#tw depressive disorder

[flameohotfamily]

hiii, do u think Mai would make a good fire lady? Do u think she would want to be ? And do u think she would be happy with that life or she’ll want to do something else?

i love your love for maiko, u have a nice vlog!!

hii, thanks for the sweet words <33

uhh it's a tough question you're asking anon. but i do love thinking about mai and her emotions because she's such an interesting and sometimes confusing character. i think she might've made a good fire lady since she is from a noble family and has good education, plus her father was a politician so i think she has enough knowledge and understanding. she's strict, she's sharp, she's witted... she looks like a ruler and imagining mai in royal clothes like a fire lady is my jam.

the question is would she really want to? i don't think so.

in the series mai's life was quite complicated, it was proved by cricket leigh (mai's voice actress that is a therapist now) that mai had/has depression disorder. we saw mai as a person prone to apathy and boredom but i think it was a coping mechanism. i have this huge headcanon in my head where mai is fighting depression, finds herself again and things that are making her feel alive and joyous (and it has nothing to do with zuko or ty lee or people in mai's life). fire lady's position is definitely not mai's priority. i think she would've hated to do all of this.

maybe healed and emotionally mature mai could've become a fire lady but i don't think it would've been her genuine choice. she would've done it purely for zuko, just because she loves him and always stays by his side and doesn't want him to struggle so she helps him to rebulild and fix broken to the core fire nation. but honestly she would've just changed one cage to another, the golden one, zuko's cage. maybe she would've willingly done so.

i think mai as a character has so much depth and vulnerability. even if she becomes a fire lady, she wouldn't be just another silent addition to the fire lord. i think she'll always want to do something else.

[emotionaleating]

when someone doesn’t wanna tell me what i did wrong and suddenly i’m 8 years old wondering what i did to make my mom mad again

[rainywhispersblog]

[commonzinnia]

death isnt enough. i need to never have existed

[vixensofdeath]

I am so tired and burnt out, I don’t even know what I’m doing anymore

[sleeplessv0id]

maybe in another universe, I can ask for help when I need it.

[to0needy]

i thought i was gonna be dead before i turn 18 and now im 24 and have no idea what im doing with my life

[la1npilledg1rl]

“have you ever just cried because you’re you”

[blownawayy]

i thought it was hard, i knew nothing

[professionallyunstable]

i wish i was a dinosaur. no stress, no work, just extinct.

[emotionaleating]

[rainywhispersblog]

[commonzinnia]

maybe i wasn’t meant to be loved

[hiraethforthebetterme]

nothing changes. nothing gets better. no one changes, and no one simply cares. all you can do is accept and try to stay alive.

[psychobulimic]

I was a fucking idiot to think things would get better!!!

[maarlena]

Idk if thats a bpd or a me thing