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i feel like folklore, evermore, and Midnights were extra aimed at us Midnight Rain Swifties and i am not complaining

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“you left me no choice but to stay here forever”

literally everything about this song kills me. i feel frozen. i feel like my entire life was spent trying to be what my mother wanted, trying to fit and twist myself into whatever shape it took to get any degree of affection from literally anyone. and now i’m two years out of that home. two years separate from any expectations. almost a month since i lost the only being on this planet i didn’t have to contort myself for. and i am so lost. in so many ways.

i don’t know how to connect to people authentically. i don’t know how to be someone’s friend. i don’t know how to let someone love me. i don’t know how to let me love me. i have no higher education, no way of making money to sufficiently support myself, and no way of taking substantial steps with the medical aspects of my transition. there’s just *so* much. and i have no one.

but i have me. and i have music. i have the songs that have kept me feeling human when nothing else did. and in a bit more than a week, i get to see Taylor on a Saturday night just outside of Boston. and i swear, if she plays right where you left me, i will breakdown right there in my seat. tho tbh there’s more than a few songs that do that to me but this one’s just be hitting me hard these past few weeks. just being all dark and twisty.

anyhow, welcome to i guess my public diary (if anyone reads this). i hope life is treating you well ✨🌸💕

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Not so friendly reminder that butches aren't all slim white tomboy girls with pixie haircuts.

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It’s so weird that I have so many posts with running fingers through hair, but I live in Africa in an African country where most girls’ hair is braided, so I can’t run my fingers through their hair. I mean, I’m dating someone whose hair I can’t run my fingers through, but they love head scratches and laying their head in my lap and light scratches at the back of their neck. And I just love these alternatives we have.

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kissing someone’s hand is such an underrated form of affection.

like that moment in movies when they kiss the inside of the other persons palm/wrist like i think id die on the spot.

i wanna be kissed like a drama princess or morticia addams <3

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I think it's hilarious and cool when trans people accessorize through gender-affirming tools... "oh this outfit would look killer if I packed" "actually, I think the vibes would be better if I didn't bind" "this is a tuck-less kind of day"

It's awesome if part of a trans person's self-expression is achieved through mixing or matching what gender-affirming garments they use 💛💛

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it’s only been five days and i still can’t understand that you’re gone. i’m sorry i wasn’t there for your past couple of years but i swear i still love you, sweet girl 💔✨🦋

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She looks so pretty driving in your Benz, lately she’s been dressing for revenge...

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She don’t start shit, but she can tell you how it ends.

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this might be my new favorite pic of her she’s THAT powerful

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sometimes i think about the fact that when taylor was sixteen she wrote "when you think tim mcgraw, i hope you think of me" and now there's an entire generation of people who know tim mcgraw best from her song

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In my Eras era. 💅

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Right to change legal gender in the Americas, 2013 vs Jan. 2023