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maybe i should just make a pinned post instead of having such a long.. uh.. description? autobiography section? no idea what it's called

anyway i wanna be hivemind cause really cool

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internet neebs more parallel play :(

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we need like a unicode update solely for characters to make better emoticons

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u know wen somn is just really really cool and awesome and rad and u just wan bake thon into bread and eat thon or put thon into a glass box for observation or affectionately immolate? very feeling

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i dont wanna stop being manic pls i hate it when my emotions are mild and controllable and not exhautingly overwhelming

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i need to stretch my upper mandible muscles. i need to stretch those muscles that move the upper mandible. i need to BUT THEY'RE NOT THERE i need it i need it i WHY DO I FEEL THEM when theyre not there i feel them i need to make them stop itching and gshshabsnsgansbhssnndndmfmf i need to snap off pieces of my skull and peel flesh until i can reach those muscles and remove them why do i feel them why why why why why why i would love nothing more than to see my face torn open my nasal cavity exposed from the wrong side my upper mandible disassembled

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i'm such a good little puppy. i deserve to stay home all day. no responsibilities pls

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yall know the when go up like 3-5 stairs in each step? very rad, very cool, very powerful feeling. if ur physically able to do that, do that

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There’s this pit of frustration I feel sometimes when other trans people say we aren’t obligated to teach anyone anything about ourselves and like, sure, the word obligated sure is scary and heavy and burdensome but guess what. So is dealing with everyone else’s fuckin RAMPANT ignorance. I don’t know how to say this in a way that doesn’t make it sound like I’m telling you to chuck yourself into the hate crime grinder but if someone asks you questions, even stupid, even offensive ones, who else is there to answer or correct them? The other ignorant cis people? Like I’m sorry folks but we don’t live in times yet where we get to be lax about how educated other people are about us. We won’t for a long long time. We can stay angry and we can stay loud and by god we’ll be proud, but we can’t afford not to talk about ourselves.

I feel this as strongly as the things I feel about sex ed. But there’s no course out there that sits you down in school and tells you about trans people. About transition. Sex ed already sucks as it is. If we don’t teach people about ourselves, who will? Trained doctors who are allowed to prescribe the medications I take don’t know the things I can teach average joe about myself in half an hour. I think… I think even when you pass so well no one knows a thing about you being trans, you still have an obligation, YES, an obligation to do your part in scrubbing out the ignorance you come across day to day. And when you see some transphobic shit you gotta speak up. And when someone says something clearly because they just didn’t know any better, you gotta speak up. We do not yet live in times where we can afford ignorance about our community. We’re all so fuckin tired of the bigotry and the questions and arguing for our rights. But we can all push it back together and by god it’ll get easier, one day, if it won’t be today.

You wanna protect trans kids? Don’t let them suffer the ignorance that we ourselves are strong enough to eradicate.

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in addition to beatboxing, started making lil growly barks. so doing amazing in terms of vocal stims

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im gonna search for inspiration aka do sumn else aka procrastinate aka skip class and get drunk in the restroom

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interesting whenever the attention overtakes, then need to do the attention for hours until the mind and body are utterly exhausted and incapable of attentioning anymore and brain feels like gone through sandpaper marathon. just interesting. intesting lil thingy. just a cool little death spiral. mmm. well anyway attention is calling again

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keep living for the revolution. keep living for the resistance. keep living for tovarishi. keep living to spite those who want you dead. your continued existence is the greatest act of rebellion.

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genuinely no idea how anyone can shower without sitting. is it not normal for standing in the shower to feel like horrible torture??

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im sorry for disliking moths :(

theyre cool but they make me feel umcomfy

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me when th i nem dndnddnsnss ugh i wanna kiss a computer and cuddle and feel the warmth against my face and mmfbh take it everywhere with me and show it places and like omg make it my best friend backpack it around like a big friendly brick fuff i really wanna

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amazing how first we push people through the trauma machine, and then we drop them into slavery. wonderful!