#vent tw //

[infamouslydorky]

Why is it that people go out of the way to screw others over for monetary value? The value of a human being is bought for a few thousand dollars? Can life have more meaning than money and a struggle to survive?

[pwppydracula]

i just wish i wasn’t unlovable, this shit hurts so much idk if i can handle this anymore

[thecommunalfoolboy]

It’s crazy how many people just don’t understand why a lot of aro and or ace people don’t like that Alaster gets shipped. It’s not that hard to understand we don’t have a lot to let ourselves lose. I mean can you name 10 asexual characters? 5? Can you name two aro characters. There’s the guy from Archie who they made have a sex scene in a movie version. There’s a few books. I think a background character in Heartstopper? Do you see the theme here??? You’re all queer people, do you not get it? How it feels to have nothing? Is it so wrong to be upset that there’s finally an outwardly aroace person in popular media and instead of people embracing that they’re fighting on the internet about why it’s ok to ignore it? And I will never in my fucking life have anything against the people who are aro and or ace and portray him in THEIR experiences, even if it is a romance or sex favorable experience, but it is obvious that way too many of you guys are allo and it just leaves a bad taste in my mouth. I don’t even like him as a character that much, he isn’t even made by an aroace artist. The show isn’t even that fucking good, I just want to keep someone like me for once in my life. If there were a million other aroace characters I wouldn’t care, but it just hurts seeing erasure coming from my own community. It just sucks, man, I don’t know. It just sucks

[island-76]

It's so aggrivating seeing your health get worse while you're helpless to stop it

It's so aggrivating to have to adapt to brain fog when there was no fog a month ago

It's so aggrivating to deal with so much fatigue, when 2 years ago, you were so lively

It's so aggrivating to deal with all of this and find yourself slipping into anger more and more

To find yourself holding your tongue so you don't hurt those around you because you're tired and don't have the energy for it anymore

It's so unimaginably aggrivating

[finsrcool]

I was thinking of recovery but my pe teacher straight up told me I was getting fat, and my cheeks were getting round and how I lost weight before and I was gaining it back.Thanks for the m€anspo.

[citruscitrushope]

Also terfs trying to use pcos to push their ideas can fuck right off. Women with pcos's and transfems' experiences aren't exactly the same, but they're almost like a venn diagram. "It's truly something only biological women can understand" the woes over body hair? Body type? Voice? The constant feeling that you're not a "real girl"? The dysphoria? The disrespect from medical professionals? The feeling of otherness compared to other women?

You all claim "you can always tell", but go after women with pcos who don't shave. You scrutinize hormone treatments when they're key to helping us not have extremely painful periods or hate our bodies. You push rigid definitions of what it means to be a woman when being intersex throws all of them out of the window.

You're not for women, you're just against those who don't fit into your rigid gender binary and expectations.

[errrr-vent-blog]

god gives his siilliest schizospecs the woorst days of theiir lives every siingle dayy non stop.

[system-of-a-feather]

Honestly a skill that many develop that can be easily missed for those that grew up in abusive or neglectful home is the skill of "receiving / being taken care of" and I really dont see people providing advice or "explain it to me like Im a toddler because I am emotionally at or BELOW that level of understanding it"

And I know in a lot of trauma spaces, people struggle with learned helplessness and/or not knowing how to care for themselves; but I think its important to acknowledge how fucking HARD and confusing and difficult it is to learn - as an adult - how to receive care, attention, or help.

I find, from observation of others, its something that comes a lot more naturally and almost like breathing when someone offers or begins to help out and logically, I know it is easy to break down the steps to 1) someone gives help 2) you accept it (here we are ignoring the entirely other difficult skill of asking for help which is a whole seperate but related thing)

But its like... really not that simple, because even if you physically "accept" the help and they help you, thats only like the surface level application of the skill / concept and ugh

I dont really have the words for it atm and am mostly venting but man, 8 years of therapy and its still such a hard concept and skill for me to learn, apply and integrate into my life. I think - of all the skills I missed due to my trauma and upbringing - its the skill I struggle with the most

(open for anyone to add their two cents on)

[damagedcoda6669]

TW: CHILD ABUSE/NEGLECT

[cluster-b-culture-is]

Cluster b is hating Taylor swift for writing the line "you wouldn't survive the asylum they raised me in" and using electroconvulsive therapy imagery in her music video knowing full well her privileged ass hasn't actually gone through that like YOU have because YOU /WERE/ raised in a psych ward and /HAVE/ under gone electroconvulsive therapy and that's YOUR mental illness rep, not something for a privileged billionaire bitch to make an """""aesthetic"""""" out of.

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[pwppydracula]

damn it!! i hate being jealous!!!! i hate being so paranoid and anxious and overthinking everything!!!!!!!!!!

[green-alien-turdz]

ventin usin kyle again bcuz wtf else is new

tw; im hella suicidal rn, so this one is kinda grim. it sounds anti-recovery, but i am not. i am just very fucked up rn. warning for blood, sh scars, and implied suicide.

note: i feel i should say to not compare your struggles, scars, etc to what i draw. i dont aim to try n make people feel worse about themselves with these, i just want to vent. and if it helps someone feel less alone, then at least somethin good came from it.

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clearly i aint that serious. if i was id just take my dads gun offa his nightstand n get it over with. it sits right there. every time i put my parents to bed i catch myself just starin at it. but im a pussy. n i wanna see myself fade outta existence. one final fuck you to myself.

[can-of-pringles]

Random vent but I'm tired of people treating asexuality like it's a lesser orientation.. or assuming it's a phase

Even if someone realizes they're not ace there's usually a bit of relief in the feedback? Like why is realizing you're not ace viewed as 'omg thank goodness!' Like being ace is inherently bad.. 🤨

[infamouslydorky]

Well, I qualify for unemployment, but it'll only cover me for 2 months and is about 1000 a month, which is my entire rent. I know people have it worse than me since some don't have unemployment payment at all, but the fact that so many have to be in dire straits just to survive in this dumbass country is obscene. God. I'm just sorry people have to live like this at all. I hope somehow we all get to a better place

[b4st4rd-420]

[moralocdfromhell]

Does anyone else’s OCD make them feel like an absolute, total alien compared to everyone else. Everyone else is good, but I’m bad, so I’m like a wolf standing in a farm of sheep.

I feel like a wolf. Not a wolf in sheep’s clothing, just a wolf. Because everyone knows how I REALLY am, everyone knows I’m bad (but I have no evidence to back this up). All the sheep know I’m a wolf. And I often think that, wolves aren’t intelligent enough to know the extent of the harm they’re doing to their prey. It’s just food to them.

And they’re just friends to me. But to them, I’m some horrible, harmful, monster. I’ve dug into their flesh and eaten their bones, but to me they’re just my friends. I don’t know that I’ve hurt them. But they do. They know they’re being hurt. I don’t know what I did to hurt them, I just know that I must’ve or else why would I be feeling this way?

I’m

A

Monster