#unloving you

[steyrine-spieon]

Unloving you

I never fell out of love. I never thought of you differently. Our memories still remain in my mind, And I don't despise you for leaving me. I never fell out of love. But I've accepted the fact that you're gone. I know our relationship has ended, And I know for a fact that I've moved on. I never fell out of love. For my love was both genuine and true. Pure, innocent, love cannot be removed. But what's removed are my feelings for you. I never fell out of love. But I've moved on and I've healed since you left. I can't say I've unloved you, cause I didn't, But the fact that you're gone, I just accepted.

[sirenzserenity]

Unloving you..

Unloving you is so hard to do,

It's like trying to fight the rising tide

It's like catching the moon or

Telling the stars not to shine.

- Anson Seabra

[liriorachel]

Twelve hundred miles just so I could say, "I love you"

‘Unloving you’ by Anson Seabra is about the bittersweet emotions involved in a breakup. The main character is having trouble moving past his previous relationship with his partner, who has already moved on. During their long-distance relationship, he recalls the times he went above and beyond to be there for her and the times he traveled to visit her. But even though he understands that he must move on, doing so feels like an insurmountable challenge. He breaks down, pleading for assistance and expressing his loss of his companion.

The highlights are how things may get challenging after a breakup, when one side is OK while the other finds it impossible to move on despite all the effort made to make things work. The song is well-rounded by the dramatic instrumentals that support it.

On Twitter, Seabra posed a question to his followers regarding their favorite lines from the song. Fan responses included sentences that hit home for them. Seabra also shows off his songwriting prowess with a blend of sincere, from-the-heart expressions of words and metaphors that mirror his emotions.

[a-a-lost-munchkin]

I Can’t Help But Wonder

Odysseus, who just violently and mercilessly murdered 108 or so men, who claims in the next song that he’s no longer a kind or gentle man, actively listens to Telemachus and kindly and gently responds to everything his son’s expressed.

Telemachus asks, “Am I like you? Am I strong like you? Will you embrace me? Will you love and accept me as yours?” He says, “I’ve felt so alone.”

And Odysseus claims him in a heartbeat, answering, “My son. My boy. My sweetest joy I’ve ever known. I embraced you twenty years ago. I’d do the impossible for you. I’d die for you.” He says, “Seeing the men here today, I can only wonder what you’ve been through for twenty years. My son, you’re already strong. You’re my own. You’re not alone. I’m home.”

And then they fucking embrace.

[shadowtraveled]

"mithrun is the only real monsterfucker in dungeon meshi" is objectively the funniest bit you can get out of his everything, but in all seriousness i think his attraction to his love interest is deliberately overstated—and that makes sense, because romantic jealousy is a classic and digestible motive, which is explicitly what kabru was aiming for in condensing mithrun's backstory, and also because until chapter 94, mithrun wasn't willing to admit to the true nature of his desires.

but because romantic envy is both classic and digestible, it probably isn’t a unique enough or complicated enough desire to tempt a demon’s appetite. mithrun’s wish, as far as we can figure from kabru’s reduced retelling, was to have a life in which he had never become one of the canaries, and that carries like 3857 implications and desires within it. that’s delicious. his love interest acts as sort of a red herring to his motivation for making it, though. (side note: i'm saying "love interest" here because, keeping in mind that i barely speak japanese on a good day anymore, "想い人" is something i'd usually take as just kind of an old-fashioned and romantic way to refer to a lover, but in context i wonder if both the connotation of yearning and the vagueness are intentional, and i think this phrasing gets those aspects of it more effectively. anyway.)

mithrun considered his love interest to be untrustworthy. there was a minute where i thought that comment might be about a similar-looking elf (yugin, one of his squad members), but comparing the two…

the "sketchy" arrow is definitely referring to the elf we know as his love interest—the bangs go toward her right, she only has the one forehead ornament, and, most notably, her ears aren't notched.

every time she’s given a full-body depiction in his dungeon, she’s drawn as a chimera, with the body of a snake from the waist down. (side note: the “what if a dungeon has chimeras before reaching level 4?”/“then the dungeon lord is unstable” exchange just being mithrun grilling his past self alive is so funny. he’s so. but anyway) there are a couple things about this.

first, the snake part of the chimera appears to be modeled after some species of coral snake mimic

which, in the biology-for-fun manga, i… doubt is a coincidence, especially with the added context of the “untrustworthy” comment. the dungeon’s conjured illusion of mithrun’s love interest was a harmless copycat of a venomous original. for whatever reason, he felt this person was a threat and made up a "safe" version of her to be in a relationship with, and while it’s definitely possible to be attracted to or even love someone you find to be toxic and/or intimidating, when you take that into consideration alongside the configuration of her body, you get some interesting implications.

which brings us to our second point: if we assume that mithrun was not in fact fucking a snake, then sexual attraction, at least, was so far removed from his idea of a relationship with this person that he did not even bother to keep her dungeon copy human enough to maintain the illusion of the option of a sexual relationship. this is somewhat echoed in the depictions of their interactions, which also imply a frankly unexpected romantic distance. she kisses his cheek and he doesn't seem to react; she's at the edge of a narrow bed with only one set of pillows, on top of his blankets while he's underneath them.

the kiss is particularly interesting because it seems to contrast the text. kabru's narration tells us this was everything mithrun could have asked for, but mithrun is there looking unreadable to pensive, likely because this is right before the panel that makes it clear things in the dungeon are beginning to go wrong.

walking through this backwards for a minute, we have the physical barrier of his bedding and the spatial separation inherent in a bed made for one person, the emotional barrier of his mounting anxiety getting in the way of his ability to enjoy the affection he sought, and... the snake, which historically carries the connotation of temptation, yes, but also mistrust, barring physical intimacy. okay. ok. if a dungeon reflects the mentality of its lord, all of this might suggest that mithrun was not able to have any real desire for a relationship with this person. his unwillingness to be vulnerable or let another person in was insurmountable. but in that case, why was she such a focal point that she remained to the end, after his dungeon had stopped creating iterations of his friends to come and visit him? why would he get so upset over her meeting with his brother that he became lord of a dungeon about it?

well. mithrun's brother was also interested in her, probably genuinely. and mithrun had to win.

you have an older brother who your parents completely ignore, probably in part because he is chronically ill/disabled and almost definitely in part because he received a ton of recessive traits that resulted in rumors that he was an illegitimate child. you are aware, most likely because those same parents fucking told you, that you actually are an illegitimate child. but they keep you around because you had the good fortune of looking just like your mother. what can that possibly teach you but that you, like your brother, are disposable?

it's utterly unsurprising that mithrun, under these circumstances, developed a pathological need to be better than everyone around him. people don't keep you otherwise. i'd argue this is also why he says he looked down on everyone he knew while milsiril claims his dungeon reeked of feelings of inferiority—he sought out people's worst traits and prioritized them in his mind to protect his already extremely fragile sense of self-worth, and all the while he tried to be as likable and high-performing as he possibly could be. his parents disposed of him anyway, but even then he tried to keep up the performance. he was kind to everyone. he never once lost to a dungeon.

when he saw his "love interest" meeting up with his brother, what he saw was himself being replaced by a person his parents had always treated as worthless, and if that was what they thought of the child they'd kept, what value could anyone possibly see in the bastard they'd given away to die? mithrun and kabru tell the story like he wanted to win this unnamed elf's heart, but it was never about being with her. it was about cementing his worth, proving that he didn't deserve to be thrown away.

and so it's particularly cruel that his demon discarded him, too. but maybe it's also particularly gentle that, in the end, there was someone who refused to even consider giving up on him.

kui laid it out in three panels better than i could hope to.

yeah. it's love. you wanted to be loved, even when the only way you were able to understand it was through the desire to be wanted, and you wanted that so badly that the idea of being consumed felt like the promise of finally mattering to someone.

[duckysprouts]

dc injustice is messed up because they write such refreshing yet disgustingly awful takes on every single relationship and person. like how do u misunderstand the core of every character?? can only be consumed when removed from the context of all canon

anyway take 2 people make em obsessed yada yada hand in unlovable hand or whatever

[ysabellious]

you are coming down with me / hand in unlovable hand.

[mydairpercabeth]

violently sobbing rn

[morganbritton132]

Eddie posts a Tiktok like, “If you are interest in someone, do not tell my husband. Steve is the worst person to tell. All he does is judge you and then criticize them.

Steve, off camera: That’s not true.

Eddie: It is true! Grant just - Grant, can I tell people this? …Cool - Grant just told us that him and his ex-wife have been talking about getting back together. And that’s great! A normal person would say ‘that’s great, man.’

Eddie: Not Steve. Steve’s response was ‘the ex that can’t cook for shit or the one with the big tits?’

Steve: It’s a valid question!

Eddie: Stevie, baby. When Robin told you she was a lesbian, the first thing you did was criticize the girl she had a crush on

Steve: Yeah, because she was a dud

Eddie: And when I told I loved for the first time, you winced at me like I was making a bad decision. You asked ‘why?’

Eddie: And i didn’t even say it first! You already said it a week before!!

Steve: I just think that you should have standards

Eddie: I do!

[goldyke]

Zac is out here repping for all children of shitty parents

[loumandism]

armand is not categorically unlovable and the point of his story isn’t that he’s never experienced love from lestat or louis, the POINT is that he’s so deeply scarred by what love meant in the early stages of his life that he does not believe in love as a mechanism for healing and he lashes out because he doesn’t want to betray himself by getting his hopes up. ARMAND thinks he’s unlovable so he punishes anyone that loves him. and it’s honestly very fundamental to his story that this is not true, that he has a lot of positive traits that someone could yearn for in a companionship, but he just undercuts that so significantly and intentionally. it was most likely marius that instilled within him that no one else could love him, at least not in a gentle way, because something is broken in him. so what character or thematic analysis does it benefit when people relentlessly try to prove that louis and lestat never loved him, when that is textually not the case? when crew members from rolin jones to cast members like jacob anderson and assad zaman describe louis as having love for armand? when lestat is canonically obsessed with armand in the books? what purpose would it serve beyond cruelty to cut lestat’s requited feelings for him from the canon? why are people so insistent on that happening and armand being inherently undesirable and his meaningfulness to the loumandstat dynamic (the core trio of the series from the time of the books) being nothing but an unwanted, accidental stain?? there is so much intentionality and care with how he’s included in the story (not necessarily reflected by the marketing lol) and it’s disappointing to see people disregarding that so eagerly.

[dewwshi]

The people demand more Minlach. ( please more we are desperate and your art of them is so good 🥺🥺🥺)

🫡

my beautiful yuri... sooo critical to me that minthara 1. fell first 2. fell harder. something abt the idea of this self-avowed villain being utterly and inexplicably smitten with the sweetest nicest golden retriever girl in the world

[s-aint-elmo]

girl who has suffered more than alll-mer

(ID in alt text)

[passiveagressivepoet]

Tommy deserves an “I love you” straight to his face from Buck because lord knows Buck is incredible at saying everything BUT that

[lesbian-robots]

[sharonccrter]

I'll shut up; but only after I say this. Langdon being outed as an addict doesn't mean you can't like the character. If your mind goes straight from addict to bad guy, maybe we need to deconstruct that. And this isn't me saying he shouldn't face the consequences of his actions. But having an addiction doesn't make you an inherently bad person. It also doesn't mean you can no longer root for the character.