your super-senior day and went online, you’d know that everyone calls me the Assassin, thank you very much, Ms. ‘I want to be in the WNBA but won’t sign up for the draft.’” Sasha couldn’t resist the comeback. “Like I was saying, before I was rudely interrupted... Y’all should already know who I am, so I’m not gonna tell y’all my name, as if we didn’t have freshman orientation, group workouts, and practices before y’all committed. I’m currently pursuing my master’s in sports management and racial & gender studies.”
“Ohhh, you smart-smart,” Kamorea Arnold, aka KK, commented.
“Very,” Sasha smiled, acknowledging the compliment. “And this year, I plan on finally leaving after six years and entering the draft for the W.”
“You’ve been here for six years, but I’m the super senior?” Aubrey questioned, confused by her friend’s logic.
“I was at UCONN for six years because I finished high school early and was living with Geno before that. You’ve been here for five years because you have nowhere else to go. We are not the same.”
“Anyways, Paige, go,” Aubrey waved her off.
“Don’t steal my word just because you know I’m right,” Sasha shook her head.
“Wassup, y’all, I’m Paige. I’m a redshirt junior, and after school, I plan on playing in the WNBA. And if that doesn’t work out, that’s okay, because I’ll still be a WAG, emphasis on the W,” Paige added with a cheeky smile.
“More like heavy on the D for divorce, because we know Sasha really only married you because you were easy, and she actually wants to be with me,” Azzi said with a grin.
“Azzi, don’t start with me, and I won’t start with you.” After thirty minutes of introductions—which should have taken much less time but was stretched by constant interruptions—they finally finished going around the table. Luckily, their food arrived just as they were wrapping up.
“So, Coach, what’s the schedule like?” Nika asked, sipping her lemonade and looking across the table.
“So, the schedule we had last year was trash, so I threw it in the trash where it belonged,” Sasha said, making eye contact with the head coach, who gave her a playful glare. “And you know it was trash too.”
“We had five days of practice because y’all sucked and kept getting injured,” Geno shrugged.
“And you keep recruiting and redshirting players who suck ass, but we don’t give you five days of paperwork,” Sasha countered, showing her usual sass toward the coach, who was practically a second father to her.
“You live and learn,” Geno replied.
“Oh, it’s ‘you live and learn’ when it comes to you, but suicides when it’s us.” Instead of responding, the coach turned back to his conversation with the rest of the coaching staff. “Since he wants to ignore me because he knows I’m right,” Sasha continued, “we’ll be having workouts and practice Monday through Wednesday. On those days, you’ll be graded, and on Friday, you’ll get a text from either me or Geno about weekend tutoring. Those who plan on entering the draft this year will also have mandatory tutoring, along with the freshmen.”
“Thank God,” Amari praised, raising her hands in relief. “I can’t do five days of workouts, practice, and playbook studying. My brain hurts by Saturday.”
“Bro, coming to the next practice after Geno knew he had our muscles spasming the day before,” Paige groaned loudly.
“I liked the spasm feeling,” Sasha shrugged. “It feels good sometimes.”
“Shut up!” Aubrey made a face.
“Was I talking to you?” Sasha shot back.
“Okay, y’all, don’t start,” Paige gently grabbed her wife’s chin and softly guided her gaze back. “You ready for bed, baby? I’m sleepy,” she said, giving her best puppy eyes, eager to lie down with her in her arms.
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I think ageswap au Prowl was definitely passed over by, like. MOST of high command until Sunstreaker and Sideswipe picked him up. Command is hearing about Prowl a lot more than most cadets and it’s never good. He’s mouthy, asks too many questions, won’t do what he’s told (or will seem to do it, but actually do whatever the fuck he feels like)—and it’s driving his sergeants insane. None of the other cadets seem to like him and at least a part of that is him getting them all in trouble, but even when Prowl tries his level best to connect with them he’s just. Transparently Other. He won’t go drinking period. Seems like he abhors parties. Lashes out easily and when Prowl apologized it’s usually Badly. The mech does like to race, but nobot actually wants him there and while not great with social skills, Prowl can tell. He’s a problem mech. Autobot High Command’s general consensus is that he’ll either wash out of training or scrape along and never accomplish much, no matter HOW good his test scores are.
Except Sunstreaker and Sideswipe go to actually observe this Prowl before writing him off. And what do you know, a lot of these behaviors are awfully familiar to two former, feral children turned gladiators. Prowl is… maybe the same age as his fellow cadets, but he’s YOUNG is the thing. Prowl claims to be a cold construct, but with Praxus destroyed there’s hardly any records left. That processor and the specialized hardware leaves mechs wondering, for certain. Whether or not it’s true is anyone’s guess, but no matter the case he definitely onlined right at the ugly end of Sentinel Prime’s reign. Destined for war with no other real choices. Frustrated and afraid and trying to find some kind of identity, only to routinely be told that said self is just not what anyone is looking for. It’s a familiar and very bitter pill for the twins to swallow, so they pick him up just to prove everyone wrong. Because if they deserved their chance, then this half feral mechling deserves one too.
I think even the twins are surprised at how well it works. Prowl���s never going to be a social butterfly, and he stays blunt and somewhat awkward no matter how hard they try, but he does better with a small group of concentrated “adult” attention. Much, MUCH later into their acquaintance Prowl will admit that much of his lashing out and mouthiness was just a poor attempt to seize any amount of control he could over a life where he was constantly afraid and had none. That he had convinced himself that if he could just control EVERYTHING then he’d finally feel okay. And also he’s sorry. Which, of course, Sunstreaker and Sideswipe had already guessed. But they only pet and fuss over their trainee and say oh, how brave you are.
Of course, the twins toting Prowl around has exposed him to most of command. Who have found out that, actually, he isn’t a bad egg. He’s got plenty of potential, and just needs one-on-one attention he wasn’t getting before. Like, the second most of the old-timers met him, they went “Oh, he’s a KID.”
And that’s how it all got started (with kinky sex along the way)
You said it much better than I have... Prowl just needed a chance, a guiding hand. Sunstreaker and Sideswipe saw so much of themselves in his struggle for attention and power and agency. They were determined to prove that he's not "just a bad kid", he just needs a push down the right path!
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Okay, the mp100 fandom (and other fandom spaces as well) makes me really hopeful✨
The internet is mostly a cruel and terrible place. It largely exists as an instrument of global capitalism. Governments use social media to push propaganda that either reinforces their fascist, conservative ideals or instills leftists that want to fight back with a sense of hopelessness that paralyzes and scares them. And we’re also getting to a point where much of the content we see online is not only made by AI, but interacted with by AI as well. We’re seeing “art” and ragebait stories that aren’t even made by real humans, but are spread online as if they’re true. Transactions are everywhere, but because everything is a subscription service, we own nothing. Corporations are putting advertisements on even the most sacred corner of the web & encouraging people to constantly consume, to BE consumed with the desire to consume more things, and to fill up the little time we have left with constant, buzzing productivity—because the internet is an instrument of capitalism, and capitalism is about constant expansion, expansion that won’t stop until everything in our lives is quantifiable and our whole being is stretched thin in service of a pointless, unstoppable economic growth.
In the face of that, I think your mp100 art is amazing. I think your fic is amazing. I am glad you decided to share it with us. I am glad you took the time to analyze Mob or Serizawa or Tome. To post screen grabs of Dimple or gifs or animatics or anything else. I’m glad you reblogged my post and added some silly or thoughtful little hashtags. I’m glad you DM’d me or posted a long ramble about Ritsu or Teru or reigen.
People don’t have to do these things. They don’t have to sketch characters or share headcanons or write fic or make watch parties on cute little discord servers. But they do. They do it because it’s a fun thing to do & because they’re talented and passionate. And it makes me happy that on the internet—which is increasingly being used to alienate and control us—still hosts real communities and real people making real art and writing their real thoughts without any kind of profit motive or manipulative agenda. People are literally just posting because they want to share their work and connect with others. It reminds me that no matter what capitalism does, we live in a fundamentally social world & we’re constantly trying to connect with each other about the things we like. MP100 is the thing I like and the people here make me hopeful. I see people post their art/writing/headcanons and I get super happy. I get inspired. I look at people’s bios and all the different countries they’re from and get really happy that the internet can be used as a tool to connect people across the world with the same interest together.
Choosing to create and make friends and be nice and spread positivity over the internet is a uniquely powerful thing. It may not seem like much, (and being on the internet is often framed as “wasting time”) but the Internet is important and the things you do here are actually tangible and real. Making and sharing art—making friends—sharing writing and blurbs and headcanons is a legitimate pushback against the terrible capitalistic machine that the internet has become. I’ve heard a lot of creators say that their art doesn’t get noticed/doesn’t matter because it doesn’t get a lot of attention. But it DOES matter. Because, for every second that someone spends seeing your art, that’s one second that they don’t spend on government propaganda or brain-numbing advertisements or ragebait or AI generated “content”. And even if no one sees your art, YOU spent time making it. You loved it and cared for it and valued it in a way that capitalism can never profit from or understand.
I hope you know that I see your art & love it. I look at it when I’m sad. My gf and I look at mp100 art while we sit outside and feel the world leave our bones. Maybe this is too much, but I’m feeling earnest and joyful tonight & am trying to lean into those feelings.
I’m just thankful. You create and share just because you wanted to create and share. You’re making the world a better place.
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BEHIND THE CURTAINS OF KNOWING YOUR FUTURE SPOUSE
No one asked for this, but I wanted to see if anyone else has these issues and if so I wanted to let you know that you’re not alone! So hello and welcome to my beautiful literature podcast on things I’ve experienced since knowing who my future spouse is!
For a little context, my future spouse (based on right now and if things go to plan lmao) is an influencer, but they won’t be an influencer by the time we meet, I’ve known about this connection between us for a year now.
I don’t hate the fact that they’re going to be out of influencing by the time we are together, however I don’t like that they’re gonna leave me for hours a day, like what do you mean you have to actually go out and go to work while I’m sad and alone at home?
I personally feel as though it’s one of the most isolating experiences, I feel like I need to be loyal to them although they’re probably not being loyal to me. I feel weird thinking about other people, and I’ve rejected an amount of love offers since, I was in a situationship recently that I ended since I knew that me and this dude would only date to date, and not date to marry. I don’t think I ever want to subject someone to dating me while I know that I’m going to end up with someone else, like I can give times, names, dates, it’s insane. My friends don’t understand it as they think it’s stupid to devote myself to someone who I may not even end up with based on timing (I will, or I’ll die) however I feel I know that I want to end up with this person, so why would I want to ruin that?
Dating and marrying this person links heavily into my career decisions, I’m working on going into the music industry, it’s so stagnant as I don’t know where to go after writing music, like how do I produce this shit??? So if we don’t end up together, it means I haven’t made it in the industry as I hoped I would.
Even when they do stupid stuff online that I don’t agree with, I feel like I need to be there to support them, like they’ve been semi cancelled a few times in the last 2 years and I’ve stepped back, moved onto something else but then been like “oh damn, my monkeys, my circus 😔” WHICH IS SO???? It’s certainly frustrating, that’s the best way to explain it.
Luckily for me, this bro is lonely, ain’t got no one to share a bed with, waiting for me fr fr lmaooo. But I hate seeing people say stuff about them like “I ship them with X” or saying something inherently out of pocket about them, although I’ll never voice it, it makes me feel so territorial, and I don’t even have the right to do that right now!!
Again back with the influencing stuff, they have a persona, I feel worried because what if I’m only into the person they perform as for their audience, and not their authentic self? And what if they end up feeling the same?? I mean Im assuming not since we’re gonna get married, but still brotherrrr.
Watching their downfall sucks, I feel privileged to be able to check up on this person every now and then since they’re public, but based on our connection and the next 2 years, their career is only taking a downwards turn until they change their profession, and then by then they might hop offline forever and I’ll die until we meet! (I’m very dramatic)
Constantly doubting myself and looking for more confirmation, someone could slap it into my face and I’d still question the authenticity until we are married with 5 kids, 3 cats and a dog (I don’t want 5 kids actually, that was a lie)
I like watching edits of them on TikTok, that’s a pro.
Thank you for entertaining my 3am thoughts!!
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Tips on how a sub jock can find a trainer? I have talked up some guys at the gym and dropped hints but had no luck. I’m trying to avoid being overly blunt because I feel like that won’t be appreciated.
First it depends on what kind of trainer your looking for. if you mean a personal trainer, then ask at the front desk but know that will cost money and be a professional-while likely friendly-relationship.
But I don’t think that’s what you mean. you mean a kink dom kind of trainer. The problem with doing anything in person is that most people don’t talk about their kinks in public unless at a kink event. You could be working out and talking with a kinky dom trainer but neither of you might realize unless someone take a chance.
So getting a kinky trainer at a gym, unless you are a very outgoing person and the trainer you end up with is also very outgoing or get very lucky in person at a standard gym is not going to work, you might find a workout buddie if that’s cool. Now if it’s a gym knows for being mostly gay or very gay friendly you might be able to be a bit more overt about wanting it you might have good luck, at least guys willing to workout with you and be a bit more direct, teach you a few things and maybe go from there.
You can also try any local kink events, leather or BDSM gathering or munches might work but make sure you’re upfront about what you’re looking for so that you and any guy you connect with are on the same page about what kind of sub you are.
Looking for a kinky trainer is online, apps like grinder/scruff can work and I’m sure there are others, sites like Tumber or Twitter can also help but finding local on those can be hard even if you’re in a big city but you’re going to need to put yourself out there. Look for a workout partner, let it be known your looking for a guy to push and train you how to workout but it will take time.
I know this was a lot and if I left anything else let me know and good luck.
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5 times Armand interrupts Daniel's online interviews +1 time Daniel gets his revenge
Chapter 2 is now up!
(it has been up for a while, I just forgot to make the post, as always, sigh)
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Daniel gives the door a knock.
“Hey, babe?”
There’s a somewhat ominous rumble and the vague wheeze of a tortured motor-based device dying down. Blender, if Daniel had to guess, which is a bet so safe with Armand that no casino would take it.
So today is Mad Scientist day.
The door opens, and there’s Armand, eyes bright and hair fluffy, an air of happy insanity in every line of him. The floor of the atelier is strewn with wires, and there are… one, two, three… at least six blenders there, set up in a row and all hooked up to each other and a bunch of other tech.
“So,” Daniel says, feeling hideously fond. “What’s the big project today?”
“Oh!” Armand pushes the door open further to let Daniel take in the full glory of technological entrails dragged all over the floor. “I’ve chain-linked the blenders together into a full musical scale, in order of the tonality their engines make. I’m attempting to connect them to a musical program on my computer to make them play.”
Armand is really good at technology the same way Victor Frankenstein was really good at medicine.
“Sounds great.”
“I think it will, yes.”
Oh, god, Daniel is going to be invited to a recital, isn’t he.
“...Yeah. Anyway, I’m gonna do my interview in, like, an hour.”
Armand tips his head and smiles. “Interview with the vampire,” he says, like every time Daniel gets interviewed, because he never gets bored of this one.
“Yeah, yeah, you’re hilarious. So please, no fireball explosions this time. Okay?”
“It wasn’t a fireball,” scoffs Armand. “But fine. I don’t foresee fire being involved here anyway.”
That’s as good as Daniel is gonna get here, he supposes.
“Thanks, babe,” he says, then presses a quick kiss to Armand’s lips, only it doesn’t stay quick and turns long instead, because they are both complete failures at keeping their hands off each other, and hey, Daniel still has like 45 minutes, plenty of time for a quick round…
“Go,” Armand finally tells him, gently pushing him away. “Off with you.”
“Hey, I was thinking—”
“Yes, Daniel, I know what you were thinking, and no. I won’t be blamed for you being late for your interview. Go give your clever answers and disrespect your colleagues. After that, we can go out for a hunt. And then we can fuck.”
And yeah, that actually sounds pretty good.
“Awesome.”
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(here's the AO3 link to find out how Armand ruins it this time)
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𝓨𝓸𝓾’𝓿𝓮 𝓒𝓪𝓾𝓰𝓱𝓽 𝓐 𝓢𝓽𝓻𝓪𝔂
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader
Summary: Moving to a new place is always a tough time, but the knowing you have a mysterious neighbor doesn’t exactly help.
Warnings: None?
[📞 Series Masterlist 📞]
𝙃𝙤𝙢𝙚
“On Friday, April 4th, three helicarriers from the US government affiliated organization known as S.H.I.E.L.D. fell into the Potomac River in Washington, DC. This occurred only thirty minutes after many previously confidential government, S.H.I.E.L.D., and HYDRA documents were leaked onto the internet. With us today we have Mr. Ed Brubaker here to talk more on HYDRA and how…”
It was like the same news story had been playing for the last week.
Your family had immediately urged you to move somewhere else, somewhere safer. You intended to move anyway, but their persistence was the straw that broke the camel’s back.
And so, you packed up your shit and moved.
You were an artist, so there was plenty to pack. You were only partially concerned over your financial situation—most of your art was bought online, so as long as you could mail things, it would be okay.
And, if worst comes to worst, you could always get a job at like, a sandwich shop or something.
“That over there is the barn. Concrete floor, sturdy walls, perfect for tractors and other vehicles and machinery. Right in front of it is the garage—four wheelers and whatever else is good in there. Here’s your main house. All one floor. Four bedrooms.” Mike said as he walked you up the porch to the sliding glass door.
He led you inside the house. “Master bedroom down the hall, master bathroom connected to it. These are your two living rooms, this one has a television. Back room’s got the laundry machines, and plenty of storage. It’s also got the big freezer. One of your bedrooms is connected to it.” Mike explained. “Nearest neighbor is two fields away—nobody but old folks like me live up here. ‘Cept for Mr. Blackwood, I believe. Though, I have no idea how old that gentleman is, I never seen him ‘round here when I was gettin’ this place here ready.” He pondered.
“Mr. Blackwood?” You echoed.
“Yeah. Chris or Charles or Chase or somethin’ like that. Never hear about him in town, didn’t even know he lived in that there house until recently. Either way, there’s the thin tree line separating you.”
“Right,” you nodded. “You are amazing. The place looks great.” You said to the man who’d sold you the house.
“I do my best, ma’am. The pantry’s fully stocked. You asked for fully furnished, and I planned to deliver.”
“You really did—this is absolutely perfect.” You would admit that the way you’d gotten this place on such short notice was a little shady, but you weren’t going to complain.
“Why, thank you.” He smiled. “Radio’s in the master bedroom. WiFi and internet aren’t the greatest back here—always plan like you won’t have it. Power can get rocky during storms, so always make sure you know where your radio is jus’ in case.”
“Right. Got it.”
Mike left a little later, and you got to bringing in boxes. You put the boxes in their designated rooms before beginning to unpack the necessities first. Things like clothes and stuff.
You wondered about Mr. Blackwood. He was your only neighbor for literal miles, so you had to wonder what he was like. Was he old, like Mike had said? Was he around your age, or maybe somewhere in between? Was he nice? Or would he be annoying?
You had other things to think about. Besides, this wasn’t the most important thing at the moment. You got back to unpacking.
The Captain walked through the halls, the sound of his shoes against the floor audibly telling the world that he means business. His blonde hair was slightly messy, as if he’d just been on a mission. His brows were furrowed, his fists clenched at his sides. A woman with red hair rushed to match his pace. She looked equally concerned, but more for him than whatever he was focused on.
The Spy reached out, attempting to put her hand on his shoulder. He paused to let her do so.
“It wasn’t your fault,” she told him. “You thought he was there so you followed your lead. You made all the right calls.” She attempted to soothe him.
“He wasn’t even there. All that time we could’ve been finding him and I was too busy leading everybody the wrong way.” The Captain frowned.
“It’s okay,” she hummed. “We’ll find your guy. We will.”
The Captain nodded as the Spy gently cupped his face.
“Besides,” she said after a moment. “There’s always one person we can ask for help.”
The Captain gave her an unsteady look, one of pure displeasure. Whoever the other person was, the Captain was not fond of him.
A/n: it’s been a long time coming, huh?
Graphics by @saradika-graphics
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