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[sleepysystem-blog]

reminder to osdd 1a and 1b systems - you're valid and real for existing. assholes may say you aren't 'real systems' but please, don't listen to them. you're real. your trauma is real, and your brain worked to protect you.

this post is about osdd systems. do not derail with syscourse or anything related to transcdd/transdisabled.

[distortedidentity]

How I forced myself to dissociate, a guide for trans/severiDissociative beings

For me, dissociation has always come in "levels." I think, if I hadn't set things up in the order I did, it would be hard for me to dissociate the way I do now. I want to walk you through those levels, and offer some insight as someone who's been dissociating for 4+ years at the time of writing. Of course, everything on this list will be much easier for you if you're chronologically younger (neuroplasticity), and/or under persistent stress. Though, neither of those things are strictly necessary

For @kenochoricgardens. Supreme yapping below the cut

Derealisation

The first layer is derealisation. For me, the easiest thing to do was always detaching from the world around me. Derealisation is the experience of dissociating from your surroundings. I think it's a good jumping off point. The key to achieving derealisation is looking at how cis beings experience derealisation, and trying to "convince" yourself that you are also experiencing it

Cis beings tend to have a foggy perception of their environment while derealising. Some things I see frequently reported are a slowing/warping of time, muffled/distorted audio, and hazy or "far away" visuals. Some beings say their perception of size and depth skews, others say they feel as if in a "dream" or as if experiencing fiction rather than reality

Of course these are all more metaphors than real physical experiences. It isn't hallucinating, these examples are just meant to illustrate how your perception distorts. Even while derealising, beings are aware that what they're experiencing is a matter of perception, even if they're confused by what is real or fake in the moment

The easiest way I found to convince myself to derealise was by repeating affirmations. I know it sounds corny, but it is an easy way to will your brain into tricking itself. When I first started out, I repeated phrases such as "I am dissociating, this is really it, I'm detaching from my surroundings, what is real?" etc. For me it helped to really lay on that feeling of confusion. While you might not experience genuine derealisation the first time, it's the kind of thing you have to do every so often for it to actually kick in

Depersonalisation

Depersonalisation is the experience of dissociating away from yourself. Your sense of being, your own body, your emotions/thoughts, and even your memories. Cis beings tend to report a disconnect from their body when they look down, or an inability/difficulty to recognise their face in the mirror. They may experience their thoughts, emotions, and/or memories to be much harder to reach than usual, or separate from/"foreign" to them. They may feel numb towards pain, or unable to process it in the way they normally would. Cis beings tend to describe it as perceiving their own experiences from an outsiders point of view

Again, be sure to pull out those affirmations and keep in mind that this is all metaphorical. Some of my affirmations when I was starting out were "who am I? Who's body is this? I can't quite recall what I was thinking.. Are these memories mine?" and similar. I'd also recommend trying to "forget" the fact that you exist. Try to detach from your thoughts and your ability to discern that you are thinking. Try to lose track of your identity perception

Despite the fact that you should really try to layer most of these steps slowly, I do actually think you would benefit from doubling depersonalisation up with derealisation (unless you really only want one or the other). I'd wait until you have a bit more experience with the latter, though. Dp without dr is like a girl without a joystick an angel without it's wings /ref. In my opinion tag teaming your lack of dissociation is an effective way to alleviate it

Dissociative Amnesia

Level 3, dissociative amnesia. Dissociative amnesia is fairly self explanatory. Dissociation based amnesia. It usually happens in order to protect the brain from a harmful event/period. You don't really need steps 1&2 to get here, but it certainly helps.

Dissociative amnesia comes in many different forms. You may not be able to remember specific events, you may not be able to remember larger periods of time. You may even find yourself losing significant memory on the daily if you struggle with persistent stress. It also comes in different intensities. Some beings experience a total wiping of the memory/memories, whereas some beings can retrieve their memories with some effort

Choosing to induce dissociative amnesia is difficult, because it's so context specific. Unlike dp/dr it's not something you can repeat affirmations to whenever. Even if you don't have any particularly negative memories, you could still pick a certain memory/time period and refuse to think about it. Though I will say it's most effective when used as a coping mechanism to avoid bad things, as is any form of dissociation

If you do find yourself remembering, you could berate yourself for it. This was most helpful to me, because it gave my brain something negative to associate with the targeted memories. If you're not looking for a negative experience with dissociation, this might not be the best step for you though

Fragmentation

The final boss of voluntary dissociation, identity fragmentation. I don't really understand this as well as other forms of dissociation, but it describes the breaking down of identity into "parts". CDD systems are famous for it, but people with BPD and singlets with (C)PTSD also experience it to lesser degrees.

In systems, parts tends to look more or less like separate consciousnesses/people with their own wants, needs, and opinions. I'm less educated on BPD and PTSD, but it is my understanding that while fragmented, the parts are more facets of the being they belong to, rather than separate consciousnesses.

While I am fragmented, my fragmentation isn't at the level of cisplurality. I was able to achieve this after a year or so of practicing derealisation, depersonalisation, and dissociative amnesia + repressing aspects of myself. I understand that this seems like a very lengthy process, but I hope that your transition can be quicker with your intention, as mine was accidental.

I started by cutting off parts of myself. I convinced myself that they weren't real, that I wasn't really like that, etc. You could do the same. You could also berate yourself for displaying traits of the part you're looking to dissociate from, though again, this isn't strictly necessary if you're looking to have a non-negative relationship with dissociation. Something that will dramatically increase dissociation between your parts is thinking of them less as "parts", and more as psychological objects separate from you. Or, if you're aiming for plurality, assigning them a completely different identity

Final thoughts

In conclusion, affirm constantly. All brains are capable of dissociation to some degree if placed in the right conditions. I understand how slow and tedious transitioning can be, but over time you will begin to notice changes. If it helps, fake it till you make it, even to yourself. Pretending is another form of affirmation. My biggest piece of advice is to use these tips as coping mechanisms. That's typically what dissociation is. I hope this is useful for you. Good luck with your transition!

[honeycomb-hotel]

𓎟𓎟 C!RANBOO ALTER PACK .ᐟ

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 NAMES – ranboo, ran

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 AGE – ageless (mentally 17)

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 PRNS – he / they / boo / glow / void

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 GENDER – masc-aligned, endergender, dreamthing, clouvoidic, etherigender

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 ORIENTATION – bisexual, male-pref

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 TRANSID – hallucinations, glowing, perma2020, lockdownera, minecraftheart

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 PARAPHILIAS – 💥, 🐊, 🩸, 🩹, ⛓️, 🤯

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 SPECIES – enderman-human hybrid

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 ROLES – caregiver, caretaker, memori

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 SOURCE – c!ranboo ; dream smp

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 PERSONALITY – a friendly and loyal person most of the time, constantly hesitant to do anything that may harm others. although he is generally helpful, his horrendous memory requires him to write everything down. it's hard for him to keep or remember secrets unless they are written. he struggles to admit when he has done wrong unless forced to. whenever he is close to showing any sort of emotion, whether sadness, anger, or something else, he suppresses it as much as he can.

[syunkiss]

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[sleepysystem-blog]

Wake ups!

(pt: Wake ups! end pt)

Wake ups are things that get an alter's attention, but not enough to fully front/co-front - rather, the alter would be co-conscious. The alter may stay and make comment on what "woke them up" for a time. For hyperfixation holders this might be anything related to a fixation, for instance. Wake ups can be both positive and negative.

(Example from my own experiences: Zoey is a fixation holder, sourced from the Left 4 Dead series. She hasn't fully fronted as of when I'm coining this, but she tends to be "woken up" whenever anything related to our fixations/special interests [especially her source series] is mentioned or talked about.)

(No DNI on this term in regards to syscourse; follow your own. TransDID/TransOSDD and other radqueers do not use this.)

[sleepysystem-blog]

Detectives!

Detectives are system roles that can serve multiple different purposes, all of which are related to finding things or solving mysteries. In the inner world, for instance, a detective role can work with memory managers and holders to locate a specific memory. Outside the system, a detective can front to help the body (and/or alter(s) with high amnesia) retrace the steps and circumstances they are in, and gain awareness of their situation.

This role and name were inspired by the so-called "detectives" of the Persona series (specifically Junpei Iori, Naoto Shirogane, and Goro Akechi from Persona 3, 4 and 5 respectively. We have fictives of all three and all of them use this role).

(This term is syscourse free and can be used by anyone regardless of syscourse stance; this term is not for radqueers and "transX" people.)

[honeycomb-hotel]

𓎟𓎟 DRACO MALFOY ALTER PACK .ᐟ

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 NAMES – draco malfoy

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 AGE – 18

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 PRNS – he / they

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 GENDER – masc-aligned , snakegender , spellcastic , stormcomfic

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 ORIENTATION – bisexual, no pref

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 TRANSIDS – none

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 PARAPHILIAS – none

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 SPECIES – human

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 ROLES – academic , anchor

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 SOURCE – draco malfoy ; harry potter

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 PERSONALITY – confident and arrogant demeanor along with fear and uncertainty. reluctance to commit fully to any orders given to him, coupled with distress and hesitation. feels trapped, still grappling with the consequences of choices made by his family in source

[honeycomb-hotel]

◟ ender / scream  !!

build a headmate / alter packs ; introjects only

—  trisplural sys, any prns, ug submaker, transid, chrono 14 (main acc: @jiraikomori)

—   this account provides headmate/alter packs for alter creation for any type of plurality, with a particular focus on introjects. i 100% support transID and paraphilias.

—   i will do almost any source. below, you will see sources that are top priority, but you can still ask for others besides these.

—   dream smp, genshin impact, project sekai, scream franchise

template if you’d like to use , feel free to just give a character and let me go crazy:

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 names –

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 age –

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 pronouns –

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 gender –

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 orientation –

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 species –

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 cisID –

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 transID –

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 paraphilias –

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 roles –

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 source –

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 common outfit –

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 favorite music –

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 personality –

[honeycomb-hotel]

can you do yae miko? from genshin? ^_^

𓎟𓎟 YAE MIKO ALTER PACK .ᐟ

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 NAMES – yae miko, yae

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 AGE – 500+

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 PRNS – she / they / fox / rose / spark / electric

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 GENDER – fem-aligned , magifoxgender , foxdeity , electrogender

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 ORIENTATION – hypersexual lesbian

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 TRANSIDS – landmine , cuteharmful , negative-outlook , fangs

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 PARAPHILIAS – 🪦, 💐, 💰, 🏓, ⚰️

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 SPECIES – kitsune fox spirit

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 ROLES – gatekeeper, emotional guardian

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 SOURCE – yae miko ; genshin impact

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 PERSONALITY – playful, mischievous, and cunning nature. often exhibits a teasing demeanor, and enjoys making witty and sly remarks. despite her playful exterior, she is wise and perceptive, with a deep emotional understanding of other people around her. she carries herself with elegance and poise, blending her light-hearted mischief with a sense of duty and responsibility.

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 ART CREDIT – official genshin art

[honeycomb-hotel]

Would it be possible for a goodtimeswithscar introject based on any or multiple series

𓎟𓎟 GTWSCAR ALTER PACK .ᐟ

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 NAMES – scar , clockwork

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 AGE – 27

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 PRNS – he / they / clock

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 GENDERS – masc-aligned , steambattic , steampunkcoric , fallecelestic , vibrantpaintic

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 ORIENTATION – asexual biromantic , fem pref

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 TRANSID – nullsadness , permapitied

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 PARAPHILIAS – N/A

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 SPECIES – human

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 LOREKEEPER – lorekeeper

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 SOURCES – c!goodtimeswithscar ; third life

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 PERSONALITY – upbeat and positive personality. hes charismatic and engaging, often able to bring joy and humor to conversations. scar tends to be a source of inspiration and motivation for others. even with challenges, he is able to maintain a lighthearted and optimistic outlook.

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 ART CREDIT – applestruda (tumblr), computerfighter (twt), unknown

[honeycomb-hotel]

︵⠀SMALLISHBEANS ALTER PACK .

⠀request // posted by mod ender .

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 NAMES – joel, river, reed

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 AGE – 27-35 -> 19

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 PRNS – he / they / fern / flower

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 GENDERS – masc-aligned , plantgender , mossgender , forestthing , craftsgender , minecraftgender

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 ORIENTATION – omnisexual , male pref

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 TRANSIDS – age (19) , sevanemia , hated , permadissociated , cane-user

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 PARAPHILIAS – N/A

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 SPECIES – human

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 ROLES – sexual holder, anger holder

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 SOURCE – cc!smallishbeans ; youtube / c!smallishbeans ; limited life

︵⠀ᡣ𐭩 PERSONALITY – vibrant and entertaining personality. very witty and often injects humor into any conversation, easily making light of challenging situations. he is competitive but not overly serious, enjoys striving to win and simply having fun. enthusiasm and positive attitude make him a likable friend & asset to the sys, easily collaborating with others, demonstrating his friendly and cooperative nature.

i only know a little about source, sorry if this is incorrect!!

[kenochoricgardens]

this was very thorough. thank you for writing this

How I forced myself to dissociate, a guide for trans/severiDissociative beings

For me, dissociation has always come in "levels." I think, if I hadn't set things up in the order I did, it would be hard for me to dissociate the way I do now. I want to walk you through those levels, and offer some insight as someone who's been dissociating for 4+ years at the time of writing. Of course, everything on this list will be much easier for you if you're chronologically younger (neuroplasticity), and/or under persistent stress. Though, neither of those things are strictly necessary

For @kenochoricgardens. Supreme yapping below the cut

Derealisation

The first layer is derealisation. For me, the easiest thing to do was always detaching from the world around me. Derealisation is the experience of dissociating from your surroundings. I think it's a good jumping off point. The key to achieving derealisation is looking at how cis beings experience derealisation, and trying to "convince" yourself that you are also experiencing it

Cis beings tend to have a foggy perception of their environment while derealising. Some things I see frequently reported are a slowing/warping of time, muffled/distorted audio, and hazy or "far away" visuals. Some beings say their perception of size and depth skews, others say they feel as if in a "dream" or as if experiencing fiction rather than reality

Of course these are all more metaphors than real physical experiences. It isn't hallucinating, these examples are just meant to illustrate how your perception distorts. Even while derealising, beings are aware that what they're experiencing is a matter of perception, even if they're confused by what is real or fake in the moment

The easiest way I found to convince myself to derealise was by repeating affirmations. I know it sounds corny, but it is an easy way to will your brain into tricking itself. When I first started out, I repeated phrases such as "I am dissociating, this is really it, I'm detaching from my surroundings, what is real?" etc. For me it helped to really lay on that feeling of confusion. While you might not experience genuine derealisation the first time, it's the kind of thing you have to do every so often for it to actually kick in

Depersonalisation

Depersonalisation is the experience of dissociating away from yourself. Your sense of being, your own body, your emotions/thoughts, and even your memories. Cis beings tend to report a disconnect from their body when they look down, or an inability/difficulty to recognise their face in the mirror. They may experience their thoughts, emotions, and/or memories to be much harder to reach than usual, or separate from/"foreign" to them. They may feel numb towards pain, or unable to process it in the way they normally would. Cis beings tend to describe it as perceiving their own experiences from an outsiders point of view

Again, be sure to pull out those affirmations and keep in mind that this is all metaphorical. Some of my affirmations when I was starting out were "who am I? Who's body is this? I can't quite recall what I was thinking.. Are these memories mine?" and similar. I'd also recommend trying to "forget" the fact that you exist. Try to detach from your thoughts and your ability to discern that you are thinking. Try to lose track of your identity perception

Despite the fact that you should really try to layer most of these steps slowly, I do actually think you would benefit from doubling depersonalisation up with derealisation (unless you really only want one or the other). I'd wait until you have a bit more experience with the latter, though. Dp without dr is like a girl without a joystick an angel without it's wings /ref. In my opinion tag teaming your lack of dissociation is an effective way to alleviate it

Dissociative Amnesia

Level 3, dissociative amnesia. Dissociative amnesia is fairly self explanatory. Dissociation based amnesia. It usually happens in order to protect the brain from a harmful event/period. You don't really need steps 1&2 to get here, but it certainly helps.

Dissociative amnesia comes in many different forms. You may not be able to remember specific events, you may not be able to remember larger periods of time. You may even find yourself losing significant memory on the daily if you struggle with persistent stress. It also comes in different intensities. Some beings experience a total wiping of the memory/memories, whereas some beings can retrieve their memories with some effort

Choosing to induce dissociative amnesia is difficult, because it's so context specific. Unlike dp/dr it's not something you can repeat affirmations to whenever. Even if you don't have any particularly negative memories, you could still pick a certain memory/time period and refuse to think about it. Though I will say it's most effective when used as a coping mechanism to avoid bad things, as is any form of dissociation

If you do find yourself remembering, you could berate yourself for it. This was most helpful to me, because it gave my brain something negative to associate with the targeted memories. If you're not looking for a negative experience with dissociation, this might not be the best step for you though

Fragmentation

The final boss of voluntary dissociation, identity fragmentation. I don't really understand this as well as other forms of dissociation, but it describes the breaking down of identity into "parts". CDD systems are famous for it, but people with BPD and singlets with (C)PTSD also experience it to lesser degrees.

In systems, parts tends to look more or less like separate consciousnesses/people with their own wants, needs, and opinions. I'm less educated on BPD and PTSD, but it is my understanding that while fragmented, the parts are more facets of the being they belong to, rather than separate consciousnesses.

While I am fragmented, my fragmentation isn't at the level of cisplurality. I was able to achieve this after a year or so of practicing derealisation, depersonalisation, and dissociative amnesia + repressing aspects of myself. I understand that this seems like a very lengthy process, but I hope that your transition can be quicker with your intention, as mine was accidental.

I started by cutting off parts of myself. I convinced myself that they weren't real, that I wasn't really like that, etc. You could do the same. You could also berate yourself for displaying traits of the part you're looking to dissociate from, though again, this isn't strictly necessary if you're looking to have a non-negative relationship with dissociation. Something that will dramatically increase dissociation between your parts is thinking of them less as "parts", and more as psychological objects separate from you. Or, if you're aiming for plurality, assigning them a completely different identity

Final thoughts

In conclusion, affirm constantly. All brains are capable of dissociation to some degree if placed in the right conditions. I understand how slow and tedious transitioning can be, but over time you will begin to notice changes. If it helps, fake it till you make it, even to yourself. Pretending is another form of affirmation. My biggest piece of advice is to use these tips as coping mechanisms. That's typically what dissociation is. I hope this is useful for you. Good luck with your transition!