#weird headspace today
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Nov '08
California had just passed Prop 8, which only allowed marriage between a man and a woman. Fighting against Prop 8 was the first protesting I did.
I live in a liberal area of California. I still got slurs yelled at me.
"Dyke go home" always made me want know where exactly since that is usually connected to racism. The guess we came up with was maybe the island of Lesbos. I made some fun brief friendships.
I remember the family in the minivan likely coming or going to church on a Sunday that all flipped us off and yelled "Fags".
I remember the guy who seriously told me he had to vote in favor of Prop 8 because "otherwise the definition of marriage would change in the dictionary and the English language would collapse."
I remember the woman who told me that she actually supports the gays and that's why she has to be in favor of the marriage restrictions because "if they are allowed to marry it will be impossible for lesbians to adopt from China or Russia."
I remember the anger at how much money the Mormon church was pouring in from out of state to get it passed. The fear mongering off the charts too.
I remember the pain when the ballots were finished being counted and Prop 8 passed. It was the election Obama was elected for the first time. All around me were celebrations. It was bittersweet for so many in California.
I hate that there is a constant threat to same sex marriage in this country. I have no desire to ever get married but that shouldn't affect anyone else.
I fought because I remember seeing devastating pain during the AIDs epidemic. Of loved ones being kept from hospitals. Banned from bury their lovers. Just outright have years of love ignored because they couldn't get the paper that would have given them the rights.
Dunno was just thinking about recent queer history today.
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#weird headspace today#grief for the aunt I lost is not that strong#but grief for the pain my mom is feeling is intense#if that even makes sense#also weird shit happening at work#and I may be over caffeinated#I feel strange today#both emotional and weirdly blank#personal
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Bro really said, "Get over it"💀
#i remember seeing people say they didn't care for this episode but i love it#i can only assume its placement right after a midseason two parter was a huge factor because people are kinda like whatever with pizza face#tmnt#teenage mutant ninja turtles#tmnt 2012#tmnt 2k12#tmnt leonardo#tmnt raphael#tmnt leo#tmnt raph#2012 leo#2012 raph#sorry if this post seems low effort—i'm in a weird headspace today
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One of my deep, dark fantasies is being out and about, dressed my best, hair freshly dyed and looking cool, looking alluring, listening to my headphones in a public place when an equally cool-looking and attractive guy or girl approaches me and says I look like I have good taste in music, and asks what I'm listening to. And I say I'm listening to the Mr. Patch boss theme from Banjo Tooie on loop. And they think they can salvage the conversation by asking if that game is any good, and I say I don't know because I've never played it. Which is true
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Theory that dan was like ‘Alexa are there any fics Daniel Howell x Chappell Roan’ and Alexa was like ‘posted on Daniel Howell’s X: Chappell Roan’
#phan#dnp#it’s still such a weird tweet to me#was this just a phannie distraction technique?#to entertain us in their absence#idk#I’m in a weird headspace today
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I forgot to post my new icon for today - I'll probably have it for the rest of the month, or I'll edit it to not have the little hat, idk yet!!!
#oc: bean#sona tag#idk if I'll draw anything else today even tho I wanna#today was very nice but I am tired from interaction kfdklj#also the part where my mum brought up some old trauma that apparently I told her about but I do not remember at all#so thinking about that kinda put me in a weird headspace but y'know how it issssss
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*typing Dan and Phil and Dogs into the youtube search bar* this will fix me
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second guessing every other fucking word in this epilogue but it will be up in an hour or two
#the hunter the snake and the fox#it's finished! you should read it!#had to go to a funeral today and now I'm trying to get back into sex scene headspace. weird times.
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#the water pump in my house broke today so its been ruining my mental vibes on writing... we have no running water rip#also terrifier 3 is still spinning around in my head a little bit making it difficult to think#very weird headspace but i hope to get more done tomorrow#ooc;#tbd;
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me laughing at the same jokes i’ve heard 1000 times every time i listen to/watch a recording of phantom
#and i swear it gets funnier every time!#was dying while listening to an audio today#(it was specifically nehal joshi during the il muto ballet)#(i could not stop laughing and i couldn’t even SEE him it was just his delivery)#(ugh he’s so funny i love him)#poto shitpost#also side note im about to go on a tangent#but my phantom hyperfixation runs so deep and i have so many thoughts about it#i have at least 100 posts in my drafts about it and i’m not exaggerating#they’re mostly silly memes but it’s still like an overload of posts about phantom#and i’m like. insecure about how much i think about it???? and how much of my headspace i dedicate to it????#so i keep the bulk of the memes/random posts in my drafts because i just feel weird about posting so much#i really could post about it 24/7 if i didn’t have to be a Person with Tasks#and idk i think im just hyper-aware of how i present my interests in daily life while offline#i am someone who hyperfixates and obsesses and while i could talk about phantom for years i am terrified of annoying people with my interest#i’m worried about being perceived as weird so i kind of flatten myself to make myself more palatable for others#which has me being insecure about the things i’m passionate about and how deep that passion runs#and these feelings have bled online to the specific space i have created as an outlet for my passion#like it’s my blog i shouldn’t be censoring my love for a thing that brings me joy#but my fear of being othered is like. overtaking me. because there are many things that i can’t change about myself#that categorize me as an ‘other’ (sexuality identity mental health etc)#and this is something i can control. i can control how i portray my personality#so i flatten my personality to compensate for the other (perceived) weird things that can’t be changed#idk i just shouldn’t feel the need to do that here bc pretty much everyone on here is super passionate about something#like obsessive about it#and that’s what i love about this site with all its faults. like this is a space for people to come and Be Weird and Act Strange#and everyone just accepts it#and also the phantom community in general#why should i water down my love for phantom in the one place where people can understand it and relate to it???#hit the tag limit but i’ve come to multiple revelations while typing this lmao
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ok in honor of they’re taking the hobbits to isengard day i’m gonna get my gandalf on & rewatch two towers & liveblog it
#I rewatched it a little while ago but it feels weird moving onto rotk bc I wasn’t really in the headspace for it#the goal is to re-experience the joy of watching it for the first time#gotta multitask though I have shit to do today so we’ll see how it goes#hurgle hurgle
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Welp I was almost done rewriting it but then I looked at instagram and got distracted XD
#btw I FINALLY HAVE INSTAGRAM FOR MY ZELDA ACCOUNT!#now to actually post art but I have been overthinking it lol#ladye’s rambles#ladye's rambles#oh no now that tag has doubled#CURSE YOU TUMBLR TAGS!!!!#lol sorry Im in kinda a weird headspace today#not bad weird but just not my normal self weird
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yeah i guess, the end is here.
#donnie darko#this is from mid october. and i finally finished it today.#and im like absurdly proud of it everyone should watch it ^^^#i made it when i was in a really weird headspace and incredibly homesick and was listening to i know the end a lot. and you can see that.#but it means so much to me. i understand donnie darko like no one does ever.#PLEASE WATCH IT ^^^ LIKE AND REVIEW !! ^ VIDEO
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#ic; you are my peach#to thresh and gnaw the flesh is divine#//i'm in a weird (complimentary) headspace today lol :p
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I often think back to this exchange I once had in high school. Sometimes it's funny, sometimes I just get really sad.
#Hayley Speaks#My Art#I dunno; I'm in a weird headspace today and decided to get it out through drawing#Does this count as vent art?#I dunno#It's fine to reblog if you absolutely want to but not necessary#Also did you know ruddy shelduck ducklings have that color scheme?#That's kind of fun
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happy birthday to morty!
#( lj post. )#i'm working on the blog bc i'm in a weird (but okay) headspace haha#and i realized it's morty's birthday today!#we love out anxious little guy
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