#venting i guess?

[thrawns-babygirl]

I had an anon in my askbox that was rudely asking me something along the lines of "why aren't you posting about Crosshair anymore" and I got mad and deleted it before figuring I should probably explain myself a little because all 860 of you did initially follow me for crosshair content so here goes:

So, like many of us, I am neurodivergent. I have intense, all encompassing hyperfixations that give me that ridiculous dopamine hit that we all know and love. Unfortunately, these hyperfixations have a shelf life (as much as I would prefer to be able to hyperfixate on a single thing for a long time and not worry about the enjoyment waning)

This means that in time, I struggle to connect with certain media the way I used to. If I set certain media to the side and then think about it a little while later, then I can sometimes get that rush back like I did when I first engaged with the media.

A good example of this is actually Hux and the sequel trilogy. Back when the sequels were new and exciting I was a feral Hux stan. I didn't have a blog I used back then so I just read fanfic on Ao3 and info dumped to my friends. (Lmao sorry guys)

But then the interest slowly waned, for star wars all together and I hyperfixated on other things, My Hero Academia, Haikyuu, Star Trek, until eventually my brain had enough of a break from Star Wars and let me get fully invested in it again.

Basically what I'm trying to say is, I would love nothing more than to still be fully invested in the Bad Batch fandom, but my brain will not let me feel the same way about it until I have a small break and think about something else for a while.

And like many of us, it was my comfort show. With my comfort characters. When the season 2 finale aired I was a mess. I'm not even a full time Tech fan but the way he went out broke me. It was hard to think about the show at all without feeling a whole slew of negative emotions, so I started rewatching rebels and the sequels to find a new comfort show and other comfort characters.

Look none of this makes any sense, but basically I'm sorry for the hux spam and lack of TBB content lately. It will return. I will come back to it, but its just really hard at the moment. I'll still finish off the requests once I am settled at my new house, but after that I probably won't turn requests back on for a while until I get over my negative emotions towards the show.

And before you hit me with the "but Hux died too" look i know, it's just easier to talk myself out of that one because it was so negligible in the grand scheme of the movie I can pretend he was helped into a bacta tank or something.

Look, if you got this far, thanks for reading my unmedicated ramblings. I'm sorry that the content you followed me for isn't happening as much anymore, but it will come back one day. When it's less difficult for me to think about.

Until then, enjoy the Thrawn posting and Hux posting. Or don't. I dont make the rules.

[lynntbw]

I don’t know how to feel about religion, specifically christianity, at the moment since I no longer believe most of the shit I was taught growing up but in the back of my mind i worry that if I was to denounce all religion it would turn out that hell is real and I’m going there and idk if that’s just trauma talking or if there’s actually truth to it, in short I need answers.

[dinomite2]

I wanna post something about talking something personal or about my own problems but I feel like people wouldn't really care about it because they wouldn't see it or either they got problems of their own which are probably worse

People will just probably just know me as the person who justs ... idk does stuff and sends people asks to try and make their day...

[trans-wojak]

The way people treat autistic women vs autistic men is really weird cause I swear part of it is misogynistic.

Autistic women: awww so cute and quirky!

Autistic men: creepy and annoying

Not to say that autistic women don’t get a ton of crap and heavily misdiagnosed as some other mental health issue but geez the difference in the way some people treat me as an autistic dude vs an autistic girl is odd. I’m creepy when I talk to kids now but I was cute/nice as a girl. The mistakes or awkwardness in my social interactions are seen as indicative of some kind of ulterior motive instead of just being autistic.

me, to my niece after she tells me facts about marine animals: you’re so smart! You must have all the boys at school wanting to be your boyfriend huh.

niece: noooo icky boys you’re silly uncle Mike

me: awww am I icky too then?

niece: yes but it’s okay I still love you even if you’re old and an icky boy (now) cause you play with me

me: thanks I love you too sweetie

I’ve been told being playful like this is inappropriate. But when I made these same silly comments as a girl it was never questioned at all. Now I realise it’s kinda heteronormative but I’m mostly just trying to tease in a silly way. I’m not very knowledgeable about how to interact with children. I struggle to understand what’s appropriate besides the most obvious things. I’m mostly mirroring how adults interacted with me as a kid and I knew they were joking. One thing I don��t do is force physical affection cause I hated that as a kid. When people tell my niece to hug me goodbye and if she ever hesitates I just say it’s okay, high five instead? And she’s always happy to do that. She hugs me when she wants to but I don’t like to force it.

[kenapiece-main]

Can you believe I'm having to make this meme even after successfully finishing up taxes and applying to job

[peaceandlove26]

everything is funny & i love being alive

[st-dionysus]

We've had strap ons since at least 400 BC, and people still have the nerve to go on gay hook up apps and ask "how can an FTM be a top?"

[a-method-in-it]

You know that Chris Fleming line that goes "Call yourself a community organizer even though you're not on speaking terms with your roommates"?

I honestly think every leftist who talks about the "revolution" like Christians talk about the rapture needs to spend a year trying to organize their workplace. Anyone who sincerely talks about building a movement so vast and all-encompassing that it overwhelms all existing power structures needs the dose of humility that comes with realizing they can't even build a movement to get people paid better at a badly run AMC Theaters where everyone already hates the manager.

[afrostycatblr]

Having had COVID once (maybe twice, not 1000% sure) I just gotta keep telling myself:

However sick I am right now, I've been sick Worse

I still have a sense of smell and taste (lost a good portion of sense of smell with the ol 'Rona)

While I'm not getting better, I'm also not getting worse and that's good.

[vanglaggle-two]

too scared to post on main .

ignore this maybe

[problemnyatic]

executive dysfunction really is a complete fucking nightmare. all the decisions you could make, but you won't. All the things you know you should do, you want to do, but you won't. Yeah yeah we all know it's a symptom but it feels and looks like just.... deciding not to be responsible.

It's easier not to, so i guess I just won't. I promise it's not laziness, I swear. It's not me just giving up on things that affect more than just me, I swear. Maybe if I say it enough I could hope to believe it myself.

[dat2ndaccount97]

Not having room for dolls is fun. All this mess for just one photo I'm about to take. I hate having to keep all my dolls in bins (which are all pretty much full now).

[tommy2020]

I’m a boy and I kiss other boys.

I’m a boy and I was not born a boy.

I’m a boy and I use unconventional pronouns.

I’m a boy and I want to live as a boy.

I’m a boy and I want to be free to say that out loud.

I’m a boy and I want to live without fear of being hurt.

Just like the other boys.

My friend is a girl and she likes boys.

My friend is a girl and she was not born a girl.

My friend is a girl and uses she/her.

My friend is a girl and she wants to be called a girl, not a slur.

My friend is a girl and she should be allowed to live as a girl.

My friend is a girl and she shouldn’t be assaulted because she is a girl.

Just like the other girls.

My sibling is nonbinary and they like every gender.

My sibling is nonbinary and they were not born that way.

My sibling is nonbinary and uses whatever pronouns they feel like.

My sibling is nonbinary and wants to be perceived as a person too.

My sibling is nonbinary and should be allowed to choose what they call themselves.

My sibling is nonbinary and shouldn’t be shoved under the rug because their gender identity “doesn’t make sense”.

Just like other people.

WE ARE PEOPLE.

TRANS RIGHTS ARE HUMAN RIGHTS.

[tapeworrmart]

Crush my ribs

[miikpal]

for consumption

[hel7l7]

I get scared when things go right it feels like I'm waiting for it to go wrong again