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blindspot (part 2)
early access + nsfw on patreon monster!AU masterpost
#cuddling but at what cost...#listen. its fine. theyre fine. we're all fine#we'll be better than fine!!#just wait. eyes emoji#simon ghost riley#john soap mactavish#monster 141 au#ghostsoap#giragi art
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Trade caravans always make such an awful mess at our trading spot, and Alistair is always there to mop it all up with no complaints. He's the best boy ever ❤️
We built a fancy bar in our fancy hotel, and I wanted to draw suave barkeep Kwahu :3
Parenting is tough on the rim
Ivy is so fuckin' cute. I love that as soon as she was done admiring the irl thrumbo, she came home immediately to draw it. Perhaps a sign that she'll grow up into an artist someday? We do need an artist around here...
Even more strangers have appeared in the desert. Even the sight of Jut lurching around in his blinded, traumatised, mushroom-person, French-speaking state didn't make them leave.
It seems we'll have to tame them so we can send them to the outposts and get them off our lawn.
Randy hates making things easy for us.
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#rimworld#gracie plays#A Mechanitor's Message#art#my art#traditional art#rimworld art#unpolished art#slightly more polished art than usual#Alistair is such a hard worker#I love him so much#And Kwahu works hard too#and looks damn fine while he does 👀❤️#Ivy's middle name is Annelise#I've decided that today#Ivy Annelise just sounded nice#and she does use the Jones surname#if her mother was going to name her “Wombat” then abandon her to the reclusive assholes in the desert then Ivy wants nothing to do with her#she's very good at drawing thrumbos though#unless Henry the Flesh Whip did it#but I doubt it has the dexterity required to hold a pencil#It probably just cheered her on#I wonder if Henry the Flesh Whip gets along with Jut's Flesh Tentacle?#what would Jut name his tentacle I wonder...#maybe something french like Amélie#or a hyphenated name like “Marie-Françoise” to match his “Marc-Daniel”?#ah well#suppose we'll never know#Salmon the wild woman is very rude#better luck next time Mechi
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#sorrrry pity party part 1323 incoming#i am finally feeling slightly better - still no appetite and not like myself but i want to get up and showered and dressed and stuff#and can actually walk around#and mr sportsthoughts has just come upstairs and looks like death and it sounds like he is now coming down with what i've had#we thought he already had it but it never progressed past a cold so i think it was something different & now he's caught the plague from me#i just want to cry. and go to sleep until 2025 so this year can be over#we have cancelled SO MUCH this week and are going to literally miss every single friends and family christmas occasion at this point#and hahahaahaa at least we'll be fine by jan when we have to go and fly and see his parents which is the one thing we both don't want to do#and its fine we are ok we're together we're fortunate to be in a dry warm house etc#i'm just really letting my feelings get the better of me because i have put so much emphasis on christmas this year - even more than usual#because it's been such a rotten year and christmas was just this wonderful few weeks where he'd be home and we had all these special plans#and it was the one thing keeping me going and now it's here and well. we aren't exactly on tip top festive form#womp womp. nothing can be done! at least i'm alive and on the mend
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realizing i've given myself a 12-hr school day twice a week ... well it's the last semester!
#all but one are 3hr long studios LMFAO#to be fair i do way better with art homework than any other kinds. which is why i am in art school lol#im taking an anatomy class that should hopefully pair well with my figure drawing class#(i did this by design)#and my ceramics class will be a nice reprieve from the others#and of course I'm excited for my painting class OMG. i can't wait to see what our assignments will be#my capstone is the big one I'm trying to take as much burden off of as possible.... my#client that I'm working with is very eager and communicative#and getting shit worked out for that won't be difficult at all#we'll have to see .. but i think I'm gonna make it through just fine#my 12hr day consists of three 3hr classes w a lunch break in between the first two. I'm gonna have to figure out how dinner will work lol#wake up at 6:30 leave my last class at 6:15#gulp
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i think growing up is just life repeatedly sucker punching you and saying bitch you thought things were gonna better lmao no you're so naive and stupid for having hope in 20 years the world will be flaming bag of garbage and no matter how hard you work you'll get eliminated at some point
#and then you just have to get up and keep living anyway because what else is there to do?#but man my heart keeps feeling heavier with every blow#2024 has literally been the worst year ever god personally too#like everytime i think it can't possibly get worse than this it does#i remember literally 9th jan i had such a horrible breakdown in an auto because the first friend i ever made#after school was leaving my work and therefore my life#9 days into the year. seriously. and i was so happy on 8th because it was my birthday#i don't know im trying hard to think okay this doesn't even affect me it's fine im privileged enough that even my own countrys politics#barely affects me#but just. india is already so behind in everything. if developed nations are doing shit like this then well#it will never get better right like who do we even strive to be#i want to get more into indian politics but my god. it's so horrifying and depressing all the time#like i remember resolving to follow politics closely few years ago and the first news#i read was about some minister talking about how girls skirts lengths IN SCHOOL is the reason boys do sa and boys will be boys etc etc#i know i could just follow business news stuff like that god knows it'll help in my field but it just. doesn't resonate with me doesn't#make me feel anything at all. like i so desperately want to care about ooh stock markets and how to grow your money etc etc#but when i think about being rich enough to invest idle money all i can think is sitting in my own home peacefully#drinking a glass of cold coffee and just being able to breathe freely because me and my sister used to joke in childhood#when dad went thru a coffee v bad for health phase and he wouldn't let us drink it so we would drink it very sneakily#at night when he was asleep or went out for an hour and make absolutely no noise while mixing the sugar. we said that we know#we'll* know we have achieved true freedom and happiness in life when we can peacefully drink cold coffee in the hall and not secretly#in the dead of night in our room#i don't even know what im talking about and my period is late again and nothing is working and my lazer focus#that i had built in the past few weeks is gone because suddenly im like what is the point????#i just don't understand how the fuck humans can fight over stupid fucking things like who is kissing who and who is doing what with their#body instead of focusing on collective issues like our planet is dying so fucking fast and every summer is getting impossibler to survive#i hate that the united states control the UN fuck this world fr man i hate being born in such horrible helpless times#like call me a kid or dumb or whatever but i cannot understand how MILLIONS of people do not#have sympathy for ppl around them and who don't care about the planet at all like how????? how did you grow up????#not trying to boast but this is so natural to me!!! didn't you make save water save earth posters in school!!! didn't anyone
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feels like a mirror shattering every time we split on you. sudden and uncomfortable and
#'m sorry. you dont deserve that you've done nothing wrong#least it's always over the saem fucking thing. and it's literally a nonissue we're just highly jealous#y'see art is the only thing we're GOOD at. and. well. our art don't get much attention. yours does. you're better at art than we are#and it hurts and it's stupid.#and we are fucking stupid for this. this is a dumb as hell thing to be upset over. ANYWAYS.#we're fine. we'll live.#pk;m Fids🔬#you are not the only person we've split over this over the years btw ghfnfdjdhf#deletey
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Body update: it turns out that after about a year (ish) of trying to eat more healthily and avoiding fast food, my body cannot handle some of the meals I used to enjoy anymore
I had a burger last week at DND and was sick, and I thought it was bc the burger particularly greasy, but then when I ordered from my usual place today (less horrendously greasy but still, you know, a fast food burger) I actually kinda stopped enjoying it three bites in and had to put in some effort to finish it x)
Oh well
#Matt has a life#Shit from home#In other news: couldn't do 2x20mn of walking yesterday cause I had to drive to the post office#and driving a motobike is demanding on the knees#but I did one turn today and everything seems fine#gonna do another set later and see how it goes#and if we can keep that up until next week I'll try and see if we can up it to 1x30mn and 1x20mn#The goal being to be able to walk for at least 40mn at a time before I try going to the gym again#at which point I'll use the running machines to try and walk on a gradually increasing incline#... at this point it might actually be a good idea to see a physio#but I don't like the one I visited before -_-#Edit: other posotive effect of better food and regular exercise: I lost about 4kg since dec. 2022 and am now back around 95#which is much more comfortable for me than where I was before#would I complain about going down to 90kg? no#but I'm 34 and planning on having a baby soon so that doesn't sound likely#especially bc like#diets are a myth#and if my body's ideal weight were 100kg that's where I'd be regardless of diet#so we'll see how that goes#I'm fine with where I'm at rn
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omgg lol [guy who won't stop going "more like scapeGOATED" voice] now hold! on!! lmao [same guy just saw encanto voice] Hold on!!!
#& [it might be 5am but i'll still see if i can draw some] trackpad homemade reacts. inhales & hands to head/face x9 then walking off#site giving pretty random Suggested assortment there where i was like oh right sure. prob not tumblr keywords captures lmaooo#(plus happened to have it open in firefox) but my god Not the scapegoated literal seers lmfao. whoooo. my god#also it was just really good anyways like right nice. damn#the (queerrr) seerrr the perceiverrr the truth tellerrr the ruinerrr the scapegoat be-errr the internalizerrr the neurodivergerrr#& now i Know there is 0% chance ppl weren't putting ''always a gay cousin or it's you (avuncular edition)'' in that thing#family tree design not even leaving space for the hypothetical kids of this relative we mostly pretend is nonexistent hmm#also that necessarily. it's giving all intents & purposes Disability abt a dozen ways & it's saying [accept that] vs [we'd better fix him]#you don't cite said [it's giving disability] as part of the We All Hate The Horrible Little Freak scapegoating justification & then be like#''actually we don't have to do that anymore b/c he's sooo normal :)'' or not if you're serious about [don't scapegoat your family] anyways#which like oh ok they Are serious so The Weirdo's scapegoating / casting out / lack of support Isn't justified#so he's still weird & you just gotta get over that b/c otherwise. bye. having a natural rat affinity is such a slay btw#& we've all been there like ''you NEVER want two scapegoats talking it's Over if they do'' + littlest kid is like um. they're the best#plankton voice Correct! inhale i'm so impressed like. getting to go ''finally someone Normal'' (serious abt letting someone Be Weird(tm))#which also always counts as like mm hard time suggesting someone's Not queer & also autistic for a start lmao. an award#adding in suggested layers like talking to oneself; talking Oddly / w difficulty; physical uncoordination; rituals ; acting; animal friend#the layer of ''& all that's fine? like?'' again rather than him ever suppressing or even changing it so far as it's suggested#besides that it's observed as Weird like but so? or else what? nonrhetorical: hostility / rescinded support & driving someone off is what?#& that Truth like the [worse treatment / exclusion / scapegoat] oft recipe for someone giving the support they're not getting themself#again Never let the [ppl both experiencing this] talk oh it's So over. or the child who's all i like family support & kindness actuallyy...#obviously also like the complete opposite of billions. knowing what they're about & letting this Just As Beloved crucial guy be So Weird#but billions Also [hmm feels right for our scapegoated guy to Perceive / Tell Truths / openly want/need & then be hurt] now get his ass#anyway [guy who could always go way on could go way on but only has thirty tags & it's 6am & i still mean to try some drawing] voice#remarkable amt of So True & ''it feels like ppl on the same page w/exactly what they're doing are all behind this''#remarkable amount of concentrated My God That Is So A Slay located in bruno all at once. what a gift#sticking to ''sometimes someone In Your Group is Weird. Disabled. deal'' firmly enough there's no ;) oh u can bet we'll Fix Him in the end#everyone always assumes the worst so....me when i'm [always as a kid yearning for Living In Secret Passages]. emile gtmpota?#oh congrats to whatever rando who will be having his dramatic gay reunion w/bruno just out of frame obviously. i perceive#now imagine if That rando was....emile gtmpota! what a crossover event. haunting4haunting. do i have enough tags for this lmao. yea#& having 1 more tag to say: as though the [endless serving] isn't enough bruno's also as close to gender envy as it gets. incl rats; sure
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#i am doing#not fine#but stable i guess#its better than last week#but we'll see how the weekend goes#anyway i noticed something in my playlists and song choices over the last week(s) and had to think about this
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ep:link rooftop scene moodboard
#enst#not quite sure if this will be coherent to anyone besides my boyfriend#but thats fine#considering a sequel abt the eplink confession scene. we'll see#also sorry its a long post it just looks better than grouping the imgs together
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#i talked with a good friend of mine from my old job over the phone because we said we'll talk and we never find the right time for it#and she had told me that she & her boyfriend for the last 7 years had broke up 3 months ago#and the only reason she hasn't told me about it is because she didn't want to make me more upset because i was dealing with my own breakup#and she also said a lot how there's stuff she can't tell her closet friends because they'd make fun of her or mock her but to me she can#and i just sat there and listened to her and gave her my advice as i usually do#it wasn't a long phone call but it made me feel better. to think she sees highly of me and that i can comfort her in a time of need#especially when other people can't.#i just. i feel bad i wasn't there for her when she needed me but again i told her it's her choice to tell me whatever she wants to share#i don't know. i just really love her#funny she's like. 7 years older than me but we get alone so fine 😭
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I read ur tags about the new ST masks and honestly, I agree, it's very different (very Slipknot and gore-ish) and right now, the discography and overall vibe doesn't match(like a handful of songs have a true metal quality to it) and unless they're gonna start releasing new stuff the vibes kind of...clash? And so far Vessel is the same, so I'm wondering if the others just wanted to stand out more and were given creative freedom or if everything is going to shift at some point :/ I also think its a bit been there done that (but the simpler black and gold mask I like) the others remind me of the Joker or a Shrunken Head
To be honest, I saw 'I read it tags about the new ST mask...' and I panicked thinking I was about to get left-right-goodnighted in an ask, but I'm glad it wasn't so, lol.
I'm glad someone agrees with me, lol. I said what I said in my tags on twt and within the hour I got people telling me that I wasn't a proper fan for not liking the change, how I should keep my opinion to myself since I'm being so negative and (personal favourite because I found it absurd) that I was only here because I had a mask kink, and now that they're no longer 'attractive', I should just leave the fandom. Even had someone tell me to off myself! Never have I found twitter so wonderful /s
Full honestly, the one about only being there because had a I had a 'mask kink' got me the most, and, next to being told to off myself, was the reason I deleted it and just stopped using twitter for a while. I hate having a band, or music, that I adore so much purely put down to me getting some sort of sexual gratification out of it, which is just gross to assume.
Obviously, I felt really shitty about myself, but it made me feel worse when I woke up the next day seeing people say the same things I did (like hoping it was only a Wembly thing, but considering the amount of detail and effort that's been put into them, I think not), and getting nothing but acceptance and neutrality in the replies. (sorry for the rant about twt anon)
I'll repeat what I said in my tags; they feel somewhat out of place to me? Though, looking back on it, I think it's because I got very use to the balaclavas (would they count as one? Lol) and Vessel's custom mask. They stick out more than Vessel does, both design and colour pallet wise. Vessel is in full black with white accents and a white, red and gold mask, the Esperas are in full black with white accents and a red mask. And then the guys are there, y'know? Don't get me wrong, the amount of detail and effort that's been put into the designs are amazing, and they definitely have to have given each member creative freedom because each mask and design matches the lad's vibe immaculately (especially iii's), but it doesn't match Sleep Token's vibe as a collective. I like IV's design best because his matches his stage presence and ST's vibe (as you said, the simpler gold and black mask), as well as ii's (minus the hair. I feel iffy about the dreads (?), but I'm as white as a sheet of paper, so it's not my place to speak on that).
Furthermore, Sleep Token's only full on trad metal songs are Gods from Sundowning and Vore from TMBTE, so I got really surprised when I was looking at what I originally thought were Slipknot masks.
ST are known to genre bend constantly, so maybe we will get new stuff. But, considering they've had the same vibe in their music since 2016, I'd be a bit surprised if their new single/new album was just all trad metal, or at least has a lot of aspects of it, but who knows! Honestly I'd love to hear it from them.
All that said, just because I'm not fond of them right now doesn't mean I'm not gonna like them like, two weeks later, lol. Just because I don't like them now, doesn't mean I don't like ST anymore, too. All I can really do is apologise for having a non super positive opinion and hope people don't hound me on here for it (which, so far, they haven't, and I appreciate you very much for being really chill about this anon).
Give me a week and I'll probably be on the boat of liking them and making analysis posts on all the little details, lol
#thank you to anybody who reads my rant#I'm hoping Tumblr treats me a bit better than Twitter but we'll see#if this post randomly disappears just know it's probably because I got met with mass negativity (again)#I'm fine with people having opinions (obviously) and therefore not liking mine but having at me because of it doesn't sit right with me#thank you for the ask anon!#appreciate it#anon asks#mel's asks#mel's rambles#sleep token#st#iv sleep token#iii sleep token#ii sleep token
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more nimona comic reread things I am indescribably mad (for fantasy world building reasons more so than anything to do w rep) abt having been left out of the movie (part 1 - part 2):
BLITZMEYER MY BELOVED
director being a goblin, no hair, pointy ears, god I love that reveal, love her being a whole ass creachure
the fucking changeling replacing a baby lore aaaahhhh I forgot abt the actual backstory, it is so good, it is so myth based, I am a mythology nerd first and a minority person second you need to understand this about me as a person, she was a part of their community who happened to be something fundamentally different (and didn’t rly even know that herself) not an outsider other who happened to befriend one (1) of them, this is STILL the better trans metaphor
I am also still mad abt them changing literally everything abt ambrosius’s personality & backstory, where is my feisty long haired orphan boy and his dope face scars at the end smh
#nimona#nimona comic#I'm not gonna tag this as spoilers cause y'all had like a decade to read this thing I'm just saying#I have now finished my reread I am more convinced than ever that the original is a masterpiece and the movie is an expensive garbage fire#in comparison#which once again and I cannot stress this enough is fine#we'll take an expensive garbage fire over nothing or worse#but the original was better and I need everyone to read the comic please#this is a nimona comic appreciation blog#shower nate in comic sale money please#also re director's design if you wanted to make her the TERF metaphor in the movie making her look like voldemort woulda worked GREAT
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i love not knowing if i'll ever be healthy again i love all of the time i've used to move my body become nothing i love spending my adulthood wasting away year after year for various reasons baby!
#i know i'm being dramatic and privileged etc etc right now but i hate living like this#i probably had covid in the beginning of august and since then my heart and lungs have just been fucked#so now i'm probably looking at at least 2 years of long covid and maybe permanent neurological damage#could i be lucky and get better in few more months? maybe. do i believe that will happen? no. optimistically maybe next summer id be better#my symptoms are not that bad considering what i know other people have suffered but at the same time that makes it feel not real#otherwise i'm pretty much fine except i feel like fainting alot after standing up or excerting myself and anything beyond walking#spikes my hr to 160 and right now even laying down my hr is around 80. this comes with the associated shortness of breath etc#what fucks me up about this is that my normal hr is low with my rhr being under 50bpm and i'm physically active#so basically i've went from regular running and half marathons being no issue to not being able to jog 1km at the slowest pace possible#without spiking my hr to zone 4#so now with the recovery time of this being however long if properly ever i'll have to basically start all over again with everything#i biked to the grocery store yesterday and that took me out for the rest of the day because my heart rate just didn't go down afterwards#outwards i look fine and i wouldn't be as affected if sports and moving wasn't a part of my life and relationships but it is#i've read studies about recovery times and a lot of them don't feel applicable because the test groups are either very different from me#based on the baseline health info such as activity levels or they're elite atheletes which i am not#some have given me hope that keeping my hr under like 130 by doing activities like walking until maybe someday things get better works#but who knows and even if it does this will be yet another thing that takes the littlest bits of muscle tissue i have on me away once again#because besides deconditioning muscle loss is yet another symptom. so i will be even weaker than i am right now#i don't know how much of what i'm experiencing in terms of mental effects is from anxiety over my physical health and how much is brainfog#but we'll see i'll just have to start walking a lot every day and keep up with simple and slow strenght training so i'll want to die less#i don't think my family will ever properly understand because almost all of them are athletes and the one who isn't never does any excercis#so either i just look like i'm weak but i was always weak so it's not a big deal or my experience isn't really that important#this is so so so pathetic both my reaction and the issue but it's difficult to not feel this way especially with the uncertainty#shit talking
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sometimes my bestfriend is like an angel in disguise istg
#i was justttttt thinking that aw it's so sad that navratri music is playling everywhere and i don't have friends to go with#like last year atleast i had tuition sorta friends but now ive isolated them too it sucks#but i was like well it's okay ill do it when i grow up celebrate every festival i didn't get to in my house because we just never do#and then she calls and she's like let's go this club jahan every year famous hota hai full celebration#and i was like ehh i don't want to i don't even know how to play and ill have to convince dad for raat can't we just#go to a cafe or something dopahar mein uske liye i don't even need permission#and she even agreed but she sounded sad and disappointed about it so i was like well fuck it you want to go club na#and she was like yeahhh so i was like aagh okay and i asked and we're going tomorrow!!!!!#and it's so ridiculous like i just say i don't want to go but it's actually so exciting to go someplace other than a cafe!!!!#and i was complaining to her ki okay ill go but i won't dress up and five mins later me and mumma are making full outfit with dupatta#style decided jewellery she has saved for years that are specifically navratri types and she's like we'll get my blouse altered it's fine#you know being sick has really given me perspective on my parents#im not going to hate my mom anymore i never used to growing up i always thought she was brave but helpless#but a stupid day in 12th i realised when we were talking that technically she COULF get divorced she just#doesn't want to because she'll be alone and she thinks we're growing up and leaving anyway so why should she let go of financial#stability for us. which is wild to me because girl you can't buy anything you want without his permission so i don't understand what's the#point if he's rich or poor but whatever whatever she's been raised this way etc etc#but anyway being sick really made me realise who the real monster is😭 all dad did was shout horribly at me all the time#and was like don't you dare take meds they're fake this is all just junk food stop eating it and you'll be fine. when i was literally#having 103 FEVER.#and mom was the one who was making me different drinks juices cutting up fruits staying with me as i get my blood drawn#checking my fever sote jaagte#like wow i literally wouldn't have gotten better if it wasn't for her and i couldn't believe how attentive and nice she was being#like yes i understand she just thinks this is her duty she's just playing her role a mother a housewife but still#idk i just realized that okay atleast she's good at being a mother dad isn't even that why am i feeling good about him when his love#not even love his politeness is so fucking conditional#and mom healed me even tho i told her about clubbing and drinking lots of alcohol she's kinda against it because she's seen#horrible things in life family yucky men but still she understands ans trusts my sister mostly and know we just do it for fun and she#wasn't even mad!!!!!!! like wow ooay#moms love is actually not conditional for the first time in my life i felt like if i fall maybe she could be there to catch me and dad wld
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announcing the bard is officially bisexual (he's got a card and everything now) and then putting him in that wig feels vaguely homophobic ngl
#the eyeliner is a yes the wig is a no#jaskier#i have faith in our boy but last season's hair was definitely better than this lol#i guess we'll see how dirty and bloody he'll get this season that will help#we'll just whump him till he's hot it's fine#the witcher season 3#the witcher
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