#tw slight vent?

[jaybleu25]

anxiety sucks qwq

i want to play games with friends but at the same time im too scared to ask them because like. what if im bothering them and theyre in the middle of something super important or what if im sounding annoying or needy

and because of that most times i just end up joining a vc in our friend server hoping that someone just randomly decides to join because im literally just too scared of saying "hey does anyone wanna play something :D"

[scruffedknife]

smthng from a long while back when i realized how much i related 2 tissues-- ive been thinking abt it a lot again cause of how bad i've been feeling physically and i thought why not share. (+some other random doodle

[eroguro-angel]

Artist - mai (maika 04)

[willingcannibalvictim]

i’m an eldritch being in the way oobleck is solid when you punch it and liquid when you let it melt in your hands. i am eldritch in the way an idiom is. i am eldritch in the way you have a hole in your heart after losing something you love. i am eldritch in the way you get deja vu. i am eldritch in the way a way is. in fact, there was never an is to begin with. i am a god among men, or at least i wish i was.

[sunnys-aesthetic]

slight gore (censored) below!

how it honest to god feels to come across someone who just simply just doesn't pass the vibe check.

[wolfietoonzz]

Based on FUKOUNA GIRL by STOMACH BOOK.

[lesbianoms]

Having intrusive thoughts about being a fatal pred. Ugh it sucks. I need a hot MILF pred lady to put me in my place

[felixthelovingmachine]

my mother has discovered i sleep with my telescope and she has taken him from me.

she legit said “why are you sleeping with your telescope” and i said “idk i don’t” and she said “ok then let me see it”

she TOOK HOUSTON and MOVED HIM ACROSS THE ROOM

i think she’s anti-objectum or thinks i’m “too old” to have comfort items or smth along those lines.

anywho i’m going to get xem back

[pinktrashgoblin]

Howdy yall sorry ch 19 is taking so long. I am currently dealing with Hell Week™️ with my program before classes start. But I’m doing okay, should get back to work on it in the next few weeks. In the meantime take this Bill I projected my emotions onto, again (that’s the reason for the different hat. I’m projecting HARD.)

Also this shit. yeah blame the server.

[ikamigami]

I have to admit that I lost a bit of a passion to sit and write analysises for sams..

I still have a lot of asks in my inbox.. and I still have some ideas for posts.. and I still notice some stuff like with how Sun is in denial about his mental state and his issues in general.. how he's not talking how he feels or what he thinks about recent stuff with Dark Sun and Nexus and all that crap..

But when you get ridiculed and treated like a creepy disturbing fan because of how you used to analyze every detail of episode.. shit is exhausting..

I realized that I'm a bit tired..

It doesn't mean that I'm planning on leaving the fandom.. cause I still reblog stuff with other people's theories etc.. and I write my thoughts as well.. but this not feel the same..

But that's fine.. I mean now I see people saying that no one talks about Sun and his issues that much once again..

But well.. if you were treated like me solely because I was relating to Sun in more "dark" way.. and later that episode with Miku.. you also would probably just lose a bit of a passion..

I simply had fun with theorizing about Sun in different way than others.. but it was a problem for some people..

Like I said shit happens..

But I'm sorry for not answering these asks.. please send me your theories or analysises.. I'm happy to see them all :)

I'll try to get through these asks I promise QwQ

Please ramble to me about Sun cause I love him and I love reading your thoughts and ideas about Sun (⁠人⁠*⁠´⁠∀⁠｀⁠)⁠｡⁠*ﾟ⁠+

[junos-cacophony]

i just remembered i have to write some kind of report/essay for AP that’s due on like wednesday it’s fucking 12 am on a monday right now i can’t fucking sleep anymore fuck this why do you have to make me write it in the language i struggle at even though it’s my country’s language im gonna fucking explode thank FUCKING god it’s a holiday today

[dysfunctionaldogdude]

I could write an essay on how much I hate Vivziepop,

She's urgh, I hate her so much it's insane

Like bitch get out of my head I don't need to be obsessively mad at a numbnuts like you

Middleschooler who just learned how to cuss and pretends to be an adult online by constantly cursing sounding ass...

[anonymouscheeses]

*sigh* its too early for this shit you guys...

Context: in out for love Carmilla says "fuel your fear of losing that somebody who's your REASON to LIVE" which is pretty much just confirmation of suicidal Vaggie....

*sigh* looks like I'm gonna have to make chaggie angst oh boohoo whatever shall I do! /h 😔😔

But srsly this isn't too big of a surprise ngl. I think people misinterpret Vaggie's character so much, like yeah no kidding her being "just Charlie's girlfriend" is kinda the point. No I'm not saying it excuses Vaggie's writing, i have my own problems with it, but people don't think of the reason she is at all? Like. Charlie kind of saved vaggie from dying bruv, she's the only person vaggie trusted enough and who showed her genuine kindness. And ykno all the other exorcist stuff impacted Vaggie and her mannerisms. Adam is like the big daddy of the exorcist (💀) and they were specifically created TO BE killing machines. They likely depended on Adam alot since that was the only reason they were created, plus Adam is a freak so he probably used them as some sort of source for his own 𝓯𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴𝔂 pleasure... so yeah. No wonder Vaggie is suicidal, she doesn't see worth in her if she's not of use. I can feel that on a personal level and it kinda makes me pissed when people in hazbin rants dont mention that... not their fault tho ofc I just wish more people understood

She went from one person (Adam) to depend on and then another, Charlie.

Sorry for the not well put together rant, you can add some stuff you wanna say if u want. I did this in class so I'm kinda rushing it out 😭

[sunbeamah]

Hi everyone!

Firstly I'd like to sincerely apologise to everyone who follows me, and who's been waiting for an update on any of my fics. I made promises for chapters and posting times that I didn't keep, and I should never have made them when I was in such a shaky place.

It feels really silly to act like I'm a public figure or something, but I know many of you care about the fics I post and want to know if they'll be updated and whatnot. I'll put a heading below the cut for that specifically, so you can skip the first bit (explanation of what's been delaying said fics so much).

These past 2 months a lot has happened in my life. My parents got a divorce and I have experienced more betrayal, disdain and hatred from my father's side of the family than I ever thought possible. The same family that inspired me to write trouble in tokyo, the family who I love so much, has shown me once again who they truly are. I've experienced everything from violence to exclusion to just straight up being ignored, and I'm still a bit shaken from how quickly everything turned. I'm physically okay and safe now, and I'll heal emotionally.

I realise now that I was always an outsider looking in. My family is full of close-knit sibling groups, and I'm an only child who never quite fit. I was always too awkward, too different, too disappointing in the visual sense, to ever really fit in. They were all nice enough when we spoke one-on-one, so I thought maybe the reason why they ignored me and excluded me in group settings was because, though they loved me, they just loved or liked each other more. But I was just turning a blind eye to all the things they did because I wanted to protect. Whether that protection was for myself and my feelings, or my images of the people I felt were close as siblings to me, I don't know. But I understand now.

Families in my culture don't have to be blood-related. It's silly to forgive people of all their trespasses and put them on a pedestal just because you share a grandparent. I know all this, and yet here I am, still crying.

Updates on my fanfiction specifically

I still have many troublesome extras planned and half-written, and I will be finishing and posting those! The Kusozu brothers are a strong family with a genuine, unconditional love for each other that I still believe exists! I'm sure it's out there waiting for us all :)

I'm so sorry to everyone who's sent me an ask I haven't gotten back to yet, I sincerely thank you so much for sending them. I want to reply with a fic chapter for you all, and that's the only reason why I haven't responded.

The Butterfly Effect chapters I promised had to be scrapped. I will be writing better ones and hopefully posting them in a more timely manner.

The Cat!Yuuji au Nine Lives has 3 more works to come. They're short, silly little ficlets that aren't serious or heavy at all.

My many, many, many jjk fics unposted will start to be posted soon. I've got lots of inspiration and lots of emotional turmoil to write out, so please excuse me if it's something a little angstier.

[another-delta-lover]

I'm so fucking tired of everything and not everyone but most of the people istg

I just wanna sleep, forever

But when I say "sleep forever" I don't mean die, I just mean an infinite amount of rest were I can be in my comfort zone, ma bed

[lattedusks-mochadawns]

Goofy Wild Kratts Doodles from my sketchbook part 1

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