#tw organ mention

[oncewaskas]

hello, very very sorry to bother you, but, I have a few questions. i may not know much about you, but from what i do know, i'm not entirely sure if these questions may be triggering, or upsetting to you. anyways! how do your bones taste? and, what are your thoughts on your organs, insides, or any other various part of your body being eaten? thank you, and once more, i am incredibly sorry to bother you with this.

also:

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sincerely,

-the one who someone warned others against

i have never tried my own bones, but ill ask my mommy about it! ive eaten human organs but my own? i think my mommy ate them during my birth or something, ill ask what it tasted like!

[danandfuckingjonlmao]

nothing, and i mean NOTHING, enrages me quite like this message:

like alright?? and i wanna do it again!!!!! i wanna do it on every fucking chapter!!!!! what are you, a cop!!!!!

and that fucking smiley face…

i wanna punch that fucker. and the period before it like ohhhhh myyyy gooooddddd fuck off shut up shut up shut up. i spend an exorbitant amount of energy feeling hatred for that passive agressive motherfucker.

[mr-viwick]

I really feel like writing down some thoughts about Anya and how people criticise her for being a “bad” nurse bc I’m not too fond with how quick people are to judge her (and kinda adopt Jimmys view of her being incompetent)

Spoilers for Mouthwashing, tw mentions of SA and abuse in general

I think Anya not wanting to be the one to feed Curly his meds is more than understandable

Think about it in context, the scenes are so uncomfortable, we see nothing but we hear Curly choke and sob (and one time even get presumably beaten by Jimmy)

It’s like a parallel to Anyas own experience with getting assaulted by Jimmy, additionally with Curly being completely unable to do or say anything in his defence due to his extreme injuries

It’s a situation he can’t consent to but obviously doesn’t want, of course she’s gonna feel awful and nauseous as hell doing that, she knows exactly how that loss of agency feels

This woman is heavily traumatised AND in an unwanted pregnancy, I think she’s already doing more than she should on that ship

[bizlybebo]

anyways since it’s the holidays shout out to religiously traumatized people, people questioning their religion, people who just got out of their religion, people considering getting back into their religion, people who miss their religion even if it ended up hurting them, people who never practiced religion, people who have practiced religion their whole lives, and people who don’t celebrate christmas/celebrate other holidays because of their religon

and FUCK the mormon church

[torchflies]

Hi TG Fandom! 

I love giving Hangman a difficult family life, sometimes for more reasons than one. 😅🫡

Jake doesn't marry Bradley because of his family. He breaks up with the only boy he's ever really loved because he loves him enough to understand that they will be dragged into The Life, in one way or another. He doesn't want that for Bradley. 

When Giacomo Ferretti Jr, called Jake by his friends at school and Buddy by his family, was a little boy — he didn't know any better. He was a surprise baby, born ten years after the last of his six brothers; ten years after they stopped trying. So, when he was born, they gave him his father’s name and called him Little Buddy instead. 

He thought they were a normal family when he was small, that every father had a job he didn't like to talk about and that everyone’s big brothers started to go off with their father on special trips when they got big enough. He thought everyone’s father had a band of close friends who were like honorary uncles to their children, shepherding them to school and the park with a scowl on their face and a gun on their hip, hidden by their leather jacket. That everyone’s father had friends who would appear at the kitchen table in the middle of the night, blood soaking through their shirts like deepening sauce stains from dinner. 

“Buddy!” One of his uncles, Tommy, orders him. “Get a kit from under your Mama’s sink!” 

It’s the first night that Jake plays Patch-Up, but it’s far from the last. He gets his undergraduate degree in Human Physiology and becomes an EMT, long before he joins The Navy. If only to be of greater help to the soldiers he puts back together on the table where he eats his meals. 

It’s only when he's a teenager that his long-grown brothers sit him down and explain, properly explain, the rules of The Life. The one that they were all born into, but that they chose and the one that nobody wants him to join. 

“You don't need to be a part of this,” His oldest brother Enzo tells him, eyes turned hard. “Pop will keep you out of this and when Pop goes, I will. You understand?” 

Jake nods and they take him to the airport the very next day. 

Still, The Life is always there. It doesn't matter that he changes his name, or that he's a decorated naval aviator now; he will always be the Godfather of New Jersey’s youngest child, a massive target. 

Bradley doesn't deserve that life; that constant worry that someone will find out, that someone will break the laws that govern The Life and attack/hurt someone who isn't in it. 

So Jake never tells him, he just runs away. 

It’s what he's always been the best at, after all. 

[renae-the-turtle]

You know what, i was gonna wait to do this, because i had a plan, but...

Woe! Human designs be upon ye!

I couldn't decide whether to post these each separately with character descriptions, and space it out over several days, or if i should wait and digitize these first so the colours would be clearer, buuuut... i was putting it off too long, so imma dump them all at once right now, more than an hour past my bedtime.

Time will tell if i regret this in the morning or not.

There will be more character designs coming, of course, but these are just the ones I've drawn so far.

[xiiiwayfinders]

Xigbar: You know, studies show that keeping a ladder in the house is more dangerous than a loaded gun.

Xigbar: That's why I own TEN guns.

Xigbar: Just in case some maniac tries to sneak in with a ladder.

[moonfromearth]

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[whump-in-the-night]

Something a little different from my usual fare today, but I want to talk about an interesting whump trope for team whump, military whump, cults, secret societies, etc: hazing, humiliating/painful initiation rituals, etc.

Since this is very much something that can happen irl (I was in greek life in uni; personally I was never hazed and my organization took that very seriously, but I did see a frat get shut down for hazing), I'm going to list trigger warnings at the top, right here: TW: hazing, humiliation, mentions of drugs and alcohol, mentions of nudity, mention of cults.

whumpee is a new member of a team/group/organization. To "prove" themselves "worthy" of being in the group by doing something dangerous or humiliating.

The hazing could involve use of drugs or alcohol, like making whumpee drink or do drugs.

Or they could make whumpee do something humiliating like making them dress in embarrassing/skimpy clothes or go nude

Maybe it's a small group of members who are facilitating the hazing. Maybe it's all of them. Maybe the leader is the one who is pushing the hazing

Justifying the hazing by claiming it promotes team/group bonding

This can work great for military squads initiating new soldiers

Or also. Consider. Secret society/cult having dangerous and/or humilating initiation rituals whumpee has to go through to join. Whumpee really wants to join, but are they willing to do the messed up stuff the whumpers want them to do?

Or, cults using hazing to keep members in line.

[luxustextbox]

marly and larxene

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[chaos-of-the-abyss]

can't even tell the people who tried to rape and murder your daughter to go fuck themselves anymore. because of woke :/

[atherflame-theconcubus]

Yeah, I’m beating moon and Monty. Hold my shattered, twins and traveler I am going to rip their robotic intestines out.

A doodle of the ✨boy✨

[floortile34]

not sure if this is a hot take but school is extremely traumatic and needs huge reform. it causes immense damage to everyone who goes through it. no large-scale school system is exempt from this. this happens in all countries, not just the ones where it's worst. this problem's also inextricably tied to capitalism and neither can be fixed without also fixing the other

school genuinely breaks people (and others) with even worse being done to those with intellectual disabilities and neurodivergents and those with other psychiatric disorders

[circular-bircular]

(Want context for this post? Here's the full post that instigated this one!)

I've sent an ask to OP (as their pinned post said to) asking genuinely why my response was hidden. However, I find now that even my main blog (which was the only blog I could send an ask from) is now blocked as well. For those curious, I did forget to screenshot my ask before sending it, but I believe this is akin to what I sent:

Hello, This is circular-bircular. I was wondering if you'd be willing to clarify why my response to your post was hidden and why (I believe) I am now blocked. I've looked at your pinned post, and I am wondering if you consider me to be part of the groups you listed, or maybe you blocked due to my aggression, or perhaps something else? Feel no obligation to answer. Thank you for your time.

It's been frustrating, lately, how users on all sides of these debates refuse to engage with criticism of any kind. But I also acknowledge that it is nobody's job to engage with criticism. OP is in their rights to block, and I am not frustrated about that.

What I am frustrated by is the sheer amount of notes that post got, with not a single other person -- seemingly -- remarking on the ableism in many of the claims.

I want to be able to discuss these things and gain new perspectives. I want to be allowed to be angry and upset about ableism I see, and discuss that ableism clearly, and maybe even learn from others where the flaws in my thinking are. Instead, my responses are hidden, and I feel once more shunted into the quiet corner, never able to be heard, because clearly something I said was wrong -- but nobody sees fit to explain what.

The worst part being, that post was in the disordered tags. That post was in my home; my supposed 'safe space' (though I use that term very, very loosely). It wasn't even meant to be a syscourse post, with "syscourse" not even being originally tagged...

And yet.

In any case -- as the ability to view my impassioned response has been limited, I decided to make my own post, about all of the various thoughts that I have at the moment about everything. Time for yet another long ass post. Word count, ahoy!

Plurality, as we know it today, is a relatively recent term. Plurality formed alongside and well within the CDD communities, and came to be popularized as a term sometime in the mid 90s.

It was coined explicitly to distance from medicalized CDDs. Specifically, it was used by the coiner (whom I believe is the Vicki(s) but I could be mistaken in my timeline here) as an alternative to "multiple." However, many people simply used Plural and Multiple interchangeably.

Equally as important to this history is the fact that, around this same time, Astraea's Web reared its ugly head. Forgive my distaste; however, this is the basis of a lot of the harassment I have faced as a DID system. Astraea's Web is the source of the term "natural multiplicity," and dedicated itself to the idea that MPD was not a disorder at all. While this was more than likely a case of endogenic plurals trying to find a place in a highly medicalized environment, it came at the cost of severe ableism directed toward medicalized systems.

This led directly to the spawning of "survivor multiples" and "empowered multiples," with empowered multiples being the ones who were nondisordered, and survivor multiples being seen as lesser, weaker, and highly dysfunctional. This led to countless amount of pain and suffering for systems of any and all kinds: endogenic, traumagenic, CDD, plural, and anywhere between. The Natural Multiplicity Movement, which called for systems to boycott the DID diagnosis altogether, really kicked off in the early 2000s, and led to countless conflicts with medicalized systems who fought hard to be recognized with the disorder they had.

Therefore, the claim that the sorts of Syscourse Divisions we see in modern day -- pro-endo VS anti-endo, traumagenic VS endogenic -- is a problem unique to the last decade is false. This dichotomy has existed far longer than that. I still consider this a recent issue (it happened within my lifetime, sadly), but to say that it started with the change from MPD to DID is inherently erasing the history many systems went through. Again, on all sides; the ableism CDD systems faced was happening at the same time as the ableism endogenic systems faced. It was just different breeds of the same problem.

Now, it is correct to state that endogenic as a term was not popularized before 2014; it was coined that year by a system by the name of Lunastus Co (then the Trashcan Collective, if I recall correctly). While I have certainly been vocal about my feelings regarding the term endogenic, they really don't have a place on this post; it suffices to say that endogenic was popularized to indicate non-trauma based plurality at that time. Similarly, traumagenic was popularized to indicate trauma based plurality at this time.

As an aside... reading the post I've found on the coining of endogenic, it's something I genuinely love. It's an unfortunate circumstance the commonalities endogenous and, well endogenous (Freud) share, but overall, I'm supremely jealous I'm not an older system who got to experience the joy of the endogenic community, and instead experienced so much hate.

This did create an uproar in the community, with quite a large division between traumagenic and endogenic systems. Similar to when any label is created, to be honest. The term endogeinc was very clearly meant to replace natural/healthy multiplicity, as the terminology was seen as offensive to traumagenic systems striving for recovery, indicating they were somehow "unnatural." This created even further divisions and divides between communities, something I believe Lunastus has lamented in recent years.

The claims against endogenic systems are numerous; as are the claims against traumagenic systems. As the dichotomy has always been, seemingly, Disordered VS Non-disordered and Trauma VS Non-trauma, it became easy to classify every struggle under that lens. That is where my history in syscourse comes into play, where I was fakeclaimed repeatedly, but moreso by endogenic systems, simply due to being traumagenic.

I was told repeatedly that saying I had DID was ableist, because DID was coined by an ableist man. This has already been debunked -- here's the most recent debunk, done by our lovely pluraldeepdive, as always. I was also told repeatedly that I couldn't have DID, for many reasons: because I was born rich, because my parents loved me, because I owned a freaking gamecube of all things. All of those to say: Endogenic systems frequently told me I was not traumatized enough to have DID.

Don't worry -- anti-endos don't get cut slack here either. Being told "if you really had DID, you'd be put in a mental hospital and raped repeatedly by the staff" certainly did not help me get confidence in reaching out to my life-saving therapist.

But the fact is, I was harassed more my endogenic systems and/or pro-endo systems than by traumagenic and/or anti-endo systems. The fact that I was harassed by any of them is already sheer ridiculousness.

Alright -- why the trauma rambling? The point here was, the ableism I faced, simply for being openly a DID system (mind you, who identified as pro-endo at the time) is still running rampant today.

Reading through LB Lee's two essays that were linked on the original post (at the top of this ramble), I was shocked to discover the same rhetoric I had been faced with repeatedly in all my years of syscourse. That traumagenic VS endogenic is an "internal pecking order so as to feel superior to each other" (rather than origin labels many use as liberally as LGBT+ labels). That disordered multiples "have a culture of overly deferring to their healthcare team: never making a move without asking the doc’s opinion, treating therapists as their parent replacements, relying on their shrinks for things they should really learn to do themselves, such as taking care of their internal children" -- this idea that all traumagenic systems are completely dysfunctional and unable to care for themselves. Continued onto the next lines immediately with "I met multiples who had been in care for decades, never improving, never seeming to learn any skills, but still absolutely enamored of their brilliant therapist (who they apparently couldn’t function without). These weren’t children either; these were people old enough to be my parents or grandparents!" This constant idea that you can examine someone else's systemhood and determine if they are healing "correctly" or not...

"I have seen no indication that traumagenic multiples, actually want to do those things, despite all their blathering about ableism."

This ableism comes from somewhere. The ableism I "blather" about has a source.

Sigh.

I don't have the energy to go through all of the article again, but it's heinous. It was horrifically offensive to me, even if I DO agree with many of the points it made! And that's likely because I have seen the same rhetoric over and over and over again, used against DID systems.

And it is still used consistently today.

As recently as the past 4 years, one of the OSDDID subreddits -- a meme one I believe -- completely combusted because some people made memes that were against endogeinc systems. Yet again, more syscourse bullshit. One of the moderators posted a big long ramble about how all anti-endos are just experiencing "traumagenic embitterment." This idea that all traumagenic systems who hate endogenic systems are just bitter to see "someone else doing better than them." I see this take frequently in plural and endogenic tags.

As recently as last year I saw endogenic systems calling for the removal of DID as a label entirely. Don't believe me?

Abolish all diagnostic terms! They're harmful!!

<- Is a system who feels most comfortable identifying with diagnostic terms.

As recently as maybe 4 months ago, I had to convince an endogenic system that saying RAMCOA was just "trumped up Satanic Temple bullshit" and was often "moral panic" was horrifically ableist. This was while another endogenic system bemoaned how they "couldn't believe anyone could ever do something so horrible" as RAMCOA.

As recently as last month, a friend of mine was rewriting an article about fusion, the original wording of which is firmly against final fusion and demonizes it. Said friend has repeatedly been called a sysmed for... defending final fusion and the ToSD for CDD systems.

As recently as yesterday, I was working on my debunk of a Power to the Plurals article that someone sent me in April, one that depicts the ToSD as inherently ableist and bad because... reasons? Mind you, the ToSD is the most prominent theory of how DID forms.

And then, as recently as today, I am trying to explain to someone who posted in the dissociative identity disorder tag with tags that I agree with, with points that I agree with, why the post they made about the "Bible of Psychiatry" was ableist and offensive. What a shame they've blocked me and likely will not be seeing this post, continuing to be ableist elsewhere.

All in the name of activism.

Ableism against DID systems is alive and well. I wish people would understand that. I wish people would see how pitying me in the plural spaces I'm in comes off as infantile. I wish people would see how "debunking" the most prominent theories and healing methods of DID is only hurting those of us who do align to them. I wish people would be willing to acknowledge the hurt they cause more readily.

And I wish that, as a DID system, I didn't have to become a historian on endogenic as a term, as a community, and as a personal source of pain.

Does this all make sense?

[mitchelf-citadel]

I wish I were a bird

There are those who consider their closest friends people that were never born.

I wonder, does watching the everyday lives of those that don't exist heal the rot in one's heart?

...

Or does the dissonance between real and fake lives merely accelerate the decay?

Azumanga Daioh x Nirvana

[thedndgoblinwholivesinyourwalls]

@oneinchfrog Me when the church is alive or something

Uhhh meant to draw Evelyn but the drawing ran in a Dianne direction so. have this!! Everything but Dianne is just a collage and a fuck ton of layers so yeaghhhh